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Everything is shit.

2016-05-17 · 9 min

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    Shit. Why did I come here?

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    I just can't, can't do it.

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    There's just so many people down there.

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    And there's just so many people and they

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    just become so loud and noisy,

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    and I'm just sitting in the corner playing

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    on my phone, waiting for

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    someone to talk to me, but no one's gonna

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    talk to me. Why would anyone talk to me?

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    I don't even— I don't even greet people

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    when they walk past.

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    I probably look really unfriendly.

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    Maybe I look a bit scary.

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    I don't know what to do.

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    It's just so difficult, so difficult

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    trying to talk to people. I don't know

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    what to say. I just become

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    so nervous. There's this stupid American

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    guy who keeps singing. He keeps singing

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    the same song over and over. And then he

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    plays it on his iPhone on loudspeaker in

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    the kitchen. And that stupid song stuck

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    in my head. It's like, da da da da

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    da da da da da. Oh,

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    shut up.

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    And there's

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    like a group of girls, they look like—

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    their accent's American, but they don't

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    look white. They're like Hawaiian or

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    Filipino or something. They're so fat.

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    At lunchtime, They were eating a whole jar

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    of peanut butter and chocolate spread.

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    No fucking wonder they're so fat.

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    What do I do? What do I do? I have

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    to go downstairs because there's no

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    internet in my room.

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    But then if I go downstairs, I'm just

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    like— I feel like—

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    I don't know, I don't know.

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    I get it now. Privacy.

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    I think I've changed. I didn't used to be

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    like this. I used to— I

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    used to want to talk to everyone and

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    become everyone's friend. I didn't pick

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    out who I wanted to talk to or who I

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    wanted to be friends with.

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    But for some reason I changed. Now,

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    now I find it 10 times more difficult to

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    interact with people,

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    and I don't know if that's because I

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    don't want to interact with them,

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    or if I'm using that as an excuse not to

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    have to interact with them because that's

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    easier. It's easier for me to just sit

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    there and not talk to anyone.

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    It's the easy option.

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    I don't know if I can stay here for 3

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    months. This is the 4th day and I'm

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    bored out of my fucking mind.

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    There's no one here that interests me,

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    that I think, yeah, I want to be their

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    friend. I don't want to be their friend.

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    They're not the kind— I just don't click

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    with them. Yeah, I know you can say I

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    don't even know them. I haven't even known

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    them for more than 4 days.

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    But sometimes you can just tell straight

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    away if you're gonna get on with someone.

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    What am I doing here? Why did I come here?

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    Everywhere I go, I'm not happy.

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    I'm bored at home. I'm bored here.

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    I don't know why I thought it would be

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    different if I came here. I guess you

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    can't really escape your problems that are

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    in your head. They follow you around

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    everywhere you go.

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    Oh, there's one piece of good news today.

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    I found this downstairs. It was just lying

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    there, so I took it.

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    I think it was in the free-to-take area,

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    so I think it's okay. I don't know. You

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    should just leave your chocolate lying

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    around if you don't want it to get

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    pinched. It was pretty good chocolate. It

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    was like caramel. I ate most of it.

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    Ah, tastes pretty good.

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    Free stuff always tastes good.

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    Um.

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    I tried doing some drawing. I tried to

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    make a comic, but it didn't work out very

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    well. I'm pretty good at drawing faces,

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    but when it comes to drawing poses and

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    like a comic book scene, I get really

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    lazy and I get fed up and I just end up

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    giving up. If things are too difficult or

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    take too much time, I just end up giving

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    up most of the time. I just don't have

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    that patience for commitment.

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    I want the easy way out, the easy way of

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    doing things. I don't want it to be

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    complicated. I don't want it to be

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    time-consuming. That's why I can never

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    stick to one thing.

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    Pretty shitty day today.

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    Played a lot of Hearthstone, watched

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    YouTube. I did actually talk to a few

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    people, so I guess there's that.

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    I don't know, just feel really confused

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    right now.

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    Confused. What, what am I supposed to be

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    doing? Why am I

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    here?

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    What time

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    is it? It's 10:40 PM.

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    Should I go to bed? It's kind of early.

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    It's not like there's much else to do

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