I'M ONLY HUMAN

Hey, so I just wanted to make this video

to talk a bit about the Tinder video I

made last night. A lot of people didn't

like that video. There were a lot of

dislikes on it, a lot more than usual,

and a bunch of people actually

unsubscribed to the channel. I'm guessing

they were unhappy about the fact that I

have a girlfriend and at the same time I

was looking for girls on Tinder to meet.

And I just wanted to make this video to—

not to try and make excuses or to try and

justify what I did, I just want to try and

explain why I did what I did. Why is my

mushroom lamp off? I swear someone keeps

coming into my room and turning it off

when I'm not here. Jeez, I can't get any

privacy in my parents' house. So, um, for

the last week or so, my girlfriend has

been really cold to me. We've hardly been

talking. Every time I try to speak to her,

she just replies with like 1 or 2 words,

and she doesn't even add the little I love

you heart sign emoji on the end of

sentences anymore. She used to do that all

the time, and now I get nothing. I don't

get any heart emojis at all. All, and I

just felt like, where's the love gone? It

feels like she doesn't love me anymore.

I don't claim to be this perfect person.

I make mistakes, I have weaknesses and

flaws, maybe more than the average person,

but I don't claim to be some kind of

morally righteous person who always makes

the correct decision. So since my

girlfriend was treating me so coldly and

being so distant. I started to feel really

lonely and kind of abandoned, and out of

the desperation, I turned to Tinder, and I

just started swiping right on pretty much

everyone. And someone else also swiped

right on me, which is extremely rare, and

she seemed really interested in talking to

me and seeing me, and I really enjoyed the

attention she was giving me. It kind of

felt like she was filling the void that my

girlfriend had left, so I decided to go

and see her. I wasn't really seeking out

like a sexual encounter. Sure, if she was

really attractive and she asked me if I

wanted to have sex, I would have found it

really difficult to refuse that offer.

But then I feel like most men would also

find it difficult to refuse that offer. I

guess I was just looking for some kind of

social interaction to replace what I used

to have with my girlfriend. Even though

nothing sexual happened with that girl, I

guess I did kind of cheat on my

girlfriend. If my girlfriend was also

meeting up random guys in Japan using some

kind of dating app like Tinder, I would be

really angry, really pissed off, and I

might actually end the relationship

because I wouldn't be able to trust her

anymore. So I can understand why a lot of

people felt like I was cheating on my

The thing is with relationships is if you

don't feel satisfied with your partner,

it's very hard to resist the temptation of

going to look for someone else who can

satisfy those emotional or sexual needs.

If I felt 100% satisfied with my

girlfriend, then I wouldn't go onto

Tinder, I wouldn't look for someone else,

I would stay loyal to her. But the problem

is, recently I don't feel emotionally

satisfied with her. And that's one of the

difficulties of a long-distance

relationship. When you stop talking to

each other, because there's no physical

aspects of the relationship, it kind of

feels like the other person has just

disappeared. It's like they've stopped

existing. It feels like they don't care

anymore. And I think that I've just

completely misunderstood and overreacted

about the whole situation. It's not that

she doesn't care about me or that she

doesn't love me anymore. It's just that

she's really busy and she doesn't have

time to talk to me much. That's all.

Right now it's spring break in Japan and

her daughter's at home all the time, so

she has to plan things to do. She has to

plan things with her mother and her sister

so that, that there's someone there to

look after her daughter when she's at

work. And she's just been really busy and

stressed, and I haven't been helping the

situation by moaning at her and talking

about things that she doesn't really care

about. And actually, we spoke on the phone

last night for about 20 minutes, and I

told her that I felt like she was being

cold to me and it felt like she was

ignoring me. And she said that she wasn't

ignoring me or she wasn't trying to be

cold to me on purpose. She's just been

really busy. And I just feel so

embarrassed and kind of disgusted with

myself because I reacted to the situation

so immaturely and I nearly cheated on her

with another girl just because I was

feeling insecure and lonely. And this is

why most of my relationships have failed

in the past, is because I get really

insecure and lonely, and then I lose

control of my emotions, and I kind of lash

out at my partner, and then things start

to go downhill from there. I guess what

I'm trying to say in this video is that

I'm only human. I have weaknesses. I don't

believe that there's a perfect person. No

one's perfect. Everyone has their own

problems and their own flaws and

weaknesses. And if you don't want to watch

my videos anymore, if you don't like me

anymore, if you, if you want to

unsubscribe, I completely understand that.

And I guess I just want to say sorry that

I let you down, that I disappointed you.

If you're a young person, don't look up to

me because I'm a terrible role model. If

you want to know how to screw up your

life, then yeah, watch my videos, but

don't copy anything I do because you'll

just end up screwing up your own life.

I'm a walking disaster of a human and I

don't deny that. So the trip to Japan is

still on. I'm not cancelling the trip. I

actually feel pretty good about everything

in general. Everything with my girlfriend

is fine. I've kind of gotten over the

issue that I was having before, and I will

be making videos when I'm in Japan. I'm

not quite sure what kind of videos I'm

going to be making. I really don't feel

comfortable vlogging in public. I feel

kind of embarrassed, a bit silly talking

to my camera in front of other people.

So, um, if there's no videos after I've

left, that means that my plane crashed

into the sea and I died. I'll never just

stop uploading videos without announcing

it. If I do suddenly stop uploading

videos, it means that I've died, or I'm in

hospital, or I'm in prison.

Mmm, everything tastes so much better when

you're drinking out of a cup that has your

own face printed on it. Asian men scared

of Asian women. Telling them what to do.

They don't last long. Very rare.

Asian women more like feel pity.

No matter how they stick together, happy

or not happy, they still stick until the

end. No choice. Then they know Asian men

don't know how to make love. They run

away. They think dirty.

Asian men don't do all the dirty job.

They think bad luck. Do you know any

couples, Asian man and white woman? What?

Do you know even one? There is,

but you don't know any?

I saw them last time. You don't know where

we go? Oh, you wasn't here. Now me and Dad

Restoration Man just sit there and cry.