people suck...

Hey, so recently something happened that

kind of pissed me off and I wanted to talk

about it. Do you remember back in 2020

I made a video about my GAY experience in

Japan? And in the thumbnail there's 2

Japanese guys. On the right side of the

thumbnail is the guy who did the thing to

me, and on the left side of the thumbnail

is the guy— well, he doesn't have anything

to do with the story, he's just the guest

house manager and he just happened to be

in the photo that I used. And just a quick

history lesson on who the guesthouse

manager is. He used to be friends with

benefits with my ex-girlfriend that I

dated back in 2014, also known as the

chlamydia girlfriend. I met her at the

same guesthouse that he was the manager

of, and he was basically sleeping with

her. And yeah, there's kind of like

awkward beef between us. And yesterday the

manager guy messages me completely out of

the blue, and I haven't spoken to him

since I left the guesthouse back in,

what, 2011 or 2012? So we've been friends

on Facebook because as I just added a

bunch of people when I was at the guest

house, but I never messaged him once in

like 12 or 13 years since I left that

guest house. And then he just suddenly

messaged me out of the blue yesterday,

and my instant reaction was, oh God, what

now? This is weird. He doesn't usually

message me. I bet he's found out about my

YouTube channel. So he starts off the

message very plainly.

Daniel,久しぶり. No punctuation, no emojis,

no emotion, nothing. And I think, wow,

that's a very cold greeting. I bet I know

what he wants. By the way, just saying

someone's name followed by hisashiburi

without any exclamation marks or a little

elongated thing or no emojis or anything

instantly tells me that this is going to

be like a serious talk. And my gut feeling

was right. He sends me another message

saying that he found out about my YouTube

channel and he asked me to change the

thumbnail in the GAY video, which has his

face in it. And at first I thought, okay,

I guess I could change his thumbnail.

It's not really a big deal. But then he

ends the message in a way that kind of

annoys me. He ends the message with

shoujiki iyanakimochi shita, which

basically translates to something like,

to be honest, it made me feel

uncomfortable, or it made me feel grossed

out. Iyanakimochi is basically the

opposite of feeling good. I guess

depending how you interpret it, it could

mean something less offensive, maybe

something like, oh, it just made me feel

uncomfortable, or I didn't really like the

way it made me feel. But to me, it sounds

like I felt grossed out. Like he feels

grossed out that I used his face in a

picture in a video that's on my channel

that's about, you know, a GAY experience.

And then he ends the message with another

slap in the face with yoroshiku

onegaishimasu. And if you're a beginner

learning Japanese, you might be thinking,

well, wait, doesn't yoroshiku

onegaishimasu— isn't that just like a

polite way of requesting something, or

something you say when you meet someone

for the first time? And yeah, technically

よろしくお願いします is like a polite way to request

someone to do something for you, but it's

also a very cold and formal way of

speaking, and it's the way you speak to

someone that you're not really close to,

you're not really friendly with or friends

with, you're just kind of strangers. And

yeah, I know we're not friends. I'm not an

idiot. We haven't spoken in like 13 years.

We haven't sent a single message to each

other in 13 years. I don't think we're

friends, but if you want me to do

something for you, then you should at

least word things a bit better. I really

hate being told— there's 2 things in

Japanese that I really hate being told.

Number one, it's nihongo jōzu, which means

your Japanese is so good. And number 2,

it's yoroshiku onegaishimasu. And it just

feels too formal and too cold. And instead

of sounding like a request, it sounds like

an order, like he's ordering me to do it

and expecting me to do it. In English, it

would be something like, oh, can you take

down this video? Thank you very much,

full stop. Or much obliged, full stop. It

just sounds very harsh and very cold,

especially with the Full stop. If you were

just saying it casually, you just say,

"Oh hey, can you take down this video?

Thanks." So I just didn't really like the

tone of the message, and I didn't like the

way he said he felt grossed out just

because I used his picture in a video.

What is he grossed out about? That I used

his picture in a video that's about a GAY

topic, or that I used his picture and now

his face is kind of associated with my

channel? Because that's what pisses me off

a lot—is when people complain to me,

contact me complaining that I use their

face. In a thumbnail or a video and they

want me to take it down. You have no idea

how many people tried to contact me or

contacted me warning me that if I don't

remove the video, they're gonna take legal

action or they're gonna report the video

or they're gonna do this and that. And it

just really pisses me off because if it

was any other YouTuber like Chris Broad or

someone big and they found out that their

face or picture was used in a Chris Broad

video, they would not be telling Chris to

take the video down or remove the

thumbnail. They'd be celebrating it.

They'd be sharing it to their friends

saying, oh, hey, look, I'm in Chris

Broad's video. Wow, that's so cool. I

can't believe it. That's amazing. But when

people find out that they're in my videos,

one of my videos, they're not happy at

all. And they're actually kind of— they

show disgust, like they're disgusted and

repulsed at the idea of having anything to

do with me or my channel. And do you know

how that makes me feel? It makes me feel

upset and angry and hurt. There's nothing

wrong with my channel. My channel is not

like some kind of horrible hive of scum

and villainy. It's not going to like

disgrace your social reputation just

because I use your face on a video

thumbnail. Nothing is gonna happen to you

just because you're in one of my videos.

You think, oh, your life is ruined now,

I'm associated with Daniel Lord and his

disgusting YouTube channel. Grow up!

Nothing's gonna happen. What are you

moaning about? What exactly is so bad

about having your picture on one of my

video thumbnails from 3 years ago? Is it

'cause you're homophobic? Is it because

you don't like the idea of someone

thinking you might be GAY because you're

in the picture of a video that's about my

GAY experience? And if that was the case

and you just told me that you feel

uncomfortable with people thinking you

might be GAY, which I don't really know

why you care so much about, why are you so

ashamed? There's nothing wrong with being

gay. If you just said that instead of,

oh, I feel grossed out, then I would have

been more cooperative. But because you

said you were grossed out and made me feel

like you're repulsed at the idea of being

on my channel, which I don't really see

why people are so upset with it because I

think my channel is pretty cool, to be

honest, then maybe I wouldn't be feeling

so upset. I just get really triggered when

I see how unhappy and upset people are

when they find out I've made a video about

them or I've used their picture for

something. Because if I found out Chris

Broad put me in one of his videos, I'd be

honored. I'd be so excited and I'd be so

happy. And the fact that people don't feel

that way when I'm using them in my videos

and it's like they hate me. They seem like

they look scared. They're scared that I'm

going to have some kind of negative impact

or effect on their personal life or the

career life because their face is now on

my videos or associated with my channel.

And I just don't get it because I just

don't see how your face being on one of my

videos is going to affect your personal

life in any single way. I mean, 84,000

people have already seen that video. It

was posted back in 2020. No one really

sees the video anymore because it's old.

I don't get any more views on it anymore.

So taking down your face from the video

now It's kind of meaningless because the

people who have seen the video have

already seen his face and they've probably

forgotten it by now. So I don't know why

he's so fussed about it. And I'm pretty

sure over the last 3 years there's been

zero impact on him because he didn't even

know about it until now. So how did it

even affect him? It didn't affect him in

any way. So I blocked him because I was

upset and I didn't reply. But he, he

actually reported the video, filed a

privacy complaint. So I have 48 hours to

now blur out his face and change the

thumbnail. So So if you want to quickly go

and watch the video now to see it before I

have to— I mean, I've already blurred it.

I started the blurring process, but the

thumbnail is still there. I have 48 hours

until I have to change the thumbnail or

else the video is going to get deleted.

I've met quite a lot of people over the

last 12 or 13 years, ever since I started

going to Japan, staying at guesthouses. I

met a lot of people who I thought at the

time were friends and I added them to

social media. And it really saddens

me and upsets me that not a single,

not a single person that I met over the

last 13 years in Japan and other countries

has messaged me just casually saying, hey

Daniel, what's up? How's it going? Do you

want to hang out again? Oh, I'm in the

country you're in. Do you want to hang out

again? You know, nothing like that. No one

has ever just hit me up saying, hey,

what's up? The only time people that I met

in the past at guesthouses or other

places, the only time that anyone has ever

messaged me has only been for one reason.

It's because they found my YouTube

channel, they found out I made a video

about them, or I used their picture in

some way, and they want me to take it down

and they're unhappy. Not a single person

found my YouTube channel and said to me,

oh, that's cool, Daniel, you're doing

YouTube. I didn't know. That's, that's

really awesome. No one has ever said that

to me. No one's ever said, well, it's

really cool Daniel has a YouTube channel

and that's, that's how he lives his life,

that's how he makes a living these days.

No one, not a single person has

congratulated me. Even when I make a nice

video not saying anything mean about the

person, they message me when they find out

about it and they either block me or block

my whole family like Victoria did.

Remember Victoria? I made a very nice

harmless video about her, about how I had

a crush on her when I was a kid, and guess

what she did? She blocks me and then

blocks my whole family and also gets her

family to block my family. How childish of

people. Victoria, Chris Broad also

messaged me when he found out I made a

video about him. Asking me to take it

down. People only reach out to me or do

something or remember me when they want to

get rid of me. When I became a YouTuber

and I was finally able to financially

support myself just by doing YouTube, it

was the happiest time of my life. It was

the happiest day of my life. And when

I finally became a YouTuber, I felt so

proud of myself because For the longest

time, all I ever wanted to be was a

YouTuber, and I thought other people would

be happy for me and would be proud and

congratulate me. But it seems like not a

single person thinks it's cool or thinks

it's a good thing. In fact, instead they

think it's bad and I should stop it and I

should just delete my channel and get a

job and get therapy. I feel like I

achieved my biggest dream in life But then

everyone around me is just disapproving

and not happy about it. And I just don't

get it because I think being a YouTuber is

the coolest thing in the world. And I know

not everyone thinks the same, but that's

how I feel. I thought that when people who

I used to know in the past, like 5 or 10

years ago, 15 or 20 years ago, I thought

when they found out that I'm a YouTuber,

they would think, wow, that's really cool.

And they would be impressed. But no, the

opposite happened. And instead, when they

find out, they seem to be disgusted,

repulsed, or they just laugh at me. It

just reminds me of back when I was at

school. No one wanted to be my friend

because I was always picked on, and it

seemed like they were scared that if they

hung out with me, they would also get

picked on by everyone else. So they

avoided me. People don't want to be

associated with me or be on my channel

because they're scared it's going to

negatively impact their own lives, even if

maybe they secretly kind of like me. They

know because people are not dumb and they,

they're socially smart. People know that

the rest of society might not like me or

dislikes me, so they're very cautious.

Sometimes I even get messages from viewers

who are fans and they say they love my

videos and they think I'm funny and cool,

but then they also say, I don't want to be

filmed, I don't want to be on your

channel, I don't want to be in a video.

And that just really confuses me. You mean

you like me, but then you also don't want

to be on my channel? What are you so

scared of? I thought when I left school,

life would change and everything would be

different in the real world, in the adult

world. But what I've come to realize is

the adult world is basically just the same

as school life, but 20 times worse.

Really, adults are not that different to

how children are. They bully, they tease.

They're scared of things that could affect

their social reputation. Just the same as

it was back in school. But just, you know,

everyone's bigger. They've got different

sounding voices. They've got beards.

Well, some of them do. I just feel kind of

sad and disappointed in people. I feel sad

that none of the people I met over the

last decade during my trips to Japan and

stuff, none of them thought I was cool

enough or fun enough to, to want to carry

on being friends with. Or to carry on

staying in touch with or keep in contact

with. Not a single person.

No one cares about me. No one likes me.

And that, that actually hurts a lot.