Why i came back to Youtube

Testing, testing, testing.

Okay, I think I'm ready.

Turn the fan speed down.

Facecam?

Mm, no, maybe later.

I just had a shower.

Facecam,

600 likes.

Nipple stream,

uh, 1,000 likes.

Did you see Sam shouting you out on Ice

Poseidon stream?

Yeah, I saw it.

He messaged me before he was gonna meet

him if I had any questions for Ice.

I asked Ice, why do you think Chihiro

wanted to fuck you?

And Sam asked him on stream I got the clip

of his response on my Instagram.

It was funny.

Just as I thought, she didn't really say

anything.

It's just he thought the way she spoke was

flirty or something, which is weird

because I never saw Chihiro speak in

English and seem like she was flirting

ever.

I don't think Chihiro even knows how to

flirt.

Sam was like, why do you think Chihiro

wanted to fuck you?

And he was like, oh, she was just being

really nice and being weird when she

spoke.

That's just because her English sucks and

she was pretty nervous and awkward.

I kept telling you guys, Chihiro's English

is bad.

And then when When I had more viewers,

they kept saying, oh, shut up, Dad, you're

better than your Japanese.

Or they kept saying like, oh, Chihiro,

your English is so good in the comments.

And then she was also an English teacher

at a kids' school, and she was also in the

top class in her English school.

But her English was not that great.

So even Ice said he found it difficult to

understand what she was saying.

Most people do.

People kept saying I was lying or making

it up.

I don't lie about stuff.

Maybe it's rude, but I just say what I

honestly think.

And Chihiro's English was not great.

It's okay.

I mean, it's better than a lot of my

ex-girlfriends, but that's not saying much

because my ex-girlfriends all sucked at

English.

That's why I had to learn so many

different languages.

Like the Korean ex-girlfriend, her English

was so bad.

I had to learn Korean, otherwise it was

just going to do my nut in trying to

communicate with her.

Everything I said was true in the past,

like not a leech, how much money I made.

About tax, about Chihiro's English being

bad.

What happened with your Thai girlfriend?

Uh, she's at work now.

She's not back until 10, so I've got 4

plus 8— I've got 12 whole hours to hang

out on YouTube.

Do I actually know Korean?

Yeah, I learned Korean so I could speak it

to a pretty good conversational level.

I struggle to understand K-drama or the

news or TV stuff.

I can't really follow the story or the

plot if we have K-drama on and the subs

are in Thai.

It's too hard.

We watched a few K-dramas in the previous

apartment.

And I didn't really care about it because

I really hate K-drama.

I can't stand K-drama.

All the screaming and shouting.

I swear every scene is just like a load of

Korean people shouting at each other or

crying.

It's like a woman crying.

K-drama just triggers me so much.

But there's something about a woman and

then she gets a load of money and then she

runs away to Singapore to closed down bank

accounts.

I don't get it.

Then there's like this evil CEO man

and like a girl who draws pictures.

It was so boring.

I hate K-drama.

Best dramas are American, like Breaking

Bad, Better Call Saul, Game of Thrones,

Walking Dead.

America has some great TV shows.

I can't think of one K-drama I thought was

really good.

Maybe there's a couple movies that are

okay, but no, TV shows are bad in Korea.

Consider making a collab with Shay.

Shay would be like the least likely,

likely person to collab with me.

Shay is the guy who jumps onto freight

trains and then just hitchhikes on the

back of trains across Siberia or some

crazy stuff.

I want to get a nice hotel with good

internet and just play some video games

and get a girlfriend.

I don't do anything that Shay does.

He like climbs up scaffolding and

abandoned warehouses.

Am I single again?

No, I've still got a girlfriend.

Why don't you read my comment?

Uh, okay.

Stop talking about Chihiro.

No, I'll talk about whoever I want to talk

about.

Whenever I want to,

for however long I want to.

And if you don't like that, well, that's

just tough, because there's nothing you

can do to make me stop.

From why I'm quitting YouTube to why I'm

back on YouTube.

Yep.

I said if I got 500 or 400 likes, I think,

or 320, then I might decide not to quit

YouTube.

And as a man of his word,

the people voted.

Holy shit, you're alive.

I sure thought you'd gone out in

coke-fueled shootout.

Why do so many people say that?

Why do people think I've got nothing to

lose and I'm just gonna go on a shootout?

My life is great.

Got money, I got comfort, I got a

girlfriend.

Why would I want to end it?

My life's pretty better than most people

here.

If you got a job, then my life is better

than yours by default.

Ice said he wants to meet you again.

Really?

I only watched a clip because someone

clipped it, but I didn't see the entire

conversation.

I don't think they talked about me much,

maybe just a few minutes.

I don't think I'd meet Ice though because

he's gonna leave Japan around the time

that I go to Japan, and I don't think he

would come to Thailand.

I don't know how he would do streaming

outside in Thailand.

It's so hot.

It's like 40 degrees, blazing hot.

It's lagging like crazy.

What is there to lag though?

The screen is just text.

Do you mean the sound's lagging?

Do you mean the sound?

No, sound is fine.

Do I have air conditioning?

Yeah, we got 2 air conditioning units.

But I don't really use it because it's

quite cool inside of the apartment.

The building faces away from the sun, but

she puts the aircon on during the night,

which is really annoying because I wake up

in the middle of the night freezing.

And then she has to turn it off because

it's too cold.

Why doesn't she just put the temperature

slightly higher?

Sometimes she's really hot and then she

puts the aircon on, and then sometimes

she's cold.

And she has it off.

So recently she's been kind of cold

and she's been wearing like a cardigan,

which looks weird wearing hot clothing in

this country.

Tico Sam is in a hospital now.

Really?

Why?

I wasn't able to watch the stream

yesterday because my girlfriend was home.

I had to pay her attention.

I watched a bit of it here and there.

I think he's just sleeping now.

He's only got— oh,

he's got 7 hours.

Wow, where did that 7 hours come from?

So he's got this timer counting down to

zero on his livestream.

And the idea is if it reaches zero, he's

going to end the stream.

But if he gets a donation of $1, he'll

extend it by 1 minute.

Last time I checked, it was 4 hours.

Now it's 7 hours.

How much can we pay you to go to America?

Oh, thanks, Irony High.

I don't think I would ever go to America.

I would need at least really, really good

guarantees that a really cute girl was

going to have sex with me.

So if an American girl messaged me and she

was actually very cute and she could

somehow guarantee that we would sleep

together

and make some content, then maybe I would

consider it.

But I really doubt I would go to America.

I'm just not interested in it and it's too

expensive, too far, too weird.

I still find America to be the weirdest

country, even though, you know, even

weirder than places like Thailand or

Japan.

Wait, what happened to Sam?

Why is he in the hospital?

Sukhumvit is an amazing place.

I was staying in Sukhumvit for the second

week after the ex-husband crazy guy thing

happened.

We drove straight back to Bangkok and we

stayed in Sukhumvit 11, which is like the

hotspot area where all the tourists go.

I chose that place because I saw a load of

videos about it being one of the best

places in Thailand and it was okay.

It was just like, like a Shinjuku street.

A lot of hotels, a lot of restaurants and

bars that we didn't go to any of.

It's full of white people and foreigners.

It's not that special.

It's just like a load of foreigners, load

of bars and restaurants and food stuff.

You can never guarantee sex.

She can change her mind at any moment.

Yeah, that's the annoying thing.

The thing I noticed, realized about women

is they change their mind a lot.

I've had many girls say they're interested

in me in a sexual way, and then I go and

meet them and then they change their mind

and I wasted my whole time going there.

I don't trust anything women say.

One minute they love you, next minute they

don't feel connection.

And then next they want to break up with

you, and then they never talk to you ever

again, even though just a few weeks ago

they were in love with you.

Yes, sure.

And the moon is round and the sun is flat.

I don't believe a single word a woman says

because they're completely controlled by

their own emotions, and emotions change

all the time.

Like, I'll be moody now And then I might

be in a good mood next— in the next few

hours.

So there's no point listening to someone

who bases all of their opinions on their

mood or their emotions, which is basically

just women in a nutshell.

Yesterday my girlfriend was mad at me and

I didn't know why.

So we went to the shopping center and then

went to McDonald's and I said, Could you

get me a Big Mac?

So I give her the money and she goes up to

the counter and orders it.

And then she walks off to the table.

So I think, okay, she's going to go and

sit down.

So I wait to pick up the McDonald's at the

counter and then I go to the table seating

area and then she's not there.

So I look around, she's nowhere.

So I sit down, I start eating.

She comes back after a minute and then she

goes, I'm going to sit outside.

And then she just goes out and sits on the

chair outside of McDonald's.

And I thought, okay, maybe she's just

going to go and do some shopping whilst I

eat because she's not hungry.

Or maybe she's going to go and get some

Thai food.

So I didn't really think too much of it.

So I finish eating, I go outside the

restaurant and she's just sitting there

the whole time on the chair.

And I thought, oh God, she's having a

woman moment.

And then she just walks.

We walk back to the car and then she's

like walking ahead of me, walking faster.

Not looking at me.

So I did.

Ding.

Is there sound?

I don't know what's happening to my USB

hub thing.

Is there sound?

I think the sound's back.

So irritating.

It started doing this about a week ago.

It never did this before, just randomly

Turning off.

What, what part of the story did I get to?

I was trying to tell a story.

You're walking back to the car.

Okay, we're walking back to the car, but

she was walking ahead of me, so I knew

something was wrong.

And we sat in the car and it's like really

awkward and silent.

And then we got back to the apartment And

she just went straight to the bedroom and

went to bed.

So I just thought, okay, she's just tired

because she's on her period.

And then I went back to playing video

games and then she started calling me.

So I went over to the bed and she was

sitting there, sitting upright.

And I thought, oh my God, what have I

done?

Has she found out about the channel?

This must be pretty bad.

And then she just says,

Why did you ignore me?

And I said, what do you mean?

You're ignoring me.

And then she said, you didn't ask if I

wanted any food at McDonald's.

And I just thought, oh my God, the whole

thing was because of that.

She said, you got— you asked for your

food, but you didn't ask me if I wanted

any food.

And then she was like sulking over that

because I didn't ask her if she wanted

McDonald's.

I just thought, if you wanted McDonald's,

you would have said something.

I thought maybe you weren't hungry because

you had a massive breakfast.

I don't know.

Do I have to ask you every time if you

want something to eat?

If you want something, something to eat,

then just say it.

Bloody women piss me off so much.

Sulking at me and giving me this stroppy

face, thinking— I thought, wow, I must

have done something really bad in the

period of time that we walked to

McDonald's, because before McDonald's she

was fine.

So I thought, what did I do between

walking from the car to walking to

McDonald's that has made her give me the

silent treatment?

We barely said a word.

I didn't do anything.

I thought maybe she looked on her phone.

She saw my channel.

I can't think what else.

Well, she gets really sensitive about

money.

Like on Saturday, we went for sushi.

And it cost about 900 baht.

Obviously I paid for all of it, which is

about,

uh, I think it's like $15 maybe.

Wait, let me Google it.

No, it's like $27, so it's not exactly

cheap.

And I paid for all that, then after sushi

she wanted to buy this this pork bun

thing.

And I said, okay.

And then she asked me for the money to buy

the pork bun and it was only 50 baht.

And I was kind of annoyed.

I mean, don't you have 50 baht?

I just paid for sushi.

So I just said in like a moaning way, but

I paid for sushi.

And then that obviously upset her because

then a few hours later in the car, she

suddenly randomly brought up how she paid

for the hotel and the music festival.

And the petrol for the last weekend,

so she didn't have any money.

So it seemed like she didn't want to ask

me for money, but then she was upset

because I wasn't offering to buy her

stuff.

The money thing is so annoying.

I've never had a girlfriend that doesn't

have no— any money.

Even Mila had some money.

Most girlfriends I dated had a job, and

then if they wanted like a little snack or

a cake, they would just pay for it

themselves and I didn't have to bring out

my money every time.

You were just bragging about how much

money you had.

No, I wasn't.

But even if I was, it doesn't really

change anything.

I don't have to keep paying for everything

she wants to buy.

That's the point.

If she wants to buy like a KitKat and it

costs like 20 baht, She's saying she

doesn't even have 20 baht.

Come on, no one in Thailand is that broke.

And then she got upset saying she had to

pay for this and blah blah blah.

I don't understand how she works 2 jobs

and she works all day and she's got no

money.

It's so weird.

And then she'll like bring out her bank

statement saying, look, this is where my

money's going.

I got to pay this for the house and I had

to pay that for the house and got to pay

this and that.

I don't get it.

And then she gets upset.

Like when I did the IRL stream last time,

I went to McDonald's, remember?

And then she asked me what I had for

dinner and I said I had McDonald's.

And then she got upset because I didn't

buy her Those apple pie things.

So it's like dating a child.

Honestly, Thai women are so childish.

They have little strops and sulks over

nothing.

If you want some food, then just say it,

for fuck's sake.

Don't expect me to ask you every time.

I can't be bothered that every time we go

to a restaurant, I've got to ask you, do

you want anything?

If you want something, then just get it.

Why do I have to ask you?

It's so frustrating.

So I'm not going to ask her again.

She's just going to have to change and

adapt.

I don't care how many times she's going to

sulk about it.

I'm not doing what she tells me.

She's like, next time we go to McDonald's,

are you going to ask me?

And I said, yeah, but I'm not.

I'm just not going to go to McDonald's

anymore.

Women are so irritating.

They play these stupid little games

to see if you care about them.

It's all little like shit tests, isn't it,

to see if the guy loves you or not?

Yeah, because Asking a girl if she wants

McDonald's really means I love her or not,

doesn't it?

It doesn't make any sense.

And then she asked me, you don't love me?

And I said, yes.

I didn't know how to answer this question

because it's like a weird question because

you'd say, do you love me?

And you would say yes or no.

But it's like asking it in the negative.

Should I respond in the negative?

If I said no, then it's like, no, I don't

love you.

So I thought, okay, I'll say yes.

Then she's like, yes, you don't love me.

And then she started crying and I was

like, no, no, no.

I mean, yes, I do love you.

So I had to say it.

I had to say I love you,

which I hate.

I hate having to say I love you.

I never said I love you before.

I think it's a really cringe thing to say.

You should never have to say you love

someone because if you actually love them,

then you wouldn't have to say it because

you just know it.

And you, you can feel that the other

person loves you back.

And then having to make someone say I love

you is so dumb because I can easily say,

oh yeah, I love you guys

without actually meaning it.

She asks things in like a negative, weird

way.

Like, are you not hungry?

And I say, yes.

And then she thinks I'm not hungry.

And I mean, yes, I am hungry.

I guess I should say no.

No, I am hungry.

Can't you just ask things in not a

negative way?

Like, are you hungry?

And I can just say yes.

It's such a trap of a question.

Why aren't you single?

Ah, sometimes I wish I was single.

Can't do anything I want to do.

When she's here, I have to be really

careful with what I'm looking at on my

screen in case she looks at it.

Sometimes she'll just fly out the bedroom

and quickly appear behind me

before I get the chance to minimize

anything, so I can't have anything up that

I don't want her to see.

It's like, I don't want to watch Ice

Poseidon in front of her because Ice is in

Japan.

And then she'll think I'm watching videos

about Japan, and then she'll think I miss

being in Japan.

And then she'll be like, oh, do you want

to go to Japan?

You don't want to be in Thailand anymore?

So I've got to be really careful about not

seeming like I miss Japan or anything.

Why do you care if she finds out about

your channel?

Because she would definitely cry and

become a massive emotional mess if she

finds out about it.

Because then she'll basically find out I

lied about everything.

It will be so annoying.

I can't stand crying women and women being

emotional in front of me.

It's so annoying because then I have to be

like, oh, there, there, don't cry.

So as long as she doesn't find out about

the channel, then she'll be fine.

But if she finds out about it, she's going

to be an emotional wreck.

Why are you streaming on Sunday evening?

It's Monday morning.

Is that why my viewers are so low?

Usually I have like at least 150 around

this time.

Now I've only got 97.

Is it Sunday?

Oh yeah, I guess in America it's Sunday

evening.

Uh, stream again tomorrow, see if viewers

are any different.

But I'll be streaming for 12 hours today,

so hopefully it goes up later.

I thought evening is when people watch

YouTube.

I thought evening was like the good time

to watch YouTube.

Why not have casual sex and never, never

dates?

Well, that'd be great.

Can you find me some girls who just want

casual sex?

Because I can't find any.

I've been chatting to hundreds of women

over the past few years.

Not a single one just wants to have casual

sex.

I would love to have just like 5 different

casual sex partners on rotation and then

live by myself and then just go on dates

when I feel a bit lonely.

But I can't afford to get my own apartment

because I need a Thai national or a

national of the country to get me an

apartment for cheap prices.

Otherwise I'll be paying for hotel prices

and I don't want to live in like a youth

hostel or some cheap accommodation because

I want privacy.

I want my own room.

I want my own kitchen and bathroom.

I don't want to share in a guesthouse.

So I can't afford to live in like a

serviced apartment

and I can't be bothered going on dating

apps and going on dates and meeting women.

Also, I keep getting banned on the main

dating apps, so I can't be bothered.

I need to just do what Ice does.

Just go out on the streets, talk to random

strangers.

Because in my mind,

Testing.

This is so annoying.

Why is this happening today?

This never happens.

It happened like once or twice last week.

There's something wrong with my USB hub.

So I've got this USB hub, it's got 2

modems plugged into it, and it had my mic

plugged into it.

So now I just unplugged my Android phone

charger because it's USB to USB-C, and now

I've plugged that straight into the

laptop, and hopefully that problem

doesn't— if the problem happens again then

there must be something wrong with the

mic, because now I'm using different

cable, different port.

I think— because remember last time my

mouse was glitching, it was like really

laggy when it was plugged into the USB

hub.

So I think there's something wrong with

the USB hub, but now I've run out of USB

ports,

so I had to unplug my mouse.

There's no other ports left because my

other 2 ports have my hard drive and my

Wi-Fi adapter.

So frustrating.

Maybe I need to get a new USB hub.

I'm pretty sure this won't happen again

now I've changed ports.

Testing,

testing.

Said the audio stream current bitrate is

lower than recommended bitrate.

I'm pretty sure it's working.

Yeah, what was I complaining about?

I think one of these— I'm pretty sure it's

the USB hub that's weird.

Oh, shut up, SpeedFeed, it is working.

I can see the sound levels going up and

down.

Uh, thing I'm worried about is my modems

are plugged into the USB hub, so if those

fail,

I still got 2 SIM cards.

To keep it going, so it should be fine.

Where are you going next after Thailand?

We're going to Vietnam in January.

I booked the tickets.

Plug the mic directly into the laptop?

Um, because I need, I need 6 USB ports and

I've only got 3 and a USB-C on the laptop.

Because I've got 2 USB modems, a Wi-Fi

adapter, my hard drive,

and my mouse.

So that's 5 plus the mic, that's 6.

I need 6 ports.

I don't have enough ports, so I had to

unplug the mouse

and plug in the mic to the mouse port.

Why don't they put more ports in these

stupid laptops?

Why is Sam in the hospital?

No one's saying.

Have I ever been with a woman that had

large nipples?

Yeah, Tomoko's nipples were huge.

They were like meatballs.

They were like round

and erect all the time.

You shouldn't bother clickbaiting your

main channel.

Well, that's the only way to get views.

I have to clickbait basically every single

video and stream because otherwise people

don't watch it.

So I don't really care if you believe me a

lot or not.

If the algorithm gets you to see my video

or, or stream and you watch it, then

that's all I would need.

If you don't want to watch my stream or

video no matter what, then you can

unsubscribe and fuck off.

Maybe stupid fucking idiots let my channel

die.

Got 100k subs and I can't even get 10k

views anymore.

Idiots.

Why don't you just unsub if you don't want

to watch anymore?

I don't get it.

Instead of whining that things are boring

or clickbait, why don't you just unsub and

get lost?

Fuck off, leave me alone.

Fucking people.

100K subs, can't even get views now.

This pisses me off so much.

Make creative content?

There's no point.

People don't watch it.

People don't make— people don't watch

anything I make.

All you guys want is stupid Chihiro stuff.

That was 2018, 2019.

Those days are over.

Chihiro's not coming back.

I'm not destroying my life again just for

40k views.

2018, 2019.

I was trying really hard to become

internet famous.

I thought, you know, this is my

opportunity, and I went all out.

You know, I did all the crazy stuff like

cheating, fighting, doxxing myself,

sleeping with viewers, sex doll.

I did everything I possibly could imagine

and come up with for crazy content, and

all I could get was a shitty 40k views

average.

At most, maybe 50 or 60k.

And then non-drama times, 20-30k.

I'm not destroying my life for those

rubbish views.

If I was getting like 100k, 200k views

every time, then sure, I would be

incentivized to do it again.

But I wrecked my life in 2018, 2019, and

for what?

I didn't even become mega viral or have

like everyone making videos about me like

PenguinZ or PewDiePie.

I just had Elvis.

I tried my hardest.

I went all out trying to make this crazy

content and it didn't pay off.

The channel never really got really big.

And I'm not doing that again because if I

did it again,

it's not going to get more views, is it?

Because I'm doing the same thing.

So it's obviously going to get less views.

Than 2018, 2019 when I was trying really

hard.

So why would I destroy my life to get less

views than when I did it the first time?

I was only making like $1,800 a month

doing all that crazy drama stuff.

I still make about the same amount.

I made like $1,700 this month, and then

last month I made like $1,800 because I

managed to supplement the loss in views

with the gaming stuff.

So I'm not interested in wrecking my life

again like back in 2019 or 2018,

uh, just for like 20K views.

No thanks.

I want at least guaranteed quarter of a

million views every video if I'm going to

do that.

I'm not gonna dox my girlfriend or make

her cry on stream or cheat on her and do

all this crazy stuff like I did with

Chihiro because it's not worth it.

I know what the views would be.

The crazy ex-husband peaked at 18k.

That's shit.

The video made like $50.

It's not worth wrecking your life over

$50.

Make gaming content.

I do make gaming content.

I've got a whole channel for gaming.

I'm already making gaming content.

It's called Expert Review Zone.

I've been making gaming content for like 4

years.

People are still telling me to make gaming

content.

I made gaming content this year.

Elden Ring.

Got like 820K views.

I rode the Elden Ring trend until it died,

and I switched back to personal life

videos.

And right now there's not really a big

trending game, so I'm just waiting.

Did I buy the new console, the AYANEO?

No, I don't think I will.

It's too expensive.

I'm not sure if I'll get the views to pay

for it.

I'm so pissed off.

I, I was so self-destructive 2018, '19.

I did all this crazy stuff and I couldn't

even crack 100K views per video.

I don't think any other YouTuber has

sacrificed so much in terms of

self-respect, credibility, dignity.

Personal relationships.

I basically destroyed everything to try to

get famous on YouTube,

and it didn't even pay well.

I mean, at most I made maybe $2,000 a

month, which is okay, but I'd want at

least $5K a month if I'm gonna be so

self-destructive.

Daniel, you're boring now.

Yeah, because I'm not interested in being

self-destructive anymore.

If things are going to fail and destruct,

then they'll— I'll let them destruct

naturally, but I'm not going to trigger it

to get views.

You're not even making $1,000 a month.

No, I made like $1,000 $800 last month.

I made like $1,400 off YouTube.

I made like $250 off Twitch, and then I

made like $400 off OnlyFans.

Nah, I'm done with all that drama stuff.

It's not worth it.

I'd rather have a peaceful life.

Where I don't dox myself, don't have

weirdos coming up to me.

I'm not even making that much less money.

I just had to, had to rethink things and

change things, you know, with how I make

videos and do more streaming.

All those people who only watch for the

drama They can fuck right off.

I mean, fuck them all.

They're all still subbed to my channel,

but they don't watch because there's no

more drama.

They can all get screwed by a horse.

I hate them.

They ruined my life.

I did all that stuff to entertain them.

You know, the reason why I did all that

crazy stuff was for one reason, was to try

and entertain those people.

And now they all fucked off, didn't they?

So fuck them idiots.

I curse them and their whole family.

I got so much hatred for the people on

YouTube who used to watch me,

who only watched me for one reason.

I got so much hatred for them, you have no

idea.

I thought I hated people from my

experience at school, but oh my God.

And doing YouTube just opens up a whole

new level of hate towards people.

You get so pissed off at trying to please

and entertain viewers.

It's like nothing pleases them.

Oh, stop doing drama.

Oh, do more drama.

Do this, do that, and then you do it and

then you don't care anyway.

It's like, oh, you don't show us Thailand,

and then I go outside in Thailand and show

you around and no one cares either.

Do an IRL and only gets like 150 viewers.

I don't really make creative content.

I just— I tell stories and I talk about

experience I had.

It's not really creative, is it?

Why are you so angry?

Because my channel died.

I'm angry.

I'm bitter.

I put so much work and effort and

sacrificed a lot for this channel, you

know?

Put my nudes out there, turn myself into a

laughingstock,

embarrass my mum.

I ruined so many things because I wanted

this channel to do well, but it died

anyway.

So yeah, I'm pretty angry.

You pour your heart and soul into

something and you make a lot of sacrifices

and then it dies.

So thanks very much.

You don't work hard enough?

I spent every single second of every

single day trying to come up with content,

planning stuff like the sex hole, Airbnbs.

Running out on my wife streams,

and I had to plan what kind of video

series I do when I go back to her.

My entire life revolves around trying to

think of videos to make.

Don't tell me I don't work hard.

I work every single minute of the day.

Yeah, I work harder than people with

traditional jobs.

People with normal jobs, they just wake

up, go to work, come home, switch off.

There's no switch off for me because if I

switch off, then I'm gonna make even less

money, and then I won't even be able to

afford anything.

Then I have to go back to my mum.

Use the money you gain from YouTube and

make investments.

I did, and then I lost like $15,000.

I don't do YouTube because I want to avoid

work.

I do YouTube because I want to avoid

people.

But then my entire thing about doing

YouTube is interacting with people, which

is kind of dumb, isn't it?

I don't want to get a job because I hate

people, but YouTube, doing well on YouTube

is like the most

human interaction you have to do and you

have to be good at it.

Like you need people to like you to do

well on YouTube.

I'm not great at being likable if you've

noticed,

but I can't think of any other way to make

money online where you don't have to

interact with people.

Even if you're doing commissions or

freelance, you gotta please your customer.

There's no such thing as being your own

boss.

Everyone's a slave.

It's just an illusion.

No one's their own master or their own

boss or their own master of their own free

will.

You either work for a company and you work

for someone who is your boss, or you are

the boss, but then you gotta work for your

customers.

You gotta make your customers happy.

Your clients, your viewers, your whatever.

If you're not making them happy, then your

business is going to fail.

So you're either a slave to your boss or

you're a slave to your customers or you're

a slave to your wife or you're a slave to

your husband.

No one's truly free.

It's just basically we're all fucked.

The only way you're actually free is if

you somehow inherit or win loads of money.

Or you make loads of money and then you

can retire.

But as long as you've got not enough money

to retire, then you're a slave no matter

what you do.

There's nothing you do in life where

you're not a slave.

Even a YouTuber.

Testing.

I think I know why the mic is broken.

I keep dropping it.

Because you know what I'm using as a mic

stand?

I'm using my battery bank.

And you know how thin and narrow battery

banks are.

So I've got my mic balancing on this

stupid battery bank.

My arm knocks the cable and the whole

thing falls over.

Maybe that's why my mic's messed up now.

I need to get something to put the mic on.

I've got nothing that's high enough that

reaches up to my face when I'm sitting at

a table.

That is a stable, flat platform.

I miss my mic stand back home.

I had that mic arm that I could swing

around.

That was so nice.

Having the mic is the most annoying part

of the stream because it's like a big,

heavy, bulky thing.

I wish I could just have some kind of

wireless thing.

I've got a wireless mic, but when I plug

it in, it sounds really quiet.

We definitely aren't happy with the

content.

Well, I don't know what you guys want to

see, cuz it's like anything I do gets the

same number of views.

I do a stream, I do an outside stream, I

do a date vlog, I do indoor video, it all

gets the same views.

The most popular videos I've made since

coming to Thailand were

Crazy Ex-Husband Chased Me Out of the

House and Girlfriend House Tour.

They both got about 18,000 views.

Since then, everything's just been like

10K, maybe 6 or 7K.

Show girlfriend's face for views.

Yeah, that would get views, but it'll get

like 15k views, and then I've doxxed my

girlfriend.

The risk is too high, the payoff is too

low.

I know what the views would be.

The views would be like 15k,

and then I'd probably make $50 or $60 from

the video, but then people might be able

to find my girlfriend.

And then she finds out, she'll be upset.

So it's not really worth it.

You got to think of the, the risk versus

the upside.

The upside is very low.

The risk is very high.

So it's not a very— it's not a very good

trade, is it, to make?

If I was going to get like a million

views, yeah, I'd put my girlfriend's face

in every video.

Which arc was my favorite?

Moving out of the guest house and moving

into my girlfriend Chihiro's place and

then getting married.

Has to be the most exciting adventure I

had.

I've never had a girlfriend like that.

I've never just moved into a girl's house

like that before.

From dating and then moving in with her.

That was my first time.

I have lived with girlfriends before, but

I met them at guesthouses and then we were

already dating.

Then I just went to Korea and I went to

her place or something.

But I never just had like a Tinder date

and then moved in with her.

That was wild.

Will you stop posting videos now?

I want to focus on streaming

for now.

I've got a few videos in the chamber ready

to pop, but they're just like emergency

backup videos in case my girlfriend takes

a day off and I need something to upload.

I honestly don't have any ideas.

I don't think you guys care about life in

Thailand.

So

I've already made like 10 videos about my

girlfriend, why I tried to impregnate my

girlfriend, why I can't tell my girlfriend

about my channel.

Um, why I regret lying to my girlfriend.

I can't think of any more girlfriend

topics.

I wanted to review the new Avatar movie.

We were going to see it, but the thing is

so damn long.

James Cameron really shot himself in the

foot by making this such a stupidly long

movie.

Because a lot of people want to see it.

I really want to see it, but I don't want

to sit in a cinema for 3 hours.

That's so freaking long, and you can't do

anything.

You can't look on your phone.

You can't go— well, you can go for a pee,

but then you miss part of the movie.

You can't pause the movie.

It's so stupid they make these movies so

long.

I don't want to sit there for more than 2

hours because if I have a drink I'm going

to need the toilet without— within 2

hours,

so I can't drink anything.

I wanted to review Avatar.

I could have had a massive rant about why

it's too long.

I quite like the first movie.

So he lost himself a customer.

I'm just gonna wait for it to be out on

Netflix to watch it.

Watching movies from your home is so much

better than going to the cinema.

The cinema is only good because it's a big

screen.