[2025-01-28] everything's a mess... [juyeM9gb4Bw]

Testing,

testing.

1, 2.

Let's see,

hopefully, fingers crossed, the internet

holds out.

I had to really lower the bitrate down to

600, but it kind of looks the same anyway.

Oh my God. It's been chaos here.

So many things to talk about.

Um, just want to make sure the stream's

fine first.

So many things.

Why is my laptop so loud? I'm not even

doing anything on it.

When will Sunny visit you next? Probably

next weekend. She just left a couple of

days ago. I was supposed to stream on

Sunday after she left, but this massive

storm hit and then it just kind of knocked

out the Wi-Fi for about 2 days, which is

really annoying. God, it was so annoying.

I think the storm has mostly passed.

That's why the internet's back up.

Yesterday was like a nightmare because I

couldn't get any internet. I barely have

any phone signal unless I go stand in the

doorway of the bedroom, and then I only

get 1 bar 4G. This place.

So I moved into my new place It's just

like a— I booked it for a month. It's like

a serviced apartment, but it's on a farm

in the middle of nowhere. So the phone

signal is really bad. And I thought,

okay, it doesn't matter because it'll have

Wi-Fi. The Wi-Fi was fine when Sunny was

here and we played games and watched

movies and stuff. And then on the day she

left, massive storm hit. I was driving her

home and the roads were just flooded. The

rain was insane. It was just raining so

heavily. And on the way back home,

I had to drive through— it was like

driving into a river, basically. It was so

deep. And I saw a lot of cars just

stalled, hazard lights on. But I wasn't

worried because I got an EV. But I get

back here and the Wi-Fi just didn't work

at all. And then the next day, there was

no Wi-Fi all day long. Yesterday I thought

I was going crazy. I just sat on the sofa

and I was staring at the wall because I

couldn't do anything. I couldn't go on the

internet, I couldn't go out because of the

storm. Ended up playing this little train

game on Steam for like 7 hours straight

because at least that didn't need

It's just been— I felt so miserable

without internet. When you don't get

internet, it's like the whole world's

ended. You can't check anything, you can't

watch anything, you can't play anything,

you can't do YouTube. Just feels like,

what's the point being alive anymore?

Yesterday was probably the worst day of my

whole life this year.

I didn't even have a shower today because

I thought the internet wasn't going to

work again, so what's the point even

having a shower? That's why I look a bit

Yeah, I have internet addiction, but you

need the internet to get anything done,

don't you? You can't get anything done

without the internet. Seems like

it's good today. I've been on it all day

and I uploaded a couple videos, played

Path of Exile, watched some YouTube, and

it seems fine, so fingers crossed. That's

why I went live today. I was going to wait

until tomorrow, but I think it should be

fine today. How about Starlink? Yeah, I

was seriously considering getting a

Starlink, but the problem is, even if I

had a Starlink here, where would I put it?

You need it either on the roof or you need

like a garden where you can just place it

in the garden. I don't have a garden. I'm

on a farm.

There's, there's the guy, the farmer guy.

Going up and down in his— I don't know

what he drives. Sounds like a— don't know,

like a lawnmower. And he's got horses and

stuff. They got dogs and cats, which were

quite cute when we got here. Oh my

god, this— there's this one thing about

the place that I can't stand.

There's rats in the ceiling.

There's actual rats in the roof. When I go

to bed, it usually starts happening around

1 AM in the morning. I can hear scratching

sounds. Like, you can't see the

rats, you hear them. And when it first

happened, I thought, what the hell was

that? Is that the dog trying to scratch on

the door? It was like,

like nails scratching against wood and

chewing sounds. And I told the guy about

it. He said, yeah, It's a farm, sometimes

you got rodents. He said he'll put poison

down, but that was a couple days ago and I

still hearing scratching. I actually moved

out of the bedroom because I thought the

scratch— I thought the rats were in the

roof of the bedroom, so I moved my bedding

onto the sofa. I now sleep on the sofa in

the living room because I thought they

won't get in here, but I can still hear

them. I think they have access to the

entire roof. Because it sounds just as

loud in here as it does in the bedroom.

So now I'm like freaked out because I'm

all alone and rats— I think I'm actually

scared of rats. I didn't know this before,

but this kind of confirms it. But I'm

pretty freaked out when I hear the

scratching. It sounds like they're gonna

get in and then they're gonna start

nibbling my face when I'm asleep.

So that's really freaky. And then I don't—

I barely have any phone signal. And I

didn't have any internet, and I'm in the

middle of nowhere,

so it's not been amazing.

And there's no windows apart from in the

ceiling, so I can't see any of the view,

so that's great.

The only window is— I don't know, it

doesn't show anything.

Yeah, so now I'm like really against the

idea of living on a farm.

Living on a farm is not fun.

The rats, the rats scare me.

I don't know how— these rats must be

massive if they can make such a loud

sound. It literally sounds like A big dog

is clawing at the door, but it's coming

from above. I can hear their footsteps as

well on the roof. I don't know if they're

on top of the roof or if they're inside of

the roof. Between the ceiling and the

roof, there must be like a little space

where they crawl into. Okay,

so I had loads of rental property drama.

I am now looking at 3 places. That I have

a pretty good chance of getting. So this

is so silly. Um, I'm trying to like

make it easy to follow because it's going

to get confusing. So there's 2 farm places

and a house. I need to give them names

so I can refer to them. There is— so

there's a farm One of them has like a—

it's like a brick shack is what

I'd call it. It's like a brick shack. It

used to be like a barn, they converted it,

it's a brick shack. And then the other

farm is actually quite nice, it's like a

cottage, detached cottage on the farm. So

we got the nice farm cottage and then we

got the ugly brick shack farm and then

we've got the house. So those are the 3

places I'm looking at. So I went to the

viewing for the brick shack and it's kind

of ugly on the outside, but on the inside

it's really nice. It's like really big,

really spacious, modern kitchen,

everything. And it comes with a fridge and

it's cheap. It's like £790 a month.

So I got— what's the

word? Yeah.

So I had to pay a holding deposit. Of

£180, and I was still in the middle of

seeing other places, but they wanted— she

phoned up and she was like, Daniel,

that's not fair on the other people. You

have to pay it now. You have to make a

decision today or else we're going to give

it to someone else. So I panicked and I

said, okay, okay, I'll take the place. So

I paid the holding deposit and I started

the referencing thing. So the referencing

thing hasn't finished yet. But we've kind

of made like a written proposal. But I

don't really want this place. So I've

applied to this other farm cottage and

then I passed the referencing. They said,

you don't make enough money. Can you

prove, can you prove that you've got other

money? So I got my mum to send me like

£7,000 and then I took a screenshot and I

said, yeah, I've got these savings. So

they said, okay, that's enough. Plus your—

they said, plus your income, plus this

savings, you make enough. So they passed

me on the referencing, but they didn't ask

me to pay a holding deposit, which means

I'm probably not gonna get the place. And

I got all excited. Me and Sunny were in

the shops at the time about to get lunch

and we're gonna look at furniture. And I

was all excited. I was like, yeah, I

passed the referencing, I'm gonna get the

place. And then the next day I realized,

wait a minute, Just because I passed the

referencing, it doesn't mean I've got the

place, because they could have 5

applicants that all of us could have

passed referencing, and now the landlord

has to choose which one he wants to give

the place to. So I haven't heard anything

back from the place, so my suspicion is

I'm not getting the place even though I

passed the referencing, because they

haven't asked me to pay a holding deposit.

If you haven't paid a holding deposit,

that probably means someone else has, and

they've, they've got like the priority.

They've got dibs on the place. So I kind

of gave up on the nice farm cottage place.

And then there's a third place, a house.

And I saw this house about a week ago. I

didn't really think anything of it. I

thought, yeah, it's a nice house, but I

doubt I'm gonna get it. And I checked my

email and they actually said that they

would like to go ahead with me, and they

asked me to pay a holding deposit of £200

and do the referencing. So the

referencing, I already did the

referencing. It said I needed a guarantor.

I asked my mum to be my guarantor. First

she said no, and then she said yes, and

then she said no because she doesn't

understand it. They asked too many

difficult questions, but she couldn't be

my guarantor anyway because she doesn't

make enough money. So I said to them, I

don't have a guarantor. But I do have

savings. So they said, okay, send us your

savings. So I sent my savings again and I

paid the holding deposit. And I really

want this house because after staying here

in this serviced apartment, which is on a

farm, I don't want to live on a farm now.

I want to live in a proper house, not a

stupid farm with a bunch of rats in the

roof. So now I'm in

a tricky situation where I've kind of

agreed and promised that I will move into

the brick shack farm place. And I've paid

the holding deposit, but I haven't passed

the referencing. But now I've got this

other house that I've also paid the

deposit to, but I'm still waiting to pass

the referencing. So this

is gonna be awkward if I get the house.

I'm gonna have to tell the Brookshack

people that, yeah, sorry, I don't want it

anymore. And then I've just blown £180 on

the holding deposit. So that's kind of

annoying. Please tell me you're lying

about all this. I don't know why you guys

think I'm making this all up.

You really think I've— I'm sitting here

plotting this elaborate story?

Jesus Christ, you really don't know me,

do you?

So anyway, yeah, I'm looking at these 3

places.

Why does the stupid referencing thing take

so damn long? I'm just sitting here

refresh spamming my emails over and over

again, and I'm just getting nothing.

I'm just looking at my emails all day

long. Give me a damn place to live so I

can move out this rat hole.

If you're gonna lose 180 or 200, let go of

the 180. Well, I'd happily lose 180 to get

the house. The house is nice. It's got a

garden, it's got a driveway, I can charge

my car. It is a bit further away from

towns and cities, but I think it's in a

good location. I mean, I don't think

the location's too bad. It's like an hour

away from the city.

And it's about 30 minutes away from

another town, so it's not too bad. But

the, the Brick Shack Farm Place is

literally 10 minutes drive outside of the

city, so that would have been much better.

But it's just ugly, and I, I don't really

want to live on a farm, and I don't want

to live in like a bungalow, and I want a

How would I make money if I get the house?

Yeah, that's the tricky thing. Uber Eats,

I don't know where to do Uber Eats because

it's so far away from the town I was

targeting to do Uber Eats in. But I've

got my first shift. I got this other—

there's so many damn things to talk about.

I'm gonna jump from here to here. So I was

just on the phone to the guy at the

delivery company that I had the training

session with last Monday. He said I can

come in on Saturday to do my first shift,

and I'm gonna do like a practice shift.

They're going to give me 30 parcels and

release me. And the good thing about this

delivery company is they don't randomly

give you a route. They give you a route

that's near where you live. So because I

live in the middle of nowhere, he's given

me a route that's just to this tiny little

village, which looks really easy. So I'm

hoping, I'm hoping it's going to be really

easy and take me like an hour to do.

But 30 parcels, I don't know, because

doing Amazon Flex, 30 parcels would take a

couple hours. Now, are you saying 30

parcels or 30 locations? Because that's a

completely different story, because you

could get 30 parcels, but if there's only

5 locations, that's like 6 parcels per

location. I've only got to go to 6

addresses. So obviously it's not gonna be

30 unless I'm really unlucky and it's like

one parcel per address, which I don't

think it'll be like that. I think it'll be

like maybe 20 parcels to 20 addresses,

and maybe 2 or 3 parcels to the same

address. So it's going to be probably at

max like 20,

between 20 and 30 locations. It's not

going to be exactly 30 locations. So I'm

hoping there's many multiple drops to the

same location, and he's just gonna Give me

a route in the town that's like 7

miles from where I am currently. So I've

been plotting the course on Google Maps

because there's no electric vehicle

chargers anywhere near me.

I would have to go in the opposite

direction to get to an electric vehicle

charger. There's an electric vehicle

charger at where the pickup spot is, but I

don't know, it doesn't look very reliable,

and if someone else is there, I won't be

able to get it. So I should have enough

battery to get to the pickup spot and do

the deliveries and get back and then worry

about charging later. It is a bit annoying

with the charging situation because this

area, the chargers are spread out so

far apart.

So yeah, I'm quite excited about Saturday

because I'm going to do my first shift at

this delivery company and Yeah,

I'm hoping it's not gonna be too difficult

or too stressful. The good thing about

this area is there's no big towns like

Maidstone.

I just, I just don't know how much they're

gonna pay. They claim that they guarantee

£16, about £16 to £18 per hour.

That's what they claim. I'm hoping they're

right.

Hopefully. I mean, if it takes me— I

don't get it. So if I'm really slow at

delivering, are they gonna pay me more

money? What do you mean? 30 parcels?

That would usually take me a couple hours

on Amazon Flex if I got a If I got like—

if I got 30 addresses and I had

40 parcels, that would take me nearly 3

hours, 2 and a half hours maybe. And then

if I got about 20 locations, it could take

me about under 2 hours. So it

really depends how many addresses they're

going to give me. If it's just 15

addresses, I get that done in like an hour

and a half probably.

Yeah, so I'm kind of excited about that.

That could really save me. So if it's just

like a 3 or 4 hour shift, I do that 5 days

a week, um, that could bring me in— if

the pay is comparable to Amazon Flex, I'm

expecting it to bring me in about £450 a

week, £400 to £450 a week, plus my

YouTube. I reckon I could pull in about

£2,400, £2,500 a month. And then all my

expenses would be about £1,800 a month.

So you've got £900 rent, you've got

council tax going to be like £150, you've

got electric is going to be like £150-ish,

maybe electric, gas, water. You've got

food, maybe £150. My car and monitor

payments, £400. I reckon it's going to be

like £1,800 a month. So if I made £2,500,

I'd have about left over to

pay off my credit card. Credit card debt's

going a bit insane.

Isn't charging going to cost more than

what they would pay? Yeah, that is the

problem. Right now I can't

charge. I mean, we did ask the guy if

I could charge and he said We could talk

about that, and I would have to pay him

extra, but I don't know where I would

charge it. There's like no window that I

could put the cable out of unless he's got

a secret socket outside.

Should have got a diesel car. I don't

know, because you should have seen some of

the flooding. I saw so many cars stalled

on the side of the road after they emerged

from the floodwaters with their hazards

on, and I thought, I feel so safe in my EV

knowing that I don't have a combustion

engine that water can get into. So I

don't know, I went from not liking my car

to actually, I think my car is pretty

cool. The only thing I've got to sort out

is how I'm going to charge the car. So at

the house that I'm hoping I'm going to

get, I mean, I've paid the holding

deposit. The woman said all I would have

to do is show that I have savings to be

able to pay 6 months rent, which I've sent

to her yesterday. I'm just waiting. I feel

pretty confident I'm going to get the

house. And the house has a driveway,

so all I'd have to do is park near the

door and then, I don't know, thread the

cable through, and then I'd be, I'd be

sailing. I wouldn't have to worry about

public charging anymore. But the, um, the

Brick Shack farmhouse, no, I wouldn't be

able to charge it there because there's no

parking near the house. There is parking,

but it's just not near where the building

is. And then the other farm cottage there,

I wouldn't be able to charge it there

because there is parking, but the

parking's not near the building. So I

would end up having to use public

Oh, did I tell you what happened? I

haven't even— it's been such a while, I

haven't told you what happened at the

Tesla Supercharger. So I went to the Tesla

Supercharger and I charged it and I

pressed end charging And then it

disappeared. But usually what happens is

after you press end charging, it will then

make an unlock sound and you pull the

cable out. It didn't do that, and I

couldn't pull the cable out. It was just—

the cable was just stuck in the car. So I

asked someone nearby if he could help,

and then he just started yanking the

cable, and he was like rocking my car

backwards. I thought he was going to break

it. And then in the end, I found out all

you had to do was hold the lock button on

the charging port and it releases the

cable. So I was a bit scared he was gonna

break my car. What's the point yanking it?

Obviously, if it's locked, it means you

can't— if you could just pull it out,

then there would be no point having a

locking mechanism. What an idiot. And then

he just said, oh, can't help you, gonna

have to phone the number. So I kind of

panicked because I was supposed to go and

pick Sunny up and my car was fully charged

and Tesla charges you like a pound per

minute idle fees. But I managed to quickly

Google how do you unlock the charging port

manually. So yeah, I was pretty scared.

That was really— oh my God, Sunny would

hate my car even more if I was like, hey,

sorry, I can't pick you up because my car

Is stuck attached to the charging cable.

Update credit card debts. Yeah, it hasn't

gone up by too much. Let me check.

Da da da da da da. I haven't used the

credit card to pay the holding fees. I

used my debit card, so that's not credit

card debt, is it?

2059. 2059 now.

It's not gone up by too much.

And then I spilled— I spilled milk inside

of the car and it started to go off and

the car smelled so bad. It was like

rotting milk smell in my car,

it was horrible.

Yeah, the Tesla Supercharger is really

good, it's way cheaper, and the app's

pretty nice when it works. It's just that

one time it glitched and I pressed end

charging and I couldn't disconnect it from

the app, but now I know that you can

disconnect it from the car manually. I

feel more reassured. I went

and had a look at the new Teslas. They

don't look very nice, to be honest.

They've got like this weird rounded

spaceship look. I wouldn't get one.

You need a job and references for a house?

Actually, none of them seem to care about

references. I keep saying I don't have

references and they will say that's fine.

We just need to do an income check. The

main issue is the income check, but I've

learned this new trick. So none of them

told me this, but I actually passed the

referencing for one of the properties by

doing this. Um, so they asked for my tax

form. The latest tax form I have is from

2022 because I didn't pay tax in 2023

because I was in Thailand. So my latest

one from 2022, but my tax form from 2022

only says I made £17,000. So they

said that's not enough, but if I had

savings, you could add the savings to my

£17K and then that would pass the income

check. So they said I would need £9,000 in

savings to pass. So I just got some money,

put it in my bank account, printed the

statement, and they said, thanks, you

passed the referencing. I was like, what?

You mean I don't have to make $27K a year.

All I need to make is like $17K

plus $9K in savings. So if you got $10K in

savings, you just need to show that you

made $17K. You don't need to make $27K or

$30K in a year. So then you can just say,

oh, I'm going to use my savings and

they're pretty happy with that. So yeah,

I'm— I was really sad because I thought,

oh my God, I've got to make $30K to be

able to get a house. No, you don't. You

could literally make £1, but if you've got

£30K in savings, they will rent to you.

They'll— I mean, they would let you pass

the referencing. So I've passed the

referencing to this farm cottage, but they

didn't ask me to pay a holding deposit,

so I don't think I'm gonna get that one.

But the one with the house, they also said

I would just need to show I've got

savings, so I sent them my statement that

says I've got savings. Don't know what's

taking so long. That was yesterday. Come

on, I want to get out of this place. Oh,

the other problem is I've booked this

place for an entire month. So the, the

brick shack place said I can move in at

latest first week of February, which means

I've still got this place for like another

2 weeks that I don't need it for. And then

the house says I can move in end of this

month. Seriously? That's like in 3 days.

The woman sounded very confident. She

said, oh yeah, I can get you moved in end

of this month. Well, I hope so, because it

seems to be taking a long time.

I just— I feel so stupid because me and

Sunny got all excited thinking passing the

referencing meant that I got the place.

I feel so silly now. We were looking at

furniture and everything and I

thought for sure— I mean, we were even

playing Minecraft and we made the place in

Minecraft so we could decorate it. And

then I realized, oh wait, it doesn't mean

I got it. It just means I passed

referencing. And then I got all sad.

So yeah, it's really annoying, this whole

referencing stuff.

How big is the brick shack house? It's

quite big. It's got a massive kitchen,

kitchen living room, like open plan, and

then it's got a bedroom and a nice

bathroom. But the outside is ugly,

and I don't really want to live on a farm,

to be I'm living on a farm now.

I don't really like it. It's weird.

There's rats in the ceiling and

the internet sucks and I barely get any

phone signal. Oh, I gotta plug my laptop

Why don't they get Starlink?

I really don't understand it.

Starlink would cost a couple hundred

pounds to set up. Okay, it's a bit more

expensive than normal internet, but you're

basically guaranteed internet as,

as long as the sky doesn't collapse.

Because the problem with wired connections

is during a storm, electrical posts

can fall over Trees can fall over and

break the wires. Anything could happen

because it's all wire. Why don't they just

get Starlink? I thought you'd like the

isolation of a farm. I do, but I don't

like how my phone signal is really bad and

I'm dependent on this wire that's blowing

around in the storm winds. And if a tree

comes down, I'm screwed. I'd have no

internet. I don't understand why they

don't get Starlink. And then just put it

on the roof and then you would always have

I mean, if I had my own house and I owned

it, there's no way I wouldn't get

Starlink. I'm actually considering getting

it for my house if I get the house to

rent, because the house I'm rent— I'm

going to rent or hopefully get approved

for has a garden and I'll just put the

Starlink in the garden. And get a long

cable and put it through the window. Why

am I living on a farm? So the reason why I

chose this place is because it is near to

this new delivery job that I'm gonna start

on Saturday. It's only about 15 miles away

from this new delivery job place, which is

great,

and it's not too far from Sunny, so I

thought the location was quite good here.

And the pictures look quite nice, but I

didn't realize there'd be rats. And also

this storm has really been a pain in the

backside. Also, the other problem is the

house that I really want, and I think I've

got a good chance of getting, it's like an

hour's drive away from the delivery job

pickup point. So that's not great.

It's not in a great location because it's

really far from anywhere that I would want

to work in. But it's a house.

If they're gonna give me a house, I'm not

gonna say no. I'll just have to find

another way to make money, or I'm just

gonna have to do an hour commute. So it's

not, it's not that bad because I do the

hour commute, pick up my parcels, they

would probably send me back towards where

I live for my route, so I'd drive halfway

back to where I am. So it's not really

that bad, is it? And then I'll be able to

charge at the house, so it's not like I'm

gonna be spending loads. So I have like a

200-mile range. It should take about 40

miles to get there, and then I do 20 miles

back to the delivery area and then 20

miles back home. I'll probably do like 100

miles and then charge back home, so it

shouldn't really be a problem. It's just a

bit far away. I didn't think I was gonna

get this house, to be honest. I just kind

of applied for it on a whim, but it is a

nice house.

And then I could do some shopping on the

way back, I don't know.

Definitely would really want this house

compared to the other 2 options, which are

basically just farm shacks.

So I guess I gotta wait until Saturday to

see how hard this delivery job is and how

much I get paid. I'm really hoping it's

good, like not amazing, but at least on a

similar level as Amazon Flex. Goddamn, I

wish I had Amazon Flex. I really shot

myself in my foot getting banned on it.

It would have been so helpful to have it.

I hated Amazon Flex because I hated

delivering in the Kent area. But if I had

it here, it would have been completely

different. No Chatham, no Sittingbourne.

Why not live in Thailand or somewhere like

that? Cost of living is cheaper.

Because you

end up spending a lot of money on planes

and then you got to get a visa. So you got

to sign up to a school which costs

thousands and then you can't really rent a

place unless you got a local girlfriend

who can do all that stuff for you. If

you're just on your own, you'll end up

getting ripped off and you get charged

gaijin prices. If I was on my own in

Thailand, they would have charged me like

20,000 baht for a crappy little place when

you can get a nice condo for 10,000 baht.

But you would only get those prices if you

were Thai.

So yeah, it's cheaper to

live in Thailand, but then you can't get a

job. And even if you could get a job, the

job would be so low paying. So if you've

got online income, yeah, it's great. But

my online income is really struggling. I

really need a side income from a part-time

job.

If I could just make enough money on

YouTube alone, then yeah, it might have

been an option, but it's just not really

an option because my YouTube channel is

dead and I was in massive

debt that I wanted to pay off the credit

card, my mum and stuff. And I just

wouldn't be able to do that if I was

abroad in Thailand.

And also, I just didn't really like living

in Thailand. I mean, some parts of

Thailand were nice, like the condos,

really nice condos for just a couple

hundred pounds a month. And the warm

weather was nice, I guess.

Everything else sucked. Although I did

like the atmosphere. It did have a nice,

friendly atmosphere.

But I just don't really see myself going

back to Thailand because it will just— I

think it will make me feel sad and bring

back memories. And what I've learned from

stalking Chihiro is that going back to old

places where you had a relationship

really doesn't make you feel good. It

makes you feel terrible because it just,

it creates this desperate feeling of

wanting to go back in time, and that's

impossible. And then you start doing crazy

stuff because having to accept reality is

hard. I mean, it's easier

to move on when you've just left the

place, but if you keep going back to the

place It's just, um,

it's best to move on to something else, I

think, instead of keep going back to

old places.

That's what I've learned.

Yeah. So last Thursday,

I feel like I'm missing parts of the

story. So Thursday was my— no,

Wednesday was my last night at that

previous place, which was really nice.

It was like a little building attached to

a house with a couple living in it. So

Wednesday I picked up Sunny and I brought

her to that place and we stayed there for

my last night there. Sunny was sick, but

she wasn't too sick, and I didn't catch

her sickness. I'm fine, which is great. I

was kind of scared I was gonna catch her

sickness, but I don't feel sick at all.

So I guess just because someone's sick

really badly doesn't mean— it is weird

though, because she said she was really

sick and she had like flu and stuff,

and you would think that's really

contagious, but then how come I didn't get

it? Unless I'm already immune to it

because I already got it. Maybe she has

what I already had last October or

something. Who knows? But I'm fine. And

then she came over and we had burritos

and we watched Squid Game and it was quite

nice. And then we left in the morning. I

took her to work and then I

basically just hung around the car charger

place, and then I went to do a viewing.

Oh my God, I crashed my car. I completely

forgot about that. Yeah, I went to this

house viewing. I went to this

house viewing. It was like a terrace

house, end of terrace house. It had a

little lane going up to the house. I

stupidly drive up the lane and I get stuck

because the road going into the little

lane, it was kind of busy for a tiny road.

It was like a tiny little village road.

And I was thinking, oh, it'll be so quiet,

I'll just park on the road. I get there

and it's all jammed up, there's traffic.

So I kind of panic and I drive up into the

lane towards the house and now I can't get

out. Either I reverse back into the main

road, which was dangerous, or I go to the

end of the lane where there was like a

little parking spot. So I go to

the end of the lane and I try and reverse

into the little parking spot. The problem

is to my right was another

house. So it was like, imagine a road and

then you've got the parking spot and then

to the right side is the house just

sitting there. The house is right in front

of you. There's no wriggle room. I mean,

there's no wiggle room. So when I do a

reverse park, usually I go— I like,

I steer the opposite direction and then I

back in and then I steer forwards again.

And I kind of wiggle my way in. But there

was no way to do that because the house— I

nearly hit the house. I was— I reckon I

was so close to hitting, driving into that

person's house. So it was like a reversing

parking spot with a, a corner,

like a wall like that, like a 90-degree

wall. And I went forwards, I reversed into

the space But now I've got to turn right

to drive out. It was so tight.

Every time I tried to steer, the side of

the car was getting closer and closer and

closer to the corner, the concrete wall

corner. And I was like going forwards and

then going backwards and then going

forwards and then going backwards and

going forwards and going backwards. And I

was so— I had to go so close to the house.

And then every time I did that, it was

like the car was getting closer and closer

to the corner. And then the road was like

sloped on the edges. And then the car just

went like that and leaned against the

corner. And the side of my car is now

scratched up and dented. I was

so embarrassed. Luckily, no one came out.

I just really wanted to get out of there

as quickly as possible. I was like, fuck.

Fuck your house. I don't care. I actually

ran over all these weeds that were on the

reversing spot, and then I drove out. I

felt so embarrassed. If anyone saw that,

they would have been mad because I was so

close to hitting the house. I hit the

wall, so now there's this big gash and

the door's dented in because the car was

leaning into the corner as I was turning.

Oh my God, I was sweating.

And then I didn't even get the house

anyway. As soon as I— the next day the

house was taken off the market, and it was

a shit house anyway. It was horrible. It

was a 3-bedroom, but each of the rooms

were really tiny, so what's the point?

Ugly house. And then I wrecked my car

and I drove— it was like nearly

a 2-hour drive to get there and then back

to where I had to pick up Sunny. Oh my

God. So I get back, I have

to charge my car again before picking up

Sunny, and then Sunny says she's ready,

so I go to pick her up, and then I'm just

sitting outside of her office and she's

still not coming out, and she doesn't come

out until like half an hour later, and I'm

just sitting there on these double yellow

lines, and then this traffic warden comes

out of nowhere tells me to move and I get

worried thinking I'm gonna get fined. But

he was nice, he just said park it in the

bay. So I moved into the bay, but the bay

you actually had to pay parking for. But I

guess he was the one checking for the

parking tickets and he had already left,

so I didn't have to buy a parking ticket.

But I was really nervous whilst

I was waiting for her to come back out.

Oh my God, what a stressful day. And then

we booked a hotel for a night and we had

to drive all the way to the hotel and I

kept missing lanes. It happened 3 times,

I think. I was in the wrong lane and then

I had to follow the lane, otherwise I

would have made a dangerous maneuver

again. God, I hate these lanes where

it's got like an arrow. I want to go

forwards But the lane I'm in, just

suddenly out of nowhere, like a left-only

arrow appears and I'm like, oh my God,

give me some warning at least. Last time

I just ignored the arrows and I just

lunged into the other lane. I got pulled

over by the police, so I'm not doing that

So yeah, I get to the hotel and we spent

the night in a hotel.

And then we did

another house viewing, which was— it was

quite a decent house, only about £700 a

month as well, so it was quite good. But I

don't think I'm gonna apply for it because

I want this other house, and I've already

paid holding deposits for 2 places now,

so I should better damn well get

somewhere. So then we drive from that

house all the way to this place. And this

place is the serviced apartment that I've

paid a month for, which I'm not

really too happy with. I think as

soon as the storm starts disappearing,

the internet should be fine.

But the rats— I don't know, he said he put

down poison, but the rats, I still hear

them every night trying to get in.

Is it a house or room? It is like a— it's

basically like a stable that

has been converted into a cottage,

but it's got rats in it.

Yeah, so after driving my car for about 6

months now, I finally actually crashed it

into a wall. I crashed it into a

stationary wall. Can you believe that?

But I had no choice. There was literally

no room, because usually what you do when

you're in a tight spot is you drive

forwards a little bit until you have

clearance, and then you can start

steering. There was no room to drive

forwards. Right in front of me was this

stupid house. It was literally like a T,

like this kind of shape. And then I was in

the parking spot, and then the house was

there, and I had to do a sharp turn. But

you do a sharp turn, obviously the side of

your car is gonna hit the corner. So what

was I supposed to do? It was so tight.

Oh wow, thanks Matthew Stone.

Hey Dan. What's your preferred snatch

tightness? A, wizard sleeve. B, normal

snatch. C, Tyson Fury squishing a hot dog

in his fist. Stay well, friend.

Why? Who changed the voice? I didn't

change it. That's kind of creepy.

Have I been hacked or something?

I mean, obviously not too tight and not

too loose is the best, isn't it?

I haven't changed it. I need to go log

into my Streamlabs, see what's going on

there. It used to be— wasn't

it the Indian voice for Super Chats and it

was the British voice for PayPal?

Where's my Indian queen?

How come you didn't like the Indian voice?

I got so used to it. It feels nostalgic

now. Every time I hear Indian woman's

voice, I'm thinking I'm getting a Super

Yeah, you know the annoying thing about

these referencing companies is that you

pass the referencing, they start sending

you emails saying, congratulations,

your move-in date is blah blah blah,

let's get you set up with your utilities

and internet. And I thought, oh my god, I

got the place. If they're sending me

congratulation emails, that must mean

they've got info from the real estate

agents. And I got the— I thought 100% sure

that I got the place. And now I just

realized that it's just like an automated

thing they spam out to you if you pass the

referencing, because I've now got 3

referencing companies sending me emails

congratulating me on the 3 properties I'm

now moving into. I haven't agreed to any

move-in tenancy things. So I haven't got

any places. I just passed a stupid

referencing, and then they're already

trying to get me to sign up for utilities

and internet.

I thought, oh, maybe they know something I

don't because they're in contact with the

real estate agents, but surely the real

estate agent would have messaged me by now

if I actually got the place.

Give us a tier list of potential

properties. Well, you got S tier, the

house. That I paid the holding deposit

for. And then you got the nice farm

cottage, and then you got the ugly farm

brick shack, which looks ugly,

and there's kind of like a building

construction site going on next to it.

I really want the house. If I could get a

house, it'd be so cool.

You're just bad at driving. Well, yeah,

I do make weird decisions when I'm driving

sometimes, but to be fair, I've seen a lot

of bad driving. Picking up Sunny and then

driving her to the hotel, I saw like 3

different things. Number one, there was a

mini roundabout. The 2 cars on it nearly

hit each other. And then a second time,

it was a red light, and then the The guy

at the front of the queue started driving

forwards and then realized it was a red

light, and then he reversed back to the

line. So I feel kind of better

that I'm not the only terrible— I mean,

there's a lot of worse drivers out there.

I'm not that bad. And that

was a really tight spot to reverse around

in. I probably should have maybe

given up on the right turn and driven back

out of the parking spot and tried to get a

better angle, but I was really panicked.

I thought someone was in that house and

they're going to come out any moment.

Imagine I actually drove into someone's

house, because that would do— that would

do damage to the brick wall. Like, the

integrity of the structure could actually

be affected if you drove into a house.

I would just run away. I wouldn't even

care. I'm not getting in trouble over

that. No, I'm not owning the house.

I'm renting the house.

Buying a house is like a goal for next

year because I think you just need like a

$10K, $15K, ideally $20K deposit to get

a mortgage going. But first I need to rent

and then start making money, paying off my

debts. I reckon being able to buy a house

could be like a 2026, 2027 goal.

What do you mean I don't know what I'm

talking about? I've been researching this

stuff all day, every day. No more

travels. I don't see the point.

It doesn't get any views, it costs

a lot of money, and what you get in return

for your money is not really much unless

you can get a girlfriend in that country,

and then you've got all these visa

problems. I can't get a job overseas

because I don't have any qualifications,

so I would end up having to get married

again to stay with whoever I'm living

with.

And then I'll just end up feeling like I'm

trapped in this foreign country where I

don't speak the language and I, I can't

get a job. And if YouTube completely

disappears, what am I gonna do?

What, be a taxi driver in Thailand making

$100 a week? I'd be screwed.

So that's— it's kind of scary when you're

living overseas and you solely require on

YouTube to bring in the money and your

channel is kind of dead and it's your only

source of income. At least here in

England, I can always get a job. Worst

case scenario.

Did any of these girls ever catfish you?

Only in terms of what

they look like. You know, girls always put

loads of makeup or a filter on. You meet

them, they look completely different,

or they lie about their age. That was just

once. Tomoko,

but I've never agreed to meet up with

someone and then they didn't show up or

So yeah, I just— I don't see the point of

trying to keep moving overseas. It doesn't

even get any views either.

Maybe like back then, 2022, I was getting

more views back then anyway, but I think I

got like 15K views and then the channel

just— people got bored of me being in

Thailand. So what's the point?

Quality of life sucks.

It's expensive.

I don't get more views doing it. I don't

even really like living abroad anymore,

so why bother? It only— it's

only easy mode if you got like a

girlfriend that already has a place and

then you can just mooch off her and then

she does everything for you. But same can

be said anywhere. I mean, if I got a woman

here who has a house and just move in,

it'd be the same, wouldn't it? But I'd

still be unhappy because I don't think

being a leech really makes you happy. I

think if you can stand on your own 2 feet

and you're independent, I think it'll be

hard work, but it'll be rewarding and you

would feel like you got fulfillment and a

purpose in life. Being a leech is just

kind of boring. You admit

you're a leech.

Depends. Not in a financial sense,

but in the sense of, yeah, I wouldn't have

been able to get an apartment or condo by

myself and I would have just been in a

guesthouse suffering. Having a local

girlfriend in that country unlocks all

these things that are just closed off to

you as a foreigner, like being able to get

a nice place for cheap.

But now I'm in the UK, I don't need that.

I can get— I can rent my own place because

I'm a British national.

So according to my calculations, if I can

make about £2,500 a month minus £1,800

expenses, that leaves me with about £800

disposable after everything. Times that by

12, it's like £10,000 net

profit. And then I've got my debts. So

first year I'd have to pay off my debts:

£8K to my mum, £2K credit card,

And then the second year I get to pocket

all the money, £10K. And then third year I

have £20K. That should be enough to put

down a deposit. So maybe 2028 I

could put down a deposit for a house.

That's my plan. The only problem is

I get bored and then I lose motivation.

That is a possibility, but right now the

idea of having my own place and being able

to decorate it, got good internet,

get a nice sofa, some— make it cozy and

relaxing, and I can charge

my car. Maybe get a fish tank. That sounds

really nice to me. And then I just do