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Welcome back to my channel, guys.

I was away, now I'm back

in financial trouble and other trouble.

Oh well, savings went up because market rebounded just as I predicted.

Things looking real bad, guys. Uh, £800 overdraft, £158 148 electricity coming next week, rent in 2 weeks. Current earnings, half of what I need.

Made £100 on Kick this whole week. I'm really slacking off now.

Yep, back at my Devon house.

My main bread and butter is streaming, I guess, and it's not going well.

Yeah, I used to have a car loan, but I paid it all off and then I bought a new car. Got a Citroën C4 Electric.

New stream topic ideas? Hmm, apart from being broke, having massive bills that I can't afford anymore, don't really know what else to talk about.

Buying another car was stupid? No, because I got £900 cashback. And I got a £500 Electrobuzz charging card, and my car insurance is now £300 cheaper per year, and my car has heated seats and steering wheel

and looks really cool

and really comfy on the motorway.

Uh, car's costing me £100 a month. For 3 years?

Yeah, but I don't want to go to Japan.

Maybe I'd make more money if I was in Japan, but I'd spend more money too, plus paying this place as well.

No, car loan doesn't count as debt. It's like your phone bill isn't debt, it's just a payment plan.

I don't put the rent on my numbers either.

I mean, if I sold every— like, if I moved out of the house and got rid of the car, sold everything, I could probably have a cheaper cost of living in Japan, cheaper than £2,000 a month.

But I can only stay there for 3 months and I don't have visa and I don't really want to go there either.

Being in Japan just reminds me of the days when I used to be famous and And life was pretty good and easy. It just reminds me of all this stuff that used to be good and now doesn't exist anymore.

I didn't get any big views in Japan last year. Yeah, I had like more of my regular viewers coming back, but it's not really enough,

unfortunately.

Yeah, well, I just don't really want to do that anymore.

I like having a car, I like driving.

I like being in the UK.

I never even got famous because of Japan. It was because of not having any friends.

And I guess there were enough people within that group of people who were into Japan that stuck around because at the time I was living in Japan.

How is this better than Japan? Uh, number 1, I don't have to speak Japanese. Number 2, everyone speaks English. Number 3, I have all the food that I love here. Number 4, I have a car. Number 5, I can easily go see my family. Number 6, I have a girlfriend. Number 7,

I don't want to go to Japan anymore.

Yeah, remember that shitty guest house? And I think never again. Oh, nice house, peaceful nights, not hearing people speaking through the walls.

I'm so sick and tired of living in like guest house kind of building when I'm nearly 40. It's okay when you're young, but when you're nearly 40, you want a house, don't you? Privacy, peace and quiet. You think I want to be living in a guest house when I'm like 40 years old?

It's just depressing and embarrassing.

A 40-year-old man should have a house and a car and a wife would be nice.

But yeah, maybe I've got to start looking for a job. I just don't really know when.

Because I want to go back to my mum's house again for a few weeks. So I can't get a job now and then

go off for 2 weeks.

I really don't know. I was thinking maybe day trading, but after today, holy crap, I lost £250 today, but I made £80. So that was not a very good day.

I would have had more money if I just didn't do anything at all today. Market ripped.

Yeah, there's loads of updates. I lost, lost nearly £200 today. Uh, my account would be Nearly 1,600, but it's at 1,375. I don't know

how I'm going to pay rent. I'm going to have to start selling off stocks.

I've been trying to do bee liveries, but they hardly ever pop up. And when they do, it's only £20, £25 for the day, and then I have to spend like £4 or £5 charging my car back up.

So I'm gonna have to like

Probably look for a job after Christmas.

So annoyed with myself for today.

Did 2 really good trades and then I screwed it all up.

So I might have to take £800 out of my trading accounts to pay off the overdraft,

and then electricity I'm gonna have to Grind kick. I've got Wednesday, Thursday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday. I've got 7 days.

Maybe I can make £150,

pay off the electricity bill. And then rent, the big fat £900.

I'm gonna be in overdraft again.

Next YouTube pay will be the end of December, and it's probably just going to be a couple hundred pounds.

This whole YouTube thing came crashing down.

I've completely lost the will to make videos because they just never get any views.

It's not even anything to make a video about. Anything fun happen? Lately, yeah, I went to arcades,

spent about £15 on the penny machines, got fish and chips.

The old videos didn't make any money, so it didn't make any difference.

The problem is I just don't have any content. Content requires using people. Either you get them to consent to it or you do it secretly

and then they find out and then you get in big trouble.

Yeah, well, I got until end of Christmas, I guess, and then I'll start

having to look for a job, I guess, if I want to continue living like this.

Result of you not sharing anything? Yeah, because the thing I'm not sharing is not worth losing over chump change on YouTube.

I wish I never said anything about Amazon Flex.

You guys think that it is worth my time and effort to tell you everything. When I tell you everything and I barely make anything from it, And then I lose things permanently because I told you. And then you, you're like, oh, why isn't Daniel sharing everything? Hmm, wonder why. Maybe because every time I fucking talk about something,

I get fucking banned or fired or blocked. Telling you everything has never resulted in anything good. Why the fuck would I keep doing it? Grow a brain.

I'm not telling you anything anymore.

I

hate you people.

Like a bunch of locusts. Swarm of termites.

Flesh-eating snail fungi.

All you do is laugh at me when I fail, never wish me any good wishes, and then when I share anything I'm actually excited about, you end up getting me banned or fired or something. Fucking hate you people.

Toxic audience.

I hate it.

Now I'll go back to being a stupid fucking wage slave.

And people say, oh, you could make videos about other things. Stupid fucking Elvis Aiden was like, oh Daniel, there's millions of people who like Star Wars. There's millions of people who like everything. It doesn't mean millions of people are gonna watch a video about me talking about it. I barely know anything about Star Wars. I have like

the most basic entry-level knowledge of Star Wars. I'm not a Star Wars nerd. I like some of the movies when I was a kid and that was it. And I played that one game.

I don't even like talking about Star Wars. That's stupid. I never forget how stupid Elvis the Alien sounded.

When he suggested I make Star Wars videos. Fucking dumb.

There's no topic I can speak on with authority that are gonna— that's gonna like command people's attention because I don't know what I'm talking about, about anything.

Really? So why would anyone watch me talking about anything? The only good thing I was good at was doing dumb stuff

and clickbaiting it.

Apart from that, I'm pretty useless.

I mean, the only good thing— good thing I was good at was like talking about how miserable I am.

Well, yeah, the total views dropped because I took the videos down. Doesn't really mean anything. It's just how many views it got in total. It's not like it makes money. Like, I could have gotten a billion views. 10 years ago.

Doesn't really matter now.

Learn what?

I'm trying to learn day trading, but then you're like, oh, that's not a good thing to learn. It's gambling. Everything's gambling.

Every time you step out the door, you're gambling. Every time you take a delivery job and get in the car, you're gambling. You might have a car accident or damage the car. So you make like £20, but then you just damaged £1,000 worth of damage on your car.

I lost £2,000 of value on my car because I damaged it. But no one says, oh, delivery work's gamble. But I went out that day and I drove my car and I damaged it and I lost £2,000 of value on the car. But no one ever says, oh, that's gambling.

People think trading's gambling because you can lose money. You can lose money doing anything.

You can lose money doing delivery work.

Like you hit a pothole or you drive over a nail or you reverse into a bush.

Yeah, I broke my phone, had to buy a new phone. That day cost me— instead of going out to make £40 that day, that day ended up costing me £250 because I had to buy a new phone.

Um, I think OnlyFans still makes a couple hundred a month. Last time I took money out was a couple weeks ago, I had £78. Probably has like £150 built up in it now.

Ah,

got big problems.

This trading thing's really tough because you can't say, oh, I want to make £40 a day, because maybe one day you make £40 and then the next day you lose £100.

And there's only 20 days a month of trading days, so you lose like £100-something in one day. That's like 3 days worth if you can make it back the next day.

It could take you 2 days to make back what you lost in that one day.

So then the profitable days become very small, and you already don't have a lot of days out of the month because of the stupid weekends.

How did you lose so much?

I started revenge trading and then I got stopped out £10 here, stopped out £5 there. 20 trades later, That's a lot of stops.

Well, I don't really want YouTuber life anymore. I don't, I don't want to be a con— I don't want to make content. I don't want to have a brand. I don't want it anymore, but it's the only thing that makes any money still. Even if it's just a tiny bit of money.

Well, I can't quit YouTube until I get a job.

It just— I don't know, as you get older, the whole idea of making content just seems so stupid and childish.

I don't know why when I think of like the word content creator or streamer, all I can think of is Johnny Somali. Like his stupid face just pops up in my mind,

like doing dumb stuff to get views, and look where that ended up getting him. Do I want that? No thanks.

Unfortunately, my style of content was not really that much different to these nuisance streamers. Sure, I didn't go out in public streaming live annoying people, but

my content was like real life stuff with real people

and I had no like respect or I just disregarded their personal lives to make content, not caring about how they felt.

And I just don't want to do that anymore.

It is not wise to make enemies in this world.

Does it mean you have empathy?

I don't know, it just means that there's so many streamers getting into legal troubles these days. Mizkif, Hasan,

Johnny Somali.

I just don't want that anymore.

Yeah, YouTube was fun.

When, like, the law didn't get involved.

But now you can't do that anymore.

It's not like an Xbox gamer lobby where you can just start screaming the N-word.

We live in a day and age where

you just can't mouth off on the internet anymore.

Just keep it to yourself.

I mean, I probably would be happy if I never started YouTube.

I probably would have gotten over this fear of having a job way sooner and probably been happier.

The longer I put off getting a job, the harder it is to get one.

I worked in a petrol station for a year. I never had any customer mouth off to me in real life.

People in real life are very friendly and polite.

On the internet, human beings just become like disgusting animals.

People would kill to have a job at home on the internet.

Yeah, and so would I, but it doesn't make enough money, does it? What, you think people would kill to make

A couple hundred pounds a month

on a dead YouTube channel.

I can't take a break for a few months because I've got no money.

I think streaming is definitely more mentally tiring than a real job.

Depends how much money you're going to make to make it seem worth it. For the amount I'm making, it's not worth it at all.

Yet my views are down because I haven't been making videos or streaming because I've been on Kick. Doesn't have anything to do with deleting the old videos.

The old videos didn't get any views.

The only thing getting views was me spamming out constant videos and streams, and then I started Kick, so I stopped posting on YouTube much. That's why the views went down, not because I deleted the old stuff.

No, I don't have any plans to go to Japan.

Poppy's not banned.

Put what effort?

What effort is there to put?

Yeah, the bulk of the videos had a constant revenue of about $50 a month.

I know how much they made, it's on the analytics. They didn't make much money.

A couple cents here, a couple cents there, maybe $1 there per month. Barely anything.

If I had like one magic video that kept getting loads of views all the time, I wouldn't have set it to private.

And also, if there was a video like that, the channel would be growing, not dying. Because then they'd be— they'd join the channel, wouldn't they? Subscribe to it.

To make any money, videos need to be getting

Hundreds of thousands of views. Anything below 20,000 views, it's barely gonna make you anything.

This channel ruins everything good I ever get.

I don't want to go to Japan.

I'd rather get a job than go to Japan.

No, I have a total of 40 million views since I started the channel.

I really hate my YouTube channel.

It's just been like a curse ever since it started to get going.

Like an endless curse.

And it makes me feel depressed.

You know, when I don't stream, I feel pretty normal, like my mood is pretty neutral,

but going live And streaming just makes me feel miserable.

I hate that the only thing I have to talk about is worrying about money.

And I hate most of you people. You're just fucking annoying, to be honest.

You guys never seem to understand anything. I don't understand why you don't understand anything

without needing, like, a lot of explanation.

I don't know why I have to correct someone every 10 seconds about something wrong they said. It's really frustrating.

Yeah, I will get a job,

and then I'll be gone forever,

and then you'll regret not treating me nicer.

Ew, Chris Broad doesn't hate his audience because His audience have never made him lose stuff he cares about.

Yeah, it is a good job when you're making good money. When you're making peanuts, it's rubbish. This was a good job when it made money.

I mean, yeah, basically I do have to concede defeat to the haters. I can't bring a girl on the channel because the haters relentlessly bully the girl until she has a breakdown. So I mean, ever since Mila, I realized I can't have girls on the channel because I got fucking loser incels following me

who love picking apart how the girls look. I can't talk about jobs because then they start harassing my job and getting me fired.

So yeah, I can't really do anything, can I?

Because I got a toxic, horrible weirdo freak audience who are into doxxing and harassment And they, they come from the worst parts of the internet. Red pill, incel, black pill, fucking loser pill. You got the fucking losers from all the shitty scumbag holes of the internet drawn to me for some reason.

Disgusting parts of humanity.

Have made it impossible for me to do YouTube anymore.

Unfortunately, through my YouTube channel, I have birthed

a horrible spawn of evil,

festering, disgusting black blob of all the worst human traits possibly in existence.

That is my creation, unfortunately. That's what I've birthed into the world, is you people as an audience.

And I guess only I can destroy it by nuking everything. And then you're all gone. You can all fuck off, find someone else to torment.

I'm not addicted to attention at all. I'm just like milking my last few dollars.

Or go watch those other streamers then. Be my guest. Get lost.

Yeah, well, I didn't used to like banning people because I used to believe in freedom of speech and I thought people should be able to, be able to say what they want,

but turns out most people shouldn't be able to say what they want.

Because they got nothing good to say.

I'm not sensitive about comments.

But

if it jeopardizes stuff in my real life, yeah, I get upset about it.

I've always had the stance of I don't really care what the haters say because it doesn't affect me. The problem is the things they say affect external things around me. Like other people or jobs or I don't know.

The words don't have an effect on me, but the words have an effect on things that are important to me.

Yeah, like my mum or my sister. So maybe it's all fine and good that I'm not affected by the words, but it affects other things that are important to me.

Other people.

So they realize that they can't, like, bully me because I don't care what they say. So they started going after the people around me.

Like my family or jobs. It's just a pathetic scumbag group of people.

Uh, yeah, they won, so I can't share anything anymore.

Congrats.

Hope that was worth 10 years of your life.

You gained absolutely nothing out of it. Well done.

Apart from maybe you feel satisfied.

But at the end of the day, it doesn't make any difference. I'm still here. I still do my thing. It just won't be publicized. I'll just find another way to make money.

They wasted nearly a decade trying to ruin my life.

As if, if my YouTube life disappears, I disappear. No, I'm still going to be here. I'll just find another way to make money. I'll carry on doing whatever I'm doing. You just won't know about it.

I won't disappear. I mean, I'll disappear from the internet. Sure.

I haven't succeeded in anything.

If anything, they've made it easier for me to stay under the radar. Because the only thing ruining things was my— was me announcing everything.

So now I just won't announce anything.

Yeah, I'll miss out on some income, but I'll find a way to replace it. I, you know, I existed before YouTube and I'll exist after YouTube.

I mean, at the end of the day, it's your loss because

you won't hear any of my stories anymore.

Surely you must have found my stories entertaining to some point if they made you stick around for all this time. But now you're not gonna get any new stories. So loads of cool stuff has happened that you would have had a great time hearing about, but you're not gonna hear about it now.

I've got some banger stories just over the last few months, but you don't hear about it.

So you just like basically silenced one of the best storytellers on YouTube. Congrats.

But, you know, I have to look out for myself.

I did animation stories for 5 years. None of it took off. What are you talking about?

I stuck to it for 5 years. Last animation story series was in Thailand. 2023, I think.

I did a bunch of them, like the British girlfriend's one, the Hong Kong woman one,

the Swedish girl.

Japan's boring. It's all been said and done. Back when I was doing YouTube, like 2018, it was relatively

unheard of for someone to complain about Japan. Apart from Ryan Boundless, I guess. It has now become a very popular thing to hate on Japan.

It was easy to get views back then because I was one of the only people doing it. Most people were, you know, glorifying Japan back then. Now there's so many dark side of Japan, why Japan's falling. Even Chris and Connor make videos now about why Japan sucks.

So that thing doesn't really work anymore.

So much content about Japan out there already. It's not mysterious anymore like it used to be back in the early 2010s. It was kind of mysterious still to follow someone who's living in Japan as a foreigner. Because people weren't really, you know, it's like, oh, how do they do it? What kind of visa? What's it like living

in Japan? No one cares anymore. There's millions of foreigners in Japan.

They all teach English, they live in a shitty little apartment, and they eat noodles every day. Nobody cares.

It's not 2010 anymore where it was a big mystery.

I mean, look at Gimme a Break Man. He still lives in Japan, he still makes vlogs about Japan, his channel still died. I mean, I— that would have been me if I stayed married to Hero and had a kid. I would have just been Gimme a Break Man, but I don't know, 30 years younger.

I looked at Gimme a Break, Man. I thought that could be me in 20 years' time.

Gone all gray. Still in Japan. Still trying to make Japan videos. Every single one flopping. And then feeling like I missed out on so many adventures because I stayed married in Japan.

That's why I decided to leave,

because I thought I'd move on to bigger and better stuff, but I guess I was wrong.

I still get more views than Give Me a Break, man. I still get like 3,000 or 4,000. He barely even gets 1,000 anymore.

After how many decades in Japan, you just got nothing new to talk about.

So, yeah, I don't know, I'm really screwed.

All I can probably hope for is like a trending video here or there. Like maybe Steam Machine gets me some views.

Why am I still in this house? Well, you just wouldn't understand, and I don't blame you for not understanding because I haven't told you. And that's my point. You're just not going to understand anything because you don't know the context, because I'm not telling you the context and never will.

Why bother streaming? To make money. Why the fuck do you think? Fucking moron.

Streams making $15, $20 for a couple hours, still worth doing?

Surely there's better ways to make money than this. Yeah, like a million different better ways. That's my point. You need me more than I need you.

Because YouTube is not the only way to make money in the world. You know, there's a million other ways to make money. There's only one of me. You'll never find another one of me. You keep saying I need you more than you need me. Oh no, it's the other way around. You will never find someone like me,

ever.

But I will find another way to make money.

There's no one on YouTube like me.

The thing is, hard to replace an income stream that brings in a couple hundred a month.

You wish.

What do I spend my money on? Well, just this weekend I spent, what, food, like £30. I went to the arcade, spent £15, £5 parking.

And then, yeah,

I mean, just, you know, bills, food,

electricity.

Yeah, maybe you'll move on to another streamer, but it won't be like me. You'll never find a streamer like me.

You used to love the attention. Yeah, and I do. It's just I barely get any attention anymore.

You know, you don't really get a dopamine hit off of what, 90 viewers?

500 viewers? Yeah, that's when it's exciting. 90 viewers? I fall asleep at 90 viewers.

But you gotta do crazy stuff to get those numbers. Like in Japan, I got stalked and I got 300 viewers, which is the highest amount of viewers I had in years. I think before then, last time I got 300 viewers was probably

like the Mila days. It's been nearly 5 years since I had 300 viewers.

Yeah, I do want less attention.

I want to make it get to a point where

this whole YouTube thing is worth such little money that giving it up is easy. It was hard to give up when I was making thousands a month because the money was good. When you're saying all I have to lose is a couple hundred a month, it's not really hard to give it up then.

Give up now? I've already given up. This is the face of defeat.

I give up.

It's just not possible anymore to live off YouTube.

I would have to wake up the next day as a completely different person and be like, wow, I really want to make a documentary about all the different types of rocks and make it animated as well with cool music and narration.

Like, I, I just have to be— become a different person completely

who actually enjoys making videos.

But it's just hard to enjoy it when you know every single thing's gonna flop. And you might think, oh, you're thinking negatively, you don't know everything's gonna flop.

Yeah, but it's extremely unlikely that it's not gonna flop.

I tried so hard for 5 years

and I really tried

putting my best effort into editing and drawing stuff, but nothing popped off.

If it popped off, you would know. And I'd be like, yes, this is the new direction.

The only thing that actually worked for a bit was Do Not Buy and Why I Regret Buying.

Nothing else worked.

That Legal Mindset guy, he's got such a good thing going for YouTube. He's got great knowledge of the law. He's got endless content from all these streamers and stuff getting into lawsuits and stuff that he can cover. He doesn't have to discuss his own personal life at all.

See, that's, that's how you win at YouTube. You have some kind of, some kind of special knowledge about a topic, and then you cover something that's trending.

You combine a special knowledge plus,

I don't know, covering something.

Well, there's this one guy, Barista something, like this bald UK guy talks about kind of like politics and economics in the UK. And all he's got to do is just make a video about some new budget thing or policy.

Gets hundreds of thousands of views.

Why is he in trouble in America?

Well, there's 2 ways to get views on YouTube. Number one, you gotta have talent, like a special skill.

You're good at doing it. Or number 2,

you just use drama.

And that works for a bit until it catches up to you,

bites you in the backside. Like, you just cause drama and you do dumb stuff that gets your name out there, but it also gets you in trouble.

But it's like, it's like the dark side. It's like a shortcut. Yeah, maybe you get ahead in the beginning, but eventually you get bollocked.

And then the people with real talent and skill, like maybe they're just naturally funny or very good looking or very knowledgeable about something, they're going to just keep on chugging away. They start building and building. They do it the proper way.

And you know, I started off in the beginning like that, you know, very humble and innocent, just building slowly. But then I realized the power of clickbait. And I got addicted to it.

And I sacrificed long-term views for short-term views. I thought, yeah, I know, like, if I clickbait this, I'll get a lot of views very quickly at the cost of my credibility and likability. And I thought, I don't care, I just, I want the views now. I'll worry about later, later.

And later is now. Now,

not later anymore.

I probably cut my hair tomorrow.

You're an angry man. Yeah. Sad, defeated, broken.

My dreams destroyed.

The plan. Hmm.

Hmm,

I'm just trying to think when the ideal time to actually get a job is. It can't be now because I need to go back to Kent to get my door fixed, and then there's Christmas.

So for the time being, I need to like scrimp as much as I can together

until January. And then pre-January,

after I leave my mum's house and come back here, I will have to look for a job.

I might have to try Uber Eats.

You know, I'm even thinking of doing Uber Eats here. I have to do a 1-hour drive to the nearest town.

And give it a shot. Maybe I could make £50, who knows.

6-month break?

Um, I don't know, I just, I wouldn't be able to survive financially, and if I had a job Yeah, if I had a job, then I could take a 6-month break.

Yeah, 1-hour drive. By the time I get to the McDonald's, I would have

like 50% battery left, and then I got to charge. I got to charge at the McDonald's. So already to start work, it's cost me

Like £10.

So even before I made any money, I'm gonna have to spend £10.

No, I wouldn't rather deliver McDonald's than streaming, but I won't have a choice.

Yeah, so charging could be like, I don't know, £20.

So even if I make—

I have to make like £60 to make £40.

And also my car is a lot bigger now, so it's not as easy to like zip in and out of places.

What time is it? Nearly 10.

Oh, I got to cut my damn hair.

Probably cut it tomorrow.

Who says I'm going to do Uber Eats for the remainder of my life?

I'm going to inherit a £1 million mansion

and then I just downsize to a nice little cottage in the countryside for like 200K, and then my, my monthly expenses would be like 400 a month. So I won't have to pay rent or mortgage.

My bills would just be food, electricity.

I could literally just do what I'm doing now and survive quite comfortably.

I can't live in the house because I gotta pay the inheritance tax, which I wouldn't be able to afford.

Yeah, split with my sister, get like $400K each.

More than enough to buy a nice little cottage.

Central heating, little fireplace.

So I'd get like a nice little house.

£200K. Don't need to pay rent, don't need to pay mortgage, just got to pay food, electricity, council tax. It would be like £500 a month, my expenses.

Just do some streaming here, bit of trading there.

If I need to do some delivery, why not?

There's loads of houses for £200K in Devon.

Yeah, well, by the time I'm 60, all the companies will be using robots and AI. So no one will have a job and then the governments will just tax the big companies

that use AI and robots and then just redistribute that money back into society. And then we'll just, like Elon Musk says, we'll just live off like some kind of government-paid income.

If these companies are going to save billions of dollars by firing everyone, then they should have to pay billions of dollars taxes

to support society and the economy.

I mean, what's the point? Like, they're developing this technology to make humans Not necessary, but they need humans to consume their products and buy their products.

Why don't they just make robots that consume the products? Like the robots can build the products for their robot customers. The people at Amazon be like, we don't need human customers anymore. We have robot customers.

And then the robots will just create the stuff for the robots.

End up being like The Matrix.

Like, back in the olden days, you needed manpower to build stuff and get stuff done. But if everything is just done with robots and AI, why do you need people anymore? Just get rid of all the people then. And then the only people left would be like the mega billionaires

enjoying their life surrounded by robots.

What is not looking great? Number one, I'm in £800 overdraft. Where am I going to get £800 from? Kick's paying me £100 on Thursday.

YouTube paid me £155 yesterday,

and then I got rent coming, and I got electricity coming.

I'm gonna have to start selling off my stocks.

My nose is red.

I don't know, my whole face is kind of red.

I got $4,000 in stocks.

So much my $10,000 in stocks plan, that really worked.

Well, didn't it?

This isn't living? What would you know? Because I don't show you anything outside of this.

You have no idea what I get up to on the weekend,

and you never will.

Not

telling you nothing.

I'll just go around every petrol station handing my CV.

I've got years of experience working in a petrol station. Just put 5 years experience. How they know? They're not going to check.

Used to be the most open YouTube on the site. Yeah, and look who ruined it. Viewers ruined it.

I blame all of you for everything.

So this month I only made 765. Would be 865 in a few days. Wow, I didn't even make £1,000. That's insane. 5 days left in the month.

What do you mean dollars or pounds? I just said pounds. Are you deaf? I literally just said £765.

And then you're asking, is that in pounds or dollars?

I went from making £4,000, £5,000 a month to now not even £1,000.

I can't even make more than $200 a week on Kick anymore. I thought, oh, things aren't gonna be that bad. I made $800 a month still. The best I can do on Kick now is like $400 or $500 a month, with YouTube at maybe $300 or $400, OnlyFans maybe a couple hundred. The best I can hope for

is like $1,000

200. Yeah, maybe I will make a video, how my viewers ruin my life.

Bet you'll love that.

Well, for now, best I can do is practice my day trading whilst streaming on Kick. Uh, could make maybe £500, £600 a month, plus YouTube streams, maybe £400 a month. Could probably still make about £1,000.

Throw in some delivery work, probably get a couple hundred.

Might be able to scrimp and save

nearly £1,500.

Really sucks I'm in such a terrible place to do Uber Eats.

Maybe I try that Plymouth place again.

That's 36 minutes drive away.

It's too difficult trying to do it in the city. It's too much traffic, nowhere to park.

You need to be on a bicycle for that.

1 hour drive. Oh God. 46 miles,

45 miles away.

Maybe if I move closer to a town,

it might be better.

Uber used to be such a great thing to fall back on.

It's just so hard to do it here.

Maybe I'll try it on the weekend. I don't know.

You don't use your creative side anymore. Yeah, because I became very, uh, right-brained since I got into stocks, become very like into numbers and finance, and I became less creative and artistic.

I used to be very artistic, you know, I make these videos, I choose the music, the music would dictate my mood. And then I'd go with that mood of melancholy to tell a story about how I had all these hopes and then they were destroyed and it left me feeling empty and sad. And the music really like

inspired the video, really.

But you don't have infinite amount of stories to tell, so you run out of stories and you end up just telling the same ones over and over. But that's boring, so if I'm bored, then I can't make a good video because I need to be enjoying it. But there's no— I don't want to tell any stories. I

don't have any stories that I'm like really itching to tell.

I have a lot of problems. I have a lot of problems that require a lot of brain power. To navigate because you got to think, oh, if this happens, then I'll do that. But this could also happen. So I've got to be prepared for that. So there's, there's all— I'm like trying to predict 5 possible different outcomes

that could screw me over whilst planning a plan A, B, and C for each potential outcome. You have no idea what kind of 5D chess I'm playing in my brain.

You have no idea.

I have to come up with backup plans for the backup plans.

It is mentally taxing

and none of it is, you know, about making money.

So not only am I worried about money, I'm worried about the backup plans for my backup plans, my blackout plans.

I'm thinking about moving out, but to a different town.

But I can't do that yet. I can't do any kind of moving until— I

don't know.

Maybe spring next year.

Which area? I don't know, but I'd go back eastwards,

maybe like East Devon, or maybe even into Somerset, or maybe further like Basingstoke.

So I want to find like a town where Uber Eats is viable and then find somewhere around that town to live.

But I've got to do some scouting, like actually drive an hour to the town to test it to see what it's like for Uber Eats.

Oh, Uber Eats is like the only reason to move, isn't it?

Otherwise I gotta just get a job in my local area.

Which, I mean, if I start getting to know people and then I randomly bump into them whilst I'm out, that could be a problem.

I'm not going to live in the town. I live on the outskirts of the town.

Ah, not even one donut tonight. Not making anything.

Live in the car.

Yeah, I live in the McDonald's car park.

I wonder if Crediton has any Uber Eats. I could have hit all the towns on the way there.

46 minutes.

Maybe I just hit every town. Like, I go Oakhampton first, sit there for like half an hour, and then I move on to Crediton, sit there for half an hour.

And then Tiverton.

Oh, the Viking prepper guy who always used to say he wants to marry my sister, he disappeared.

Well, I can go to bed then.

10:00. No, I'm not doing a budget watch party.

How's it going to affect me, this new budget?

The Rachel Reeves budget.

What did I do today?

Uh, secret.

Did some day trading. Lost nearly £200.

ISO reduced to 12K. Well, at least I don't have to worry about that.

Barely got anything left in it anymore. Stupid fucking Bitmine. Down £500 on Bitmine.

Stupid Tom Lee. My Facebook shares are up though. I'm up £5 on Facebook CFDs.

If it hits my price target, it could make £200.

I've got £1,000 in Tesla. Still down £80.

Silver's doing well.

My 5x SPY should do well.

Yeah, I mean, today was not great for trading,

but

if you can find or have the patience to wait for the setup, God, it really can pay well. It's just when you start taking potshots at the market because there's no obvious setup and you're bored That's when you get wrecked.

The problem is I know this, but I never learn from it.

Still making the same mistakes.

Well, hopefully tomorrow's a better day. Today really sucked.

I'm going to bed.

Buy a strategy around here? I don't have any money.

I've got £400 in free funds in my CFD account. I've still got 5 longs that are down £560.

I mean, I could buy £400 worth of CFDs. Like, I can buy 6 shares of Tesla

and buy 4 shares of Facebook.

I bought £15 of Bitmine— Bitcoin, I mean Bitcoin today.

Actual Bitmine, I mean Bitcoin.

Well, I'm going to bed.