She Left -(

Got a runny nose.

The server because Chihiro is dating Alka.

Just got a runny nose. I'm fine.

Ahem. Okay, I'm fine.

I just got dust in my eye.

She left this morning.

She went back home.

I feel terrible.

She left because she felt like she was

here for too long and she was getting

bored.

She didn't go to Korea, she just— she went

back home to the Netherlands, back to her

mum's place.

I feel fine.

It's just weird that she's gone now.

She was here for such a long time,

and I got used to having her around. Now

it's weird. She's suddenly gone.

It's just, I don't know, I feel really

confused and gonna

interview Alka after D-date with Shahiro.

I don't really care about this Alka

Um,

what was I saying?

Yeah, she arrived. She must have landed

about 20 minutes ago. Her flight

arrives at 2.

I guess it's the end of one chapter. It

was a pretty good chapter though.

It was always one of my fantasies or my

dreams to bring a girl back home here.

I guess I already did that with my ex-wife

and my other Korean girlfriend, but I

don't feel like those count because I

didn't really feel attracted to them.

How was she able to leave during the

lockdown? Well, the airport's still

running and taxis are still running. Not

everything is locked down. I just spent

all day wandering around outside in the

garden. I just feel kind of lost.

At one moment you're spending every day

with someone, and then next minute they're

She didn't leave because we had an

argument. She was going to leave anyway.

She told me about leaving before we had

that argument,

and it's not like she could stay here

forever. That would just be weird if

she just lived here for months and months

and months. My family would start getting

unhappy with it. My mum would start

getting stressed out, and then she had no

money. She couldn't get a job because of

the lockdown.

So things were difficult.

It's not a breakup because we weren't

really together as a couple,

and she said we can meet again in Korea if

I don't say anything bad about her.

Which I'm pretty sure I won't. I don't

usually badmouth people when they're not

around. I usually just complain about

people when I feel irritated,

and I don't usually feel irritated by

people if they're not here.

We didn't really have a— well, it was kind

of a big argument a few days ago. Last

time I streamed, I was in a bad mood

because she was going to leave soon,

and I was depressed and upset about that,

and I was kind of touchy. On that day,

and then I started ranting about how she

was annoying, and then she heard it and

she got upset.

But we had a talk afterwards, and then

everything was fine. The next day was

really awkward. We didn't really talk to

each other much, but then the,

the last few days were fine. We were back

to normal, and it was nice. We just We

just messed around in the garden,

sunbathing, watching Netflix, drinking

beer. It was nice.

I think it was honestly the best 3 weeks

of my entire life,

or maybe the top, top 5 best moments in my

life. It felt like a dream.

And I guess I was starting to get a bit

stressed out this week and nearing the end

before she left because I'm not used—

well, I guess I am. Well, I guess I'm not.

I'm not really used to, you know, being

with someone all day long every day. When

I was married, My wife— ex-wife had a job,

so she wasn't really around all day long.

Oh, thank you, Benevolent Pete.

Very kind.

It's kind of funny because when the

Turkish girl thing happened, when we

stayed in a hotel together Hope there will

be a reunited video one day.

Thanks, David. Yeah, it would be nice if

we could meet up again in Korea. Maybe.

I'm not sure. I have to think about it.

But when the Turkish girl thing happened,

I swore to myself I would never do that

again because it was just horrible being

stuck in a hotel with someone you didn't

really like. Ended up repeating the same

thing, bringing her back here. But this

time I actually liked her, so that was

nice.

So I did kind of do the same thing, but it

was different this time because it was a

different person and we're not stuck in a

tiny hotel room. Yeah, if we were stuck in

a tiny hotel room for 3 weeks, then I

think things would have been much more

ISNT it hypocritical for your hero to date

one of your fans?

I don't really care. She can do what she

I don't really know how things would have

been different if there wasn't a lockdown.

Maybe she would have went home anyway.

No, before the lockdown started, she said

she wanted to look for a job so she could

save up money to go to Korea. So maybe she

would have just moved back to London.

I don't think she planned to come here and

then live with me and then go straight

back home. The lockdown kind of disrupted

everything.

Now that I think back on it, it's just

kind of crazy, everything that happened.

Going to London to meet her, going to the

trampoline park, the karaoke stuff, then

staying the night in a hotel, and then

bringing her back here the next day.

Well, not the next day, 2 days later.

I don't get why she left before the

lockdown is over. Because she

felt like she was overstaying her welcome,

I think. And she was getting bored and she

was running out of money.

I guess this was unavoidable and

it's the best It's for the best that she

went back, I guess.

I didn't really want her to leave though.

I was hoping that the plane would get

cancelled or the lockdown would get worse.

You could stay with your mother and her

family in the Netherlands when lockdown is

over. No, I wouldn't stay with her family.

I'd get an Airbnb.

Um, yeah, I was kind of hoping that the

lockdown would get stricter and then

everything would get shut down, then she'd

be stuck here.

But then I think things would have been

very stressful if that did happen. I was a

bit worried that the planes— her plane

would get cancelled because all of the

other flights, the same flight that she

took from Saturday and Monday, Tuesday,

Wednesday, they all got cancelled. Said

there was an 80% cancellation rate for

that particular flight, but her flight got

home, it was on time.

It was also lucky the taxi was running.

It was the same man who, who brought me

home when I came back from Korea. He's

nice.

So everything turned out well, I guess.

She got home safely.

It's just weird. Now I have to get used to

being alone again. I don't

really like being alone. People think I

do, and I do get stressed out if I

don't have any alone time, but I just want

a few hours by myself. I don't want to be

alone every day, all day long.

Cesium says he paid you £10,000.

No, he didn't. I don't know how much he's

paid me in total since I started YouTube.

Maybe it's £1,000.

Why don't you think you were in love with

Mina? I don't know.

How would I know if I was in love? I feel

sad she's gone. I feel kind of empty she's

gone. Everything's so quiet now. It's

Thank you, Calmi Stones.

For the €1.

Hmm, I just—

I don't really know what to do now. I kind

of got in a routine when she was here.

I guess I can do anything I want to.

I walked around in the garden for hours

and hours, just walking around in circles.

It was weird.

It kind of feels like she died, but she

didn't really, but it kind of feels like

she did.

Must be lonely now. Yeah, I feel lonely.

It's so confusing, emotions. When people

are around, they're kind of annoying, but

then when they leave, they make you sad.

Why can we see your garden in the

background? Because I put a webcam so I

can see people outside.

I don't know what to do now.

I don't think she would want to come back.

She seemed pretty bored with England.

She kept saying England's boring. She

wants to go back to Korea. Mina must have

had some Thai poo for you to be so sad.

Oh, thank you, Sato.

Well, I think she was the first girl that

I ever brought back home that I actually

felt attracted to,

which is like a Christmas miracle for me.

I'm happy that I got to tick off something

I wanted to do for such a long time. I

thought I'd never be able to experience

Having children with Mila would be a bad

idea.

Hmm, thank you, George.

Hopefully she's not pregnant.

I always came outside, so she should be

fine.

And I've never gotten anyone pregnant

before, so I think my sperm doesn't even

work.

Can she even get back to Korea? They

aren't allowing foreigners on holiday now.

I heard someone else say that. They said

Korea has cancelled its visa waiver for

tourists now, so you can't even go to

Korea as a tourist.

How long is this whole situation gonna go

I still can't go to the dentist.

I went for a checkup before the lockdown

started and they booked me for some

fillings, and then the appointment

got pushed back until June.

Where's my next travel destination? I

don't know. I feel kind of confused about

what I want to do.

I'm not sure. I feel like going back to

Japan won't really result in anything.

I never had much luck in Japan.

I deleted my Twitter because Every

time I was in a bad mood, I would go onto

it and then say dumb stuff, and then it

would get screenshotted. And then I

deleted Discord because I would say dumb

stuff on there all the time and get

screenshotted, and it was just full of

people that were just

kind of toxic and negative. And I felt

like most of the people on my Discord

weren't even there because of me. They

were just random people there.

For no good reason. Maybe I'll

make a new one later,

but I'm not really interested in— I'm not

really interested in social media right

now. I feel like I just want to cut

most of it off and just think

about things. Without it distracting me.

I felt like so many people on the Discord

were just lying to me and then stirring up

drama and then causing drama.

Trying to get me into trouble, trying to

get other people involved into it as well

by inviting them there. It was just a

mess. You need to focus on your dreams

first. Thank you.

I don't— I still don't really know what my

dream is though. These last few weeks

were pretty good though. I think

that's all I just— that's all I really

wanted, just to have a nice girl here and

not have to go all the way to bloody Japan

and live in a tiny shoebox apartment.

Toxic. They try to manipulate you.

Yeah, I know what those two are up to.

I don't trust them. They're always

scheming and up to things.

I think it will take me a while to

readjust back to— back to normal

life, alone and depressed again.

That's all I really wanted in life. I

don't really care about much else. I just

wanted someone to share my life with,

who I feel attracted to.

At least I got to experience it, even if

it didn't last very long.

I guess I'm back to square one again,

aren't I?

My cat's gone blind as well. Mimo, she

lost her eyesight.

Super chat just because you're my favorite

YouTuber. Oh, thank you, it's very kind.

Yeah, Mimo was taken to the vets a few

days ago and they told us that she has

completely lost her eyesight and she's

completely blind. Because of stress,

high blood pressure. Apparently, the

retina has detached from the lens because

of high blood pressure. So that's kind of

sad. I didn't even notice she was kind of

bumping into walls. I thought she was just

you know kind of tired or something.

Meet Shannon. She will probably change

your mind. Don't waste. Your time crying.

Hmm, thank you, Anthony. I don't know

about meeting girls right now. I feel too

confused. I need to let my emotions

settle. Could take a few weeks until I'm

back to normal.

Sad because I always saw Mimo as a young,

healthy cat. But she's

getting old. She's not young anymore. She

must be about 15 or 16.

It's just sad to think she won't hunt

anymore or chase the little string.

It's interesting because she still moves

around and she gets around the house and

the garden like she always did. But she's

just slower now. She has to be careful.

Your channel wouldn't exist without

Cesium's generosity, yet you badmouth

him.

Hmm.

I didn't badmouth him. I just know what

he's like, and he's always scheming and

plotting stuff and trying to

stir drama. I'm thankful for the money

he's given me during streams, but that

doesn't make you immune from me

badmouthing you. If you do something

to deserve it.

The whole Casey, Hong Kong guy,

Chihiro drama basically started because of

Cesium making a server, then inviting

Casey and my aunt Chihiro to the server.

None of that would have happened if it

wasn't for him, so he knows what he's

done.

I don't trust them at all.

It's just sad because I thought they were

fans or they were supposed to like me or

something. I guess you can't

trust anyone.

Why did Mila leave? She left because she

was bored and she felt like she was here

for too long.

What's the pink thing in my hair? It's a

Clips my hair.

I knew she was gonna leave anyway. It's

not like it was sudden, and it's not

because she— it's not because we had an

argument. We talked about her leaving a

week ago.

To be honest, I didn't think she would

stay this long, actually. I thought she

would just stay maybe a week maximum,

but it was nice. I liked her. I liked

having her here.

Chihiro WUDN TV dating Alka If

It WASN't for Caesium.

Chihiro also used to secretly take photos

of me and then send them to Cesium,

which is kind of messed up.

They probably even still talk to each

other now privately.

This is why I had to get rid of Chihiro.

She just wouldn't stop talking to

these weirdos who watch my channel.

I don't know how many weirdos she's,

she's talked to, she keeps in contact

with. Probably the ones from the subreddit

as well.

And it's just kind of sad that I don't

think Chihiro understands how scheming and

manipulative these trolls and

people on the internet are. She— I'm

pretty sure she thinks they're just normal

people looking out for her. They're not

normal people. They're trying to stir up

drama and trying to cause problems for

their own entertainment. That they

couldn't be any further away from being

normal people.

I tried explaining it to her over and

over, but it's like she doesn't get it.

Did I love Mila? I don't know. Love is a

very strong word. Learn how to manage

your feelings. And set goals.

Procrastination will make you feel bad

about yourself. Follow Alex Becker or ask

for that.

Alka is a massive weirdo. Why would she

date him?

I don't really know what my goal is. I

guess I kind of have a goal, which is to

find a nice girl who I like and who likes

me and then do stuff

together. That's basically it. It's not

that complicated.

And then people keep asking me why am I so

obsessed with getting a girlfriend or

women. It's because Being

alone kind of sucks and is boring,

and everything's more enjoyable with

someone else.

Oh, thank you, 01Tiff.

Very kind of you.

I'm just a very lonely person. I guess I'm

not really introverted then. If I was

truly introverted, then I, I don't think I

would feel lonely as much as I do. The

Dutch girl got doxxed because Cesium was

following her on Instagram.

Me and Mila were pretty confident

that people wouldn't find her social media

because I don't follow her and she doesn't

follow me. So how would you link her to

me? The reason why Victoria got doxxed

was because I was following her on

Instagram and I forgot that you

can just look at my following list and you

can see who I'm following.

Chihiro doesn't understand internet and

meme and troll culture at all.

She thinks people on the internet are just

normal people. She doesn't get it,

and she's gonna get catfished and trolled

hard, I think.

I just think it's kind of sad that she's

active on a server on Discord, which is

probably full of a bunch of weird

teenagers who have no life.

I'm used to it because I used to play

online games and stuff like that, so I

know what people are like on the internet.

I was hoping she would just disappear and

vanish like she did last year. When we

nearly divorced back then. I don't

understand why back then last year she

just disappeared without a trace. But now

this time she's making videos and she's

streaming on Instagram and she's talking

to my viewers. They're not her viewers.

They're all my viewers. She didn't get any

viewers. The Hong Kong guy and Chihiro

didn't get any viewers by themselves. All

their viewers are my viewers. And now

she's just chatting to my viewers,

promoting her Twitter as well on Kacey's

channel. Why?

Last year she didn't do any of this. Now

this year she's like completely different.

I was hoping she would just disappear and

then I wouldn't have to hear from her ever

again. But now it's like I can't get rid

of the 2 bloody idiots, can I? It's like I

stepped on a big massive shit and I can't

get it off my shoe. Stuck on my shoe

forever, following me around because

stupid Casey puts hiding in my room in

every bloody video he makes in the title.

And people keep saying, Daniel, did you

know Chihiro is doing this and that? I

don't care what Chihiro is doing. I want

her to fuck off. I'm not interested in

what she's doing or who she's talking to,

but people keep telling me.

I'm hoping eventually they'll get tired

and they'll just disappear like Tomoko and

Kanae did.

They're basically just Tomoko and the

Kanae version 2, aren't they? If you I

have been watching since— was it not last

year? Yeah, I guess beginning of last

year. You might remember some English guy

called Konaito who used to do the same,

making expose videos on me. And then there

was Tomoko, who was basically the same as

what Chihiro is doing now. Got upset

because I said bad things about her,

another Japanese woman I effed.

Thankfully, Tomoko and Kanaeito kind of

just faded away. I'm hoping the same

thing's gonna happen with these 2 Muppets.

God, I'm so sick and tired of hearing

about them. What happened to Kanaeito?

I don't know, he just kind of disappeared.

He made— he carried on making a few more

videos, but I think he gave up the whole

YouTube thing. Most people do just give up

YouTube. They get

tired with not getting anywhere. They get

bored. They lose interest.

You know what the annoying thing about

Casey is? Every time I say he secretly

messaged and met up my wife, met up with

my wife behind my back. He always defends

himself by saying, Daniel's wrong, I

invited Daniel as well.

That's got nothing to do with it. Just

because you invited me doesn't cancel out

the fact that you did secretly meet up

with my wife. It's secretly because I

didn't know about it and no one told me

about it. Yeah, you invited me, but you

didn't say that you were going to meet

her, and she didn't say to me that she was

going to meet you. So yeah, it's secret

and behind my back because I didn't know

about it until after it happened. Just

because you say, but we invited you to,

that doesn't cancel out what I'm saying.

I know you invited me. I never said you

didn't. I watched his last video and he

was saying, Daniel is falsely accusing me

of secretly messaging his wife when I

invited him to. Those 2 points are

completely Unconnected.

So stupid.

And then I saw the comments on his video

saying stuff like, oh, Daniel's a liar,

he was invited. I never said I wasn't

invited. I said myself, yeah, he invited

me and I said no. I still didn't know they

were gonna meet up anyway. I think you

feel bad because of the lack of direction

in your life. Women are a bonus, not the

goal. You have too much time, that's why

you are bored. You need to construct

something or work or exercise. Thank you,

Anthony.

But everything's boring without a woman.

Apart from game— I guess gaming is better

without a woman because they just

distract me when I'm trying to get frags

on Rainbow Six. And streaming is also

better without a woman. I prefer being

alone to stream and make videos. But in

general, I think having a girlfriend Or a

wife. Smiling face with smiling eyes.

I think it makes life better and more

enjoyable. It's just kind of sad when

you're completely alone.

Thank you, Cesium.

I don't hate Cesium because he has been

very supportive and I appreciate the

money. But I do

find it kind of disturbing, the things

he's done.

I heard you like little children. No, I

hate children. They're so annoying. They

keep crying. They look stupid. Why are

their heads so big?

Maybe you should consider oversharing.

Oversharing what? If you want to know,

ask me anything. I'll tell you. I've got

secrets. I've got one massive

secret. I'm not sure if I want to say.

Maybe it's best if I don't say. I don't

see how it will benefit me if I do say it,

and it might just make things worse with

my ex-wife. She starts to message me

again. Last Thursday asking if I was

selling her nudes. Because some idiots are

trying to spread this rumor that I'm

selling her nudes. Maybe you should

consider oversharing, bro. Lol.

And then she, she believes them or thinks

that they're telling the truth, and she

keeps messaging me asking me if I'm

selling them, and I keep saying no, I'm

not selling your bloody nudes. And if I

was, I wouldn't admit to it, would I? So

what's the point of asking me? If I was

selling her nudes, I wouldn't just say,

oh, you caught me, yes I am. I would just

carry on saying, no, I'm not. So unless

there's any proof that I'm actually

selling her nudes, then maybe shut up.

There's no proof because I'm not selling

her nudes. The only nude that is

circulating is the one that she shared

with someone. Which then got leaked. So if

there's any nudes of her out there, it's

her own bloody fault.

Happy Easter. I am not the only one

feeling alone. Thank you, Andy.

I don't really understand Easter. What do

you do? I thought it was just like a kids

thing where you get chocolate eggs. I

didn't know people actually took it

seriously. People keep going

on about Easter is ruined.

I never really did anything for Easter.

No, I'm not joining anyone's Discord

server. Fed up with Discord.

It's too problematic.

Yeah, the secret that I was referring to,

I'll give you some hints. It involves

someone somewhere that took place Shortly

before Christmas. I won't say anything

more. Maybe in a few years I'll

spill the beans. You got slapped and Mila

made you look like a girl. She didn't

really slap me hard. It was just like— it

wasn't a violent, angry slap. Just joined.

What's happened? Tell the secret. No, I'm

not telling it yet. It's too early. I like

to have a cooking time of at least a year

on my big secrets before I spill the

beans. It's not ready yet, you have

to wait. It's still raw, it's still

cooking. I've still got

the Hong Kong woman story that I'm gonna

tell soon, since people seem to love the

affair with married women stories.

Am I really done with Cooking with Daniel?

Well, I just don't know how I can cook

There's always food in the fridge, and I

just cook the same stuff over and over. I

just put some bacon and some eggs in the

halogen oven. And I don't go shopping

anymore because my mum goes shopping. So I

feel like it's hard to make food or

cooking videos now because I don't have to

go shopping or make my own food. When I

was in Korea, it was easy because I had to

go shopping every day and I had to make my

And I kind of ran out of ideas of things

to cook anyway.

No one killed the Discord. I killed it. I

got fed up with it. It was just becoming

too toxic and there was too much drama.

It felt like it wasn't my server anymore.

It was just full of a bunch of random

people that weren't there because of me or

because they like— because they liked the

channel. They were just there. I don't

I liked doing the cooking videos when I

was alone because I had the whole kitchen

to myself and I could just make anything I

wanted to, and then I could just chat

about stuff whilst preparing it. But now

it's difficult to do that because I get

interrupted.

So my idea for the second channel is,

what about Resident Evil 3 let's

play, and then I just ramble whilst

playing it, and then we can do the story

Maybe,

but a lot of people aren't interested in

gaming. But it's

not really about gaming, it's just me

rambling whilst I play the game in the

background. The cooking wasn't really

about cooking, it was just me rambling

whilst I cooked in the background.

They're both

traitors.

I'm hoping

at least by next year I I won't have to

hear about them anymore. Just like no one

talks about Tomoko or Konaito anymore.

Hopefully next year no one will be talking

about those 2 either. Isn't it weird no

one ever talks about Tomoko or Konaito

these days?

People get bored, I guess.

Bring Tomoko back. Someone message her,

ask her if she's down to F.

Reignite the Tomoko drama.

I can't believe I flew all the way to

Japan just to meet her.

And then she catfished me. What if I

retell the story again every year? I'll

just retell it.

Oh, thank you, T-Pop Fever and

Sato.

No, I don't think so.

Chay Chay says she is starting her own YT

channel. But why?

I don't understand why she suddenly wants

to start a YouTube channel. She had no

interest when we were together, and I used

to beg her to make videos for me because

they got loads of views, and then she

wasn't interested.

And now all of a sudden people saying

stuff like, I never let her tell her side,

she's making videos to tell her side of

the story. Hasn't she told her bloody side

by now?

Alka is flying to Japan just to meet

Shahiro, sad. I think everyone knows her

side.

What else is she gonna talk about apart

from me?

She's interested in YouTube for money.

Well, she's not gonna make much, is she?

Unless somehow— I don't know,

unless she goes viral.

Isn't it weird that every woman you have

dated, Cesium tries to get with them?

He did succeed with Pia. Yeah,

I'm pretty shocked about the rumors that

Pia and Cesium are together.

I knew Pia had a boyfriend, but she never

told me it was Cesium, and I don't know

why she would keep that a secret.

And they claim it's like a rumor, a meme,

a joke.

But I don't know if it's true or not. It

could be, maybe. I still think it's kind

of weird. I think she was the one who

encouraged him to come here to my house,

and someone told me that it was probably

Cesium who leaked the screenshots we were

having together last year,

so they were probably living together.

Male friend if you don't trust people.

How can you help me though?

I don't need help, I'm fine.

Yeah, it's still a mystery how those

screenshots got leaked, but the theory

that it was Cesium does sound pretty

believable right now. I mean, who else

could it have been? The thing I don't know

is Who sent the screenshots

to my wife? Was it Cesium who

sent them to her, and did she know that it

was Cesium who sent them to her, or did he

use a different account? She wouldn't tell

me. I said, who sent you them? She kept

saying it didn't matter.

Anyway, it was a big mess. I'm glad I

guess it's not over because we're still

going on about it.

I'm not happy about it, but I guess it did

help me get views, didn't it, by stirring

up drama. And I

guess it did help me get out of the

marriage, which I was not happy in.

I was not happy being married at

People keep saying, why didn't you just

leave her then? It's not that easy to just

leave someone. After you've been with them

for a long time, it's difficult to just

leave. Trust me, I wanted to leave so many

times, and I nearly did a few times.

I kept going back to her because I was

lonely and I felt guilty, and I wanted

to make her happy, but I

couldn't. I didn't like making her upset.

It made me feel upset. I'm seeing her

upset.

Would you like Mila to stay a bit longer?

Personally, I would like it if she was

still here, but I understand she was

getting bored and my family probably

getting annoyed.

And yeah, I guess it was kind of boring

every day just doing the same thing here,

not going anywhere, not being able to do

anything apart from just sit around in the

garden.

But, but I liked that. That's what I like

doing. I was happy.

Maybe it's because I'm getting old, but

I'm not really, not really

interested in living a really fast-paced,

hectic, chaotic life. I just want to relax

where it's nice and quiet, surrounded by

nature, good food, nice place to live in.

I don't think she's in that stage of her

life yet.

But I'm just not really interested in that

whole clubbing, going out scene

anymore.

You said you like the convenience of

cities. It's still convenient here. I can

get stuff off Amazon if I want to. I can

get a taxi to London. If I want to go to

the airport, I can get the train into town

if I really need to go to town.

I don't really feel like it's that

inconvenient being in the countryside.

You just have to plan

when you're going out because there's only

one train every hour.

So I don't really see how living in a city

is that much better than living here.

It's still easy to get stuff off Amazon,

comes next day.

There's a shop 5 minutes up the road, the

petrol station. I went there with Mila to

buy some food and they sell loads of

stuff. There was that one woman working

there still who, who used to work in the

mornings. I think her name's Kimberly.

She didn't see me though. I don't think

she noticed me.

And I disagree that you need a car to live

in the countryside. The train station is

about 20 minutes walk away. It's not

difficult to walk 20 minutes. The bus

station— the bus stop is about 10 minutes

away. You really don't need a car.

It's so easy to live without a car. I

don't understand why some people think you

have to have one.

Would you rather be lonely forever or live

with a guy beaming face with smiling eyes?

I think I'd rather be alone than live with

a guy. Living with a guy sounds kind of

gay.

Does the Nepalese guy still work at the

petrol station? The Nepalese guy number 2

does, but the one I hated, number 1, I

don't know. I guess I

would have to go there at night to see if

his car's parked outside, but I'm pretty

sure I saw his car parked outside when I

went there a few years ago for

The, the Nepalese guy that's dating the

ex-manager's daughter, I think he's still

there. My mum said she saw him.

I'm not sure what happened to my manager.

She— I think she quit a few months after I

quit, and then the owner of the petrol

station sold it to a different company.

And then he moved to Spain.

I thought about puncturing his tires, but

maybe that's not nice.

The only reason I liked going to Japan was

because of Cheap rent, and I

could actually get laid in Japan.

Those are the main reasons.

Apart from that, there's not really much

else about Japan that I like. I don't like

the food. I don't really interact with the

people, so saying stuff like Japanese

people are so friendly doesn't really

affect me because I don't talk to them

anyway.

The problem with England is it's really

hard to get your own place unless you make

a lot of money, or unless you're willing

to share a house with a bunch of people

like my sister does in London. I went to

my sister's place in London. We went to

pick her up before the lockdown started.

She lives in this big house with 4 other

people, and it's just weird. They just

share the house like a family, but it's

not like they're friends. They just live

together. I think it's kind of weird,

and I don't really fancy the idea of

living in a house full of strangers. I

want to live by myself.

In Korea, I could get my own place so

easily for just $500 to $800

a month.

In Japan, I could get an Airbnb as well

for about that money, about the same

money. But in England, I can't. You'd have

to spend at least $2,000 to get your own

place, your own Airbnb. And no, I don't

want to rent out some apartment in get a

It's too much work. I just want to go on

Airbnb, book a place, and then go there,

and then everything's ready and set up.

And I don't want to get my own permanent

place because then I can't go and meet

girls if I need to go and meet girls. If

they're gonna come to me, then that's

great, but I can't rely on it.

Sometimes I just have to get on the plane

and go, go and meet them.

What was growing up in Kent like?

I guess it was okay. Going to school

wasn't great. There was a lot of racism

against me.

Hey Daniel, you should hook up with

Queenie from your server. She's had ethics

with at least 5 people into your server

and sex with Withson too. It's only time

you get what's yours.

No thank you, I don't want to get an STD.

Hopefully I didn't get one from Mila.

I'm pretty sure I didn't give her anything

because last time I had unprotected sex

was with my ex-wife, and that was all the

way back in January. After that, I just

had call girl sex, but they always make

you use condoms. So I think I'm pretty

clean unless I got something

from Chihiro, which I really don't think

she was a cheater. I trust her.

I trust that she wasn't cheating on me.

Why don't I move to Mexico? Because Mexico

looks— looks

not very nice. I don't want to live in a

shit country. I want to live in a nice

country. That's why I like Japan and

Korea. I get kind of annoyed when people

say, what's so great about Japan and

Korea? Why don't you go to blah blah blah?

Because Japan and Korea are nice

countries. They're modern, safe, and clean

and affordable. Why would I want to go to

some crappy country in the jungle when I

could go to Japan? Japan's great.

Japan is the best country in the world.

It just feels safe and modern,

and it's easy to get your own place for a

good price. You just said you

didn't like Japan. No, I said There's

nothing about Japan that I really, really

like when it comes to things like culture

and food, but I think it's a nice place to

live in.

It's my number one choice out of all the

other countries. I'd rather go and live in

Tokyo or Osaka instead of some stupid

shared house in London surrounded by

you-know-whats.

Anywhere in Japan is better than some

English city in a council flat. The only

reason I like my home is because it's a

big house and a big garden with a nice

property. If we lived in some townhouse

flat, then I would never leave Japan. I

would never want to come home.

And then all those other Asian countries

like Thailand, Philippines, Indonesia,

Vietnam, they're all too hot. I don't like

hot countries. Even now in England, I feel

like it's too hot. I like wearing layers.

I don't like wearing shirts. T-shirts and

shorts. And I don't like all the insects,

so I don't think I could live in a country

like Thailand.

But then if I go to Japan, then it's kind

of lonely because No girls that like

me are ever in Japan. They're always in

bloody America or Europe.

I've never had a fan— I mean, a girl who

watches my channel who's in Japan who

wanted to meet up, apart from that Swedish

But all my viewers are mainly in Europe or

America. I don't have barely any in Asia,

hardly any in Asia.

I just think if I went back to Japan, I'd

just end up being depressed and lonely

Ah, so difficult.

Being depressed and lonely just kind of

sucks.

I guess that's why me and Chihiro lasted

for so long, because we were equally

depressed and lonely. That's why

we didn't want to break up.

Ah, why is

my sister on the phone outside my bloody

room? I can hear her on the phone.

What am I supposed to do now?

So difficult trying to figure out what you

want and then how to get it.

I don't know, I want so many things, but I

can't have all of them.

The best thing would be if life didn't

feel so meaningless if you're alone.

Then I wouldn't be so obsessed with

finding a partner.

Isn't that what life is mostly about

though? Finding a partner?

And then settling down, and then making a

family. Isn't that what life is for

pretty much everything in the world?

Maybe I should save up money and then get

a house. Maybe a piece of land.

How much does it cost to get a piece of

land? I can do what my granddad did, get a

piece of land for £200 and then build a

house. Maybe I

would prefer that instead of living in

Japan in an Airbnb, feeling depressed

and lonely all the time.

If only we bought the piece of land

opposite us before the Irish people did,

that would have been great. Oh, my dad

should have just bought it. I bet he

wished he did buy it, buy it before those

Irish people bought it. I think the Irish

people bought it for just £10,000.

He is your daddy.

Guys don't count when it comes to

loneliness. I could be surrounded by 1,000

guys, I would still feel just as lonely.

I would just feel irritated.

Nice land can cost 13K. I've got 13K, I

could afford that. I've got 30K,

I could buy a piece of land. I'll just get

a wooden shed to begin with,

and I'll get 10 kittens and a goose.

What kind of land could I get with 30k?

You don't want friends. I don't want

friends, really. I don't

see the point of it. I feel like friends

are just something you have when you

don't have a girlfriend.

It's like a substitute. Build a tiny home

on a small piece of land. What about a

big home on a small piece of land, or a

small home on a big piece of land?

I wouldn't mind just having a shed,

actually, as long as it's warm and has

electricity.

If it's on a nice big piece of land, then

a shed would be fine.

Maybe I'll look up land for sale after

I finish streaming. I'm sad

you gave up on a— on Japan dream.

I just feel like it's so hard to, to find

happiness in Japan.

I just wanted a simple life, a small

apartment, nice wife, maybe get some pets.

But it has to be the right person,

and Chihiro was not the right person. If

only I could have replaced Chihiro with

anyone else but kept all of the good stuff

like the apartment and the visa. If your

only friend is your partner, it won't

last.

Who in the chat wants to be my GF?

Looking for Misaki.

I just get worried, what if I get a piece

of land and then I get fed up and I want

to go to Japan? What do I do with it? And

then I just spent all my money on a piece

of land that I don't want anymore.

I think having Mila come here has made me

really lazy about the idea

of going traveling or using Tinder,

because to be honest, if I had to choose,

I'd rather just not travel if I didn't

because I don't really enjoy it. I don't

really enjoy sitting on airplanes and

buses all day long just to get someplace.

That I'll end up feeling depressed and

isolate isolated in.

I don't know. I can't make my mind up. If

a Japanese girl starts messaging me, then

I'll be on the next plane to Japan, won't

I? There's no point trying to plan

anything because I keep changing my mind.

Although having my own piece of land does

sound interesting. I could build an

underground tunnel and have secret

chambers where

I could store things.

How did Mila travel during the lockdown?

The airports are still operating and taxis

are still running. Not everything's locked

I played the Resident Evil 3 demo. It's

quite good, I guess. I think I might like

Resident Evil 3 more than 2 because I

think it's more action-oriented. Resident

Evil 2 is kind of slow-paced and it's

really scary. You're stuck in that stupid

police station and it's really

claustrophobic and all these narrow dark

corridors you have to go down and they're

flooded. But Resident Evil 3 is kind of

different because a lot of it's outside

and it's brighter and there's more action,

I think. And the main character is sexy,

not a weirdo-looking nerdy guy.

But I do like the setting of Resident Evil

2. The police station is pretty cool,

but it's just too scary. I couldn't play

it. Had to switch it off. It was stressing

me out. Video games supposed to be fun.

It was not fun. It just made me feel

anxious and nervous and stressed out.

I was sweating the whole time as well.

Does the Nemesis still hunt you down?

Yeah, he chases you in the demo, and he's

kind of annoying because you can't do

anything. You have to run.

Or else he'll grab you.

How was Chihiro not the right person?

Because she just didn't have— I

don't know. Collect some funds for the

secret tunnel frog. Ignore the G9 McLovin

Discord weirdos there. Bored 12-year-olds

messing with Casey and Chihiro.

Well, thank you, Cesium. I don't know who

these people are.

But I think it is kind of funny. Casey and

Chihiro probably are getting just messed

around by a bunch of edgy teenagers on the

internet, and they've— they don't realize

it because they're so stupid.

I just didn't feel attracted to Chihiro at

all, not even a tiny bit.

And I think that's the most important

thing. Number one, I wasn't physically

attracted to her. Number two, we had

nothing in common apart from feeling

lonely. We weren't interested in anything.

We had no shared interests is what I

meant. She wasn't interested

in anything I was interested in. I wasn't

interested in anything she was interested

in. Interested in. So what was the point

of staying together? It just felt like a

pointless relationship,

and living in Japan just wasn't worth it.

I don't want to live in Japan that

desperately.