[2024-10-01] cant work anymore - feeling sick and tired [9nHsm16GVoI]

Testing, testing, testing.

Oh, I got sick again.

So annoying.

Every time this time of year I get really

sick. Ever since I took that stupid

vaccination,

this never used to happen.

I haven't been able to work since, I

think, Friday.

I think it's starting to go away, but I

can't drive yet. I feel so dizzy.

No, I didn't quit. I just haven't been

able to work. I'm missing out on so much

money. If I don't work for like 5

days, that's like losing out

on £400.

I was feeling okay on Friday and then

nearing the end of Friday afternoon, my

voice— I mean, my throat started to feel a

bit weird and I thought, oh crap, I'm

sick. And then by the end of The afternoon

Friday, I was really hot and I had a

temperature, so I just got into bed and I

slept all day. And then the night was

really bad. I was really hot and then I

got really cold. I was shivering in my

bed. My nose was really cold and my toes

and my fingers were really cold, but I

felt really hot when I touched myself. It

was weird. So that was Friday

night. It was really bad. And then

Saturday was not any better. I was really

sick. Still had temperature and

I just had loads of medicine like

ibuprofen,

paracetamol. Don't know what any

of it does, but it just made me— I think

the medication made me really dizzy so I

couldn't drive. It feels like I'm drunk

all the time. I feel I can't even walk in

a straight line. I tried

driving. I felt like this is dangerous and

I went back home.

And then I had this really terrible,

painful sore throat. It was so painful to

swallow. And now I just feel really tired,

like I've got no energy.

I feel kind of normal after waking up,

but then around after lunchtime I feel

really tired and then I go to sleep again.

I just feel like I got no energy all the

time and I feel really weak, like I can't

lift heavy things.

I don't think it was as bad as last year.

I mean, last year in Thailand I got really

sick and I couldn't go to school for 2

weeks. But that was way worse. I remember

I had this pounding headache for days,

like someone was hammering my head. This

time it's not that bad.

Yeah, it's just flu or a really bad cold.

I don't think it's COVID. I just feel

really tired. It's so

boring being sick. You can't do anything.

Played Rainbow Six all day today, but it's

so boring. It's just spawn,

die, spawn, die, spawn, die.

I don't know how I did this for 8 years,

just sitting in my bedroom on my computer.

It's so boring. At least when you're

healthy, you go out and you work and you

make money and it feels good.

Not having a job's really boring,

actually. I thought not having a job was

the best thing ever. Like, you're getting

away with not having to work and you've

got an easy life. But actually, it's just

really boring. And then you barely got any

money. Unless you're a famous YouTuber

who makes it online. Which I don't

anymore.

Yeah, I've been neat for the last, what,

8 years of my life?

And I thought it was the best thing ever

until I got a job, and then I started

making real money, and then I realized

this is way better than being a stupid

YouTuber.

I don't get sick often, I just get sick

once a year. So far, I don't think that's

often. But how come my mum's not sick?

Surely I would have spread it to her.

Not fair, no one else is sick.

Why does it take so long to recover?

Hopefully tomorrow I can drive.

I want to work tomorrow. I can't stand

another day all day inside again. I don't

know what to do.

I made so much money in— what month?

August? No, September. What month was it

before this month? September. I made like

£2,400.

It's the most money I've made

since probably 2021.

It felt so good. And then I just paid it

all to my mum. Well, not all of it. I paid

my mum £1,600, and then the rest of it

went to car payments, insurance,

other stuff. Don't know if I can make the

same again this month. Now my YouTube

money is way less. Probably won't make

that much. Probably make like £2,000-ish

this month if my stupid sickness would go

away.

I really hope I get better either tomorrow

or the day after tomorrow.

Wasting time here.

I was thinking I'd just sell my stocks and

just pay off my credit card because my

stocks have been doing so well,

especially China. Thank God I didn't

listen to you guys. You kept telling me

sell the China stock, the ETF. Have you

seen it? It's up like 27%. In the last few

days. Good thing I sold half of it now,

but thank God I didn't listen to you guys.

So I've got £1,000 left in it. I had

£2,000. I was down 20% on my China

ETF for like 2 years, and then finally it

was up 4% in the green. Couldn't believe

my eyes. It just looks so weird,

like I could never imagine it ever being

green. I can't believe that damn China ETF

finally got out of the red.

What is my job? A secret. I only

sold half the China ETF. I think they're

still going to go up more.

Gold's been doing really well as well. I

thought maybe I just sell everything, pay

off the credit card, wait for pullbacks,

and then when I make more money, I'll just

put it back into my stocks.

It's bizarre seeing Daniel realize normal

life things decades after regular people

do. Like what?

Well, I was just waiting until minimum

wage got so good that it made

YouTube not worth doing anymore. Because

minimum wage didn't used to be this good

and my YouTube money didn't used to be

this bad. So it made sense to focus on

YouTube whilst the dollar was strong,

whilst people were interested in my

channel. But times change, don't they?

Now there's just no point focusing on the

YouTube channel anymore, especially now

the US dollar is like really weak as well.

US dollar's going down the toilet.

I want to make some pounds. Not— I don't

want dollars anymore.

I focused on YouTube when it was the right

time to focus on it, and now I'm focusing

on a job when it's the right time to focus

on a job. So it's all, it's all going to

plan, guys. It's exactly how I envisioned

it. Passed my driving license 2 years ago,

didn't need to drive then. I took a

sabbatical in Thailand for 2 years, and

now I got a car when EVs have come down

drastically in price. So I planned

everything perfectly. Trust in the

process. I know what I'm doing.

Do I regret getting a job? No, I think

it's been great getting a job. I made so

much money and I feel so focused and

motivated to, like, get out there,

get to work, get my head down. It's

keeping my mind off things as well.

Like distracting me from the sad thoughts.

Do I ever want to move out of my mum's

house? No, this house is too nice.

So I think— I don't know how I can imagine

moving out unless I got a girlfriend and

then we wanted to live together. This

house is so nice. And I don't have to pay

for anything. I mean, I'm paying my

mum all my money, so she can't complain.

She can't say stuff like, Daniel doesn't

pay rent, when I'm literally paying her my

entire wage. It all goes to her, so she

can't even say Daniel doesn't pay anything

because I'm paying it all to her.

For now, that is.

Yeah, I mean, it'd just be a waste of

money if I moved out and then got to pay a

third or half my wage to a stupid

landlord.

Still see you thriving in Japan.

Japan's so boring to me now. Japan's dead

to me now. Japanese.

I kind of realized that Japanese women are

no more attractive than British women.

Like, attractive British women are as

attractive as attractive Japanese women

are. It's not like you land in Japan,

every woman is beautiful. There's ugly

women there too, you know, just like any

country. If you can get a hot girl in

England, You wouldn't be thinking about

trying to get a hot Japanese girl, will

you? Hot? I mean, a hot girl is a hot girl

no matter where she's from and no matter

what color she is. I don't know why I had

this, like, weird obsession with Japanese

women for such a long time.

I changed.

Yeah. And also, unless you get a Japanese

girlfriend, there's no point going to

Japan because you just end up being like a

lonely guy living in his little shoebox

apartment. Going to

the supermarket, getting discount bentos.

Life was good in Japan when I was married,

but every time I've gone back there as a

single guy, it kind of just sucked and it

felt depressing and lonely.

Oh, my mum. I thought I could work, so my

mum took me to work in her car. But I

couldn't, so I had to come back early

because I was too tired. And I thought,

Jesus Christ, her car is so loud.

It was like,

like every time you go up a slight hill,

it's like— and

then I was watching her, she was like

fiddling with the gear stick the whole

time, and I thought, Jesus Christ, this is

like some ancient technology. It's like

watching someone operating a steam engine

with all the pistons spinning and fiddling

with the gear sticks and the noise. And I

thought, oh my God, I miss my EV. I get my

EV and it's just silence. It's like,

and there's no jerkiness and there's no

gear changing and it just goes when you

want to go. God, petrol manual cars.

It's like comparing the steam engine to

the combustion engine. The difference in

the technology is so different.

The noise drove me nuts. It was like, uh,

uh, and I was like, shut up, what are you

doing?

I don't know what is with these petrolhead

people who love the sound of a good

engine. It just sounds annoying. Why do

you like that sound? My car doesn't make

any sound. It just goes shh

when I'm going fast.

I don't know why anyone would get a manual

petrol in 2024. It just

sounded like it was constipated and

struggling to move it around. Looked like

such hard work. Trying to move it about.

It's a nice car, Honda. It's got a better

rear parking camera than my camera. The

camera resolution is better than mine,

and it's got like nice interior. But oh my

God, engines, gear sticks,

clutches— it's got to go.

I don't know why anyone puts up with that

in 2024 when you can get an EV for the

same price. My car is cheaper than my

mum's car. My mum's car's like £16,000,

£15,000. 2021 Honda

HR-V or CR-V. I can't remember. I think

HR-V. My car's like £13K. It's cheaper

than my mum's car. It's way better.

Although one problem was The inside

windows kept misting up, so I put the

heater on to demist it, and having the

heater on drained the battery so quickly.

It was like draining the battery,

draining the range 5 or 6 miles every hour

having the heater on.

That's not good. It's going to reduce the

battery range by like 10 15%. I don't

know how to fix that. I couldn't see

because it was all misting up inside.

Maybe I open the window, but then it'd be

freezing. Maybe I get like a separate

heater that runs off a battery.

Dunno, it's a bit of a problem, isn't it?

I mean, my uncle did say the heater really

does drain the battery, but I didn't

realize it drained it that much. The AC

didn't drain it by much. Didn't notice it.

Oh, that's fine. Whatever. Cost me like £1

to drive 100 miles.

You can preheat.

What do you mean?

I need the heater on the whole time

because if I turn the heater off, the

windows start misting up again.

How do I feel batteries of your car were

made with hands of African children? I

really don't think they were. I'm pretty

sure it's like some big company with big

digger trucks and stuff. Mining it out.

But if it's giving them jobs, then sure,

it's great. It's better than them going

hungry and stuff, isn't it? Give them some

work to do. This is

crazy. They got all these resources and

they still can't even get food. You think

they got the resources, they'd be loaded

and the people would be sorted, but no,

they got the famine and stuff going on

still. Some people you just can't help,

can you?

Why don't they just make the diggers and

the construction mining trucks— can't they

be EVs as well?

Battery wouldn't last very long, I guess.

Oh my God, I got a headache already. It's

going to be a short stream today,

probably just 2 hours.

Everything is so tiring and exhausting.

What games do I play? I tried playing that

Space Marine 2 game, but it's so boring.

Wasted my money buying that. I bought it,

I thought, wow, this is really cool. And I

played it more, and then it's just the

same thing over and over again. It doesn't

get any more interesting. The perk tree's

rubbish. It's just like, oh, you get extra

bullets. Oh wow, thanks, Matthew Stone.

Feel terrible, but I think

I'm slightly slowly getting better.

Space Marine 2's so boring. What do you

mean? The perk tree is like, you upgraded

your weapon to epic, you now get 2

extra rounds and it has extra

magazine. Whoa.

And the gameplay is just spam, spam,

spam, and then do a counterattack now and

then. And the missions are boring.

I thought it'd be like Left 4 Dead. It is

kind of like Left 4 Dead, but not as good.

There's no safe rooms, there's no special

infected. There's like 2 types of enemies.

You've got the squishy Tyranids that die

in one hit, and then you've got the tough

ones that have armor who either shoot

at you or chase you. That's it. And then

you've got a few bosses.

And the Chaos Marines are so boring to

fight against.

Weapons all boring. I went back to Rainbow

Six with my ultrawide monitor and

it's actually got ultrawide support. It

looks so good. Rainbow Six is such an old

game, but it looks so good. I don't know

why, everything just looks so crisp and

clear. And nice and bright,

and the levels look cool. It brings

me back to the good old days. 2018,

40K views a video, famous.

Used to play Rainbow Six whilst making my

videos, had it on in the background.

Brings back good memories.

I used to be really good at it, now I

I tried Wukong, that was boring as well.

I don't want to buy any more games. I keep

buying games and they're like £50 and then

I get bored of them. I think I'll just

stick to Rainbow Six.

Are you streaming to try offset lost

wages? Yeah, kind of. It's a good thing

about YouTube is I can have it for a rainy

day. So I'm at least making some money.

Oh my God, I've got the chesty cough now.

At least my voice hasn't gone weird. Do

you remember last time, 2022, I got really

sick after Malaysia? For a month my voice

was weird. This sickness is a bit

different this time.

Rainbow Six to escape from Pia.

What do you mean? I used to play Rainbow

Six with her for a bit, but I don't think

she liked it. We used to play Sons

of the Forest in Thailand together. That

wasn't that long ago.

Wasn't that just last year?

We played that a lot. We were like

chopping down forests and building log

cabins. Feel better

soon, Daniel. Also, uh, don't quit YT.

Oh, thanks. No, I won't quit YouTube.

I'll do it now and then.

Have I ever visited Birmingham? No, I

never want to ever go anywhere near Leeds,

Sheffield, Wolverhampton. Apparently

Wolverhampton has the highest rate of

knife crime, more than London.

All of those areas. Are shitholes.

Guess why? Can't say because it's racist.

I heard Birmingham's terrible.

Wolverhampton's like stab central.

It's all horrible. I would never go

further north than London ever again. The

south is a nice bit, southwest and

southeast, but Avoid the seaside towns,

they will suck. Sittingbourne's rubbish.

Dover's a bit rubbish too. Actually,

everywhere's just rubbish. Anywhere near

the sea is a bit rubbish. Anywhere middle

of England and north of England's a bit

rubbish. I mean, really rubbish. London's

just all rubbish. Everywhere's just

rubbish apart from the nice countryside.

Where you got nice little traditional

English towns.

Even the name Wolverhampton sounds like

Wolverine, like you're gonna get stabbed.

I never want to go to those places ever.

I don't get it. Why are all the dangerous

places dangerous? Because it's got a

higher amount of poor people. Why do all

the poor people live in London,

which is like the most expensive place to

live in England? Maybe if they didn't live

there, they wouldn't be poor! Fucking

idiots.

It's just ironic, all the poor people live

in the most expensive places in the

country, and then they cry all the time

about being poor. I mean, don't tell them

that, because I want them to stay there.

If they all come flooding into my area,

then They'll just turn this place into a

shithole too, won't they? I wouldn't live

in London because it's so expensive.

Well, that's their problem, isn't it? Let

them all stab each other. I don't care.

All of London is expensive though. Even

like the outskirt bits are expensive,

like £1,500 a month rent. And it's

horrible. It's like horrible, ugly

outskirt of London where they will stab

each other. Or you could live in Kent in

the countryside and pay like £800 a month

in Barming or West Malling or

Or I don't know, Headcorn. Headcorn's not

bad. It's a nice little village. Well,

what about Sutton Valence, where I used to

grow up and went to school with my best

mate Chris Brodo? That's not expensive and

it's nice. They got jobs there. Work at

the petrol station. Oh wow, thanks, Chang

L. Very generous. Does Sabrina live in

London? Yeah, but after she came back from

Japan, she said she wants to leave London.

She said they don't like it there anymore.

They said it doesn't feel safe.

Oh my God, the more I talk, the more dizzy

I feel. I don't know why I feel so dizzy.

I can't drive at all. My reaction

speed is Like I've just had a bunch of

alcohol beverages. I'd probably crash

if I tried driving. It's crazy how when

you get sick, you feel so dizzy.

Everything's just swaying.

Why is she still there? Well, they,

they kind of own a house or they're paying

a mortgage or something. So it's

not easy. Oh, my uncle sold his house, so

I guess they're moving soon. Gonna get new

I had a vitamin C effervescent

high-strength thingy. It's got 1,000

megs of vitamin C, supports the immune

system. Should I have another one?

2,000 megabits— I mean megagrams. I don't

know what mg stands for. Oh, I feel out of

breath talking as well.

Yeah, I got the flu. I got

some kind of flu.

I don't know if I'm gonna feel good enough

tomorrow to— I don't think I could work

tomorrow either. I'm going crazy. It's

been Saturday, Sunday. It's been 4 days

being stuck in this stupid house. I can't

do anything. I can't make any money. I've

lost like £400 now not being able to work.

I slept in the day. I went to bed at like

9. I woke up at 9 AM or 10.

Slept for like 15 hours. I'm so

bored. Car payments and stuff are gonna

come in in a few weeks, and I don't have

the money in

my account yet.

I want to make money. I don't want to be

sick. It's boring.

I'll pay

off this stupid credit card and then I

want to get a new gaming PC. No,

I don't get paid if I'm not at work.

I've got to show up to get paid.

Oh, my whole back. I think all the driving

as well was making my back hurt.

Or was it the lifting?

It feels weird not working now.

Like I'm wasting time.

Oh yeah,

I was gonna go for the Domino's Pizza

interview on Friday. I had to cancel. I

couldn't drive there because I was sick.

And then they asked me if I want to

rearrange it, and I said yeah, but then

they didn't reply to me, so I don't know

if I lost that job. I thought maybe

I wouldn't mind delivering pizza.

Sunny said she used to do it and it's

really easy.

I guess it just wasn't meant to be.

Have you seen my new monitor? It's so

nice. Look at that. I played Rainbow Six

on it and it fills out the entire stream—

screen without stretching.

It looks so good. It's kind of

like you're wearing a VR headset because

it wraps around your vision so much,

especially when you get up close to it.

Really nice monitor. It was such a shame I

accidentally shot my old monitor and broke

it, meaning I had to buy a new one.

Otherwise, I couldn't have justified it.

Such a tragic shame.

Why are you buying stuff like that?

Because you need to have a nice monitor

if you're gonna game and watch stuff. I

want to watch that new Alien movie. I

didn't even know it came out. Alien:

Romulus. They did really bad work on the

advertising because I had no idea it even

came out. That's coming out on streaming

services, I think, this month. I want to

watch it on maybe this screen, see what

movies look like on this with the

widescreen.

You have to live within your means. No,

so I can't— rich now, I make like 2,000

plus a month.

I made like £2,400 thanks to

my YouTube money plus my new job for

September. Don't know about this month.

Now I'm sick, I'm gonna lose like a week

pay, a week of pay.

Oh, thanks, Chan. If I deliver pizza, can

I vlog it? If you deliver pizza, Can you

vlog it? I have seen other YouTubers vlog

themselves deliver it, but I don't know,

I feel like I'd get in trouble with my

reputation.

They don't get many views anyway, they get

like 6K views. It's not worth it.

No, I'm not gonna move out. I like living

here.

I need to cut my hair, it looks weird now.

So I've only got £6,600 to pay on my

credit card. I didn't pay it off this

month. I paid my mum instead, so I got

my mum debt down to $7K.

I don't know if I should sell my stocks

because I could free up about $4K if

I sell the rest of my China and all my

Tesla stock.

China did so well this week. I can't

believe it went up like 27%.

I might sell the rest, I don't know yet.

Gold's doing really well too.

Israel is going to invade Lebanon, and

then Iran said they're gonna missile

strike Israel, so that's just even

better for my gold stocks.

All my stocks are worth £8,500.

So earlier this year, back when I was in

Thailand, my portfolio was worth like

£6,500. It's gone up £2,000.

It's gone up like 20% or something thanks

to my gold in China.

So yeah, unless there's world peace

declared, I really Don't see gold going

down anytime soon. Yeah,

Zelensky and Putin are going to shake

hands and hug it out and they're all going

to have big happy tree friend party with

Israel and they'll be like, oh, don't

worry about it. We were wrong.

We're going to stop missile bombing you

now. As if that's going to happen.

It's gone too far now. Can't go back.

It's only going to end when there's no one

So I feel pretty confident with my gold.

Yeah, I just pulled up an article on

Google. 10 minutes ago it

said confrontation between

Iran and Israel is driving more capital

towards gold. Yes, I knew it!

Been saying buy gold for like 2 years now.

I'm a genius, stock market genius. I told

you I'm good at this investing thing. I

just had one bloop when I lost half my

portfolio on a meme stock.

I've now only lost in total £9,800

instead of like £12,000.

Look in total how much I've lost.

Look at that! I'm now

down to 4 digits in the red instead of

like 5. Down by £9,900.

For the last 3 years it's been saying down

by £13,000, which is really depressing.

I finally got it to go up.

Now I just have to like, um,

Not get greedy. I've had a good trade,

now just relax.

Keep your eye out. I've heard good things

about uranium, so I've been having a look

at uranium ETFs.

Someone's got to build those nukes.

Yeah, so now I've only lost 48%

of my life savings on the stock market

instead of like 65. So that's good. I made

like £2,000 this year.

Oh wow, thanks Matthew Stone. Have you

thought about getting Raw Dogged on? You

could easily make 5 figures. Just a

thought. I don't know, I think the gay

crowd have moved on.

It would have to pay damn good if I was

going to do that.

Buying stocks while deep in debt is wild.

Well, The way I see it is it

costs me nothing to be in debt because

my credit card— oh crap,

my phone. Where's my phone?

One second, one second.

Oh, what? The app won't open.

Let me force close it.

It's not opening.

When I press it, it just instantly closes

again. Oh my God.

Uh, it was working

fine. Oh, oh, it's working now.

That was so weird.

I don't know what happened.

Anyway, I was saying, so the way I see it

is my debt doesn't cost me any money

because usually you got to pay interest on

debt, but I'm still in the introductory

offer for my credit card. I still don't

have to pay interest on my credit card

debt until next year April, so there's no

rush to pay it off until April. My mum's

debt is interest-free as well. So, it

doesn't cost me anything to have debt.

But if I don't have my investments, I'm

not earning the dividends and the capital

gains, so I'd be losing money.

So, it would be a financial deficit

if I sold my stocks to pay my debt.

Because the debt is costing me nothing and

the stocks are paying me money.

So I'd be like selling my investments to

pay off my debt, which doesn't cost me

anything. It just doesn't make any sense.

You need to build up cash to pay it off

before interest kicks in. Yeah, I'll just

work a few months as soon as I can get

better. It would only take 4

months of working to pay off the credit

card. And worst case scenario, I just sell

my stocks and I pay off my credit card.

Oh my God. So I think after I deduct my

car payments, insurance, stuff like that.

I should have about £1,700 profit

at the end of each month. So times by 3

months, it's like £5K. Need an extra 1

point. Yeah, like 4 months of

working would be enough to pay off my

credit card. So I should be able to get it

paid off by February next

year. Plenty of time before April,

which is why I wanted to work really hard

before it gets cold. But now I'm sick.

I don't really want to have to, like,

really work hard when it's cold outside.

£1,000 for a monitor is wild. Actually,

it's £1,400 because I'm paying 20%

interest, which means £400

in total for interest.

You need to find work now. I have work

now, what do you mean? I just can't

go to work because I'm sick.

My strategy to get more capital for my

stock investments?

Um, I'm not really looking to add more

money to my portfolio at the moment.

Just trying to pay off, keep up to date

with my monthly payments. I've got Tesco

insurance, car payments, I got my MOT

monthly payments. That's £26 a month, you

know. For my MOT and servicing, I had

to sign up some kind of contract that's

separate to the car payments, and it's

cost me £26 a month. So I'm paying £26

plus £194 for the car, so I

get Uh, servicing and MOT next year.

Why buy a monitor like that? Oh, I already

read that one, didn't I? Because I was

sick and tired of looking at that tiny

27-inch rubbish monitor.

It would be fine.

I'll just let China go up a bit more and

I'll sell that, and then I'll wait for

this robotaxi event Tesla's doing next

week, I think, and that will go up, and

then I'll sell that, which will free up

like £2,500.

I want to sell Tesla when it gets like

$290 and

then start buying US Treasury bonds.

That's my plan.

China's still going up right now.

China outperformed the S&P 500 in one

month. Haha. It's up 26%.

The SPY is only up— oh,

it's up 34%. Well, it almost outperformed

the SPY in just one month.

Why not UK bonds? I don't know.

Why get UK stuff when you get US stuff?

The US is like the leader of the world

I got £50 in UK Treasury bills.

It's up 40 pence.

I put £50, just see what happens.

It's up like 0.40%.

I think China could pump a bit more, then

I'll sell the rest of it. Do you work 5

days per week? Oh, thanks. I work

nearly 7 days a week now.

Basically, I can work as much as I want or

as little as I want.

You get very customizable timetable.

I'm a workaholic. I've always been a

workaholic. When I find something that

makes money, I become obsessed with it.

Like when I latched onto YouTube and

realized how to make money on YouTube, I

was obsessed. All I could think of was

YouTube, YouTube, YouTube, YouTube. My

whole life was YouTube. You saw it. I was

like completely obsessed and fixated on

the world of YouTube when I

found out you can make money off it. But

then when I lost interest in it and then

find something new, my entire attention

shifts to the new thing and then I lose— I

kind of lost I'm not interested in YouTube

anymore, to be honest. It's boring.

It doesn't excite me. I don't get up in

the morning going, YouTube, YouTube,

YouTube. Now I'm like, work, work, work,

work. Gotta do my job. That's where the

money is. But back in the day, like 2018,

I jumped out of bed straight. As I

got out, first thing I did was like start

But the problem is, when I find a new

obsession, I lose interest in the previous

obsession. I have very one-track mind.

And before YouTube, it was— what

was it? Petrol station, maybe.

Before petrol station, it was selling

knife sharpeners on eBay.

Yeah, I get really into it when I find a

new way to make money that's working well

and it feels like there's growth. But as

soon as I feel like, yeah, I've had enough

of this, this is the best it's gonna get,

and then I get bored and then I let it

die and then I find something else.

YouTube's just boring when it doesn't go

anywhere. It's only exciting when you go

viral and then everyone's talking about

you and they're like, oh, have you heard

this guy called Daniel? He's so weird.

Now no one gives a shit. No one cares

about me anymore. Not a single person

talks about me. Not a single

other YouTube channel mentions me.

It's so sad,

but it's just the way of life.

Everything dies at some point.

Even famous YouTubers.

It's just so— YouTube is so annoying.

'Cause I just can't figure out how to get

views. Do not buy used

to work, now it doesn't work anymore.

I can't be bothered making content

anymore. That's the problem.

My heart's not in it. I don't

want to make content. I want to

drive my car, go to a job,

make my minimum wage, clock in, clock out,

bada bing bada boom, $2.5K a month.

To make that on YouTube, you— oh my god,

you'd need millions of views every month.

To make the equivalent of what I'm making

now on YouTube, I would have to get Like

100K views every video,

like 70 to 100K views every video, and

then I'd be making what I'm making now. I

was making what I'm making now at my peak

in 2018 when I blew up.

That's what it would take.

It's just too hard. I can't get those

views anymore. When you're only getting 5

to 10K views every video, it's just not

worth it anymore. You make like $20. When

you get 7K views, you make like $20. Even

if you did that every single day, you'd

make $600 in a month. You know, there are

many outrageous things you could do to get

views. Yeah, but it's not worth it. You

just don't want to, which there is nothing

wrong with that. Just be honest about it,

lol. It's not worth it anymore.

It just damages myself more than it

benefits me.

The risk isn't worth the reward.

That is just the sad truth of it.

If my parents weren't rich. My parents are

not rich. Why do people think my parents

My granddad was broke after,

after he finished from the army. He was

like living off benefits. Didn't have,

didn't have a shower or anything. He was

like dirty, smelly old man.

He only got by because he got like state

pension for being a soldier.

And then my dad was a very hard worker and

was very handy, so he knew how to fix up

places. Fixed up our old

house and flipped it. For profit.

I think I just lost my mojo for making

content. I used to be good at it. Used to

go on these wild adventures meeting women.

Crazy stuff would happen, but I'm just

too old for it. Don't have the

energy for it anymore. I want

stability and comfort,

not jumping on a plane, meet some random

woman halfway across the world again.

Also, I just don't feel as horny as I used

Yeah,

I know most people are hard workers and

they don't live like this. I have been

wondering, because I've seen some

crappy places recently, and I've seen how

the average Brit lives,

and I don't get it. Are they just stupid,

or are they lazy, or do they not work

hard enough? Why do they live like that?

Or is that just how life is?

I'm sure

loads of people work hard in the UK but

don't have a big house.

No, I feel like you get electricians,

plumbers, and they work 6 days a week,

40 hours a week,

but then they still live in like crappy

flat and it smells and they

have pizza and beer for dinner and they're

like fat and balding and they hate life.

Is it their fault or is it the system

keeping them down? I don't know, maybe

they didn't waste all their money on pizza

and beers and they learn how to cook,

then they have more money and they can

move out that shitty flat.

I think

my sister's coming home, uh,

this week. I don't

know how long for.

Oh my God, market is bad tonight.

Gold is holding quite strong though.

I've only got one sister.

Don't know what she thinks. I haven't

really talked to her much recently.

Don't know why. She seems busy with her

work. And then she was

busy with the wedding,

so I didn't really talk much then.

I haven't talked to her husband at all

since like 2022,

which is kind of crazy.

He hasn't been around once since the

wedding, and even after the wedding,

I don't

know, he kind of left like the day after

the wedding because

I didn't talk to him at all apart from

like, hello.

Last time I talked to him was like 2022

when we went to Malaysia together.

Oh yeah, I remember. Oh yeah, wait, no, I

completely forgot. I talked to him last

year because they came to Thailand.

He and my sister came to Thailand,

remember? And I was telling them that I

was in trouble with tax, and he was like,

shouldn't mess around with the tax people,

Daniel. It was fine. I just had to pay

£10,000 tax penalty.

Whatever.

I completely forgot I met them in

Thailand.

I can't— all of last year was like such a

blur. Last year was nuts.

At the time you guys kept saying, oh,

boring, but now I look back at it, I was

like in Thailand and then Vietnam and then

Thailand again, and then I went to Japan,

then that Korean woman thing happened,

which is kind of bizarre. And then I went

back to Thailand. I got nearly told off.

I mean, I got told off at the airport at

the— what's it called— immigration bit.

They nearly detained me for coming to

Thailand too much. And I was in Thai. I

went to Thai language school. And then

what happened? Yeah, the Christmas bit

with the MacBook. This feels so funny.

That was only last year. Feels like it was

such a long time ago now. It was quite a

fruitful, eventful year.

Where's my smoky— oh, it's in my drawer.

I can't even bother to get it out. I think

it's bad for my lung.

I feel short of breath.

Oh, I hate that cough.

Why didn't you talk to him at the wedding?

There wasn't really the opportunity to.

We sat at the same table for the wedding

dinner, but the table was really big and

he was like the other end of it. It's like

a big circle table and he was on the

opposite side and I was sat next to my mum

and Dave Gibson.

No one wants to talk to me.

I don't really know what to talk about

anyway. No one

understands my struggles in life.

They just— they won't get it. It's

pointless trying to explain to them.

I feel like sometimes it'd be nice If I

could talk to someone on like a deep

level, but then I don't even know what I

want to talk about anyway.

Kind of like talking about money.

But then when I start talking about crazy

conspiracies, I feel like people think I'm

crazy.

I was trying to tell Dave Gibson about

BRICS. And how the US dollar is going to

collapse and the West is pushing for world

war to prevent that. And he was like,

what? He had no idea

what I was saying.

Yeah, it makes me sound crazy.

I think a lot of people don't know what

Bricks is.

That's why I bought gold. This is gonna

drive gold up, isn't it?

I forgot what it stands for. Brazil,

Russia, India, China,

and something. Is that what the S stands

for? Something? No,

America's shaking in its boots. About

BRICS. It's trembling.

Look how weak the dollar is now. 75 pence

to the dollar. Rubbish.

Used to be like 90 pence for a dollar.

Well, now all I care about is trying to

make money. I'm kind of very

one-dimensional at the moment. That's what

being in debt does to you. Your whole life

just becomes, I need money, I need to

work.

So how much did all the tax stuff cost me?

I had to pay back the tax I owed, which

was like £7K, plus late

payment interest over 4 years, which is

like a couple thousand. So that was like

£9K, plus the penalty, which was

like £10K. It's like £19K in total.

I borrowed £13K from my mum, and then I

paid about £6K of it out of my own money.

So I could carry on having about £8K in my

stocks.

Um, but I paid half my mum back now,

so I only owe her about £7K out of the

So that's going quite well, I think.

Credit card debt went up because I bought

the car, but I needed the car to get a

job. The penalty was nuts. The penalty

was more than the interest I owed,

plus the— I mean, more than the tax I owed

plus the interest. God, I was so depressed

in Thailand when the tax stuff happened.

It just shattered my whole life because I

was feeling pretty good. I was like,

yeah, I got 20K in savings.

Stocks are doing well. And stupid tax

people just messaged me out of nowhere.

And then I had to give up this idea of

having $20K savings. It's all

gone.

It was rough. It was hard

to, like, mentally gymnast my

way out of not having a mental breakdown

at the thought of losing all my money.

It just felt like, so all that YouTube

stuff was all for nothing.

I thought at least I got 20K out of it

after everything that happened. At least I

got 20K. Got some money in the savings,

my net worth. But then that all went

up in smoke as well. Got nothing now. All

that online humiliation, all the

effort put into making the best content,

I don't even have anything to show for it

now. All gone to the taxman.

Yeah. I wonder if I would have bought the

Thai Elite visa if I had the money to do

so. 5 years stuck in Thailand.

I feel happier now than I was in Thailand

because I was so bored in Thailand. I

couldn't do anything in Thailand. All I

could do was YouTube. I couldn't get a

job. Can't speak Thai. I can't do anything

in Thailand apart from do YouTube,

which I was sick and tired of. I want to

do something new. Get a car, get a job,

try something different. If I was in

Thailand, I'd just be stuck doing the same

thing with worse and worse results.

I don't know what I would do in Thailand.

I'd go crazy. I felt the same in Japan,

but at least when I was married in Japan,

the YouTube channel was doing well, so I

had that to focus on.

It's hard living in a foreign country

because I feel like so many doors are

closed to you just because you don't speak

the language and you're not And you're not

a citizen of the country, so you're kind

of closed off to certain things,

or certain things are more difficult

because you're not a citizen.

I wouldn't be able to get a car on finance

in Japan or Thailand because you need

stuff like proof of income. A bank account

and it needs to be in that country's

language. You can't like go to Toyota in

Japan and give them English documents.

It would have to be in Japanese, wouldn't

it? And then it probably have to be a

Japanese bank account, and then they'd

need like 10 months of income bank

statements. I don't know how you get a

car on finance in Japan. Because they're

so strict there.

Everything's so hard outside of your own

country. I can't believe they let me

finance a car when I've got a dead YouTube

channel and I barely even do YouTube

anymore. I told them I'm gonna finance the

car using my YouTube channel and now I

barely even do it and I just got a normal

But I was sitting in the car dealership

for hours when they were checking credit

scores, background checks, bank statements

to prove my income. And it was all for

nothing because I don't even make my

income off YouTube anymore, apart from

like a couple hundred.

But yeah, it's wild they just let me

finance a car for 4 years when my job

is something as unstable as YouTube. And

then you look at my numbers, obviously my

channel is dead, barely makes

In Japan, they wouldn't even let me get

internet because I was trying to use my

Visa debit card, they're like, oh no,

need a Japanese bank account. I remember

me and Chihiro trying to get fiber optic

broadband for the apartment. They wouldn't

let us get it, and Chihiro wouldn't sign

up for it because she thought I was gonna

cheat and ditch her and leave her paying

for it, which in hindsight was a

good decision on her behalf. Because that

is what I ended up doing.

Japan's so strict, they wouldn't even let

me get a mobile phone without a Japanese

bank account.

And then what, I get a car in Japan or

Thailand, a 4-year contract, and then I'm

like, oh, I'm bored, I want to go home.

And then what am I going to do about the

I'd have to sort that out or just, I don't

know, close the bank account and ditch it,

run away.

So yeah, if I was still in Thailand, I

don't know what I'd be doing. I'd be so

bored. Oh, there's a little black and

white cat coming into the driveway.

Should I jump scare it using my car?

Watch this. Jump scare it by unlocking my

car remotely. Where's it gone?

It's gone into the bush. So funny. I

unlock my car and it makes a noise as the

mirrors open. The cats get freaked out.

Yeah, I feel really bored when I'm