Lonely Thanks Giving Chicken

Why is

it so windy today?

Scary.

How long until people start going, you're

not even American, why are you celebrating

Thanksgiving? I'm not, I'm just cooking

a chicken. Cooking a

chicken.

Where's your girlfriend? She's in the

bed naked.

So I finally finished cutting my love doll

into tiny pieces. It's in those bags. It

was quite easy actually with the scissors,

just snipped it into little pieces.

There's one bag there. I already took out

2 bags. I'm gonna take out the bags one

one by one so it doesn't look weird. So

I've still got 2 bags over there, 1 bag

there. Then we have disposed

of the body,

and then I had to cut the, the Love Doll

box into tiny pieces. The whole inside of

the box was damp. It was like soaked in

moisture. I don't know what this moisture

is. But the whole inside of the cardboard

was wet. Very weird. Maybe it's my sweat.

Why are you cutting your sex doll?

Because I'm gonna leave and I'm not taking

it with me, so I got to get rid of it.

And I can't just dump the whole thing down

the rubbish chute. Okay, so that'd be

weird. So I cut it into tiny pieces,

put it into plastic bags so it's a

bit more discreet.

What do you mean we don't have

Thanksgiving here? Of course we do, we all

celebrate.

What is it celebrating actually?

The pilgrims, the pilgrimage to America.

We celebrate that here, of course not.

Um, I feel like it's been ages since I did

a stream. I forgot. Well, where did we

leave off from last time? Last time I

streamed, what was the

topic? I forgot now.

You're still active on YouTube? I thought

you quit. Do you think the reason why my

views have gone down so much is because I

announced I was quitting and then people

thought I quit? And then they never came

back to the channel again because they

thought, oh, he's quit now. I don't know,

it's just weird. So many people just

stopped watching.

Manchester killed my channel.

You had 110K subs, now 109. Yeah, I don't

know what happened. I woke up one day and

then I gained like 800,

700 subs out of nowhere,

hit 110K subs, and then the next day it

went back down again. So I don't know

what's going on. Kind of weird.

I thought it was a bit weird I suddenly

got all those subs out of nowhere.

Someone messing around with me, or is

YouTube glitching?

A bit annoying. I feel like I'm never

gonna get to 110K subs. I was so

close at one point. I was at 109,700,

and then I just kept losing hundreds.

And for some reason my gaming channel is

gaining subs, but my main channel is not.

The gaming channel hit 12,000 subs now and

it's staying above 12,000, but then this

channel I can never get new subs, and then

all I do is lose subs whenever I stream or

post something.

It's just kind of depressing, I guess.

Last time I had a bit of a surge in subs—

when was it? It might have been when Abba

and Preach made that video about me, but I

don't think I've grown naturally Since

like 2018, it was the last time I was

actually getting new subs, not because of

a shout out. And then Elvis Adian made

some videos about me that grew my channel

a little bit, just by a couple thousand.

But without these other channels making

videos about me, the channel doesn't grow.

I don't really know how to grow it. I

guess I can't really grow it anymore with

my current kind of content. And then I try

and do those illustrated ones, and the

comments and reaction to them are very

positive, but the views are so low and

they never get new subs anyway.

People keep saying if you keep sticking to

this kind of content, the channel is going

to grow. But it doesn't. I've been doing

those illustrated videos for years now,

and I, I can never get like an illustrated

storytime audience that likes that stuff.

Just don't know.

Don't know how to, um, don't know how to

tap into that audience. It's very hard

tapping into the arts audience. You need

to have like a very quirky looking

art style that stands out.

I don't think it's the art style that's

the problem. It's probably the title or

the topic's just not very catchy.

Am I leaving Manchester? Yes, I am.

Contacted the agency, I told them I was

going to leave in January.

Seems pretty easy leaving. They said just

drop off the key.

Make sure the apartment is how you found

it. So I just got to take everything out,

all the stuff I've bought. I've got to get

rid of all this stuff, I guess, like pots,

kettle, chopping board.

I don't know if anyone wants this stuff,

otherwise I'm going to put it all in the

bin. I got this heater, I've got to get

So I decided to leave Manchester because I

want to go to Scotland. I've been doing

some research and I feel like there's more

interesting things to do in Scotland.

They've got more touristy attractions.

There's a girl in Liverpool I want to

meet. I think I can get

her to come here though. She seems like

she's into me. So first

I gotta try and see if I can get this

Liverpool girl to come here, or maybe I'll

go there. Then I don't know,

I guess I could go to Liverpool, then

Scotland. This is really becoming a

journey across England, isn't it?

Liverpool's quite nearby. I should,

should get that done before I go to

and then I might stay in Scotland a few

weeks, see how it goes. There's a few

things I want to film there.

There's just not really anywhere to go in

Manchester. There's no tourist, no tourist

areas or places. There's There's no quirky

things. It's just like a pretty plain

city. It's got Aldi and it's got Tesco.

Because I was looking at my older videos

yesterday and, um, the ones that have

done the best over time are stuff like the

capsule hotel stuff and the really boring

videos where I just walk into a hotel or

net cafe and then film it.

I feel really stupid because I was in

Japan. I could have pumped out that kind

of boring, easy-to-make content where I

just walk into a place wearing a GoPro. I

could have made loads of that, but instead

I prioritized drama content and girls.

Why do I always make the wrong decision?

It's just like with the stocks, I always

pick the wrong stocks. This time I picked

the wrong type of content to focus on. I

was in like the best country you could be

in for that kind of content because

everyone loves Japanese capsule hotel,

Japanese this, Japanese that.

So I left a country which was full of

easy-to-make content so I could make drama

content, and then that just kind of died

anyway. So frustrating. I look

back at the videos I made 2 years ago and

the drama stuff peaks at like 40K, 50K

views and then it just flatlines. It'll

have a rise, like a quick rise in the

first few weeks, and then it will just

plateau and then not go up at all, or just

slightly go up over the years. And then I

look at the videos where I went to a net

cafe, capsule hotel, Japanese inn,

and they, they have like a steady,

steady climb upwards. Even 2 years later,

it's still like a roller coaster slowly

going up, and they, they've all

outperformed any of my drama stuff.

They've all got like 100K, 120K views now.

Even the slum, the Japanese slum video

too. It's just really

frustrating. I could have focused on that

instead of focusing on stupid drama and

girls stuff, which peaks

at a pretty low number.

I found a capsule hotel in Scotland, so I

want to go there, pretend it's a Japanese

one. I could just put in the title

Japanese-style capsule hotel, try and

trick people into thinking it's actually

in Japan. There's no point putting

Scottish capsules. No one cares if it's

Scottish. They only care because it looks

like it's a weird, funny, quirky Japanese

thing.

What else they have in Scotland?

Not sure.

Remember this time last year I did that

Thanksgiving stream in Rotterdam?

That guy kept donating, telling me to buy

a turkey. Well, I didn't

know he was giving me donations to get a

turkey for Christmas, and then I ended up

going to Mita's place for Christmas.

Another year of nothing. I can't believe

I've done nothing for the whole year. Oh

well.

Where's my

chicken?

I don't think my new diet is working

because I'm getting more pimples now.

I've tried everything now. I tried using a

face wash, I tried washing my face, I

tried cutting out junk food, I tried

eating more vegetables, and my skin is

worse, to be honest. It's not better.

So I'm getting a blood test tomorrow.

It's like an allergy food intolerance

test. So I want to see if I'm allergic or

I have some kind of reaction to a type of

food. Some people say nightshade foods can

trigger inflammation. Nightshade is stuff

like tomatoes, peppers, which I've been

eating a lot of these red peppers and

tomatoes recently. Maybe that's something

to think about.

I've cut out dairy, I cut out bread, I cut

out bacon and processed meat. It hasn't

made any difference.

I had a way unhealthy diet last year,

earlier this year. I was just eating

crisps and bacon and sausages all the

time, and my skin was better back then

than it is now. So I don't know how it can

be related to food.

I got vitamin D supplements because I

thought maybe I'm not getting enough

vitamin D. I heard vitamin D deficiency

could also cause pimples. I don't know

what's causing it, what's making it so

bad.

So if I take the blood test and I find out

I'm allergic to something and then I cut

that out and it still doesn't make any

difference, then I really don't know what

to do. About my

It's just really annoying. It makes me

Wake up, you got all this red stuff on

your face.

People keep saying Accutane. I don't

really want to try it with these weird

steroid drug things.

Just sounds weird. What is it,

like a steroid thing, hormone thing?

Oh no,

maybe it's

my moisturizer. It's got something in it.

Maybe it's my face wash. I don't know what

it is. I feel like I had less pimples when

I didn't put any products on my face and I

just splashed some water. Maybe just go

back to not, not using face wash and

moisturizer. Just splash some water

because exfoliating and doing all this

scrubbing is not making it better, it's

just making it worse.

Very frustrating.

They had a very tiny chicken at the

supermarket. What was it called? A poussin

or something. Isn't it like a pigeon?

This looks like a baby. Very weird.

Last time I cooked a whole chicken, it was

last year in Germany. Remember I did that

pretending to eat 2 whole chickens every

day for my new diet?

I ate it on the floor. The whole apartment

stunk like chicken for ages.

Wow, it sounds hollow.

Am I allowed to talk about what the deal

with the girl was? Not really,

because we still chat and it would

be weird if I

upset her.

Doesn't really benefit me unless

I did like a freakout stream, like,

stupid bitch, she said this.

Probably get 200 viewers then. I got 240

viewers when I did that stream. She dumped

me. But no one wants to see me cook a

All they care about is like girl drama.

Why couldn't I get a nice audience where

they like watch me cook a chicken? Like,

if this was Ben Dean, he would have like

1,000 viewers.

Well, at least you guys are here.

This is what you built up? What do you

mean? I've been doing cooking streams for

like 3 years. So how is cooking not part

of my content? I do more cooking than I do

like girl drama stuff. It's just they

don't care about cooking.

What's so fascinating about girl drama?

It's either we had sex or we didn't have

sex and she dumped me or I got rejected.

It's not that deep, is it?

Yeah, I don't really like touching the

chicken either.

Uh, do you remember that Friends episode

when— was it Chandler or Monica puts

the raw turkey on her head? Oh, how'd they

do that? And she actually did it. It's not

like it was fake or CGI or a puppet.

Oh, can you imagine putting a raw dead

chicken on your head? That was real,

wasn't it? Oh, there's chicken juice in

it.

Sometimes I thought being an actor looks

pretty cool, but then you think all the

Weird, horrible stuff they have to do,

like getting naked.

But what if you're an actor and you get

the role for some movie, you think the

movie's stupid? I mean, it's a

job, isn't it? You just gotta force

yourself to do it. And there's people like

Johnny Depp, they don't even watch the

movie that they're in. I saw Johnny Depp

interview when he was big from the

Caribbean movies, and an interviewer was

like, have you seen the movie? And Johnny

Depp's like, no. I just do my job and then

it's done. He doesn't give a shit about

the movie. It's funny.

Look, I got real thyme because they didn't

have thyme powder— I mean, thyme in

a little jar.

Mmm, thyme and chicken

goes so well.

I love Johnny Depp, how he has like this

doesn't give a shit kind of attitude.

It's refreshing.

Then you got Harrison Ford as well, who

openly admits he hates Han Solo and wishes

Han Solo was killed off in the first

movie. Why does he hate Han Solo so much

but he loves Indiana Jones. Isn't he

making a new Indiana Jones? How bloody old

is he and he's still making movies? He's

like 70 plus, still making Indiana Jones

movies. He can hardly move.

How's he going to do stunts and fighting

and stuff?

Integrity. Yeah, well, I sacrificed my

integrity to try and make entertaining

content that I thought people would enjoy,

which they did. And the reason why

they stopped watching is because I stopped

making the entertaining content which

required me to sacrifice my integrity.

I just got fed up making all this like

fake drama bullshit stuff. I want to do—

try doing what I was interested in, like

stocks and cooking, and then people just

got bored and they left. So,

so the, the reason is because I went back

to being in— being genuine, genuine,

and I stopped the fake drama stuff, which

is why it died. So I was right, you were

wrong. Haha,

I'm always right, but not

in a good way. Everyone's like, you need

to stop doing this weird stuff, you need

to change and become more mature. And then

I do, and then they stop watching. So

thanks a lot. They're not even here

anymore, so why am I even saying this?

Well,

I'm always, I'm always right about things

that screw me, and then I'm wrong about

things that also

screw me. That doesn't make sense. I mean,

I'm right, but I don't want to— I'm

right when I don't want to be right, and

I'm wrong when I don't want to be wrong.

I mean, I wish I was wrong and then

everyone was like, Daniel, stop making

cheating videos and weird stuff,

he's, he's so much better now.

But nope. What do I get for it? Get bloody

dead channel. Get— can't

even get 10K views. So thanks.

Thanks YouTube for rewarding me.

Thanks for rewarding my toxic behavior

instead that ruined my life and my

And thanks for completely punishing me

when I try and improve my behavior.

Like my gaming channel, it only gets views

because I'm just being negative and toxic

about video games. Because if I'm positive

about video game, no one cares. They're

like, oh, this guy likes a game that I

like, so what? But if I say, oh, this

game's shit, it's rubbish, they will click

on it and they start typing out why I'm

It's just— and I hate the way it works,

but for me, it just

seems like for me, that's the only way I

can get it to work for me. Other people,

they can be positive and nice and genuine

And they don't get punished by a dead

channel, do they? But for some reason, I

can only get attention and views by being

a negative, toxic fuckface,

which I don't want to be like that. You

know, I want to be— I want to do nice

things, and I wish people liked me for it,

but I'm like pigeonholed now. Into this

position where I can only get attention by

being a piece of shit.

Am I supposed to eat these stems?

Yeah, that's the problem. I built the

character and that is the image people

have of me, and that was like the only

reason why people were watching. To see

what, like, because I was like a psycho

and a sociopath, that was my thing.

Do I just eat the leaves or do I eat like

this stem bit as well?

Pinch it.

Okay.

Oh yeah. Oh, I keep snapping.

Nothing stops you from being positive. It

did. Every time I tried to be positive,

the bloody views would drop like 60, 50%.

If I wanted to keep the channel alive, I

had to be really negative and toxic, talk

about why I hate my wife.

People don't get it. They say no one's

forcing it, forcing you to do it, but

literally YouTube and the stupid algorithm

is forcing me to do it.

Same problem Nikocado has. Nikocado

Avocado. If he started losing weight and

not being like a stupid fat annoying

dickhead, people would lose interest.

Because that's like the only reason that

he's interesting is because he's like a

fat annoying weird person.

Who's disgusting?

Look at Boogie2988. He was famous for

being like this, I mean, super fat,

weird, mentally ill guy. And then he tried

improving. He lost weight, fixed his

teeth, and then his channel

died. People don't care afterwards.

I just get frustrated.

I feel like the YouTube algorithm is just

really unfair.

It, it seems really generous for other

people, and then for me it's not generous.

I mean, you could say YouTube doesn't owe

you anything, but I

don't know.

After 2 years of trying, would have been

nice to have at least one more viral.

I've seen people go viral for the most

boring mundane things.

To be honest, I kind of miss doing my old

content, you know, where I'd meet a girl

and then fly to a different country and

then Get annoyed,

and then somehow meet another girl in the

same area. That always seemed to happen,

didn't it? I'd go to Germany, meet that

girl, and then she rejects me, but I end

up with Turkish girl. Came to Manchester

to meet that girl, she rejects me. I meet

up with another girl.

I would love to see you go back to Japan.

I wish I could. I wish I could.

But now there's a new variant. It's called

like BB.1.1.09 something.

Everyone's freaking out about it now.

I think I can go to Korea.

Says if you're vaccinated, you can get a

vax— I mean, a quarantine-exempt pass and

skip quarantine.

Apparently Korea has never closed its

borders since it started. How come Korea

has handled it so well?

This time is taking ages. It's taking a

lot of time. Is that why they call it

time? How do they put it into little jars?

I should have bought a little jar.

I don't really see what the big deal is.

If you take a test and you prove you don't

have the virus, why can't they just let

you in?

That's all they need to know, isn't it?

That you don't have it, so you're not

bringing it in. So if you take— I mean,

most countries already doing that. They

say you've got to take a PCR test and then

you can come in. Why can't Japan just do

See, I've got the worst luck ever. The

number one country I want to go to the

most is the number one country which has

the strictest border control. Like,

stricter than North Korea now, probably.

Bloody North Korea has got more open

borders now.

2 years. How can they keep it shut for 2

years?

Yeah, the people who do

watch the illustrated videos, they're

really, really positive about it. They say

the art's good and the story is good and

the storytelling is good. I just wish

more of my audience would watch it, and

then I'd feel more motivated to make it

because I quite like doing it. It's just

very time-consuming. I spent all day, 2

days straight, doing those illustrations

from, from morning until 10 PM until

I cramped my hand. It was nice.

I put on music, just focused

on the drawing. But when I get near to the

end, I kind of get fed up and I just want

it to be over. I thought,

I thought the first and the second drawing

was pretty good with the purple buildings.

But I mean, livestream where I'm just

sitting here cutting broccoli, it gets

more views, and that makes me sad.

I put so much effort into those videos and

I don't feel like it pays off. Whereas

these live streams, I put no effort. I'm

just like sitting here picking thyme

leaves, and in this stream we probably get

more views than that last one.

Oh well. Also, I got a lot of likes. I

think I had like 88% like to dislike

ratio, which is Pretty rare for my

channel. Usually I have 60% likes, nearly

50% dislikes, but those illustrated ones

always get way more likes,

which is nice.

How long can Daniel go without complaining

about something? Not long.

That wind is so noisy.

It's like all the time.

Has helping— has hiding the dislike count

helped? I'm not sure, because some people

were saying stuff like, oh no, now the

dislikes are gone, I can't tell if this is

a troll video or not. So then that would

help me, wouldn't it? Especially on the

gaming channel where all my content is

like trolling. If people don't see the

dislike— because the dislike bar was

giving it away that it was a troll video—

so if they can't tell it's a troll video,

they might stick around longer watching it

before clicking off. So in that way,

maybe it's going to help me, but then What

if the people who dislike the video stop

disliking because they feel like there's

no point anymore? And what if having

dislikes is actually better than having no

dislikes in terms of algorithmic

discovery? I still don't really know if,

if it really makes any difference.

I feel like it doesn't really make a

difference, but then all these YouTubers

always saying like smash the like button,

press the subscribe for the algorithm.

Does it really help? Because I've asked

people to press the like button before and

I got way more likes. It didn't mean the

video got way more views, just got

the same views I usually get.

But then one thing I don't like about the

dislike button going is that when I do

make a good video that everyone likes,

people can't see that everyone liked it.

I want to get 88% likes and then I want

that to be visible to people so they can

say, oh look, Daniel made something good

for once.

I think really the dislike bar being

visible is a good thing because it hold—

it holds YouTubers accountable.

A lot of YouTubers fear being hated for

good reason because you get— you want to

be popular on YouTube, don't you? You want

people to like you and you want

credibility, and that's kind of

represented in your likes. To dislike

ratio. So it makes YouTubers incentivized

to, to not be twats and to care

about their reputation, which is something

I failed to do. Don't know where it went

so wrong. I mean, in the beginning I did

care, and I tried my best to, to make

sure the things I was saying made sense.

They weren't stupid and

that I wasn't upsetting people.

Somewhere along the line, I just flipped

and I was like, what can I say that could

piss as many people off as possible?

Yeah, that didn't really work out well.

Because you can get them to click a few

times and they just unsub because you've

pissed them off too much.

Some videos I regret making would be the

cheating stuff. I don't think that was a

good idea. And then stuff like why I hate

my wife, maybe I shouldn't have made that.

Saying you want Trump to win. Yeah, I lost

so many subscribers from that Trump video.

I don't even remember what I said. It was

called Why I'm Sad Trump Lost.

Why was I sad? I have no memory what I

said in that video. People didn't even

watch the video, they just assumed I'm a

Trump supporter and they unsubbed.

Oh yeah, I said I'm sad Trump lost because

I placed a bet that Trump would win.

I lost, I lost like— how much am I— I bet—

did I bet £200 Trump would win? And then

he lost. People kept saying to me

that Trump will definitely win, and if he

does lose, he's gonna sue sue the

government and then he's gonna get a

recount and then he's definitely gonna

win. And I believed it, so I bet £200

Trump would win. I lost £200. See, even

when I bet, I always lose. I bet England

would win, then they lost.

Yeah, I don't want to do sports betting

anymore. I lost £500.

How do you know who's gonna win? I did

some research, like, who's gonna win the

the— what's it called— the European Cup.

And then the analysts, some were saying

England has a good chance.

Did I buy stocks today? No,

I didn't.

I don't know what to buy. I guess a lot of

stocks have come down a lot.

I just, I don't really feel like buying

anything because every time I buy

something, it always goes down.

Close your short position. Yeah, NASDAQ

has come down quite a bit.

I need to get out short. It's killing me.

It's killing me. Oh wow, my Pinterest

went up a little bit. Wow, look at

the NASDAQ.

Is it a half day on the market today, or

is it still open? Because I reckon there

might be a big sell-off. Because it's

thanks— end of Thanksgiving, weekend's

coming. Maybe sell off into the weekend.

Look, do you reckon it's going to sell off

and then maybe next Monday it's going to

bounce? It's going to close early.

When?

Actually, I think it's going to close.

It's not closed now, is it?

3 and a half hours earlier. So it usually

closes at 9 here, so it closed at 6.

It's 6 now.

No, it's still open.

No, I don't really want to buy any more

stocks. It just

closed. Ready?

Hmm.

Kind of lost interest in stocks, to be

honest. You notice I don't really talk

about stocks much these days because I

don't really care anymore. It's just

Nothing ever goes up and stays

up, and then when I sell, it keeps going

up. When I don't sell, it just goes down.

Fed up with it. It's a stupid scam,

scam market they should call it. A lot of

rubbish. Hate stocks.

I was so into stocks in the beginning of

this year. This year just sucked ever

since February. So many

people like me got into the stock market

end of last year because everything was

booming, and then we all got fucked in

February with that massive retracement

that lasted— it lasted for like 4 months.

It started in February and then it ended

in June, I think. It was brutal.

Every day, every week, down and down and

It's all about timing. You buy at the

peaks and then you sell when it crashes.

Supposed to buy when it crashes, not when

it's booming. It was very hard to learn

that, but that's the only way you learn.

I think people make the biggest steps in

learning and changing when they suffer

real pain. Like, the whole Mila thing

destroyed me. I think it changed me a lot.

And then losing all that money on stocks

just destroyed me as well.

Hard lessons.

Okay, is that enough thyme? I don't need

the whole spigot, do I?

Ah, that was just the thyme. We've still

got the parsnips and the chicken.

So what is the best way to make chicken?

Did I actually lose 30K?

Well, I lost about 15K in

profits, but then I also lost like 9K

in the initial investment,

which is still down like 9K. It's not

going up by much.

Lift the chicken on a stick. Why?

Oh, look at its skin.

Oh, there's hair on it.

Should I make holes in it? Maybe it'll

cook faster.

In the Chinese restaurant, don't they?

They separate the skin from the flesh to

make it crispy. Ban Happy Beauty. I

already banned like two of them now. They

keep coming back.

Where are my mods?

These stupid are happy people don't.

Quit, do they? Bloody five years later,

they haven't changed at all, have they?

Our habit people still immature,

bunch of kids. They got the nerve to call

me a man-child and stuff. They're even

worse than me.

Something wrong with them.

Where's its anus?

Okay, now we put

the oil to make it sticky.

Okay, I think that's enough oil.

Then we put thyme. Am I

supposed to cut the thyme into little

pieces?

Go vegan?

I went vegan for a month and it didn't do

anything. My skin got worse, actually.

After becoming vegan, just my

skin got way worse. I thought it was

getting better.

Can anyone see the dislikes? How many

dislikes are there? The haters,

they got destroyed. Haha, you can't

dislike.

Okay, put some time.

Is this how you do it?

There's— they actually had, um,

pre-seasoned whole chickens at the

supermarket. I could have just got that,

but that wouldn't be as fun. I want to do

it myself.

Wait, should I put the parsnips together?

It says on the bag the chicken takes 1

hour plus to cook. I don't think parsnips

take that long. So do I add the parsnips

Beautiful. And then some salt,

maybe some Cajun powder,

or what about chicken seasoning?

I've got some chicken seasoning.

I'll put a bit of that.

Okay, that looks pretty good.

Parsnips.

Okay, how do I do this?

Oh,

I think

parsnips are way better than potato.

They're kind of like a mix of potato and

What is a yam? Is it like a parsnip? Put

this one up his anus.

Damn, can you hear the wind? It's so

noisy.

Oh no, what was that?

My phone.

Put some time like

that.

Okay, I think that's enough parsnips.

Um, what else do I have? I've got

broccoli, but do I need broccoli as well?

Oh, it's heavy.

Add potatoes. I don't have potatoes.

I've got broccoli, um, but,

um, I can't be

bothered. Maybe I can boil the broccoli.

That'll be fine for now.

Okay, so we got like an hour to cook that

bloody thing. It said an hour and 40

What should I put the temperature to?

It's at 210 now. What about 170?

I'll put 170.

Hmm, what to do?

So what's my plan?

Fuck's sake, stupid Happy Beauty person.

My plan is— I don't

if I like Scotland, maybe I can get an

apartment in Scotland. I don't like

getting apartments though because then

you're locked in a contract and then you

gotta sort stuff out like electric bills.

I guess it wasn't too difficult, just a

couple phone calls,

and it's way cheaper than living in a

hotel and you get a lot of luxuries like

having a bathtub, having a kitchen.

The contract here runs out in January,

but I had to decide if I was going to stay

or not this week. They emailed me a few

days ago asking me if I wanted to stay,

cuz if I stayed, I'd be here until next

July and nothing would probably happen.

There's nothing to film around here. I

guess I could have gone to Scotland anyway

for a couple weeks and I could have come

I could have traveled around England and

then eventually came back here, but I

think I might just go home for a bit.

I might stay in Scotland for a bit, maybe

go to London a little bit, and then go

back home for a few months, save up some

money. And hopefully by then Japan might

be reopened if it's spring.

It's just I worry about my mom and

fighting with her. I always end up

fighting with my mom every time. It's so

annoying over the dumbest things.

What were we fighting about?

I don't

know what

her problem is. It's just really hard to,

to coexist with her peacefully. She— it's

like she just wants to fight with everyone

all the time, not just me.

She's got no chill, as they say.

Me and my sister, we never fight. I don't

The only complaint my sister had was that

I left a bit of hair when I had a shower,

which— yeah, I guess

I do leave hair behind when I shower. I

should wash it away. And I usually do.

It's just because when I was back home, I

would have a bath and then I'd get out the

bath and then let the bath drain. And as

it was draining, I would go back to my

room and play some games. And then maybe

half an hour later, after I've cooled down

a bit, I'd go back in, then wash away the

hair. But then my sister would go straight

into the bathroom after I've left it.

Before I've had the opportunity to wash

away the hair.

I can live with my sister fine. We don't—

it's just, it's like the parent-child

dynamic can be so toxic because

the parent demands respect because they're

the parent, and then the kid's like, why

should I respect you just because you're

I think you should— the respect should go

both ways,

and it shouldn't be demanded.

Maybe it's like a culture clash thing.

Because when I'm at home, I kind of just

keep myself to myself and I just clean up

my own mess. I don't really— I don't

really help out. I just do my own thing,

and my mum doesn't like that.

She wants me to like mow the lawn and take

out the rubbish and do this and do that.

It's just

complicated, I guess.

It just made me really miss living in

Japan, cuz then at least when I was

married, it's not like Chihiro was the

boss. I don't know, actually maybe she

but I felt like it was more our home

instead of Chihiro's home.

When you don't feel like it's your home,

it you don't really take initiative to

do certain things because you feel like

you're a guest, kind of. Like here,

I feel like this is my home, so I take

care of stuff. I take out the rubbish, I

clean the oven, I do this and I do that

without being told because I'm the only

one here. I have to do it.

But when you're in someone else's house,

so you don't really know when you should

do stuff, or you get shouted at.

It's just a very weird situation.

Are you leaving? I will be.

Then I got to find somewhere else to stay,

don't I?

Well, you know what they say,

if you stay in your comfort zone for too

long, it gets— I mean, it's comfy, but

then it's just boring. I need like a

challenge or some kind of stimulation. I

think leaving my comfort zone, which is

this place, would be good for me.

Find a new place.

This whole pandemic just ruined all my

plans. After divorcing, I was going to

travel the world and meet people and make

content and vlogs. And do travel stuff.

It was like everything's against me.

Should have stayed in Japan.

Just finding a place to stay again.

What do I do? Maybe I could get a new

apartment.

I think even if I was going to stay in

Manchester, I might prefer to get a

different apartment that's bigger because

I reckon I can get a bigger place than

this easily that's cheaper. The other

place I looked at before looking at this

one was only £700 a month and it was way

bigger. It had a separate bedroom, a

separate kitchen, it had 3 rooms basically

and a balcony. And I chose this place

because I wanted the cool view. I wanted

to show off my view.

I don't know if I care that much about the

view anymore now that I've seen enough of

it. I mean, I barely even look

at the view. I'm staring at my laptop most

I don't know, because now I'm used to it,

I kind of take it for granted. I don't

know how much I'd miss the view without

having the view.

Your first Manchester flat was nicer

inside. Yeah, it was. Had nice carpet in

the bedroom and I had separate rooms.

I just didn't like the, the direction of

the window because the sun's— the sun

would set and then shine directly in.

It's too bright.

But I do like being in the city center.

It just feels nicer. I don't

want to be on the edge of the city where

all the crime happens.

Maybe I'll look in Scotland for a place,

or maybe I go to Greece. I don't know if

the Greek girl still wants to meet me.

Maybe she lost interest now. Because then

I could go to Scotland for like a month,

film what I want to film, take a train

down to London, film that sleeper train

thing, and then go straight from London to

Greece, to Athens, and then see if she

wants to meet. If she doesn't want to

meet, then I'll do like a, I wasted my

money, came all the way, she doesn't want

to meet, kind of whining stream.

And then I could just sit in Greece a

couple months, maybe.

Then from Greece I could go to Korea.

Surely Japan will be open by then. Are

they going to stay shut all 2022 as well?

Oh, why is it so hard?

What did I miss? You missed when I

got a call girl and she was on stream with

me, but now she's gone. That's the kind of

content you want, isn't it? You missed the

big fight me and my girlfriend had, and

then I had to kick her out.

You wish.

Kicking out my girlfriend livestream.

Changing locations won't help you escape.

But I'm bored. I want to be in a new

place. I don't see any reason to stay

At least if I go to Scotland, they've got

some things I could make a video.

They don't even have capsule hotels in

Manchester.

Just got boring hotels.

Oh no, I haven't been timing it. I think

it's been 10 minutes in the oven. When

should we take it out? What time is it?

Oh, it says 11:35. That's wrong. What time

is it actually?

6:25. I'll take it out and that goes to

12:35.

Maybe there's like a guest house in

Scotland I can stay in,

meet people again, maybe.

If they had like a guest house where it's

a single room but maybe shared facilities,

that like a shared bathroom, maybe that

wouldn't be too bad. I'm just wondering

what I do for food, because if you don't

have an oven or food preparation things,

it's very expensive. Your choices are

eat at a restaurant Get Uber Eats.

Uber Eats is like £10 a meal.

This meal here, that chicken cost me £3

and the parsnips cost me like 50p, so it's

like £4 for this.

That's more chicken that you get from KFC.

KFC. If you get KFC, you spend what,

£26? And you get a bucket of

some amount of pieces, which would

probably be about the same amount as this

chicken, but £26?

Get a portable stove. I could get a

halogen oven again,

but I think they might not want you to

cook in the room. Hotels usually

don't want guests cooking in the room

because there's no ventilation, and then

the steam or the smoke stains the

wallpaper.

Can you live in a guest house?

I'm not sure if they have them.

Maybe they do.

It's just I don't really know how long I

want to stay there. And then if I don't

want to stay there for very long, where do

I go next? Could go home for a

bit, maybe.

Stock market closed. What happened to the

NASDAQ? Bit worried the NASDAQ's finished

dropping, it's going to rebound next week.

Wow, it really dropped a lot.

Jeebus. Do you think it's gonna drop more

next Monday? If it bounces on Monday,

I'm gonna be so annoyed. I've had 2

chances now to close the short and I still

haven't closed it.

Yeah, if I stayed in the guest house, I

don't think I could do OnlyFans. If they

found out, they'd probably kick me out.

How would they find out? So all these

freaks Reporting me to everyone everywhere

all the time. Bunch of fucking weirdo

freaks trying to get me in trouble all the

time because they got no life. Let's get

Daniel in trouble and report him.

Fucking losers.

It's like the lamest thing you could do,

being a little snitch.

This reminds me of being in school. I

remember I stole a pen at school once

because they had this stupid stationery

box and they wanted you to pay for

stationery, like £1 for a pen. And I

needed a pen, so I just took a pen without

saying anything. Someone, one of the

stupid kids, saw me and then snitched to

the teacher. And then the teacher wrote a

letter to my dad saying,

dear Mr. Lord, I'm very sorry to say, but

we have caught Daniel stealing a pen from

our stationery box. This is very

disturbing and disappointing, and I hope

you take it upon yourself to discipline

him. My dad was like,

well, what do they expect? If you leave

stuff out, it's going to get pinched.

See, my dad never punished me. Maybe

that's why I'm a spoiled brat.

Why are they charging kids for stationery?

I'm trying to make a profit off the kids.

Just give us the pen, idiot.

Stupid little snitchy

dumb kid grassed me up.

Sir, Daniel stole a pen.

Fucking loser.

Why would you want to be that person?

It's so sad.

I, I never snitch on anyone.

I think it's just lame.

Well, that is the world we live in. It's

full of annoying people, isn't it?

There'll never be a world where it's not

full of annoying people.

God, people are so annoying. So I

just really hate people sometimes so much.

Fuck off. Some people are

okay, but it's like 80% of people are

fucking annoying.

God, I can't stand them.

So hard to find people who are not

annoying. That are on

your wavelength.

90%, yeah, maybe it's closer to 90% people

that are annoying.

Oh yeah,

I've been playing a lot of Death Stranding

recently. Recently, I had no idea that

game would be so good. I am so hooked on

Death Stranding. I really

honestly recommend that game. It's on 70%

discount now, and you might think, oh,

it's boring, you just carry boxes around.

And I thought that as well. I thought,

how is this game fun? You just carry boxes

from point A to point B. It's really good.

The more you get into the game, you unlock

more and more gear and items and gadgets

that help you carry your boxes. Like, you

get an exoskeleton that lets you carry

more weight. You get a floating sledge you

can load up and attach to your belt, and

then it follows you around like a, like a

tow truck thing. You can get vehicles.

You get a motorbike or a truck. You can

load up the truck, deliver your cargo

around.

And then you've got to traverse all this

landscape, like rivers and mountains and

cliffs. And they give you tools like a

ladder or a rope, and you use the ladders