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Got a runny nose.

The Severby costumer hero is dating Alka.

Just got a runny nose.

I'm fine.

Ahem. Okay, I'm fine.

I just got dust in my eye.

She left this morning. She went back home.

I feel terrible.

She left because she felt like she was here for too long and she was getting bored.

She didn't go to Korea. She just— she went back home to the Netherlands, back to her mum's place.

I feel fine.

It's just weird that she's gone now.

She was here for such a long time,

and I got used to having her around. Now it's weird. She's suddenly gone.

It's just, I don't know, I feel really confused and

Interview Alka after D-date with Shahiro.

I don't really care about this Alka person.

Um,

what was I saying?

Yeah, she arrived. She must have landed about 20 minutes ago.

Her flight arrives at 2.

I guess it's the end of one chapter. It was a pretty good chapter though.

It was always one of my fantasies or my dreams to bring a girl back home here.

I guess I already did that with my ex-wife and my other Korean girlfriend, but I don't feel like those count because I didn't really feel attracted to them.

How was she able to leave during the lockdown? Well, the airport's still running and taxis are still running. Not everything is locked down.

I just spent all day wandering around outside in the garden. I just feel kind of lost.

At one moment you're spending every day with someone, and then next minute they're gone.

She didn't leave because we had an argument. She was going to leave anyway.

She told me about leaving before we had that argument,

and it's not like she could stay here forever. That would just be weird

if she just lived here for months and months and months. My family would start getting unhappy with it. My mum would start getting stressed out, and then she had no money. She couldn't get a job because of the lockdown.

So things were difficult.

It's not a breakup because we weren't really together as a couple, and she said we can meet again in Korea if I don't say anything bad about her.

Which I'm pretty sure I won't. I don't usually badmouth people when they're not around. I usually just complain about people when I feel irritated, and I don't usually feel irritated by people if they're not here.

We didn't really have a— well, it was kind of a big argument a few days ago. Last time I streamed, I was in a bad mood because she was going to leave soon, and I was depressed and upset about that,

and I was kind of touchy. On that day, and then I started ranting about how she was annoying, and then she heard it and she got upset.

But we had a talk afterwards, and then everything was fine. The next day was really awkward. We didn't really talk to each other much, but then

the, the last few days were fine. We were back to normal, and it was nice. We just

We just messed around in the garden, sunbathing, watching Netflix, drinking beer. It was nice.

I think it was honestly the best 3 weeks of my entire life, or maybe the top top 5 best moments in my life. It felt like a dream.

And I guess I was starting to get a bit stressed out this week and nearing the end before she left because I'm not used— well, I guess I am. Well, I guess I'm not. I'm not really used to, you know, being with someone all day long, every day. When I was married, my wife— ex-wife had a job,

so she wasn't really around all day long.

Oh, thank you, Benevolent Pete. Very kind. It's kind of funny because when the Turkish girl thing happened, when we stayed in a hotel together, Hope there will be a reunited video one day. Thanks, David. Yeah, it would be nice if we could meet up again in Korea. Maybe. I'm not sure. I have to think about it. But

when the Turkish girl thing happened, I swore to myself I would never do that again because it was just horrible being stuck in a hotel with someone you didn't really like. Ended up repeating the same thing. Bring her back here, but this time I actually liked her, so that was nice.

So I did kind of do the same thing, but it was different this time because it was a different person

and we're not stuck in a tiny hotel room. Yeah, if we were stuck in a tiny hotel room for 3 weeks, then I think things would have been much more stressful.

ISNT it hypocritical for your hero to date one of your fans?

I don't really care. She can do what she wants.

I don't really know how things would have been different if there wasn't a lockdown. Maybe she would have went home anyway. No, before the lockdown started, she said she wanted to look for a job so she could save up money to go to Korea. So maybe she would have just moved back to London.

I don't think she planned to come here and then live with me and then go straight back home. The lockdown kind of

disrupted everything.

Now that I think back on it, it's just kind of crazy, everything that happened. Going to London to meet her, going to the trampoline park, the karaoke stuff, then staying the night in a hotel, and then bringing her back here the next day. Well, not the next day, 2 days later.

I don't get why she left before the lockdown is over. Because she felt like she was overstaying her welcome, I think. And she was getting bored and she was running out of money.

I guess this was unavoidable, and it's the best It's for the best that she went back, I guess.

I didn't really want her to leave though. I was hoping that the plane would get cancelled or the lockdown would get worse. You could stay with Paula and her family in the Netherlands when lockdown is over.

No, I wouldn't stay with her family. I'd get an Airbnb.

Um, yeah, I was kind of hoping that the lockdown would get stricter and then everything would get shut down, then she'd be stuck here.

But then I think things would have been very stressful if that did happen. I was a bit worried that the planes— her plane would get cancelled because all of the other flights, the same flight that she took from Saturday and Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, they all got cancelled. Said there was an 80% cancellation rate for that particular flight,

but her flight got home, it was on time.

It was also lucky the taxi was running. It was the same man who, who brought me home when I came back from Korea. He's nice.

So everything turned out well, I guess. She got home safely.

It's just weird. Now I have to get used to being alone again.

I don't really like being alone. People think I do, and I do get stressed out if I don't have any alone time, but I just want a few hours by myself. I don't want to be alone every day, all day long.

Caesium says he paid you £10,000. No, he didn't. I don't know how much he's paid me in total since I started YouTube. Maybe it's £1,000.

Why don't you think you were in love with Mira? I don't know.

How would I know if I was in love? I feel sad she's gone. I feel kind of empty she's gone. Everything's so quiet now, it's weird.

Thank you, Calmy Stones.

For the €1.

Hmm,

I just— I don't really know what to do now.

I kind of got in a routine when she was here.

I guess I can do anything I want to.

I walked around in the garden for hours and hours, just walking around in circles.

It was weird.

It kind of feels like she died, but she didn't really, but it kind of feels like she did.

Must be lonely now. Yeah, I feel lonely.

It's so confusing, emotions. When people are around, they're kind of annoying, but then when they leave, they make you sad.

Why can we see your garden in the background? Because I put a webcam so I can see people outside.

I don't know what to do now.

I don't think she would want to come back. She seemed pretty bored with England.

She kept saying England's boring. She wants to go back to Korea.

Mila must be had some Thai poo for you to be so sad. Oh, thank you, Satou.

Well, I think she was the first girl that I ever brought back home that I actually felt attracted to,

which is like a Christmas miracle for me.

I'm happy that I got to tick off something I wanted to do for such a long time. I thought I'd never be able to experience that.

Having children with Mila would be a bad idea.

Hmm. Thank you, George. Hopefully she's not pregnant.

I always came outside, so she should be fine.

And I've never gotten anyone pregnant before, so I think my sperm doesn't even work.

Can she even get back to Korea? They aren't allowing foreigners on holiday now. I heard someone else say that. They said Korea has cancelled its visa waiver for tourists now, so you can't even go to Korea as a tourist.

How long is this whole situation gonna go on for?

I still can't go to the dentist.

I went for a checkup before the lockdown started and they booked me for some fillings,

and then the appointment got pushed back until June.

Where's my next travel destination? I don't know. I feel kind of confused about what I want to do.

I'm not sure. I feel like going back to Japan won't really result in anything.

I never had much luck in Japan.

I deleted my Twitter because

Every time I was in a bad mood, I would go onto it and then say dumb stuff, and then it would get screenshotted.

And then I deleted Discord because I would say dumb stuff on there all the time and get screenshotted, and it was just full of people that

were just kind of toxic and negative. And I feel like most of the people on my Discord weren't even there because of me. They were just random people there.

For no good reason. Maybe I'll make a new one later,

but I'm not really interested in— I'm not really interested in social media right now. I feel like I just want to cut most of it off and just think about things. Without it distracting me.

I felt like so many people in the Discord were just lying to me and then stirring up drama and then causing drama. Trying to get me into trouble, trying to get other people involved into it as well by inviting them there. It was just a mess. You need to focus on your dreams first. Thank you.

I don't— I still don't really know what my dream is though. These last few weeks were pretty good though.

I think that's all I just— that's all I really wanted, just to have a nice girl here and not have to go all the way to bloody Japan and live in a tiny shoebox apartment.

Toxic. They try to manipulate you.

Yeah, I know what those two are up to.

I don't trust them. They're always scheming and up to things.

I think it'll take me a while to readjust back to— back to normal life, alone and depressed again.

That's all I really wanted in life. I don't really care about much else. I just wanted someone to share my life with, who I feel attracted to.

At least I got to experience it, even if it didn't last very long.

I guess I'm back to square one again, aren't I?

My cat's gone blind as well. Mimo, she lost her eyesight.

Super Chat just because you're my favorite YouTuber. Oh, thank you, it's very kind.

Yeah, Mimo was taken to the vets a few days ago and they told us that she has completely lost her eyesight and she's completely blind. Because of stress, high blood pressure. Apparently, the retina has detached from the lens because of high blood pressure. So that's kind of sad. I didn't even notice she was kind of bumping into

walls. I thought she was just you know kind of tired or something.

Meet Shannon. She will probably change your mind. Don't waste. Your time crying. Hmm, thank you, Anthony. I don't know about meeting girls right now. I feel too

confused. I need to let my emotions settle. Could take a few weeks until I'm back to normal.

Sad because I always saw Mimo as a young, healthy cat. But she's getting old. She's not young anymore.

She must be about 15 or 16.

It's just sad to think she won't hunt anymore or chase the little string.

It's interesting because she still moves around and she gets around the house and the garden like she always did. But she's just slower now. She has to be careful.

Your channel wouldn't exist without Cesium's generosity, yet you badmouth him.

Hmm.

I didn't badmouth him. I just know what he's like, and he's always scheming and plotting stuff

and trying to stir drama. I'm thankful for the money he's given me during streams, but that doesn't make you immune from me badmouthing you.

If you do something to deserve it.

The whole KC Hong Kong guy Chihiro drama basically started because of Cesium making a server, then inviting KC and my aunt Chihiro to the server. None of that would have happened if it wasn't for him, so he knows what he's done.

I don't trust them at all.

It's just sad because I thought they were fans or they were supposed to like me or something.

I guess you can't trust anyone.

Why did Mila leave? She left because

she was bored and she felt like she was here for too long.

What's the pink thing in my hair? It's a hair clip.

Clips my hair.

I knew she was gonna leave anyway. It's not like it was— sudden, and it's not because she— it's not because we had an argument. We talked about her leaving a week ago.

To be honest, I didn't think she would stay this long, actually. I thought she would just stay maybe a week maximum,

but it was nice. I liked her. I liked having her here.

Chihiro WUDN TV dating Alka if it WASN't for cesium.

Chihiro also used to secretly take photos of me and then send them to Cesium,

which is kind of messed up.

They probably even still talk to each other now privately.

This is why I had to get rid of Chihiro. She just wouldn't stop Talking to these weirdos who watch my channel.

I don't know how many weirdos she's, she's talked to, she keeps in contact with. Probably the ones from the subreddit as well.

And it's just kind of sad that I don't think Chihiro understands how scheming and manipulative these trolls

and people on the internet are. She— I'm pretty sure she thinks they're just normal people looking out for her. They're not normal people. They're trying to stir up drama and trying to cause problems for their own entertainment. That they couldn't be any further away from being normal people.

I tried explaining it to her over and over, but it's like she doesn't get it.

Did I love Mila? I don't know. Love is a very strong word. Learn how to manage your feelings. And set goals. Procrastination will make you feel bad about yourself. Follow Alex Becker or ask for that.

Alka is a massive weirdo. Why would she date him?

I don't really know what my goal is. I guess I kind of have a goal, which is to find a nice girl who I like and who likes me

and then do stuff together. That's basically it. It's not that complicated.

And then people keep asking me why am I so obsessed with getting a girlfriend or women. It's because

Being alone kind of sucks and is boring,

and everything's more enjoyable with someone else.

Oh, thank you, Zero One Tiff. Very kind of you.

I'm just a very lonely person. I guess I'm not really introverted then. If I was truly introverted, then I, I don't think I would feel lonely as much as I do. The Dutch girl got doxxed because Cesium was following her on Instagram.

Me and Mila were pretty confident that people wouldn't find her social media because I don't follow her and she doesn't follow me. So how would you link her to me? The reason why Victoria got doxxed was because I was following her on Instagram and I forgot that you can just look at my following list and you can

see who I'm following.

Chihiro doesn't understand internet and meme and troll culture at all.

She thinks people on the internet are just normal people. She doesn't get it,

and she's gonna get catfished and trolled hard, I think.

I just think it's kind of sad that she's active on a server on Discord, which is probably full of a bunch of weird teenagers who have no life.

I'm used to it because I used to play online games and stuff like that, so I know what people are like on the internet.

I was hoping she would just disappear and vanish like she did last year. When we nearly divorced back then, I don't understand why back then last year she just disappeared without a trace.

But now this time she's making videos and she's streaming on Instagram and she's talking to my viewers. They're not her viewers; they're all my viewers. She didn't get any viewers. The Hong Kong guy and Chihiro didn't get any viewers by themselves. All their viewers are. My viewers. And now she's just chatting to my viewers,

promoting her Twitter as well on Casey's channel.

Why? Last year she didn't do any of this. Now this year she's like completely different.

I was hoping she would just disappear and then I wouldn't have to hear from her. Ever again. But now it's like I can't get rid of the 2 bloody idiots, can I? It's like I stepped on a big massive shit and I can't get it off my shoe. Stuck on my shoe forever, following me around because stupid

Casey puts hiding in my room in every bloody video he makes in the title. And people keep saying, Daniel, did you know Chihiro is doing this and that? I don't care what Chihiro is doing. I want her to fuck off. I'm not interested in what she's doing or who she's talking to, but people keep telling me.

I'm hoping eventually they'll get tired and they'll just disappear like Tomoko and Kanato did.

They're basically just Tomoko and the Kanato version 2, aren't they? If you I've been watching since— was it not last year? Yeah, I guess beginning of last year. You might remember some English guy called Konaito who used to do the same, making expose videos on me. And then there was Tomoko, who's basically the same as what Chihiro

is doing now. Got upset because I said bad things about her,

another Japanese woman I effed.

Thankfully, Tomoko and Kanaito kind of just faded away. I'm hoping the same thing's gonna happen with these 2 Muppets. God, I'm so sick and tired of hearing about them.

What happened to Kanaito? I don't know, he just kind of disappeared.

He made— he carried on making a few more videos, but I think he gave up the whole YouTube thing. Most people do just give up YouTube.

They get tired with not getting anywhere. They get bored. They lose interest.

You know what the annoying thing about Casey is? Every time I say he secretly messaged and met up my wife, met up with my wife behind my back, He always defends himself by saying, Daniel's wrong. I invited Daniel as well.

That's got nothing to do with it. Just because you invited me doesn't cancel out the fact that you did secretly meet up with my wife. It's secretly because I didn't know about it and no one told me about it. Yeah, you invited me, but you didn't say that you were going to meet her, and she didn't say

to me that she was going to meet you. So yeah, it's secret and behind my back because I didn't know about it until after it happened. Just because you say, but we invited you to, that doesn't cancel out what I'm saying. I know you invited me. I never said you didn't.

I watched his last video and he was saying, Daniel is falsely accusing me of secretly messaging his wife when I invited him to. Those 2 points are completely

Unconnected. So stupid.

And then I saw the comments on his video saying stuff like, oh, Daniel's a liar, he was invited. I never said I wasn't invited. I said myself. Yeah, he invited me and I said no.

I still didn't know they were going to meet up anyway. I think you feel bad because of the lack of direction in your life. Women are a bonus, not the goal. You have too much time, that's why you are bored. You need to construct something or work or exercise.

Thank you, Anthony.

But everything's boring without a woman.

Apart from game— I guess gaming is better without a woman because they just distract me when I'm trying to get frags on Rainbow Six. And streaming is also better without a woman. I prefer being alone to stream and make videos. But in general, I think having a girlfriend or a wife. Smiling face with smiling eyes. I think

it makes life better and more enjoyable. It's just kind of sad when you're completely alone.

Thank you, Cesium.

I don't hate Cesium because he has been very supportive and I appreciate the money.

But I do find it kind of disturbing, the things he's done.

I heard you like little children. No, I hate children. They're so annoying. They keep crying. They look stupid. Why are their heads so big?

Maybe you should consider oversharing. Oversharing what? If you want to know, ask me anything. I'll tell you. I've got secrets.

I've got one massive secret. I'm not sure if I want to say. Maybe it's best if I don't say. I don't see how it would benefit me if I do say it, and it might just make things worse with my ex-wife. She starts to message me again. Last Thursday asking if I was selling her nudes. Because some

idiots are trying to spread this rumor that I'm selling her nudes. Maybe you should consider oversharing, bro. And then she, she believes them or thinks that they're telling the truth, and she keeps messaging me asking me if I'm selling them, and I keep saying no, I'm not selling your bloody nudes. And if I was, I wouldn't admit

to it, would I? So what's the point of asking me? If I was selling her nudes, I wouldn't just say, oh, you caught me, yes I am. I would just carry on saying, no, I'm not.

So unless there's any proof that I'm actually selling her nudes, then maybe shut up.

There's no proof because I'm not selling her nudes. The only nude that is circulating is the one that she shared. With someone, which then got leaked. So if there's any nudes of her out there, it's her own bloody fault.

Happy Easter. I am not the only one feeling alone. Thank you, Andy.

I don't really understand Easter. What do you do? I thought it was just like a kids thing where you get chocolate eggs. I didn't know people actually took it seriously.

People keep going on about Easter is ruined.

I never really did anything for Easter.

No, I'm not joining anyone's Discord server. Fed up with Discord, it's too problematic.

Yeah, the secret that I was referring to, I'll give you some hints. It involves someone somewhere that took place

Shortly before Christmas. I won't say anything more.

Maybe in a few years I'll spill the beans. You got slapped and Mila made you look like a girl. She didn't really slap me hard. It was just like— it wasn't a violent, angry slap. Just joined. What's happened? Tell the secret. No, I'm not telling it yet. It's too early. I like to have a cooking time of

at least a year on my big secrets before I spill the beans. It's not ready yet. You have to wait. It's still raw. It's still cooking.

I've still got the Hong Kong woman story that I'm gonna tell soon, since people seem to love the affair with married women stories.

Am I really done with Cooking with Daniel? Well, I just don't know how I can cook anymore.

There's always food in the fridge, and I just cook the same stuff over and over. I just put some bacon and some eggs in the halogen oven. And I don't go shopping anymore because my mum goes shopping. So I feel like it's hard to make food or cooking videos now because I don't have to go shopping or

make my own food. When I was in Korea, it was easy because I had to go shopping every day and I had to make my own food.

And I kind of ran out of ideas of things to cook anyway.

No one killed the Discord, I killed it. I got fed up with it. It was just becoming too toxic and there was too much drama.

It felt like it wasn't my server anymore. It was just full of a bunch of random people that weren't there because of me or because they like— because they like the channel. They were just there I don't know why they were there.

I liked doing the cooking videos when I was alone because I had the whole kitchen to myself and I could just make anything I wanted to, and then I could just chat about stuff whilst preparing it. But now it's difficult to do that because I get interrupted.

So my idea for the second channel is, what about Resident Evil 3 let's play, and then I just ramble whilst playing it, and then we can do the story mode?

Maybe,

but a lot of people aren't interested in gaming.

But it's not really about gaming, it's just me rambling whilst I play the game in the background. The cooking wasn't really about cooking, it was just me rambling whilst I cooked in the background. They're both traitors.

I'm hoping at least by next year I I won't have to hear about them anymore. Just like no one talks about Tomoko or Konaito anymore. Hopefully next year no one will be talking about those two either.

Isn't it weird no one ever talks about Tomoko or Konaito these days?

People get bored, I guess.

Bring Tomoko back. Someone message her, ask her if she's down to F. Reignite the Tomoko drama.

I can't believe I flew all the way to Japan just to meet her.

And then she catfished me. What if I retell the story again every year? I'll just retell it.

Oh, thank you. T-pop fever and satire.

No, I don't think so.

JJ says she is starting her own YT channel.

But why? I don't understand why she suddenly wants to start a YouTube channel. She had no interest when we were together, and I used to beg her to make videos for me because they got loads of views, and then she wasn't interested.

And now all of a sudden people saying stuff like, I never let her tell her side, she's making videos to tell her side of the story. Hasn't she told her bloody side by now?

Alka is flying to Japan just to meet Shahiro, sad. I think everyone knows her side.

What else is she gonna talk about apart from me?

She's interested in YouTube for money. Well, she's not gonna make much, is she?

Unless somehow— I don't know, unless she goes viral.

Isn't it weird that every woman you have dated, Cesium tries to get with them? He did succeed with Pia.

Yeah, I'm pretty shocked about the rumors that Pia and Cesium are together.

I knew Pia had a boyfriend, but she never told me it was Cesium, and I don't know why she would keep that a secret.

And they claim it's like a rumor, a meme, a joke.

But I don't know if it's true or not. It could be, maybe. I still think it's kind of weird. I think she was the one who encouraged him to come here to my house,

and someone told me that it was probably Cesium who leaked the screenshots we were having together last year,

so they were probably living together.

Male friend if you don't trust people.

How can you help me though?

I don't need help. I'm fine.

Yeah, it's still a mystery how those screenshots got leaked, but the theory that it was Cesium does sound pretty believable right now. I mean, who else could it have been? The thing I don't know is Who sent the screenshots to my wife? Was it Cesium who sent them to her, and did she know that it was Cesium

who sent them to her, or did he use a different account? She wouldn't tell me. I said, who sent you them? She kept saying it didn't matter.

Anyway, it was a big mess. I'm glad I guess it's not over because we're still going on about it.

I'm not happy about it, but I guess it did help me get views, didn't it, by stirring up drama.

And I guess it did help me get out of the marriage, which I was not happy in. I was not happy being married at all.

People keep saying, why didn't you just leave her then? It's not that easy to just leave someone. After you've been with them for a long time, it's difficult to just leave. Trust me, I wanted to leave so many times, and I nearly did a few times.

I kept going back to her because I was lonely and I felt guilty, and I wanted to make her happy, but

I couldn't.

I didn't like making her upset. It made me feel upset. Seeing her upset.

Would you like Mila to stay a bit longer? Personally, I would like it if she was still here, but I understand she was getting bored and my family probably getting annoyed.

And yeah, I guess it was kind of boring every day just doing the same thing here, not going anywhere, not being able to do anything apart from just sit around in the garden.

But, but I liked that. That's what I like doing. I was happy.

Maybe it's because I'm getting old, but I'm not really,

not really interested in living a really fast-paced, hectic, chaotic life. I just want to relax

where it's nice and quiet, surrounded by nature, good food, nice place to live in. I don't think she's in that stage of her life yet.

But I'm just not really interested in that whole clubbing, going out scene anymore.

You said you like the convenience of cities. It's still convenient here. I can get stuff off Amazon if I want to. I can get a taxi to London if I want to go to the airport. I can get the train into town if I really need to go to town.

I don't really feel like it's that inconvenient being in the countryside. You just have to

plan when you're going out because there's only one train every hour.

So I don't really see how living in a city is that much better than living here. Still easy to get stuff off Amazon, comes next day.

There's a shop 5 minutes up the road, the petrol station. I went there with Mila to buy some food. And they sell loads of stuff. There was that one woman working there still who, who used to work in the mornings. I think her name's Kimberly. She didn't see me though. I don't think she noticed me.

And I disagree that you need a car to live in the countryside. The train station is about 20 minutes walk away. It's not difficult to walk 20 minutes. The bus station— the bus stop is about 10 minutes away. You really don't need a car.

It's so easy to live without a car. I don't understand why some people think you have to have one.

Would you rather be lonely forever or live with a guy beaming face with smiling eyes? I think I'd rather be alone than live with a guy. Living with a guy sounds kind of gay.

Does the Nepalese guy still work at the petrol station? The Nepalese guy number 2 does, but the one I hated, number 1, I don't know. I guess

I would have to go there at night to see if his car's parked outside, but I'm pretty sure I saw his car parked outside when I went there a few years ago for Christmas.

The, the Nepalese guy that's dating the ex-manager's daughter, I think he's still there. My mum said she saw him.

I'm not sure what happened to my manager. She— I think she quit a few months after I quit, and then the owner of the petrol station sold it to a different company. And then he moved to Spain.

I thought about puncturing his tires, but maybe that's not nice.

The only reason I liked going to Japan was because of Cheap rent, and

I could actually get laid in Japan.

Those are the main reasons. Apart from that, there's not really much else about Japan that I like. I don't like the food. I don't really interact with the people, so saying stuff like Japanese people are so friendly doesn't really affect me because I don't talk to them anyway.

The problem with England is it's really hard to get your own place unless you make a lot of money or unless you're willing to share a house with a bunch of people like my sister does in London. I went to my sister's place in London. We went to pick her up before the lockdown started. She lives in

this big house with 4 other people and it's just weird. They just share the house like a family, but it's not like they're friends. They just live together. I think it's kind of weird,

and I don't really fancy the idea of living in a house full of strangers. I want to live by myself.

In Korea, I could get my own place so easily for just $500 to $800 a month.

In Japan, I could get an Airbnb as well for about that money, about the same money. But in England, I can't. You'd have to spend at least $2,000 to get your own place, your own Airbnb. And no, I don't want to rent out some apartment in get a contract.

It's too much work. I just want to go on Airbnb, book a place, and then go there, and then everything's ready and set up.

And I don't want to get my own permanent place because then I can't go and meet girls if I need to go and meet girls.

If they're gonna come to me, then that's great, but I can't rely on it.

Sometimes I just have to get on the plane and go, go and meet them.

What was growing up in Kent like?

I guess it was okay. Going to school wasn't great. There was a lot of racism against me.

Hey Daniel, you should hook up with Queenie from your server. She's had Essex with at least 5 people in your server and sex with, with some too. It's only time you get what's yours.

No thank you, I don't want to get an STD.

Hopefully I didn't get one from Mila.

I'm pretty sure I didn't give her anything because last time I had unprotected sex was with my ex-wife and that was all the way back in January. After that, I just had call girl sex, but they always make you use condoms, so I think I'm pretty clean.

Unless I got something from Chihiro, which I really don't think. She was a cheater. I trust her. I trust that she wasn't cheating on me.

Why don't I move to Mexico? Because Mexico looks

Looks not very nice. I don't want to live in a shit country. I want to live in a nice country.

That's why I like Japan and Korea. I get kind of annoyed when people say, what's so great about Japan and Korea? Why don't you go to blah blah blah? Because Japan and Korea are nice countries. They're modern, safe, and clean and affordable. Why would I want to go to some crappy country in the jungle when I could

go to Japan? Japan's great. Japan is the best country in the world.

It just feels safe and modern, and it's easy to get your own place for a good price.

You just said you didn't like Japan. No, I said there's nothing about Japan that I really, really like when it comes to things like culture and food, but I think it's a nice place to live in.

It's my number one choice out of all the other countries.

I'd rather go and live in Tokyo or Osaka instead of some stupid shared house in London.

Surrounded by you-know-whats.

Anywhere in Japan is better than some English city in a council flat. The only reason I like my home is because it's a big house and a big garden with a nice property. If we lived in some townhouse flat, then I would never leave Japan. I would never want to come home.

And then all those other Asian countries like Thailand, Philippines, Indonesia, Vietnam, they're all too hot. I don't like hot countries. Even now in England, I feel like it's too hot. I like wearing layers. I don't like wearing shirts, t-shirts, and shorts. And I don't like all the insects, so I don't think I could live in a country

like Thailand.

But then if I go to Japan, then it's kind of lonely because no girls that like me are ever in Japan. They're always in bloody America or Europe.

I've never had a fan— I mean, a girl who watches my channel who's in Japan who wanted to meet up, apart from that Swedish girl.

But all my viewers are mainly in Europe or America. I don't have barely any in Asia, hardly any in Asia.

I just think if I went back to Japan, I'd just end up being depressed and lonely again.

Uh, so difficult.

Being depressed and lonely just kind of sucks.

I guess that's why me and Chihiro lasted for so long, because we were equally depressed and lonely. That's why we didn't want to break up.

Uh, why is my sister on the phone outside my bloody room? I can hear her on the phone.

What am I supposed to do now?

So difficult trying to figure out what you want and then how to get it.

I don't know, I want so many things, but I can't have all of them.

The best thing would be if life didn't feel so meaningless if you're alone. Then I wouldn't be so obsessed with finding a partner. Isn't that what life is mostly about though? Finding a partner

and then settling down and then making a family. Isn't that what life is for pretty much everything in the world?

Maybe I should save up money and then get a house. Maybe a piece of land. How much does it cost to get a piece of land? I can do what my granddad did, get a piece of land for £200. And then build a house.

Maybe I would prefer that instead of living in Japan in an Airbnb, feeling depressed and lonely all the time.

If only we bought the piece of land opposite us before the Irish people did, that would have been great.

My dad should have just bought it. I bet he wished he did buy it, buy it before those Irish people bought it.

I think the Irish people bought it for just £10,000.

He is your daddy.

Guys don't count when it comes to loneliness. I could be surrounded by 1,000 guys, I would still feel just as lonely. I would just feel irritated.

Nice land can cost 13k. I've got 13k, I could afford that.

I've got 30k, I could buy a piece of land. I'll just get a wooden shed to begin with,

and I'll get 10 kittens and a goose.

What kind of land could I get with 30k?

You don't want friends. I don't want friends, really.

I don't see the point of it. I feel like friends are just something you have when you don't have a girlfriend.

It's like a substitute.

What about a big home on a small piece of land, or a small home on a big piece of land?

I wouldn't mind just having a shed, actually, as long as it's warm and has electricity.

If it's on a nice big piece of land, then a shed would be fine.

Maybe I'll look up land for sale after I finish streaming.

I'm sad you gave up on a— on Japan dream.

I just feel like it's so hard to, to find happiness in Japan.

I just wanted a simple life. A small apartment, nice wife, maybe get some pets. But it has to be the right person, and Chihiro was not the right person. If only I could have replaced Chihiro with anyone else but kept all of the good stuff like the apartment and the visa. If your only friend is your partner,

it won't last.

Who in the chat wants to be my GF? Looking for Misaki.

I just get worried, what if I get a piece of land and then I get fed up and I want to go to Japan? What do I do with it? And then I just spent all my money on a piece of land I don't want anymore.

I think having Mila come here has made me really lazy about the idea of going traveling or using Tinder,

because to be honest, if I had to choose, I'd rather just not travel if I didn't have to,

because I don't really enjoy it. I don't really enjoy sitting on airplanes and buses all day long just to get to some place. That I'll end up feeling depressed and isolate isolated in.

I don't know. I can't make my mind up. If a Japanese girl starts messaging me, then I'll be on the next plane to Japan, won't I? There's no point trying to plan anything because I keep changing my mind.

Although having my own piece of land does sound interesting. I could build an underground tunnel and have secret chambers

where I could store things.

How did Mila travel during the lockdown? The airports are still operating and taxis are still running. Not everything's locked down.

I played the Resident Evil 3 demo. It's quite good, I guess. I think I might like Resident Evil 3 more than 2 because I think it's more action-oriented. Resident Evil 2 is kind of slow-paced, and it's really scary. You're stuck in that stupid police station, and it's really claustrophobic, and all these narrow dark corridors you have to

go down, and they're flooded. But Resident Evil 3 is kind of different because a lot of it's outside

and it's brighter and there's more action, I think. And the main character is sexy, not a weirdo-looking nerdy guy.

But I do like the setting of Resident Evil 2. The police station is pretty cool, but it's just too scary. I couldn't play it. Had to switch it off. It was stressing me out. Video games are supposed to be fun. It was not fun. It just made me feel anxious and nervous and stressed out. I was sweating

the whole time as well.

Does the Nemesis still hunt you down? Yeah, he chases you in the demo,

and he's kind of annoying because you can't do anything. You have to run.

Or else he'll grab you.

How was Chihiro not the right person? Because she just didn't have— I don't know. Some funds for the secret tunnel frog. Ignore the G9 McLovin Discord weirdos there. Bored 12-year-olds messing with Casey and Chihiro.

Well, thank you, Cesium. I don't know who these people are.

But I think it is kind of funny. Keiichi and Chihiro probably are getting just messed around by a bunch of edgy teenagers on the internet, and they've— they don't realize it because they're so stupid.

I just didn't feel attracted to Chihiro at all, not even a tiny bit.

And I think that's the most important thing. Number one, I wasn't physically attracted to her. Number two, we had nothing in common apart from feeling lonely. We weren't interested in anything.

We had no shared interests is what I meant.

She wasn't interested in anything I was interested in. I wasn't interested in anything she was interested in. So what was the point of staying together? It just felt like a pointless relationship,

and living in Japan just wasn't worth it.

I don't want to live in Japan that desperately.

Why did I marry her? Because at the time that seemed like the best option, and life is just a series of choices, and at the time that seemed like a good choice to make.

It was either get married and live in Japan, which has always kind of been my dream, or go back to England with my mum and dad going backwards and forwards to the job centre

with no girlfriends. So at the time, getting married seemed like a pretty good idea.

Read Robert Greene books, achieve excellence, and maybe you will find meaning to your meaningful life.

Oh, thank you, Anthony. I think one of the reasons why I felt so sad after Mina left was because when she was here, I did kind of feel like my life had meaning. And then after she's gone, it's like she took the meaning with her.

If I could go back in time, I would have still gotten married.

I don't regret getting married. I think it was a good experience.

I thought it was interesting and I got to experience living in Japan and I probably got a lot of views from the whole experience as well.

You found Mila annoying literally days ago. Okay, I was getting a bit stressed out and a bit annoyed and I was kind of moody on that day.

But that was just a bad day. Everyone has bad days.

In general, I liked her here, and I liked having— I liked her company, and I enjoyed being with her.

I just wanted a few hours by myself to do some streams.

I find everyone irritating. I don't think I've ever met a person who I didn't find irritating. I can point out irritating things about anyone.

I just get irritated by certain things.

I did get quite a lot of views from getting married, didn't I?

Why did you— did you cry when she leave? Yeah, I did cry at the beginning of the stream. Oh, now everyone's gonna see that. I feel a bit embarrassed.

I was so sure I wasn't gonna cry because I already cried before I started the stream after she left. I didn't think I'd start crying again.

But I feel much better now after I cried.

My sister said, why don't you be in a relationship with Mila? She's the best one so far. I don't know.

Number one, I don't even know if she would want to be in a relationship with me. I feel like she would get bored of me pretty soon

because I'm not as high-paced and high-energy as she is.

And then I don't even know what our life would be like together.

And I'm not really sure if I want to be in a relationship right now. I hope you feel better soon, Daniel. Red heart. Oh, thank you. That's very kind.

Yeah, I think I'll feel fine in a few days. This is the first day without her, so it's kind of weird readjusting to life alone again.

Did you film you two doing the deed? No, I did not.

I was thinking about recording the audio, but I decided not to. I thought maybe, maybe this time I won't be a weirdo.

I showed Mira the video of me effing the love doll, and she wanted to see the video of me and my wife doing it, but I said no. I thought that was a bit weird.

She also made me watch gay porn to see if I got erected, but I didn't, so I guess I'm not gay.

Someone offered me £50 for the sex doll video, so I'm quite happy with that. Irritated you once before, but I made up for it later. You have a good heart, Daniel. Happiness is the journey. Oh, thank you, Andy. I think that's one of my bad habits. I get irritated easily and then I lose my temper and then

I, I snap at people.

I really shouldn't because I always feel bad for doing it afterwards.

Love you, Daniel Blackheart. Glad you're not gay. Oh, thank you, Jordan.

Yeah, I don't think I'm gay. I definitely like women. You know what I'd love to do with Mila? I would love to get a sample of her saliva. Damn, I should have asked her before she left. I want her saliva. I don't know if she'd be up for it, but I'd be really interested in getting her to

do a DNA test because I think her DNA results would be really interesting.

Everyone says she looks Asian, but she's not Asian,

and she doesn't look white because she's only half white. Pass the bomb, Daniel. I think it'd be really interesting to see what percentage her DNA is

because her mum's Brazilian. But then Brazil is kind of a weird country when it comes to ethnicity. It's like a big mixture of Native Americans, you know, the Aztecs and the Incas, and then they kind of got wiped out by the Spanish. So it's gonna have a mixture of Native Americans and then Hispanics, and then they probably

got a whole bunch of black people as well from the, the slave trade. So it must be like this massive mixture of Hispanic, black, and Native American people.

So I thought it'd be interesting. But I know a lot of people are against having their DNA getting stored in some DNA bank. I don't really care. I mean, what are they gonna do with it? So what if some company in Canada has my DNA sample? What are they gonna do, clone me? They're gonna clone me and

then assassinate me and then replace me with the clone. Yeah, right. What would you do if I got assassinated and then my clone replaced me? And then I carried on streaming, doing YouTube, but it wasn't actually me, it was my clone. Why is it that mixed people seem to be lazy?

I don't know. Not all mixed people are lazy. Filthy Frank, he's not lazy. He seems like a hard worker.

Who else is mixed?

The anime man, maybe he is kind of lazy. He just sits around reading manga and watching anime all day.

Do you think there's more mixed people in the world than there are non-mixed people?

Everyone's mixed with something, aren't they? I'm pretty sure that there's no one in the world who's 100% something.

My eyes feel puffed up after I was crying. Is it obvious that I've been crying?

I'm thirsty. I didn't get a drink.

It was kind of chaotic in the morning. She didn't start packing Well, she started packing when we had that argument, but then she unpacked it because she was looking for stuff. And then she didn't pack the night before today, so she had to do all the packing last minute in the morning, in the last hour. And then

she left to get into the taxi, and she left her tablet behind, and I saw it lying there. Had to call her back.

What? I don't want a beer. Why did you open it?

Come closer.

Why did you bring me a beer? Thank you, I guess.

But I don't want a beer, I want water. I'm thirsty. That was my mum. Maybe she heard me saying that I'm thirsty. Oh no, did she see the bit when I was crying?

If you cry on stream, I'll donate. Go to the beginning of this stream. I was crying in the corner. I think you could see me. I was standing here.

I don't know if you can go back to the beginning of the stream.

I already had a beer for lunch. This is my second beer now.

Maybe I should thank my mum for letting Mila stay for so long. If my dad was still alive, there's no way he would have let her stay.

He would have been annoyed. My dad used to hate it when people were downstairs in the kitchen doing stuff.

Thank you. Are you watching me now? I can hear my voice.

My dad hated it when people were downstairs making noise after he went to sleep.

She was watching, otherwise how would she know that I wanted— oh, I just told her, didn't

I? My whole face feels so like it's just drooping, like

I forgot what it feels like to smile.

Yeah, if my dad was still around, I'm pretty sure he would not have allowed it. Not have allowed her to stay so long.

So maybe I should thank her for letting her stay here. It was like one of my dreams come true.

When did my dad pass? He passed away last year from— from— ow— from Spanish flu, H1N1.

Last year, February. So it's been a year and 2 months now since he

died. H1N1 killed over 150,000 people last year,

but no one really talks about it, do they? I mean, it also killed 20 million people In 1918, and then swine flu killed a bunch as well.

But now they go on and on about coronavirus.

Do you think coronavirus is more deadly than H1N1? H1N1 was pretty deadly.

Because it mainly affected young people in their 20s and 30s and 40s, not just old people.

Oh, and Boris Johnson, he's getting better. I was actually worried because I like Boris Johnson. He's funny. He went into intensive care. He got the virus. He's the Prime Minister of England, but he's getting better. They said he's out of intensive care now. It was kind of shocking when the leader of your country Gets the virus like

that.

Did you have last cereal with me? Yeah, last night. My bro McGovern and Casey totally smashed your Discord and YouTube channel, mate. How do you feel about it? They did not smash my Discord. I deleted it because I thought enough was enough and it was just too toxic, too much drama.

Boris is acting. I actually said that to my sister. What if it's fake and he didn't actually get the virus and it's some kind of propaganda?

What if Prince Charles didn't actually get the virus?

But why would they do that?

I'm getting kind of bored with it though. It was exciting and interesting in the beginning, but now you just turn on the news and it's just constant virus stuff. And it's all just the same. Not enough PPE, not enough masks. Why didn't they make more back in January before it got really bad here?

That's what I don't understand. If I was a nurse or a doctor working in a hospital here, I would have stocked up on my own masks because we saw this all happening in China in January. And end of December,

I would have started stocking up on face masks myself if I worked in a hospital.

And those, you know, those plastic visors, I would have stocked up my own supply.

Because I'm clever.

No one thought it would get that bad back in January, but even in, in March it was starting to get bad in Europe.

Thank God I didn't go to Spain. Spanish girl actually messaged me saying that we could still meet up, so I don't— either she doesn't know about the Dutch girl stuff, or maybe she doesn't mind.

I don't know, I'm not really in the mindset for traveling right now. I might just play some VR later. I think I'll stream for another half an hour and then might play some Half-Life: Alyx. I'm waiting for it to get interesting. It's not interesting yet.

I got to the part where You get the flashlight on your hand, and I got the shotgun.

I can't play it for very long because I feel sick after an hour.

Sinon is into you. You just have to go for it if you want to change your mind. I don't know,

what if I like Mila more?

Why don't you stream Half-Life? Because I'm pretty sure if I started playing games, nearly everyone's gonna leave because people— you guys don't seem to like video games. And I look kind of stupid when I play VR. When I play Beat Saber, I get really into it and I start jumping up and down like a monkey waving the

things.

When I play Pistol Whip, I look like a complete retard as well. I found a really effective way of playing Pistol Whip. You just roll around on your bed and you keep ducking and and nearing and then jumping up again.

Hmm, yeah, I understand most people don't, don't want to see video game content. That's why I don't do it.

I think out of all of the types of content, video game content would do the worst on my channel.

Tech stuff— currently tech stuff does the worst, and then illustrated stuff does almost as badly,

which is a shame because I would love to do Resident Evil 3 livestream let's play. If you remember, I don't know if anyone here used to watch me back in 2017 before I went to Japan, but I used to do Alien: Isolation livestreams and it was nice. There was just about— I only had about 40 viewers and

we just played Alien: Isolation and then they would help me play the game because I'd get stuck and they'd give me hints

and we finished the story together and it felt like we finished it helping each other, like it was a journey we went on together. It was nice.

And I can't play Resident Evil games alone. I just get too scared. I wish I had a friend. To play it with. If I play with someone, then I don't feel as scared. I feel less scared.

I might just watch it on YouTube. I think Markiplier played it. I guess he's not too irritating to watch.

I wish PewDiePie played it. Why doesn't he? He got famous for playing horror games, and then Resident Evil 3 Remake comes out. It's like the most popular horror game out right now and he's not playing it.

Let me see if anyone messaged me.

I have bad signal.

He doesn't need to YouTube now, he's a millionaire. If I was a millionaire and I didn't have to worry about getting views, I would just stop with all this drama stuff. And then just play Resident Evil streaming.

But if I did that, the channel would probably die. So unfortunately, I'm not a millionaire.

How do you have £30K when you don't work? Well, I got £20K from my dad's life insurance payout, and then I saved up about £10K from my petrol station job. And some YouTube savings as well.

Maybe I'll just do it on my second channel. I think my second channel, I'll just use that. As a do whatever I want to channel, not worry about views channel.

I can't seem to save up any more money than 30k. It just— it's like it's stuck at 30k,

which I guess is good because it's stable, it's not going down, but I can't make enough money to make it go up. I keep spending it all on pointless stuff like this Galaxy Fold and VR headset. I spend too much money. I got this Switch

and then I got this— sorry,

got this VR headset.

Goes on like this.

It looks quite nice.

It's the HTC Vive Cosmos.

I don't think it's a waste. I think VR is quite fun in short bursts. Beat Saber is quite fun.

I feel drunk now.

When people say work on yourself, I don't understand what they mean. Do you mean

exercise?

Or do you mean—

I don't know— learn something? What should I learn?

What do I need to get what I want?

What should I learn to get what I need?

I'm too lazy. I think everything's fine right now. All I need is a nice lady.

I was kind of interested in learning to drive, actually.

I kept thinking, wouldn't it be nice if me and Mila could— if I could drive her around and go to places?

But it's so expensive.

It says the average cost for learning to drive would be like £1,600, and then maintaining a car costs £400 or £500 a month. And then you have to get all this stuff sorted out like insurance, and then paying for petrol, and then paying for parking, and then paying for MOT, and then it might break down. And then

you have to buy a decent car, or you get a cheap crappy secondhand car, but then it would keep breaking down.

And then what if I crash? And what if I kill someone? And then I probably won't pass the test the first go, so I'd need lots and lots of lessons.

Just seems like it'll cost a lot of money and take a lot of time.

And then I thought, uh,

and I gave up on the idea.

I took driving lessons when I was 18, and I took the test, but I failed. I failed because there was a crossroad and I didn't notice it was a crossroad. I thought it was just a straight road and I tried driving straight, but the instructor stopped me. It was so embarrassing.

And then we had to do the 3-point turn and I couldn't do it. It took me like 15 turns. I did like a 15-point turn. And I kept bumping into the pavement. I don't know how to do it, it's too difficult.

And then I kept stalling the engine at the traffic lights. It's too hard.

It was a manual car and

there was like— Have you ever committed fraud? Yeah, I committed fraud loads of times ages ago. Um, what was I saying? It is so hard not to stall the engine because you had to lift up— no, you had to press down the clutch and the accelerator at the same time and then release the clutch or something like

that, I can't remember, and then change the gear. But if you didn't do it properly, then the engine will die and then you have to restart the engine.

It was so embarrassing when I stalled the engine at traffic lights. Everyone was waiting behind me.

And I looked for automatic driving instructors, instructors, but there just weren't many. Most of them were manual.

My dad kept saying you should learn manual because if you learn automatic, then you can't drive manual cars.

Maybe I should get an electric bicycle.

Are you and the girl still talking? I don't know if we'll message. Each other much when she gets home.

I messaged her saying, hope you have a safe flight, and then she said— she said, I had a nice time, it was interesting, and then I said, me too, I'll miss you, but she didn't reply. She just hearted it. She didn't say, I'll miss you too. So—

Achieve excellence. It's easy if you want to attract women. You need to have something to be proud, like your body or skill or your ability to interact with people, etc.

Thank you, Anthony. I feel pretty proud of my channel, my YouTube channel.

But it seems to repel a lot of women.

I'm surprised Mila even wanted to meet me and come live with me even after seeing my channel.

Passed my car test first try in a manual for lessons. Well, you must be really good at driving. I just couldn't get the hang of it.

I couldn't get a sense of where the edge of the car was, and I was scared that I was driving in the middle of the road, so I kept driving really far to the left so I didn't hit other cars. And then the tiny narrow country roads really scared me because I couldn't get a sense of where

the edge of the car was. And then looking in the mirrors didn't really help, it just confused me. And then I couldn't turn the steering wheel fast enough going around sharp corners. I nearly drove straight into a crowd of people. I would have drove into them if the instructor didn't use his brakes, because I was turning as

fast as I could, but it wasn't turning fast enough. And my brain just kind of froze, and I kept on holding down the accelerator. I would have drove straight into those people.

It's too difficult. I can't do it.

I'd rather just walk everywhere.

How do you pay taxes when doing YouTube? There's an app. It's called HMRC, and then you just answer the questions and then tell them how much money you make, and then it will automatically calculate how much you have to pay. Then you press pay. How do you pay taxes?

There's an app, you do it online. It's not difficult.

If I accidentally run over someone and kill them, would I go to jail? I can imagine myself doing that. I don't want to go to jail.

And then if someone else is bad at driving, they might put me in hospital because they're bad at driving, even if I didn't do anything wrong.

What if I'm just sitting there doing absolutely nothing wrong and then someone just drives into me? It's too risky.

I just feel like it's an unnecessary risk.

Although it is kind of nice to have a car, I guess, and not have to get on the train. With all the other peasants. I mean, people.

I'd get a nice car

and it would have my music, my favorite music,

and a cup holder.

I could sleep in it. I could go on road trips, sleep in the car. Livestream from the car as well.

And then I could meet girls and then impress them and then drive them around, make love in the backseat.

That was one of my dreams when I was back in Japan. I was thinking about buying a van and then learning to drive a van and then living in the van and driving around the country doing livestreams, meeting different girls.

That would be fun. But it costs so much money.

Maybe I should just get the van first and then practice driving it on my driveway

and then make it nice. Get a bed installed and a kitchen, toilet arrangements.

I could meet up with girls and they could come into the van. We could make love in the back

and then we can make videos in the back of the van.

I think one of the reasons that puts me off settling down and getting my own property is I can't decide if I want to settle down, have my own property, or if I want to carry on traveling.

Sometimes I think it would be nice if I had a girlfriend and then we traveled around Asia living in different countries. So we could live in Japan a few months and then Korea a few months, and then maybe somewhere exotic like Thailand a few months.

And then we'll just island hop whilst making videos for money,

and then eventually settle down in some country, get a cat, maybe 2 cats.

You said you didn't like traveling. I think I might like traveling if

I had someone to travel with. The thing I don't like about traveling is the loneliness

and being too scared to just go into a bar or a club and then meet women. But if I already had a woman to travel with, then that would erase that problem. I wouldn't have to worry about being lonely in a foreign country if I had a girlfriend.

When I play Beat Saber, I play My Chemical Romance and Sabaton, and I play '80s music. Have you played The Final Countdown on Beat Saber? It's the most epic feeling you ever have. It's like you're actually playing the music. Why don't you go back to school? You're not 2 years old. I don't wanna go back to school.

What would I learn if I went back to school?

Business and economics. I would actually— actually, if I went back to school, I wouldn't mind doing an acting class or drama,

maybe theater. I think that would really help my YouTube career if I had better acting skills. Maybe like Onision.

He's pretty good at acting. Or maybe, you know, like CopperCab. He's pretty good at acting as well. I'd like to go to drama school, become a Shakespearean actor, learn the arts of theater. That would really make my videos more interesting.

How would I become better at acting?

I don't know.

I think I need to enunciate more, become more expressional— expressionable.

Expressive. Yes, that's the word I was looking for.

The problem is I just sound so emotionless.

Oh, thank you, Deadly Gaming. Your YouTube channel is cool. Good luck from Mexico. Your YouTube channel is called Good Luck from Mexico. Oh, I love Mexico. It's my favorite country that I don't want to go to.

I heard that Mexico City is the most dangerous city in the world with the highest rates of crime. Is it true?

I had Mexican food with the German girl.

She took me for Mexican food and then she came back to my hotel and then ditched me.

Daniel, did you delete your Twitter account? Yes, I deactivated it

and I have to wait 29 days until it's permanently deleted. I'm trying to resist the temptation of reactivating it, but I keep saying weird stuff on it that makes people hate me.

I only go onto Twitter when I'm in a bad mood so I can write stupid stuff,

and I don't think it's good.

Admit it, every woman you meet, Cesium will try to sleep with. Ask Mila if Robert Game follows him. That's Cesium. Also, Cesium and Pierre are literally in romantic picnic together today. He said he parks his car near your house and observes sometimes. That's so weird. Keep traveling, man. Eventually home gets boring. Oh, thank you.

Yeah, I do get bored. That's one of the reasons why I like to travel. It's also good for meeting women. You know, one thing I kept thinking about— I asked Pia if she would want to meet up again after I got back from Korea. She said no because she has a boyfriend, and then she said she doesn't

want to risk the relationship.

But if she is really with Cesium, then

What's there to risk? I'm pretty sure he would be okay with it, wouldn't he? But then it would be like a weird

3-people relationship. That'd be weird. I don't think I'd be up for that.

I don't think I want to get involved with either of them anymore.

They're just— I don't know. I don't know. They're just not trustworthy.

I guess I feel disappointed that

Pierre didn't tell me it was caesium that she's dating.

I don't know why I care. I guess I do, kind of.

If you are not attracted to her and wanted out of the marriage so bad, why did you ask to meet again? Who?

I wanted to meet Pia again because I thought we could make some funny videos together and maybe have sex again.

And she said she'd be up for it when I was in Korea, but then I got back home and then she said no because she's in a relationship.

I don't know if she's actually with Cesium, but that's just what people have been telling me.

I mean, it could be possible they have met up.

Why is Cesium so obsessed? I don't know. He's been watching since 2017,

and he's given me a lot of money over the years.

He's the guy who came to my house before Christmas, around Christmas.

He's also the guy that started all of this. Drama between me and the Hong Kong guy.

I'm pretty sure if CCM didn't exist, then all of that drama with the Hong Kong guy wouldn't have happened. The only reason it started was because he started messaging my wife and then met up with her.

I thought I'd just block him and mute him, and then he would just, you know, vanish. I didn't think he'd start crying about it like a baby. Boo-hoo, Daniel used me for content and now he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

I was just being polite, okay? I didn't want to tell him to his face directly that I didn't like him. That's just rude.

People think I'm really direct and honest on YouTube, and they think I'm like that in real life as well when I'm not. In real life, I try to be polite because I don't actually enjoy hurting people's feelings. If I can avoid hurting their feelings, then I'd rather just block them instead of telling them directly that I don't

like them. I mean, I feel like that's unnecessary. You don't tell people you don't like them. You just be polite and then you stop talking to them,

and then you hope that they understand. That you're not interested in talking to them. People kept saying you should have told him you didn't want to be his friend. That's not what happens in real life.

You just phase them out. It's called being polite. Azza, thank you for the shoutout on Discord. Oh, thank you. Hiding in My Room Lo-Fi makes really good lo-fi music. With my voice. It's really funny, actually. I showed it to my sister. She said it was good.

I think it would be good to have a lo-fi track where I'm just complaining, saying stuff like, it's so annoying.

A complaining track would be good.

You need to invest your capital and your income from YouTube. I was thinking about stocks. I got this app called Degiro and my sister uses it. She said she buys stocks on that app, so I'm thinking about buying some stocks. But I heard that it takes a long time. You have to buy stocks and then wait years.

Until you can make any money, and that's only if the stocks go up in value since when you bought it. Just seems like gambling.

And then I don't know what kind of stocks to get. Maybe someone can tell me

which ones to buy, and then I'll give you 10%

if I make any money.

I don't know anything about stocks or stock markets.

Maybe buying

Aeroplane company stocks now would be good since no one's traveling. The stocks are going down, apparently.

Eugene, the American guy I met in Korea, he said I should invest my savings into dividends or something like that. He said

You're not risking any money. You're going to 100% make money. You'll make like a couple percent every year, but a couple percent of thousands of pounds is just like £10. Is £10 a year really gonna help me in life?

I don't know. I just feel like spending money on stocks Seems like a risk when I don't know anything about stocks.

I'd rather go to a casino and then put £100 on black roulette.

I'm too lazy. I just hope that maybe I'll die before my savings run out.

Or maybe I'll get lucky on YouTube and then I'll become a millionaire. Could happen.

Why did you purge your Discord? Because it was stressing me out, and then

it was just— it was kind of problematic having it causing me too many problems,

and I wasn't happy with the people on it.

And some of the people were fine, and I enjoyed talking to them. But there was just— it was just too toxic and too negative. Too many trolls, people being edgy, and all this stupid drama.

It's like that, that guy who keeps sending me super chats going on about some guy called McLovin or Alka. I don't even know who these people are. They're from other Discord servers.

I'm not interested in that.

So I decided to delete it

since it felt kind of pointless.

Maybe when I'm in a better mood, I'll make a new one.

But I'm just— I'm feeling kind of down and lost in life right now, so

having stuff like Twitter and Discord just makes it worse.

Maybe it'd be better if I just joined someone else's server so I'm not responsible and I'm not in control and I'm just a member.

But right now, I think what I want is maybe just a few friends that I can talk to on Instagram, maybe people I trust, people I feel like I can trust who aren't going to try and manipulate me to start some kind of drama.

I think that's better.

It's just hard knowing who you can trust.

And there's a few people I talk to on Instagram who I think are trustworthy.

People were saying Mila just wanted fame or she wanted attention, but I really don't think so. I don't think she was interested in being in the spotlight.

I tried to get her to make a video, but she couldn't do it. She was too— too shy.

And I don't think she liked people gossiping about her.

I think Mila mainly wanted to meet me because she was curious to see what I was like.

I'm not sure if she was disappointed. And when she was angry with me, she, she said I was fake because on YouTube I'm all open and direct, but in real life I'm not very direct because I don't like confrontation. I don't like upsetting people, and I try and be polite. I'm not really the same in real life

as I am in videos and streams. I'm not really blunt and direct and weird in real life

because I try my best to just get along with people. And if they say something I disagree with, I won't call them stupid or disagree with them. I'll just nod along and say, oh, it's just called being polite.

It's not being fake.

I think sometimes it's not good to be completely honest with people. I don't want to upset people.

But I was so close to— I was so close to reaching the end of this experience without losing my temper and without causing an argument. So close.

Why did I have to stream on that day?

Things would have been so much better if we didn't argue a few days before she left.

Why did you not go to Holland to be with her? Well, number one, she didn't invite me, so I can't just invite myself. Number two, I don't even know if I would want to go because I'm not really in the mood to travel right now, and the lockdown and the virus are still kind of happening, so I

don't know how easy it would have been to get an Airbnb. And I don't want to live with her and her mum in some tiny apartment. But what if her mum fancies me? That's weird.

And my body isn't in good condition right now.

Last week I was in pain because my chest was painful for some reason. Only now it's gotten better. And now my hip hurts because I was doing vacuuming and then I started getting this pain in my right hip and now I still feel kind of stiff.

So I feel like my body's failing me. I'm just constantly aching.

And I'm only 31.

It actually hurts when I walk now.

Hurts here, here.

I don't understand. I was just vacuuming like this

and then I suddenly got this sharp pain in my right hip joint.

I don't even know why.

Maybe I need a nice hot bath. Me and Mila had a bath on the first week she came. We had a romantic bath. She put music on and then we turned off the lights and I lit candles. We had a bubble bath. I was hoping we'd have one more bath before she left, but I forgot. 30s is

when you must start taking care of yourself. Yeah, I feel like my body is just going downhill. First my chest pain was getting worse, now my leg pain.

It's so weird because when you're in your 20s, you feel like you're invincible. You feel like you could do anything and you'll never run out of energy. And then you hit your 30s and then you start to notice you get aches and pains in weird places and you don't even know why. I don't know why my chest

started to ache. Didn't even do anything to cause it.

Now my cat's gone blind. It's scary. Just reminds you

everyone's getting older, even the cats. In a few years, Mrs. Mimo will probably be dead. I'm sorry, but she's already lost a lot of weight. Her skin is just like flapping. Her belly skin is just like flapping under— underneath her. There's no meat in there, it's just skin. You can see her bones.

She can't even run, she just walks slowly, bumps her head into the wall. I can't believe it. Mimo, she's always been young and healthy and fit, chasing rabbits, catching mice, and now she's blind. I can't believe it. Just a week ago she was fine.

I think she's about 15 or 16.

The vet said that the reason why she's going blind is because of high blood pressure, because she's stressed out.

She breathes really violently and quickly. You can see her stomach going up and down like this when she breathes. Like she's really nervous all the time.

No, she's always been like that.

And then we trapped a black cat in our house a few nights ago. There's this stray black cat who keeps sneaking in to to steal Mimo's food, and then we caught it in the kitchen, and then Mila shut the door, trapping it in the kitchen, and it freaked out and it ran upstairs into my mum's room, and

then it ran into the bathroom and then hid underneath the bathtub, and we had to kind of chase it out from under the bath,

and it was hissing at us as well. It was funny.

And it smelled like cat piss in the kitchen. I think it marked its territory in the kitchen, peed all over the place.

I don't know why she's stressed out. Maybe she's sad because my dad died. And Toffee died. And then we had a weird stranger, Meela, in the house. And then there's all these stray cats beating her up.

Poor Mimo.

I asked my mum if we could get more cats, but she said no. She said it's too much work, too much money.

If I lived here all by myself, I would get 10 kittens. I think that would make me happy.

There's about 4 stray cats. I don't know if they're all stray. I think some of them are pets, neighbors' pets. There's one black one that keeps patrolling around, and then I've seen it attack Mimo. He just whacked her on the head. They were sitting together peacefully, and then he just suddenly whacked Mimo on the head, punched her.

Who's that?

Who's this?

Better not be someone trolling me.

What the hell?

Don't do anything funny because you're on camera.

And become a mad cat. Who's that? I did not— oh, I did order something off Amazon actually. I ordered sandals so I could walk in the garden. Don't worry, it's just Amazon. Last time someone ordered Indian takeaway and then this Indian guy kept coming with a plastic bag.

It's just Amazon.

I got some nice sandals so I can just walk around in the garden without wearing shoes. I walk around barefoot, but sometimes

I step in rabbit poo and it's not nice.

That looks like such a nice job, doesn't it? You just drive around in a van, hand over parcels. Must be easy.

Can play music

whilst driving around.

Did you enjoy when Mira slapped you? No, but I enjoy it when she slaps my bum during sex. That turns me on.

She's also the first girl to ever lick my armpit. That was quite nice. She said it smells like weed.

She also put her tongue up my nose, which I didn't like. It was weird.

Yeah, for some reason, um, I like it when girls touch my armpit.

It's a very sensitive area.

I mean, when does anyone ever touch your armpit? You have to be really close and intimate with that person.

Your microphone sounds super good. I'm using a Blue Yeti. They look depressed AF, like his life is crap.

Amazon delivery people always look kind of depressed. One guy got really stressed and started being rude to my mum. I ordered beer off of Amazon and, you know, they ask for age verification. My mum answered the door and then he asked her to verify her age and she didn't understand why. So she was asking why.

And then he said,

if you're going to argue with me, then I'll just take it back. He thought she was arguing with him.

He said he had a really stressful day and he wasn't in the mood.

All she said was, why do I have to tell you my age?

It's not hard to answer that question. You just say, oh, it's because there's alcohol in the box.

He said he didn't know what was in the box, but what else would it be if you need to verify your age?

I want to get a pipe that I can smoke. I had a dream about it, you know, like Gandalf has a smoking pipe. I thought it'd be funny.

I liked it when I had my vape. In Japan, it was nice to have something to suck whilst streaming. I think I'll just suck this toothpick.

I did feel kind of stupid after we had that argument. On the stream.

She kept telling me to turn the stream off so she could talk to me, and I, I was stubborn and I didn't want to be bossed around by her, so I didn't turn it off. I wish I just turned it off because she wanted to

talk to me and apologize, and I just said go away. I felt like I acted like a child.

I wasn't proud. That's why I took the stream down.

You enjoying the weather, bro?

Oh, thank you. Yeah, I am actually. Got a bit of a tan. I was lying down in the garden yesterday with Mila. She was lying on my chest.

I went a bit brown. I don't know if you can see it.

First mistake was taking that tiny slap too seriously. I was mainly annoyed because in the first place I was feeling stressed out and kind of suffocated, and I just wanted some alone time. And then she kept barging into my room.

Which triggered me more.

It wasn't really the slap that was irritating me because I'm used to her slapping me and stuff. That's just what she's like.

But I mainly just wanted some peace and quiet for a few hours. To stream.

Was it awkward at the dinner table? Yeah, we didn't talk. I just went down and had dinner and we didn't say anything to each other. And then after dinner she asked me to come upstairs because she wanted to talk, and then we talked about it, and then we said sorry to each other. And then we watched a

movie, but I tried to show her The Matrix, but she wasn't interested and she was just on her tablet the whole time. And then we went to bed separately. We didn't sleep together. I slept in my bed. And then the next day was really awkward.

And then we watched Netflix, and then I asked her to sit with me. Because usually we sit together, she sits on my lap and we hug, but she sat on a different chair next to me and I said, why are you sitting over there? And I asked her to sit with me again.

And then she did, and then we kissed and then everything was fine again. And then we slept together again.

Which was nice because we got to spend the last 2 days together without fighting.

Did she really have a false eyeball? No, she doesn't have a glass eye. She just has a slightly lazy eye, and I didn't even notice it until people kept pointing it out. I didn't notice that she had a slightly lazy eye at all.

Where is Mila on the girlfriends tier list? I would definitely rank her

above Chlamydia girlfriend. I think she's much prettier than— yeah, I would even say she's probably the prettiest girl that I met.

Sometimes she kind of looks like that Mikaela girl, you know, the one who makes vlogs in Japan. Sometimes at certain angles she looks a bit like her. But then also at certain angles, she kind of looked like Venus Angelic.

It was like she had different faces and they changed depending on the angle.

Make a tier list of all your girlfriends. I did. There's a video, it's called Ex-Girlfriend Tier List. I made it last year.

Mila used to have, um, black hair, dyed hair, and she used to have like a Korean kind of style.

And she showed me photos, and those photos, she really looks like Venus Angelic.

But I think she looks better than Venus.

Oh, thank you, Phil Godoy. Good, good boy. Your misery brings me happiness.

Well, I'll take that as a compliment, I guess. If my channel brings happiness to people, then I guess it's a good thing. You know, people keep saying I don't contribute to society. If my channel, my video makes people happy, then isn't that a contribution in some way?

Your misery brings me happiness. Love from NYC. Does the video of the girlfriend tier list have pictures? Yes, they do.

I asked for the permission of all my exes to use their pictures

in the video. And they all said yes.

It's not my fault if some of them blocked me and never replied.

For legal reasons, they're all Google Images.

Who's that? Irish people.

Angry Irish.

Is there anything you are working towards right now? Well, I am kind of excited to start doing my Resident Evil 3 Let's Play series on my second channel.

I think it'll be fun,

and I would like to work on

Maybe making some good videos again. I got kind of lazy ever since Mila came. I got lazy when it comes to making good videos, and I just ended up vlogging,

like, kind of like daily vlogging, I guess, and doing lazy streams like this. I would like to— well, I did put effort into my last video, but not many people watched it. And it made me sad. The one where I was drawing people I hate doesn't even have 21k views, and I spent a lot of time making

that, and I feel like people didn't even care.

So I'm a bit sad.

I would like to do more illustrated stuff, but it seems as though most people don't care, so I don't feel very motivated.

It took about 6 days to get 20k views. Not very good. But the people who did see it really liked it, so that's one good thing, I guess.

I have a few more drawing ideas. I'm going to do one called drawing the ugliest woman that I ever went on a date with, and I'm gonna draw her really fat and ugly and then talk about how much she smelled.

I think people would love that.

Have you ever read the novel Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov? I feel like you might find it relatable.

Hmm. No, I've never read Lolita, but thank you. Last time I read a book was probably 10 years ago. When I was reading those Halo sci-fi novels. After that, I never read a book ever again.

You should title the video differently. I should have titled it Why I Hate the Hong Kong Guy, but the video wasn't really supposed to be about the Hong Kong guy. It was supposed to be about people I hated.

And using the word hate in the title worked pretty well before.

I might just do story times and then put Beat Saber in the background. The last 2 videos that did really well that got over 40k views was the pier video And that was just me talking with piano. I was playing the piano, wasn't I? And then the other one was the affair with the Japanese woman, and that

was just me talking with a cooking video playing in the background. So I don't think the visuals of the video really matter when it comes to getting views. Those views— those videos got the highest views I've had in months, and one of them was just me pretending to play the piano, and the other one was just me

doing cooking.

So I don't really feel like putting effort into making the video look nice matters that much. If it's an interesting story, then people would click it.

Do you still keep in touch with Elvis the Alien? No, I don't.

He just used me for content and then he exposed me, said I fake my content. And then he never messaged me again. I feel so used.

I should have said no when he asked me if I wanted to make a video together, but I thought I would get more exposure from his audience and I'd get more viewers, but didn't really help much. I got a slight boost, but then I lost a lot of my, my long-term viewers because I had to tell them

that I faked the homeless stuff. I thought it was pretty obvious I was faking it though. Come on, I'm not actually going to be homeless and live in a tent, am I?

I thought it was pretty obvious I was just parroting— parodying.

So I gained some short-term viewers from his channel, but then I lost

quite a lot of long-term viewers, probably a couple hundred.

So in hindsight, if I could go back in time, I probably would not do it again.

I thought it was pretty obvious that I was just memeing, memeing the whole tent stuff, you know, doing the how to survive as a homeless person guide, but some people took it seriously and And thought I was actually homeless and then got angry when I said that I wasn't actually homeless.

I even wrote in the description and put a caption in the video saying I'm not actually living here at the river.

But people don't pay attention. They just look at the title and they think they know what it's about.

Elvis said. You smell bad? Impossible. I wore deodorant and I changed my clothing before I met him.

I always put deodorant on when I go and meet people, and I always wear new clothing when I meet people.

You said you went homeless but had an Airbnb. I double lied. Actually, it's kind of like a triple lie— no, double lie, because I was pretending to live in the tent and And then I said I was actually going back to the Airbnb, when actually I was going back to my ex-wife. And she made me do it.

She said, don't tell people we're back together yet, because my friends would be upset and it's kind of nice right now because no one's talking about me. So I said, okay, I'll just pretend that I'm living in Airbnbs for a bit longer then.

And now she's telling people that actually it wasn't her idea to not tell people we're back together again yet, and I was just doing it because I wanted views and money.

Well, it's true I did want views and money. I mean, I always want views and money. But it was also true when I said that she didn't want me to tell everyone that we were back together again yet. Because

she only recently told her friends that we split up, and she felt stupid if her friends found out we got back together again after she complained about me so much to them.

So it was partly because— I did it partly because it was getting good views, the homeless stuff, and because she didn't want me to tell people that we got back together again.

Anyway, it's all in the past now.

Do I actually hate the Hong Kong guy?

I was pretty upset when I found out they met up without telling me,

but I thought, well, it's not really his fault. That was mainly my wife's fault because

He was just being nice, and then she was the one who probably said, yeah, let's meet up, it's okay if Daniel doesn't come.

But the reason why I got so upset with him is because he keeps making videos about me without stopping, and it's just irritating me.

I thought, okay, if he made one video with my wife, then fine, I guess. But he ends up making like 10. 1 or 2 videos I would have been not happy with, but I guess I could have lived with it. I would have just said, oh, I guess it's not a big deal, he just made a couple

videos. But no, he's made like 12 now.

12, all with my name in the title.

That's why I hate him.

It's just irritating. I've never made 12 videos about someone else.

I'll make a few

at most.

I'm more angry with Chihiro for meeting him than I am with him for meeting her.

It's just messed up. If you want to vent and complain about me, vent and complain to your own friends, not my ex-friends.

I kept saying, how would you feel if I met up secretly with your friend and then complained about you and made a video? And then she kept saying, oh, I wouldn't mind. Of course you would mind, liar. Pretending you wouldn't mind just so you wouldn't have to admit that what you did was weird.

Lodge a copyright claim? I can't because none of it's my copyright. It's all his because he took the video.

And they keep saying, oh, Chihiro is telling her side of the story. They've been telling her side of the story since last year November now. How long does it take? How many videos does it take to tell her bloody side? It's not that complicated.