Update on my Love Life [KqAskCE6TxI]

Hello and welcome back to my new Airbnb.

So, um, I'm trying very hard

not to show anything in the background so

I don't reveal which Airbnb I'm staying

at. If anyone can, can find out which

Airbnb I'm staying at just from the corner

of that bed and the corner of this table,

then I will give you 5 gold points.

But I don't think anyone would find out

where I am this time. This time I think

I've hidden my location very well. This is

not a challenge. I'm not challenging

people to find out my location. And

there's one person in the comments section

who kept trying to track my location

and which way I'm going. I had to ban him

because he was really irritating. I don't

want people trying to find out where I am,

so that's just probably made it a lot

worse. Shouldn't have said anything

really. Um, well, Well, to be honest, I

haven't actually been meeting anyone. The

only person I met was this random girl who

approached me at the train station saying

that she saw me on Elvis the Alien's

channel, his videos about me, and she said

she thought I was a nice person. And then

I said thanks, and then she walked away,

and that was the shortest conversation I

ever had. Apart from her, I haven't met

anyone. I promise, I would never lie.

For some reason, I just don't really feel

like I'm in the mood to meet new people or

go dating. I even deleted Tinder. I

deleted dating apps, and some people did

message me on Instagram asking if I wanted

to hang out. I'm really grateful, and it's

really kind of you to invite me and give

me that offer, but I just didn't really

feel like meeting anyone. So I'm sorry if

I ghosted you or I didn't reply.

Maybe next time. I don't really feel like

I would be very good company anyway. I'm

still trying to heal my inner wounds. I'm

taking lots of walks in nature, spending a

lot of time in parks and rivers, and just

trying to appreciate the moment and my

surroundings. You know, watching the birds

fly around, looking at the grass.

Just doing a lot of thinking really. I

don't really feel like I'm in the mood to

go on dates and to try and woo girls into

the bedroom anymore. So you might be

wondering, why did I come to Germany? Why

did I come all this way and spend all this

money if I'm not here to chase girls,

meet viewers, and do you know what?

And the answer is basically,

um, I just wanted to get away from my

mum's house and from being live— and from

living with my mum. Sometimes I find it

hard to get a lot— get along with her. We

have arguments about silly things, and I

got kind of fed up being nagged at all the

time. Wanted some private time,

alone time, to be by myself, some

independent time. And I thought you guys

might be interested in, in some German

travel vlogs. I guess I was wrong

according to the analytics on the last

video. Guess you're not interested in

travel vlogs, so I don't know what to do

now. I guess I'll just do talking vlogs

instead. So I had to choose between going

to London to get my own place or going to

a different country to just live there,

and I chose Germany because I thought

Germany is a nice country. They also have

the virus under control very well,

and Berlin just seems like a more

interesting place than London. I've been

to London a few times and it's never

really impressed me. It always seemed like

a very— what's the

word? It doesn't seem like a very peaceful

place. There's always protests, seems to

be a lot of tension between different

racial groups, and then there's all these

other protests that were going on. It just

seemed very dangerous, kind of not

really a place where I want to be. And

then in comparison, Berlin just seems so

peaceful. Everyone looks happy. It's a

much nicer looking city as well in

general. I'm not in Berlin anymore. I went

to a different city which is a secret,

secret location that I might reveal later.

I guess in a way I kind of feel like I've

given up on trying to find a girlfriend

because if you think about it, what have I

been doing for the last 13 years since,

since the age of 18? I'm now 31.

The last 13 years I've completely

dedicated my life to trying to find a

girlfriend, and that just sounds really

sad and pathetic, but it's true. I learned

2 languages, became fluent in Japanese,

became very good at Korean, went all the

way to Japan multiple times to live there,

I went to Korea multiple times to live

there, even got married for 2 years—

nearly 2 years— to try and find a partner.

And I was so desperate to try and find a

partner That I did all these things and I

spent all this money and I invested all

this time, energy, and effort,

and I had so many failed

relationships. And what do I have to show

for it now? Absolutely nothing. After all

that time, money, and effort that I spent

looking, uh, I failed, really.

I couldn't find what I was looking for.

And I'm tired of chasing. I guess I'm

just tired of looking for the one. Maybe I

need to try a different approach.

Recently I've been watching a lot of

videos about this thing called Law of

Attraction, and basically it means when

you're trying really, really hard to get

something, um, you don't get

it because you're so obsessed with trying

to achieve that outcome. But when you just

stop trying, then you might find that it

will come to you naturally. For example,

when I'm playing Rainbow Six and I'm

trying really, really hard to win,

usually I lose. But then when I'm just

playing for fun and I don't care about

winning, I don't care about the outcome,

I just rush in blindly I managed to

get a triple headshot, or I managed to

completely ace the enemy team without even

trying. And I think the reason why is

because when you stop trying, you stop

caring about the outcome, and then it just

happens naturally. So I'm gonna try a

different approach. Maybe if I just relax

and stop trying so hard to get a

girlfriend, maybe someone will just drop

on by out of nowhere and it'll be nice.

And when or if that happens,

I don't know if I'd announce it or make it

public because remember what happened last

time, kind of blew up in my face, didn't

it? You know, there's, there's a saying:

if you try and chase a butterfly, it will

just keep trying to fly away and get away

from you. But if you just relax and chill

out. Maybe it will come and sit on your

shoulder. That sounds so cheesy. I never

had a butterfly sit on my shoulder, but I

guess it kind of makes sense. So what I'm

trying to say is I'm going to try and calm

down on the whole desperately trying

to find a girlfriend.

Um, you know, the whole trying to find a

girlfriend on obsessive mission that I've

been so desperately chasing for the last

decade. Maybe let's just try and relax

and, you know, enjoy my own company, do

things by myself, even if there's— even if

there's no girl to do it with. Maybe

that's something I need to learn how to

do, you know, just going out there and

doing stuff by myself instead of only

doing things if I'm doing it with a girl.

So yeah, I think that's all I really had

to say. In conclusion,

I would like to give some final comments

about the Airbnb. It's really nice. It's

huge. It's like a proper house, not an

apartment or flat. It's got 2 bedrooms.

My only complaint is it just feels kind of

artificial. The previous Airbnbs were

actual homes that the owners lived in.

This one Um, I couldn't find any

belongings of the owner, so it's

completely empty just for guests, I think,

which is good. But then it also just kind

of feels really artificial, you know,

like one of those fake homes from IKEA.

It doesn't really feel like a proper home

even though it looks really nice. Also,

the Wi-Fi is really good, but I can't

connect my Switch to it. It just says this

Wi-Fi does not support Not

supported. This internet settings— I

don't know what just happened, but I'm

finding it very difficult to talk because

I had very little sleep last night. I went

to bed at around— I couldn't get to sleep

until around 2 AM, and then I woke up

insanely early around half past 5.

I just couldn't sleep for some reason,

and I can't connect my Switch to this

place's Wi-Fi. And I don't know why, and

I'm very sad because I can't play Mortal

Kombat online, which is my favorite

activity to do right now.

So, um, please help me fix

my Wi-Fi problem.