[2020-01-01] It's been a tough year for me [UhTUInxmIF0]

Hello and welcome back to another end of

the year video. I know the year has

already ended and it's now 2020, but I

didn't have any time to make the video in

England and we just got back to Japan a

few days ago, but my wife was here all day

long for 2 days straight, and I couldn't

get anything done until today.

Thankfully, she has left the house, the

apartment, today to go and see her family,

so I can finally get back to my one true

passion: making videos on YouTube.

I like to make these end-of-year summaries

because I think some people might be new

to the channel. Maybe they don't know

about some of the things that happened

earlier in the year, and it's nice to

summarize past events, and it's, and it's

nice to reflect and look back on some of

the major things that happened this year.

This year has been pretty tough for me.

It's actually been one of the hardest

years in my entire life. A lot of tragic

things happened. I lost my father in

February. I had a lot of arguments with my

wife. I don't really like to talk about

what happened to my dad that much on

YouTube because I start getting all

emotional and sad, and I don't want to

bring people down. YouTube is supposed to—

making videos on YouTube is supposed to be

about entertaining people, making people

have a good time and make them feel good.

And if I just start talking about my dad

and I start getting all emotional and

stuff, I don't want to make

everyone feel depressed. I lost quite a

few things in 2019. Not just my dad, but I

also lost my GoPro. I left it at the hotel

in the New Forest and they couldn't send

it back to me before I left for Japan. I

also lost nearly 1,000 subscribers because

I called a Turkish girl that I went on a

date with boring and not up to my

standards. I'll explain later. I also lost

more subscribers because I pretended to be

homeless and I pretended that I pretended

to be living in a tent when I clearly said

I wasn't actually staying in the tent. I

also lost a lot of fish and shrimp because

I didn't know how to look after my fish

tank properly. My fish— here's my fish.

They seem to be pretty active. I was a bit

frightened that they, they might not

survive when we got back and they'd all be

floating at the top, but luckily we have

no casualties and they all survived. It

was weird because when we got back, half

of the water in the tank was just gone.

So I had to do some cleaning when— after

we got back, but everything's fine.

I also lost my 17-inch MSI gaming laptop

and my iPad Pro because my wife sold them

after she found out that I stayed the

night in a hotel with a girl in London.

And then I had to replace them. Even

though it's been a year of loss and

tragedy and sadness, I feel like I have

had plenty of good new experiences and met

a lot of new people, and I do feel as

though I've grown as a person a little

bit. So the beginning of

this year didn't really start off very

well. As soon as we got back from

celebrating Christmas with my family in

England, we started arguing because my

wife found out that I was actually

messaging some Japanese woman called

Tomoko on Twitter, trying to meet up with

her to have you know what. And she found

out about it, she wasn't happy, but I

managed to brush all of that under the

carpet because in the same week my mum

started messaging me saying that my dad

was ill and he had to go to hospital. And

then we ended up going back to England,

um, 2 weeks later to go and see him in the

hospital. After about 4 weeks, he he, um,

he passed away. He didn't make it. And

that's where things started to fall apart.

My wife didn't want to wait for the

funeral because we had to wait another 4

weeks until the funeral actually took

place. So she went back to Japan by

herself because she was feeling really

bored being stuck at home in England with

no people to see, nothing to do, no work

to do. And I stayed back to go to the

funeral. Sometime before or after the

funeral happened, I ended up going to

London to meet this girl who watches my

channel, and we stayed a night in a hotel

in London together. My wife found out

about this somehow. I'm not sure quite how

exactly, and she also found an SD card I

had lying around back in Japan in the

apartment, and on the SD card there were a

lot of pictures and evidence to prove that

I was cheating and messaging several girls

whilst I was with my wife. And instead of

apologizing and trying to fix the

marriage, I just said maybe we should

split up and get a divorce because I was

kind of interested in living out my

fantasy of traveling around the world

meeting female viewers of my channel

and going to hotels doing you know what.

So after the funeral of my father,

Instead of going back to Japan to try and

fix my marriage, I went to Germany because

I was chatting to this girl from Germany

and things didn't work out. I brought her

back to our hotel but she ditched me and

nothing happened. I was pretty

disappointed about this but luckily I got

this Turkish girl to come all the way to

Germany instead and she came to my hotel

and everything was great. We stayed in the

hotel for about 2 or 3 days, but we didn't

really click. I didn't really like her

that much, and I lost 1,000 subscribers

because I called her boring and I said she

wasn't up to my standards. I can't believe

1,000 people got that upset just because I

called a girl boring. I bet you anything

if the Turkish girl called me boring and

said I wasn't up to her standards, no one

would have unsubscribed, and they would

have said, yeah, he is really boring, and

they would have nodded and laughed and

agreed. Double standards. I hate them.

So after the Turkish girl left, I realized

that I didn't really like Germany much. I

was actually planning to stay in Germany

for a few months because I couldn't stand

living at home with my mum. She kept

nagging me, we kept having these massive

arguments, and I thought living in Germany

would be interesting. It wasn't

interesting. Germany's really boring, and

I decided to leave Germany after a few

weeks, and I went back to England to meet

this other English girl who I called the

Essex girl. So I went on a date with the

Essex girl. We went to London, walked

around for a bit, and we agreed to not

having you-know-what on the first date.

We were supposed to use the time to get to

know each other, to find out if we like

each other or not. And it was okay. We

just walked about some park, we talked,

and I had a hot dog, but nothing really

happened, and I ended up going home And I

did a lot of thinking and I started to

realize that I didn't really like this

lifestyle of traveling, traveling around

all over the place, meeting random girls

and spending a lot of money on hotels. It

just wasn't really sustainable and it

wasn't as satisfying as I imagined it

would be. So I decided to go back to Japan

and get back together with my wife because

I felt more comfortable being with my

wife. I didn't think she would take me

back. I thought she would be too upset,

and I thought the marriage and the

relationship was too broken to be able to

fix. But surprisingly, she took me back

and we got back together again. Not much

happened in June and July. I think we just

traveled around a bit, and I think we

stream sniped Ice Poseidon. He used to be

a pretty famous livestreamer. He used to

have 15,000 or 20,000 people watching his

livestreams. A few years ago. Nowadays he

only gets about 1,000 viewers. It's kind

of scary how quickly you can lose fame

like that. But I used to be a big fan of

his a few years ago, so it was nice and

interesting to meet him in real life. It

was pretty awkward though, and I felt very

uncomfortable and nervous. And in August—

what happened in August? I think we just

got fish. And then in September, things

started to get a little bit weird. I

decided to— out of pure boredom, I decided

to buy myself a very expensive

L-O-V-E-D-O-L-L, and I rented an

Airbnb for a month, and I was having fun

with it in the Airbnb. And then I went to

meet this other YouTuber called TkyoSam,

and whilst we were out drinking, my wife

somehow found a way to log into my iPad,

and she found all of my dirty secrets on

my iPad. And she found out that I had been

cheating again and I was messaging

multiple women on different messaging

apps. So we had this big argument and she

said we were finished and she didn't want

to see me ever again. And she took all my

stuff, my iPad, my laptop, and she

wouldn't give it back to me. And I lost my

temper and I smashed the glass door inside

of the apartment building, and I spent the

next few weeks living in an Airbnb Then

after we got back together again, I

finally got to live out my lifelong dream

of pretending to be a homeless person in

Japan. I made a few videos role-playing

living in a tent and sleeping outside by

the river, and a lot of people got upset.

They said they were upset because I wasn't

actually homeless. And then sometime in

November, Elvis the Alien came all the way

to Japan to come and make a video with me,

which was pretty interesting. I can't

believe he flew all the way here just to

make one video. I guess it was worth it to

him. He made 2 videos about me before,

and then he came all the way to Japan to

make a 3rd. It was pretty fun. I was very

nervous and had a big pimple which looked

horrible. And then around December,

slightly before Christmas, about a week or

2 before Christmas, me and my wife had

more arguments because I was saying stupid

stuff on Discord, and she got upset, and

she went and had dinner with my ex-friend,

the Hong Kong guy. I felt betrayed because

they met up behind my back. Yeah, I knew

he invited me, but I didn't know she was

actually going to go and have dinner with

him. So we had some big arguments because

of that, and I stormed out, and I did some

traveling around western Japan all by

myself, had a bit of fun, and then I came

back. I, I forgave her, decided to forgive

her, and we went to England together to

spend Christmas with my family. And then

something kind of weird happened a few

days before Christmas, and I wasn't sure

if I wanted to talk about this, but some

random guy who watches my channel just

decided to show up at my house uninvited,

and he rang the doorbell and my mum let

him in because she thought he was my

friend, and he gave us a box of chocolates

and a card. And I know it doesn't really

sound like a big deal, but the reason why

I didn't want to talk about it is because

he's bragging and boasting about how he

might get a special video all about him,

Because of what happened. And he's not

even apologetic or sorry about upsetting

me or my family or creeping us all out.

He thinks it's a big joke and it's funny.

It's not funny. None of us were laughing

after he left. My sister was in the other

room holding her phone preparing to call

the police. I really don't want people

coming to my house ever unless I invite

you. Don't come to my house. I'm still not

sure if I want to make a video just

talking about this because, well, I do

have a lot of things to say about the

topic, but I don't want to make him happy

and give him what he wanted. But then it's

drama, and I know you guys love the drama.

I really hate making videos about people

when they want me to make a video about

them. It just kind of sucks the fun out of

it. So yeah, that was my 2019. It was

honestly the toughest year I've ever

experienced. A lot of sadness, a lot of

tragedy. It was just so depressing and

dark, probably the darkest time of my

life. It's been 11 months now since my dad

passed away, and I still feel traumatized

by the whole event. I still have

nightmares nearly every night. I think

about him every day. Sometimes I have

dreams where I'm back at the hospital and

watching the whole thing happen all over—

watching the whole thing happen all over

again. Sometimes I have dreams when he

comes back to life, and then I wake up and

realize it was a dream and he hasn't come

back to life. It's just— it's just

horrible, and there's nothing you can do

to prepare yourself to make

the whole thing easier. It just takes

time, I guess. Anyway, I think I'm ready

to say goodbye to 2019, worst year of my

entire life. Hopefully 2020 is going to be

much better. I don't really have any goals

apart from carry on making videos. Try and

rekindle my passion for making videos

would be a big goal for me. And I want to

experience more things, try and find more

things I can enjoy and have fun with,

maybe have less arguments with my wife.

Yeah, I think 2020 could be a good year

after 2019. How much worse can it possibly

get? I don't know.

Hope you have a good 2020 and Happy New

Year. Farewell and goodbye from

Daniel.