[2025-03-02] she dumped me AND blocked me... [wExLO3zR5W8]

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testing.

Oh, so I just got the email that I've been

removed from Sunny's Steam family,

which means she's probably decided to

break up, and she's blocked me. I sent her

a message, but there's only one tick on

WhatsApp, which means you've been blocked,

basically. And then I tried sending a

text through to her number, nothing. I

tried my other phone to phone her, didn't

So she did that last time. Yeah, I know,

because I was kind of thinking, oh, it's

not over because she hasn't removed me

from the Steam account. But last time we

had the big fight where she said I was the

shittest boyfriend ever. And then I was—

that was during my stream. And then on my

stream I got really mad and then I think

she removed me straight away. But this

time we had the fight and then about

6 days. Yeah, like 6 days passed

and I thought, okay, she hasn't removed me

from the Steam family account. So I

thought, okay, maybe it's not over.

'Cause she didn't say it's over, but now

it says you've been removed from the Steam

account, and she's blocked me.

How are you getting your clothes? Well, I

really doubt she's gonna bring the clothes

over if she blocks me. If she blocks

me, it means she doesn't want to hear from

I'm just kind of mad because, like,

seriously, that's all it takes for her to

want to break up? Because I didn't go

pick her up? That's so lame.

I don't even— like, the last time we had a

big fight and broke up, the reason for

that was also really stupid. Like, the way

I was responding to her texts was dry.

That was her reason then. So the last big

fight was because my responses were dry.

And then this time it's because I didn't

offer— I mean, I did offer her that she

can come stay here, but because I didn't

like say, I'm coming now,

get ready. And then I just ignored her and

I carried on streaming. So I guess you

could say this time the reason was a bit

worse than last time because last time it

was just dry responses. But this time she

felt like I ignored her for the stream,

showing that I didn't care.

So I wasn't really worried. Like I

thought, just give her some space.

And then I got the thing. She must have

done it just now. She must be at home

right now and she's like, I don't know,

watching the streams, and then she saw

something I said I didn't— that she didn't

like. Yes, I blocked you, you stupid

motherfucker. I fucking hate you. I

fucking hate you, you stupid piece of

shit. You don't deserve me. I am better

than you. Exit my life and stop talking

about me. I am going to follow up with

police if you don't stop.

Yeah, but it's just so childish. At least

let's talk about it. She just blocks. She

just blocks people and then refuses to

talk. She's always like, oh, we gotta

talk, we gotta talk, but then when push

comes to shove, she'll just press the

block button. It's just ridiculous.

She— I bet she was probably watching my

streams over this week, the last week

since Monday.

And maybe she thought I didn't care

because I didn't text her again or

something. And then the stuff I said on

streams just probably made it worse.

Yeah. What did I say on stream that would

have made it worse then? Well, because I,

I called her out on her BS.

She was watching, I'm certain. Yeah, but

she didn't say anything, did she?

Or was it me talking about going back to

Thailand? I don't know.

You were being a cocky MF. Was I?

Yeah, I was just saying she's being silly

again. Imagine that you, like,

you tell someone that you love them and

then you literally break up with them

because of something so stupid.

What a dumb reason to break up because I

didn't rush out the door to go pick her

up. It's actually ridiculous.

Yeah, I messaged her on my Samsung too.

Nothing. She definitely blocked

my number on my iPhone because when I

phone her on my iPhone, it goes straight

to voicemail. Look.

07. Shit, I need your doctor number. So

it, it goes straight to voicemail, but on

this one it rang. So I wonder if she's

blocked my, my Samsung number too yet.

No, it still rings, so she hasn't blocked

my Samsung number.

I told you it was a bad sign you weren't

getting any long text messages.

Yeah, I don't know. Maybe she's like,

she's more done this time because last

time it felt more emotional with the

messages and stuff.

Well, she probably got a number phoning

her and she was thinking that's probably

It's just so lame.

Imagine being— that being the reason to

break up after everything we've gone

through.

Yeah, it's just stupid reason to break up.

Hey, I've been a fan for a while and saw

your decision not to return to OFF. I sent

you a little something hoping it might

help you reconsider. Always here for you

in more ways than one. Sent me what?

You know when you've been removed from the

Steam family and it's serious.

She broke up because she lost interest.

No, it's because I didn't— I didn't show

that I cared. Maybe I said I cared, but

then my actions show that I didn't care.

Like prioritizing the stream over her,

ignoring her, and then carrying on with

the stream.

It's just been— oh my God, it's been

such a headache. It's like the most

stressful, most difficult relationship

I've ever been in.

Where you just— there's no pleasing her.

Like, everything is just— it triggers

her or upsets her, and then you get the

blame for it. The 7th time?

I don't know. It's like she's— in the

past, she's tried to break up with me like

every other month when we were living far

apart. And I thought me being close by,

we wouldn't have those problems anymore.

But then me being close by introduces

different problems. Like, now that I'm

close, she expected me to drop everything

when she needed it. At least if I was in

Kent, obviously I wouldn't be able to

drive 5 hours to come pick her up.

But now that I was close, it gave no

excuse really. So then it was just like

a whole new set of problems. You remove

the previous problems and then a whole new

set of problems are introduced.

Like, why did she say, I'll drop your

laundry off later this week, and then she

doesn't, and then she blocks me?

So it's— so it's like this. She says,

I'll drop your laundry off next— later in

the week. At that point,

it wasn't like 100% officially over

because there was still communication,

lines of communication open. But then

maybe she's like, I sent something to help

you stop being bored and give you a little

more pleasure. Hope it adds some fun to

your day and gives you the satisfaction

you were missing since Sunny dumped you

again. Okay. Yeah.

So it wasn't open. I mean, it wasn't over

at that moment, but I guess over the weeks

I didn't message her once because I didn't

really know what else to say. And then she

probably saw the streams,

which probably made it worse. Yeah, but

why on Sunday does she decide to remove me

from the Steam family and not Saturday?

Why leave it until the last day of the

week? Really weird.

Yeah, now I'm just kind of pissed, to be

honest. I thought maybe we'd talk or she'd

send me a message.

Why are you not crying? I don't know. I'm

just kind of in a state of shock right

now. You know that feeling where it starts

pulsing in the side of your head here?

It's like that. Like the blood rushing to

my head. It's like a state of shock and

then anger and then later maybe sadness.

It's just so silly. She says, oh, I know

this is a lot. You don't have to if you

don't want to. I won't be upset. And then

I'm— and then I choose not to. And then

she literally breaks up with me. So don't

give me that BS saying stuff like, oh,

you didn't have to.

Why pretend to give the option that I

could or could not, when really you

knew there was no option. It was either I

do it or we break up. Why don't you just,

like, spell it out? Just, like, threaten

me then. If you don't do this, Daniel,

it's over. Because that's basically

what you've done, is you've given me an

ultimatum that if I don't do

what you command, then you break up with

me.

Call her? I did. It goes straight to

voicemail, and my second phone, the calls

aren't being picked up.

When they say you don't have to, they're

expecting you to do it. Yeah, I know,

kind of I know, but I just— I hate it when

they say that because I'm thinking, what

do you mean I didn't have to? Of course I

had to. You and I both know I had to.

Let's not pretend that I had a choice in

this.

Yeah, she blocks your number if it goes

straight to voicemail.

I don't know what's wrong with her. Why

does she act like this?

Why is it so important that I picked her

up on that night that she fought with her

Why did she block you? Because we had a

fight last Sunday. She had a fight with

her mum, and then she was expecting me to

come and pick her up and bring her here,

but I didn't, and I carried on streaming,

and I— Do you regret your decision to go

to Devon now?

Well, yeah, in hindsight, if we knew this

was going to happen, I wouldn't have come.

But how was I supposed to know that she'd

break up with me over such stupid reasons?

Email her? Well, I can keep trying all

different lines of communication, but if

she doesn't want to talk to me, she'll

just Block me on everything, won't she?

Send her a letter.

Shit, you had a fight before moving to

Devon. Yeah, what was that one about?

That was like before Christmas. I didn't,

I didn't message her for one day.

Something like one day or 2 days I didn't

message her. And then she got mad at me.

And then she, yeah, she wanted me to send

the electric blanket back.

God, I've never had so many dumb fights

with a girlfriend before. It's actually

insane.

I had less fights with Chihiro, and I

literally cheated on Chihiro.

We could like, like list down every single

argument. It'd be so funny. Yeah,

that Christmas fight was not fun either.

I was streaming, wasn't I? And then my mum

said, don't tell the stream, bring down

the electric blanket. And then, yeah,

because she wrote me. Yeah, because she

says you got a job interview. And then I

got mad at her because she was supposed to

come over. And then she wrote this

long message saying maybe we should give

it a rest and then maybe next year we can

try again. And then I took that as she

wants to break up. And then she was like,

that's not what I meant at all. And then I

was saying that I was going to return her

Christmas present.

She got upset. You texted.

What do you mean?

Oh, I texted for F's sake. I said, for

fuck's sake, Sunny, you really mess me

about sometimes. And then she got mad at

me. Can't believe

it though. Just like that.

That's all it took. You know, all this

like Valentine's stuff. Oh, I love you.

So like all that meant nothing.

So silly.

So now what?

I sent her a message on my other phone

saying, you're just gonna block me without

talking?

She's probably just been sitting in her

house the whole week watching my streams

and then getting mad or getting upset at

what I was saying. I'm not

mocking her. I'm just saying this is

ridiculous.

And if she can't see how ridiculous it is,

then she's lost.

There's actually no getting through to

She only watched the last few streams

today. I don't

know, maybe the reason why I got removed

on Steam today is because today was the

day she caught up on it.

I checked Instagram. She's deleted or

disabled her Instagram account.

To be honest, I don't even know who she is

anymore. She's like this different person.

She's not the same person I knew in Japan.

The Sunny I knew in Japan was completely

different. So full of laughter,

so chill. I don't know

who this Sunny is. I guess it's the real

Sunny, and the one I thought I knew in

Japan was like this artificial version of

her. That's what sucks

about it. The person you thought you knew

never existed in the first place.

God, Sunny in Japan was so good.

She was always so nice in Japan, and she

never had a go at me. She never got mad at

me. Phone call, a video phone call. So

Fasta got suspicious and then she was

like, open your camera, I want to see the

whole place. So I shoved Sunny in the

closet and then I showed Fasta the whole

apartment to prove that no one was here.

Sunny was in the closet for like 10

minutes. Even then she was

Obviously not happy with it, but that

wasn't a reason to ditch me. So it's like

in Japan, crazier stuff happened, but then

in England, all it takes is something so

simple for her to want to break up.

After all the sacrifices I've made,

mental and financial,

coming all the way here, putting all that

time and effort into viewing places so I

could rent a place here, getting a job. I

literally got a job to work full-time so I

could be here. And then she thinks that I

don't care about her or it's not important

to me. I'm literally the guy who kept

bragging about not getting a job, saying

I'll never get a job. I made all these

changes and it's like it doesn't— didn't

mean anything to her because of some tiny

little things like texting responses

or I just feel— I

can't believe it.

You said yesterday your job and house are

more important. Yeah, because I'll die.

Me not dying is more important than Sunny.

How is that crazy to think?

The only time you would even think about

sacrificing your own life for someone else

is for your own kids or your grandkids.

Other than that, it's always you are

number one, isn't it? Would you sacrifice

yourself for anyone?

Yeah, I knew, I knew kind of deep down

that at the moment when I was making the

decision to not stop streaming and not pay

attention to her, I kind of felt like,

yeah, I might end up regretting this.

But I was so stressed out and fed up with

job stuff.

Did I hear the Bitcoin news?

No.

It's only up 8%.

Ethereum's up 11%.

Yeah, I wonder if she blocked me when my

mum told me that she blocked her.

I don't know because I haven't tried to

message her since Sunday. It's just I got

the family removed from Steam family email

today, just now.

Unless she blocked me a couple days ago

and then she just remembered to do the

Steam family thing today.

Once again, YouTube ruins my

relationships.

I swear, if, if I wasn't streaming every

day and then she had that argument with

her mum when I wasn't streaming, none of

this would have happened. So I would have

thought, okay, I guess I gotta pick her

up. It's not like I'm doing anything else,

but because I've been streaming every day,

there's literally no time in the day where

I'm not working or not streaming.

But it's like she always chooses— these

fights always seem to happen when I'm

streaming. I only start streaming from

about 6 PM, 5 PM.

There's the entire day before 6 PM that

this stuff could happen. It always happens

when I'm streaming. I don't think that

there's ever been a fire that happened

when I was not streaming.

Why so sad? Sunny sounded like hell.

Yeah, but I wanted it to work.

I thought we could make it work.

That's what I wanted.

And after we got back together after

the last fight, I felt like things are way

more secure and stable now. We were not—

we're not going to have another fight over

something so tiny.

It's really hard to have a relationship

when you, you're a streamer,

especially when they can watch everything

you're doing.

It's really tough.

Sometimes you might say stuff on stream

that you wouldn't have said in real life,

and then they hear it and then it, it's

not what they want to hear.

If we lived together— oh my God, I can't

even imagine what problems we'd have if we

lived together.

Do you think it was really bad of me that

I didn't end the stream and go pick her

Now I'm getting all second doubts.

Maybe we do a poll.

Because I'm just really confused.

Was Sunny's— stupid

Y button doesn't work— request for me to

pick her up that night unreasonable?

Start poll.

I thought you should have picked her up.

You could have resumed streaming later. I

couldn't though. If she was here, I

wouldn't be able to stream because she

would have been here, we would have put on

the show, watched, I don't know,

Handmaid's Tale, and then next day I would

have had to take her to work. And then on

that day, the lorry came late, and then I

didn't finish work until about 6 or 5 or

6. So I wouldn't have been able to pick

her up until maybe 7-ish. And then what if

she got mad then? What if I made her wait

3 hours outside because I was not finished

delivering? And then I'm tired and then

I'm stressed and maybe I snap at her and

she snaps at me and she's like, I had to

wait 3 hours outside. Why couldn't you

have just stopped delivering parcels and

come pick me up, Daniel? And we could have

had another fight about that if I actually

picked her up and brought her here.

I would have no choice if I brought her

here. I would have to have had to

take her to work. Either I would have had

to take a day off or she would have had to

take a day off, or I would have tried to

do the deliveries and pick her up at the

same time. It's just so unfair how selfish

she was being about it and then expected

me to either

do like 10 hours of driving or take a day

off work just so it suits her convenience.

I got my own problems too, you know. I

just— I felt like that was really unfair.

'Cause she was, she was like trying— she

started bringing up the idea of me taking

her to work, and she was even suggesting

that she would just pay me some money and

then I take the days off work. I can't do

that. I've promised the guy that I'm gonna

do Monday to Friday. I already took last

Friday off so I could be with her. And

then she spent the whole morning in bed

and then she left after waking up. After

she woke up, she said, could we

think about leaving soon? And I was like,

what? I thought you were staying today. I

thought that was the whole point of me

taking the day off. I took the whole day

off for her and then she leaves.

She keeps expecting me to take days off

work to suit her convenience.

And then she keeps expecting me to stop

streaming. I can't go to work and then I

can't stream. How am I going to make

What kind of woman would be like, oh, if

you don't sacrifice your work because

you don't pay attention to me. That means

you don't care about me and dumping you.

That's just ridiculous.

No guy would do that. No guy is going

to be like, oh, I'll just leave my office

or I'll just cancel my work meeting so I

can come pick you up unless it was an

emergency, which it wasn't an emergency,

like an emergency where you're in danger.

The fight. Yeah, the fight with her mum

was just because her mum smokes and

sometimes she smokes in the house. And

then Sunny would say, could you not smoke

in the house? And then mum would get mad

because it's her mum's house. But then

Sunny would get mad because she would say,

I'm paying rent, so I should have a say.

Sounds like you guys don't have time to

see each other, but we do. She only works

2 days a week. The rest of the time she's

at home or she's

going over her sister's place. She spends

more time at her sister's place seeing her

nieces or walking the dogs with her mum

than she did coming over here to see me.

She would come over to see me for one day,

the evening, and then the whole day, and

then the morning the next day. Not even

the 2 whole days. But then she would spend

the entire rest of the week with her

family. What kind of relationship

is that? That's just stupid. I don't want

to have a girlfriend where 80% of the time

she's with her family.

What a joke.

Even Mila came over to see me more.

Why was she not working full-time? I don't

know. She said she wanted more days, but

they're only starting her off with 2 days

a week. And then I don't know what she was

doing the rest of the time, probably just

sitting in her bedroom playing video games

or walking the dog and then seeing— going

over to her sister's house.

Do you know if Sunny has any mental

illness? Probably does. I don't know what

ones.

Avoidance. Needs constant reassurance.

Needs constant words of affection.

No, Faster didn't dump me.

Faster was begging me. She was saying,

please don't destroy our relationship for

Sunny. And now I wish I didn't.

I dumped Faster so I could be with Sunny

because Sunny said If

you don't break up with your girlfriend,

I'm not gonna meet you. Sorry to make you

choose. So then I had to choose,

didn't I?

I thought I have a nice relationship with

Sunny, both British, don't have to worry

about visas, get a place together, do

content together. So yeah,

I easily chose sunny over faster for those

reasons.

Now I guess it doesn't seem like it was

the right choice.

Fucking stuck in Devon now.

Oh, just a quick update. Um, so I messaged

the car company and they said if I paid an

early settlement of £10,400, I can get

out of my PCP contracts and I own the car.

So that saved me like £3,000. My mum let

me borrow about £10,000.

So I sent the money, but I haven't gotten

a response from them. Maybe because it's

Yeah, so I would have had to pay a total

of nearly £14,000 because of the

interest accruing each month for each

payment, but they said if I wanted to

settle the PCP then they would,

they would take off the interest owed,

like £3,200.

Yeah, I did update the debt. Can't you see

it? It says mum debt £19,000, car debt

zero.

The interest rate was insane. It was like

50%. You know the £194

a month I was paying? Most of that was

interest. It was like £100 interest and

then £94 for the actual car. The interest

was higher than the car for the payments

for the actual car.

So yeah, if I kept doing the PCP plan

after the 42 months, I would have ended up

paying nearly £4,000 in interest.

So that saved me £3,000.

Now I'm thinking I sell the car. I'm

thinking I just make enough money to pay

off the other debts,

and then according to this website, my

car's worth about £10,000.

But I kind of need the car to be able to

make good money, so it's a tricky thing to

decide.

I spent a total of— I made 5 payments,

£194,

so that's about It's about

£900-ish, and I also paid £4,000 for the

deposit.

So I guess it's good that I bought the car

out sooner, better than

later. And then

I guess I'll just— now I don't have the

car payments anymore every month, I'll

have more money left over each month so I

can just pay it back to my mum.

You know, I was watching Ice's stream and

it sounds like he and Kim have a similar

problem. Like, Kimberly's really

self-conscious about what the chat says

about her, and then she gets upset about

stuff Ice says, and then Ice says he's

just doing his job. Don't pay any

attention to the stupid chat. But then

Kimberly needs constant words of

reassurance. Sounds kind of similar.

I think if you're that kind of person,

don't date a streamer.

A YouTuber might be okay because they just

make videos and edit it and post it, but a

streamer has to stream for like 6

or 7 hours or even more every day.

If you don't want to be part of that and

you can't handle the stuff he says or the

stuff his community says, then don't get

involved. It's like in the beginning she

wanted to be involved. She was happy to be

on streams and stuff. And then she just

didn't want to do it anymore because it

upset her.

You've got to have thick skin. You can't

get all upset over things people say and

then expect to go on stream and then not

be affected by it.

She didn't know what she was signing up

for. I think she did, because she knew

about Miura and Chihiro, and she knew

about— in Kyoto, she even said it.

She said I would be a terrible boyfriend,

and she was like listing out reasons I

would be a terrible boyfriend, and I was

like Okay, it's not like I want to be your

boyfriend. Where did this even come out

from? We were just walking along a river

and then she suddenly starts saying, now I

think about it, you would make a terrible

boyfriend. And I was like, okay, what,

are you thinking of being my girlfriend or

what? Like, she was probably considering

it at that point already.

I feel like it's so sad how it ended

because it was so good, and I used to love

it when she came over to my house. We'd

play video games,

watch movies. I would take her out, we'd

go out somewhere, like we went to over.

When it was good, it was really good. And

then all these fights— the fights just

started getting more and more frequent and

more and more often. And she kept— she

kept— it's like a new fight after new

fight for a different reason after

different reason. It was like she was

becoming crazier and crazier over time.

So she just started turning into this

crazy woman. It was weird.

I don't know why she changed so much over

such— it wasn't that long, was it? It was

like 6 or 8 months.

Over half a year, she just, like,

mentally destructed herself.

I tried my best to adjust, stop talking

about Pia or exes so much, try to text her

more, but it was just never

enough.

Her emotions got invested. You couldn't

match them in a way she needed.

Yeah, maybe. Maybe she was just way more

emotionally into me than I was into her.

But I think men and women, they have

emotional attachments at different speeds.

Like maybe the woman gets really

emotionally attached straight away or very

quickly, whereas the man's emotional

attachment takes a bit slower to get

going. And by the time the

man's emotional level is at the same rate

as the woman's, it's probably too late or

it's like over already.

I think it takes me a while to start

actually feeling affection. It's like I

was starting to feel affection for Chihiro

probably a year after we got divorced.

I start realizing her good points and

stuff like that. Way too late.

It's just sad that this is how— just

blocked. Not even

a chance to try and negotiate or She

can't even, like, try and understand my

viewpoint or try and understand why I made

my decision not to pick her up.

She needs a caring and supportive

boyfriend. Well, yeah, I want a caring

and supporting girlfriend. I want a

girlfriend who encourages me to make money

and doesn't get in my way of trying to

make money and doesn't spend

so much time with her family, which is

kind of weird. See, I mean, you're not a

I want to be prioritized as well. I don't

want to be like second or third place to

your family.

This is why I've always said like the best

girlfriend would be a girlfriend who

either doesn't have parents or isn't close

to their family and doesn't have a lot of

I always said it. That's why I always said

middle-aged Japanese women are the best,

because usually they— the parents would be

not around, or maybe one of the parents

would be dead, or they would be a single

child, or they wouldn't be living near

their family, or they'd be living

independently from their family. So the

family is not really like an issue. I

really felt like Sunny's family just And

in the end, it was Sunny's mum's fault,

wasn't it? Because she couldn't stop

smoking in the fucking house.

It's all Sunny's mum's fault. If only

Sunny and her mum could get along,

then that fight would have never happened,

and then she wouldn't have expected me to

come pick her up, and then she would have

come over on Friday like we planned.

And then we could have hung out on the

weekend instead of me just sitting and

being bored all day because there's no

work.

I never felt like she prioritized me over

her family, and my stream is my family.

My stream is like my tribe.

So that I don't feel completely alone in

Now, I didn't even meet her family. She

met mine. She met everyone apart from my

sister's husband. But she wouldn't even,

like, bring me into the house. I remember

I picked her up one time. She was like,

quickly, let's go. My mum's gonna be back

soon. I was thinking, why am I supposed to

be hiding from your mum? Just felt really

weird.

God, I'm just getting all these flashbacks

now from when I was in that other place

where I was sitting on the carpet

streaming in the corner of the room,

hiding my location so I could protect this

future I thought I was gonna have with

Sunny. Still waiting

until I could move into this place.

Now I've got to do it all over again.

It's fucking annoying. I thought, oh,

okay, things are good between us now.

I've got the house, we're near each other,

what could go wrong?

Fucking blocks me.

So damn childish. No wonder my mum didn't

When she said to me that she was really in

love with me, I thought, okay, I got this.

It's gonna be easy now.

And then she literally breaks up with me

over something so stupid.

Yeah.

When, when I phoned her after the last

fight, I phoned her after the stream at

like 3, 4 a.m. And then we talked and

she said, I think I really love you,

Daniel. And she said, I don't have to say

I wonder if it was actual, actual love.

No, I didn't say it because she, she

quickly said, you don't have to say it

back. But I did say it later. The next

time she said it, I said, I love you too.

Yeah, probably when she says, oh, you

don't have to say it back, probably meant

you better fucking say it back.

Are you just sad because you're stuck in

Devon now? I'm sad because I made a

massive investment into this relationship

and she doesn't appreciate it. And then

she decided to break up with me over

something really silly.

I put a lot of effort into trying to make

this work, you know. Way more effort than

she's put into it. What if— what has she

even done?

Credit card debt is quite insignificant.

Yeah, I paid quite a lot of it off now.

It's just the Amazon credit card is

starting to go up because I keep using it.

I used it to pay my £100 driving fine. I

got 0.5% cashback on it, which is funny.

50 pence for paying my fine.

She's accomplished more than me. Yeah,

well then why is she always broke? Why

can't she get her own car?

How come she's been back in the UK since

August Which was, um, 7 months ago,

and she couldn't even get a car. A Toyota

Yaris is like £2,000, and they're pretty

good cars. They can do 150,000 mileage

easily and still keep going. What's the

excuse? She kept spending all her money on

buying Christmas presents for her family.

If she just got her own car, she could

have driven here herself. And she could

have gone to work herself without needing

me to take her. It's not—

I mean, I don't mind taking her, it's

just— I can't.

It's too hard.

If I wasn't working, I would happily take

her, but it's just— it's like I have to

choose between— doing my

job and taking her to work.

I just— I never understood why she was

always broke.

Yeah, where's my £10? Well, for— why were

you addicted to hardcore gay closed-up

movies in Thailand? I don't

know, I just got bored with normal sex and

I wanted something freaky.

Sometimes you just get a bit bored of

women, you need like a palate cleanser.

Watch a bit of gay stuff and then you go

back to women and then you realize, oh,

women are so much better. Men's bodies are

so weird looking, flat and straight and

angular.

I spent like £15 at Tesla Superchargers to

go pick her up, drop her off, drive back

there, and now I lost all my laundry.

Thanks.

Yeah, well, I got her hair straightener

and I got her maple syrup, golden syrup,

and I got her juice.

If does not understand that you need to

work and can't just take days off.

Yeah, I know.

She wanted me to take off Tuesday and

Thursday so I could take her to work, and

then I wouldn't be able to stream in the

evening because she would be here,

wouldn't she? And then if I, if I streamed

in the evening and like ignored her and

went up to the little room to stream She'd

probably be mad at that as well.

Why did mum debt increase? Yeah, because

she helped me pay off the car. So now I

own the car.

So I was thinking I could sell the car and

get a Toyota Yaris for like £2,500,

basically the same one as Faster's. What

would you do if Kevin's willy was waving

in front of you right now?

Nothing. I saw a Toyota Yaris on

AutoTrader. 2500, automatic,

80,000 miles. Vasta's Toyota Yaris had

like 150,000 miles on it and it was fine.

Because I could sell mine, probably not

for market value. Market value is like

10k, but obviously if you sell it to a

dealership, they want to make profit. So

if they buy it off you for 10k and sell it

for the market value of 10k, they're not

going to make any money. So then they're

going to try and— they're going to try and

give you 8k for it, probably, so they can

But even then, if I get 8k and then I buy

a 2.5k TOTY Arras,

uh, I'd still put 6k in my pocket,

wouldn't I? Also, I'd get way cheaper

insurance if I got a Toyota Yaris. Toyota

Yaris insurance is like £65-70 a month.

I'm paying £120 a month for insurance.

Petrol would be more expensive than

electric, but would it be £6,000

more expensive? I mean, over 20 years,

yeah, it would.

Let's say petrol is like £200 a month.

If I get £6,000, it will take 30

months.

It will take 30 months until— well,

I mean, it's not £200 a month because I'm

paying £70 a month for electric. So you'd

replace— it's £100— you'd take away the

difference, £130 a month, wouldn't it? So

£6,000 divided by £130 is like 46 months,

which is nearly 4 years. So after

4 years, the cost of petrol would

make the £6K cash injection not

worth it, I guess you could say that.

What's the one thing you have a natural

talent on that Sabrina couldn't do? I can

hold my breath for 16 minutes. Watch.

How long was that?

The trick is you lower your heart rate so

you use less oxygen. That was pretty good.

Do you prefer a 5-incher or 10-incher and

above? Which one satisfies you the best?

Don't know, I've only had a 10-incher, I

think. The length doesn't really

matter, it's the thickness. If it's too

thick, it's too much work to get it in.

Why didn't I give back the car and get a

cheaper car? Wait, so you're saying I

cancel my contract at 50% and then I don't

pay the remaining 12k

and then I buy a cheaper one for 2k?

Doesn't that just work out the same?

So I only pay another $1K to make it top

it up to 50%, and then I get out of the

remaining payments and balloon payment.

And then I just— so that I get a new car

for like $3K, I'd only be down -$3K.

But if I buy the car out now for

$10K, I'd be down $10K.

Ooh,

maybe that would have made more sense,

cuz now I've spent 10K,

I'm down 10K, I sell it for

10K. That I'm at zero and then I buy a new

car, I'm down $3K. But if I got out

50%, top out $1K, yeah, it's the same.

I'd be down $1K to top it up to 50% and

then buy a new car for like $2K, $3K. I'd

still be down $3K. It's literally the

No, I've already sent the money. I sent

them £10,500.

Now I owe my mum £20K. It's so stupid.

I was in Thailand and I was owing my mum

£12K-ish and I thought, oh my God, I'm in

so much debt. I need to go home and make

the money back. And I literally owe her

double the amount I owed her compared to 9

months ago. So stupid.

Well, hopefully I get my deposit back when

I leave this place. I'll get £1,090 back,

and then I've got about £1,000 worth of

furniture.

Yeah, I paid for the car upfront, and that

means I didn't have to pay the interest

that I would have had to pay if I kept

paying monthly over 4 years. So it's

brought my total debt down by about

£3,200.

Do you think Sunny put my clothing in the

I think the reason why Sunny decided to

dump me again this time is because she

heard my side of the story and my

arguments, and she just doesn't agree with

it. And she knows that I don't agree with

her reasoning. So we

just— we came to an impasse where neither

of us were willing to compromise. And

understand the other person's standpoint.

Because really, I think if we actually

talked, I would just tell her that she's

being ridiculous. And then she would be

saying that I'm uncaring because I didn't

care about her in her moment of need.

So in a way, we're both right. We both

have a point, but we both disagree with

each other's reasoning. So I think for

that reason she decided to block me

because she probably heard my reasoning on

stream.

Yeah. Incompatibility.

I want a woman who isn't going to demand

that I stop everything for her unless it's

actually a dangerous life or death

situation.

I want someone supportive and

understanding and doesn't demand that I do

stuff. You can't, you can't demand

people do stuff for you. I'm not your

I'm not gonna sacrifice my own stuff. I

mean, I can, that's to some extent, but

not too much. I'm not willing to

sacrifice too much in order to convenience

someone else. Asking me to take 2 days off

work and pick you up and do this and do

that, it's just too much. It gets to a

point where the de-benefits outweigh the

benefits. It's like net negative, isn't

it?

Even my mum didn't rely on my dad that

much. When my mum moved to England, she

couldn't drive, but my dad pressured her

into learning to drive and getting a

license. It took my mum like 5 attempts at

the driving test to pass it, and she

passed it and she had a car. My dad would

not be able to go to work and raise a

family and bringing the money if my mum

couldn't drive and take me and my sister

to school. There's no way my dad could

have done all that.

My mum learned to drive and then she got a

car. Well, my dad probably paid for the

car. You can't

just try and dump all the driving on one

person. Sunny can drive. I just— I don't

know why she doesn't just get a car. If

you can't get along with your mum and

share her car, then you gotta get your own

car. And then she said she didn't want to

get a cheap banger because it'll probably

break down. Okay, well,

I don't know, get one on finance. Get a

credit card.

Been in the UK for like 7 months. What's

My mum got a car. She was like

30-something, could barely speak English,

new in the country.

Yeah, I thought she had. She was last time

I met her, or the time before the last

time we were in the car, and she was

saying she was really happy because she

got a letter from Japan saying that

they're going to give her back her

pension, and it was like £6,000.

But I guess it takes a while for that to

come into a bank account.

How can you work in Japan for three years?

Full-time as an English teacher and not

have any savings. Where'd all the money

go?

Sunny also took that money off her ex.

Yeah, exactly. I don't know why

the ex was so stupid to send her £6,000 in

the first place. I think she said

something like the ex wanted to get back

with her, so he sent her £6,000 to

try and impress her or something, and then

she blocked him and kept the money. So

yeah, she, she can do douchey

things, and that's totally within— with

it if she feels like she's been wronged

and she's got the justification to screw

people over. She'll just do it and she

doesn't even feel bad about it.

She was laughing about it. And I thought,

okay, I don't really care about your ex.

Maybe he was a dick, but it's kind of

scary to think that could happen to me.

I could be next where you screw me over.

So I always felt like I gotta be on my

toes a bit.

Yeah, I would never send her 6K, but I

would use 6K to, to buy stuff for

us, like coming here and getting a place

and getting a sofa.

I feel like, yeah, sometimes her morals

weren't— so

the thing with morals is I don't really

care. If you lie, cheat, and steal, as

long as you don't do it to me. But the

fact that you would lie, cheat, or steal

makes me wonder, would you do it to me?

The fact that someone has that history

makes you a bit nervous, doesn't it?

But as you know, past actions don't

indicate future actions, because Chihiro

cheated on her ex-husband But she didn't

cheat on me until I started cheating on

her, and then she did cheat on me.

Chihiro was literally sex friending with

the Australian guy for like a year whilst

being married to the ex-husband. Don't you

think that's messed up?

You shit-talked her to 200 people.

Well, yeah, obviously,

if you are mad at me and I don't agree

with the reason you're mad at me for, and

I feel like I'm getting screwed over here,

then yeah, I'm going to be mad and I'm not

going to be saying nice things about you.

Why would you expect that I do?

I was shocked on that Sunday night last

week. I was like, actually shocked

with the way she acted and behaved.

Because I literally said you can come stay

at my place, and then she ignored it.

And then she was like, oh, I expected you

to come pick me up and save me, but you

can't even be bothered. Well, yeah, I

don't really want to go and pick you up if

you're going to be like this, because I

don't want to have to deal with your

moodiness and your anger. It's not nice.

No, she luckily she didn't have any of my

jumpers. I got all my jumpers back, but

she got my black trousers that I really

like. Those are my favorite black

trousers. So annoying.

Perfect. I think it's polyester. It's not

like cotton. Now I've got to figure out

how to get some other black trousers.

I hated wearing jeans. I was wearing those

jeans all the time in Japan. They were

just so tight and uncomfortable. And I

came back home and I found these black

trousers in my bedroom and I thought, oh

yeah, I remember these.

I forgot where I bought it. It might be

off Amazon.

I don't really care about the underwear

and socks.

I'm not 30k in debt anymore. I'm 25k in

debt. Nope, she didn't come over. She

didn't bring back my laundry, and then she

blocked me. I'm blocked.

Zero. No, go straight to voicemail.

I wonder if she's blocked my other phone

It's still ringing on my other phone.

That's weird.

Why? Why does it still ring on my other

So she didn't block my other phone even

though I've rang her like 6 times now.

Did I put in the right number?

Yes, the right number.

Imagine us phoning the wrong number and

then some old woman answers. She's like,