my coworker is a twat

If you used to watch my videos last year,

which is probably none of you because last

year I had about 200 subscribers, but if

you did used to watch my videos last year,

when I first got my job at the petrol

station, I used to make a lot of videos

moaning and ranting about my coworker

because I had a lot of problems with him,

mainly because I really didn't like the

way he spoke to me. He has this very

blunt, rough way of speaking that to me it

sounds extremely rude. I ended up taking

down a lot of those ranting videos mainly

because At that time, I didn't want to

lose my job, and I was a bit worried that

he might find my channel and I might get

into trouble with my boss, or someone

might show my boss my YouTube channel and

I'll get into trouble or get fired. And

back then, I didn't want to get fired

because I was madly in love with this

Taiwanese girl, and she wanted to come to

the UK, and I said I'd pay for a plane

ticket, so I was saving up money for that.

But then I realized it was kind of stupid

to do that, and even if I bought her 10

plane tickets to the UK, she still

wouldn't have sex with me. So I deleted

her on Facebook and I blocked her on

Skype. And I haven't talked to her since

November. So after I stopped talking to

her, I started making ranting videos again

because I didn't really have a goal or

purpose or reason to have a job, so I

didn't really care if I got fired again.

So then in January, I got a Japanese

girlfriend, and I needed to save up money

to go to Japan in April. So again, I

decided I didn't want to get fired because

I needed money, so I decided to take down

the ranting videos again. I've left one or

two up that I didn't think were too bad.

But right now I don't have any reasons to

have a job again. I don't want to go to

Japan. There's not really any real reason

that I desperately need a job, so I don't

really care if I get fired right now. I

actually want to get fired. I've never

actually quit a job by saying I quit.

What I usually do is when I want to quit,

I just do the job really badly until they

get fed up and end up firing me. I do this

with relationships as well. Instead of

saying I want to break up, I usually just

treat her kind of badly and give her the

cold shoulder until she gets sick of me

and decides to break up with me. No,

that's not what I'm doing with my current

girlfriend. I'm gonna break up with her

properly. I'm gonna actually tell her and

then block her online before she can reply

so I don't feel bad about it. So the

reason I wanted to make this video was

because a few nights ago I had this huge

argument with my coworker. Maybe to you it

doesn't sound like a huge argument, it

doesn't sound like a big deal, but for my

standards, to me personally, it felt like

A big deal. So it all started when this

policeman came in and he gave me this

piece of paper, a court summons that he

wanted to pay. He wanted to pay £30 for

this court summons thing, and it was

actually my first time I had ever seen

that before, so I wasn't quite sure what

to do, and I kind of winged it. I got the

scanner from the PayPoints machine, which

is this yellow box we have that does

things like top-up cards and other

vouchers, and I picked up the scanner and

I scanned the barcode on the court

summons. And it came up with a menu and I

pressed the £30 and I took the £30 from

the policeman and I gave him the receipt

and I put the £30 into the cash register

and then I walked off to carry on doing

the mopping. And then a few minutes later,

my coworker went over to the cash register

to check if I had done it properly and he

called out my name. He said, Daniel, and I

instantly knew that there was something

wrong because he only ever talks to me if

I've made a mistake. So he said, Daniel,

why did you put the £30 into the cash

register? And As soon as he said that, I

knew where this was going because every

time I make a mistake, he always starts

off by asking me a stupid question like,

Daniel, why did you do this? Why did you

do this like this? Which I feel like

that's a completely pointless thing to ask

me because the reason why I did what I did

was because I thought that was the correct

way of doing things. So since I knew I was

about to get lectured about something, I

instantly got defensive and I said back to

him, well, where was I supposed to put it?

And then he said something about a key

charge. Now a key charge is A button we

press on the till when we have to take

money that's being used for the PayPoints

machine, and then we press key charge,

enter the amount of money, then press cash

on the cash register. And he said

something about key charge. I didn't quite

catch what he said because he has this

weird accent which I find very difficult

to understand, and his English isn't great

sometimes. He doesn't use proper sentences

a lot of the times, and I didn't quite

catch what he said, so I just pretended to

understand what he said and I said okay,

and then I just walked off to to continue

doing the mopping. And then he shouted,

oi! And then he said, why did you walk off

when I'm still explaining? And I was kind

of surprised because I thought he had

finished talking, but apparently not. And

at that point, I was getting really

irritated. I can't stand it when people

talk to me rudely, or especially when

someone shouts at me, oi! At least call my

name or say hey or something like that,

not oi! Oi just sounds completely rude.

Anyway, I walked back to him and I said,

I thought you had finished talking. And

then he just repeated what he said. He

said, why did you put the money in the

till? And then I repeated what I said,

like sarcastically. I said, where should I

have put it? Where else are you supposed

to put the money apart from the till?

There's nowhere else to put it. And then

he said the same thing about the key

charge, and I still didn't quite

understand what he said. So I said okay,

like in an irritated way, and then I

walked off again to do the mopping. And

then he started like shouting stuff at me.

He said something else I didn't quite

understand, and I shouted back at him

because I was really irritated and angry

at that point. I said, You know, the way

you speak is really rude. You should think

about changing the way you talk. And I was

so angry. My body was shaking, my hand was

trembling, my heartbeat was racing. I

could feel the veins in my forehead

throbbing. And I was so angry at that

point, I just needed to cool down and calm

down. Otherwise, I felt like I was gonna

smash something. I'm not usually an angry

person. I'm pretty laid-back. I'm a pretty

relaxed person most of the time. But

there's a few things that really trigger

me and really irritate me. And the way my

coworker talks is one of them. When I

first started the job, I used to make a

lot of mistakes, and he used to say things

like, Daniel, can you please do this

properly? Otherwise, I have to do it for

you next time. Daniel, can you please ask

me next time before you do this? He has

this really irritating, patronizing way of

talking that kind of makes you feel like

you're being told off by your

schoolteacher, makes you feel like a kid

being told off by your parent or an adult.

Even if I make a tiny mistake, he

completely overreacts, and he starts

saying things like, Daniel, why didn't you

ask me for help? Why didn't you do this

properly? Blah blah blah. There was this

one time These 2 Irish guys came in. They

didn't have enough money to pay for fuel.

It was only £10, so I said okay, and I

filled out their details, the contact

details, and I let them go. And then my

coworker came in and he was like, what

happened? And I pressed cash on the cash

register, which means that— which is the

button you press to register that you've

taken money from the customer onto the

cash register. But since I didn't actually

have the £10 from the Irish people You

were supposed to press the unpaid button,

and at that time I didn't realize and I

just pressed cash. And he found out and he

got all upset. He started like shouting

and going, oh, I don't know how I'm

supposed to work with you. How am I

supposed to work with someone who doesn't

talk to me, who doesn't ask me what to do

when he doesn't know what to do? And I was

just like, Jesus Christ, calm down. It was

only £10. It's not a big deal. And he was

like, okay, fine, you sort it out. You

deal with it. It's your problem. It's

nothing to do with me. He had like a big

tantrum. And I just wanted to tell him to

relax and chill out. It wasn't a big deal

anyway. The next morning, I explained

everything to the manager's daughter, and

she was just like, okay, that's fine, but

next time you have to press the unpaid

button. Finish. End of conversation. He

likes to use the word blame a lot. He says

things like, if you make a mistake,

they'll blame us. If you don't do this

properly, they'll blame us. And I said,

no, they won't blame us, they'll blame me,

because if I do something wrong, then it's

my fault. I'll take the blame. Why would

you take the blame? And he said, it's

because we're, we're a team. If you do

something wrong, then we both get the

blame. And I said, no. Just say that it

was Daniel's fault and I'll take the blame

because I really don't care about taking

the blame. And there's no blame-taking

anyway. If I do something wrong, the most

that the manager ever does is she leaves a

note in the office saying, Daniel, you did

this wrong. Can you do it like this next

time? And that's it. There's no blame.

There's no punishment. There's no slap on

the wrist. A few hours later, he

confronted me again and he said to me,

what did you mean the way I spoke to you

was rude? And I said to him, The way you

speak is very blunt and rough and it

sounds very impolite. And he said, how

should I have said it then? And I said,

all you had to say was, you need to enter

£30 on the till as a key charge. That was

it. You didn't have to ask me like stupid

sarcastic patronizing questions. You

didn't have to go on and on and on. And I

said, just stop nagging me. Stop making a

fuss over nothing. And then he said, how

am I supposed to tell you that you've done

something wrong then? And I said, Just

don't tell me anything because I don't

really care. It doesn't matter. I don't

mind if I get in trouble. I don't mind if

I get the blame. And then he said to me,

so you just want to do everything how you

want to do it, your way? And I said, yep.

And that was the end of the conversation.

He didn't say anything else after that.

And for the rest of the shift, it was just

complete awkward silence. And the same as

last night, we didn't speak one single

word to each other. And it was great. I

really enjoyed the silence. I wish that

next time, if he had something to tell me,

He'll just write it down on a piece of

paper and leave it by the till so I can

read that instead of having to hear his

voice. I'm not a confrontational person.

I don't like arguing with people, and

usually I just keep quiet. I don't say

anything if he says something that

irritates me. But last night I got so

angry, I couldn't suppress it, and I

couldn't hold it in anymore, and I just

pissed all over him. I mean, I shouted at

him, and it felt great. I feel really

nervous and anxious when I have to work

with him. Every time I make a mistake,

it's like he's standing right next to me

ready to start nagging me. And you

shouldn't make people feel bad about

making mistakes unless they're making the

same mistakes over and over. Making

mistakes isn't a bad thing, it's how

people get better at doing things. They

learn from their mistakes. And the thing

is with him, because he nags me and he

makes me feel bad when I make a mistake,

I don't feel comfortable going to him and

asking him for help, and I end up wanting

to cover up my mistakes. If you want to

know why I don't ask him for help if

there's something I'm not sure how to do,

it's because I don't really like him and I

don't feel comfortable approaching him or

asking him for help. This always happens

every time I get a job. There's always at

least a few people that I absolutely

despise. At my first job at the pub,

there was this foul-mouthed overweight guy

who was the manager's husband, and he used

to like physically and verbally abuse his

wife. And he would make snarky remarks

like when she made me lunch, he would say,

oh, you're giving away more food than

you're selling. And then there's this guy

at my second job who used to make me make

the tea all the time. Why don't you make

your own tea if you want to drink tea?

And I ended up quitting my job because I

refused to make tea anymore. And then when

I was working in Japan at the convenience

store, the owner's sister got angry with

me. She said,

"なんでここで三ヶ月働いてるのにまだ同じメスしてるの？頑張ってないでしょ." And

I said, "Fuck you," and I left the next