Sad And Lonely Valentines day -( [m9C-ZnY3yXw]

I got tricked.

I got tricked again.

I can't believe I fell for the same trick

twice.

This whole Korea trip feels like it's a

complete disaster.

I lost all my girls, guys. I lost all

of them.

So the Japanese girl was supposed to be

coming tonight, and she was messaging

me up until about an hour ago saying

stuff like, oh, I'm back from work now,

I'm gonna go and get my luggage now,

my plane's gonna be here in an hour. And

then all of a sudden Her effing

profile vanished again. Same thing as

before, she deleted it. So pretty

much confirms that she's fake. I can't

believe it. I fell for the exact same

trick. I was so happy when she came back

and started messaging me again, and I

believed her BS story about her boyfriend

finding out. Bet you anything tomorrow

she'll be back again saying, oh, my

boyfriend found out I was gonna go to

Korea and then he stopped me and then he

deleted my account again. Next time

I get a message from her, I'm going to

accept and then tell her to fuck off, and

then I'm going to ban her— I mean, block

her. I feel so stupid because

I'm so desperately lonely right now. That

I probably believe anyone who messaged me

saying, "Hey Daniel, I want to meet you

and hook up."

I kept telling myself not to fall for it

again, but I just couldn't resist. She

sent me voice messages again, saying,

"Daniel, I like you. Can't wait to

meet you." Who's doing this?

Okay, you've had your fun. You tricked me.

Can you just at least tell me what's going

on?

I keep thinking my wife's behind it. Do

you think my wife would do something like

that?

My wife is pretty spiteful. For example,

when she found out I was chatting to

girls, you know what she did? She said to

me, yeah, well, I slept with a guy whilst

you were in England. And then she had this

smirk on her face like she was so happy

getting revenge on me.

She'll say stuff like that to try and hurt

me if I've hurt her. She's not a very

mature person, but this seems a bit— I

don't know, would she do something like

this? Get her friend to start pretending

to be into me?

So here's my theories.

Wife was behind it.

Number 2, weirdo Western

guy and his girlfriend

or wife. Or it could be Japanese

girl acting alone.

What else could it be apart from these 3?

What if it was Kanae and his Japanese

girlfriend?

Which one do you think is more likely?

I think it's number 3. I think it's too

far-fetched, it's too unbelievable that

some guy or my wife was getting a Japanese

girl to do all that.

Yeah, I would say number 3 as well.

So I'm stuck in Seoul Station for another

week because I booked this place for me

and the J-girl.

I was hoping to move to a better part of

the city, but I'm stuck here for another

This table's so wobbly and squeaky.

Maybe it's a viewer tricking you. Yeah, I

guess there must be quite a few viewers.

Who have Japanese girlfriends or wives.

My Tinder account got banned as well

because I wasn't getting any matches, and

I think my Tinder account got

shadowbanned. So I decided to delete the

account, and I thought I could make a new

account using the same phone number, but

you can't after you've deleted the

account. That phone number gets banned and

you can't reuse it. So I had to

use my second Tinder account, which I was

using to catfish guys pretending to be my

ex. I had to change that back to my real

profile, but now I've got like 5,000

matches from guys on it, and I started

matching girls again. I matched like 5

girls, so I think I was shadowbanned or

I matched one chubby-looking Korean girl

and I said, can we meet? And she said

maybe, then she unmatched me.

I've deleted Tinder a lot and used the

same number. Well, how come I deleted it

and then I try using the same number and

it says your account has been banned?

How do I make a Tinder account without a

phone number? Because I don't have any

phone numbers left. I used all mine.

I didn't get reported. I deleted the

account because I wanted to make a new

one.

Oh, maybe because it was shadow banned.

It was banned, but it was shadow banned,

so they didn't want me to know it was

banned, so I carry on using it and paying

for it even though it was shadow banned.

And then when I deleted it and tried to

make it again, I couldn't because it was

shadow banned, which is the same as being

banned. I'm a genius. What a

rip-off. I don't know why Tinder bans

people like that. I paid them good money.

I was a regular customer. I didn't do

anything wrong.

So current update on the girls, I lost

all the girls. They're all gone now.

Look, there was the Essex girl.

She was the main reason why I decided to

leave the marriage.

She ghosted me.

She hasn't messaged me in 6 days, so she's

not even interested in talking to me

anymore, even after giving me this

impression that she was interested in

having a trip across Asia together.

And then the French girl,

lost her as well. She friend-zoned me.

She was flirting with me all the time when

I was in Japan, sending me naughty

pictures. And then I come to Korea and

then All of a sudden she says she just

wants to be friends.

And then who else was there? The Korean

girl.

Well, we had pretty much zero chemistry

when we met.

What did the Korean girl do? I don't know.

I don't really know her at all. She says

she only watched a few of my videos, so

she barely knows me either. Korean girl,

no chemistry.

I wouldn't even want— I don't know, I

wouldn't even want to meet her again even

if she asked me.

And then there was the Who else was there?

Oh yeah, the Japanese girl catfished

me. It's so annoying when

I'm married, I get all these messages from

girls and they're like, oh, if you ever

come here, then I'm down to fuck, or I

wish you weren't married, then we could

meet up. And then as soon as I'm single

again All goes quiet, and then no one's

interested anymore, and then I'm just

stuck here in Airbnb all by myself.

Typical, isn't it?

Now I have no one, not even a single

one.

All I have now is the Korean call girl.

I can't keep spending all that money to

It's so boring when there's no women.

What is there? You just end up sitting

around, you go shopping, and then you walk

around all by yourself. You buy food,

then you come back. Such a miserable

existence without women.

Why do they keep messing me around?

I made 2 videos today and I had to scrap

them both because I sound stupid now.

Can't upload them now because

it was about the Japanese girl.

Be stupid to upload it now after I got

tricked.

So I don't know what to do for videos now.

I think maybe tomorrow I'll do an update

on my marriage situation since a lot of

people seem to not know what's going on

between me and my wife. So I think that

gives me good enough reason to make an

update video.

Before she deleted her account, I was

actually thinking of not meeting her

tonight because she wanted to meet me—

well, she's going to arrive at the station

at 1 AM, which is stupid.

And it would have been pretty dangerous

just go out at 1 AM to meet a complete

stranger, so I was thinking about meeting

her tomorrow. I don't understand why she

deleted her account now though. She could

have tricked me further if she just kept

going on with it and said, oh, I'm at the

train station now, I'm waiting for you,

Daniel. She decides to delete her account

at strange times.

She's probably watching now laughing.

Haha, very funny.

There's just so many weird things about

her story, like her boyfriend finding her

profile and then the way she kept saying

that she loved me.

It just sounded really fake,

but it was nice. It's nice when people say

they love you, even if it is fake,

especially when it's said in a cute

Japanese girl voice. Made my

heart melt. Kind of reminded me of Sayaka,

actually.

That was like my biggest dream ever. All I

wanted was a cute Japanese girl who loved

me. It was like my biggest

fantasy for about 12 years. You know,

like in anime. You know that anime Welcome

to the NHK? Satoru stuck in his room, no

job, no friends, depressed. And then all

of a sudden this girl Misaki comes along,

enters his life, tries to help him.

Keep, keep waiting for my own Misaki

to come and find me.

I keep thinking how great it would be.

Oh, thank you, Snow-kun and Puckish Rogue.

Hope your day gets better. I think

everything's just gonna get worse from

I thought the Essex girl could have been a

Misaki, but now even she's not interested

in me anymore.

This is the problem with women. They give

you hope. They give you hope and

you think everything's going to be great

and they make you feel amazing.

Makes you feel like there's light at the

end of the tunnel, and then they crush

your dreams and your spirit,

and then you feel like you're going to be

alone for the rest of your life.

But what else is there? To chase after.

What else is better than women?

I mean, money, I guess, is okay.

I've got money, it still doesn't make me

feel less lonely.

I've got 100K subs, I guess that does make

me feel a bit better. At least I've got

people to talk to. That want to hear

what I have to say. That's nice, I guess.

Would be nice to have more subs, then more

women might like me.

Oh, thank you, Solid Sneaker.

What does HV— oh, Happy Valentine's Day.

Coming to Korea hasn't been very

profitable either. I've spent nearly

my entire month's income in 2 weeks,

and I've only made about $600

or $700 from all the videos and streaming

since I've been here.

That's only barely enough to cover the

first Airbnb.

Everything just failed with this Korea

Even if I didn't get those 2 call girls.

Well, the problem was that I just spent

too much money on the first Airbnb. It was

way too fancy.

Oh, thank you, Benjamin. How about bro

love? I don't know,

it's just not as good as woman love.

Well, the aeroplane ticket, I had to get

that, and that was just a one-time

expense. It's not like I have to buy an

aeroplane ticket every month.

Now I'm in an even worse part of the Seoul

station area. At least in the previous

Airbnb, I was by the motorway, by the

road. Now I'm like in the slum area

where all the old ugly buildings are.

My next Airbnb, I'm really gonna have to

find a cheaper place. I can't afford

spending $800 every 2 weeks for a

different Airbnb.

Oh, thank you, Berry Bree, for the womanly

love.

At least the Wi-Fi seems to be decent

here. I was worried it wouldn't be fast

enough to stream. Don't even have any

food. I got this Korean kimchi stew that

I made a video for the second channel,

but I don't know if I'll upload it now

because I start talking about the Japanese

girl in it. Maybe I'll upload it anyway.

I don't know what to do now to meet women.

I'm not having any luck on Tinder.

All these other dating apps.

No one in Asia is messaging me saying they

want to meet up.

All the girls who are messaging me who are

interested— well, there's one in England,

and then there's like 5 in America, and

there's like 3 in Canada. I don't

want to go to America.

And then I bet you anything if I go to

America, they'll all cancel or they'll

ghost me.

Every time I go traveling to meet a girl,

I end up getting flaked or ghosted or

friend-zoned.

I don't

I can't believe I've been here for 2 weeks

now. 2 weeks.

Well, I lasted longer than the Germany

trip, didn't I? The Germany trip was so

much better. I had the Essex girl waiting

for me. The Essex girl used to talk to me

for hours and hours. We used to talk on

the phone for hours. I really enjoyed it.

She made— she gave me this warm and fuzzy

feeling inside, and that's what the

Japanese girl gave me.

It was that same warm and fuzzy feeling.

Try to meet the French girl again? No,

she's not interested in me.

She's also probably too young for me.

She's only 20. I thought she was a bit

older. I feel like 20-year-old

girls are too young for me now. I need to

be meeting girls in their late 20s or

early 30s. Oh, thank you,

Matsuzuka. Watch some hentai?

No, that'll just make me feel more

Uh, I don't know, I feel a

bit depressed when I'm with young girls

because they make me feel old.

It's sad realizing that you're not in your

20s anymore.

They're so young and fresh, it's like

everything's new to them and

nothing's new to me.

That's why the Essex girl was good. She's

27, so she's fairly

close to me age-wise.

The annoying thing about ATMs in Korea is

you're only allowed to take out 100,000

won at a time.

So if I want to get 300,000 won,

I have to do the whole transaction thing 3

times. Put the card in, wait for it to

trans— wait for it to process, enter the

numbers, wait for it to give you the

receipt and the money. That takes a few

minutes. You have to do that 3 times to

get 100,000. It's so annoying. Why can't I

just take it all out once?

And then they give you all these bills.

Why don't you give me 2 50Ks instead of 10

10Ks? Stupid.

Oh, thank you, Bradley. Pass on the 3D

women. No, I want

real women. I want the real thing.

But it's weird because I keep fantasizing

about being with a woman, but then every

time I hang out with one, I feel

incredibly bored.

I don't think I've ever met a woman who

didn't make me feel bored.

I'm not sure why. I didn't feel bored when

I met Eugene. I felt like we had lots to

talk about and I was interested in what he

had to say. And he's very knowledgeable

when it comes to things I'm interested in.

I met this Korean girl a few days ago and

we just walked around the shopping center

for hours, barely speaking. I didn't know

what to ask her.

I asked her what she does and And

I think that's all I asked her, actually.

I don't know what else— what else do you

ask people? Do you live with your parents?

Do you have a brother and sister? What do

you like? Oh, I hate making small talk.

I just had no idea what to talk about. It

was so stressful. It was easy with Eugene

because he would ask me questions.

I just don't know what to ask people

because honestly I just don't care.

And what can be so fascinating about

someone that I would want to know about?

I can't think of anything someone could

say to me that I'd find interesting.

Unless it's helping me to,

I don't know, grow my YouTube channel.

You could tell me you went into space and

you met Tom Cruise and you hold

the Guinness World Record for balancing

hula hoops on your finger and I still

wouldn't care. I'd just go, oh, that's

cool. Great,

fantastic.

I definitely enjoy spending time with guys

more. Usually because

they know stuff that's interesting to

or they're confident, and,

and I look up to them because that's what

I want to be like.

I remember when I met George Trombley.

I had a really good time meeting him.

He was so charismatic and chatty,

and he was so smiley and positive,

and I never really met someone so positive

before like that, and it was kind of

infectious. I came home

after meeting him, I felt like my mind was

blown. I was like, wow, I can't believe

someone so positive and enthusiastic about

everything exists.

It'd be nice to meet him again, actually.

He runs a site called yesjapan.com.

That's actually where I learned my

Japanese from. 10 years ago.

He has a YouTube channel now.

I never really felt that way after meeting

women. I always just felt like, oh, thank

God that's over. That was so awkward.

It just feels really uncomfortable

spending time with women unless it's, you

know, physical.

You know what my biggest fear is when I

meet a woman? My biggest fear is that I

get dragged into a restaurant or a cafe

and then we're just stuck there sitting at

a table. At least if we're walking around,

then, you know, there's things to see and

things to comment on. You can say, oh,

look at that, that's funny. If you're

just stuck in a cafe, you don't have

anything to comment on. You're just stuck

there at the table. You have to rely on

your mind and your conversation skills.

That scares the shit out of me. The Korean

girl asked me if I wanted to go into a

cafe. I said no, I said it's too crowded,

let's just walk, because I knew if we went

into the cafe, we'd be sitting there in

probably dead silence.

I hate it, especially when it's a crowded

restaurant and it's really noisy and I

can't even hear what they're saying.

Plus, she had a mask on, so I could barely

understand what she was saying most of the

time. What?

All these people wearing masks, don't they

know having a mask does nothing?

You need an N95 mask and you need goggles.

Otherwise, your little flimsy nurse

surgical mask is not going to do anything.

Don't people watch the news? They keep

talking about on the news saying how

ineffective it is.

Everyone outside is wearing a mask. It's

so stupid.

They just do what they're told. They don't

actually Google stuff and look up wearing

a mask actually helps. Not a bunch of

sheep.

The mask has gaps around the side. If you

suck in air, the air is going to come in

through the gaps.

If you walk into an area where the virus

is floating around, you're going to get

the virus whether you're wearing a mask or

not. It'll cling to your clothing,

get stuck to the mask, and then you'll

bring it home and then spread it all over

inside.

I know everything about the virus. I

watched all the videos on YouTube.

I'm just relaying what I heard. I'm not

making it up. It's not like I researched

it myself.

I think I enjoy talking to men more.

Well, I only enjoy talking to men if

they're good at talking.

And they're good at initiating

conversations. And most

of the women I've met, they're not very

good at that. They're kind of like me,

you know, a bit quiet, a bit reserved.

But I don't want to meet someone who just

non-stop talks about themselves. That'd be

boring as well. They need like a good

balance of being talkative and,

and asking me things so

I can talk as well. If I met

some guy who was also really quiet, it

would be incredibly awkward and I would

hate it just as much.

Oh, I ran out of chocolate. I've got

lollipops. I should have bought more food.

Why didn't I buy more food?

Well, what do you talk about when you run

out of questions?

Oh wow, thank you.

0118999. What happened to the Korean girl?

Well, nothing happened. We just met up,

not even 2 hours passed, and then she said

she had to go and meet her Japanese

And then she walked me to the train

station and said goodbye. We didn't do

anything, we just walked up and down this

shopping center. We walked round and round

in circles about 3 times. I was hoping we

would go outside because we were in the

nice part of Seoul. I thought we'd go

outside and look at the buildings or

something, or maybe there'd be a nice

park.

Now I kind of feel worried about meeting

people. What if it's boring? I can't

imagine what we would do that would be

fun. I don't really want to do anything.

There's nothing I particularly want to do.

I've already been everywhere in Seoul. I

went to the tower and I went to the

mountain, I went to the palace.

There's not really much else to do in

Seoul.

I can't really think of anything

Korean-themed for content.

Why don't you invite your sister to Korea?

I don't think she would want to come.

She's not really interested in Korea or

Japan, China. She's more

interested in America or Malaysia.

Why not go to Europe? Well,

I went there last year. I went to Germany

and it was pretty much the same. I just

sat in a hotel, but at least in Germany I

got cereal and I met a girl.

Although at the time I absolutely hated it

because I was stuck in this hotel for 3

days with this girl that I didn't even

like. Didn't know what to do.

Actually, it was pretty bad. I hated it.

If I could go back in time, I don't think

I'd do it again. Do you know how

unbearable it is being stuck in a small

room like this size with a girl you don't

even feel attracted to and you're not even

interested in? It's the worst

thing ever.

It's actually— I would actually say it's

worse than being alone.

So yeah, maybe being alone isn't so bad.

It's just kind of boring. It was boring

with the Turkish girl, but at least I got

to have sex. Boring and sex or boring and

no sex? Hmm, which one's worse?

Oh, I did find out one good thing about

Korea. Burger King and KFC have

the touchscreen panels. I was so happy

because I'm getting sick of McDonald's.

So now I can order food from, from KFC and

Burger King. So I'm looking forward to

doing some Burger King and KFC Korean food

reviews on my second channel. I might do

Burger King chicken nuggets versus

McDonald's chicken nuggets.

I'm actually getting decent money from the

second channel for doing food reviews.

It's so stupid.

The CPM you get on food videos is crazy.

So even if the video only gets 1,000

views, I still make like $10. Easily pays

for the food itself. So I want to do more

food review videos on my second channel.

I want to try out the Korean specials you

can get at KFC and Burger King.

In Japan, they don't have those, these big

self-service menu touchscreens. And

everyone say— says Japan's so futuristic.

Korea is more futuristic in my opinion.

Korea is pretty good if you're

introverted. You get an Airbnb,

self-check-in, Burger King, KFC,

McDonald's, self-service I don't need to

talk to anyone.

I might actually rename the second channel

since the food video is doing well.

I might get a bucket of chicken from KFC

Usually I can't get KFC on my own because

I don't know how to order it. I don't know

what the menu is. You just go in there and

say, can I have some chicken? At least

with McDonald's, I know what the burgers

are called. You have the Big Mac,

cheeseburger.

And I hate it when you go into KFC and

then you're standing there looking at the

menu and they're all looking at you

waiting for you to order. I feel like it's

pressure. I don't like feeling, feeling

pressured. I want to look at the menu

without being looked at. So it's really

nice that they have the self-service

touchscreen so I can just casually

look through the menu.

I can only order food from McDonald's.

Subway— I've never even had a Subway in my

entire life because it's too complicated.

And then you've got all the toppings you

have to choose. They have that big

selection of toppings and the man behind

the counter has to pick it out for you. I

can't do that.

No way. I've never had a kebab

either because I don't like going into the

kebab store. They look scary.

I'm missing out on so much food because

I'm scared to order it.

I can't get food delivered because all of

the delivery apps here, you need to have a

Korean phone number and some kind of

registration number. So irritating.

Don't even think about doing online

shopping. Number one, there's no Amazon,

and then all the online stores, you need a

stupid Korean phone number.

Don't they know that there's phone numbers

outside of Korea that

actually work? You don't have to have a

Korean phone number to call a number from

Korea. You just put the plus and then

the country code in front of the 0 instead

of the 0. Why do they make life difficult?

How can a country not have Amazon? I don't

It's like they don't want foreigners using

their services, so they make it difficult

if you're a foreigner. Why? You're just

losing out on money. Why do you have to

make it so important to have a Korean

phone number? Don't they know us

foreigners, we don't have a Korean phone

number if we're not here for a long time?

So irritating.

Why would I get a Korean phone number if

I'm only here for a few months?

It doesn't really matter because I like

going outside to have to go and get food.

Getting food is the only reason I have to

go outside now. Otherwise, I'd just be

stuck in here every day if someone

delivered me food. So it's nice

having a reason to go outside.

I don't really have any other reasons to

go outside.

I saw a few cute girls. One of them was

wearing these really short,

short shorts. Her legs were so nice.

Round, glowing, plump.

I wanted to touch them.

I don't know if I like seeing women like

that. It's kind of annoying because it's

like showing a starving man a picture of a

feast.

Oh, her legs are so nice. The light was

shining on them, glistening,

beaming. You know that gap?

What do they call it? You know, the

ultimate zone or something? The thigh.

Slightly above the knee and then slightly

below the waist, and they show off that

part.

I don't know why people are cheering and

screaming outside.

Maybe they're drunk.

I got myself Valentine chocolate,

Valentine lollipop, strawberry dum-dums,

strawberry dum-dums. You know, they always

give you a lollipop at Tobu Toshinchi

after you finish. It's weird. It's like

you go to the dentist, you get a lollipop

after you finished. You go to the doctor,

you get a lollipop as well after

your dick gets serviced.

I think this window is open. There's a

gap. I don't know how to close it.

There's no handle.

You should go outside and show your

subscribers fun things. I already did. I

went out twice, meeting the American

guy and then the French girl. That's all

there is really. There's nothing more to

Korea. There's some towers and palaces.

They didn't even get very good views

anyway. People keep saying, why don't you

go outside and show us Korea? And then I

do, and then it gets shit views. Well,

thank you very much.

I got the same views just for sitting in

my kitchen slicing up beef.

If you want to see Korea so badly, just go

on Google Street View. You'll get a better

Valentine's lollipop.

Bang the French girl.

I offered to buy her AirPods if she

would make a second video with me. Maybe

I'll buy them for her if she offers me

something else,

but I don't really know what to do for a

second video with her.

I guess the first one did get quite a lot

of views, but what else

could we do?

If the video got good views, then I'd

easily make the money back that I would

spend on AirPods,

so it'd be worth the investment.

How much did I pay for this Airbnb? I paid

$250 for a week, so it's quite a lot

cheaper than the other one, and it's,

it's pretty good actually.

The previous Airbnb was about $400 a week,

so it's almost half the price of the

previous Airbnb.

But I think I can find a cheaper one.

I've seen cheaper ones for about 700 or

800 a month, and there's even cheaper ones

for about 600 a month.

Oh, thank you, Ivy V.

I watched WALL-E. I actually cried when I

watched it. It was so sad.

I can't remember why I cried. I forgot

what happens in it.

Does French girl know my channel? Yeah,

she's been watching since last year and

she messaged me on Instagram.

I don't know what to do. My dream is make

a stable income, live comfortably,

eat chicken. Do livestreams,

chat to people, maybe meet girls.

What else is there to life?

Everyone just wants to live comfortably,

don't they?

Without the fear of running out of money.

How did I get tricked? A Japanese girl

deleted her Instagram account again.

But why does she delete it? Why doesn't

she just Ghost me.

That beef from the last livestream was

disgusting. I couldn't even eat it the

next day. It had this smell, it made me

gag. It just smelled

like dead flesh.

It was horrible. I couldn't even force

myself. So I ate the bowl of rice

and cabbage, but it wasn't enough, so I

had to go to McDonald's anyway, and I got

a burger and chicken nuggets. I felt so

I thought it was only 6:20. That clock's

not moving. The annoying place— annoying

thing about this place is when you turn on

the toilet light,

you hear that.

It also turns on the fan,

so it's difficult to make videos in here

because of the stupid fan.

Look, they gave me a teddy bear so I can

cuddle. Maybe I'll F

it up the ass.

I'll sleep with Teddy. I used to have a

teddy bear when I was about 10, and I used

to hump it. I used to put it inside of my

trousers, inside of

my underwear, and then I would hump it

against the mattress. And one day my mum

just threw it out, and I was so sad.

Oh wow, hair straighteners! I can do my

Final Fantasy hairstyle again.

Oh wow, the smell! Reminds me of the call

Why does it remind me of the call girl?

She also had this kind of bitter woody

smell.

Hydrogen peroxide. What's that for?

Maybe it's like perfume smell. I don't

know. Korean girls have

this bitter smell.

Look, there's a door. Where does it go?

Why is there plugs up here?

He left Chihiro for this. Yeah, I don't

know if I made the right decision leaving

her sometimes. What have I gained?

My living expenses have gone up by 5 times

at least. At least with my wife, I was

only spending $400 a month

for rent. Now I have to spend—

I have to spend about $1,000 a month.

When I'm married, when I'm with my wife,

I feel so bored and I keep imagining what

it'd be like to be single. All these girls

would want to meet me and I'd have

freedom. I can talk about anything I want

to on streams. I can make any kind of

video. And then when I actually do it and

I'm by myself, I start thinking to myself

No girls want to meet me.

Saying whatever I want to say doesn't

really do anything.

There's not really videos that I really

wanted to make that I couldn't make.

And now I have to pay for sex if I want to

Go out clubbing and grab someone to the

Airbnb. I wish. That's like my wildest

fantasy, to be able to go clubbing and

then pull a girl, get lucky,

and then bring her back to my place to

smash. If only,

if If I could do that, then I wouldn't

have to rely on my channel or Tinder.

How do you do that? You go to a club and

then what? What do you even say? Hey baby,

I like you. Can I touch your arm?

Then I have to think of stupid cheesy chat

It's so scary. They'll just look at me and

laugh, and then they'll say, what do you

do for a living? And I'll say, oh, I do

I've got 100K subs, but I can't even get

20K views most of the time.

Yeah, they're gonna jump into bed with me,

aren't they?

They'll be gagging for it.

I'll end up spending $50.

How much does it cost to get into a club?

$50. And I'd spend another $50 buying

drinks, and then end of the night I would

have wasted $100, and then I've got

nothing to show for it.

And then even if I did get lucky, I would

have to take her to a hotel because we're

not going to go clubbing right next to my

Airbnb. And then we're not going to get on

the train to come all the way back to the

Airbnb, so we get a hotel, won't we? The

hotel would be like $100, so I've

ended up spending as much money as I would

have spent on the call girl.

It's a lot of work, isn't it?

As if, as if I'm gonna start dancing.

I'll just end up standing at the bar

waiting until someone talks to me.

As if, as if I'd be able to get lucky

every time I went to a nightclub. I'd

probably get lucky even if I got confident

and I started to enjoy it. Maybe I'd get

lucky every 5 times I go to a nightclub.

By then, I might as well just paid for it.

I don't even know what to talk about.

Even when I go on dates with viewers, I

don't know what to talk about.

And that's like easy mode because they

already know me beforehand. But a

complete stranger would be different. At

least on Tinder, you chat to each other a

bit before meeting and you get to know

each other a little bit, so you've got

kind of an understanding of who you're

going to meet up with.

And then at a nightclub or bar, there's

gonna be all these other confident,

good-looking, normal men who have proper

jobs and they have good social skills. As

if I could compete with that. I can't

compete with normal men.

I'm like a, like a 3-wheel cheapskate

car trying to compete with Ferraris and

Formula 1s.

Oh, that call girl's so cute. I love her.

Hmm, okay, so we need a plan,

plan of action.

Okay, I finished my lollipop. Let's get

down to business.

Hmm, so what do I want?

Now let's say I did get a girlfriend.

What would— how would that be better?

Well, I would be getting sex. That would

be good. But content-wise,

I don't really see how that would help me

much. It's not like having a wife helps

you much. Having Having a wife didn't

really help me much making content either.

Started running out of ideas, didn't I?

It would just be going to different places

with my girlfriend.

And the date videos, they're all going to

be the same, which would just be, oh, I

went on a date with a blah blah girl, and

then it would just be us walking around

and then me saying stupid things, and then

we go up a building or we go into a

restaurant. It's just the same, isn't it?

That's why I didn't even film anything

when I met the Korean girl. She actually

asked me, she said, aren't you going to do

any filming? I said, no, can't be bothered

because we were just walking around a

shopping center.

I guess I felt more comfortable with the

French girl. She was more chatty.

I just didn't feel like it.

Maybe I could go to a bar and sit there

looking lonely until someone talks to me.

What was wrong with the French girl?

Nothing, but she's not interested in me,

and she lives really far away anyway. She

lives in the middle of nowhere

countryside. It took her an hour to get to

the place where we met, and it took me an

hour to get there. So we're like two hours

away from each other. She lives in a host

family house with a Korean family. She's

really busy all the time with university

stuff. I feel like she's

too intellectual for me. I need someone

dumber. I need someone more stupid.

What about the Essex girl? Well, she's

barely even responding to me. She never

says anything unless I initiate

conversation, whereas before she would ask

me stuff like, how was your day? How are

you feeling? What have you been doing?

Now it's like she doesn't care.

She says she's busy with stuff, but that's

a lot of rubbish. How busy can you be to

not be able to respond or send a message?

How, how busy must you be to not be able

to respond to a message within 2 days?

You mean you don't even have 2 seconds?

You're not even checking your phone at

all? Oh shit.

Just waste of time, isn't it?

I just feel irritated that she gave me

this hope of meeting

up or going traveling, or there might be

something between us. She wasn't

interested, then she shouldn't have led me

on. How come one minute you're saying,

oh, let's go here, let's go there, the

next minute, oh, all of a sudden you've

lost interest? Don't understand how women

change their mind so easily like that on a

whim. It's like click of the fingers and

then they've completely changed their

mind. How? I don't understand

it. Do they not know what they want in the

Why can't they make up their minds?

I went all the way to Germany to meet that

girl, and then she rejects me in the

hotel. Why come all the way to the hotel

to reject me?

I don't even understand why she came back

to the hotel in the first place. She must

have made up her mind before then if she

liked me or not. Why did it take coming to

the hotel to decide that she didn't like

me? So weird.

Your personality put her off. Well, how

come It didn't put her off until she came

to the hotel. If it put her off, why

didn't she just leave and not come to the

What is my plan of action? What am I gonna

do every day? Don't know what to do.

I'm so bored of just sitting on the bed

playing Mario Kart and watching Star Trek.

It's doing like nothing. I feel like

I'm going crazy.

But then even meeting people isn't that

fun either. Nothing is fun. What am I

supposed to do? Oh,

I feel like that man in American Psycho

where everything just becomes boring. You

end up having to kill people to get

excitement. I watched that movie and I, I

thought to myself, oh shit, am I Patrick

Bateman? No, I will not kill

people, don't worry, not yet.

At least Patrick Bateman was rich and

knew how to get ladies. I can't even do

I probably couldn't even kill anyone.

Probably fail.

Everything I do fails, doesn't it?

I just hate dating so much. It's so

boring. What do you do on a date? You walk

around and then you talk, blah blah blah

blah blah, and then you go to a restaurant

and you eat food. I can eat food by

myself. I can talk to myself.

Oh, thank you, John. You can search for

all the audio logs in Halo.

Really? Did not know that. I like

those videos where a bunch of guys go into

the toilet and then they start singing the

Halo song. It's so funny. It's such a guy

thing to do, isn't it? This is why men are

Women would never go into the toilets and

then start singing Halo, would they?

I just offended all the women.

I don't care. Women don't like me

The Halo theme tune's good, isn't it?

Have I ever thought of making a Twitch

channel? I did. No one came over

to Twitch to watch it. Only about 20

people watched my streams on Twitch.

It's just a waste of time. At least on

YouTube I get ad revenue. On Twitch I

couldn't get any ad revenue because they

wouldn't make me a partner because I

couldn't even get 75 viewers per stream.

100,000 subs, I couldn't even get 75

people to watch a stream on Twitch.

Unbelievable.

There's no reason to stream on Twitch when

your viewers are on YouTube. I mean, why

go to Twitch? I don't get it. YouTube does

everything Twitch does.

Don't know what to do with my life

anymore.

Don't know what to I

don't watch anyone on Twitch anyway. I

don't see the point of Twitch. Just seems

stupid. I don't like the whole

Twitch culture, all the stupid emojis.

They always use the same faces. They've

got this weird meme culture over there,

like the Black guy with the afro and then

total biscuits laughing face. They just

spam these stupid emojis all the time.

Don't like Twitch. Got a bunch

of Twitch idiots on there as well, like

that Tider guy. Why is he so famous?

Soda Poppin. They're not even that

interesting. They've got thousands and

thousands, tens of thousands

of viewers watching every stream.

They just sit there playing games and then

sometimes they scream. It's just stupid.

Or they've got the titty streamers like

Pokimane or whatever. Boring. I hate

Twitch streamers. Stupid, all of them.

They don't even interact with the chat.

They sit there playing the game. Not,

not doing anything else most of the time.

I watch that guy Jake and Bake. He's so

boring as well. He just goes to a

restaurant, sets up the camera on the

table, and then just talks to his friends

and then responds to donations. But why do

people watch that? What's so interesting

about watching some bland-looking American

guy go to sit in a restaurant and talk to

his friends? Why don't you just

do that in real life? Go to a restaurant,

just stare at strangers.

Jake and Bakes, most boring person in the

world. He never says anything interesting.

He's always got that Dull-looking

expression on his face.

He's always got some woman just following

him around, and then the whole chat's just

obsessing over the woman the whole time.

She's so stupid. I hate it. Stupid Twitch.

Twitch can suck my nut.

The only streamer I ever liked watching

was Ice Poseidon, but he fell off,

didn't he? Big time.

I liked Ice Poseidon because he would talk

to strangers and he would say weird stuff

and it was funny. And then random things

would happen,

like shop owners or restaurant owners

would get angry with him and then tell him

to get lost. There would all—

there'd be all these sketchy people,

weird stuff would happen. That's why it

I don't even watch YouTube anymore. I just

watch it for the news. I watch Sky News

when it's livestreaming, see what's

happening in the world.

I watch the news and then Star Trek.

That's it. I watch Star Trek on Netflix.

You know what I could do for a livestream?

I could go to a bar by myself and then the

title would be sitting alone at a bar

until someone talks to me. That's a good

idea, isn't it? I'll just sit there

drinking a beer by myself.

But I need internet. I don't

know if the bar would have free Wi-Fi.

Do you think I'm missing out on a lot of

I feel like I'm missing out. All these

young people going to bars and clubs.

They look like they're having fun.

What if I get old and then I feel like

I've wasted my youth, didn't do any fun

things?

But would it really be fun?

I went to a bar. It wasn't that fun. It

was okay, I guess. I went to a bar with

Sam.

I went to a few clubs as well.

I danced with this half-black Half Hong

Kong girl. She made me dance with her.

She put my hands on her hips and she

grinded into my pelvis.

It was weird. I felt uncomfortable.

Bet you anything this stupid Japanese girl

is gonna message me tomorrow with a new

Instagram account saying, sorry, my

boyfriend found out I was gonna go to

Korea and he wouldn't let me leave,

and then he made me delete my Instagram

account. Yeah, right. Not tricking me

again. For the third time, you're not

tricking me. May as

well just go along with it. And say, oh,

that's okay, you can come next week.

I still believe you.

I still believe you're real.