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Hello, my name is Ted.

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Do you like the camera quality? Well, the chat box is huge. Hold on, make that a bit smaller. Ah, the YouTube stream was so stressful yesterday. I never felt so annoyed before doing a stream. Why all the annoying people on YouTube? I guess it's a good thing they're too lazy to come over here, but it just kind of sucks. So I feel like now I have to hide from the idiots on YouTube on Twitch. Yeah, I only got— I didn't even get that many extra viewers on YouTube, but I did get quite a lot of donations. I got like $130 in donations from one stream, and that's not even including ad revenue yet because it hasn't calculated yet. So the money is definitely way better on YouTube, but the stress is also way much more because all the trolls and the stupid haters— even after 4 years, the haters, they still try and harass me even when I'm trying to do a stream. They can't even let me be. Even though my channel's died, they can't even just let me do a peaceful stream with the people who are left. They still got to come and try and mess things up, don't they? And then I only had like 200 viewers. It's not really that much more than I get on Twitch. No, you can't charge back Donations on YouTube. It's a Super Chat. Once you do a Super Chat, that's it. The, the Super Chat feature, people just— people love doing Super Chats and sending the stickers. Not a single person used the Streamlabs link to do a PayPal donation, but people love doing the Super Chats because it's easy and it's integrated and you don't have to click off to a different website that you don't know about or you might not trust. But yeah, so YouTube streams are stressful, and then you got the bloody comment section afterwards, just stupid people saying stuff like, your skin looks bad, your hair looks bad. Oh well, you want more money, you have to put up with more BS, I guess. What am I going to do in London? Not kill my family. I don't know. I don't really know what I'd do in London. Yeah, the video looks good, doesn't it? It's because I'm using the standard lens and not the wide-angle lens. The standard lens has like a depth of field. I got this new box because the, the beers are not really a surprise anymore. I needed to buy some extra presents for my fake birthday party. Why did I have a bad day today? Just same old things. I can't talk about it either, or else it'll just make it worse. I don't know how long I have to put up with this for.

Fuck off! When will you go away? You should go away where your daddy is! We don't like you on YouTube! Get off of YouTube already, you dot-faced Chinese bitch!

Why does the text-to-speech— it's like she speaks a lot slower on the mobile version. I don't know why my penguin thing— usually it's a penguin. Why is it just like a label? Streamlabs mobile version is a bit weird sometimes. Uh, what am I doing? Oh yeah, I was gonna have a beer. A beer-oo. How's the fungal cream working? Let me check. So I had a bath yesterday, that means I washed it off in the bath. So it might start smelling again. Wow, it still doesn't smell. Amazing. I started chatting to this girl. I don't know if she's a catfish or if she's real. I'm hoping she's, she's not a catfish, and I'm leaning towards believing she's real. But oh my God, she is so hot and she lives in the UK and we kind of jerked off together and it was one of the best jerk-offs I had in ages. It's a catfish? Really? I don't know, seemed pretty real to me. Yeah, maybe I should ask her to send a voice message. She just sent me all these nudes and they were all consistent. I don't know, I don't care. It just— it turned me on so much, I don't really care if it's fake or not. I'd rather not find out if it's fake and just blindly believe that she's real, cuz that was the best session. She's so hot. But there's a few red flags. So first of all, she messaged me on OnlyFans. She signed up to my OnlyFans and she was messaging me on there. And then we saw some messaging on Instagram, but her Instagram has like one, one follower, or zero followers, one following. So it's like a new account. I don't know, but I remember her profile picture from before. Oh, thank you.

Yo man, for how much would you eat your cheese? For you crooked teeth simp, your feet probably smell like rotten pickles. By the way, the reason why you have cheese is because you don't shower, you greasy man. By the way, your mom is thick.

Yeah, whatever. I wanna quickly change something. Oh, not again.

Yo man, for how much would you eat your cheese for—

Yeah, my feet really smell. I don't know why they smell really— I think I need to apply the cream to my feet as well. Just rub it all over my toenails. I haven't had a shower or bath in a few days. How was the market for me? Um, I bought a bit more Bitcoin stocks since they dropped so low. I sold a tiny bit of BNGO. Because it went above $6, I feel like it's gonna drop back down to $5 again. That's what it keeps doing, keeps going up to $6 and back down to $5. Microvision is crazy. Microvision— oh my God, why did I sell Microvision? It drops down to $10 and then in a day it bounces back up to $17. It did like a 40% gain, and it's done that so many times. I keep Thinking, well, it's not going to do that again. I missed it. The Microvision is just nuts. I've seen it go up 50% in a day and then drop back down, and then go up 40% the next week and then drop back down. I'm, I'm feeling like putting in a good chunk next time it drops back down. Have they repaired the shower? No, they said, they said they have nothing to do with the shower. And then my uncle came around and he said it's probably the pump that needs replacing, so we're gonna get a new pump. My uncle's coming around a lot these days because they started building like a house in the garden, a little cabin, a little summer house. And today they were like digging up the ground to Connect the water pipes and stuff. It's gonna be like a proper house, not just a shed. It's gonna have water, electricity. So it's like a full-on project, but seems pretty expensive. I don't really know why my mum wants to do it. It'd be nice if I could live there, but I don't think she's spending all this money just to build me a house. I don't know what she wants to do with it. Maybe have guests over there. She'll rent it out. I don't think that's a good idea. What if the stupid haters find out and then some weirdo books it and then stays, and then they're like, look, I'm staying at Daniel's garden.

Hmm.

I just— I don't— I don't feel like it's a great idea because people know where we live. And some crazy people watch me, and then you're basically just giving them an invitation to come and stay. It's just weird. I ordered a green screen, but then I cancelled it because I felt really unhappy, and then I don't want to buy big stuff. That I would end up just leaving here in case I ran away. So I don't want to waste money buying big stuff that I can't take with me. And the green screen, I'm not going to take that around with me. It just seemed like a waste of money. It's why I'm not buying anything big, because I just don't feel confident that I can live here happily. It's just way too unstable. Just all these external factors keep making me upset, things I can't control, and the only solution would be I just have to leave. So It's on my mind every day. I'm just thinking, when, when is the pressure going to be so immense that finally I snap and I just, I want to leave and I can't stay here anymore? I feel like it's going to happen soon. So I'm trying to think like, where am I going to stay? What am I going to bring with me? I brought my football in. Just in case someone kicks it into the pond or something. My whole life, just, I felt unstable. It's like there's no stability ever, just running from one thing To another. I found some. I don't know. There's there's like renting apartments, renting apartment apps where you have a contract and they're quite affordable. You know, you can get a decent. size place for only about £800 or £900 a month. But you know, you've got to call up the agency and then sort out a contract and set up a direct debit plan. And then if you don't clean the place when you leave, you might get scammed out of the deposit like I did last time. There just seems to be a lot of risk. renting a place, you know, you can't just trash the place and leave. If I go to a hotel, it'd be a lot easier, but they're so much more expensive. You forgot to post your live in Discord. I did post it. I did an @everyone. I do clean the place, but I don't clean it top to bottom. I didn't have time to clean it last time because I just wanted to get out of there. So either I take a risk and I rent an apartment and I risk losing deposit again, but then I get a much cheaper place. You know, it's not going to be like $2,000 a month. But then I'm kind of stuck with the place, aren't I? What if I get like a 6-month contract and that means I've got to stay there for 6 months and I might not like it? I can't test out the place. What if— what if I go there to see it and it's fine and then the next day all the noisy neighbors come back and it's not peaceful? And then I'm stuck there. And so I found apartment hotels and some are around £1,800, which is like $2,200. It's quite a lot for a month. Is it too difficult to clean the place before you leave? Depends, really. If I'm all emotional and I'm scared and I just want to leave, then no, I'm not going to spend all day cleaning it. I'm just going to leave. I'm not going to— I wasn't going to spend all day cleaning the bloody oven after Mita just dumped me and the police just raided the neighbors upstairs. I didn't want to stay there for another single minute. Let alone squatting there for hours cleaning the bloody oven. I didn't think they would scam me out of 3 months of rent just because the oven's a bit dirty. I thought they'd be decent people, but I guess not.

Don't ever come back to your daddy's house and YouTube and Twitch ever again. Just disappear. You're a disgusting biatch.

If it was different circumstances and I planned to move out, then yeah, I would have sorted the place out. I would have cleaned it properly. But it was like a spur-of-the-moment thing where I just wanted to leave. Basically, I just need somewhere to live until Japan reopens, and Japan might not reopen until next year, so maybe just getting a 6-month place won't be so bad. I can't afford to live in a hotel that's £1,800 a month. I'd be eating into my savings to do that. I only make like— I don't even make $2,000 a month. So how am I going to afford a hotel apartment that's like $2,200, $2,400 a month? I would just start eating into my savings, which is not what I want to do. And then there's so many other things I have to worry about, like, is the area safe? Are the neighbors noisy? Maybe they've got pets, maybe they like listening to music at 2 AM, maybe it smells. Ah, so stressful. I don't like noise. I like peace and quiet. I don't like being made aware of the presence of other people around, so I don't like footsteps and doors banging open and shut. I like, I like to just zone out and be inside of my head. And when there's footsteps and external noise from people, it's just difficult to do that. I just like peace and quiet. Some people love noise, you know, they've always got to have the TV on, they've always got to have music on, they've always got to have people around. That's not me. Buy noise-canceling headphones. Yeah, but then I've got to walk around wearing headphones all day long. The area doesn't have to be nice. It does, because I have to go outside to go shopping. I don't want to stay indoors all day long. I want to get some fresh air. And if I don't feel safe going outside, I'll just be miserable. So maybe I could spend a bit more on a decent apartment instead of spending it on a hotel place, but then I have to sort stuff out. I've never done it before. I've never gotten myself an apartment in England before. I don't know why I'm so scared of it. It just seems like an adult thing to do. I've never had to do it before. I could go to where this girl lives. She lives in a different part of England, but that place is pretty far. It's like the other corner of England. I don't even know if she's real or not. I mean, if she was real, and then I would go tomorrow. I mean, she's really hot. The worst thing is you live in a poor area and it's just like full of loud, annoying people. Because most poor people are like that, you know? They sit outside on the street drinking and socializing, and they've got friends over all the time. That's what poor people are like, aren't they? Poor people are poor because they just waste all their time standing around on the street smoking and drinking with their mates instead of sitting inside in the peace and quiet and reading a book and studying or something. That's why they're poor. Because they're fucking idiots. All those idiots living upstairs in my not Rotterdam apartment. All day, I mean every day, almost all day, they would just be standing outside by the door chatting and drinking and spitting. Bunch of idiots. I don't know if this girl's real. She's definitely not real. Yeah, well, sometimes you just feel so horny. You just trick yourself into believing that they're real because the idea of her being real is so hot. Am I still paying $300 rent to my mom? Don't really want to. I need the money. If I don't feel comfortable staying here, then why should I have to pay? Why should I have to pay when I don't have any control or input in what goes on? And it's just like, Daniel, it's my house, you shut up. What was I gonna get? I was gonna get something. Oh, I forgot what I was gonna get. Drinking all my birthday beer and I didn't even do the birthday stream yet. I feel like not bothering with it now because I feel like people don't care. Just be the same as yesterday, won't it? I'm thinking of just clickbaiting all the stream titles. Like, I could do I'm gay for the stream title just to get people to click it, see if they stay. This beer is weird. It's like, it's like Fanta juice, but it's also mixed with beer. What's the plan for the next few months? I don't know. Thinking about somewhere to move? Trying not to go crazy. I guess on the plus side, it would be. A little bit interesting, like an adventure. If I moved out, I could do some— I could have some video ideas like living in poverty day 1, poverty meal number 1, baked beans and chips, moving into my new apartment, and then it's just like an empty room with a mattress on the floor. It would be quite funny, actually. Just getting my own place and it's like an empty room and there's nothing, and then we have to go and get stuff to make it into a home. What if I end up really liking it? I really like having my own place and I just stay there and I just live there instead of going traveling. And then I meet a nice English girl and then I settle down in England and then everyone lives happily ever after. And then I could get a pet. I could get a dog. A Doberman Pinscher. But then I won't be able to do my favorite new hobby. I really love playing football now. I'm getting really good. I can do these amazing kung fu kicks and keep the ball up in the air. I'm kind of like mixing taekwondo with football. I can kick really well. You think the ball's flying away from you and my legs just somehow magically Are able to reach out and bring the ball back in. Look, I kicked my football so much, all of the paint, the skin has peeled off because I kicked it. It used to be orange. It used to be an orange football. I kicked the living crap out of it every day. Do I play football with my sister? No, I don't like playing football with people. I I don't want to kick the ball backwards and forwards. That's boring. I want to see how many times I can keep it in the air and see how flexible and how high I can kick to keep the ball in control and see how good my balance is. It's all about balance, speed, flexibility, accuracy to keep the ball up. I don't care about kicking it backwards or forwards to someone.

That's lame.

It's a challenge. There's barely any challenge kicking a ball backwards and forwards to another person. The challenge is how many times can you keep the ball up and how good are you at controlling it and how well-balanced are you. That's why it's fun.

A couple of people were talking junk about NVC on Discord. They were making fun of you. You?

Where's my beef jerky?

Darzu was one of them.

Oh, it's under the box. Damn it.

He said you should shut up and that you lied about your regrets with your divorce.

You shut up.

Don't trust the users on your Discord like Dazu.

I don't trust anyone on Discord. Why do people assume that I trust them? Like, I trust anyone on Discord? They keep— people keep saying Daniel's so stupid he trusts the people on Discord, or he listens to the people on Discord. I don't listen to anyone. I couldn't give a shit what they say on Discord. It's just for me to like vent out what I want to type. Imagine thinking I care about what people on Discord say. Unless they're just being annoying, then I'll just ban them. They keep making these stupid copycat servers and linking it. It's really annoying. I don't want all these hiding in my room servers floating about. They keep linking it because they're scared I'm gonna delete it again, I guess. Maybe if they didn't annoy me, then I wouldn't delete it in the first place. I think there's maybe between 5 or 10 of these splinter HRMR servers. Am I tired of Discord already? No, it's okay. I think it's better than last time. But I wish they would stop trying to link their own servers. It's just annoying. What's the point joining the server that I'm not on? The whole point of joining my server is because I'm on it. If you want to be in a server that I'm not on, then don't call it the Hiding in My Room server. Just call it your own server. It's just insulting. It's like they're starting their own party and then I'm not there, trying to get people to leave my party. You joined my Discord because it's my party and I'm there. If I'm not there, then what's the point? Don't call it hiding in my room. It's like that episode in Friends when they have parties and then Joey and Chandler try pinching the party members from Monica's party over to their party. I tried making the Abba and Preach video, but it sounds so— I sound so angry and stupid, so I changed my mind. No one's going to agree with anything I say. They're just going to say, oh, this guy sounds so bitter and dumb and jealous.

John Hasimole and Dazu also said you were shameless and created a new server. She has been DMing people on your server the link and also VCing people to join.

Well, I don't know if I can believe that, because last time people were making up rubbish about other members trying to get me to kick them, so I need actual proof. If Chihiro made an OnlyFans, would you join? No, because I got my own collection. Just kidding, just kidding. I didn't do nothing. Yeah, my Abba and Preach video, I sound so salty. I'm like, I don't want to be judged by someone like Abba and Preach when they also do the same thing. They also ridicule and mock people just for views. But it's true, isn't it? Everyone's like, Daniel's so bad because he mocks his girlfriends for views. And then all these reaction channels are literally mocking me for views. Elvis Alien, Papa and Preach, whatever their name is. Papa and Preach's whole channel is about mocking other people for views, and then they just— everyone thinks I'm the bad one. I'm just playing the game. I'm playing the YouTube game, just like everyone else.

Mm-hmm.

You had the choice when you made it. They are just reacting. So they didn't have a choice to make it. They were forced to make a reaction video. Do you want me to ban you? Because you're starting to piss me off, Carrot. Oh, I'm just gonna ban you. I remember who you are now. You're that fucking idiot who triggered me before boasting about your kids or whatever. Carrot Magic. Yeah, you can fuck off. I think I forgot who you are. Ban. Carrot Magic is that stupid twat who was like boasting about how his life is so successful because he's had kids and whatever. And then I got really annoyed and I was tearing up a box on my bed in Japan. See how sad these people are? They have to come all the way to my Twitch just to feel better about themselves. 2 years later, he's still harassing me. Sad people. These people, they just— for some reason, they love insulting me to make themselves feel better. If their lives are so great and fantastic, then why do they feel the need to shit on me, someone who according to them has a terrible life. They probably think their lives are so much better than mine. So why are you just pissing on someone who you think has a worse life than you? That's just such a dick move. If your life is so great and fantastic, then great, good for you, just live it. Why are you pissing on people who you think are Why aren't you streaming on YouTube? I explained it before. I said I'm just going to do one or two streams on YouTube if I have an idea, and then, you know, just like casual chatting I'll just do on Twitch. I wonder how much ad revenue I'll get from the YouTube stream. It got, it got 6,000 views. It's okay. Well, it's not great, to be honest. And it got— it only got a rubbish CPM of $3, so it's probably gonna make like $10. Yeah, I reckon it will make about $10 ad revenue, maybe $15. Oh wait, it's just loaded. Yes, it's $92.78 total. $65 Super Chat, $16 Super Stickers. So $65— so what you do is you do $92.78 minus $65 minus $16. Minus the 60 cents for the membership. Oh shit, I messed it up. Start again. $92.78 minus $16 minus $65. So the stream made about $11. Yeah, just like I predicted, it made $11 from the ad revenue. Isn't that good? $11 just for the stream rev, ad rev. I think that's okay. I could buy myself poverty meal, chips and beans. Yeah, it hasn't even been a day, so that was just— it wasn't The whole day calculated. It was just like before, before midnight calculated. Yeah, I'm quite happy with that actually. Not bad. Do you know how many views it would take to make $100? I would have to get 25,000 views. And that livestream just got 6,000 views, thanks to the donations obviously. But it seems like— Oh, excuse me. It seems like it's easier to get the Super Chats and get 25k views. How am I going to get 25k views? It would have to be a topic about my marriage or a new girlfriend or something about Chihiro. That's the only way to get 25K views. Or maybe I could retell the Tomoko story again. How I got catfished in Japan. Wow, this kind of makes my back hurt sitting like this. You should collab with Venus. I would if I could get there. She said twice she would like to collab. I don't know if she still would, 'cause I'm kind of irrelevant now, aren't I? No one cares. I ran out of stories. The storyteller ran out of stories. You know what some people are doing? They're doing these Japanese crime story videos like Akidearest. The otaku killer of Shibuya. I could just make up a fake crime story that's based off of my sick fantasies, but not tell people that this is actually my sick fantasy and pretend it's like some weird crime story. But then I feel like it would get demonetized because of all of the dark words like murder, killing. Do you like this camera angle? Just read an article. Isn't it copyright if I just read an article word for word? Could I get in trouble? I feel like you could. For example, if you just read out Harry Potter word for word, I feel like you'd get in trouble because you are profiting off of someone's work. What if you just changed, changed the names? Like you said, Henry Potter went to Hogwarts and he became a magical sage. Oh, I'm really uncomfortable. I need to get back on my chair. Wait, let me switch to wide angle. How do I flip the camera? There you go. Wide angle looks worse. Maybe I'll just copy Akidearest. Oh, but I want to do stuff I want to do. I don't want to do stuff like that. I want to go travel, meet a girl, and then fuck, and then stream about how great it was or how bad it was. That's what the content I want to do. Like Turkish girl, that was my best content. I had sex, went traveling, had a good rant. That was great. Really great that I got Streamlabs working again, which means I don't really need a computer now, do I? Don't need to buy a laptop to stream, just do it like this.

Cheers.

Messy room? It's not that messy, is it? Just a few items. Do some football. Oh, it's weird without shoes. That's my dinner. I had chicken nuggets and chips and baked beans. Pretty nice. Looks depressing. What do you mean? What's depressing about my room? Because it's white. I like having a plain wall, and then you've just got some colors on the furniture. Nothing wrong with it. Hmm, I don't know. I could not buy a laptop and then use the extra money to live in a better place, like a hotel in Kensington Palace. Or I could get the laptop and live in a crapper place— crappy place. Which one's more important if you had to choose one? I don't know how much I really need Rainbow Six. I can just play my iPad games like Darkest Dungeon. Rainbow Six is not that important. Go to Korea. Yeah, but the problem is it's still illegal to leave England. Where's Andy? Why isn't he streaming? I'm waiting for Andy to get back into New York. Ah, so much better with this tripod. If Andy goes to Korea, then I would be like So if Andy can get in, that means I could definitely get in. But Andy's had the vaccination. I haven't had it because I'm, I'm not old enough to be able to get it yet. Your room is internet famous. Really? My dad would have hated it. My dad was a very private person and he would hate To know that hundreds of thousands of people have seen the inside of his house. Luckily for my dad, my channel didn't really blow up until I went to Japan. My dad would be so angry. I think my dad would be really angry if I did OnlyFans. I don't think I'd have the guts to do OnlyFans if my dad was still alive. I'd be too worried. I don't know, depends. If I was living in Japan, I'd probably feel like he's not really in my life anymore, so I'd just do it. I feel like it was pretty gutsy of me to do OnlyFans whilst living with my mum. She was not happy with it. She used to take the pictures and then show them to me on her phone. She'd be like, what the fuck? What's this, Daniel? So shameful. It's so embarrassing, your own mum showing you pics of your anus. As if I've never seen it before. Obviously I know what it looks like, I took it. Why did she need to show it to me? Don't I care your mum saw your nudes? Not really. You'd think I would, but I don't really care that she's seen my dick and she's probably seen me having sex. But she already saw it because Chihiro sent— remember when I went to meet Sam and then Chihiro unlocked my iPad and she found all my sex tapes? She was sending them to my mum saying, look what Daniel did. So she's already seen it before I did OnlyFans. This is a fruity, tangy beer. Tastes a bit weird. It's like someone put washing detergent into your beer and it's all citrusy. I don't like it. Yeah, Chihiro can be a bit ruthless. She's an eye for an eye kind of person. She even messaged Nobita trying to find out how she could give me a strike. Imagine that. Imagine if I got banned because of her. Really gotta be careful with the strikes. I feel so stupid. I was stealing people's footage and I felt like it was safe because I thought if I flipped the image and I cropped it in a bit and I changed the colors, then it wouldn't be his copyright anymore. I thought it'd be transformative, but it's not. Because other people used to do that. Remember when all that Jeffree Star, Tati, Brooks Westbrook were doing all that drama? Commentary channels were scared that they would get a copyright strike from Jeffree or Tati, so they were doing stuff like, like, um, stretching the video or flipping it or changing the pitch of the voices so they could avoid strikes. So I thought it would work. But it didn't. Well, I learned my lesson. It works if you don't have so many haters. Yeah, but people like Havoc were making commentary videos bashing Jeffree Star. Jeffree Star's got millions of fans that would have come over and reported it. I'm pretty sure Jeffree Star has more fans than I have haters. Pretty gutsy of people like Kavos to just use their footage when they're bashing them as well. I wouldn't dare. So yeah, I learned my lesson not to steal people's footage. It's too risky, it's not worth it. Oh, it sucks. It means I have to actually pay for the game, but then I won't make any money, or I have to get a free demo. How can I get gameplay footage without paying for the game? I don't want to actually pay for the game. So I need games that have a free demo or they're on like 90% sale. Apex Legends was good, free game. I got 7K views. It's always nice to make money by not spending money. When you've got a free game and you just bash the game, you make like $20, it feels great. But if you had to spend $50 to make $20, it feels Torrent the game. I never learned how to do that. I think I did it a few times when I was a teenager, but then I forgot. You had to download some special program and then rip the files, something like that.

I don't know.

I think all games should have a free demo by default. Why would you— why would you have to pay like £60 for a game you don't even know if you're gonna like? And then they don't even give you a refund. I guess you could do a Steam refund, but you have 2 hours to refund it, and then usually you need a reason. And if you keep doing it, I think they don't like it. Maybe I can just get a screenshot of the gameplay. I don't actually need the actual gameplay, just get a screenshot of the game gameplay. Get a couple, but then is this is a screenshot copyright content? Ah, hate copyright. Borrow a viewer's account. I don't trust them. They might be pretending to be helpful, and then they give me a copyright strike. Oh, I wish I kept in contact with that Spanish girl who did OnlyFans. She was pretty hot. I forgot her name and I can't find her on Instagram now. Hot Spanish girl, where are you? She gave me a free sub to her OnlyFans. It was quite hot. She said if I come to Spain, we could do OnlyFans. That was back in Oh, it was 2020 after Mida. I was chatting to a bunch of girls. I wonder if she's still up for it. Maybe she's on my followers list. Didn't you get a strike for someone's name in the chat? No, I got a privacy complaint because someone put Kanaito's name in the chat. I just had to blur it out and it was fine. Did I like your favorite post? Yeah, maybe I can find her OnlyFans. Maybe it's on my history. But she was effing like a bunch of different guys. I don't know if I wanna be one of her guys. I, I don't mind, maybe, but I'm just a bit worried about STDs for girls effing like 5 different guys. And then those 5 different guys also fucking 2 different girls. The risk of getting an STD starts to get a bit scary. I always felt confident not using protection because I felt confident that the girl wasn't sleeping around. Like, Mila said her last guy was like a year ago. I guess Chihiro was risky. Chihiro slept with the Australian guy literally 2 days before I met her. That's weird. Probably still had his juice in her when I met her. Weird, but also strangely arousing. Girls should be worried about STDs from you. Why me? I don't have that much sex. I only had sex with Mila and that German girl last year. I don't really know much about the German girl. She could have been a risk. Look, I had to put that pillow behind my bed because when I put the VR headset on And I'm watching my favorite adult movies. The metal thing keeps banging against the radiator, so I had to put a pillow there to stop it. Why not stream games? I don't know, I just feel like I can't concentrate on talking if I'm playing a game. I would be playing and then I would just be silent because I'm trying to play the game, and I don't think any of you guys care about Rainbow Six. Trying to have a break from it. I played it all day. Yeah, Minecraft was easier because it was just like a mindless repetitive game. You don't really need to concentrate. Stream Sims 4 again. Did I make Victoria last time I streamed it? I did try streaming it in 2018, but I got bored. Or did I play it with Chihiro and then she was not interested in it at all? Kind of funny I even bothered. You can't say I didn't try lots of different things. I feel like I did try. Wow, my stomach's so full. I watched that Sea Dog Guy. Does anyone else watch him? He does a lot of videos with Chris now. They went to some Welsh-British town in Kyoto. It wasn't that interesting. You mainly watch it because you want to see what Chris and that guy says. Connor, I think his name is. His voice is pretty cool, I guess. They're quite interesting together, quite funny. I guess the chemistry is good. Damn, that Anime Man, Sea Dog, Jikook, that whole group really did well, didn't they? The Trash Taste podcast doing really well, millions of views every upload, and they're like hours long. And they've got all these highlight channels that also do really well. They've all got like 2 million plus subs. They really killed it when it comes to Japan comp. They are pretty much the top of the game when it comes to Japan and anime content. I never really watched that Jikook guy. He doesn't really interest me. I watched a few of CDawg. Yeah, I guess they're all likable and charismatic, aren't they? Not whiny like me. Oh well. Seems you had your chance of getting big, but you blew it. I don't know, I wish I could go back in time and try a different tactic. Why, why did I fail? Was it because I never improved? I didn't improve my video quality or my production quality, or I didn't try hard enough to be likable? It's just so stressful trying to be likable and trying really hard not to say anything That upsets anyone without being boring. If you don't say anything outlandish, then you just— you're boring. But then if you say anything kind of edgy, people start calling you names. I feel like there was a point when people really, really liked me and they thought I was funny and quirky and interesting. I don't know where that went. I feel like if I tried to, to go back to that, people still wouldn't really care. I feel like it's too late. It's like Ice Poseidon. Once you've shown your bad side, then that sticks with people, and you can't really go back to how it was before. It's too late now. Ice, Ice got hated on for quite a lot of things I wasn't aware of. I've been watching some videos about him. Like, there was this incident where he was secretly dating a viewer, and then his community really hated it. They hated that he lied to them, and then the way he handled the situation was really dickish. It made him seem arrogant or something. There are a lot of scandals that just kind of ruin your reputation, your image. It's quite amazing people like Chris managed to maintain their squeaky clean image for years and years consistently. I guess just because he's a good person. If you're a bad person, Maybe in the first few years you can create this image that you're this great guy, but eventually something— you slip up, and eventually something crops up that exposes your true colors, and then people see that, and then it's game over. I just can't believe there's nothing shady Chris has ever done. Is he really that perfect? He just doesn't talk about it. Ice had the same problem I have. He had to tell his audience about everything, and if he tried to keep things private and the audience found out, they would just— they would roast him. And complain saying he lied and he wasn't honest to his audience. That's the problem when you start— it's the problem when you create a channel based off of your own personal life. Chris's content's always been about Japan. He barely shares anything about his personal life. It's just different audiences, isn't it? Some audiences are really needy. They demand to know everything that's going on or else they feel betrayed. And then some audiences are really respectful and they're just like, we respect your privacy, Chris. You don't have to tell us. Yeah, I saw Chris's dad on Robot Wars. Do you know how I found out? I didn't even know, but I started chatting to another person I went to school with called Max, and I just randomly asked him about Chris because I was curious how many of my friends from school knew Chris. When we were kids. And yeah, Max also knew Chris. Apparently they were neighbors, and he said he went over to Chris's house all the time and he saw his dad's robot. And I said, what, his dad was on Robot Wars? And then I Googled it and it was on YouTube, and Chris was in the comments section saying that that's his dad. That's pretty cool, isn't it? I used to watch Robot Wars all the time when I was a kid. It's one of my favorite shows. I like the robot with the spinning disc, and it just shredded the other robots. The other robots didn't stand a chance. The little thin metal armor plating just got shredded to bits. Some robots had like a flipper that flips them upside down. One had a pickaxe that would come down. That was rubbish. I'm not sure which robot Chris's dad had. I can't make content like Chris because I just don't care about Japan. I honestly don't give a crap about Japan. Like the history or weird things about Japan. The only thing that interests me about Japan starts with a P and ends with a Y. And cheap rents and the safety, I guess. I really couldn't care less about the culture or the food. I hate the food. I only like yakiniku, which is more Korean. It's more like Korean food, really. I like sushi, but I don't like Japanese sushi. I like California rolls with avocado. I like sushi that's made in England with all the stuff in it. Japanese sushi is so boring, and they always have weird fish on it. Weird fish I've never heard of, and it tastes like rubber. And I'm not really a big fan of the other stuff like ramen, okonomiyaki. Takoyaki, it's just— it's okay, it's not amazing. I'd rather have a Rustler's microwave burger. It's not like I'm dying to have the food when I go to Japan. When I go to Japan, I always end up missing Western food, actually. Some ramen's okay, but I'm not gonna make a video about the best ramen in Kyoto. I couldn't care less. I don't know how Chris does it. Does he really care that much, or is he just really driven? To make content. I would feel so bored making that content. I'd be like, hey guys, this is best ramen Kyoto, costs ¥500, it's got bean sprouts and it's got pork, tastes like ramen, whatever. Fuck it. Do I eat ass? Yeah, I do like ass, but most girls don't let me do it. They keep— I hate it when you try and eat a girl's ass and then she keeps Saying it's embarrassing, or she does— she acts all shy about it. I like the hole. I like licking the hole. It just feels weird. It doesn't really feel like anything because you're just licking a hole, but the act of it just— it, it's arousing, I think. It doesn't really taste of anything. It just tastes like skin. What if it's not clean? Well, most girls clean themselves from my experience. Maybe I should just move out, give myself like a challenge. It would be more interesting as content, wouldn't it, than me just being in my bedroom. It just takes a lot of energy and mental energy to move out of your comfort zone and go somewhere that could be unsafe and uncomfortable. Takes a lot of willpower. I would have to feel really stressed out here and unhappy here and motivated by a girl to pull the trigger and just go. Very difficult because right now Even though I'm desperate for content, I'm also really comfortable most of the time just being at home, and I'm not spending money, so I'm finding it very difficult to get motivated to do anything. It's like I don't have to do anything really. I can just sit here playing Rainbow Six all day and nothing is gonna happen. In Japan it was different because I had to get a hotel and stuff like that. Didn't have a home to stay at. Did I play football today?

Yes.

I did— I had a bit of an inspection of the new building site. It's quite interesting.

Who's that?

They had all this piping. They dug a trench for the piping. Is it Pia? She's coming back. It's not like a big building, it's like a cabin, summer cabin, but it's proper, proper construction. It's not like a wooden shed, it's got bricks and concrete, proper roof. It's going to have insulation. Insulation, doors, windows. I don't know what my mum's gonna do with it. Who's she planning on moving there? Is she really gonna do like an Airbnb thing? That's a lot of money. Did I ask her? No. Well, I know she said she wants to do like a B&B thing. Is it really $10K to stay in Japan for 3 months? No, it's way less. I'd say maybe $4K or $5K for 3 months in Japan. You could get a place, maybe £800 a month, £700 plane ticket, £300 a month for food. I think I could eat pretty cheaply. Get baked beans, chips, frozen peas. You could get the discount, um, discount food. Get some celery, cucumber, cheap stuff. The problem is when you start— stuff like pasta sauce is quite expensive. Oh my God, I forgot I took loads of dick pics. Wow, if I showed you my screen right now, I'd get banned on Twitch straight away. Look, this is my dinner. Chicken nuggets, chips, baked beans. Some cucumbers. Streaming on my Samsung, back to the old Android. Wow, some of these dick pics are pretty hot. Might put it on my OnlyFans. Ah, so boring. I can't show you any girls on Twitch. I would love it if I could just Look, look at this naked girl, she's hot. Can't show anything, fun. Samsung S10, really good quality, sound quality is excellent. Yeah, I'm really happy with the Samsung S10, it works well. Works really good for streaming, no problems. I've had it since 2019, don't see any reason to upgrade. Yeah, you got all the Streamlabs stuff too. Don't really need a computer. Andy has S21 Ultra, but Andy doesn't use his phone to stream. He uses that Sony camera Bold and Bankrupt uses, which looks pretty good. When's Andy streaming? I'm bored. What's your favorite accent for a woman? I quite like French accent. I hate the Japanese accent, it sounds so dumb. It's like, where are you from? So stupid sounding. Like Tomoko. When have you ever heard a Japanese girl speak English and it didn't sound cringe? I am a Japanese. It just sounds dumb. French sounds sexy. German also sounds— I don't know, German can sound a bit too masculine if it doesn't sound good. If there's like a slight German accent, it can be a bit hot. I hate Korean English. Koreans try so hard to sound American. It's so cringe. They're like, hello, I, I am Korean. It's like they're trying so hard to sound American. They have more American accent, American sounding accent than actual Americans have. All Asian accents just sound terrible, really, when they try and speak English. Name one Japanese YouTuber who doesn't sound like a twat when he speaks English. Sora sounds okay. Sora the Troll. The rest of them just sound weird. Remember Nobita? Many Japanese people It's just like metal grinding on the chalkboard. Sora's English is pretty good. It's not too Americanized. When it's ultra Americanized like Jinny Ty, it's just annoying. Like, they're showing off how they lived in Amer— I lived in America for 7 years. I'm so great.

Fuck you.

I lived in California. You sound like a spoiled rich bitch. My dad used to live in California for 7 years. Eat my shit. I hate it when people Seemed like they're humble bragging about how they did many years of overseas studies in America. Who cares? Show-offs. I can't stand those people who like humble brag about living abroad and they, they think they're so cultured. Oh, I love the wine when I was living in Paris for 2 years. It's just cringe. Don't try and copy other people's cultures and mannerisms, just stick to your own. Like those Western weirdos go to Japan and then they do all the head nodding stuff and they're like, eh, eh, eh, I know, it's just lame. Rion Ishida. Yeah, he's so cringe. He's like, I'm Rion Ishida, rawr! There's a stupid roaring sound at the beginning. Oh, I hate how these cringe lame people just— they get more views than I do now. There was this other white guy from South Africa who lives in Japan, and he'd had the stupidest intro, like, watashi wa lighto to mo shimasu, and there's like a stupid peace sign, whoosh whoosh, whoosh, whoosh, and makes dumb noises. He's got these gay rings on his fingers as well. Ah, he's so cringe as well, trying to do like an anime voice. The fuck is that? Yeah, I was doing the nodding thing a lot as well after the first time I went to Japan, and I felt proud of it. I felt— I thought I was cool because I was like, look at me, I was in Japan, look how Japanese I am now, I do the head nod. And then I used to feel complimented when people said stuff like, oh, you're like a Japanese person, Daniel. I remember one Christmas Before going to Japan, we went to my uncle's house and we were sitting around and I was just ignoring everyone, staring at the fire. And my— I think my sister said something like, Daniel, you sound like a Japanese person now when you speak. And I thought it was because I've been speaking to Sayaka nonstop for nearly 2 years. And I felt proud that she thought I sounded Japanese. Oh, fuck's sake, stupid spamming person. Better start modding. How's Sayaka doing? I don't know, she blocked me. She blocked me in 2017, I think, probably when I was making videos about her and using her picture. But she also deleted her Instagram, and it seems like she deleted I think I found her LinkedIn. It's quite easy to find because she's got like a weird Czech Republic name now. Her son must be quite old now. When did she have kids? I think she had kids 2015 or '14. Kid must be like 6. I was so heartbroken. I thought she was in love with me, and then all of a sudden she said, I don't like you anymore, Daniel. And then I actually messaged the guy. I wrote this big long soppy letter saying, please look after Sayaka. You may have thought we're only pen pals, but I had real feelings for her and I was looking forward to seeing her, but it seems like she likes you more now, so good luck. That was so nice. If that would happen now, I'd be like, fuck you, you cunt, put your face all over YouTube. Be fun if I could find that message. That guy must be nearly 40 now. He was 31 back then. That was 2009. Oh, women, just waste of time. You put so much effort into pleasing the girl and then she finds another man anyway. Jinny Ty is hot. Yeah, I think she's quite pretty, but I don't like her voice. She's also a bit boring, to be honest. I like Iamcho. Remember her? She was funny. He probably laughed his ass off. Yeah, probably. I must have seemed like a massive weirdo. I was hoping he would break her heart and then she would come back to me or something. Didn't think they would end up getting married and having kids. They must really like each other. I had all these dreams, um, like fantasies of moving in with Sayaka, and we get matching slippers and matching pajamas. I had all these romantic, cute plans for her. Apparently IamChou had like this stalker who would stream snipe her all the time, and then she got angry and hit him, and then he went to the police and it was like a big drama. And then she deleted all her streams and videos and social media, and people think she's doing this ASMR channel now called ASMR Choua. Oh my God, this fucking spammer. Uh, how do I stop people spamming? So on YouTube there's slow mode. What does Twitch have? I'm going to go into the settings now. Where is it? I'm not really too familiar with the Twitch settings. Settings, moderation, non-mod chat delay adds short delay before non-mods see messages. No, follower only mode. Yeah, that's a good idea. 1 day. So you have to be a follower for 1 day. Okay, see if that helps. So hopefully everyone here watching is a follower, otherwise you won't be able to chat now until tomorrow. Well, it should have followed. Let's see if that stops the spam. It should be— it should do. Get fucked, spammers. Who clipped this?

Did you win it?

No, because I got my own collection. Oh, don't clip that. No, I don't have any mods on Twitch because I don't recognize any of you. You have different usernames that you had on YouTube. I remember people on YouTube. Ah, I really need to get my YouTube AdRev back up. I need to start spamming out some streams. What should I do for my next stream? I think I'll do the birthday stream and just unbox that stuff over there. Pushes away new viewers. I really don't think I have new viewers. I really don't think people on Twitch are finding my channel and going Oh wow, this guy seems so interesting. He's spinning around on his chair whining nonstop. Isn't there any other anti-spam settings? Let me see. What is non-mod chat delay? That's a short delay before non-mods see messages. I don't think that would help. There's slow mode on Twitch. Where is it? Followers-only mode, subscriber-only chat. Channel?

No.

Stream? Enable clips? Followers only? Latency mode? It's the slow command. Okay, let me try. If Chihiro made an OnlyFans, would you— Okay, let me try. Slow. Daniel enabled 30-second slow mode for this channel. How do you make it less than 30 seconds? What if I put slow 15? Daniel enabled 15 seconds. How's 15 seconds? Make it 8. Okay, but then if people want to spam, won't they just wait 8 seconds? They would just paste, wait 8 seconds, and paste. Really, they should just— by default, they should not let people keep sending out the exact same message over and over again. Why would you want people to be able to do the same? Well, I've seen some streams where the whole chat is just spam. Have you seen Sushi Dragon? His whole chat is just people spamming emojis over and over. No one talks in his chat, it's just emoji spam. React to YouTube videos. Could do that. Don't really know what to watch. My YouTube recommended is kind of boring. It's just rise and fall of random YouTubers. Mr. BJ, Boris Johnson, a lot of Dragon's Den. I was watching this Girl, she's like this animal lover and she whines about people who treat their animals badly, but she seems really SJW bitchy. Look at her dyed hair.

I hate it when people act like their training is so great when they literally didn't do anything.

She's kind of annoying. Hey bitch, hey. I hate it when people spit on their dogs because I was watching that Brooke Houts girl who spat on her dog. And then her channel popped up. Why does this girl even have a channel? She spat on her dog. Americans say dog really weird, like dog. They elongate the O so much. It's just dog. You don't have to go dog. Who is Brooke Houtschild? Who knows her? She spat on her dog and she uploaded the video by accident. And then people found out, and then the whole YouTube community roasted her, and now her channel, all her views are like just people who hate her.

Really great so far.

And today she turned off the comments and the likes.

You may have noticed that hasn't been in a lot of videos, he hasn't been on my Instagram, so I'm basically here to Tell you why, what's been going on.

There's a lot that's happened recently, especially in the past few months, that I want to tell you about today and just give you details about what's been going on behind the scenes.

Is it too close? The way she speaks though is really funny. The way she speaks is like she thinks she has fans and an audience when all her viewers are just people who hate her. But she's still trying to do the whole, hey guys, I'm so sorry I spat on my dog, it won't ever happen again, I've learned from my mistakes and I've done my best to correct them. But everyone's like, we don't care, bitch, we still hate you. Uh, sometimes when you do something that's so bad, it doesn't matter if you apologize. People Still gonna hate you and they won't forget. Just give up. Troll them. Say you got a new dog and you're having difficulties with it. Clickbait them for views. That's what Onision did. He realized he, he was hated so much, there's, there's no point trying to make people like you again when you're so hated. The only thing you can do is either you disappear and you give up, or you just troll them, which is what I did. But then afterwards, then you're kind of screwed and your channel's dead, like me and Onision. Being hated It is so annoying because you feel like you're right, and then you don't understand why all these people are hating on you for such stupid reasons. And you don't want to agree with them, you want to fight them, but you can't fight everyone on your own. What can you do? Really, you just want to say fuck them all, but you can't. Unless you're crazy. There was that really fat girl as well, Amber Reed. Everyone hates her as well, but she gets views still. Look at her fat face. Oh my God, everyone hates her because she keeps— she looks so weird. Oh wait, her channel has kind of died. She only gets like 20K views now. Oh wow, her channel has died. She only gets like 20-30K views. Before she was getting hundreds of thousands. Oh, she's deleted them all. No, wait, this is not even her. This is some channel called Karina. The hell? That's not even her. What? Oh yeah, she still gets good views. 100K, 150K. How many views does she have? 100 million? My God, she has a third of the views Chris Broad has. Her whole gimmick is that she's fat. Why does she get so many views?

Hey guys, so welcome to a new video.

Look at the dislikes she gets. Oh my God, look, she gets 1K likes, 3K dislikes. That's more dislikes than I get.

Hey guys, welcome to a new video.

But she always gets the same dislike-like ratio.

Hey guys, so welcome to a new video.

So on top we have a little ColourPop latte. That's super cute.

2.8K dislikes. It's funny when they just pretend that people don't hate them and they just do the whole, hey guys, I'm just gonna pretend people don't hate me. There was another girl called Smitty. Everyone hated her as well. Do you remember this girl? She messaged me on Instagram. She asked me to rate her makeup. She just looks weird. Oh, she hasn't made a video in 3 months.

Guys, it's me again, and I know what you're thinking— I'm wearing the same shirt as last video, and I'm just gonna tell you right now to stop.

She gets more dislikes than likes.

Hey guys, it's me. Back again for another video. Recent—

Wow, you can really tell when people are fed up doing videos, can you? You look at the early days when they were at their peak, see the energy. Look at Ice Poseidon, his energy when he was really popular is so different to now. Same as Who else? I forgot. People just really lose their energy for making videos after a while. Even PewDiePie seems like he's got no energy now. He's just forcing himself to do it. It's just— it's hard consistently making videos for years and years and years. And not losing interest. And then at that point, you've made it into your career, so you have to keep doing it, or the only other option is to get a job or do something else. It just becomes a grind. It's like the first year or two, you're unnoticed, and then after a year or two, you blow up and you feel amazing. You feel like, wow, I made it as a YouTuber, everyone loves me. And then that lasts for maybe 2 years, and then afterwards is the downfall, and maybe you have a few scandals that just ruin your image. And then you're in the endgame where you're just like burned out and you hate it, but you still have to do it because it's your only source of income and you just want to fucking die. The dark truth behind Being a YouTuber is like the most depressing thing ever, cuz you always have a rise and you have a fall, and then you just become— you have a rise and then fall into irrelevancy. Takes a lot of energy and talent to consistently do it for decades. Like, Keemstar is just crazy. Keemstar has like the same energy he's always had, even after all the hate he gets and all the times he's been exposed. He's been banned off YouTube like 6 times and he's still the same, like unchanged. He doesn't let it get to him. He must really love it. He loves the attention. But that's the kind of attitude you need. Logan and Jake Paul. Jake Paul seems like he's depressed. Jake Paul looks like he's having an ex— accident— existential crisis or something. Accidental crisis. Logan Paul seems like he's matured a bit. But Jake Paul just looks like he has depression now. The Suicide Forest changed him. I felt like he was just Pretending to be sorry and that he's changed. Maybe he actually has. Or he's just clever enough to learn how to damage control. People like Onision were not good at it, and they just— they tried to play the victim, they tried to defend themselves, and it just comes across as really Douchey. Like they say, it wasn't actually my fault because of this and that, and in my defense, this and that happened, so it's not really my fault. When you do that, you're on a slippery slope. People won't like you. They won't respect you for that, even if you are right and you didn't actually do anything wrong. It just sounds douchey. You just have to suck it up and say, yeah, I was wrong, I'm so sorry, please forgive me. YouTube apologies are so stupid. I'm so sorry, I'll never do it again. Onision is now saying he wants to fight Jake Paul to get— so Jake Paul seems like less of a douche because Onision is hated more. I feel like people don't really care about Jake Paul anymore. I wonder what Toby's doing these days. Toby Turner. Why did his channel die? He had like a rape accusation, and then people thought he raped someone. It turns out he wasn't guilty of anything, but then his reputation was damaged too badly, and then his channel died. I wonder what they do now. Probably just play video games all day. Living off of the back catalog— backlog of cat— backlog of videos they've built. A bit sad about Toby. Apparently he was a bit, you know, like Jake Paul-ish when he was in his prime. He would constantly go to parties, get wasted, do drugs, and he would be really flirty with girls and like push himself on girls. I don't know what actually happened, but apparently some girl accused him of raping her or something. How are the ducks? Still haven't hatched. Female is still sitting on them, but how does she eat? Maybe the male duck brings her food. You know whose allegations didn't kill their channel? That ProJared guy. His channel bounced back from his cheating thing. I wonder what I'm gonna do. What will happen to me? I think I would just go back to doing what I was doing before, which was basically nothing. So before YouTube, how did I survive? Well, I never had to survive because I always lived at home. Well, how did I fund all my trips to Japan? Well, I just got money from the job centre and I saved it. I still make way more money than I was making from the job centre now. So I would just have to be very careful with my money from now on, not waste it on gaming laptops. So I don't have the luxury anymore. Still not going to stop me from doing what I want to do. I'm still going to go to Japan. I'm still not going to get a job. Just means I make less money. It's more of a struggle. Jobcentre used to pay about $500 a month, £300. So I would save for about half, half a year, maybe 5 months. I would save it, save a couple thousand pounds, and that would be enough. Live in a guest house, eat cheap. The thing I'm worried about is I really— if I really can't stand living here, then I have to move out, and I'm, I'm a bit worried I might not be able to make enough to support myself. I think I could, Let's pull up Rightmove, look at some properties. This is what's been on my mind a lot now because I just really can't stand living here. Most of the time it's fine, like 80% of the time it's fine, but then 20% of the times I just feel so depressed. Let's go to London. Property type: flat, terraced, semi-detached, and detached. Search. Let's see what we've got. Oh wow, look at this place. £675 a month. Looks pretty good. Look, it's got a kitchen, bathtub. But what's the catch? It's on Alb Street. No agent fees, room only, shared flats. Oh, that's why. It's a shared flat. I don't want a shared flat. I want my own place. What about other cities? Most of the cities are just the same in England. I'd rather be in London because it's easier to meet a girl. No matter where she's from. I'm using Rightmove to search. What about this place? I would love to have my own place. So this place is £1,000 a month, £1,100 deposit. What's £1,000 in dollars? £1,000 in dollars? It's about $1,400. But then you have to pay bills, don't you? Ground floor, electric, furniture options available at additional costs, partially refurbished. Can I afford it? Look at the floor plan, it's quite big. Look, this is not bad. That's not bad. Look, you get 2 rooms, you get a bathtub, you get a kitchen. I would like that. I'm actually quite interested in this. Wouldn't it be cool if I had my own place like this? That I could have my bedroom here, then I could set up my streaming studio and gaming center here, and then I've got a bathtub and a kitchen. I could do my own cooking. Where's the map? Where is it? It is south of the River Thames. It's in Deptford. Does anyone know Deptford? Is Deptford safe? So I would need $1,400 rent. What about bills? I don't think bills would be very expensive. Electricity wouldn't cost much for a tiny place. Look, it's got like a kitchen island. That looks cool. Let me see how much money I make now. So I made $220 from Chef Daniel, $660 from hiding my room. I made $4— $415 from Twitch. I made about— how much did I make on OnlyFans? OnlyFans, I made $610 in April. Pretty good. Oh wow, I could afford it. And then I made like $50 from merch. I made $1,900 this month. So we do minus the rent, then I'd have $550 left for bills and food. You make $600 a month from OnlyFans? Well, this month. March I made £800, February I made £660, January £900, December £800. I think I could afford it, and then if I moved out, I would definitely have new content that would boost the views, and then I could just stream every day. I reckon I could definitely make more than £2,000 a month if I started doing stuff. Do you think I should do this? Finally move out? It seems kind of fun, actually. It says deposit is $1,100, so that's about $1,500. Maybe I should start adding places— saving places. There's probably much cheaper places as well. Oh, I got spasm excitement. Private room? No, I want the whole place. If it's my own place, then I should be able to do OnlyFans.

2-bedroom.

Oh, I need toilet now. When I get excited, I need the toilet. Don't they ask proof of income, do they? What if I've got like £100,000 savings? I can prove my income. I just show them the Google statement. What, what kind of proof of income do they need? I could print out my bank statement that says how much money came in. I don't know. Still, it's 1,000 a month. I could probably find a hotel for 1,500 a month and then save all the hassle. And then if I don't like it, I could just leave. Oh, this is why getting an apartment's such a pain in the backside. What if I don't have a job and I'm moving there to find a job? Look. Oops. If I do— if I search for a month hotel. Why would a landlord let a guy move in if he's not able to pay rent? Well, what if the guy has like £100,000 in savings? Or what if the guy finds a job the next week? How do they just assume? What if the guy has a job and then he loses his job in the first 2 weeks? How can they just assume that the guy can or cannot pay? I could have a job now, then I move into a new place, and then I get fired the next Look, this place looks quite nice. It's a serviced hotel apartment. It's 1,800 for a month, so it's nearly double, but then you don't have to pay deposit. You don't need to fuss around all that proof of whatever. You get a kitchen, bedroom. I don't know, it's not a good long-term solution. I'm not going to pay ¥1,800. But then, am I looking for a long-term solution? I'm just looking for somewhere to stay until Japan reopens. No, no, no, I'm just looking for somewhere to stay until England lets me leave and go somewhere, because some countries are open. Or I could just shut the fuck up complaining and just stay in my bedroom for free, but then I'm so bored. Ah, getting an apartment is such a pain in the backside. I've got to arrange a meeting, arrange a booking, and then prepare a contract, and then set up a direct debit plan, and then pay them deposit, and then make sure I don't damage the place. And then they don't even have furniture. So if I get that place, it's got no furniture. I'd have to buy at least a bed and a table and some chairs, and then they might not even have any kitchen stuff. So really, is it really that cheaper? Maybe just get a hotel. But instead of a hotel apartment, why not just the normal hotel? Because I would like to do cooking. It's very difficult not having a kitchen. Because you end up having to buy stuff that you have to eat on the day. See how cheap the hotels can get.

Popularity.

1,300.

Hotel room. 1,200. Oh, 1,100. 1,200 for this. That looks okay. Wait, that's not the room, it's just a table. Ah, a single room. That looks pretty small. Oh, I don't know. The apartment idea seems fun, but then it also seems like a lot of work and stress. Check your Discord. I don't have messages turned on because I don't want people messaging me. If you want to message me, message me on Instagram. Ice Poseidon's Discord is so weird. It's just nonstop spam. Emoji spam. Ice Poseidon is— he tweeted saying that he's doing— he's working on doing AR livestreaming. I wonder if he knows SushiDragon. SushiDragon is like the master of AR livestreaming. I feel like Ice is a bit late to the game if he wants to claim the crown for that. Sushi Dragon is amazing. Have you seen his stuff? The, the gear he uses is crazy. He's got like an AR headset, he's got all these cameras attached to him, he's got these number pads that trigger different special effects and stuff. He's got all these green screens, he's got like 5 different cameras set up around the studio, and he has all these graphics and stuff. I don't know if Ice could beat that. I feel like Ice would have like a really scuffed, crappy looking version. You need a lot of gear. To do that AR stuff well. What would be cool if we could do like VR streaming, so you guys have like a VR body and then we're in a VR room And then we're in the same room. You could punch me or something, I don't know. But then all of you guys would have to have a VR headset, so it's kind of difficult. Yeah, it's just like VRChat, but all of you would have to have a VR headset. We could just all go into big screen on Oculus Quest, and then I Livestream, screen share it or something. Too much work. Punch me in VR for $10. Yeah, spit on my face for $10, throw tomatoes at me. People are now doing IRL streaming in GTA. Isn't it weird? It's basically the same. They go around roleplaying in GTA. It's just like IRL. I think if Ice just did what Andy's doing now, he could still get decent viewers, but he seems to be really— he really wants to avoid the stream sniping. He's not the same Ice that we all knew and loved. Just like me, people change. They become bitter and jaded. I don't blame him. When you think your viewers are supposed to be cheering you on and supporting you, and they end up trying to screw you over constantly, Like doxxing you and stuff, and then you realize, oh wait, they're not my friends. Well, not all of them. So you start thinking of the viewers as friends, and then some of them are not, and they try and do all this messed up stuff, and then it just makes you hate your viewers. Oh my God, fucking lightsaber. I hate that noise. It's charging my lightsaber.

Yep.

Look at this hotel, it's called Lord's Hotel. Maybe I should go there. Superior Twin Room. Why do they have 2 pictures of the room and they don't even have a picture of the room? It's just a shower room.

Who?

Back to apartments. What else do they have? I want to live next to Buckingham Palace.

£950.

Looks like this. It looks quite nice. Sofa, table. Kitchen. Vanden Court. It says a neat ground floor studio flat. Maybe I'll email him. Daniel Lord email. Oh, I shouldn't use my main email because then it says hiding in my room. Should use my fake email.

@gmail.

Phone. I don't want to put my phone number, he'll phone me. Put a fake phone number. Hate it when they want to phone, then they'll be like, when can you come? And then they'll want me to come straight away. Message. Hello. I'm interested in your studio. Is it still available? Thanks. There, send. See if they reply. £950. It looks quite nice next to nearby London Victoria. Andy has real celebrity money. Is Andy really rich? I know he was on some kind of show, MTV show, but isn't that the only thing he was famous for? And it wasn't like a really massively popular show. But he has all these side hustles, doesn't he? What does he do now? He seems to be doing some kind of contract work. He's always saying, oh, I just need to finish this contract work, so I'll be off Twitch for a few hours. I wonder what he's doing. Is it like coding or some tech-related stuff? I wonder if he's got a girlfriend. How come he doesn't have a wife? Isn't he 44? He must make a lot off Twitch. I think he has about 2,000 subs. That's like nearly $10,000 a month. I quite like him. He seems nice. $5K after Twitch's cut. I don't know, he's— if you're an affiliate, then you get $2.50 per sub, but I think partners get more. So assume he makes $3 per sub and he's got 2,000 subs. Maybe $6,000 a month. Not bad just for streaming. It's 2 AM, I'm going to bed. Tomorrow is— oh no, tomorrow is Saturday. That means I've still got Saturday and Sunday to wait until Monday. So tomorrow, or today is Saturday, what am I gonna do? What's your ideal date? Pretty much the Mina date was perfect. Met up, it wasn't really awkward, we went to a nice fun activity, trampolining, worked up an appetite, went to a nice restaurant, had a good meal. Well, the meal wasn't great. It was like, it was Korean food, but it wasn't very good. Oh, I got a new sub. Wait, I've got to approve it. Let me approve it. Hold on. Oh, thank you, Sniffing Petrol. It's not as fun when I have to approve it. It's more fun when it's sudden and it just comes out of nowhere, but I have to now, otherwise people start spamming the N-word and it gets past before I could stop it. How many subs do I have? I've got 52 subs! Wow, that's pretty nice. Add a word filter. They do this weird thing where they put a line through— a line across the word, and that bypasses the filter for some reason. I got a 1-day ban because of that. I'm not letting that happen again. Gotta be really careful. Yeah, the meal date was really good. We had food, got drunk. After we left the restaurant, it was— we were really flirty. It went from us just like being friendly, and then as soon as we left the restaurant, we were so wasted, like walking in a wonky line. We couldn't even walk in a straight line. And she— I can't remember now. I think she held my hand and we were like really close, and I said, do you want to go to karaoke? And she said yes, and we went to karaoke, and as soon as we got in, we were like making out and kissing. And then the staff man kept coming in, stopping us. And then we left and we went to a hotel, and we were so drunk. I was like, I was really dizzy. I felt like I was in a dream, and I was trying to book this hotel. And I was so drunk and tired I couldn't even— we had sex, but it wasn't good and I didn't come. I kind of just lost my erection and fell asleep because I was so drunk I couldn't do it. And then I woke up a few hours later and we did proper sex a couple times. We had sex like 4 times in that hotel. The first time was rubbish, so it was all drunken and sleepy. And then we went to McDonald's the next morning, and it was the best McDonald's I ever had. I was so hungry from all the sex and the drunkenness, and we went to this really fancy McDonald's in London Central, and it was all self-service. No staff, and the food tastes so good, better than the restaurant. I had a sausage egg McMuffin or something with bacon. It was delicious. And then we said goodbye. I got back on the train feeling so satisfied and happy. I was so excited. I was like, Mum, Mum, I met her, she was really great, this is her picture. I was showing her pictures to my sister. I felt so proud. And then I can't remember if I said, you can stay at my house if you want to, or if she asked me if she could stay. I forgot now, but... I think it was 2 days later she came to Maidstone on the train, and I was going to the dentist. So after the dentist, I waited at Maidstone station, got on the train, and I looked for her and sat down next to her and then took her back to my home. Oh, it was so good. Oh my God, it was best time of my life. It was just like we clicked straight away. Straight away, it was just— it just felt right. It felt good. I didn't feel disappointed. I always feel disappointed every time I meet a girl online. I think Mila was the only time, maybe the German girl too, but she She rejected me. Maybe it was the only time I met someone and I was surprised at how attracted I found them. Usually I go, I go and meet them without having any hopes because they're always disappointing. But it was the first time I went on a date and I felt like it went So well, and I felt like I did really well on the date. I had some dates in Korea that were just terrible, so awkward, so boring. The German girl was cute, but she was crazy. I don't know what all that drama was with her boyfriend. Why was she phoning her boyfriend when she was with me? Do you think you'll ever top that date? I don't think I will, really. I feel very— um, I don't really have a lot of hopes that I'll ever meet someone like Mida again and have such a great date. I think it would be very unlikely or difficult. I just find it very hard to meet people I click with and get on well and feel attracted to, and they feel attracted to me. It's like everything lined up perfectly. It's a bit depressing once you've had the best and then afterwards you don't feel like you can top it. But you never know. I always say that. I always feel like after a relationship, the next relationship always Has been— usually it's always been better than the previous one. But one day, um, one day I'll have the best in my life, and then that will be it. And then everything afterwards would just be slightly worse. Who knows, maybe it's like stocks, you know, you go, you have a really good one, then it goes down, then you have another good one, and then the next one's not great, and the next one's a bit better, and then the next one's even better. Who knows? Just have to keep trying, don't you? But you never know when it's going to be the last time, and then you die, and you die. Hello, welcome back to a new video. So my wife said she's going to sue me because of the SD card I can't believe it. That's classic Daniel. Classic content. Oh, I shouldn't make noise.

People sleeping.

I didn't do my weightlifting. 1, 2, 3, 4. It's definitely getting easier. Maybe my muscle's growing.

7, 8, 9, 10.

Wow, I can get 11. Oh, I can get 12 maybe. Oh, can I do 13? Oh my God, I did 13! Tighten the nut. Yeah, there's no point saying I'm not doing it right. I'm doing it the same way I always do it, and I went from struggling to get to 10 doing it that way, and now I can get to 13 doing it that way. So if I'm doing it the same way and now I can do more, it means I've gotten stronger. Okay, see if I can do 13 this arm. Not in your arms, more in your back. Yeah, well then I'm working my back out as well, so who cares. 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12.

Yes!

13, baby! When I got home, I couldn't even do 1. Can you believe that? Back in January, I struggled to even do 1. Now I can do 13. That's progress. But why do my arms still look skinny? If I can get to 20, I'll add some extra weights. I've got extra ones here, extra 2.5 pounds. If I'm not using my arm muscles, then why do my arms ache when I lift it? Stop moaning or I'll ban you. Complaining about my lifting. If I could only do 1 in the same way 4 months ago and now I can do 13 doing it in the same way, that means my arm's gotten stronger. Yeah, it also means my back's gotten stronger as well if I'm using my back. I'd rather just do it my way that I like doing it, and if I can do more doing it my way in a few months' time, then it means I've gotten stronger because I can now do more. What's the problem? Won't it hurt your back? Well, it hasn't hurt my back yet. If I did it properly, then I could probably only do 5, or maybe 4, or 6. I train my legs when I play football, but it's not really like weightlifting. It's more like stretching and Speed and balance. I was so unfit in January when it was winter. And it was— it even hurts. My bones hurt when I ran, like this bone here, because I wasn't using it at all. It became so weak. Now I can play football for over an hour and I still feel like I've got energy and there's no aching pains. It's just hard to do it when it's cold outside. I don't want to go outside when it's freezing. I don't want to do squats. It's so boring. I want to play something that's fun, that I enjoy doing. Weather's pretty good now. Very sunny, warm. But it's not too warm, so I can still wear my jumper. Yeah, it's been pretty good here. I think tomorrow I will have a break from streaming and try and make a video for the second channel. Not sure what to make. I feel like copying that girl Mira West is quite a good idea. I think a lot of Mira West's topics could be interesting for my viewers too. So I copied her I copied this one from her, Why I'll Be Single for Life. That did quite well. It got really good watch time, like 40%. People watched 40% of the video, which is pretty good. Shows they're interested in the topic. What else could I copy? I can't— I could copy what it's like to date your first love and talk about Mira, but I'm kind of bored talking about Mira now. Things can always get worse. I don't know if I could copy that. Anxiety, my struggle. Her videos are just boring though. It's like self-improvement Kind of rubbish. Maybe I could copy this one. Life. Life can always get worse. Or my life keeps getting worse. Why my life keeps It's getting worse, something like that. What happened to that Raw Sammy girl? She's the reason why my channel blew up because I copied her. Uh, she's changed it to Sammy Bunny. 2 years ago?

What?

What the hell? Has she deleted— she nuked her channel. Oh my God, she nuked her channel. Why do people do this? Did she delete her Why I Have No Friends video? Yeah, she did. That's so weird when people do that. Why do they do that? She had loads of videos. She had like 8 million views in total. Now she's only got 50K. YouTube wasn't paying her anymore? They sh— why, why wouldn't they pay her? I still make a couple dollars from each video. So even if I stop making videos, I still make like $600 or $700 a month from the old videos. Even my old videos from 2, 4 years ago make a couple dollars every month, and I've got hundreds of videos all making $1 or $2. It, it racks up pretty nicely. So just deleting all your videos is such a dumb idea. She said the nature of her content. What? But she makes all self-improvement stuff.

Um, that I took out the window.

My windshield was kind of dirty, so excuse if you see any bugs.

Um, but the one thing that I'm really excited about—

I hate when these vloggers, they just keep giving you useless information. Like, my car windshield was dirty and it had some bugs on it, and then I cleaned it, and now my car windshield's clean. Who cares? Community post. Ah, there's no community posts on iPad. I don't know why. I want to see what she said. Oh yeah, 2 months ago. I would like to inform everyone that the real reason I slowly drifted from YouTube is because it was bought by Google. They are essentially— they essentially demonetized my channel because of The nature of the content, so it became pointless when I needed income. Oh, why would— I don't see why would they. Because of the polar storm. I post— I will post a new video or livestream at some point. Please report anyone stealing my content. Surprising she would get demonetized. She seemed so wholesome.

That's sad.

I have been unemployed since 2017. Just like me. That's surprising. So why did she get demonetized? Because of the nature of her videos, but she was talking about stuff like bipolar and depression. Maybe I should delete my depression videos just in case. OnlyFans. Should I sub to her OnlyFans? Now I'm curious what she's got on OnlyFans. If you talk about mental illness, YouTube won't monetize. Should I get rid of my anxiety stuff? I've got 2 videos about depression. I've got 4 videos about anxiety. Why I hate having social anxiety. Maybe I will delete them. They only made 69 cents last month, so it's not like it's a big money maker. Got 50K views, this one. Why I Hate Having Social Anxiety. I don't want to get demonetized like her. Hey, today I'm going to be talking about how social anxiety ruins my life. Okay, it's not that dramatic, but sometimes— I was so cringe. Having social anxiety prevents me or stops me from doing some things that I would like to do, and it makes doing some things more difficult than it should be. This video is just going to be like a list of things that I dislike doing, things that I find For me, my girlfriend approached me for the ordering in Japanese. That gives me nightmares. Wow, people used to like me. Look at my likes and dislikes. 1,400 likes, 100 dislikes. It's funny to think people actually used to like me. I hate it when they keep asking you questions like, do you want your meat rare or medium? What kind of sauce do you want? Do you want this? You want that? It's just funny this got 50k views. What's so interesting No, no, just give me whatever. I hate fast food places where you have to go up to the counter and then tell the member of staff what you want to eat. I've never been to Subway in my life because the idea of having to instru— But what was Raw Sammy talking about that was so bad? My struggles with social anxiety. This one made 50 cents. How much do they make in total? I might just delete them. Does Raw Sammy have any nudes that I can jerk off to? I made $76 off this one. Hey, so in a previous video I was talking about how I didn't like going to restaurants very much because I felt very uncomfortable when there are people next to me on the next tables nearby because it felt like They were listening to everything I was saying. There's actually another reason why I don't really like restaurants, and that's ordering food.

When—

I'm just saying the same stuff again. I don't like ordering food. And the waiter, this old guy, he said, oh my God, don't speak Japanese, you sound gay. Ah, I'm deleting this one. Hate my videos where I spoke Japanese. I sound so stupid. Delete it. I broke down in tears at the New Year's party in Japan. What a stupid title. The year was 2011. Um, we were having a New Year's party at the guest house in Japan. It was my first ever New Year's party. I've never really been too, like, flirty and charismatic, and I felt really insecure and intimidated by that.

It's really—

I hated him so much, and it's really stupid. I don't— I didn't have any real reason to hate him, but I did because I was jealous. I don't know if it was really obvious that I had been crying. My face was all puffy, my eyes were red. You know when you cry, it kind of makes your eyes look like they're swollen? I don't really know how to describe it, but I think it was kind of obvious that I had been crying. People kept coming up to me and trying to talk to me, and it was really awkward. I didn't really know what to talk about.

I'm sorry.

Um, and then nearing the end of the party, everyone sat down at the table to eat. Everyone had paid ¥500 or something to—

Boring.

I don't know why you guys like this stuff so much. About something, because it's like in our society it's not considered as manly. It's like weak and kind of pathetic, but If it helps relieve stress and anxiety, then— Yeah. How come back then people said stuff like it's relatable and now people's— people just insult me saying I'm a man-child who can't even order food? Back then people were nice and they were sympathetic. Now people are just a bunch of dickheads. And they just call me a man-child who can't even order his own food. I could make the exact same video and make the same points, and do you think people would be all nice and supportive like they were back then? They'll just say, grow the fuck up, man. You're 32, you still can't order. Get therapy. Delete this. Delete depression. I think I have depression. I think I have depression, but I'm not sure. I don't really know much about depression. This one's really fake. I'm not a clinically trained psychologist or doctor, so I don't really know what I'm talking about when it comes to depression. Life would just be so much more fun if everyone died. No, not really. Delete that one. My only video about depression. This is the classic. This is where I got my YouTube channel profile picture. What is depression? Well, people can feel sad for a number of reasons. For example, their goldfish could die, their grandmother could get hit by a bus. These are all good reasons to feel sad. When something tragic happens to you and you feel sad, that's, that's normal. That's not depression.

Lame.

The thing is with depression is when nothing really tra— will think— What the hell is this? What am I doing? Oh, and, um, back in December I made a video talking about how much I hate TerryTV on my secret channel, Gentleman Reviews. I better delete this. Oh shit, I'm just admitting to something that could get me banned. Deleting that. Oh my God, that was a good catch. Yeah, I just deleted my depression videos. I'm not getting demonetized. Yeah, that's where I got my profile picture. This one was the fake one. You see these tiles on the background? That is the balcony from Chihiro's apartment when I was pretending that we broke up. I was actually still there filming videos on the balcony. They didn't even know that I walked outside. This one's so fake. I'm not sure if this is a good idea. This was fake. I don't know, should I go? Should I go to an Airbnb or should I stick with the hostel? I've booked and— You're wiping out your channel. Yeah, I don't want to risk losing my monetization. Look at Raw Sammy. I'm gonna delete this. That was fake anyway. Yeah, I think I'm safe. I feel like my views are not too bad. Look, this got 33,000. It's got 24,000.

17,000?

26,000? I just need to think more carefully about the topic. Like, the makeup video was just so dumb. Why did I do that?

Ugh.

Well, I'm vomiting in my mouth. Maybe I do have acid reflux. Why? I didn't even eat anything. Oh my God, that bloke Masterson is still here. I recently unbanned everyone just for fun, see who's still around. Guess who's still around? All of the dickheads from 2017 who were just constantly whining. I don't know, bloke Masterson doesn't seem too bad. The main ones I really hate are That Jesington Bear guy almost assimilated Gunnar Larsson, but I haven't seen Gunnar Larsson around much. Maybe he died. But it's interesting to see who's still around, and they don't even know they've been banned for years, and they've probably been commenting for years not even realizing they're banned. Look, Bloke Masterson. I banned him like 2 years ago. Bloke Masterson, he's not too bad. He's saying, damn dude, and to think your life would have been better if only you hadn't changed schools. It's a bit sad though. Sometimes I check out those videos about me and I look at the comment section and I recognize a lot of names of people who used to be fans and they used to like me, and now they were like, it's so disappointing seeing how Daniel turned out. I used to be a fan. Until he cheated on Tomoko, I just couldn't support him anymore. Ew, fuck you too. Eat my shit. I remember recognizing so many names. There was that— I can't remember now. If I saw them, I'd remember. Darkside Laments. He used to donate a lot, and then I saw him bitching about me on some other guy's channel. Saying he hates me now. Daniel, you have a cold. No, I do not. And you wonder why you have no views. I don't wonder, I know. Who says I wonder? Yeah, they don't like me anymore, I don't like them anymore. They can suck my dick.

Idiots.

Sammy Bunny is 34 years old. She has a university degree in philosophy. Let's see what's on her Twitter. I would hate to have a girlfriend like that. I don't like her. She just seems like she's constantly upset and struggling and constantly questioning the meaning of life and stuff like that.

Boring.

I hate talking about that stuff. Like, have you ever wondered what's the meaning of life and why are we here and how come patterns in the stars change my mood? No, not really. I wonder what Kimberly has. I think Kimberly has bipolar. I saw a Twitch video of hers said something about BPD.

Isis's girlfriend.

I don't have a girlfriend who's got all these problems. I just want to have fun, enjoy each other's company, not have to like be her therapist as well. I don't know any— I don't know how to help these people. I've got nothing useful to say. What is BPD? So some days you're really happy and then some days you're really sad? Maybe I have it too, but not really badly. I feel sad sometimes and then sometimes I feel happy.

Hair flip pulled me. I just heard a noise.

Anyway, uh, who else? Who else could I copy? I used to copy some videos from DanIsNotOnFire, but I can't really do that with a lot of his videos. He hasn't made a video since his gay one. Oh, he has been on Phil's channel recently. Mental health panel.

Welcome. This year's student prize in Attitude magazine— actually, the pandemic, on an— in a weird—

He looks pretty tall. I think he is pretty tall.

Uh, mind, and you know, all the things—

That's Dan speaking.

He's weirdo. I, I was unaware of what to do, and, and it was almost a kind of embarrassment Get a lot of hate.

Oh, where's Dan? Where's Dan?

Look, um, but I see when I go on the internet the way that young people—

I like his voice.

You know, the use of the word queer and just finding communities, it was just so accepting and there's just so much less labeling and people are saying like, you're free to explore your identity at your own time, you're free to be part of this community.

Well, he's 6 foot 2, he's giant, he's a giant. He doesn't look tall when he's on his own. I can't imagine him being like this huge guy. Imagine him standing next to Harold, who's like a macho man, and then they're the same size.

Could accept me, but because of someone's incredibly specific circumstance—

and you never know what someone's lived experience in—

they just may not be ready to go on whatever part of that journey.

Yeah, I like Dan as well. He's cool. So what kind of stories do you hear?

From younger people getting in touch with you about their own journeys? I mean, there must be still so many people that are lost and not being able to find their way.

Exactly what you said earlier. It's kind of what I wish I could have been, you know, like quirky, relatable, a little bit gay. Oh, it went all downhill. Now people think I'm a dickhead. Yeah, well, fuck them too. Idiots.

What's up, internet? It's your boy Danny. Um, I went outside—

People loved him so much.

And guess what fell on my head? No, not the realization that my relatable jokes about not going outside might just be a thinly veiled coping mechanism for a slowly growing agoraphobia that's taking over my life.

I don't know, sometimes I feel like he's trying too hard to be all— um, I don't know how to describe it.

Hello, internet.

Depression.

Today I'd like to talk about something that I've never shared before. Hello, internet. Today, that life is just pointless. All rational thought just completely goes out the window as if the sun has been eclipsed, and the only way I feel I could escape is by completely Completely hiding from reality.

Crabsticks, I remember him. I keep checking his channel to see if he's come back, but he comes back for one video, then he disappears for like a year again. Chris Kendall, he was so weird and awkward but funny. His hair.

Where the hell have you been?

I love his awkwardness.

It's been ages. Um, no texts, no, no messages, nothing. I mean, I'm not angry, it's just been— it's like been 7 months and I've not heard— only joking, because it's obviously— it's my fault, it's not your fault. Uh, I've been gone a long time. So what have I been up to? What have I been up to? What have I done? What have I been up to? Um, I wouldn't say I've necessarily— I wouldn't say I've done anything. I suppose my biggest news is that I'm self-partnered now. Um, if you don't know what that word means— Self-partnered?

I like it. Maybe I should copy him.

The term single and self-partnered. That is a hate crime.

That's good.

Now, you know, I've been, I've been technically self-partnered for years now. I mean, I should have known really after reading the Harry Potter books, you know.

Yeah, I could copy this title, Not Single Anymore. People would love that. Hey guys, I'm not single anymore, I'm self-partnered.

All the films, um, you know, I have a Potterverse account. I've played real-life Quidditch, um, I've done the cosplay. I think during that period I should have realized that I was going to be single forever and that that was okay. But part of me, I can't even believe it's taken me this long time to realize that I am self-partnered. You know, I've spent years now looking—

How being— how being single is ruining my life. Oh, look at my hand, it's so sweaty. My hand is soaked from holding this.

Stop it, it's our filth. Yeah, I will, uh, with— ah, think about me, James.

He's very old school YouTuber-ish. My cat died.

Hello, hello again. Um, it's been It's been a while, hasn't it? It's been, um, a little over a year, I think, since I've made something on Craft Sticks.

Maybe I should have more awkward silences.

Um, it's a dead channel, I know that. Um, but there's nothing wrong with, uh, you know, poking it and, you know, getting a big stick and just having a look.

It says dead channel, he's got 148,000 views.

Come on, let's take a look. I know a lot of you kids like that kind of stuff now. Where have I been? Where has he been? Where have I been? I'm not sure. I think— I know obviously it seems like a bit of a stretch. It's not laziness. I think what it is, is, you You know the scientists at CERN and they do those big experiments? I think there's been a universe shift and I've shifted from a universe in which I was—

Is that iDubbbz in the comments? It's iDubbbz Games.

But this isn't my universe, so I'm kind of pissed about that. Been sending emails to CERN, um, hey, put things back again. I used to be really happy. What have you done?

Oh, that's iMadix. It's funny seeing what's in the comments section, who's in this comment section.

It's been a bit of a creative kind of, uh, dry spell. Um, I don't know if you can call it a dry spell if it's lasted a year. It's more like a dry hell. A, a, a fucking hell. Shouldn't have sworn there. I do apologize.

11 subscribers. I'll subscribe.

I suppose there's, there's, there's no money.

Oh, no videos.

There's no point having hands on anything anyway, is there? Um, this is, this is Logan's world now. Um, so fuck it. Tits, wank, shit, bollocks, cum bucket.

I like finding cute girls in the comments section. Uh, well, and then I screenshot them like this.

A round of applause. Uh, so I'm happy with that.

Put it in my collection.

Let me check my notes.

Is that weird? Save to photos. Is that a regal? Who else is cute?

I don't know why I'm getting upset.

She looks like the Swedish girl.

I'm actually not upset. I don't know why I did that.

Um, Fallout Boy. But, um, these people, I think— where are they now?

Because I've actually got a fucking job now. Yeah, I've got a job, like a real retail job. I'm not gonna say where because I'll probably get fucking attacked. I just really loved him. Do you know what I mean? Like, there's some fucking weirdos out there. Especially when you're like famous like me, that want to fucking take your face off or some shit.

What about her? She looks a bit underage. Looking for my next girlfriend. Some people use their real names in the comments. It's weird. Chloe Crowley.

That's been my year, so obviously there's a lot going on.

Why would you use your real name?

I just wanted to do YouTube again. You know, now I've got a job, there's no kind of monetary kind of pressure on it. I can just do my job for money and I can do this for attention. That's why I said my cat was dead. Uh, she's not dead. It's there. But you know what I mean? It's like I can, I can just be— yeah, I could do what I want. I could do whatever I want. I don't even need to worry about people unsubscribing. I've got a job. Um, but I mean, if you want to help me out, I've also got Patreon.

Um, doxing members, self-doxing.

Uh, but it never does because I never make YouTube videos.

Mary Cielo Chavez, who she subbed to.

That's the problem with my generation. It's not even my—

I hate everything. Venus.

We were brought up wrong.

What if she subbed to me?

And everyone's got depression now and anxiety, which I've got.

See who she subbed to. This is weird.

So it's not my fault.

Emma Chamberlain.

I just want to be bigger on YouTube. I want to be— I want to be a YouTube person. It doesn't— it just means I have to change a little bit. I have to change what kind of stuff I'm doing. That's I just want to be more truthful, you know. Yuna is alive, um, and I'm gonna, I'm gonna make these kind of video diaries, not vlogging, um, I'm gonna make like video diaries on YouTube and, and kind of just—

Jesus Christ.

I want to speak truth, you know. I want to tell people what the world is really like and how hard it is being like an online, uh, YouTuber person, especially Especially in the current climate, you know, it's tough. And I don't want a whole generation of kids growing up thinking you fucking electrocute a rat, you get a Lambo. I mean, sometimes you do. Sometimes you do.

Oh, I got a donation. Let me see.

Sorry, drifting there. Drift.

Didn't notice. Mr. Wonderful, let me accept.

Why don't you go to Korea and try to serial Gianni Lee, the Korean Twitch streamer?

Never heard of her. Thanks for—

I think she would dig you.

You should tell her about me. Say Daniel's single and ready to mingle.

Go to Korea to sleep with Gianni Lee. She will definitely let you do it with her.

Gianni Lee. Okay, let's search her. I used to be cool, now everyone thinks I'm a dickhead. My famous last words. What? She's not pretty. I don't think she's up to my standards.

She looks okay there.

How about here?

Feature first. Hello, I love you. I love you too. Hi everyone, let's feature. Long time no see on YouTube, right?

Hi hi. Sounds a bit like I am Trung.

Hi, I'm happy to see you again.

Hi, yeah, I don't like her forehead.

Hi hi. Hi, let me see.

Hi, how old is she? She looks like 30-something.

I need to sit here. I love you too. From Indonesia. Hello, Indonesia friend. Hi, Iraq friend.

Nah, not my type.

Kimchi taco. Free. This is America.

Very generous.

America.

Don't like her teeth. Day 30 banned from Twitch. Why did she get banned? She got banned for a whole month. Oh, that must suck. Shit, what if I get banned for a month? I'd be so annoyed. Maybe I should delete my VODs so people can't report them. Is there any point of leaving my VODs up? It's not like I get ad rev or anything. Maybe I'll Google it. Why did Gianni Lee ban Twitch? Does anyone know why did she get banned? She's been banned multiple times.

Why?

She was temporarily banned for accidentally doxxing another person's phone number. I don't feel worried about doing that. I don't even know anyone's phone number. Reduced to tears after return from accidental Boxing ban. Twitch streamer Gianni Lee was left in a flood of tears after her long-awaited return to livestreaming. That's so stupid. You get banned for accidentally showing someone's number. Twitch is harsh. You get banned for accidents and things that aren't even your fault. Oh shit, what if I show the video of her doxxing the number? Would I get banned? Because I'm also doxxing the number, aren't I? Oh my God, better delete this stream. Day 30 banned from Twitch.

It does work now.

Wow, that's close up. Oh shit, if she's banned and I just showed her, I'm showing a banned Twitch. She's not banned now, is she? Like I showed Ice in that last stream, apparently. I don't know if you're allowed to show them. They're not allowed to be in your stream. Oh my God, Twitch is so bloody strict. Gianni Lee. Oh my God, she's live now. She's only got 89 viewers. I've got 91, I think. Is that her? She's got 78K followers. Oh yeah, she's live now.

Hi.

Why is slow mode on? Yeah, people were Spamming again. She's got the same view as I have. A bit boring, she's just walking around. Not many viewers for 78K followers. How old is she? I have no boyfriend. My age is the oldest age you can imagine. She looks like 35-ish, maybe in late 30s. Back to YouTube, looking for girls in the comments section. Oh my God, if I show my photo album, there's like a million dick pics I took today. Oh, I got another— oh, this is bad. I'm not noticing when I get a donation. Thanks, Mr. Wonderful. I need to pay more attention.

She is actually accepting boyfriend applications.

Oh, I got another one.

She says in the other stream the other day to DM her IG. Let's do it, Daniel.

DM her? Should I DM her? Get myself—

She needs some love from you.

Oh, thank you, R4.

Yay, the Twitch streams are so much better than the YouTube streams.

Yeah, YouTube streams suck. There's too many trolls.

Glad you're back on here.

Thanks very much. Raid her? But if I raid her, then won't I lose all my viewers because you've all gone to her stream? Got banned from Twitch 2 years ago.

You're stuck.

She looks a bit like this Korean girl I met in Japan. Hmm, I don't think I'd be interested. Who else? Who's on my sub list? CNBC. I hate the end of CNBC videos. Shepard Bush here. Thanks for watching CNBC. Shut up, Shepard Bush. You look like a Thunderbirds model. He looks like a plastic doll. Look at him.

Oh, pardon us. What's his name? Shepard Smith here. Thanks for watching CNBC.

Shepard Smith here. Every time. What's the point of having that outro?

When it comes to developing a juicy amount of— at removing— CNBC— use methane and in turn global warming.

Dan Whitehead, Sky News, in Aberdeenshire, Wales.

Shepard Smith here, thanks for watching CNBC.

Why is Sky News on CNBC? I noticed a lot of English people on CNBC. English news people. Traitors working for American news. Yeah, it's all just boring stock stuff for my sub list. Poor Joseph Watson. I have to be careful who I show, do I? Don't I? Oh, thank you, Mr. Wonderful.

Here's another donation to encourage you to DM Gianni Lee on IG right now.

Nah, I don't think I will.

We want you to go to Korea to have cereal with her.

If she wants to have cereal, I wouldn't mind, but I'm not sure about— I don't think I'd date her. I want to date this English girl. She's hot. I saw her pussy. PewDiePie.

Today I'm very excited because we're checking out a TLC classic. I've heard about this, I've never actually seen the story, but it's a guy that—

His hair looks crap.

Why is he wearing Harry Potter glasses?

With, uh, cars.

Let's just put it that way until the video has gotten started a little bit.

Don't do it. Daniel isn't—

oh, oh my gosh, dude.

He's named Chase. He met Chase in a resale lot. That's a good name. I'll fuck with Chase. I'm not gonna sit here and lie to you, he's a sexy beast.

People think I'm weird.

That's like the weirdest thing out of this. Okay, I'm—

He's actually making out with his car.

Everything just together just seemed to fit. I just felt an instant connection.

Are these people for real?

Psychological condition, but I never heard about it being in love with inanimate objects. It's just that I guess I can understand that, but the car in itself is just— Nathaniel's obsession first developed as a teenager.

Nathaniel.

Model cars. But he didn't find true love until he met Chase. I find this part of it—

yeah, I mean, in love with your car. What? Objectophilia is when a person develops strong emotional relationship with an inanimate object.

Wow. But Nathaniel's relationship with The chase goes beyond dates and presents. I don't know if I, I want— I'm not ready to go beyond midnight. Oh, okay.

A lot of weird people. I didn't fall in love with the spatula, I just shoved it up my anus. Jim Cramer is very annoying to listen to. I wonder if he has sex with his car. Puts a flashlight in the exhaust pipe.

What's happening out there? Shall I describe it to you, or would you like me to find you a box?

That laugh— what is that laugh? Would you like me to find you a box? The way he goes from serious face to troll laugh is funny. Twin Towers was one of my favorite movies. I saw it in the cinema when I was about 13. I got goosebumps. The scene when they, they try breaching the walls using those ladders and they push the ladders off the edge and then the camera is like above it made you feel like you're falling down with the ladder. It was cool. Do I know Lana Blakely? I think my sister likes her. Maybe I can steal some of her topics. Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Why I don't like dating. That sounds like one of my topics. Oh, I could do that. I could rant about dating and how much it sucks. Where am I? Where's my notepad and my pen? I keep losing my pen. Oh, I just vomited again. I swear it's the, um, the beer that's making me do that. Gonna steal Lana Blakely's content, and there's nothing you can do to stop me. I've got a Durex.

Gonna steal—

Do you like my Samsung phone from 2010? Japanese. I'm gonna still love and bring these content. If you do that, your videos are going to get recommended to your sister. I don't think she watches my channel. Stolen ideas. Oh, write a new page. This is some brainstorming session. Stolen first. Why I hate— problem is if you use the word hate, you get less CPM. Why I— uh, I'll just do hate. Why I hate dating. See what she says. I probably can't use her points.

Dating can be really fun and exciting and—

Sounds like a TV commercial.

To some extent, just like with most things, it's what you make of it. But it can also kind of suck big time. Let's talk about that. Now before we get into the juice of today's video, let's thank our sponsor for today, Storyblocks. Now while— Poor guy.

Difficult.

He wasn't wrong, you know, once upon a time it seems to have been rather straightforward. I do have my suspicions as to why Based on my experiences and the conversations that I've had, right, from Argentina, or— and he wrote that do exist. And to the extent that we engage our imaginations in this way, we will be even less satisfied with the alternative we end up choosing. So once again, a greater variety of choices actually makes— Boring.

How the hell does this get 200K views? Why can't she say something like, oh, some guys are so annoying, they're so Some guys are so bad at making conversation, they just sit there expecting me to say stuff. And some guys are so creepy, they try and invite me to love hotels. My video is gonna be way better. I'm gonna say, some girls are so boring, they just sit there and they don't say anything. What else can I copy? I got rejected. I haven't been rejected recently. Why I stopped searching for my life purpose. Could I do that? What could I say? Some girls are so fat. That's my style. Why my life is so boring. Oh my God, that's good! Why didn't I think of that? That sounds like something I would make anyway. Oh my God, why didn't I do that earlier? Why my life is so boring. That sounds exactly like one of my titles. I could put that on the main channel. That's main channel content. I'm making that tomorrow. That's main— is it main channel content? I don't want to get another flop. Have I never made a video like that before? No, actually, I've never made a video complaining about how much my life sucks. I mean, how boring it is. What could I say? I could say, usually when I'm bored, I would fly to Japan And meet girls, but now with this stupid virus, I can't go anywhere. Wow, it's like she stole it from me and now I'm gonna steal it back. I'd rather just put it on Chef Daniel because I feel confident it will get good views. I've lost my confidence on hiding in my room. Why I hate dating, why my life is so boring. That's good. What did she say?

The other week I was sitting on my couch with my computer writing about, in short, living life to the fullest. A couple hours in, it started raining.

She puts too much effort into the camera stuff.

She was prepping something in the kitchen and it goes something like, to live life means to travel the world and to Buy a house on the moon. Morning coffee.

She's like one of those meaner girls, isn't she? I like the so. I'd put the so in capital letters. Why my life is so boring. Uh, 5 things never to say to a quiet person. Why I don't care what other people think. That sounds like what I would make. Wow, maybe we would be good together. But I've already made a video like that. Let me find it. Yeah, I made it already. It's called Why I Don't Care About Other People. I feel like I'm gonna vomit again. Oh, I changed the title to Why People Bore Me. Oh, I feel like something's coming up. Oh, I got a dono. Mr. Wonderful.

When you go back to Japan for content, can you try to find and get back with your older ex-girlfriend?

No, she blocked me. I found her on this social media website and I messaged her. She blocked me straight away. She has a few titles that seem like would be on my channel. Why I Only Have 2 Friends. Yeah, well, I've got no friends. Here's how I really save money. No, the chlamydia girlfriend blocked me, not Chihiro. She has a lot of introverted minimalist lifestyle stuff. How I started a successful YouTube channel. Yeah, well, I've still got more views. She's got 26 million, I have like 28 million in total. Let me see my total views. I've got more views than Lana Blakery. If I go to views, lifetime— ah, I've just got a bit less. I've got 27 million views. She's got 20— oh, 26. I do have more views than she does.

Haha, see?

Suck it, Lana. And she's got 6 times more subs. I got more views than Lana, 27 million. Yep, all her videos have loads of views and she has way less videos than I do. And it probably makes more ad revenue. Collab properly this time. He commented on one of your videos. Which one? Go to Austin. I think I would have noticed if Ice commented. 18 months ago. I don't really know what we would do for a collab. Oh, thank you.

People are saying that Chris Broad makes better content than you and is more valuable, and everyone in your home area is proud of him.

Yeah, whatever. No one's proud of me. I've got 27 million views, not to be scoffed at. That's what upsets me. No one realizes how many views I got. 27 million views is a lot. You've got people like Lana, she's got 600K subs and And she has less views than me. How I Became Confident. 7 Books That Changed My Life. I Dated for 10 Years. Here's What I Learned. So those are her virals.

Why are the donations so much louder than the actual stream?

Are the donations loud? Let me check.

I have to turn it up to 100 and it's so annoying, lmao.

Lmao.

Why are the donations so much louder than the actual stream?

Are the donations loud?

Let me check.

I have to turn it—

Yeah, it's pretty loud. I'll turn it down. Okay, I turned it down now. I said on your My Problem with Ice Poseidon video I forgot what he said now, but it's a long time ago. When we met, he said to me, you and I have a lot in common. But he didn't even know me. How did he know that? I'm not saying he's wrong. I do think we have a lot in common, but How would he know? He, he only knew me for like an hour, and we barely even spoke because Gary was speaking all the time. Maybe he just sensed it. But he's not wrong. There's a lot of similarities between me and Ice. You know, the whole treating your audience like your friends and sharing your whole life, and then how it destroys relationships. A lot of similarities. Oh yeah, he commented, you're the famous Daniel, no need to be anxious. Yeah, I remember now. Still, even if I was the most famous person in the world, I'd still be anxious. To anyone feeling lonely— the whole lonely, no friends kind of videos seems to always go viral. For these channels. How many monitors do I have? I have my gaming monitor, my CCTV, my iPad. Go to the next CX road trip. I don't think he wants to do those anymore, and I don't think I would like it. I would just be sitting in the corner not saying anything.

Install Better Twitch TV and get some cool emotes for us to spam.

What?

Also check your top donos. The top one could get you in trouble at ANWRDA.

Check your top donos. I'm pretty sure I didn't accept any n-words. I've got 2 emojis for subs. Oh, thank you, Cesium. Is it a fake Cesium?

Why can't we make up? You betrayed me first. You can't just cut me off.

Well, I didn't betray you. Top donor has a name that is the N-word. How do you check the top donor? Let me see, I think it's recent events. Mr. Wonderful donated. R4 donated. I don't see any N-words. There was one donation that has a dash. I don't see it. N-word guy has given you $126. How do you know this? I don't even know this. It has it there on Streamlabs when you go to donate. Oh, it's probably that McLovin guy. I forgot my donation link. What was it? Streamlabs.com/danielhimer. Oh yeah, N-I-G-G. But that's on Streamlabs, so it should be safe. It's not on Twitch. Huh, how'd you get rid of that? McLovin is number 2. Bloody N-word. Ban him, but then he'd probably just make a new, new Streamlabs account. Alert box, how do I get rid of that? Ah, these bloody people with the N-word driving me crazy. Recent events. The problem is you can get banned. I can get banned. If other people use it and I don't moderate it. Stupid Twitch. Custom tip page. Oh, whoops, I pressed the wrong one. I meant to press this one. Mr. Kubota.

Um, Daniel, I will pay you £2,000 for you to pleasure me with your mouth. Threw it for 3 hours. Can I finish in your mouth and face?

No, no thanks. I donated the N-word 7 months ago. NHUE. It's the text-to-speech tool.

I donated with the N-word like 7 months ago, back when it didn't matter, and it just kept there.

It was you?

Name like that, there isn't anything I can do except stop donating forever. Lol, sorry.

Just don't use the N-word. I'm gonna get in trouble. Now I don't know how to get rid of it. It's on my tip page. Yeah, I'm getting a bit tired and I need to pee, but I'm trying to copy ideas from Lana. But I want to get rid of this first. Why do I prefer streaming this way? I don't know, it just feels more relaxing. I can move the camera around, don't have to show my face all the time, don't have to keep worrying about my hair. Over gaming? I don't really like gaming when I stream. I just like to chat. Okay, what if I Google it? Ashley Elise. Elise, wasn't she that girl who deleted all her videos and then she, she talked about me a bit? She was quite cute. She was— she said she is studying to become a doctor last time, and then she deleted everything. How to wipe Streamlabs tips scoreboard. Hmm, I don't really feel like it's too much of a problem. Because it's, it's not on Twitch, but still it makes me worry a little bit. Oh, where would it be on the settings? Alert box?

No.

Recent events. Do do do do do do do do. I'll do it later. Back to this girl. What? Why are the titles gone? There they are. That's weird.

Weird.

Dear sister, I messed up. Here is what I learned about life this year. Why I'm quiet.

You know how you and I— I will only be speaking for myself and how it's been for me.

I like her cheeks, they look squishy. I like her lips.

Articles on introversion. All right, so for starters, hanging out with people gets exhausting after a while, especially—

I like her eyes. She reminds me of someone. I'm not sure who she reminds me of. She's got thick lips. Wait, is my chat working?

Testing.

Is my chat working? Oh yeah, that's weird. Daniel got banned.

No.

Go to the little icon on the right next to the N-word and change his name. Okay, let me try. There's no little N-word. I mean, there's no little icon next to the N-word. Um, I don't see it. Why can't I edit this page? The gear icon on the far right. I don't see a gear icon. There's English, language, login, home, donate. No, I can't show the screen because then it will show the N-word and then it'll be on the stream. Are you trying to trick me? I don't see any options to get rid of it.

Just disable the donation leaderboard entirely under donation settings in Streamlabs.

Um, disable donation leaderboard under donation settings. Donations.

Where—

I'm on donation settings. Where is leaderboard? Donator message settings. Font settings. Maybe it's on general settings. Reset stream labels session.

Oh crap, did you see that?

Oh no, that's my banned list.

Donation leaderboard.

What if I Google, um, how to disable donation leaderboard Streamlabs? Why do they give so many ways for stupid trolls to spam the N-word? Oh, I don't know. I'm running out of patience. Where's the leaderboard? Donations. Oh, I can't. I have to do it when I finish the stream. I can't focus. Uh, look at my hand, so sweaty.

Smells salty.

Okay, so I've got 2 topics to copy. Why my life is so boring. I might put it on second channel, actually. I don't like these videos about books. A real day in the life of an introvert, 2.7 million. I don't really want to do introvert topics anymore. I could do why I feel lost in life. Why I feel Lost in life.

That could be good.

Ashley Elise. Elise, is she back uploading? Oh, she's back. She looks different. Has she— what? She left medical school? When was the last time I watched her? Yeah, she was getting loads of views. Look at these, these views she was getting, like 200K. Her channel was blowing up and then she decided to stop. She was making a lot of those kind of anti-incel videos. I think—

how dare you accuse me of being fake when you have clearly betrayed me!

It's a fake Cesium. Cesium would donate in pounds. I'm not falling for that trick again. Let's see what Ashley's up to. She's quite pretty. Yeah, this was the last one she— I watched. I graduated college.

So my hair is finally growing out and, um, I'm wearing my short sleeve turtleneck. Hi, welcome back to another video.

She reminds me of someone.

I thought I'd talk about why I haven't been on YouTube lately, or The internet, really. And ignore this stain, it's like an oil stain that never goes away, and I refuse to get rid of this thing.

Isn't she pretty? I find her very attractive.

Because I like it. Um, so yeah, I haven't really been posting a lot on YouTube lately, and it hasn't been because I don't like YouTube, and I haven't been having like a life crisis or anything. Well, kind of. I've been having a mini life crisis. Which, yeah, we all go through life crises. So I've been having a mini life crisis lately in regards to, um, within me.

Like, let's see her new stuff. She's uploaded quite a few actually since she came back. I'm back.

Hello everybody, it's It's been a long time since I filmed a YouTube video. I think it's been like a year and a half since I've filmed one, but now in the new year I've decided to come back to YouTube. The last time I made a video was in July of 2019, I think, or it might have been August.

Yeah, I find that very attractive.

Talking about how I was graduating university and what I was doing next, how I was going to medical school. And since that video It's been a really long time and a lot has changed, as you can see, considering my hair when I made that video was like up to here and now it's grown this much. And I've even cut it a couple times, so it's really just continued to grow. Also, some other things that have happened— so I went to medical school, I moved.

It's only been 9 months. It feels like it was much longer ago.

You bellend. I moved to America with Pierre last week.

Yeah, okay.

If you hadn't destroyed my trust, we would have told you.

Destroyed your trust? Long live America.

Long live Daddy Trump and say hello, Biden.

Mr. Biden.

Poland. And if you go watch that video, you can see my excuses of why I left in the first place, which—

Is she Polish? She definitely looks Eastern European.

But it's entertaining, so I put it back up. And I wanted to get into why I left YouTube in the first place, because I feel like when I was making videos, it just became something that I had to do instead of something that I wanted to do. And YouTube at first started as a hobby, and I didn't expect to get any followers. For some reason, I thought that I would just make videos for myself and not have any attention. So then when I finally got followers, I got nervous that—

Wait, where's the video where she mentions me? I think it was in This one, she said something like— what did she say? She was saying how I realized that sleeping around is not a good thing.

So my hair nature is great to venture into, aka a real honey of them maybe, and single-handedly replenishing the bee pot. And I'm really sorry I just haven't really had the, um, inspiration to be making videos.

I don't know what happened.

Some like trigger— don't really like to get in any sort of conflict. I do have opinions that people largely disagree with, which honestly I have no idea why people largely disagree with.

Oh, that's the anxiety guy.

I know a lot of the ex-PUAs are starting to come out and say casual sex is bad after—

Oh yeah, yeah.

Words of it for years and years. And, um, our friend Daniel also decided that casual sex is bad after he got back together with his wife.

See, she said my name. Who remembers? That was when I got back with Chihiro and I was saying I didn't like casual sex. I kind of miss casual sex now.

Daniel. Don't you think it is weird that over half of your fanbase now is guys who want to have—

Cereal.

Cereal with you? I would be annoyed and creeped out by that.

Doesn't really annoy me. It's okay, I guess. Listen to her talk about me.

And, um, our friend Daniel also decided that casual sex is bad after he got back together with his wife. Like, the things I'm saying aren't like, oh my God, she's so crazy. I've never— hello everybody, it's been a long time since I filmed a YouTube because I thought—

But her views aren't great anymore. She was getting amazing views. She had way more videos, but they were all getting like hundreds of thousands, and now she's back. Hmm, how many subs does she have?

40K.

She's doing like Lana Blakely topics. Look, it's just like Lana Blakely stuff. How to be alone, going back to medical school. Anyway, No, she's talking about me. She used to watch my channel. Maybe if I search her name in my comment section, the comments would come up. Futility.

Hi everybody, welcome back to another video.

Another video.

Get unmodded books or videos or anything will help unless you're willing to change the way that you think about things. And one of my favorite philosophers actually says that if you want to think that something is meaningful, then first you must believe it is, and without any justification.

How to be alone.

People hate it when I sip my You know, there's a difference between solitude and loneliness. Solitude helps us figure out something important about ourselves, build character.

I should visit Poland. I think she lives in America.

And our relation to other people. However, on the other hand, loneliness is a feeling of detachment from the outside world, detachment from other people.

I'm not really into these psychologist kind of videos.

Hi everybody, welcome back to another video. Today's video is about 5 things I've learned about relationships so far, coming from your own 24-year-old Ashley. And these are just 5 things that I've come to learn about relationships and dating, and because it makes you feel like even though you have a string of meeting people you don't get along with—

And she's in Poland.

Really?

I think her videos in the beginning— why did they get so many views? Look, she's got blonde hair.

So the year after I graduated high school, I went to— I'm not eating for a really long time. I decided I would apply to medical school in Poland.

Anxiety walk, trying to hit on her. You're definitely the most attractive person I've ever seen on YouTube. Alright, Zach, get back to your pedo hunting. Look at Zach hitting on her. But she said my name in the video, not yours. I don't like Zach, he looks like this American guy I met in Japan who was a bit annoying. He's got this weird obsession with pedos. So weird. You're the most attractive person I've ever seen on YouTube. I love you, Ashley. Anxiety War, what a stupid channel name. Why, why is his channel called Anxiety Wars and his whole content is all about catching pedos? I always quit.

Welcome back to another—

Is Zach back in the comments?

It's been a while, and rest assured I'm still alive, I'm still here, we're still trucking away. One of my worst personality traits that I used to have is I would chronically quit things whenever things got tough, and this week was especially tough. I definitely had some thoughts where I was like, why am I doing this? This is way too much work. And the thing is about me is that I'm a chronic quitter. If you've been watching this channel for a while, you can tell I sometimes quit things. I quit things when they're going well. I quit things when they just start to get tough. I quit things that probably would be better—

Just leave a comment.

Hello everybody, productivity guru Ashley here, and we are going to talk about how to stop being lazy because we gotta, we gotta stop doing that. That's not true. I'm not a productivity guru. I am not even close to that. I waste a lot of time. I'm extremely lazy. And no, this isn't gonna be a negative video, but we have to accept some things about ourselves. We have to accept that we are lazy, and I feel like on YouTube There's a lot of people who come on here and say, I've never been lazy in my life, I'm always productive.

Winky face.

I work 24 hours a day. And I just don't buy it. I don't buy that all the time. Sometimes it seems fake. So we're gonna make a real video about how to stop being lazy, how to be productive, and—

Yeah, not as good as her old videos that went viral. Her older videos were very Like, how should I describe it? Lecturing weird guys on how not to be weird. Anti-incel. Now they're just like, how to not be lazy, stuff like that.

These are tips coming from me, and I'm wearing a turtleneck, so that means you have to accept my advice. So, well, Because I don't always need to be doing something. I can literally just sit, chill, do nothing for hours upon hours, sometimes even a whole winter break, a whole spring break. Yeah, you know the college winter break? My room for like 4 days. So I accepted that I was just like, oh, um, maybe social media, and those things probably aren't giving much back to you. You're getting like the—

Hmm, well, nice to see her again. I was a bit sad when she quit. She looks cute in this one.

Good morning, my turtles, and welcome back to another video. Today's video is on unrequited love, a very depressing topic that I will somehow try and make less depressing.

Why is the audio out of sync?

Why wouldn't they like you back? Well, then that's just the problem of unrequited love, and I'm pretty sure we've all been in some sort of situation like this where you idolize someone, you Oh, my back.

Oh, thank you, BNHJK.

I feel like Anxiety Ward's channel is a giant virtue signal used to distract from his other issues. Issues. It's good that he is helping to stop people from exploiting children, but I am Skeptical about his true motives and personality, tbh.

Yeah, I always thought he came across as a little bit strange. Like, he seems really eager to expose bad people. Why is he so eager? Maybe he just really wants to save children. How magnanimous. My new favorite word, magnanimous. Oh, how magnanimous. It's quite a nice word. Who else did we forget? Oh, it's Mr. Mark.

A haircut and an iPod and piercings and a strap-on.

Strap-on?

As an example.

Uh, sorry, excuse me, I ordered, uh, 3 pilau rice and 3 peshwari naans. It's all right, Jeremy, it's all right, I changed the order. There's always rice left. It's not all right. Bring us 3 pilau rice and 4 peshwari naans, please.

So awkward.

I've shared enough rice with you, Mark. I'm in the big league now.

4 naan, Jeremy? 4? That's insane.

So what am I going to— British comedy. 4 naan, that's insane. I love Peep Show. I watched all of it, and then when Mina was here, we watched it together. One of my favorites. I like the Gunny episodes when they got the gun. You're playing with Gunny? Aren't they planning to, to carry on making it when they're older? So they pick off— pick up from where they left off, and they're old now, and they're still living together in the same apartment. That'd be so depressing. Stuck together forever. Oh, it's Venus. It's crazy Venus was so popular. 250 million views. It's like Chris Broad level back in the day. What's she doing now? She's doing mostly live streams like me.

Venus, kannst du etwas auf Schweizerdeutsch? What's she saying?

It's not speaking English.

Whatever.

Why is the video quality so bad? This is worse than mine.

Is this life creepy?

A little bit. It looks so gloomy. Oh, don't cry.

Is jiraiya similar to yamiko?

Yeah, I think it's like a fashion thing where they look like this.

I'll be right back. Great. Why is it not working right now? Oh my gosh, I hate you.

Do you want to fucking fight?

Copying my music. Cooking with Daniel music.

Ah, okay, okay.

I think I got it. Wait, didn't this girl used to comment on my videos too? Cindy Grace. I remember that name. See where if she has any of my viewers. Do do do do do do do.

Oh my gosh!

Um. Which one? Oh, okay, it's this one.

The cooking music is called Bookbag. It's copyright-free music if you search Bookbag. No, not that. Bookbag piano eJammy is this one. Hello and welcome back to another episode of Cooking with Daniel. Oh, it makes me sad. Reminds me of Japan.

I can't see the smoke.

Bring back cooking. I can't. I did cooking today, but I just put stuff in the oven. It's not fun. Today I'm gonna make a curry pizza. First you need some bacon, eggs, and onions. I quite like making them. I want to make something weird, make a big mess. Am I feeling less depressed? Yeah, the Twitch streams are much less annoying than the YouTube stream. Mode was still good. It was after me though. I need to get back into it. I need to get girls messaging me again. Do do do do do do do do do. What videos would girls like? You were mad before ending it last night. Yeah, cuz people kept spamming, that stupid bot person. Is the Magic Keyboard worth it? No, I never use it, and the Magic Keyboard drains the iPad battery really quickly, so the battery dies even faster than it usually does. Waste of money, and I barely even type anyway. I don't know why I got it. My new videos are just kind of boring. I was still in Germany. I wasn't even allowed to— I did try a bit on this one. People would find out that I'm in Rotterdam. I put 2 and 2 together and realized that we're back together. I felt like this video had kind of old style vibes, had music. Hi, so the winter has finished and spring's here and summer is coming soon. The sun's out, the weather's getting Really nice, and I'm feeling a lot better. Recently I have been kind of down. I've been in a dark place mentally, and I haven't felt so great. But I feel like times are changing, moods are shifting, and I'm starting to— starting to look forwards. My face looks weird, like I'm really forcing myself to make this. Like, I really don't want to talk. Physical appearances and physical attractiveness I look so dead inside. Don't delete the old videos. I don't want to, but if they're putting the channel at risk, then I have no choice. It's so hard getting back into the pre-Meta mood. It's also pretty important. I don't care how great your personality is, it's not going to matter at all if I don't feel Very attractive. And I do live streams, and I also do OnlyFans, which is another thing you kind of have to be okay with. OnlyFans pays really, really well. I'm barely even uploading anything to it. I about— I thought it was an okay video. I was a bit disappointed that it didn't even get 10K views yet. I think it will after Maybe after a few more days it could hit 10K. Just need to be patient now. Very difficult to get 10K in the first 2 days. No, this was a new video. It's not a 2019 video. I uploaded it April 19th. Maybe people don't even know about it. It's so easy for them, they just lived in Korea, wired it across to Korea because we had to prove we had— That one got okay views, but this wasn't very good. I need a good topic that I could talk about that doesn't make me seem like a dickhead. It's just really hard when you're depressed. My last decent video. I thought the— when I got back from Rotterdam, I was in quite a good mood. This one, I was in a good mood.

People—

I'm not really that interested in people's stories in the first place. I'm not really much of a people person.

People person?

New meaningful connections with, with new people. I don't know why that is, but yeah. I like making videos like this. It's easy, I look good. It's hard to do that now because outside every day is really sunny and it just blinds me and I can't even keep my eyes open. I just wish I could make videos where I'm talking about something I care about, I don't come across as a massive dick, and I look good so girls want to message me. Those are the 3 criteria. It's just hard. Number one, it's hard finding topics I really care about talking about. And then number 2, it's hard to look good. Sometimes my hair looks rubbish, and then the weather makes things difficult. These were my going crazy videos. I had to keep stuff secret. This was a really tough time. So you want to attract women? Yeah, I'm not really doing a good job at it. Uh, I keep flipping between, I want to make videos that make girls like me, and then I get desperate for views and I think, ah, screw it, I'm gonna make a video even if I sound like a dickhead ruining my chances. I'd like to attract those girls who are into the whole kind of they want to be fucked kind of fantasy. There's some girls out there, they've got this fetish where they like being effed. I think they called it CNC, or like sex slave.

Fetish.

I quite like that. It's quite hot. Look when we got the kitten. Mr. Meow Meow, hello. Even getting a kitten didn't get views. What the hell? Don't be scared. Oh, I got a sub. Psycho Squeaks, thank you very much. I'm not sure if people can chat. Maybe I'll turn that off now. I think the spammer has gone to bed. I'll let people who joined today chat. Moderation, follow only mode off. Okay, new people can chat now. You used a bad thumbnail. I thought it was a good thumbnail, it was a picture of a cute kitten. Oh, it's so sweet.

After you.

It was so sad because it looked really happy with its brothers and sisters, and then we just ripped it away from its family all by itself. I felt really sad. I wanted to buy a kitten too so it would have company, but it's so damn expensive. It was like €250. Mr. Meow Meow. Hey Daniel, I used to I used to be in your Discord a while back before it went away. I have a new Discord now if you want to join again. Trying to ban the trolls so it's less toxic. It looks so sad, and it was really— oh my God, it was so stressful getting that kitten back home. Number 1, Mida forgot to charge her travel card So we couldn't get on the tram or the bus, so we had to walk all over trying to find an ATM so she could charge her travel card, and then she got lost, and then we got on the wrong bus that was taking us in the wrong direction, and then we had to get off and then get on another bus. It was a nightmare. And then we were carrying this kitten in a cage around, and I was just rolling my eyes. The whole time thinking, oh my God, how do you not know how to get back to your home? And she was freaking out as well. It was so stressful. She's so scatterbrained. Like, you go out, you don't even know if your travel card is topped up or not. I couldn't get an Uber because there were no Ubers around the area. Driving me crazy.

What's it doing?

Poor kitten. I wonder if it's okay. It got really big. I was so surprised when I went on Christmas. It was huge. Bit of a boring video. Oh, back in the day, I wouldn't— I would not have made this a video. This would have been like an ending to one of my clickbait videos just to make it 10 minutes. This was the best apartment I stayed in. Some things I don't like about living in the Netherlands. My biggest problem with this country is the rent is insanely expensive. So I'm on a visa, just to check, make sure. And a restaurant would be— it was such a nice place. I went to a restaurant, look at this place, and then we finished eating and then we have to pay the bill and then I don't have any Cash and they don't take Visa. What am I supposed to do? I don't understand. Where's that shirt? Yeah, I don't have that shirt because, um, this was the first merch I ever made, 2017, just for fun. I didn't even sell it. I only made 2 copies and I think I gave one to Tomoko, but I'm not sure where this image went. The H.I.M.R. Look at that view. Even if it was raining in Japan, it'd be— it was so nice having a good time shopping, hanging out. But here in the Netherlands, in Rotterdam, I don't know. What British entertainers do I enjoy? I used to really like Simon Amstel from Never Mind the Buzzcocks. I really like David Mitchell from Peep Show. I like Jonathan Ross. I don't know why so many people hate him. I think he's funny. I like Stephen Fry. I missed him. I miss him from— I miss him being on QI. The streets just look kind of—

you just have to look out. Food was just Terrible, but she's fine.

Yeah, this apartment was amazing. Ah, these videos make me miss Mila a bit. She wasn't even in the video, just the thumbnail got 40K views and the title. Hi, I got a girlfriend. This was the depression phase. Alone in Berlin, I felt so alone. Ah, looking at this makes me sad. This is when Mila left. Look how sad I am. I think I cried in this one. I was so depressed. When do I cry? Look, I'm crying.

Got a runny—

got a runny nose.

Heartbroken.

Just got a runny nose.

Runny nose.

This morning she went back home. I feel terrible. She left because she felt like she was here for too long and she was getting bored. She didn't go to Korea, she just— she went back home to the Netherlands, back to her mom's place. See, people are such dickheads. Look, 400 dislikes. Why are people disliking this? Look how sad and upset I am. Why would you dislike it? And I got used to having her around. Now it's weird that she's suddenly gone. I'm not sure. I feel like going back to Japan won't really result in anything. I never had much luck in Japan. Sad times. How happy I was here.

Oh.

Hello and welcome back to— And then she jumps off the fence and runs towards me at the end. It was cute. If she's upset, then I'm upset, and trust me, you do not want to make me upset. It was funny, I used to do that when I was younger. When I was in my early 20s, I used to do the exact same thing. I'd stand up there and jump off, and then I thought I was so So cool. I'd probably break my leg if I tried doing it now. Meina did a lot of things I used to do.

That's dangerous!

I used to do that all the time. You could hurt yourself.

What are you doing?

He's filming. She's cute, look. That's dangerous!

You're dangerous!

You could hurt yourself.

What are you doing?

He's filming you.

No!

Do you have anything to say?

Yeah, Daniel should stop talking shit in the garden.

I'm defending you. I'm defending you against the haters.

Thank you, you're on my side now.

I'm your protector. And then we did— we're making a tent— did it in a tent, sleeping in the garden.

Yeah, I'm not alone. Yes, Mimo.

Mimo is in there. She's inside here. Why do you think Mita has a weird face?

Yes, I got it. You see, the roof opens. Mrs.

Mimo, Mrs. Mimo. Daniel, help! I'm filming.

Alexa.

Live Q&A. Daniel and Mira will kiss.

I think it's working.

Is it live?

Why?

$200 and Sabrina comes.

Do it, it's about you.

She made weird sounds when she laughed. Sometimes she did like a snorting sound.

What, showing the belly?

You already showed your belly in the thumbnail.

You were naked inside of it and you zoomed in on your nipple. That's what you said just now.

In the thumbnail. I like her accent sometimes. Nintendo Switch video.

What the fuck?

I dropped the camera and I— I didn't like how she kept swearing. That's just the fat coming out.

Bleh.

Oh, I'm so annoyed I sold my Switch. We could have played games. I'm gonna get the Switch Lite.

Drink.

Oh look, it's T-pop fever.

Money slapped Daniel in the face for his t-shirts.

Aw, it was fun. I felt like I finally got a YouTube streaming partner that I actually liked. Ah, I wish I could do that again. I need to find a new girl. It was so nice. After years and years of being alone and unhappy in relationships, I felt like I finally found someone I really liked.

What did— I mean, depends.

Yes, then you have to.

That's what normal people do.

But I'd regret it. I keep thinking, what if I asked her? She might have said yes, to be honest.

What the fuck?

And we fell asleep and I woke up and I was horny like usual. Oh wow, it's 4 AM. Maybe I should sleep. Bringing home my new girl. We're nearly there.

Yay!

Keep going.

We're going to the graveyard.

I'm going to bury Daniel.

Visit my grandfather. Inside.

Hello, welcome to Daniel's crib.

My home.

Okay, please give me a tour.

I'm in Korea.

It's on the ground, leaving the house. Don't—

I would never.

I'm just kidding. Mhm.

We've got Netflix and Mario Kart. She's the kind of person who You start to feel a bit annoyed after a while when she's around all the time, but then when she's gone, the silence is like deafening, and then you miss her. She can be very loud and over-energetic, and you feel like you want a break from it, but then when she left I felt so empty and dead inside. It was like everything was just too quiet now.

No reason.

And then we went shopping. That was fun.

We're gonna buy the store empty.

Buy the store empty.

This is like a normal party mix kit.

Fusilli.

Thermostat.

Going to be so heavy in the oven.

I can't.

Do you think Medith thinks about you from time to time? Maybe. I hope she's not too upset if she heard any of the things I said about her. I still really liked her, and I still felt really strongly about her— for her. I hope she knew that at least. I just— I feel like the things I complained were pretty nitpicky, not really massive things, but I guess she would be upset.

He smacked my lip. It's swollen.

Who hit you?

Daniel hit me!

Daniel hit me!

No, you hit yourself.

He's bad.

Yeah, the thing is, look, here's the problem. For a guy like me, having an experience like that was probably like once in a lifetime thing, very rare. But for a girl like Mila, she's gonna have like She's gonna have loads more experiences with different guys who are gonna be better than me, probably give her a better experience. That's how I feel. Now, if she wants it. I mean, if she just wants to be alone now and she's not really looking for anyone, but as soon as she wants it again, she could just easily find a new guy who would be way better than me. And then she can have all that again whenever she wants because she's an attractive girl. Me, on the other hand, I'm fucked. You could find another woman too. Yeah, but it's not gonna be as good as that. It's gonna be a lot easier for Mira to find a new guy who's better than me than it is going to be for me finding a new girl who's better than Mira. I think she could easily get a decent guy, like one of those guys who are really positive and happy and they've got like a beard and they work in a smoothie shop and they have a pet goat, someone like that. I just feel like I'm so far from the kind of guy she would want. I'm so negative. And I'm so self-sabotaging and I'm so defeatist. That's not what she wanted, I could tell. It's not what anyone wants. Oh, that's what makes me depressed at night these days, just thinking, yeah, she's gonna find a much better guy easily, anytime. Maybe even now she has one.

I don't know.

I feel like I liked her way more than she liked me. Don't you? I've seen the guys she hung out with in Korea, and they were attractive and confident. They seemed like decent guys. I don't really feel like it would be difficult for her to replace me. I don't really feel confident that I can replace her. It won't be the same. It won't be as good. I don't know. I already unblocked her. I unblocked her straight away after the livestream when I blocked her. What if a woman felt about you as you felt about her?

What do you mean?

I feel like relationships are always unbalanced. Usually one person likes the other person more than they like them. And then when 2 people like each other the same amount, then It's a good relationship that lasts long. 2020, what a year. Shut down my computer. Should go to sleep soon. Oh, my best date! Look at me preparing. Very nice day. How long was I with her? I was with her for about— started in March, ended in December, but then we had a few months apart, separated.

Come on.

But you said you were gonna be here at 2:10 and I called you 2 times.

Did you?

Yeah, I'm nervous.

I ignored her phone call because I was nervous. Why?

Where are we going?

I don't know.

I mean, we're gonna go to the trampoline park, but I don't know how to get there.

It's really bumpy.

Yeah, I think you're lying.

No, she said I was really short.

The next station is—

No cheating. Could we extend it if we wanted to? An additional hour is how it goes. Um, it's for a discounted price. Let us know how you feel after the end of the session.

Yeah, maybe we're going to be tired.

Yeah, while there's time, guys, go ahead. I'm not tired, I'm young. Wow, I've never been to a place like this.

It's really children's.

There's hardly any people here. It was really fun. Which one do you want to do?

No, it's making me tired.

Did she make you take the videos down? No, I put them back up. I took them down in the first place Because I thought it would be like a good gesture. And I felt— I felt like I really regret taking them in the first place and publicizing it. And I felt like if I kept it a secret, then maybe she wouldn't have rejected me. So I took them down because I felt like I wish I didn't take them in the first place. She didn't ask me to take them down. She only asked me to take one down where she looked weird or something. And then I put them back up after she dumped me. I like this one. I like when she jumps on me. See, see how physical we were with each other straight away? The way she jumped on me like that. We only knew each other for like 2 hours. At that point, and we were already physically intimate, like jumping on each other, pushing each other. You could tell straight away we kind of clicked. There was no awkwardness, it just felt natural. That just never happens on dates. Usually on a date you go to some boring restaurant and you don't do anything fun.

Wow.

This was just before the lockdown began. Piccadilly Circus. Ah, this song makes me depressed. That's why I don't listen to music. In London. Hello. I went to a restaurant. Why is it dirty?

It's okay, we can do it ourselves. So cool!

Chamber pot beef.

How's that?

Yeah, this was not good. It was like everything was boiled. I thought it'd be flame grilled like usual yakiniku style.

My pan. What is this?

It's a pan. A pot. It's like a pan.

Did you drink everything?

Yeah.

How does it taste?

It tastes— And then this was before we started kissing. Oh, what a great time. And then next one, she was in my house. We did a birthday stream. I was so depressed in Korea and lonely, and she just pulled me out of a dark hole. I miss those days. You could make a video how to have a good date with a woman. I know what I like to do. It would be something physical, but not really sporty. Something to break the ice. The trampoline park really helped to break the ice because we weren't— we were doing something instead of just walking around aimlessly. I think I'm gonna go to sleep. It's half past 4. You know, after everything, like trying to make money, trying to Be good at what you do, trying to learn new skills. All that's great and all, but nothing beats the feeling of meeting someone you really, really like. That has to be the best feeling I've had in life. All of those romantic video games I played, like Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy IX with the princess, all those romantic ideas coming into reality was just amazing. It's so powerful, the emotions you feel. Who cares about getting views on YouTube, stocks going up or down? Just makes all that stuff just seem irrelevant, pointless— not pointless, but tiny in comparison. It took me 32 years— no, 31 years to experience it. Maybe it was a once-in-a-lifetime thing. What if it takes another 31 years to find it again? You're kind of romantic sometimes. Yeah, I think I'm a bit of a romanticist, but people don't really notice it because they just think all I want is sex and all I want is a hot girl and I don't want to put any effort into it. They don't get it. They don't know me. They just judge me. They don't know what I really want. That's what pisses me off so much. They don't even put in the effort to try and understand me, and they just start throwing insults. If I find the right person, I think I can be pretty romantic and I can do the right thing. I just need the right person. I don't really know how to handle it. What to do with these memories. I feel like I want to make a shrine. And pray to it like a memory— memory shrine. Cherish it. What would it be like? Would that be weird? I thought about getting a photo frame of us together. Putting candles around it, that's creepy. Cut her out? Guess I have to. No, I'm not deleting the videos. They're my happy memories. I should download them in case my channel gets deleted. Yeah, tomorrow. I'm gonna download them, save it to my hard drive. My task for tomorrow. Put them on my SD card. Well, I'm gonna go to bed and have— probably have a nightmare about getting rejected again. What would the candle shrine do? I don't know. Oh, it's a cat. Oh, that's creepy. I just saw something running across. I could pray to the shrine like some kind of religious person.

I saw something out there.

Oh my God, I can hear birds singing. That's when you know you have to go to sleep. I hate it when birds start singing before you've gone to sleep. It just feels wrong. How are the birds waking up at four? I just want to prepare my desk for tomorrow, so I don't have to do too much. I'm running out of tissue. They really don't last long. This is how I prepare for sleep. I have my chair here so I can put my glasses there. I need to get like a bedside table. I can move that table here. I've only got 2 beers left. I didn't even do the birthday stream yet. Oh, I hate it when stuff drops behind the back. I think it's just a GoPro battery. Don't need it. This was a waste of money. Sweet. Thanks for joining the stream. Might stream on Sunday, might have a break tomorrow. When will I do the birthday stream? I think I'll do it on Monday, give people a chance to see the last stream first. I've got this box, got some extra presents to pretend to open. Okay, good night.