[2025-03-08] life's getting worse... [ntKWCqxQTSc]

Um, testing,

testing, 1, 2.

Testing.

Testing. Testing. Do you like

my new room? Been very busy reorganizing

my house. It's funny, I keep moving all my

furniture around into different rooms.

First I moved it upstairs and then moved

it back down here and then moved it back

up again and then moved it back down

again. Now I've moved everything into this

room, which is quite nice actually. It

gets really nice and warm during the day.

Yeah, it does kind of look like a Japanese

room. Like these, um,

I don't know, the previous tenant, they

put some kind of wallpaper onto

the glass,

like this stuff. It peels off, it's

peeling in the corner.

It's pretty nice. I moved the sofa in here

too, and then when it's daytime I

can see out all the view.

I just need to move the curtains in so I

can close the curtains when it's

nighttime, but I need to get this

telescopic pole.

Yeah, it's pretty nice. It feels way

nicer in here than it does in that living

room. The living room feels so

Clostrophobic. And also it's colder in the

other room. Looks like a room in Resident

Evil. Why?

Oh my God, I just had the best dinner I've

ever— I don't know why, but my cooking is

so much better when I'm not streaming. I

cooked the pork belly perfectly. I put it

in the air fryer for like 40 minutes at

180 degrees and it cooked

perfectly. Before I was doing it at 200

degrees and it was just not good. And then

I cut it into little bits. Didn't even—

all that fussing around before, like

boiling it, pricking it, rubbing salt on

the skin. Didn't need to do any of that.

You just literally chuck it in at 180

degrees and leave it for like 30, 40

I don't know why all these YouTube videos

are like fussing around doing all this

stuff when you don't need to do it. And

then I had ramen, bean sprouts, and air

fried broccoli with the pork on top. Oh,

finally a good meal. I came home

from work and I was just eating all day

long. I was just eating, eating, eating.

It's made me so hungry.

Maybe because I had Huel at work and

that's not very filling. I don't know. I

had, I had like 4 big spoons

of Huel mixed with milk. That should have

been 400 or 500 calories. But I came home

and then I had sausage roll, packet of

crisps, KitKat,

and then I made a sandwich.

At five, I was just eating every two

hours, and then I just had big ramen with

pork belly. Might have another heel.

I don't know why I feel so hungry now.

For the first time in ages, I actually

felt really good about living here. It's

just so. I come home from work, and it's

like. Nice weather.

I come in here, this room, I sit on the

sofa and I look out the view. So much

nicer than in that living room.

It is kind of weird because the cat, it

jumps on the roof and it like walks around

on top and it's kind of spooky.

Yeah, now the sun's coming out more. It

really warms up in this conservatory.

I've got these little Japanese lanterns in

the corner. They're like square things,

and I've got a big one in that corner.

You can't really see it, but its

light bulb is white, and I need batteries

for the remote to change it to like a

yellowy. Bit annoying it didn't

come with batteries.

Yeah. So about Sunny,

basically she replied to me yesterday and

Turns out spamming her phone nonstop kind

of did the trick.

It is so weird because it feels like It

feels so dramatic, like the end of the

world. And then we kind of fix the problem

and then it just feels like, oh, back to

normal again. And then you feel kind of

silly for being so depressed about it.

It's weird. But the

problem is then you get comfy with it

again and then you start like getting on

each other's nerves and then another fight

happens. Because, you know,

after you feel like things are going well

and you feel like it's stable, you start

getting lazy, don't you? Like you start

feeling as if you can take— you

can be less— you can— what's the word?

You get too comfortable and then you just

become a bit lazy.

Stop putting as much effort in.

Yeah guys, I'm back in Japan. Look at the

furniture. How can I make this— I thought

I'd get all the tatami mats again and then

I'd completely cover this floor in tatami

mats. Um, but Sunny didn't like the smell

of the tatami mats, so If it's gonna make

the whole room smell like tatami mats,

she won't want to be in here.

I thought my mum and sister were coming on

the weekend. I just checked, they said

they're coming on the 18th. Until my

birthday, so that's basically Tuesday,

Wednesday, Thursday. I'm gonna have to

work.

They booked some Airbnb nearby, but I'm

gonna have to go to work in the morning

and then hopefully finish around 1 and

then go and meet them. So hopefully they

can wait for me to finish work before they

like go out. I thought they would

come on the weekend. I don't really want

to take a day off. I feel like the boss

doesn't like me.

He doesn't reply to my texts anymore.

It's really weird.

Now I'm scared to message him.

My stomach feels so satisfied.

You can just not go to work. If I don't go

to work, all the parcels for my village

are going to mountain up. And I

don't think anyone else takes the parcels

from my village. I think I'm the only one

doing it. Unless I'm wrong, because if

I leave parcels, they're there the next

day for me to pick up again. So I left,

um, 6 parcels there because I couldn't fit

my car yesterday. They were there this

morning. So no one

else is doing it. It's just me covering

that village. So if I didn't go to work

today, that would have been, what, 65

parcels undelivered? So the truck will

come again on I don't know if it comes on

Sunday or Saturday. I think it does come

on Saturday. So then the truck will come

and drop off another 70 parcels and then

on Monday I'll have 140 parcels to

deliver. So it's either I do it today or

I've got double the work on Monday.

And if I don't, I mean, what's the boss—

boss is going to be pissed. He'll be like,

Daniel, Why aren't your parcels getting

delivered? What are you doing? The whole

shed thing is going to just be busting

with all my parcels.

What was said during the talk?

You know, just, I'm sorry, we can fix it.

Won't do it again.

Let's not give up.

How do you think I should decorate the

room? What?

A TV would be so nice, like a big fat 65,

80-inch TV to put there. I wish I

could just— maybe I'll try and sell the

monitor and get a TV instead.

Yeah, big titty anime posters. All over

the windows. Yeah, maybe some plants,

like a bamboo plant in this corner would

be pretty good. Bamboo kind of leafy

plant.

Big massive TV. God, that'd be nice.

And then you get a PlayStation for the TV,

get rid of the monitor. Don't need the

monitor really. I put the fireplace ASMR

video on the monitor. It was really nice

last night. Oh wow,

thanks. Wait, is this the same house?

This place looks very different.

Different room also because it's dark, I

guess. Yeah, it is kind of dark. I got all

the lamps I bought. I bought 2 lamps,

corner lamps, bedside table lamps.

And I've got like a big corner standing

light over there. Still kind of dark,

isn't it? It's fine, I like it. I like it

kind of dim lighting, but would

be nice to have the option to make it a

bit brighter. Gotta get more lights, I

guess. I thought maybe fairy lights to go

around the edges.

How I have 2 living rooms. I've got a

conservatory. Now I don't know what to do

with the living room. The living room is

completely empty. It just has my desk and

my gaming chair. What can I do with the

living room? It's a big empty room that I

don't do anything with now. Get another

sofa for it.

I can hear talking. I don't know

if the sound is less insulated in here,

or maybe they're in their conservatory as

well.

Maybe they've got guests over. I never

usually hear them talking.

Turn it into a dining room. Nah, I always

eat on the sofa whilst watching something.

Not really much of a table eater.

Yeah, it's nice actually to have a day off

work. Did 6 days of work this week.

I don't think anything interesting

happened today.

Just a lot of dogs running up to me. It's

hard to tell because the gate's shut and

you think no one's home, but then they're

probably in the garden with the dogs, and

then the dogs hear me open the gate and

they come running at me. I just kind of

stare them in the eye and I go, shh, good

doggy.

Like try and pretend to be their friend or

something. They always

start sniffing my feet.

Have I got paid yet? No, I still don't

know how much I'm gonna get paid. He said

I was gonna get an invoice to see how much

I get paid, and I didn't get any invoice.

Got nothing. I just got an email saying,

oh, the invoice is going to be delayed

because they're having problems. Great.

Yeah, I paid rent. It was funny because

the real estate agency gave me the wrong

bank account number. I sent it and it kept

saying failed. So I messaged the landlord.

I said, is this the right number? He said

no. Stupid real estate agency. How can

they give me the wrong account number?

Imagine I just sent the money to a

completely different person. Yeah, he

seems nice. He said, how are you settling

in? I'll come down and say hi soon,

he said. Okay,

great. I quickly put all the radiators

back where they were because I unscrewed

the radiators. And I brought them all into

the living room when I was freezing,

and I put 3 radiators in there. I don't

think there's a problem. They're not wired

to the wall. They were just screwed to the

wall with a plug, so you just unscrew it

and then screw it back on.

Does he want to come in or what?

Have a cup of tea? Be kind of awkward.

Yeah, a bit weird about the job. First of

all, the boss was like really chatty,

really I

don't know, like, he was really supportive

and helpful, and now he doesn't even

reply. It's so strange.

I don't know what to do with that.

I feel like he's mad at me or something.

I can't really say anything. It'd be weird

if I'm like, why aren't you replying to my

messages? I sound like I'm this needy

Why is the camera so far? So you can get a

good view of my new room. Hiding in my new

room.

Yeah, I better get paid next week. I've

been working so hard, and I put a lot of

my eggs in this basket.

Basically, without this job, I'd be

screwed, probably. So hopefully

I'm not gonna get scammed.

Imagine I do all this work and they just

told me to stop coming and I didn't get

No, it must be more than 400. I've been

delivering about 70 parcels a day since

the 17th. That's at least 3

weeks. That's 5,

6, 18 days.

18 times 70.

I should have made like £1,200.

Like this week alone, I delivered 400

parcels. I think I've been delivering

like 400, 450 parcels

a week. I should have made like £1,000

plus.

Yeah, it's weird. The communication has

just completely shut down. In the

beginning, he was telling me a lot of

stuff, like how he's talking

to the boss and how he's going to split

these double shifts with me and this other

person. And now I just get absolutely

nothing.

Really weird.

I hate it when you don't get information

and then you start trying to guess what's

going on, and then you always end up— you

always end up going with worst-case

scenarios, like, oh,

he's not saying much because he's going to

have to fire me soon and he feels sad

He definitely Googled your name or got

sent something. I just don't see how,

because his, his phone number is not like

public or anything.

I would be worried if there's sudden shift

in tone. Yeah, weird. I just don't

understand.

Maybe he's mad because I messaged him on

his off day, but I didn't know it was his

off day.

Maybe I'll see you on Monday. I need to

ask him something.

You know they do background checks? I

don't think so. They usually tell you

they're going to do a background check,

and then you've got to pass the background

check to get the job, like Amazon Flex.

You did the background check on the app.

Same with Uber Eats, Deliveroo, they will

do a background check. But it's not like

they're Googling you and researching you,

they just check to see if you got a

criminal record or not. And that will show

up on the DBS database. It's not like

they're doing a Google search of your

name. And they don't care what you said on

Twitter in 2014. They just want to make

sure you don't have a criminal record.

But this company didn't do that.

I honestly don't think they care. They

just want people to deliver the parcels.

They want people who stick around, and

because they might have like high turnover

rates.

I haven't done anything illegal. I've just

done a bit weird stuff when I was younger

and last year.

Oh well, maybe he doesn't like

me, so he's being cold, hoping I'm gonna

quit. Because I'm not

like the others. I'm not like one of the

gang. I'm a bit weird.

I don't know, there's other foreigners

there too that just stick to themselves

and don't really talk.

Why aren't you talking about Sunny

anymore? Um, sensitive topic.

God, I feel hungry again. What's going on?

I'm just checking the older message with

the boss, and he was so chatty.

Ugh, whatever.

Who knows what's going on? Like, maybe

there's some trouble with management.

He's stressed out. He's got to figure out

how to solve some problem. I don't know.

You just— you never know what's going on

in people's minds, do you? He said

something about how he had been given the

task of looking for, like, a proper site

for a warehouse for us instead of these

little shed things.

So maybe he's just like really busy.

It's just my biggest concern is the boss

thing. I just don't know why.

It was after Sunny blocks me, wasn't it?

I felt like things are kind of weird.

God, it feels a bit stuffy in here.

I don't know, like I need to open the

window or something.

I mean, it is basically a glass box with

no ventilation.

What if I'm gonna suffocate?

Yeah, not really anything interesting

happened at work today. Let me think.

Went there, went here, delivered,

delivered to this place.

Couldn't find one address, so I didn't

deliver it. I think I found it now.

Yeah, very uneventful,

which is good. I mean, I don't want every

day to be drama at work.

I don't know if it's stuffy or my nose is

just blocked.

People have complained about your

deliveries. Yeah, what if he's not

happy with my performance?

I did get 2 feedback things saying

delivered to the wrong house. Yeah,

because your stupid house doesn't have a

stupid number on it. It's not my fault I

didn't deliver to the right house. It's

your fault because you didn't— didn't

write your address properly. You either

didn't write your address properly, or you

got a stupid house that doesn't show up on

Google Maps with a silly name. Like,

oh, the Crow's Outlook,

the Raven's Nest. They give the house a

name, but the name isn't like officially

the name of the house. It doesn't show up

on the map. And then I'm like, well,

where the hell does this parcel go then?

And then I just guess, or I think this is

the house. It's like it goes 1,

3, 7, 9,

and then the one next to 9 doesn't have a

number, so I think, oh, it must, must be

11 then, that one.

Stupid people don't, don't number their

houses properly and then complain when

delivery men deliver to the wrong place.

And then they're like, oh, negative

reviews, your fault, stupid idiot. Uh,

it's not my fault. I deliver 99% of the

parcels to the right place. It's just when

you got a stupid address.

How's it my fault? Maybe label your house

better. I don't have to go

knocking around the whole neighborhood

asking them, do you know where this house

is? Sometimes I have to resort to that

because I just don't know.

Sometimes I don't

know. What do I do then? Do I just not

deliver it? They'll just never get their

parcel. Or yeah, I did once

have to phone them up and ask them for

directions. I'm busy, I got 70 parcels

to deliver, I can't be wasting time

phoning people up. I'd only do it if I'm

like really desperate or near the end of

delivering everything.

Or I go home and I do homework and I

search on Google Maps, see if I can find

the house. Really annoying.

It's their fault, and then I get punished

for not knowing where their house is.

I go on Google Street View and I like zoom

in to the house names to see if I can find

it.

You're not getting punished? Well, I don't

know. If I do it too many times, I might

get in trouble. Maybe the boss's boss is

saying, oh, Daniel's doing a really bad

job. And then the boss of mine is like

taking the responsibility because he's the

one who hired me and vouched for me. And

I'm doing a bad job. I don't think I'm

doing that badly. Come on. I delivered

like 1,000 parcels. Only 2 have said I've

sent it to the wrong house. 2 out of over

1,000 parcels, pretty good ratio.

Although on the flip side, I did get some

really positive comments saying, wow, he

actually found our house.

That's funny. Gave me like a super

positive rating just because I was able to

find the house. And this is one house that

I only knew it was there because I drove

past it and I saw the house name and then

I remembered it. But when you Google it,

it doesn't show up at all.

Maybe it's them.

Yeah, that's nice.

Yeah, delivering can be really easy when

you know where to go, but then you get

these few deliveries where you've got no

idea, or the map sends you to the wrong

side of the house, like the, the back side

of the house where there's no entry point

to the house, and then you go all the way

back to the opposite side. They also,

when you get a rating that says you

delivered to the wrong house, it doesn't

tell you who that was for, you know,

protect their privacy. Because if I know

who they are, I might like go bang bang

bang. How dare you rate me notably? But

then it would also be nice if they told me

which house I delivered to wrongly so I

don't do it again. So now I have no idea

which house I delivered wrongly to, and

I'm just gonna do it again. So it's kind

of silly.

Maybe they get scared, like if they know

that I know who's giving me a bad

rating, then I might get mad at them or

something. Now every time I I hand over a

parcel, I'm thinking, was it you? You did

it, didn't you? I feel kind of nervous.

What if they know that I know?

He won't talk about Sunny or she'll get

mad. No,

she just said, um,

It would be better if I don't talk about

it too much because things are still kind

of fragile and we gotta

rebuild trust and stuff.

Where is Daniel? I moved into my new

Japanese house. It looks really big

because of the reflection in the window.

It looks massive.

Yeah, quite a nice day today.

If I can't talk about it, why bother

streaming? Because why not stream?

Why buy a whole house when only one room

is livable? Yeah, I do feel like I got all

these rooms that I'm not using at all.

Well, I do use the tiny bedroom as my

exercise room. I've got my dumbbells in

there. And I dry my hair in there. And

they've got the bedroom for sleeping,

kitchen obviously for cooking,

living room— I don't know what to do with

the living room now. It would make a good

VR headset room because it's just an empty

room where you can flail about,

but I'd rather sit in here. It is way

cozier in here and much nicer with

the windows.

I don't know what to do with the living

room.

Yeah, the wind is kind of strong today. I

can hear it rattling the roof.

Your house is made for 3 to 5 people.

I don't know, maybe a very small family,

like 2 adults and then a child in the

small room,

or single parent with a child, or just a

couple. Like, most of the people here are

elderly couples. I don't see any kids

around. These houses are

too small for a family, which is kind of

good. I didn't plan it to be like that,

but actually it was good planning to get a

house like this because all the houses are

the same and

it's way too small for a family.

If it rains, it'll be nice. The sound of

the rain would be cool.

My mum's nervous about driving here. It is

a pretty long drive, 5 hours. I said it's

easy, you just go around the M25 and then

come off it before you start going towards

Heathrow Airport, and it's basically a

straight line all the way. Also, she won't

have to charge. She could probably do it

all in one go. I think it's 250 miles.

Her Peugeot has a range of like 360 miles.

But I don't know if you want— you might

want to take a break. It took me like

7 or 8 hours because we had to charge the

car twice. The first charging took 2 hours

and I got fined £100 for staying in the

car park too long. Oh, the joys of

electric cars. It takes ages to charge and

then you get fined for being there too

long. That is so stupid.

I thought it's an electric car charger.

I'm here to charge. Why am I getting

fined? But they did have warning signs

saying parking rules apply.

And then had to charge again after

driving another 2 hours.

Electric cars are really annoying when

it's cold and when you

do a long trip.

I've been fined so many times with this

car. I got that fine for going in the bus

lane. I got the fine for the parking— car

park place, £100. I got the police fine

that pulled me over, £100. I think I've

paid £230 in fines now. Haven't been

caught by any speed cameras yet.

I don't drive like a grandma. I drive too

fast, actually. I hate 30 mile per hour

and 40 mile per hour speed limit zones.

So stupid. It's like a big massive road

and then it says 40 miles per hour.

Uh, no thanks.

But on the country lanes, yeah, I do go a

God, I thought I was going to crash today.

I was going 30 miles per hour through the

country lanes and it was a bit downhill

and then I was approaching the bend a bit

too fast. Massive white van just appears

out of nowhere and I slammed the brakes,

but the car didn't stop. I was like

pushing the brake down thinking, come on,

stop, stop, stop, stop. But he was still

going. Surely, I thought,

if you slam the brakes at 30, it's just

gonna come to a stop. I don't know if

there's something wrong with my brakes.

Oh, I'm not pressing it hard enough.

Just felt like, why isn't it stopping?

I'm pressing the brake. Thankfully it did

stop. I think it's just because it was a

steep road and momentum physics

was carrying me forwards.

Just gotta go a bit slower, I guess. 30 is

way too fast going around those country

bends.

Oh, sorry, I'm getting my hip joint pain

again. I don't know why.

The chlamydia joint pains.

Oh, my arm aches holding the mic. I don't

know what to do with this mic. I'll hold

it now because there's nowhere to put my

mic stand.

I feel like I need to breathe air.

Yeah, it's like really stuffy in here.

So the problem is if I open the window,

it's gonna get cold. I've shut the windows

and door to keep the heat in, but it feels

Maybe if I open the door to the living

room.

God, I feel the draft coming in now.

How did I move the sofa? Well, the sofa

comes in 2 parts. The long bit is not

attached to the other bit. Well, there's a

hook you can attach it to, but I haven't

attached it because I can't be bothered.

Oh, that's better. I can feel there's like

air blowing in. I don't know how there's

air blowing in if I have all the doors

shut. This place must be drafty,

but I need to ventilate it. It gets really

stuffy. I was falling asleep because lack

of oxygen, maybe.

It's like a greenhouse.

Oh God, I can feel the oxygen coming back

in. God, this place really is like a gas

chamber with all the doors shut.

Oh yeah,

free energy floating in the air.

Don't know what to do tomorrow. I might

clean my car. It's so dirty inside.

There's like bits of mud all over it.

I might clean my car, clean the toilet and

shower. I thought maybe

I'd go to the Tesco Superstore,

see if they got anything nice I can

decorate this room with.

It's already pretty nice though. Oh,

maybe they got like a TV or something.

I think I just want to sleep a lot and

then maybe go to the Tesco's or maybe the

garden center.

You don't shower every day? Of course I

do. That's why my shower

is dirty, because I use it every day. I

might just put toilet duck all over it.

Spending all the gains. Yep,

that's what you do.

You work, you get the money, and then you

use the money to improve your life.

I think having a nice room where you feel

relaxed and the feng shui heals your

soul, there's just nothing better.

I moved my stuff in here and I felt so

relaxed, and it was raining slightly and

the sound of the rain was hitting the

roof, and I was looking out at the Devon

countryside with my pot noodle, and I

thought, this is really nice, actually.

Just finding a way to make the room nice

is quite fun.

I don't want too much stuff to clutter it,

but I feel like Maybe

a plant could be nice, like a tall plant,

go in the corner. It's a bit of green

because it's very brown at the moment.

Brown floor, brown wood,

bit of green to accent it.

Fairy lights. Yeah, there are these hooks

up there. I wonder what they hooked up,

because those hooks would be perfect for

fairy lights.

I can finally breathe again. Shutting that

door was not a good idea.

Oh, so much better when you can breathe

Yeah, this is my new house in Wales,

guys.

I got my refund for the doji.

I don't know why it took so long. I feel

like the seller was refusing to refund it,

but then Amazon forced them and that took

some time. Because they're like some shady

Chinese company. They probably weren't

happy that I used the phone, I dropped it,

and I scratched the screen and then wanted

a full refund. That's what you get for

selling on Amazon. Customer's king. This

ain't China.

Amazon refund policy is so generous.

Most shops won't let you use something and

then refund it.

You don't even have to include the

original packaging or the instruction

manual or anything. I feel like you could

literally buy underwear, wear it, jizz on

it, and then send it back and they'll

refund it because they'll probably just

check it but not actually open it up and

look inside and then be like, oh, that's

fine, refund him.

Yeah, I remember my mum saying you should

buy stuff And if she doesn't like it,

she'll ask for a refund. And then the

seller will say, oh, we'll refund you,

but you can just keep it anyway, because

it's not worth it for them to take it back

and repackage it and try and sell it

again. They'd rather just keep the

customer happy and give them a full refund

because the item was probably worth like

50p anyway, and they probably got like

1,000 of them in the warehouse, so they

got to get rid of them. Not worth

obsessing the customer over. And then if

the customer's happy, they'll come back

and buy more, won't they?

I feel like you could buy a phone and then

take the phone out and then replace where

the phone was with sand that weighs equal

amount to the phone, and then you'll get a

full refund because they probably just

weigh it and they don't look inside of it.

I heard someone did that.

Shops don't refund underwear. Well, they

should sell used underwear. I bet a lot of

people want to buy that.

I made hundreds in Amazon gift cards

selling dirty underwear posing as a girl.

I was like, I'm a Japanese girl. Living in

London, studying university, trying to

make some extra money.

God, I made so much money.

I wonder if it

still works.

Did I do anything with the underwear?

Yeah, I just wear it for a week, scratch

my crack through it,

get it nice and musky. Do you think guys

can tell that the underwear was actually

worn by a guy and not a hot girl? I don't

know. Do you think you could tell? Like,

if someone gave you 10 dirty underwears,

Would you be able to tell who's— who you

find attractive and who's a man and woman?

Because I saw they did an experiment where

they blindfolded a guy and they let him

smell sweaty, smelly clothing of 10 women,

and then the one he liked the smell of the

most was the one he actually found the

most attractive.

Smell is definitely very powerful.

It's the pheromones.

And also, if it's been in a packet for

like a week as it's being shipped over,

a lot of the smell would disappear. It

would have to be vacuum sealed.

I thought maybe some lights in the garden

would look nice,

but then I wouldn't be able to see them,

would I, if I get the curtains?

Damn, you guys really don't like smell

topics, do you? I think you've all got

smell phobia. It's just

smell, why'd you get so grossed out about

it?

You can't even smell what I'm describing,

so why'd you care?

My car definitely stinks. I need to give

it a good clean.

It's gross. It's not gross, it's just

smell.

It's natural.

The smell of ass,

my favorite.

These topics stink.

That was a good one.

Last time I had dentist clean my teeth.

2023. I went to the dentist in Thailand.

They said they gave me a filling, but I

don't know if they actually did because I

look in the mirror, I don't see a filling.

Even if it's tooth-colored, it should be

quite visible. Did they just pretend to

give me a filling and then charge me for

it? It usually

is a metal filling. It would

cost more money if it was a natural color

filling.

I always get a bit of plaque stuck in

between my bottom 2 teeth because one of

them's crooked, so it's hard to get in

there. So the plaque builds

up until it basically gets

so big you can snap it off, and then it's

like hard and you can grind it back down

into dust. It's really weird.

Have you ever eaten hardened plaque? It's

kind of like sand. It goes crunches.

Yeah, I floss, but it's really hard to get

in between the middle bit.

Yeah, maybe I need mouthwash. I heard that

gets rid of the plaque too.

Don't you see me using the toothpicks all

the time? Of course I floss. Chihiro

didn't used to floss. Chihiro only started

flossing because I was flossing. And then

she said one day, I flossed the back— my

back teeth and they smell really bad. And

I was like, yeah, that's what happens when

you don't floss them.

Oh my God, it's my birthday in 12 days.

I'm gonna be 36. Can you believe it?

Started my YouTube journey when I was

about— actually,

I started my YouTube channel in 2014.

It's been 11 years.

I was only 25 when I started.

Crazy.

I remember starting it in Korea. My Korean

girlfriend, she went to the hospital and I

was alone and I was bored and I thought,

I kind of want to give it a try filming

myself talking on camera. I hated

it. I had never seen myself talk on camera

before. I hated the way I looked. I looked

so weird and my voice was so dumb

sounding. I was like, hey guys.

Uh, I'm in Koeine. I sounded like a

retard. And then I thought, oh my god, is

this how I sound? I sound like I'm gay or

something. And then I put so much effort

into trying to sound more confident. I

just sounded so stupid. Like I

couldn't pronounce words properly and I

had such a soft voice.

Like, hey guys.

It's embarrassing. Hair looks stupid too,

way too long. And my clothing

was stupid. Kept wearing these stripy

hoodies. I thought, I thought I was cute,

you know, wearing this stuff.

Yeah, I remember I was watching PewDiePie

and I thought, that kind of looks like

fun. I want to do that. I want an

audience. And then, um,

yeah, I tried it a few times and I hated

it and I gave up. And then when I came

back from Korea 2015, I tried it again now

that I had a lot of time. I can't remember

what videos. I think I was just reviewing

cameras. Doing tech stuff.

I was addicted to cameras at the time. I

kept buying cameras off Amazon and then

sending them back, and then I got a

warning from Amazon saying I'm sending too

much stuff back. I bought this bridge

camera, the Fuji, a bunch of DSLRs.

I just, I couldn't decide what camera to

get. I was like, oh, DSLR is really good

because you've got a big sensor and you

can do good Okay, but you need a lens.

Okay, what lens do I get? Do I use a

standard one? Standard one only has

aperture of 3.5. I can't get a very blurry

background. I need 50mm f/1.5, but then

it's too zoomed in. Then I need a wide

angle, maybe a 35mm f/1.2. I got so

obsessed with like trying to figure out

what lenses to get. And I

thought I'd get a bridge camera because it

has all the lenses in one camera. It's got

600mm zoom, optical zoom, great

stabilization, but it's got a tiny sensor

so it can't do background blur and low

light is going to be terrible. And then I

got a mirrorless camera. I had the Samsung

NX10 mirrorless camera and

I've got a Pentax lens on it for 50mm

f/1.4 with no autofocus, and I had

to manually focus it myself. It was so

silly. God, I was so into photography.

I used to watch that channel DigitalRevTV

with the Hong Kong people. It's kind of

like Top Gear but for cameras.

Yeah, I would just keep buying cameras,

sending them back.

2015,

and then I think it was 2016 I started

doing all the weird relationship drama

video stuff, talking about exes.

I don't know why it took me 2 years to

realize that would be a good idea,

because at first I thought, that's weird.

And then I started to not care, and I

enjoyed talking about it. It was like a

confession booth because I had all these

stories that I never told anyone.

Sexual stuff, weird stuff, cheating,

ditching, and it just— it felt so good to

just talk about it openly because

I never talked about it to anyone before.

Who was I going to talk about it to? My

weird adventures in Japan.

Yeah, going to be 36.

Getting old.

Do some cooking. I've already done the

cooking. I just put that

pork belly in the air fryer.

Can you shut up saying Zed? Just go away

if you find it boring.

No one's forcing you to stay.

Okay, hermioradio band.

Talk about Sunny. Talk about what? I

already talked about it.

He was a loyal viewer. Yeah, I didn't see

any donos. Not very loyal.

I don't ever remember seeing a dono from

him, not even a dollar.

Talk about if she said you can't talk

about her on stream. It's not anymore,

it's for now.

She is hurt and in a vulnerable state

of mind.

No, she didn't move in.

Not really much to say, to be honest.

Basically the same as last time we talked.

It's fine.

I remember she said she can't come over

this weekend because she has plans with

her family. She said maybe

next week.

Wow, it was only £600 a

year to insure a Toyota RAV4.

Why is it so cheap?

I scraped the underside of my car today.

I went up on the curb to park to not block

the road, and then I heard scraping,

and I looked under the car and it was

almost touching the curb. I don't get it.

The pavement wasn't even that high up. I

guess I went too far onto the curb.

You're supposed to put only like half the

car over the curb. I put nearly all the

car over the curb. I need an SUV.

Now the ground clearance on my car is just

not high enough, especially with— one time

I went over a pothole and it was really

deep and it went clunk.

My car's too low to the ground.

SUV would be so much better. I could fit

more parcels. Higher up.

What's a good SUV? And get my mom's car,

Honda CR-V. I'm so upset because you

disappointed me again. You can't be

bothered to drive 15 minutes at 9 PM to

rescue me in this shitty situation. The

trust is gone. You are not a safe person I

can rely on, so what's the point then?

You're never just friends with a woman.

Even Blood Bucket was a means to get

Did you think Blood Bucket fancied me?

Because one time I stayed at her house and

it was

kind of weird because I, first of all, I

said, because I wasn't sure if I'll stay

another night. And I was like, I don't

know if I'll stay another night. Yeah, I

guess I could stay another night. And then

she seemed happy. And then I said,

actually, I'm going to go because I need

to shave my beard. And then she went

out with me to go and buy a shaver.

She came, she said, oh, let's go and get

you a shaver. So we specifically— she

specifically got ready to leave and we

went to a supermarket. Now that we are

back together, how are you going to build

back trust? Once the trust is gone, it's

hard to earn it back. You are on thin ice.

We went to a supermarket and she bought me

a shaver. So I would have a shaver in her

house. It was like she was thinking, oh

no, Daniel left because we don't have a

shaver, better get him one so he doesn't

leave again next time.

I don't know, how do you rebuild trust?

And then she got really mad when I

cancelled the sleepover thing, remember?

She didn't watch the stream anymore for a

She gave you so much money, didn't even

get a bowl of cereal. Yeah, she donated

probably like $3,000. I can't believe she

just ditched like that. And the whole time

zone difference thing is not— doesn't

make any sense because she doesn't— she

didn't— I mean, back then she didn't

sleep. She'd be up all night. I don't know

if things changed.

She used to be in every single stream when

I was in Thailand. Do you remember

she got on the train, came all the way to

help me sell my— what did I sell?

A camera or something. Oh yeah, the DJI

360 camera. They wouldn't let me sell it

because I didn't have a visa. So dumb.

Japan is such a dumb country sometimes.

They're like, oh, you can't sell it

because you need zairei cardo.

Why do you need a stupid visa to sell a

camera? I just don't understand

how the Japanese think.

Prevents crime.

What, so they think all gaijins in Japan

trying to sell stuff who don't have a visa

are doing it because of crime? Sounds kind

of racist, as if Japanese people can't

steal stuff and sell it. We will target

the gaijins.

If it's stolen or dodgy, they can trace

you. Oh, I see what you mean.

So you're saying that if you got a Zaido

card, then that means you live in Japan,

and then they can get your address and

stuff. But if you don't, then you're just

a tourist and you could disappear.

Well, they could get you at the airport,

can't they? Just say

you need your passport for identification,

and then there's— if you go to the

airport, your name would pop up, wouldn't

Hilarious how we went from someone who was

obsessed with Japan to someone who

despises it. And yet I

like Japanese-looking stuff. I've got

these Japanese lanterns. I don't know,

I mean, they're just square paper

lanterns, but they kind of look

And I eat Japanese food. It's weird

because I'm still a bit of a weeb at

heart, but yeah, I do kind of hate Japan.

I hate this, the stupid lame Kei cars with

lame old women driving them listening to

ABBA, Dancing Queen,

and they're like nodding their head along.

Kei cars, I don't know. A kei car would be

really good for delivering parcels because

it's got that box shape, but they just

look so silly.

Imagine driving one of those here.

Has Japan changed a lot since the first

time I traveled there? They got those

self-service checkouts at 7-Eleven, which

are pretty cool. You can just chuck all

your spare change down the hole. Didn't

used to have those.

Don't really notice what else has changed.

Honestly, it just seems the same year

after year.

Yeah, I do feel like my mood And

my inner peace has improved by

moving into this room and making it nice.

It is weird how a room can affect you like

that. A room can make you so depressed,

like that guest house I was staying in.

It really has an effect on your happiness.

I want to make like a zen room.

Which means not cluttering it up too much.

Meditation room.

Also, what can I put into the garden? I

want to get a barbecue.

And some nice big hedge-looking plants,

like a conifer thing put in the corners.

Or maybe like a— I don't think there's

squirrels here. I've never seen any

squirrels. Maybe a bird feeder so I can

see the animals. We can do barbecue

cooking stream.

I'm getting hungry again. Oh my God,

what is going on? As soon as I got home

from work, I've just been eating all day.

It's like I'm pregnant.

I just had ramen with pork belly and air

fried broccoli.

Stress of Sunny situation lifted, now

you've more appetite. Yeah, maybe,

cuz I've really had no appetite the last

few days and I was having to force the

food down.

Get a tent, I could do a camping stream in

the garden.

What's this place? This is my

conservatory. Might do a tour in

Why did I move there? Well, into the

conservatory. 'Cause it's got windows and

it feels less suffocating. You can

see all the views, all the— it's much

brighter as well. The other living room in

there is bigger, but it just feels very

dingy and dark.

Did I pay my rent? Yep, £900 out.

The landlord said he'll drop by soon to

say hi. He seems nice.

Maybe I have to ask him if I want to put

grass down in the garden. I thought I

could go to the garden centre and get

those rolls of turf with grass on it.

And then just lay them on top of the

gravel, and then the grass would just kind

of like build roots, wouldn't it?

Or maybe I just buy bags and bags of soil

and then lay it over the gravel and then

plant grass seeds. I remember my dad doing

that, just like grabbing the grass seeds