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So this is probably the end, guys.

I just don't have it in me anymore to,

uh, keep the channel going.

It's just been too hard.

The 2 things that made the channel work, I don't— not able to do it anymore.

Sorry, I don't know what I'm gonna do.

Kick barely pays anything now. They pay me $5 an hour. They paid me $5 an hour, which is like £3.90.

Making £3.90 an hour on Kick.

Ridiculous.

I don't really want to leave the old videos

up because it doesn't benefit me in any way.

I just— I mean, the entire channel was built— the success of the channel relied on one thing.

It was funny stories with a funny title on some crazy thing that happened in my life. But these crazy things that happen in my life,

they all— they always involved other people.

None of these stories ever involved no other people, and it always required

telling a story that was like deeply intimate and personal

that they didn't consent to, of course.

And the stories were entertaining at their expense and mine as well,

but I just, I feel like I can't do that anymore.

People get mad. When they find out.

I'm surprised more people from my past haven't, like, come knocking because they found out

that I did stuff like I put their faces in the thumb. I mean, a few have, like the guest house manager guy messaged me because he was mad. Gay guy messaged me because he found out. I mean, I told all these stories like very private stories.

I put their faces in the thumbnail

and I feel like I just— I can't keep doing this and expect there to be no consequences.

Now, maybe if it's like 10 years or 15 years after the event, Maybe then no one cares anymore and I'm free to tell the story.

I don't have that many stories, and if I'm going to have to wait like 15 years to be able to tell a story, then sorry. But

I mean, my content was always like exposing myself, but also along with myself is also exposing the other person that was in the story. I mean, none of the stories were just me alone.

People don't like it when you do that.

So, I mean, the other part of the channel was like traveling to Japan and life in Japan, but I don't want to go to Japan anymore.

It's not really a place of happiness for me.

And my whole channel revolved on just really one thing, which was telling very personal, interrelational, interpersonal relationship kind of stories.

Without that, I don't really, really have much going for me.

I mean, I'm not really an expert on anything. I don't know about like politics or

financial things.

I can't really speak with authority about anything really. The part— the only thing I could speak with authority was things that happen in my life. Because

I knew— I know exactly what I'm talking about because I remember it. It's not like I have to study my past events.

Yeah, well, I've chosen not to have drama.

Because I can't— I don't want to keep living like this.

In an ideal world,

I'm just allowed— I can just talk about whatever I want and no one gets mad. But the human species

is a very petty,

angry species.

What am I drinking? Uh, oral solution, glycerin.

I can't vape, it hurts my throat when I vape. I'm still sick.

Yeah, I used to feel like I was invincible, like I could talk about anything I want. I'm not breaking any laws and say whatever I like, but that's not really true. I mean, I was just lucky, I guess.

Yeah, but none of these— all those old classics, I can't do that. I get— filming at the petrol station whilst I worked there nearly got me fired. It would definitely get me fired now if I did that. Filming in the guest house nearly got me kicked out because someone snitched on me to the manager.

Every— like, everything I talk about or film gets me in trouble. Like getting fired, getting kicked out, getting banned. I'm sick and tired of it. I can't film or talk about anything without it affecting me negatively. Like, you can't talk about having a job because then you get fired. You can't film yourself doing your job because you

get fired. I'm not the only one too. This American guy called Chris Singh, Asian guy who did Amazon, got fired for filming himself doing Amazon. He started doing Amazon Flex instead, and I thought, you've already been fired from doing Amazon as a truck driver, surely they're gonna fire— ban you from Amazon Flex as well. I mean, you

shouldn't be making a video about it really.

But he was doing it in his— was it Honda Civic Type R? Rubbish fuel efficiency. He's not gonna make any money.

Like, you just can't make content anymore.

You just— you can't make content anymore. You get snitched on, you get fired, you get banned. You just can't make content anymore. It's like, what's— what are you supposed to do?

Just can't do it. I mean, you can't talk about anything because trolls mess with it and get you in trouble. You can't film anything because everyone's like, oh, no filming, no filming, blah blah blah.

I mean, YouTube is just not the same anymore. It's not like back in 2015, 2016, '17, back when you could get away with things.

I don't know, maybe because there's too many people doing it now, or because people like Johnny Somali ruined it for everyone.

I just— I don't know what to talk about

that won't get me in trouble.

I mean, they're gonna lock up Johnny Somali for 12 years just because he twerked on the street.

That's insane. 12 years because he was an idiot on the streets. He didn't kill anyone. He didn't attack anyone. That's insane. This is the world we live in now.

I mean, I'm not defending Johnny Somali, but 12 years? That's way over the top. I mean, just give him like a year and then kick him out of the country. I mean, he's already been in the country for a year. I mean, that Nick— Nampa Nick guy who filmed himself secretly banging girls and selling the videos on

his Discord only got 2 years in South Korea. You're saying what he did was not as bad as what Johnny did? That's insane.

No, I'm not defending him. I'm just saying 12 years, way too much. You're wasting Koreans' Korean taxpayer money on this guy.

I'm just saying, I'm having— I have a little bit of sympathy for him.

Take us shopping? No, next thing I'll get in trouble, banned from Tesco.

I already did all that on Kick. If you didn't join Kick, then you missed it out. I told you join my Kick, but you didn't listen. I mean, I've got 100 viewers now. If I had 100 viewers on Kick, I wouldn't be broke. But you guys won't come over to Kick. I'm making $5 an hour on Kick

because I got like 30 viewers. Back when I had 100 viewers on Kick, I was making $15 an hour,

but you guys won't come over there and now I'm fucking broke. Thanks a lot.

I mean, I did all that on Kick. I went to Tesco, I went driving, I did deliveries, I walked around on beaches and cliffs and hills. I did all that on Kick. I'm not doing it anymore.

I made £3.90 an hour on Kick.

Even if I do 7 hours a day, I'm only making £800 a month.

I was making $4,000 a month on Kick and now it's gone.

Now I'm down to like $1,000 a month.

Now I don't know what I'm gonna do. I would get a job.

These YouTube streams don't make any money. They make like $15. The videos don't make any money. They make like $10. Kick makes like $5 an hour. The hell am I supposed to do now?

Now I've got loads of debt racking up again. I can't

Can't keep up with it with this income.

I tried doing delivery work, but it only pays like £20 or £30 for one job, and you only really get one job a day if you're lucky.

There's no way you're getting 2 a day.

I was making such good money since June. I was making thousands.

Making so much.

Now I'm broke again. I mean, I was so broke before Kick, and I was even coming up with desperate plans like, I'm gonna max out my credit card and get a Thailand visa, and then I'm gonna move to Thailand and live on £500 a month.

And then the Kick thing happened and I thought, actually, I'm good. I've got money now. And now I'm right back in the same situation as before Kick, but actually kind of worse now because now my channel is messed up and dead.

And I don't want to go viral. I don't want to get big views. I don't want my face all over the internet because it's gonna mess with my,

my other plans.

So it's like a weird catch-22 where I want views, but also I don't want too many views,

and I definitely don't want all my like backlog of videos popping up.

I mean, they don't even make any money,

like 10 cents a month per video.

So I don't really know what to do. I thought I'd just spam out videos like $10 each, make $300, $400 a month. Still not enough. I need to make $2,000 a month already.

I don't want to go back to my mum's house. I want to make this work.

I don't want to give up on my house.

I mean, like, what's the point? I move out, go back to my mum's house, and then just be miserable making $800 a month doing this.

It really sucks, there's just nowhere to do Uber Eats.

I tried the outskirts of Plymouth, but it was just so bad.

And maybe Tiverton would be good, but it's like an hour drive away.

There's just nowhere nearby to do Uber Eats.

And I don't want to do it in either of the cities. I mean, they're an hour drive away. Exeter, Plymouth, an hour away.

I don't know what I can do.

Maybe I just gotta drive an hour to do Uber Eats.

What happened to crypto?

Oh, tanked. Oh God, future's not gonna be good tonight.

93K. I'm gonna lose a lot of money in

1 hour 20 minutes when Asia market opens.

Resell stuff? How?

I got banned on eBay.

I have a lot of 20x leverage NASDAQ future longs.

I don't think it's going to open up very well if you look at crypto.

The problem is I'm gonna have— I mean, if I don't find a way to make some more money, I'm gonna have to start selling my stocks to pay for expenses until I have no more savings left.

So either I've got to turn things around or get a job pretty quickly.

Otherwise, all that money I saved from doing kicks gonna disappear real quick.

Might get some water.

One second.

It's really annoying that I made such good money on Kick, I wasn't able to save a lot of it.

Ah,

honestly, just don't know what videos to make anymore. I'm just done. I'm just done with it.

Oh God, when am I gonna stop coughing?

You will never stop screaming because you need to vent. You can't vent to your girl, you can't vent to your mum, and you don't got any friends. Just relax and vent. Your shitty loser life is my favorite soap opera.

Well, yeah, okay.

I mean, streaming is the only way I can make any money because the videos don't get any views, do they?

I'm not doing ASMR. It's a stupid idea.

If my voice is so good for ASMR, I wouldn't need to advertise myself for ASMR. The ASMR people would find me

if it's that good.

No, they would like say, oh, they found this guy that spread my name on the ASMR forums.

Okay, why don't you do it then? Why don't you just like clip, clip my stream and post it as a video and give it an ASMR title?

And then if it gets any views, you keep the money. I don't care.

If it's so genius, why don't you do it then? I give you permission. Just clip my stream, post it as a fucking video. I don't care. Put ASMR talking. Won't get any views, trust me. Been there, done that. You think I never tried ASMR? I tried everything. I tried mukbang, I tried ASMR, I tried gaming, I tried

vlogging, I tried Finance. I tried everything. You think I haven't tried everything? I really tried everything.

I tried every single genre there is. I tried like budget shopping, £1 budget, cheap shopping, living on a budget. I've done everything.

Everything I do is half-assed, if you haven't noticed. There's not one thing I do in life that is not half-assed.

You think I'd be in this situation if I did anything well or anything properly? I'd already be rich if I could do anything well. I wouldn't be in this situation.

I wouldn't be sitting here. I would have a booming channel with like, I don't know, still 1,000 viewers. I wouldn't have had to hide stuff because I'd just get fangirls to date. Now I don't have any fangirls to date. I gotta hide my channel so I can date a normal girl and hope she doesn't find out about

my stupid channel. Back when I dated fangirls, I didn't have to worry because everything was all out there.

Now the only way I can get girlfriend is on dating apps, and obviously I can't tell them about my channel.

No way.

Poor Daniel, he feels harassed and now has to heal. Oh, poor guy. Who would have guessed? Such a nice guy, always treating people and women especially so thoughtfully, and now he is broke. What a surprise. Haha, karma really did bite your ass.

What?

What was that?

Try new stuff. I try new stuff all the time, nothing works.

I made a cooking scrambled eggs video. Flopped already.

I already tried everything.

I'm just not good at making YouTube videos.

Otherwise, I'd be famous, wouldn't I? I'd have a million subs. I just— I don't have what it takes.

I hate editing videos.

I hate cameras. Makes me look ugly.

Yo, no one wants to see me do anything. That's the problem. Apart from whine about how my life sucks.

I don't want to go to Cambodia. I want to live in the UK. I don't want to go to Japan. I don't want to go to Thailand. I don't want to go to Vietnam. I want to stay here.

I don't know why you people don't get it. I like being in the UK. This is where I grew up. This is my home. I don't live in some random Timbuktu country where I can't speak the language. I can't get a job there because I don't speak the language and I need to worry about visa stuff and

immigration. I can't be bothered with that anymore. I don't want to live there.

And I don't even like Asian girls anymore. I don't even wank to them.

I haven't jerked off to an Asian girl, I don't know, in ages.

Like, they just— they're not appealing to me at all anymore. They don't have any smell.

Boring. Their noses are too small.

I like a pointy white girl nose. I don't know, Asian women,

you got very small nose. I like bigger nose. But not too big because it looks weird.

How are British women better? Uh, number one, they smell— they got a smell. Number two, they got pointy nose. These are my requirements now.

And I like brown hair, not black hair.

Brown hair or maybe even blonde hair. I don't know. Never really been with a blonde girl.

I wouldn't live in any UK city. They're horrible. I live in a nice little peaceful village in the countryside where I drive my car very fast.

By the way, my new car, really nice. It's got automatic main beams that switch on and off so I don't have to fiddle with the stalk. Really comfortable heated seats and heated steering wheel. I got a Citroën C4. It's pretty nice. It's massive. Ground clearance, huge. Ground clearance is like that high. It looks like a monster truck,

but not ugly. I've got 18-inch alloys.

Good country areas aside from Devon? Cornwall's really nice. I did a delivery job a couple days ago and it took me into Cornwall. The views were stunning. I thought, Jesus Christ, the driving here is so good. I went on the A30 And the views were just amazing. Clear, empty road, no speed cameras.

God, the views are so great in Cornwall.

Blast my music.

I really love driving. I didn't think I'd ever say this. I've always been so anti-driving because I was scared of it. I don't know if you remember me from like 2015 or '16 or '17. I'd always talk about how I hate driving, how I love Japan so much because you don't need to drive and the trains are

so good, how I'll never learn to drive and why cars are stupid. And now I'm like, I love driving.

It feels really good, like the movement and having your music on and then seeing your car parked outside feels really nice.

Yeah,

it's so much better than sitting on a stupid train. You know how much it costs me to go to my mum's house and back?

What do you bring to me? Yeah, I smell too. You've got no qualifications. Yeah, I got stinking anus. Please enlighten me, sir. Why would any lady like me want to have anything to do with you?

Uh, how's poor hygiene a bad thing?

Yeah, so anyway, I was saying, um, I got the Tesla membership where it's £7.50 a month. I get 15— 15%— no, 15 pence per kilowatt discount. So it only cost me £9 to drive back from my mum's house.

£9. Even the Flixbus doesn't cost £9. Even the cheap rubbish Flixbus that like takes 10 hours would not cost £9.

It cost me £9 and I had, and I had the luxury of sitting in my own car, put my own music, not in a stupid bus. And it only took, what, I don't know, 5 hours, not 10 hours.

So not only is it a very comfortable and nice way to travel, but also really cheap.

But yeah, I went driving from Cornwall and it's really nice.

Delivered some beer.

I delivered like 8 bottles of beer to this guy. He was definitely high. I could smell it.

Yeah, I wish the delivery job paid more money. I wish I still had Amazon Flex and could do the Morrison blocks.

I wish I didn't have to drive so far for anywhere for Uber Eats.

I don't know if one day I'll give it a shot, like drive an hour to test out Uber Eats, how much I can make. But by the time I get there, I would have used 25% of my battery.

Well, I didn't want to do Amazon Flex anymore. I didn't know I was going to move to Devon,

but the Amazon, uh, Morrison blocks would have actually been quite nice here. There's a few Morrisons nearby. I bet they would have offered blocks.

But too late now. I got banned because I brought my mum with me. What a stupid reason to get banned. Your face and face expressions look weird. Late tonight. Are you— I don't know, are you angry or trying too hard? I can't tell, but something is wrong with you, mate. I'm not doing any facial expression. Don't know

what you mean.

Whole Bitcoin tanking. $93K now.

My ambitions are low.

No, I have an ambitious dream. I want to be a day trader and investor, but it's very difficult and I'm not making any progress really. I haven't made any money from day trading.

Like, I'll make some money and then I'll just lose it the next week. I'll make some money for a bit and then I just lose it all.

It doesn't make any money.

You make some, you lose more. You make some and you lose more again.

I'm not making any facial expression. I'm like just neutral face. I don't know what you're talking about.

If I have a tight stop loss, I get stopped out and then the trade goes the way I was planning anyway.

If I don't have a stop loss, then I get wrecked.

Like, I went short back in June, the market ripped, and I was down like £500 on shorts. And then I sold my shorts at a loss, and then the market tanked.

And now I'm like overleveraged long. And now the markets tanked really hard last week. People say it's going to tank some more.

It's like you go short, the market rips. You go long, the market tanks.

It just seems to do the opposite of what you want it to do all the time. Or it will do what you think it will do at first, and you're like, oh yeah, I'm making money. And then it will just go the other way instantly, and then you lost it all.

And then you either just sell a loss, cut your losses, or you bag hold, or you add more to the losing position and then it just keeps losing.

But I've definitely lost more from not having a stop loss than I made from

Having a stop loss.

It's really annoying.

And now I'm like going all long and now the market is tanking.

Right, I was up loads last week, up nearly to £2,000 in my CFD account. And then one day the whole thing just tanked and I lost half of it. And then the next day it bounced and I regained half of what I lost.

So it's like if you sell all because you're not greedy, and then it keeps ripping, then you feel stupid because you missed out. But if you hold and then it tanks, now you lost everything anyway.

So now I don't know what to do. Is it going to tank? Is it going to rip? Who knows?

No one knows, I guess.

Trading is my only way to make any money now. I can't make any money streaming. I can't make any money doing YouTube. I can't get any views.

If I make a normal video, all it gets is 4K views and I make like $20.

If I did that every day, I would make $600 a month. That's rubbish.

And also, I don't want to get views. I don't want to go— I don't want to blow up and get big views,

not with my face everywhere. I mean, if I'm a faceless YouTuber, maybe that'd be fine, but I don't want my face all over the internet anymore because I've got a bad reputation. It's just gonna negatively impact my real-world activities.

So I need to make about £70 a day.

If I can, I can make like £30 from Kick and then, I don't know, £10 from YouTube. I need to make another £30 from day trading or maybe delivering.

If I can make £70 a day, I would be back at my £2K goal.

I really need to make at least 2K.

Why did I destroy my brand? Because it's a stupid brand that's dead. It's a dead brand. Why would I care about a dead brand? Doesn't grow. It hasn't grown in years. It only grew a little bit when that Toki Tom video happened, and then all Toki Tom people left.

It's a stupid dead brand that just makes me look bad.

Yeah, I know they want to see drama, but drama gets me in trouble

and pushes people away from me, and I'm going to end up a miserable, lonely old man.

Possibly in jail

if I don't stop with the drama.

Whose fault is that? It's your fault. It's the viewers' fault because you want stupid stuff. I mean, whose fault is it for obesity? McDonald's or the fat people who keep going to McDonald's and stuffing their faces with McDonald's? Maybe it's the stupid dumb customers who don't have any self-control and want to eat McDonald's all the time. McDonald's

is just there providing the food for the idiots to come and eat. It's not my fault you're all addicted to fucking drama.

I only made the drama stuff because it was the only thing that got any views,

and I've been ranting about how annoyed I am that my viewers don't want anything apart from fucking drama since 2019. Ever since like 2018, I've always been mad about how any video I make that is non-drama would flop because of a fucking annoying stupid fucking audience that won't watch any fucking thing else.

Everything you find boring— stocks boring, gaming boring, cars boring— oh, we want drama. Tell us about the time

you did it in a bush.

It's not the audience I cultivated. I didn't choose the audience. The audience chose me and I made what they wanted

until— I mean, I've had enough. I don't want to do it anymore.

There's going to be no more stories, no more drama, no more relationships on the channel.

So if you're unhappy with that, fucking leave.

Unsubscribe. Leave. Stop whining at me about it because I'm not doing it anymore. Fucking leave. Press the unsub button. Fucking go.

Why are you here anymore? I'm not making it anymore. I'm not making the drama videos anymore. I'm not making stupid stories. Just fucking leave. Do us all a favor and fuck off.

It's your fault because you chose to say and do those things. No one forced you, did we? In fact, your parents were begging for you to get a job, but no, Daniel wants to broadsheet in front of the camera. Now deal with it, man. I didn't want to. I wanted to make like funny little quirky videos, and

then I wanted to talk about stocks, but you were like, oh, boring stock talk. Tell us about the time about Chihiro's zigzag.

I'm not making the stuff I used to make anymore. I'm done with it. Number one, it doesn't get views. Number two, it gets me in trouble. Number 3, it makes me look bad.

So what's the point anymore? Like, I made the video about Blood Bucket. It only got 6K views. What's the point anymore?

Back when it got like 40-50K views, it felt like it was worth it. Now it's not worth it. It's not worth it for like $20.

I can't build a new audience because anything I make, people just hate me. And I can't get any views unless I bait them into hating me. Like, do not buy this, and why this sucks, and why I hate that. If I don't hate bait people, they don't want to watch.

No one likes anything I make. You can't build an audience if they don't like what you make. People liked my drama stuff, I guess, but I can't make drama anymore. I can't.

Like, right now I'm seeing this new girl.

No way I'm making videos about her. Imagine if she finds out. She'd kill me.

Yeah, maybe she'll find out anyway, but at least it will be slightly better that I haven't like made 20 videos about her.

Nobody likes you because you're a horrible person. Then leave! Who's asking you to stick around? If you don't like me, go away,

idiot. I don't like you either. I didn't ask you to come here. Go away then. Who's forcing you to stay here? Leave, fucking idiot. All these people, all you people complaining about me all the time. Why don't you just go away?

If you don't like me, go away. Why are you here then?

Fucking weirdo. Just fuck off then. If you don't like me, then fuck off. Is it that hard? I don't care if you don't like me. Go away then. Get lost.

But you don't, do you? Here every time writing your stupid comments about how you don't like— go away then, leave! But you don't leave, do you? Because you're a fucking idiot.

Bunch of retards.

No more Japan, no more drama, no more relationship. If that's boring, then leave, unsubscribe, go away. I don't care. Just shut up moaning about it. I'm done.

Drop the sub count down to the true number of people here. I want all 115,000 people fucking unsub from my channel then. Don't even watch my channel. It's half you, pretty dead. Personality disorder and depression. Get my $8 and go get help.

No, that's you. I'm fine. I'm not going to Japan ever again.

Not going traveling.

I'm not getting on a plane ever again. I've got a car. Why would I get a car and then ditch it to go fly off to another country?

I got a car now. I'm not going to go to another country and leave my car to rot whilst I pay for it. I like my car. I like driving my car.

I like the UK. I don't want to go some stupid shitty Asian country where it's boiling hot. I've got a Citroën C4, fully electric, heated steering wheel, heated seats, 0 to 60 in 10 seconds. 136 British horsepower in sports mode.

Lane assist, automatic emergency braking, driver awareness alert. It's got all the safety features, very cheap to insure.

Better than your car, probably.

Yeah, I got it on finance, £100 a month, and I got £900 cashback for trading in my Peugeot, and I got £500 Electroverse charging card, £500 credit, and the car insurance is going to be probably £300 cheaper per year.

Who cares if you own the car or not?

You still get to use it in this. I mean,

how does owning the car— what does that let you do that I can't do? Okay, maybe you can like modify it and put wraps on it or a spoiler. I'm not going to do that anyway.

I can enjoy the car in the same way, just in the same way as someone who owns the car. There's no benefit of owning the car

apart from if you own the car, I guess you could sell it later.

I'm not restricted. If I go over the agreed mileage, I just pay more money. Per mile. It's not like, oh, you went over the restricted mileage, you got to give us the car back. No, you just pay like, I don't know, 5 pence per mile that you've done over the agreed mileage. But if I do less than

the agreed mileage, they pay me because I did less than— I mean, the total value of the plan per month was decided upon how many miles I said I was going to do. So if I do less miles, they'll pay me back some money,

and I don't have to pay the balloon payment after 3 years. I can just trade it in for another car, or I could just walk away and give the car back.

Maybe I'll just get another car at the end of 3 years. I get the new version.

I just gotta be careful not to bash up the car like I'd bashed up the Peugeot. Hopefully I'm better at driving now.

I got H3N2. I got the swine flu. Okay, I've been sick for 2 weeks.

Why'd I change channel name? Because I'm sick and tired of hiding in my room. What it's done is brought me bad luck.

Don't crash your car again. Yeah, I'll try not to hit any stationary walls again.

How do I get sick? It was a couple weekends ago. I met my girlfriend. And her friend, and we went to this venue where there were a lot of people and it was cold.

She got sick as well.

I think it's swine flu.

I got sick this time last year as well, October.

I got sick during Christmas as well last year.

It's really hard not to cough.

Oh, cough is so annoying.

Nothing comes out. Why did you make me cough? Nothing even came out. What's the point?

The whole point of coughing is supposed to like cough up the fluid. There's no fluid.

I'm not going to Japan anymore. Stop thinking I'm going to go to Japan, meet some Japanese woman, move in with her and like secretly vlog her and get married. That's not going to happen again.

I never want to go to Japan ever again. I hated it. Last year was horrible. I got— nearly got attacked by a gang of kids. I got screamed at. I had the police come to my guest house. I got taken to a station in Japan.

I had old men being rude to me.

I had a terrible time.

Japanese people are scary. You walk around with a selfie stick and a phone You're just asking for trouble. Japanese people hate influencers and streamers now.

You just— you can't expect to walk around outside with a selfie stick anymore and not get in trouble these days, especially when you look kind of shady like I do.

Look, these things wouldn't happen to Chris, would they?

Because he's white. I mean, Japanese people sometimes think I'm Japanese.

They don't instantly think I'm a foreigner because I'm not white.

That someone like Chris would get away with it because he's like obviously white.

Japanese are not nice or polite. They're only nice and polite when you're a customer in a shop or a restaurant. And then they bend over backwards to wipe your butthole. But other people on the street are rude, especially old men. Rude as fuck. Rudest old men I've ever come across were in Japan. Like, Thai people are really

chill. British old people, really chill. Japanese old men are the rudest fucking obnoxious old men in the entire world. Grumpy, stressed out, miserable.

They're just horrid.

I worked in a convenience store for 3 months in Tokyo. Old men are miserable, horrible fucks. Grumbling, spitting, using rude language.

Like, they don't use keigo. Or even the polite form. They use like the commanding form.

They just speak like rude fucking idiots. I hate old Japanese men.

Rude.

Old people in England aren't like that. I did every— and most of the customers were old people and they were so friendly and nice. The English people in the country. Japanese people, fucking rude.

I hate Japan.

I hate the old men and I hate the young men. The young guys are just as rude and horrid as the old men. The only nice men are like the 30-year-olds who, I don't know, maybe they just got a family started. They're focused on their career. They're not looking to get in trouble. You either got the fucking

stupid chavvy Yankee kids who are up to no good. They got no lives. Don't know what to do with their lives apart from get up to no good and cause trouble. Or you get the old men who are nearing the end of their lives who are just grumpy and miserable and don't give a fuck anymore. The only

nice men are in their 30s, like the salarymen, like 30s, 40s. They've got family, they've got a wife. They're focused on their career. They're not looking to get in trouble. They've got purpose. It's the stupid old men and the young teenage kids or the boys, like the young guys who all they can do is work in a

stupid izakaya and then get drunk in Shibuya until 3 a.m. in the morning and then crawl home to this shitty cockroach-infested shoebox apartment. With their shit lives.

I hate Japan.

And then you got the women who are all running around like scared little sheep, like, don't film me, or hiding their fucking faces because you're walking around with the camera. I'm not even trying to film you, bitch. You're just walking in my shot. I'm not even trying to film you. And then like they run away, they walk

to the other side of the street, they hide their faces. I'm not even trying to film you. Get over yourself. You're not even that good looking. God, I'm fed up with Japan.

I hate it when it's the evening and you're walking around like downtown And then all the sleazy fucking bar girls come out with their stupid signs. Human signboard.

You're a human signboard. You stand in there holding a fucking sign. And then when I walk past with my selfie stick streaming, they're all like,

looking away, hiding their stupid face with the sign. I'm not even trying to film you.

Stupid fucking idiots.

I mean, they're like— they're saying I'm the creep. You're saying I'm the creep because I'm trying to film you. I'm not trying to film you.

You're just in my shot. Stop like making me feel like I'm the creep. You're the fucking weirdo advertising sleazy blowjob bar for ¥1,000 an hour. You're the fucking weirdo working in the adult industry because you can't get any other job. So you're advertising some scummy bar where you blow men off. You're the fucking creep, not me.

I'm just walking around doing a stream and then you're like making me feel like I'm the creep. You're the fucking creep, bitch.

Goddamn sex workers making me feel like I'm the creep.

I'm just walking around with a selfie stick. I didn't do anything wrong.

I hate the red light districts in Japan.

All the sleaze people come out and all the sleaze girls. Can't get a real job advertising their stupid blowjob bars or whatever, girls bars, snack bars. It's all just sleaze.

I

never want to go back to Japan again. I hate it.

No way,

this is a horrible society over there.

I never want to go to Japan again.

I never had any of these problems in Thailand. People in Thailand were so nice, so friendly,

so, like, welcoming and outgoing.

Thailand is way better.

Oh God, I'm just fed up with Japan. I never want to see the place again.

Food sucks as well. Everyone's like, oh, the food's so great. Yeah, 5,000 different types of stupid ramen. Oh wow, 500 different ways of boiling noodles in a fucking bowl.

Oh, it's always just, I don't know, stuff on a stick and cooked over a fire with a glazing of sickly sweet sauce.

Oh, it's always just, I don't know, something on top of rice in a bowl. Or noodles in water.

Give me a Pot Noodle and a Rustler's Burger any day.

Food sucks, that.

Like, that— the supermarket food, you know, in the little plastic boxes, all sucks. It's like soggy deep-fried stuff. Everything's just deep-fried. Deep-fried vegetable, deep-fried pork, deep-fried chicken cutlet. Everything's just brown and deep-fried.

I don't miss any of the food apart from yakiniku. I kind of miss that. Just can't really get that here unless you go all the way to London and pay like £100.

I went to a Korean barbecue in Plymouth and it was rubbish.

They put like

waxy parchment paper on the grill and you cook the meat on the paper. The fuck is that? You're supposed to cook it over the coals, over the open flame. So it's got a barbecued, smoky flavor. They make you cook it on a piece of paper and it's like you're just boiling the meat on the paper. It didn't

taste like yakiniku. At all.

I don't know what are they thinking. That's just cuz they're lazy cuz they don't want to wash the grill, so they make you put paper on it. I've never seen that anywhere where you put paper on the grill.

Was your iPhone Air— no, iPhone Air is in the repair shop.

It's in the repair shop, guys.

Oh God, Asia market's opening in 27 minutes. Don't open it, keep it shut. I'm gonna lose so much money.

God, I wish Chihiro could see me now.

Do you think she ever clicks on my channel now and then just to check in?

If only she could see my car and like see me driving, trading stocks. Imagine if she could see my biceps now.

I got biceps now, although they're kind of shrinking. Fuck. What would you do if the Citroën salesman was waving his willy in front of your face right now? I don't know. Would you give it a little suck? I feel like they're starting to shrink cuz I've been sick, so I've been slacking off a bit.

Maybe I'll get some reps in quick. I feel bad now.

Don't overdose on that cough syrup, Daniel. Most of over-the-counter syrups, if you drink the whole bottle, might contain enough active ingredient to kill you. And symptoms of overdose are usually delayed 24-72 hours. Yeah, maybe I should. I've

been slurping on it too much.

It's just I kind of wanted something to drink.

I think I need to get back into exercise because I'm not that sick anymore.

I just got a bit lazy. Look, I can still do it.

Might get some water.

No.

Still

got my bicep.

I worked hard for my biceps. I don't want to lose them.

Well, obviously the left arm's smaller because it's further away from the camera.

Yeah, I didn't know Chihiro could drive because when I was doing my driving lessons, she posted like a video of her driving a rental car, didn't she? I actually didn't know she could drive. How come she never took me driving?

Remember when I kept going to the gym in Japan? They wouldn't let me sign up because I didn't have a 在留在留カード。

Remember they said you can't become a member because you don't have a Cardo, but you can do the 1-day free trial. What's the point letting me do the 1-day free trial if you know that I cannot become a member? So I said, okay, I'll do a 1-day free trial.

Remember I put the stream in the locker?

Couldn't do that on Kick. You can do that on YouTube though.

Yeah, I had some good times in Japan, I guess.

Like, the 2023 trip was quite eventful with that Korean woman.

I went to that cat cafe and I cycled all around.

I remember I got scared that homeless guy was gonna come snipe me, so I quickly turned off the stream and I said, I'm not streaming anymore, my girlfriend's coming.

I just really don't like being sniped.

I

got my biceps pretty big, but now I see it's getting smaller. Now,

how long does it take for it to start losing muscle?

I gotta start doing it again tomorrow.

Because I was sick for one week, so I stopped, and then I got back into it, and then I got sick again. I've been sick for 2 weeks now. Yeah, I deleted all the videos.

Yeah, maybe I will do members only. If you want to see them that badly, then pay up. $100 a month, full access.

This channel is the only thing you have. Yeah, and it's the only thing that keeps ruining my life.

People think I'm a scumbag and they hate me, and then I've got to keep it secret in the real world because it's embarrassing if people find out my channel is embarrassing.

I set it to private, I didn't actually delete them.

Now when I vape, it makes my throat hurt. I don't know why.

Yeah, we had some good times, I guess,

but you know, I'm nearly 40. I don't want to be walking around in Japan doing dumb stuff and like getting harassed by stupid kids or old men.

I just feel like I'm done with that part of my life.

I felt, I felt miserable last year in Japan,

and I also felt miserable the year before that in Japan. It's just ever since I got divorced, It's never been the same.

I kept thinking, oh, I don't need Chihiro. I can enjoy Japan more without her. But

being married was the best time I've ever had in Japan, honestly. Like, I've made it with the YouTube channel as well. I felt so good, like, in life in general. I just felt so good. Like, all these girls were interested in me as well.

My channel is doing well.

Life just seems so good.

It was nice because I never felt lonely. Like, I always had her to go back to and I could, like, chase other women.

And then always she was always, like, there to go back home to, like a safety net.

And I never had to worry about being alone.

She always took me back.

You're comparing my mum to my ex-wife? It's not even close to the same thing.

I got so depressed last year in Japan. That's why I ended up in trouble with the police. I felt so miserable. It's like going back to the same places,

how everything looked the same as before, but everything has changed. Like people moved on, but like the physical things, like the buildings and the shops, all the same, as if nothing changed at all. Like the park. I went to the park. It was the same. I went to the first apartment just thinking, God, 6 years ago,

one of the best moments of my life when that one video I made about not having friends went viral in that very room. I just stood outside of it thinking, God, this is where it all began.

And I felt so depressed.

Yeah, it was stupid of me thinking she'd want to meet up. I don't know what I was thinking.

And it was so horrible to Fasta as well, to do that whilst I was with Fasta. And I cried on the phone. I— after I got back to the guest house, I phoned Fasta and told her what happened, and I started crying on the phone.

And she said, you got to move on and you got to focus on me, or else one day you're going to lose me too, and then you'll be sad in the same way. And she was right,

but I, I didn't listen at the time.

I mean, I didn't want to go back to Thailand because I was scared of repeat what happened in Japan. You do not want to get— you do not want to mess with the police in Thailand. They're corrupt as fuck.

Like, they— people in Thailand, foreigners, they overstay by like 2 minutes, they get chucked in a cage

for days. They just like, they round up the foreigners who who overstayed by accident, like they were in hospital, so they missed their flight and they overstayed by like a day. They get rounded up, chucked in a cage. You don't want to mess about in Thailand.

It's annoying because I had everything I wanted in both Japan and Thailand. I had like domestic comfort, a wife and a girlfriend to live with who were there every day where I never felt lonely. I had a cheap, affordable lifestyle.

And all I had to do was stream every day and it made enough money. And then I threw it all away twice, first in Japan, then in Thailand.

But when Fasta started talking about marriage, I just felt like I gotta get out of this. I do not want to get stuck in Thailand. Married again.

Traps doing YouTube forever. I thought I'd come home to the UK, get a car, get a job.

I don't know why I got the car and then I never got the job.

I went on one job interview. I would have gotten the job. The guy phoned me back or messaged me back asking if I was still interested in the job. That means he was going to give it to me.

But I chose Amazon Flex because I could just do it whenever I wanted. I like the flexibility.

No, not Domino's Pizza. It was, uh, DX Logistics.

It was basically just a warehouse job moving stuff about. I would have done that back in—

yeah, I feel like I'm so spoiled now on making easy money doing nothing. I don't know how I'm going to do a normal job. I get so mad being bossed about or being condescended to.

I, I hate people being rude to me.

I lived 10 years being my own boss. I don't know how I can go back to being a normal person.

Did I have a dream job as a child? No.

I never thought I'd have to grow up and get— I always thought like my dad would be there and I'd never have to get a job. Do you have any more examples of police corruption in Thailand? Yeah, the whole Ice Poseidon thing

where they had to— didn't he say he had to bribe the court with like $100,000 or something? $20,000?

And then, yeah, one time, I don't know, she— Fasta did some kind of traffic violation on the motorway. The cops pulled us over and he asked for a bribe, and Fasta was like, get your wallet out.

And I had to take out a couple thousand baht to make him go away.

I mean, they make more money from bribes than they get paid for the actual job.

Why stay in Devon? What's the point?

Uh, the point is to be financially independent

and be able to stand on my own 2 feet.

What do you mean I'm not? I've been financially independent the entire year. Who do you think's paying my rent?

Japan is not better than Devon. Devon is really nice.

She didn't give me 20K. She helped me pay my tax penalty, and then she helped pay my car.

She didn't give me $20K.

I made $25K this year from streaming.

That's how I paid for my lifestyle here.

What do you think, my mum gave me 20K and I've been living off it? I have— I spent it all. I spent it paying the tax penalty and paying for the car. I don't have any of the money.

What do you mean he? My mum's not a man, she's a woman. Why are you saying he?

No, there's no

contract. I mean, there's— the contract doesn't run out.

It goes on until either I move out or he tells me to move out, I guess. It's not like, oh, it expires next month and then I gotta move out. It's a long-term rental. He wants someone to live in the house and pay the rent, not like continuously getting new people in. It's not Airbnb.

It's a rental property. He wants to rent it out and make rental income. Why would he want me to move out when I pay rent on time every month? I'm a good tenant.

No, I'm not worried Dave Gibson's coming for the money. Dave Gibson's got more money than my mum.

He's got 50K in premium bonds. You think he's after my mum's money?

He gets those fat premium bond rewards every month.

Save money and stay at home? For what? Save the money and do what with it?

Oh shit, 6 minutes until Asian market. Oh God.

Oh God, 5 minutes. I don't know how much battery I got. I can't check.

Amazon debt is my phone plans. I've got 2 phone plans

paying $500 a month

for 2 months.

Do car life, live in my car.

No, that's— my dream is I have a car, I have a house, and I make money. Not I live in my car or I live at my mum's house. That's lame.

I want to show the world that I can do this.

Well, I don't know, I'm going to have to get a job, aren't I?

Yeah, I made $200 in October. Obviously I didn't make much cuz I've been focusing on Kick, but now Kick's dead.

I'll turn off the heating, it's hot.

Costing me 50p an hour.

I'm a 36-year-old independent man. I'm not living in a shitty flat or living with my mum when I'm nearly 40 years old. That's lame.

I live in a house and I got a car and I'm a businessman, okay? I accept no less. Not living in a shit guest house in Japan. I'm not getting on the train like a peasant.

I'm an entrepreneur and businessman.

Get a job at Greggs or, I don't know, Cornish pasty shop.

A stupid idiot Kick paying me $5 an hour. Stupid. I hope that fucking website goes bankrupt like Mixer did.

Well, they got shit streamers on it.

You do good animation videos. Yeah, maybe I'll buy an iPad. I get latest M5 iPad Pro with Apple Pencil,

get back into Procreate and drawing.

Business investment tax write-off, great idea. Maybe I will get 13-inch iPad Pro.

Business write-off.

You know, my mum offered to pay for my new car as well, but I said no, I'll just pay £100 a month. I do not want to owe her another £8,000.

Why buy a new car? Number 1, I get £900 for my trade-in for the Peugeot. Number 2, I get £500 Electrovers charging credit. Number 3, I get £100 cheap— couple hundred pounds cheaper car insurance because it's a safer, slower car. Number 4, it's a way better looking car than the Peugeot. Number 5, it's much more comfortable. It's

got heated seats and steering wheel.

Heated seating is way more energy efficient than blasting the air conditioning with hot air.

And it's got 18-inch alloys. Massive ground clearance, so flooding is not going to slow me down.

And yeah, people are going to think, damn, he's doing well, look at his car. My neighbors can be thinking, damn, Daniel's doing well, look at his new car.

All these people in the neighborhood,

they, they've got to like share bills Dual income. I live here all by myself

whilst they gotta live together and share the burden and they drive rubbish cars. I drive a nice car and I live alone.

No one in the neighborhood lives alone.

I stand up on my own feet.

I'm not relying on a woman to help me pay my rent.

I do it by myself.

Oh God, Asia market open. I dread to see the account balance.

Oh, oh, it's not too bad. I'm only down £100.

Market tanking a little bit.

CFD account balance at £1,452.

Yeah, well, Asia markets selling off, aren't they? Maybe I'd go all in short. I'm a bit scared. Oh fuck, maybe I'll put in a short.

I might put in a tiny short,

0.2 units,

no stop loss.

It's just a hedge, it's just a hedge in case it goes down.

Michael Burry rage quit, didn't he?

My throat hurts from vaping, but it feels nice.

Short's down 87p already.

Warren Buffett quit as well.

Everyone leaving the market, leaving me to bear cold.

Oh God, I'm up £2 on the short. It's tanking.

Oh Jesus. I've got way too many longs.

Yeah, imagine if I can go back in time and not make all the mistakes I made.

It would be great, wouldn't it?

Why even bother investing? I'll just buy a lottery ticket.

God, imagine if I won the lottery. Buy a house, I buy a Tesla.

I'm pretty sure I'll be bored though.

Pay back your mum? I'll just give her a couple million pounds. Pay her back? I'll give her a couple million. I'll be £100 million richer if I won the lottery.

I wouldn't even need to invest. I'd just put it in a savings account, get 4% interest every year. I made like, I don't know, $100K a year passive income.

So I don't know.

I mean, I don't really want videos up on my channel. Maybe I just set it to members only and put like $5 a month.

Damn, the short is down £4.

The hell happened?

What do you mean, what is that face? Let's see your face then.

Put your face on your channel and see your face.

Otherwise, shut up.

Imagine making fun of someone's face whilst you hide your own.

I'm down £5 on the short. This life was happy, more happy last year.

Well, yeah, I mean, I wasn't scared scared about my channel ruining my life back then.

I'm not drinking, drinking water.

Look.

Never seen him happy. Well, yeah,

the only time is— the only time I realized I was happier is after that happy part of my life has finished, and I realized, yeah, I was kind of happier back then.

Do I like Turkey Tom? No, I don't. Why did he have to make a fucking video about me?

Getting 2 million views. I really didn't need that.

Yeah, I don't want that publicity. I don't— I mean, where are the Toki Tom viewers now? They're all gone.

Every single one of them's gone.

I don't benefit from it at all.

And then because of that, It got a load of other channels to make videos about me as well that got a couple hundred thousand views,

all blessing us with the great psychological knowledge and analysis on me about how I'm a sociopath.

Well, who's the sociopath? The sociopath or the sociopath who profits off of the sociopath?

Like they say, I'm a sociopath because I made money doing what I did for my content. They also made money off of my content, so they are indirectly profiting off my sociopathic content. So how are they any better?

They also profit off my sociopathic content.

Got me cripped. Got me what? She disappeared.

She, she scammed us all saying, oh, donate to me because I'm going to go fly to England. And then she took the money and disappeared. Not a word. Not even an, oh, sorry, I lost interest.

I mean, you guys got scammed, not me, because you were stupid enough to give her money.

You should have given me the money.

Anyway, she looks nuts. Bullet dodged, thank God.

Stocks aren't too bad. Account's at £1,500 again. I'm down £8 on my short.

Uh, yeah,

if I had these viewer numbers on Kick, I'd be making good money.

Why can't YouTube pay me $15 an hour?

I didn't bot anything. It wasn't me.

Yeah, Kick doesn't have any ads. I think they're trying to get ads. I think they're trying to get advertisers.

Good luck. Who's going to want to advertise on Kick? Bunch of degen weirdos on it

and scammers.

All you got on there is like a bunch of washed-up has-beens who got banned on every other platform or their channels died.

It's just like, I don't know, the reject place for washed-up streamers that don't make enough money doing YouTube anymore. Sam Pepper got banned. Sam Pepper's banned on Kick because he fired a firework at a kid in the face

since a month ago.

That Legal Mindset guy saying he should be in jail.

I didn't shoot anyone with a firework. I'm not that stupid.

Well, I don't know. So far this month I've only made £650, and we're halfway through already.

Ah, I

think Sam Pepper's ban's permanent.

Oh God, I'm down £12 on that short now.

I have pretty dry earwax, I think.

Yeah, Sam Pepper's same age as me.

He's also from nearby where I'm from. He's from Ashford. I'm from Maidstone. They're like neighboring towns.

My next move, I don't know really.

I got to try and like, um,

I don't know what's through the YouTube channel.

Maybe try and make videos or something.

What flavor? Uh, berry lemonade.

I can't buy expensive food anymore. No more steaks. Cut back on the snacks. Just buy mincemeat and pasta. I make a tomato sauce. People say, why don't you just buy the premade tomato sauce? Because it's like £2 for one jar.

I could make 4 jars of my own pasta sauce for £2.

I, I get 4 tins of chopped tomatoes, that's like £1,

and then I get a bunch of onions, it's like 50p for 3 onions,

and then I chuck in a cube of chicken stock and garlic powder, and I swear it tastes better than the pre-made pasta sauce. I make my own,

um, what's the word, homemade pasta sauce. It tastes really good.

Put some carrots in. Carrots, like 60p for a bag of carrots.

And then I get some mincemeat, fry that off, chuck it in. Could make like 10 portions of pasta. You buy the pre-made pasta sauce, you can only use it for 2, maybe 2 servings of pasta, and you gotta buy another one. So expensive.

Never buy pre-made stuff. You're always going to pay a premium

when you just buy the ingredients and make your own stuff.

I don't really think it's trouble making your own sauce. You just fry the onions and carrots in butter,

sweat them off, and then add tomato sauce, chopped tomatoes, and chuck in the chicken stock, and then just let it boil for like half an hour. Easy.

You got a food prep.

The iPhone sock. Uh, I don't really know what that is, but I saw something about it.

I just hope I'm gonna make some money from the trading because I don't really know how else I'm gonna make any money.

To pay off my overdraft.

Account's at $1,520 now.

Looks like Asia market's not setting it off too much.

I bought a few shares of Facebook. 2 shares of Nvidia, but a couple shares of

Tesla. Damn, market just V-shaped. I should not have gone short.

It is open. The Asia market, pre-market is open now.

You know, it's Monday morning in Asia right now.

It's about 7 AM in Japan.

Chihiro is probably waking up now. Next to her new guy.

Probably gonna get railed in an hour.

My ex-wife, don't know how many dicks she's taken since we broke up.

I mean, she probably has a new guy.

Yeah, see what happens in 30 minutes.

And then I go to bed.

If she never thinks of me, why did she send me a Christmas message last December?

I'm probably still the best guy she ever had.

Well, she can't text me this year because I forgot my password for my Line account. She might text me. I wouldn't know.

Who knows if any of them texted me? Maybe Fasta texted me too. I wouldn't know now. I can't log in.

I think it wants to send a verification code to a phone number that I don't have anymore.

So I can't reset the password.

Update Sam Pepper's Ex-wife. What, Hannah? Yeah, she's quite good looking. What was that? I thought my phone died.

Dead-end delivery jobs. What opposed to my dead-end YouTube channel that has no future, no growth.

This channel has no future.

Dead.

I don't know what effort to put in. Like editing effort. What kind of effort?

Chris Broad spends, I don't know, a month or two making his videos. How though?

How do you spend a month making a video?

He probably spends like 1 hour a day on it.

I would love to put effort into the video.

I just don't know what effort.

I'd love to make a video that takes a month to make. And see if it actually gets better views. But I don't know what— like, what effort?

Like drawing 100 images so the video actually has a lot of images, not just one.

Well, I'm gonna go to bed. I'm tired. Tomorrow I gotta make some money trading.

I've already lost £15.

Um, otherwise I'm not getting out of the overdraft.

Like and subscribe.

I don't even get any Super Chats anymore, not even one.

At least I should make more than $5 an hour for this.

No, those weren't Super Chats, they were PayPal donos. I got 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10. Pretty good, $10.

It's more than, um, I'd make on Kick.

What's the difference? PayPal donos go straight to my PayPal, but a Super Chat comes up as like a colorful box and YouTube takes 40% of it. I start— oh, I started watching this new series on Amazon Prime Video. Called Malice. It's quite good actually. It's got that Jack Whitehall guy, which I was surprised because I didn't think

he was still doing TV. I thought he was a comedian, not an actor. But he comes off really creepy in the show. Have you seen it? It's got the guy, I think it's the guy from X-Files,

Sully.

And then he's— Sully's like a rich guy, he's got family and they're vacationing in Greece. Remember Jack Whitehall's like this weirdo creepy guy trying to mess with their lives. Seems quite good so far.

Scully. Oh, Scully's the girl. Who's the guy? I forgot his name. Mulder, I think that was his name.

Yeah, Jack Whitehall guy, he plays like the creepy weirdo psycho pretty well.

Like the You guy, what's his name? Joe something. Have you seen You? That was quite good.

Yeah, the map list seems quite interesting.

Well, I'm gonna go to bed. See ya.