I Dont Know What To Do About Everything

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Oh, there's so many things to talk about,

I don't even know where to start.

Did I really sleep with someone in my

wife's bed? Okay, so first of all, let me

clear up some of the misunderstandings. I

did not sleep with someone in my wife's

bed. My mum just assumed that the bed

was our bed when it was the Airbnb's bed.

On the first day that

I got back to Japan. When did I come back

to Japan? It was about 3 months ago,

wasn't it? Who's buzzing me?

So now it's September. Did I come

in June? Beginning of June. The very first

day I got back, um,

I got a hooker to come to the Airbnb and

I filmed it, and that's what my wife

found. Stupid notifications.

And the bed was the Airbnb's bed,

not my wife's bed, so no, it wasn't

my wife's place.

I have no idea how my wife unlocked my

iPad. It's so frustrating because it's

such a stupid mistake. You think someone

like me who, who likes gadgets and who's

into smartphones and iPads, you'd expect

someone like me to know how to keep my

stuff locked. And the fact

that my wife just unlocked my

iPad. I don't know how. Maybe she saw

me enter the code before and then she

remembered it. It's such a stupid mistake.

It's like leaving your house unlocked and

then you get robbed. I feel irritated at

myself for being so stupid, for leaving,

for letting that happen.

She, she actually found— how do

I explain this one?

Um, for some reason my iPhone was lying

around unlocked a lot. I thought it was

weird because sometimes I woke up in the

morning and I checked my phone and it was

just lying there unlocked. And usually

when we go shopping, I'll go outside first

because she takes ages to put her shoes

on. And stuff. So I, I went downstairs and

I was waiting outside, and she must have

found my phone unlocked, and she, she

checks my messages.

I can't remember what she found. There's

so many things that she's found out

recently, I forget which one's which. Oh,

she, she found me chatting to someone

about open relationships on Discord, and

then she was having a big go at me saying

I don't want an open relationship. I told

her to stop it because it was irritating.

We've had that conversation so many times

before.

I said, how did you find out? She said,

your phone was just lying there unlocked.

And then I should have changed my passcode

then. My passcode's stupidly simple. It

was 113388.

But I didn't think she knew my passcode,

so I didn't feel like there was any need

to change it. And then Tiko Sam—

this is all basically Tiko Sam's fault

because the only reason she was alone with

my iPad and my stuff was because I was

out. Everyone keeps saying, Daniel, you

should go out and hang out with friends.

I go out and I hang out with a friend,

and then look what happens. Everything

falls apart. Great advice.

Thanks everyone. So I was in this bar

with TKO Sam and his friend. It was a

pretty cool bar. It was like this

underground— it's like this weird rental

storage locker building. And we took the

lift down to about the 2nd basement or the

3rd basement underground, and it looked

like this abandoned building. It was

really cool, really creepy. And all these

doors just closed, and then Sekio-san's

friend just took us to one of the rooms,

and there was like a bar, like a game bar,

like a net cafe but all open, you know,

like open plan. All these computers, we

were sitting around drinking, and then

suddenly I started getting messages from

my wife saying, we're over, we're

finished. Don't ever come back. I don't

want to talk to you. I said, why? What

happened? And then she sent me a

screenshot of me effing the hooker in the

Airbnb. And I thought to myself, shit.

I checked my bag quickly to make sure I

have my important things like my passport

and all my bank stuff.

And then I went back to the Airbnb after

Sam went back to his hotel.

And my wife said that she got rid of all

my stuff. She said she,

she's taken it away. So the next day

I woke up and I rushed to her place. She

kept saying she changed the locks, but I

knew she didn't because you can't get

locks changed that quickly.

I went back to the apartment and I let

myself in and all my stuff was gone.

My screen, my laptop, my iPad, my iPhone,

all my valuable items were gone.

So annoying. And you know what I was gonna

do? I was so tempted to trash the

place. I was— I prepared a bottle of water

to tip down the TV. I got some scissors

out and I was going to cut all her

clothing up into shreds. I was so angry,

but I managed to calm myself down. I just—

I decided not to.

I took these things. I don't even know why

I took a stupid watch. She had nothing of

value in the apartment to take. What was I

supposed to take? She doesn't have any.

This is the weird thing about my wife. I

don't know how anyone can only have one

phone for all of the computing

needs. How? I need at least 2 phones

and a laptop and a tablet. I don't know

how anyone can just survive off of just a

phone for all of the internet and computer

needs. So she has nothing. She has like

this shitty pink laptop from 2012.

So the only thing that I thought was of

value were these watches and these Ray-Ban

sunglasses, but I bought the sunglasses

anyway, so it doesn't matter.

So after pacing up and down the apartment

for about an hour trying to think what I

wanted to do, she finally came back,

and obviously she was pretty pissed. She

told me to leave. I, I refused to leave,

and I kept saying, where's my stuff?

Where's my stuff? Give me back my stuff.

And she kept saying, my friend has it.

No, she kept saying, I gave it to someone.

And I said, what do you mean someone? Who

is someone? And then she said, you won't

know if I tell you. And I said, is it your

friend? And then she said, yeah, I gave it

to my friend. And I said, why did you give

it to your friend? And she said, because I

knew you would come back today to try and

get it. This is so stupid.

She gave my stuff to her friend so I

couldn't come back and get it. How

immature and stupid is that?

So I kept saying, give me back my stuff.

And she kept saying no. So I got fed up.

I felt like this is a waste of time. I

better leave before I do something I

regret. So I took the apartment key and I

threw it on the floor in front of her,

and I took my bag. I packed a few things

that she hadn't chucked away. I still have

all my clothes back there, so I took a few

pieces of clothing, and I took some of the

charging cables, and I took stuff

like my shaver. And my toothpaste.

And I slammed the door and I damaged

the door. I actually damaged 2 doors. So I

damaged her door because I slammed it as

hard as I could. And apparently what she

said, that now the door is difficult to

open. And then I kicked

the door that goes to the stairwell, the

staircase. As hard as I could, and my foot

went straight through the glass. I didn't

know it was so fragile. I thought it was

like a thick pane of glass. My foot went

straight through it. It shattered. And I

walked— I just walked as fast as I could

away from the apartment. I went to the

park, and I sat in the park for about half

an hour crying. I was sitting there crying

like a baby. I felt so sad.

And then I calmed down. I felt angry

And I went back to— came back to the

Airbnb. She messaged me. She said she got

a phone call from the apartment saying

that she has to pay to repair the glass

door. They have CCTV, so they got it all

on camera. It must have looked really

stupid seeing me slam the door and then

smash the other door. I must have looked

like a psycho.

So she has agreed to giving me my stuff

back, but she said that I have to pay for

the door. And I said, okay, I'll pay for

the door. But she said she doesn't know

how much it's going to cost, and they're

waiting for some man to come and analyze

it so they can find out how much it's

going to cost. I said, I'll just give you

$500 Give me back my stuff,

and if it's not enough, then I'll give you

more. Come on, how is $500 not going to be

enough? It's just a glass pane. It's not

going to be more than $500, is it? So she

still won't give me my stuff back. It's so

irritating. I'm just so angry about this.

It's my fucking stuff. Do you know how

much money all that stuff is worth? It's

an iPhone X, an iPad Pro, an MSI

gaming laptop, a curved monitor. That

stuff isn't cheap. Plus I have all my

stuff on it like photos, family photos and

videos, and my SIM card, my UK phone

SIM card, which I'm still in a contract

with. Plus all of my passcodes get sent to

that phone if I need to change passwords.

Also, I needed the iPhone X to trade in.

I could have gotten $400 off of the iPhone

11, and I was supposed to hand in the

iPhone X today to get the discount. I

couldn't get a discount because I didn't

have it. So annoying.

Now what's the point of taking my stuff

and giving it to a friend if she's going

to give it back to me anyway? It's so

stupid. Now I have to wait for her to get

back to me. She's not replying to my

messages. Where's my iPhone gone?

This is nothing. It's irritating me.

I messaged her on Facebook.

Oh, thank you, David. Yeah, I feel like

she's crossed the line taking my stuff. I

know I did something bad. But just because

I did something bad doesn't mean it's okay

for her to do something bad.

It says she's last, last active on

Facebook 5 hours ago. Let's take some

guesses at where— what she's doing. She's

out drinking with her stupid friends,

isn't she? Stupid conniving thieving

friends. What kind of bitch friend does

she have? Where her friend just willingly

accepts all of this guy's stuff that she

doesn't even know.

Thank you, Shun. Yeah, I know I really

hurt her and I was wrong for doing that

and I apologized and I'm totally okay with

admitting that I was wrong and I shouldn't

have done that, but she's taking my

fucking stuff and giving it to a stupid

bitch friend. And I'm pissed off.

I can't even do Find My iPhone because I

was stupid. I didn't set it up on my

iPhone X, but I did set it up on my iPad,

but it says no location found,

probably because the iPad is out of

battery. Oh,

thank you, Darkness. I don't know if it's

a guy or girlfriend. I think I'd be even

more angry if it was a guy friend. It

would have made a great video if I tracked

down her friend using Find My iPhone, but

I was stupid. I didn't set it up properly.

I should have— you— I couldn't because I

didn't have the iPhone 11 at the time.

Thank you, Charles. You should go to the

police. Sam said I should go to the police

as well, and I said to my wife, if you

don't give my stuff back, I'm gonna go to

the police, because you can't just take

thousands of dollars of my stuff and give

it away. And then she gave me— she sent me

this web page of legal mumbo-jumbo saying

that the police wouldn't do anything

because we're married, and the police

would just say, oh, talk it out. And then

she called me and Sam, oh, stupid

foreigners who think they know Japanese

law. Shut the fuck up, woman.

Didn't I take her stuff? Yeah, because she

took my stuff.

You know what pisses me off most about

this? I feel like I'm a child and my mum

has taken away my stuff, has taken away my

toys, and she's only doing this to get

back at me because she knows how angry I'd

Thank you, Cantor. You deserve better than

her. I feel like she has a really shit

personality in moments like this. She's

really calculative and vindictive and

conniving. Any other

normal person would be like, oh, you

should come and pick up your stuff because

we're breaking up. But no, she acts like a

fucking 10-year-old, you know, like one of

those bitch women who smash up the guy's

stuff because he's done something they

I'm getting really pissed off now. I'm

gonna sound kind of misogynistic, I guess.

Okay, calm down. I just hate it when women

do shit like this. They smash your stuff

or they chuck your stuff away.

So immature. If she wants to break

up, then fine, just say come and get your

stuff, we're over.

Or she just dump it all outside so I can

come and pick it up. But no, she gives it

to a bitch friend and then won't tell me

where it is or won't tell me when I can

get— when I can get it back.

Men won't do this. If a woman cheats on a

man, I can't imagine a man doing something

so childish.

And then you know what else is so stupid?

She sent the picture of me having sex with

that hooker to my mom. Can you believe

that? She sent it to my mom. Now my mom

has seen me having sex, and then my mom

sends it to my sister for some reason. So

now my sister and my mom have seen me

having sex with a hooker. Why? What's the

point? It's like she's trying to do

everything she can to get back at me.

And now my mum is really pissed off. She

said she's writing me out of the will.

That's another irritating thing. Now every

time I do something that upsets my mum,

she goes, oh, I'm writing you out of the

will. You'll get nothing. You're a

Oh, this water's weird. I thought it was

just water, but it's like salty sweet

It's weird, you get these energy drinks,

they're supposed to hydrate you for

exercise, but they're salty.

But at the same time, it's really

refreshing. So now I feel

like I've got no one. My mum hates me, my

wife hates me, my sister— I didn't even

reply to my sister. Look what my sister

Uh, I think I can show you this. Yeah.

If you think I'm making this up, read

that. She said, what the hell? Why is

there a video of you having sex with a

prostitute? Why is Mum sending it to me?

Thank God I didn't click on it. I just saw

the thumbnail. Mum is so angry.

Guess how much my phone bill was last

month? £160. Can you believe that?

I overuse my data so much.

$100, that's like $200 for a phone bill.

And now she's not replying and it's,

it's half past 11 on a Friday

night. Where the fuck do you think she is?

In a fucking bar, probably drinking.

Probably chatting to guys. Probably

wouldn't be surprised if she ended up

going home with some guy and then fucks

him. Stupid woman.

What else is she doing on a Friday evening

at half past 11 not responding to me?

With her stupid friends. This is why I

hate when people have friends.

I'm so angry at her and her friend.

Can you imagine it? Don't you think her

friend is a complete cunt as well? Can you

imagine it? Your friend has a row with

her boyfriend and then your friend comes

to you with all this electronics, all

these electronics And it says, here, take

all my boyfriend, my husband, or my

boyfriend's expensive electronics.

What would you say? Would you say, oh no,

I don't want to get involved? That's what

a normal person would say. You wouldn't

say, oh sure, give me his electronics,

give me his iPad, his iPhone, fuck him.

What kind of bitch friend does she have?

Thank you. Sorry, the chat's going

so quickly. Darkness for

the $5. I so

wish that my— that I, I so hope that her

stupid friend charges the iPad so it pops

up on the radar, because I'd go straight

to her stupid friend's house, start

banging on the door. I don't care if it's

some 6-foot-tall guy. I'm so

angry. I'm actually thinking of— if she

doesn't give my stuff back soon, I think I

will go to the police. When I was

at her apartment, she told me to leave and

I said no, and then she said, if you don't

leave, I'm gonna call the police. I should

have stayed and I should have said, go on

then, call the police, and then I'll tell

them that you've taken all my fucking

stuff.

She's more in the wrong than I am.

Do you know how irritating it is when

someone takes all your stuff?

It's not even the first time. The second—

the first time was when I was in England,

and then she sold my iPad Pro and my other

MSI gaming laptop. So I bought a

new iPad, a new laptop, and now she gave

all that to her friend as well, probably

to sell.

If she's not going to sell it, then why

give it to her friend? Why didn't she just

smash it or something?

I said, why did you get rid of my stuff?

She said, because I don't need it, I don't

want it here. Give it back to me then,

not your stupid friend, idiot.

Obviously I'm upset, it's my stuff. I said

to her, how do you feel? If you came back

to the apartment and all your stuff's

gone, she said, "Oh, get new stuff." Yeah,

but you'll be pissed off about it.

I'm kind of glad I didn't destroy the

apartment because then I definitely

wouldn't get my stuff back. I think

there's a chance of getting it back, but I

have to be patient, and I'm running out of

patience. I want it now. Why is it taking

so long? Stop going to bars and get my

fucking stuff back to me. She's sitting in

some stupid bar drinking, isn't she?

Instead of getting me my stuff back.

I don't know which friend it is. She has

so many friends. She has one friend who's

like 25 or something, and she talks to her

quite a lot. But I don't think it's that

friend because that friend recently ran

away from home because her parents are in

debt. And I'm trying to force her to help

them pay back the debt. And she's, she's

like, she has 2 boyfriends she lives with.

I don't think it's her. Then who else

could it be? Oh shit, do you think it's

that friend who, who stream sniped me?

You know when I was streaming outside, my

wife stream snipes me with her friend. Do

you think it's that one? The one with the

Italian boyfriend.

I can imagine her doing it. I'm pretty

sure she hates me.

Who else is there?

I don't even know where they live anyway.

Even if I knew which friend it was, they

probably live in Osaka somewhere,

but they probably work at the same place.

My wife works at Fukushima Station around

there, so I should just wait at the

station. I don't know what her friend

I've got nothing to do. Usually I'd be

playing Rainbow Six, but I can't.

So what am I supposed to do? I just watch

YouTube all day.

It's not just the computer stuff. Also my

gaming mouse, which is $100, my gaming

keyboard, which is $50.

Sounds like a petty friend. Yeah, well, I

guess it's a friend, so she's, she's going

to be helpful to my wife.

But if the friend was a decent person,

she would have said, no, leave me out of

this, I don't want to get involved. You

can tell it's a bitchy kind of person to

willingly take my stuff. You'd easily

be able to know that that stuff's worth a

The first time it happened, it wasn't so

bad because we were getting divorced and I

was in England and I wasn't going to fly

all the way to Japan to get my stuff back.

That'd be stupid. But this time it's

different because, because I'm in Japan.

I'm here.

And I don't know if it's over.

I kind of get the feeling that she wants

me to fight for the relationship and make

promises and say, oh, um, I'll promise

never to use hookers again, or I'll

leave all my devices unlocked so I can't

cheat on you again. Or I don't know,

maybe she's hoping that I'll try and fight

for the relationship, but I'm just so

angry right now. About the electronics

that I can't think clearly, and I just

can't even begin to start

apologizing or trying to fix things

until I get my fucking stuff back. I'm so

enraged right now.

I keep thinking about it over and over.

My stuff. Where's my stuff? Where's my

stuff? Where's my stuff? How dare you take

my stuff?

It reminds me of when I was a kid and I

used to fight with my sister, and then my

mum broke my toys in front of me. I don't

know why, but I feel really triggered

about it. Maybe it's because of that.

When I used to fight my sister, my mum— I

remember this one time my mum took my

remote control monster car and then

smashed it with a hammer. And then there's

another time she took my PlayStation 2 and

threw it out the window and smashed it all

into bits. And then chucked all my games

out the window.

I feel like this is bringing back those

memories.

Thank you, David.

Yeah, she stole my stuff so I can't get

away. It's like she's scared of me just

getting my stuff back and then I

disappear. So maybe she doesn't want me to

go. I don't know. The thing is,

it wasn't just one time that I used the

hookup. So she had complete access to my

iPad. She saw everything. She saw all my

DMs on Discord, Instagram,

Skype, which is what I used to contact the

hooker company. So she found

out I used a hooker again in August.

Okay, yeah, I used a hooker a few times.

It's not really a big deal. Thank you,

Top Lists. This donation is

to enable you. Don't change, keep being

self-centered. Well, I'm pretty

good at being self-centered.

That's why I wanted to get the sex doll,

not just for content but

also to try and stop myself from wasting

more money on hookers, because it is a big

waste of money. Those hookers are not

cheap when they get sent to your house.

They cost like $300, and after I

finish, it feels like a massive waste of

money, and I, I regret it every time.

Tyler Sprewell, do you want to stay

married if you do have to compromise? If

you don't, then demand your stuff back and

leave. I don't know, I feel so conflicted

because on, on one hand, I was pretty

happy, you know, I had my desk and my

computer, my fish tank I was quite happy

with my little space, the things I owned.

Thank you, Darkness, for the $5. Yeah,

I was quite happy with her recently.

I just don't feel sexually satisfied with

her. That's why I keep thinking about

other women. And using hookers.

Livestream confronting her so you have

evidence.

Well, I already have evidence because we

have all the Facebook messages, and I have

evidence that I bought those devices on

Amazon. Did I wear

a condom with the hooker? No.

It's weird, isn't it? She just let me put

it in without a condom, and she let me

finish inside of her. Yeah, I know

I'm stupid, probably get HIV, but what are

the chances?

I don't know.

About the marriage.

Thank you, Megan. Megan Taylor, here's a

couple bucks for more hookers. No, I don't

want to get any more hookers. I've wasted

so much money, I need to stop now. I've

just wasted another— I don't know how much

money that door is going to cost to get

repaired. Does anyone here know how much

it would cost? To repair a glass door.

People saying it's fake. I guess it does

look kind of fake. Let me get the picture.

SB, thank you. Do you think you'd be

satisfied with anyone? I don't know,

maybe even if I was with the hottest,

cutest, youngest girl I could ever be

with, maybe even then I still wouldn't be

satisfied. Maybe I just want to fuck

everyone. Maybe I won't even be satisfied

if I had 10 girls. I'm not sure because

I've never actually been in a relationship

where I felt physically

attracted to the girl. All my exes were

fat or ugly or not attractive,

so I don't know how it feels to be

with someone that you're actually

physically attracted to. I don't know what

that feels like.

Where's the picture?

For some reason, people get very irritated

or angry when I call women fat or ugly,

but it's true. They were so fucking fat.

You should have seen the size of their

legs. The size of their thighs were about

4 times the size of my torso.

They were so fat, I felt like I was gonna

get crushed when one of them wanted to

ride me. Or they're so

old, like 38,

40. I'm sorry if that sounds rude, but

it's just the truth. Look, she took

this picture. Obviously I didn't take the,

the picture or video because I just

smashed the door in I wasn't going to hang

around to take a video of it, and I'm not

going to video myself smashing a door.

It's like a spur-of-the-moment thing. I

didn't plan it. If I was doing it for

views, yeah, I would have filmed myself

smashing the door and

I would have taken a photo, but I was, I

was completely crazy at the time. I just

kicked it, lost my temper.

But your wife is really beautiful.

I'm not saying my wife is ugly, but I just

don't really feel incredibly

attracted to her.

She just doesn't look very Asian, okay? I

know she's 100% Japanese, but she just

doesn't look Asian. She looks like Natalie

Portman. Like an Asian version of Natalie

Portman, and I just don't find Natalie

Portman attractive. She's a beautiful

woman, yeah, but she does nothing for me.

I don't feel attracted to Natalie Portman.

Oh, thank you, Top Lists. How much would

it cost to get replacement wife? I don't

know, that could take ages. Tireless

Prewell, pay for the door. I will, I have

to. She said if I don't pay for the stuff,

she'll sell— if I don't pay for the door,

then she will definitely sell my stuff to

Look, I have an extreme Asian fetish and

my wife just doesn't look very Asian. So

the thing is, I feel emotionally satisfied

with my wife. I like being with her. She

comforts me. You know what someone says,

that men— the main 2 things men want is

sexual satisfaction and domestic comfort.

And I definitely feel satisfied with the

domestic comfort bit when I'm with her. I

feel like I have someone, like I'm not

alone in the world. I like being with her.

I like, you know, going shopping and

spending time with her, but I just don't

feel sexually satisfied with her.

Did I find the hookers attractive? No,

the freaking hookers were fat as well.

Jesus Christ, why is everyone so fat?

Okay, so I've used this hooker website

about 3 times now. The first 2 times—

well, the first time Okay, so here's how

it works. You can pick a girl, but they'll

charge you extra, and they have photos on

the website. So I picked this slim-looking

girl. You can't see their faces because

it's all blurred out. She arrives at my

hotel and she's bloody fat, and she looks

nothing like the photo.

And then the second time, I thought,

well, there's no point picking a girl

because I don't know what she looks like.

So I said, I You just pick for me. They

sent me another fat girl.

And then the third time I specifically

said, "Can you send me a slim girl this

time?" So the third time they actually

sent someone who wasn't fat. Seriously,

no average. What do

I consider fat? When their thighs are

three times thicker than my torso.

Look, I'm a skinny guy. I don't want to

sleep with fat girls. I want to sleep with

women that don't make me feel like a

stick. I don't like feeling like a little

stick man when I'm having sex. I want to

feel like, you know, the big guy who's

bigger than the girl and can physically

maneuver her. When it's a fat girl, I

can't do anything. I can't even lift her

leg. I couldn't even lift 2 of her legs.

That's why it's difficult for me to find a

girl the right size, because I'm so

skinny. It's difficult for me to find

girls who are around the same size.

That's why I like my wife, because she's

not fat and she's quite

similar in size to me, which is weird

because Japan is full of tiny slim girls,

but for some reason all I can get are the

fat ones. Why? I was on Tinder 2 years

ago, I matched all these women, and the

only ones I could have sex with were the

really fat ones.

So frustrating. I'm in one of the

countries where there's the least amount

of fat people, and you hardly see any fat

girls outside in public. They're all slim

and young and pretty. I go on Tinder or

dating website, or I even pay for a

hooker, they're all bloody fat.

Your laptop is gone, how would I fap now?

Well, I haven't watched porn since I got

kicked out because I have the sex doll,

don't I? I use the sex doll like 10 times

a day, but when I come, nothing comes

out. It's just like blank. You couldn't

lift your sex doll? Yeah, the sex doll's

heavy.

I've got nothing against fat women, it's

just that as a skinny guy I'd prefer the

girl not to be so big.

And I just like saying the word fat. It

feels nice. Everyone say it with me: fat.

It's just a satisfying word to say. I

don't know why. It's one of my favorite

words. My top 5 words would be disgusting,

boring, stupid,

Fat and annoying.

Those are my favorite words. They just

feel so satisfying to say.

You disgusting, irritating,

annoying, boring fatty.

I can use all of them in a sentence.

Oh, it's been a while since I streamed.

This is fun. I haven't streamed such a

long time because there's just nothing to

talk about. It's so boring streaming when

there's nothing to talk about. I'm really

pissed off right now and angry with the

whole situation, but it's fun to stream

during times like this. There's so much

stuff to talk about.

So what else happened? TK Sam. Okay,

so I met him again

yesterday night with his other friend.

And then he brought this other guy as

well, this English guy from Newcastle.

Oh, hearing his story kind of pisses me

off as well. So he— his friend from

England is this white guy, and he came to

Japan when he was 19, and now he's 25 and

he's fucking married and he has a kid.

What the hell? How is he 25 and he's

married and has a bloody kid? And He has

a, a permanent visa in Japan, and I'm just

stuck here. No kids,

crazy wife, and I can't even get a bloody

visa unless it's a spouse visa. And I'm

always stuck as a stupid tourist. It's

like everyone has a stupid visa, everyone

has a permanent residency thing, or they

have a work visa, or they have some kind

of special visa. Why can't I get a visa?

Why am I always stuck as a stupid tourist?

It's not fair.

I'm more desperate to live in Japan than

any of they are. They all get visas

just handed out to them willy-nilly.

What about me? Why is it so diff— why

can't I get a visa? I'm always here as a

tourist. My only option is to get a spouse

visa, and that's not gonna happen, is it?

You know that South African white guy who

has a channel? But he got his 5-year

spouse visa the first time, and then he

changed it straight to a permanent

residency. I only got 1 year on my first

spouse visa, but it's just because he had

a baby. If you have a baby, you get

special treatment.

But I hate— I feel so irritated. I listen

to these other foreigners' stories in

Japan. They're like, oh, I'm here, I've

been here for 10 years, I've got a blah

blah blah blah blah blah visa, I've got a

super special look at me pink boy visa.

And I'm thinking, how the hell do you get

that stuff? Why can't I get one? And they

say, oh, you have to get a job. And I say,

fuck that, I'm not getting a job. They

say, I was here, I was here as

a teacher and then I changed it

to permanent residency. I've been here 10

times since 2010.

No one gave me a visa. Get a

baby from your wife? I can't get anyone

pregnant. I finished inside so many women,

none of them messaged me back saying that

they're pregnant. I feel

like everyone gets visas so easily. Even

Sam has a permanent residency. I'm just

stuck here. 6 months at a time and then I

have to leave again. I can't build

foundations because I'm never here for

longer than half a year. I start

trying to build a permanent foundation and

then my stupid wife chucks all my stuff

out. Every time I start trying to build a

place for myself, stupid wife chucks

it all away. I had a monitor,

had a good setup, had a fish tank,

had my desk. Now I'm back to squatting on

the bloody floor with

nothing.

Back to square one. I just want

a place of my own. I can't even go back to

England because now my mum hates me. So

I've got nowhere to go in England,

nowhere to go in Japan. I feel like I have

nowhere to go anywhere, nowhere that I

can call home. It's so depressing not

having a place to call your own home. I

just feel like I'm wandering like a leaf

floating around in a river with

no place to go.

Oh, thank you, George. Fun fact,

fun fact about Asians: I found out my

Asian wife has flaky white earwax. That's

disgusting. I've never noticed anyone's

earwax.

Japan wants more workers and taxpayers.

Well, if they gave me a bloody visa, I'd

pay tax. I'm not paying tax if I'm here as

a tourist.

I don't even use the public services like

the healthcare.

All this happened because of the cereal

doll? No, it's all because of Sam. If Sam

didn't come, I would still be in the

apartment. Because I wouldn't have left my

iPad unattended. I feel so stupid. I

should have taken it all with me. It's

just an iPad, could have fit into my bag

Yeah, about Sam, I quite liked him.

Yeah, he's nice, but he's very loud,

and I kept feeling kind of embarrassed. I

feel like everyone was looking at us, and

then he kept talking to strangers, which

was funny and interesting, but I felt kind

of embarrassed. Secondhand embarrassment.

I like his friend. His friend's nice. I

might meet his friend again tomorrow,

actually. His friend invited me back to

the shisha smoking place on Saturday,

so I'm thinking about going again. It's

kind of weird for me to

get invited out to bars I've never had

that experience before. Oh, thank you,

Darkness. Tax-free life? I wish. I have

to pay tax to this stupid English tax

place. I registered my channel as an

official business early last year. I

didn't think I'd have to pay any tax

because I hardly spent any time in

England, but I still have to pay some. I

don't have to pay as much if I was living

in England permanently. But because I was

away from England so much, I only have to

pay a little bit. But it's still a fair

amount that I don't think I should have to

pay because I wasn't even in England for

more than a couple weeks. Why do I have to

pay tax not even using the stupid

government services anyway? I think you

should only have to pay tax If you're

using the the tax services like the

healthcare and the roads,

why do I have to pay tax? I'm not even

But I don't think not

paying tax would be a good idea. Maybe I'd

get away with it for a few years, but then

eventually I think they would find out.

So I might as well just pay it. It's not a

massive, massive amount, you know, it's a

little bit.

Um, yeah, Sam's friend was interesting.

He knows so much about Osaka. He knows

all these underground bars and all these

cool buildings. He took us to all these

weird bars that you wouldn't even think

existed. Just like little holes

in the ground, a little room that has a

bar. It was quite interesting. I've never

done bar hopping before. Last night we

stayed up all night. I was exhausted.

I had to wait until the first train. We

went to about 4 different bars. I, I spent

about $50, ¥5,000, about £40.

The drinks are so expensive. You pay ¥700

for a beer or ¥1,000 for a cocktail

or ¥1,500 for a shisha thingy,

smoking thing,

and then you don't even get sex at the end

of it. It was okay, I guess, but if I was

doing it to find women, I don't know if

that's the best way to do it. It's just

weird. Bars. People go there and then they

start talking to strangers. I guess the

whole point of going to a bar is to meet

strangers. I just felt really weird. I

ended up talking to some strangers. If

you, if you watched Tkyosam's stream, you

would have seen me in the shisha bar just

sitting there. I did make a bit of

conversation with the woman sitting next

to me. It was just so boring. I didn't

know what to talk about. So you're a woman

and you, you're Japanese.

Okay, what am I supposed to say to her? I

don't know what to say. Sam was just going

on and on about stupid stuff. I guess

that's how you make conversation, you just

talk about dumb stuff and make them laugh.

I can't do that.

I don't know how to do it.

I have no idea what to say. If I'm live

streaming like this, yeah, I can talk a

lot, but I'm just rambling about my own

problems. I don't think if I go to a bar

and I started talking like this to women,

they would just get angry and think, oh,

would you shut up moaning the whole time?

How fat is Sam? He's pretty fat. He's

probably the fattest person I ever met,

but he's nice. He's a nice guy. I like how

he includes me in the conversation because

if there's like a group of people and

they're all talking, I'll just sit there

not saying anything because I have no idea

what to say. And then Sam would kind of

bring me into the conversation by asking

me a question.

I just don't know what to say. We went to

this pizza place with Sam and his 2

friends, and they're all just chatting

about stuff like teaching English and

visas and boring

stuff. And I have no experience with stuff

like teaching English or getting visas or

anything really, so I can't contribute to

the conversation because I know nothing.

About what they're talking about, and I

have no interest. I don't care about

teaching English. How can you be

interested in teaching English? It's the

shittest, boring, most boring job in the

world. Oh, so you teach English?

Wow, just like all the other foreigners.

Fascinating. I just find it very boring

to talk about English teaching.

So I was in the pizza place. I was just

sitting there trying not to look like I

was bored. So I was looking at the people

who were talking and I was nodding and I

was laughing when everyone else was

laughing, even though I didn't think it

was funny. It was so awkward.

Advice losers in stream chat. Too poor to

super chat. Chad Daniel enablers. Thank

you, Top Lists. It was so awkward.

They would all start laughing about

something that wasn't funny at all, and

I'd just go— I felt like I was this alien

and I was trying to fit in. I had no idea

how to. It's so difficult trying

to explain my situation.

I'm married. But I don't have a visa. I

had a visa, but it expired. I went back to

England because my dad died, and I came

back to Japan, but then my wife kicked me

out, and I won't get my visa, and I do

YouTube. It's really difficult to explain

that when people say, so what are you

doing in Japan?

I make— I sit in an Airbnb fucking

a sex doll, and then I do streams ranting

about how shit my life is to Over 1,000

people. It's quite a lot of people

watching. Interesting.

It's not really something I want to boast

about when I'm meeting new people. Oh, I

live in an Airbnb with a sex doll. Guess

what? Oh my God, this is so funny. Guess

who I ran into when I came back to the

Airbnb today? Because today I had to go to

Shinsaibashi to pick up the iPhone. When I

came back to the Airbnb, I was walking up

the steps. Guess who was bloody coming

down there? The manager of the Airbnb.

It was so embarrassing because he knows I

have a sex doll because some idiot

messaged him on Airbnb saying Daniel has a

sex doll, and then he showed him his— he

showed him my videos.

Oh, thank you. Get therapy. If that works

so well, why don't they have any dollars

to back out? I hate it when people say get

therapy. It's so annoying. It's not going

to change anything.

Um, yeah, the manager, who's this pretty

young guy, I think he's like 22, 25,

maybe he's older. I'd be surprised if he's

older than me. He came down, he said,

oh, Daniel. I said, oh, hi. He said, how

is everything going? I said, yeah,

everything's fine. And they said, someone

called Andrew messaged me on Airbnb and

I saw your YouTube videos. And I said,

oh, I didn't know what to say.

And he said he was okay with it. He was

completely okay with it. He said, he said,

that's fine. Uh, he said,

you have— he said something like,

everyone has a preference or something

like that. I think he wanted to say the

word, the Japanese word shumi in English.

I think he sh— he should have said

everyone's into different things, or

you're into that, so that's cool. But he

said everyone, you have your preference.

It's not my preference. This, the sex doll

isn't my preference. My preference is an

actual real woman. Who's young

and fertile and pretty, not a bloody love

doll. The love doll is not my preference;

it's my only option. It's my only choice.

I didn't say anything. I just said, "So

it's okay that I have the sex?" So he

said, "Yeah, it's completely fine." And

then he said, "I also use toys sometimes."

That was quite funny. I said, "Don't

worry, I won't leave it here." And he

said, he said thanks,

because he probably saw the bit in the

video when I said, should I leave the sex

doll here? So now I can't even leave it

here because I feel bad because he was

really nice. I was actually thinking of

just dumping it here and then vanishing,

but he's a nice guy. I felt— I feel bad if

I just left it here. So I'm gonna get the

Hong Kong guy to come and help me, so that

might be the next video. I'm just not sure

how to do it. I got, I got sellotape today

to tape it up. SB, thank you.

Is the Airbnb cheaper than an apartment?

No, the Airbnb is more expensive because

it's, you know, it's for foreigners. They

bump up the price so they can, so they

make a profit because they're just renting

this place from the building owner, just

like everyone else who lives here. So they

have to bump up the price for Airbnb so

they make a profit. I'm paying 3 times

the rent that I was paying with my wife.

I'm paying $800.

So I'm gonna move out next week and go

somewhere else that's cheaper. So I have

to ditch the sex doll, but I haven't quite

figured out how to do it. I'm gonna put it

back into the box, tape it all up, and

then the Hong Kong guy will come here

hopefully, and I'll make a video out of

it. Should be quite funny. But then where

are we going to take it?

I would like to sell it, but no one's

offered me. I made a community post,

I think quite a lot of people saw it, but

no one— even if you only want to pay $100,

look, I'll take $100, okay? It's better

than nothing. I would like 500 though

because it did cost me 1,600.

Okay, it's used, but I'll do my best to

clean it. I think 400 or 500 would

be fair. Oh, thank you,

Tyler. Therapy doesn't solve your

problems, teach you how to solve your

problems like an adult. People get therapy

If you need it. I don't

know, I can talk and talk and talk and it

makes me feel better because I feel like

I've vented it out, but nothing will

change personality-wise. I'm still the

same person. David, cut up the doll,

leave bits around. Yeah, I could cut it

up, but the problem is it has a metal

skeleton. I could cut the rubber off and

then get rid of the rubber first Yeah,

actually, that's a pretty good idea.

But then I wouldn't need the Hong Kong

guy. I could just get a knife and then cut

the rubber off, peel off the flesh, and

then just dump it in some— someone's

rubbish station.

Because you don't make an effort to change

yourself. I did. I bought the sex doll.

To stop myself from cheating and using

hookers. Look, I like sex and I like

women, and I don't think that's ever

going to change. I've got a very active

man drive, okay? And I don't

think that's ever going to change unless

I'm like 60 and then my libido finally

dies. So if anyone

lives around this area and you want a sex

doll I'd be happy to sell it for a couple

hundred dollars.

I just really want to get rid of it

because it's weighing me down. It's

stopping me from moving. I don't want to

stay here for another month. You know

where I'm thinking of moving to? Tobita

Shinji. Can you imagine if I lived

in the red light district? That'd be so

funny. Oh, thank you, Mr.

Robot. Cut the face off and wear it as a

mask. That's a bit creepy, guys.