Why I Love My Ex Wife More Than My Girlfriend

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How many hours?

2.

2 plus 2 is 4, and then 4 plus— wow, I can

do 8 hours today.

We will set the timer at 12 hours.

A set.

I love this timer thing.

I don't know why I like seeing the numbers

tick down so much.

It's like watching my channel die.

Oh no, I shouldn't have said the D word.

Hopefully I didn't get demonetized.

Watching numbers tick down has to be my

new favorite hobby.

Okay, so today I'm gonna do desktop stream

because the IRL stream did really badly.

Oh my God, the IRL stream— you guys just

really don't want to see IRL stuff, I'm

guessing,

which is kind of expected, I guess, but

still disappointing.

People who watched it liked it, but a lot

of people just didn't watch it.

And I didn't make much money off it

because stupid Ed Sheeran copyright

claimed me.

So I lost all of the ads from the first

couple thousand views, and then the

streams only got a couple thousand views

anyway.

So like 90% of the views weren't

monetized, so I barely made anything off

it.

It was so stressful.

It was all this stupid music trying to

screw me over, and then naked man, and

then the quality of the stream was so bad,

so shaky, and kept going laggy as well.

So I don't know if I don't really want to

do IRL anytime soon.

And then I got sunburned, and then my legs

were really painful, and I ended up

spending $10 as well getting taxis and

trains.

Drinks and stuff.

So yeah, I don't really want to do IRL

anytime soon again.

Oh, thanks.

Oh my god, how do you guys know about this

already?

I haven't even said anything about it.

So I do have— someone tips me off on who

this boyfriend might be.

And it seems like a coincidence, but

there's just too many coincidences that

make it hard to

deny that this could be her boyfriend.

They talked about it on Discord.

Oh, have they?

Oh yeah,

yeah, someone messaged me saying they

think they found who the boyfriend is.

Apparently he is a YouTuber and yet he

gets more freaking views than me, which

pisses me off.

His channel is only half the size of mine.

He's got like 50K subs, but he gets like

40 to 80K views.

I get like 2K views now.

Can you believe it?

Unbelievable.

I don't know how my views dropped again.

It already dropped from like 10K down to

about 6 or 7K, and now it's dropped down

to like below 4K.

I'm so shocked.

I'm trying to put out all this different

stuff and go outside and do new things,

and people just don't care anymore.

It's so frustrating.

People complain that I don't do anything,

and then when I do, they don't care.

Is it Nobita?

No, it's just some random Japanese guy who

has like a travel channel.

His videos are so boring.

It's like it's got typical stock music in

the background, happy stock music, and

then he just travels and then he's like,

this is the bus station.

Oh, look at all the people.

It's so boring, but I guess that stuff

gets views, doesn't it?

Whining losers on the internet doesn't

really get views anymore.

There used to be a time when whining

losers used to get views.

Like there was that Just James guy and

there were a lot of other incel type

channels.

It's like they all died.

Maybe the algorithm shadow banned all the

incel channels.

Maybe YouTube is telling you to go outside

without the YouTube stuff.

It's telling me that my audience don't

give a crap about IRL.

And travel stuff.

So I don't know what you guys want to see

anymore because I tried a lot of stuff and

none of it works.

So if none of it works, I might as well

just do the, the easiest thing,

the one that takes least effort.

Why would you do something that takes more

effort when it doesn't get you more

results than what takes less effort, if

that makes sense?

Also, I don't know what to do when I do

IRL because I just end up walking around

in circles.

To do IRL, you've actually got to go to a

place and do something, like do an

activity, do an activity like, um, I don't

know, go fishing or meet a friend.

I end up just walking around, around in

circles and it's kind of boring.

I don't talk to anyone.

The way it was edited was hard to watch

because it was really shaky.

I applied, um, software AI stabilization

to make it more stable.

Without the editing, it was even more

shaky.

It was like every time I took a step, it

was like, whoo, Ooh, ooh, it was like an

earthquake was happening every time I took

a step.

I don't know what's wrong with this stupid

phone.

I pressed stabilization on, it clearly

wasn't on.

I did some test streaming with my iPhone

and it's way better.

It's actually got stabilization and

everything works pretty well.

So if I did IRL again, I'd try it on my

iPhone.

Oh, thanks, Hurt Business.

Beef with the new boyfriend, gain back

views.

Beef with new BF and gain back views.

Great content.

I think that could get over 5K views.

Now I'm trying to get over 5K.

So pathetic.

Back in the day, I would delete a video

out of anger if it only got 10K views.

Now getting 10K views is Very rare.

I don't know if I'd want to do that,

because if I did it,

I don't really know what to say.

And then would I show the channel?

If I showed the channel, I'd be driving—

well, I don't have many viewers to drive

anymore anyway, but I'd be giving him

subs, wouldn't I?

Because people would sub to him and

And then they'll say stuff like, haha, he

gets more views, haha, he's this and that.

So someone sent me a message, um, saying

that he has videos and vlogs going to Laos

and doing the exact same things Chihiro

did.

On the exact same time frame when she

posted her Instagram stories.

So either it's a massive coincidence or it

is actually her boyfriend and he's from

Osaka.

He's got Osaka dialect.

And I remember 2021, me and Chihiro used

to chat back in 2021 around February to

March.

We chatted quite a lot and she did tell me

that she has a coworker who has blown up

on YouTube recently.

And then she started asking me loads of

questions about How to start a channel and

how to monetize videos.

Apparently, that's him.

I thought it was a girl who blew up on

YouTube.

I think it's kind of surprising she'd want

to date a YouTuber again after what

happened.

I would have thought that after what

happened, she would never want to talk to

another YouTuber ever again.

It's just kind of weird, isn't it?

He doesn't really look like me.

He looks like a Japanese guy.

He's got like a K-pop bowl.

Cut haircut.

He's got big frame glasses.

He's, I think he's

in his late 20s according to my, my

tip-off.

And I think I looked better when I was in

my late 20s.

I don't know if I'd look, if I'd say I

look better now because I got kind of old,

but I think I looked way better when I was

his age.

Are we just guessing that's her boyfriend?

Well, we don't have solid evidence, but

there does seem to be a lot of

coincidences that would point towards that

being him.

He's from Osaka.

He's got a relatively new channel.

I think his oldest video is like 3 years

old.

He's going to the exact same places

Chihiro went to according to her Instagram

stories.

He's also massively into Pokémon, and

Chihiro also went to the Pokémon place,

didn't she?

But I thought she went to the Pokémon

place with Misaki, not some unknown camera

person.

The main thing that pisses me off is he

gets more views than me and he's only got

half the subs, but I guess it's not hard

to get more views than I do.

Even channels only have 5K subs get more

views than I do now.

Yeah, even a channel with 100 subs

probably get more views.

All you have to do is get more than 2K

views and then you get more views than me.

I don't know what happened to my, my

viewership, my audience.

I had such a— I had such a tight-knit

loyal audience and now they've almost all

gone.

It's so weird.

Do you think they all just lost interest

at the same time?

Or I got shadow banned or something?

It's just very strange.

Maybe I need to go back to doing like very

personal storytime videos

about how my life failed.

I really need to rethink.

So the travel vlogs don't work, so I'm

gonna scratch that out.

IRL doesn't work, so I'm gonna scratch

that out.

What else doesn't work?

Life in Thailand doesn't work.

I might go back to

maybe some illustrated videos again.

Never-ending circle with the continuous

splurge of fabricated girlfriend drama.

Because that's the only thing that I can

think of that you guys find interesting.

Why don't you tell me what you find

interesting, then I'll make it?

Because according to analytics, the only

thing that you guys are interested in is

the girlfriend stuff.

Search a sushi vlog on YouTube, it's New

BF.

How do you know that?

How do people know about it already?

No, don't search it.

Chihiro is gonna be pissed at me and then

she'll start reporting my channel more.

She reported a bunch of videos last time I

made videos about her.

She did a privacy complaint, so I had to

blur her out.

Pia doxxed him.

How does Pia know about it?

Oh, for God's sake, trying to keep it a

secret.

Why don't you marry her for the Thai visa?

Because I don't want to live in Thailand

permanently.

And I'm kind of bored in this

relationship, to be honest.

It's just a bit boring.

Even traveling to Vietnam felt— I felt

bored in Vietnam.

And traveling is supposed to be one of the

most exciting things you do in a

relationship, isn't it?

I just, I felt like, oh my God, when's

this gonna end?

When I was in Vietnam.

Oh, thanks, Brian.

Misaki exposed animated video and also

drama.

Yeah, I guess you want drama.

Animation video on exposing Misaki would

be funny.

I feel like I did some pretty good

animated stories back in Manchester.

With a Turkish girl making it illustrated.

The thing that's nice about a stable

relationship is you have somewhere to live

that's pretty cheap and that's comfy.

I would hate to live in a guest house

again because I'm so used to the comfort

of having my own apartment now.

Suddenly we're back to Jiro.

Yeah, I gotta get the views up, don't I?

So on the weekend we went for lunch with

my girlfriend's friends.

It was the same friends from the music

festival.

It's so awkward because they don't talk to

me.

I think they don't speak English.

The girl says hi and I say hi back, but

her boyfriend doesn't say anything at all,

like not even hello.

So it's really awkward.

And me and the girlfriend's— I mean, me

and my girlfriend's friend's boyfriend, we

just sit there in silence on our phones

whilst my girlfriend and his girlfriend

talk.

And we went to some shabu-shabu place.

We walked around some markets and I felt

so tired.

It was so boring having to hang out

In Thailand, they've got these conveyor

belt shabu-shabu places.

It's weird.

You get your own little hot pot on the

table, and then this conveyor belt brings

cabbage and meat around.

How old are they?

I think they're pretty old because the guy

has got gray hair.

Almost his entire hair is gray.

So he must be like 50.

Surely in your 40s your hair doesn't go

all gray, does it?

All— not all of it, but like almost all of

his hair is gray.

And my girlfriend seemed kind of sad

because she said her birthday didn't

really feel very special.

I got her a cake, like a little cake from

7-Eleven, and I got some candles,

but I could tell she seemed kind of

disappointed.

Oh well, I'm not very good at celebrating

birthdays.

I honestly don't give a damn about

celebrating birthdays or trying to make it

special.

It's just an annoying day where I know I

have to get my girlfriend something,

otherwise she's gonna whine.

Usually I cross my fingers and hope that

their relationship has ended before her

birthday comes around.

At least I didn't get her a bottle of

Pepsi like I got my Korean girlfriend on

her birthday.

I got her a big bottle of Pepsi.

I thought it would be funny.

She was so pissed.

Women are so weird when it comes to

birthdays.

They're like, oh, it's my special day.

Oh, you'll get me a special gift that's

meaningful.

And then we could take

me to dinner.

Honestly, who gives a damn about

birthdays?

We're not kids anymore.

Birthdays were exciting when I was a

12-year-old and be like, oh yeah, I got a

new Transformer present and my friends are

coming over for my birthday party.

I'm going to blow out my candles on my

cake.

When you become an adult, who gives a crap

about these stupid birthdays?

It's like another depressing day.

Of you getting older, one year closer to

getting ugly and dying.

Why the hell do you want to celebrate it?

I don't even want to think about it.

It's just depressing.

Yeah, wow, I'm gonna be 34.

Congratulations.

I just— I don't understand women when it

comes to birthdays.

And they act so childish.

They're like, oh, I didn't do anything

special.

Grow up.

It's just a stupid day where you came out

of vagina.

Of a vagina.

It's probably the shittest days in all of

our lives.

Women are weird.

I hate birthdays.

The next, um, big day that I hate is

Valentine's.

I hope they don't do Valentine's in

Thailand because I'm still gonna be here,

aren't I?

Do Thai do Valentine's?

Yes.

I should buy her another 7-Eleven cake.

I got her these candles.

I didn't realize they're magic candles.

And she blew them out and they kept

reigniting.

All this smoke was coming off and I was

trying to fan it away from the smoke alarm

and she kept blowing.

They kept reigniting again.

So I got a pot of water and we chucked

them in there.

I didn't realize they were these magic

candles.

Chihiro and him also went to Okinawa at

the same time.

Oh my God, that must be him then.

Chihiro and him also went to Okinawa at

the same—

if they're going to the same places at the

same time, but

how does he manage to film the videos

without her in them?

Do you think he's like, okay, I'm gonna

make a video now, you stay in the hotel

room?

Or maybe she just stays behind him.

Maybe there's some point in the video

where you can see her reflection.

Who— apparently people have found

Chihiro's new boyfriend and he's a

YouTuber.

Who was it that figured this out?

I don't know.

I have no idea how you would find this

out.

You would have to scour through how many,

how many Japanese YouTubers.

And how would you know he's Japanese in

the first place?

Could be Korean or Chinese or American.

I think you would have to maybe just

search Osaka YouTuber.

Why would you even think that she's dating

a YouTuber in the first place though?

I don't know how people found out this

stuff.

Internet people are pretty scary, but also

impressive when it comes to finding stuff

out.

It is pretty impressive though, because

Chihiro has not given away any hints about

her boyfriend, has she?

She hasn't said anything about dating a

YouTuber.

The only thing she said that people know

about is that she has a coworker who blew

up on YouTube.

I wonder— he must know about me.

I wonder what he thinks every time I make

a video about her.

Do you think he's like, oh, that Daniel,

or he's like, that fucking bastard

using my girlfriend for views again?

Yeah, well, what are you gonna do about

it, bitch?

I'll go to Osaka livestream.

You got a problem with it?

Then come face me.

That'll get me some views too.

He's not gonna do anything if I'm

streaming because he'll be on camera.

The good thing about IRL is it kind of

makes you invincible, doesn't it?

He's ashamed of dating Aoi because she's a

lot older.

I don't think he's ashamed.

I think Chihiro told him not to film her

because there's like weird trolls from

Daniel.

And then he was like, okay, that makes

sense.

How did you find out his age?

People are saying he's 29.

Why is he dating someone who's like 13

years older than he is?

Do you know what they say about guys?

I mean, I dated someone 15 years older

than me, and you know why that is?

It's cuz I'm a loser.

Cuz I'm like, uh, Weirdo feminine loser

with no charisma or confidence that can't

get a girlfriend his own age.

Because she's beautiful?

I don't know about that.

If she's so beautiful, then why did I

leave?

Although she is better looking than my

girlfriend.

She's got bigger eyes, she's got a better

nose, but I think my girlfriend has better

lips.

Chihiro has kind of thin lips for an Asian

woman.

My girlfriend's got better skin as well.

Nothing wrong with a more mature lady.

Well, there is if you want to have a

family and have kids.

And if, if you don't want to have family,

don't want to have kids, then you're

basically mentally ill.

Because it's not normal to not want to

have kids.

If that was normal, then the species would

have gone extinct, wouldn't it?

Like pandas are going extinct because they

don't want to have kids.

So it cannot be normal to not want to have

a family or kids.

There has to be some kind of mental

deficiency there in the brain

to— I mean, making life The prime

directive of life is to make more life.

You're going against your prime directive.

That should be like your biggest urge is

to reproduce.

And if you're saying you don't want kids,

there's definitely something wrong with

you.

Daniel, my boy, beef with the new BF?

I'll donate.

Oh, thanks, T-Pop.

I mean, it would be funny.

All caps.

Oh my God, I found my ex-wife's boyfriend.

I got to find a way to make it funny and

like have a splurge rage about how he gets

more views than me and how he's younger

and stuff.

Not only do they have the same glasses,

they also have the same phone.

It's kind of funny to hear he's dating

someone who looks like me and is also a

YouTuber.

Yeah, well, he's only got 12 million

views.

I got 35 million views, bitch.

I still own him in terms of total views.

Not only that they have same glasses, they

also have the same phone winking face.

How many?

I've got a lot of phones though.

He's got an iPhone 12.

How tall is he?

If he's taller than me, I'll be annoyed.

I've been going to the gym.

I went to the gym yesterday.

Have you noticed my arms getting bigger?

I don't really feel like they're getting a

lot bigger.

I feel like I've, I've reached a peak on

the size of my arms.

My ex-wife traded me in for a younger

version of me.

But then, to be fair, didn't I also do the

same?

I traded in my wife for Mila, who was like

10 years younger than Chihiro.

And now I've got basically a younger

version of her, a Thai Chihiro.

Big by whose standard?

Well, my own standard, considering my arms

used to be like sticks.

I feel like my biceps are huge now.

Look.

And also my pecs are pretty big,

especially when I do like that.

Make a video about Misaki, I'll send you

$50.

Well, I need a good title first of all.

Maybe I can do an illustrated video.

I'll get Chihiro tattooed on my bicep.

Daniel, you should go chase after

Chihiro's new boyfriend and try and kidnap

him and take him to the airport.

What?

That's illegal.

I'd be like my Thai ex— Thai girlfriend's

ex.

Take him to the airport to make him leave

his own country.

To show up at the house.

Also make video on Misaki.

I'll send $50 USD.

I don't know how to make Misaki into a

video though.

My ex-wife's crazy friend.

If you can give me a good title, then I

might consider it.

Am I staying in Thailand and how long?

I can stay in Thailand until the end of

February, but I need to go to immigration

soon to get, get it extended.

She's going to be annoying.

The taxi ride is maybe— I think it's like

$10 or $8 to get there.

They put the immigration place in such a

dumb place.

It's not near any train stations.

It's near one train station, but it's

nearly impossible to walk from the train

station to the immigration center because

all these big roads and none of them have

side footpaths.

So you got to go there by car.

The video before that got 84k views.

He's destroying you, Daniel.

Yeah, well, he's obviously got a travel

audience,

and his channel's a lot younger than mine.

His channel's only 3 years old.

My channel's like 7 years old.

See where his channel is in 3 years' time.

What a coincidence.

Smirk.

Does Chihiro have an iPhone 13?

I think my girlfriend has an iPhone 13,

and Chihiro is copying my girlfriend's

look with the glasses.

Even the hairstyles look similar, don't

they?

Yeah, well, let's see how many views he

gets in 3 years' time when his viewers get

bored.

Why don't you get Travel Channel views?

I don't know why.

Every time I try and do a travel vlog, it

doesn't attract travel people.

And then my current

Wait, why did— is the timer going up?

I set the timer at 12 hours

and now it's over 12 hours.

What's going on?

Is the timer going up when I get a

donation?

That's not what I was planning for.

Yeah, was it 11 hours 36

and then it went up by 30 minutes?

Why did it go up half an hour?

That's weird.

And then I'm gonna set it back.

What was it?

Is it 11:32?

I think.

Put 11:29.

There you go.

You stole the timer widget from Ice.

Yeah, I don't know if it's exactly the

same one because he probably got a coder

friend to make it specifically, but I

found one on Google.

It's supposed to be for Twitch.

My ex-wife's friend was a serial seller.

My ex-wife's friend,

hmm, was a prostitute?

Because she was.

She told me that Misaki started working in

a place like Tobita Shinchi, and her

husband found out.

They had an argument, and then for

revenge, the husband— as the husband left,

he banged one of the girls at the

prostitute place before leaving.

That Misaki has a TikTok as well, I think.

And she's got like 3 kids and she does

cereal work and she got chlamydia.

She accidentally gave it to her husband

and she slipped in antibiotics into his

coffee and told him it was— no, she put

antibiotics next to his coffee and told

him that they were cold tablets for, for

flu or cold.

So she's pretty crazy.

My ex-wife's crazy friend.

But no, I can't think of a good title.

She would make great YouTube videos

because she's got so much drama.

I feel like people have so much drama that

they keep secret.

Why do I not have any drama?

There's like no drama that I can think of.

So my plan for the timer was,

uh, I wanted to do some challenges in

Japan, like living in a net cafe, and then

if the timer gets to zero, then I get to

leave the net cafe.

So if you want me to stay in the net cafe,

you have to donate.

I thought that could be fun, but then

people might want me— people might want me

to leave.

Because they feel sorry for me, then they

won't donate.

Or I could just stream 24/7 like Ice does,

but that would get very tiring.

And I want to go to bed.

I don't want to stay up all night.

Also, I don't want to film— I don't want

to stream myself sleeping

because wouldn't that just be really

boring?

I don't see the point of keeping the

stream on when you sleep.

That story is so funny.

Do an animated video, Brian.

I thought I could do like a, you know,

SunnyV2.

I could do like an expose video.

No, Chihiro would be pissed.

I want to do like a very sinister sounding

true crime style documentary like

SunnyV2's videos with, with intense music.

Does my girlfriend know I'm a YouTuber?

No, she still doesn't know.

I think she doesn't know.

I don't want to brag about her not knowing

because then I might jinx it.

I find it hard to watch Ice many times

now.

Yeah, I got a bit bored as well because

most of the stream he's either sitting on

a train, in bed,

or sitting in a bar trying to talk to

Japanese women,

and then wandering around the streets

either by himself or with annoying people.

Like this Korean guy he streams with is

kind of annoying.

Does anyone else find the way Korean

people speak English really annoying?

I don't like the accent.

The accent reminds me of some Korean girls

that pissed me off in the guesthouse.

All Korean people have this same way of

speaking English and it really annoys me.

And it's just— I don't know, they just—

they keep repeating what Ice say.

Ice would say something and then he would

just repeat back in a,

in like a rising intonation tone.

I saw Sam Pepper is streaming in Thailand

as well, and he's doing all this ladyboy

stuff and it's not getting him views

either.

So I thought, yeah, I don't want to do

this ladyboy stuff anymore.

It's just kind of cringe.

It's like the only thing people know

Thailand for is ladyboys.

As soon as you say you go into Thailand,

everyone goes, oh, sleep with a ladyboy.

Sam Pepper's channel is dead as well.

2 million subs and he gets like 5K views.

It's weird how dead channels can become.

He went to

Who's outside my door?

Nobody.

He went to that train thing.

There's a train in Thailand that runs

through a little village, and he was

running after it.

He's doing all the Thailand stuff like

eating insects and meeting ladyboys, and

it's not getting him views.

My girlfriend should come home, I think,

in, in 11 hours' time.

Well, not 11, maybe 12 or 13.

I mentioned you and he was like, huh.

I don't think Sam Pepper would know who I

am.

I don't know.

Sam Pepper knows Ice and Ice knows me,

and a lot of the Ice community knows me.

So I thought maybe he would know me, but I

don't think so.

He's copying Ice.

Yeah, I think a lot of people have been

copying Ice with the subathon because

they've seen how much money Ice is making.

People saying Ice has made like 60K in a

month.

That's a long shift.

Well, she has 2 jobs.

She has a second job after the first job.

What kind of British accent does Sam

Pepper have?

I think it's like a very chavvy accent.

He's actually from the town that's right

next to my town.

It's called Ashford.

He's also born almost the same day as me.

He was born on March 26th, 1989.

I'm born 20— 20th of March, 1989.

So we're very close in age and location.

It's very weird.

I thought he was older than me.

She has 2 jobs and never has any money.

Yeah, I know.

She never pays for anything.

Imagine new guy sleeping with Shishi.

For some reason, I don't imagine this sex

being very good with him.

He doesn't really seem like he would have

a big dick, does he?

I think after being married to me, Chihiro

would probably want a guy who's not

really horny and sex-obsessed.

But then I thought she wouldn't date a

YouTuber after dating me.

Oh yeah, a couple of days ago, actually a

week ago, she cried because I refused to

give her money for her car repairs.

Her car had some problem.

They said that she had to pay 24,000 baht.

And then they raised it to 30,000 baht.

And then she asked me for 8,000 baht and I

said no.

I said, I don't want to pay because I paid

for Vietnam.

I paid for everything else.

She started crying and then she started

saying stuff like, oh, I thought you were

my boyfriend and you would want to help

me.

And she said she didn't want to ask her

mom or other people because she's

embarrassed.

And I said, are you gonna pay me back if I

give you the money?

She said yes, but then we just stopped

talking, and then she didn't actually ask

me for the money.

And then she came back from the mechanics

and she was happy because they, they took

the price down to 25,000 baht.

So I don't know how they managed— I don't

know how she managed to get the price down

by 5,000, but

who knows?

What did she do?

So she got her car back and I didn't have

to pay.

I really don't want to pay for her car

repairs.

Why should I have to pay for stupid car

repairs?

It's her car.

I kept saying, how do you not have any

money?

Don't you have savings?

How come you're working so much, you don't

have enough money to pay?

It's so frustrating how she keeps saying

she doesn't have any money.

How do you buy anything?

What's the point of working if you don't

have any money then?

I don't know where all her money is going.

I'm getting a bit frustrated with the

money thing.

I'm paying so much.

I'm probably paying for 85% of everything.

She pays a little bit, but just tiny bits

here and there.

Oh, thanks, Brian.

Yeah, people said I'm the leech.

This is a true leech.

I Actually, Mila was more of a leech.

Mila didn't have any money either.

I said to her, I don't have— I said, I'm

running out of money and I'm not rich.

She said, okay.

I don't think it's my responsibility to

have to pay for her car stuff.

You're paying her rent?

Well, I'm paying my rent.

She has a house.

She doesn't need this place to live.

This place is more for me because I don't

want to live near her house.

I could have lived near her house.

I don't know why I can't just live in her

house.

It's so stupid, isn't it?

She's got an entire house and Neither of

us are living in.

Maybe she's doing something to the house

with her money.

She said she wants to rent it out, and she

said next year she'll have money.

She said that last year.

She said last year after December she

would have money.

She still doesn't have money.

What would you do if Chichi's new man's

Winnie was waving in front of you?

Bite it off and swallow it.

Don't know.

What's PvP?

Player versus player.

What do I talk about with my girlfriend?

Absolutely nothing.

She speaks so slowly.

For example, she wanted to say yesterday

her friend is coming to pick us up at 11,

and she was like, my friend, uh,

coming at, uh,

come here, uh, pick us up.

I was like, oh my God.

It takes ages for her to say anything.

So frustrating.

I end up finishing her sentences before

she finishes them most of the time.

I don't want to talk about anything

because she doesn't understand, and then

she takes ages to say anything back.

The coughing thing is, is getting really

annoying as well.

She's still coughing, but it seems to be

getting worse.

And then she'll start spitting into a

bucket.

I looked in the bin.

We've got a little bin this size and it

was full of spit.

It's disgusting.

And she'll just cough and cough.

It usually starts after dinner and lasts

until she falls asleep and she'll just

cough for hours.

And she started doing like a little scream

before the cough, like,

like that, and then cough.

It's really annoying.

4 months of coughing.

She has medicine,

but she says she doesn't like taking the

medicine for some reason.

I don't know what it is.

She had COVID and then she recovered from

COVID and then she said ever since COVID

She has had this cough that won't go away.

She, she thinks she has long COVID.

I think she's right.

Maybe long COVID, or maybe the vaccine did

something.

It's really irritating.

Every single night, coughing and coughing

and coughing.

I think she needs an inhaler

to loosen up the mucus.

She said an inhaler is expensive.

Aren't they just like £10?

This is why you're with her, so you can

complain.

Well, I'm mainly with her for 2 reasons.

I can get a nice apartment for only £250 a

month thanks to her, and I don't feel

lonely anymore, which is one of the things

I hate about life, is feeling lonely.

I remember in Manchester just feeling

miserable for being alone.

It's the worst feeling ever, feeling like

you're completely alone in the world.

I don't really care much about the sex

anymore.

In fact, she is the one who initiates the

sex most of the time.

I'm not really that bothered if we do it

or not.

It's always the same.

Next, um, thing— next thing that's coming

up soon that I'm dreading is she wants me

to come to her mum's house and meet her

mum.

The good thing is I don't have to meet her

dad because

I don't think they like her dad.

The dad left the mum ages ago and started

a new family with a different woman.

So I don't think I have to meet the dad,

which is good news.

But I really don't want to meet the mum.

She doesn't speak English.

I'm just gonna be sitting there

being weird and awkward.

It's really boring having to meet her

friends as well.

So I just sit there, I end up staring into

space, not doing anything.

And then end up going on my phone.

I wonder when she's going to get the

message that I don't like meeting people.

I told her I don't really want to meet her

mum, and then she got all upset, started

giving me silent treatment.

She was like, why don't you want to meet

my mum?

You don't care about my family?

And I was like, no, I just don't like

meeting people.

And she was like, oh my God.

I already told her I don't have friends

and I'm antisocial.

I just don't enjoy hanging out with

people.

It's boring.

Talking to people is, is so boring.

They never know about what I'm interested

in.

They don't ask me about things I'm

interested in.

And then even if they do, I don't really

want to talk to them about things I'm

actually interested in.

It just feels like a waste of time.

I'm not going to— the stuff I'm talking

about now, I'm not going to talk about to

people because it's kind of stupid, isn't

it?

Going on and on about my ex-wife.

And then people who are into stocks and

investing, I don't really want to talk to

them about my stock picks.

And they might be like,

well, why do you think that?

Or they might disagree with me and say, I

think you're wrong.

And then I have to explain why I think I'm

right.

I can't be bothered.

I don't know for sure if I'm right or not.

I'm just guessing.

There's not really anything I can think

about.

There's nothing I'd want to talk about to

a person, especially someone who doesn't

speak English.

What's the point?

It's just a waste of time.

Don't you want criticism to get better at

stocks?

I don't want criticism.

Maybe I'd want friendly advice.

I don't like the whole tough love

approach.

I don't think it's very effective.

Just pisses me off and makes me think, uh,

well, screw you, I'm not gonna listen then

if you're gonna be a dick.

That's like the main thing that pissed me

off about my viewers back in the day.

They thought the whole tough love approach

would actually be of any use, when in

fact, when I get aggressive criticism, my

defense mechanism is screw you, I'm gonna

ignore everything you say, because I'm

very childish.

Tough love doesn't work with me.

What do I want out of life?

I want,

uh, I want a bigger community on YouTube

that watches my videos.

I want to find something I feel passionate

about, and I want financial stability.

And I don't want to get a job.

I don't really care about sex and women

anymore, to be honest.

Sex is nice, but

I'm starting to realize that there are

more important things in life, like having

a passion, having a community,

having financial stability, come way above

sex and women.

To me now.

I used to think women and sex were the

most important things in life and

everything else didn't matter.

After having sex with a lot of women,

I don't know, it's just the same thing

over and over, isn't it?

I guess I'd like to have sex with more

attractive women,

but to be honest, I'd rather have my

audience back.

If I could choose between— I could get my

40K community and audience back, or I can

have hot sex with hot women.

To be honest, I choose the community