daniel's online therapy session

Testing.

Who loves my new video?

It's doing very well.

Look what I got, look what I got!

New phone, Samsung S10 Plus, came

yesterday.

It's very nice.

I think it's the best phone I've ever

used.

It's perfect in every way.

It has a wide-angle camera and,

um,

big screen.

Look how big it is compared to my iPhone.

It's so nice, and the audio sounds great

when I'm making videos because the mic's

here, not here, which is a stupid place,

place for it that Apple chose.

So I'm very happy with it,

and Android's way better than iPhone.

Just little things like watching YouTube

minimized on Android, it pops out this

little YouTube box So you can watch

YouTube in the corner whilst you look at

other apps.

On iPhone, you minimize YouTube and you

only get audio.

There's no little box.

So I can watch YouTube and chat on

messaging things.

Why can't iPhone do that?

And it was so cheap.

It only cost me £500 because it was

supposed to be locked to O2, but I put my

Three SIM card into it and it works.

So it's not locked, it's unlocked, but it

was sold as locked.

That's why it was cheaper.

Brand new, this would cost £1,000.

I got it for £500, and it's pretty much

brand new condition.

There's no scratches or anything.

£500 for the latest flagship Samsung

phone.

That is a steal.

Very pleased with that purchase.

Now I have a GoPro which I don't need.

I need to sell my GoPro,

and I'd like to sell my iPhone.

And it makes me look better for some

reason in videos.

It just makes my skin tone look more

Pretty.

Looks prettier.

On the iPhone, it kind of overexposes the

highlights and makes your face look really

harsh and uglier than real life, and it

just made me feel depressed to make videos

on it.

But now I look pretty again.

I miss looking pretty.

Oh, and, um, my last video, the

ex-girlfriend tier list, it got shared on

a subreddit called Cringetopia, and that

has nearly 14,000 upvotes.

So I'm gaining a lot of new subs.

I've gained over 150 new subs now.

Pretty good, isn't it?

It's the second time I've been shared on

that Cringetopia subreddit.

The first time was that screenshot of my

thumbnails and my video titles.

And now the second time, it's the

ex-girlfriend thing.

But this time they're all saying, is that

the Asian Onision guy?

Now they're calling me the Asian Onision,

which is annoying because I'm nothing like

Onision.

Yeah, we both talk about personal things,

big deal.

A lot of people talk about personal

things, doesn't mean we're all Onision.

I don't do those stupid skit things he

does.

I don't dress up as characters.

I don't dress up— I don't know how people

compare us.

Okay, we overshare a bit about our

personal lives,

but there's loads of YouTubers who do

that.

I don't like being compared to him.

I don't think I'm anything like him.

It's not really that much of a huge

accomplishment because I only got about

100 new subs even though over 14,000

people saw that post.

I guess not many people on that subreddit

come to my channel.

They just look at the screenshot, laugh,

leave a comment, and then they leave.

Oh well, it's better than nothing.

It's better than losing subs.

I've stopped losing subs now.

It's going up again.

And the reason why I hid the subs is

because it kept going down and I was

getting irritated with people laughing at

me.

Before the ex-girlfriend tier video, it

was at 8,800.

8— no, it was at 88,790.

Now it's at 88,950, so it's gone up quite

a bit.

Might even go back up to 89k, which would

be nice.

If it goes up to 90k, then I might think

about setting it back to public.

But right now I don't really like people

seeing my sub count because it's not

moving.

Keeps going down and then going back up a

little bit, but it's not growing anymore,

so I don't feel excited about my sub count

anymore.

When it was growing, when I was gaining

hundreds of new subs every day, it was

exciting.

Every time I woke up the next day, I

gained another couple thousand subs and it

was fun.

But now it's just— it's not even moving.

It's just stagnating.

So it's not fun showing people, showing it

to people.

I'm just trying to take away that little

bit of pleasure from people who don't like

me.

If celebrating over my sub count going

down is your idea of fun, then you're kind

of sad, really.

You need to get a life.

What else is there?

There's not really much to talk about,

really.

I don't know why I'm streaming.

I made a couple videos.

I'm not sure which order to upload them.

I have one about Rachel and Jun.

I have one about the Essex Girl,

and I have one about the subreddit.

I'm not sure which order to upload.

I might upload the Essex girl one because

I'm supposed to be meeting her soon, but

I'm not sure if we're actually going to

meet because recently I kind of feel like

she's getting cold feet.

Maybe that's just me, or maybe she's just

busy, but we haven't really been talking

that much.

Oh, thank you, Lazyface,

for the €2.

I want to save the Rachel and Jun for, you

know, a period of time where I don't

really have any ideas so I can just fall

back on it.

I think it'll get views because the Chris

Broad video got views, didn't it?

I think around 30,000 of those views came

from Chris's fans.

So hopefully I can trick some Rachel and

Jun fans into clicking it and watching it.

I don't think there's any Rachel and Jun

fans here, are there?

No one here likes Rachel and Jun, do they?

Basically, it's just a video shitting on

their content and them for views.

I'm not gonna lie about it.

The only reason I'm doing it is because

I'm pretty sure it would get views just by

putting their names in the title.

And, you know, I kind of need views right

now.

We can be in on it together.

We're gonna troll Rachel and Jun fans.

It'll be fun.

See how angry they get like Chris's fans

did.

Chris didn't owe you anything.

Stop being a man-child.

Yeah, right.

Oops.

How about I post— I don't know if I want

to post one today because the

ex-girlfriend video is still going well,

still getting views.

I don't want to cannibalize my views by

uploading too much.

So yeah, I have a few videos prepared.

I still don't know what's gonna happen

with the Essex girl.

I asked her if she wanted to phone twice

and she basically ignored me.

I asked her yesterday, do you want to

phone this evening?

And then she left me— no, she didn't even

leave me on read, she didn't even read it.

And then today she just said

hey or hi, good morning.

And then I asked her the time before that,

and I don't know, maybe she didn't see it,

or maybe— I'm

not sure what's going on with her really.

She says she's busy, so I guess that's the

reason why.

It just— I just kind of feel like there's

a big difference between then when she was

messaging me all the time, really into me,

and now where she seems kind of cold and

distant.

And I'm not sure why.

Maybe she's getting nervous.

I don't know.

I don't know why you hide your sub count

when everyone can see on Social Blade.

You can't see on Social Blade.

Have a look, it won't tell you how many.

If you can see it, then tell me how many

subs I have right now.

If you can tell me how many subs I have,

then I guess you're right.

I'm still a little bit sick.

My voice, I don't know, my voice just

feels weak.

88,600, wrong.

88, 89,500, wrong.

Where would I place the Turkish girl?

Well, That's an easy F considering I

wasn't attracted to her at all.

She was very irritating, and then she made

me lose 500 subs.

So yeah, F, maybe even a Z, you know, the

worst rank possible.

So annoying, that girl.

Oh, don't believe Daniel, he's lying.

He always lies.

Shut up.

I never lie.

Calling me a liar?

Shut up, Turkish girl.

What do you know?

You're the liar saying it wasn't dark when

it was dark.

I said it was dark when we were doing it.

She said it wasn't dark, Daniel's lying.

It was dark 1 out of 4 times.

I didn't know which time she was talking

about.

I assumed she was talking about the 4th

time.

That's why I said it was dark.

How do I know which time she's talking

about when I didn't even know she was

crying or whatever?

Crying like a baby.

Annoying.

How can I get the details right if she

didn't even tell me the full story?

And then she tells everyone on Reddit the

full story but not me, and then calls me a

liar because I get the details wrong.

Obviously I'm gonna get the details wrong

if I don't know the full story because

you're hiding it from me.

That's what irritated me.

And then she keeps saying, oh, I decided

to tell my story before Daniel makes

everyone think I'm a maniac.

No one gives a shit if you're a maniac.

No one even knows who you are.

Why does she care if people think she's a

maniac or whatever when she's not an

online personality?

She has no reputation on the internet.

No one gives a shit about her or who she

is.

They'll forget about her in a few months,

and then she'll just be back to her normal

life where None of this will even affect

her life.

Why does she care so much?

I don't get it.

Just so she can protect her fragile ego

and her fragile reputation on the internet

because she didn't like the fact that I

made money Thanks to her

after saying that I wasn't attracted to

her.

So petty.

Everyone knows I make content about stuff

that's happening in my life.

How can you meet me and then complain

about me making content about you after

I've met you?

Obviously I'm gonna make content, aren't

I?

It's like going to McDonald's and then

expecting pizza and then moaning because

you get a burger.

Anyway, I've been having a lot of dreams

about my wife.

For some reason, and they're always the

same.

I go back to Japan and I try and find her

new place and I try and have sex with her.

Okay, it's a weird dream.

I messaged her yesterday.

I just said, have you handed in the

divorce papers yet?

She said no.

I said, why not?

She said she's been busy.

And then I said, I thought you weren't

working.

And then she said, I am, because I have to

pay double the bills now.

And then I said, sorry.

And then she said, what for?

And then I said, for hurting you.

And then she said, what do you want me to

do about— what do you want me to do?

Which was a weird question.

Why'd she ask me what I wanted her to do?

I said, I don't want you to do anything.

I just wanted to say sorry.

So yeah, that was very weird.

It kind of felt like she was asking— it's

kind of like she wanted me to ask her for

forgiveness.

Do you think she wanted me to say, I want

you to forgive me and take me back, I want

you to give me a second chance?

I don't know, that's what it felt like.

It just feels weird that she still hasn't

handed in the divorce papers.

Why is she hesitating?

What is she waiting for?

It's been nearly 2 months.

It will take about half an hour to walk

down to the town hall and then submit them

in.

Do you think she wants me to come back or

something?

Maybe she just hasn't gotten around to it.

I don't know.

Sometimes I think about going back.

Sometimes I feel like separating was kind

of pointless.

It's not like my life is better because

I've separated.

I don't know.

I just felt kind of frustrated when I was

married because I became.

Kind of internet famous, and I was having

all these fangirls, cute girls sending me

nudes and stuff.

And I've always struggled to get girls to

be— to get in— to be interested in me.

And I finally reached this point where I

had loads of girls interested in me, but I

was married and I couldn't do anything

about it, and it was just frustrating.

But now I'm single, it's like no one

really wants to meet now.

No, it was just a couple meetups, one in

London, one in Germany, and then a whole

bunch of failures and no-shows and

flakers.

And to be honest, the London and Germany

trip, I don't think that was worth

sacrificing my marriage for.

And then I was also kind of hopeful for

new content.

You know, I could do the whole divorce

thing.

That usually gets views for other people

but not for me and got a rubbish 50K.

And

now I'm back to square one.

No content, no girls.

So yeah, I kind of feel like it wasn't

such a great idea in hindsight so far at

the moment.

Maybe later on

it will prove to have been a good

decision, but right now I'm not really

seeing the benefits of it.

And I keep thinking maybe I made a

mistake.

Could have made a mistake.

Maybe I would have been happier in Japan.

The problem is, I— the girls— I still get

girls messaging me, but the problem is

either they're not very attractive

Or they're very fat, or they live very,

very far away, mostly in America.

And I'm sorry, but I'm just not interested

in going to America.

It does not look appealing at all.

They're also far away, or they're not very

pretty, not up to my standards.

And I'm not gonna spend thousands and

thousands to go to America just for a

couple weeks like I did in Germany.

That was just a huge waste of time.

Huge waste of money.

I gained nothing from it, and I lost 500

subs.

So if I could go back in time, I wouldn't

do the Germany thing again.

Complete waste of time.

And I'm not glad that I experienced

Germany.

It was not worth experiencing.

It's not an experience that I would worry

about not having.

Nothing special about it.

The thing I don't like about this phone is

sometimes it won't unlock.

It keeps saying no match on my thumb

Fing— fingerprint.

Maybe I need to rescan it, I don't know.

It's better than Face ID because the

annoying thing about Face ID is when I'm

in bed and half my face is scrunched up

against the pillow, it won't unlock.

Didn't my subs increase during the Germany

trip?

Not really.

And then because of the Turkish girl, I

lost nearly 600.

And now everyone thinks of me as Daniel,

user of women, makes them bleed and cry.

Now that's my reputation.

You hardly experienced Germany since you

stayed in the hotel most of the time.

I didn't.

I spent at least 6 or 7 hours outside

walking around seeing the sights.

Yeah, I spent most of the morning and most

of the evening in the hotel, but I wasn't

in the hotel all day long.

I cancelled the Spain Spanish girl, the

Spain trip, because I didn't want to go

all the way to Madrid and spend another

couple thousands for the possibility, the

very unlikely possibility of having sex.

Not worth it.

And then what?

Even if we became girlfriend and

boyfriend, I don't want to— I don't want

to live in Spain.

No thanks.

The only 2 countries I would ever consider

living in is either England or Japan.

Apart from Japan, there's no other country

I would even consider living in.

I just wouldn't want to.

What'd be the point?

I don't have confirmation that the Essex

girl doesn't want to meet me.

I told her about the video that I made

today.

I said, I made a video about you, just

kind of introducing you, and then I asked

her if that was okay, and I said I didn't

tell anyone anything about you apart from

your age and that you're in Essex, and

then she said that's okay.

So if it's okay for me to upload that

video, then I guess she still planning on

meeting me.

If she was planning on canceling, I think

she would say, actually, don't upload that

because I don't think we should meet.

But now I kind of worry that everyone I

meet is just gonna think that I'm using

them for views, which is, I guess, okay,

technically it's true because I want to

make videos about it to get views.

But when you say it like that, that I'm

using people for views, then obviously it

sounds bad.

If we both agree to it, then I don't see

what's wrong with it.

But people are still gonna say, oh, you

only meet people to use them for views.

But everyone uses everyone for views.

There's nothing wrong with it.

It's just the way you're saying it is— say

it makes it sound wrong.

You're using me for entertainment, aren't

you?

If I could get views just by eating some

chicken, then Yeah, I wouldn't have to

make these kind of videos, but I won't get

views that way, won't I?

Will I?

I would love it if I can just do an iPhone

review and get 40k views, but no one seems

to care.

They just want to see me talk about girls,

so

I shall provide

if I can get away with it.

I like talking about it because it's nice

to talk about things.

It's not like I have anyone else to talk

about stuff like this.

And then I get messages on Instagram and

Twitter saying, if you want, you can talk

to me, I'm here.

And that's very kind of you, but I don't

know who you are.

I don't really feel like— I don't really

see the point in telling you all this

stuff.

When you're just kind of like a stranger

to me.

If it's a livestream, that's fine, you

know,

because I'm not really talking to anyone

directly.

I'm just talking to myself whilst you all

listen.

And it's not that I want to talk to

someone.

I just want to talk.

I don't want a response.

That's the difference.

I'm not talking because I want a response

from anyone.

I'm just talking because— I don't know

why.

It's just nice, isn't it?

To tell people what's happening.

Ex-girlfriend tier list.

I thought it was a good idea because I

noticed these tier list videos are kind of

trending right now.

I think it might be because of iDubbbz.

I don't know, maybe not.

And no one else has done an ex-girlfriend

tier list.

They're all doing it on lame stuff like

Fortnite guns or Call of Duty games.

Fast food tier list, lame.

You know what I want to do next?

I want to do an STD top tier list.

Problem is I've only ever had one, so I

can't really talk from experience.

So if anyone has an STD and wants to give

it to me, I don't mind volunteering so I

can make a video about it.

No, I'm just joking.

I don't want an STD.

It was horrible.

I'd have the grid and then we'd have

chlamydia, gonorrhea, syphilis.

I like saying syphilis.

It feels nice.

And super— what was that?

Super gonorrhea.

Rank them S to F.

That'd be funny.

But I can only comment on chlamydia since

I never had any of the others.

What other tier lists could I do?

I could do countries.

Malaysia, Germany, Norway, Taiwan, Japan,

Korea.

I could say I'd just put all of them at F.

Japan would be B, South Korea would be C,

Taiwan would be D,

and then the rest would just be F, F, F,

F.

Japan YouTubers tier list and then put

them all to F.

Yeah, we can have Sharla, Rachel June,

Chris Broad.

Who else is big on the scene doing

J-vlogs?

The ones I used to watch are all kind of

irrelevant now.

Gimme a Break Man, Kevin, Tokyo Cooney.

Uh, who else was there?

There was a whole bunch of them that's

just kind of disappeared, faded out, got

real jobs, went back to America.

Give me a break, man.

He's still going, but his channel's kind

of dead apart from his ASMR stuff.

Don't know what Kevin Cooney is doing.

I think he went back to America.

I don't know what he's doing for work

though.

I used to like watching his vlogs in

Japan.

They were good.

Really inspired me to want to go to Japan.

So I'm trying to come up with a plan B in

case the Essex girl—

in case the Essex girl plan falls flat.

So let's say that it doesn't work out

between us for whatever reason.

What is my plan B?

I'm thinking about Japan really because I

don't have any,

any real options left here.

I have a few maybe, but I don't know.

I think I'd just rather go back to Japan,

stay in an Airbnb.

I just don't really see any reason to stay

here apart from the Essex Girl.

People keep telling my mum that she should

kick me out.

First it was my auntie, then it was this

guy called Gordon my dad works with.

My mum was complaining about me because of

my video where I was complaining about

her, and then she was complaining about me

complaining about her to this guy my dad

works with.

Guess what he said?

He said, you should kick Daniel out, it's

your house.

It's just so annoying, all these people

telling my mum to kick me out.

Why don't you mind your own business?

Shut up.

If my mum wants to kick me out, that's her

decision.

Stop trying to persuade her.

And then people keep telling me this isn't

my home, it's my mum's home.

That's a load of rubbish as well.

Just because I don't own the house doesn't

mean it's not my home.

I spent the last 20 years living here.

I grew up here.

Half of my childhood was here.

This is my home as much as it is my mum's

or my sister's or my dad's.

Just because I don't own it doesn't mean

it's not my home.

None of you own your countries doesn't

mean your country isn't your home.

I don't own England doesn't mean England

is not my home.

I don't care what some stupid piece of

paper says.

This is my home.

Stop saying it's not.

And then people trying to kick me out, get

me kicked out of my home.

Like my auntie,

even though I gave my mum £500 for rent

and stuff, bills, food.

So annoying.

So I have every right to live here as

well, just because I don't own it.

The only reason my mum owns it now is

thanks to my dad.

My mum wouldn't be owning a house like

this if it wasn't for my dad.

She didn't get this house because she— she

worked for it.

Okay, she worked, I guess.

Well, I don't know, actually.

I guess she kind of worked for it by

supporting my dad, you know, making him

dinner, doing the housekeeping.

She also has her own job, so I guess she

put money into it.

I don't know what my point is.

What I'm trying to say is,

um,

next topic.

I thought I had a good point, but I don't.

This is my home.

Stop trying to get me kicked out of it

just because you think I should move out.

I don't want to move out.

Move out for what?

So I can live in some crappy townhouse in

Maidstone surrounded by chavs and

immigrants?

No thanks.

And job seekers allowance scroungers?

No thank you.

I don't want to be tossed back into the

The barrel.

Can't believe my auntie would tell my mom

that she should kick me out.

Unbelievable.

Yeah, I know legally it's not my home.

I'm not talking about legalities.

I'm talking about emotionally and mentally

and sentimentally, it is my home.

It doesn't matter about your legalities.

Yeah, we could sell the house to some

stranger tomorrow and it'll still be my

home.

I don't care if it's his name on the deed.

He only lived here for a day.

I lived here for 20 years.

I know the place inside out.

They don't even know about the secret

passageway.

That's where I'll be.

And then when they're asleep, when they're

in bed, in bed asleep, I'll come out of

it, steal their fridge, steal the stuff

out of their fridge, watch them sleep.

I'm gonna dig a secret passageway, then

we'll see who's laughing when they try and

kick me out.

Did I pay for the house?

No, it's not about paying, it's about the

fact that I grew up here.

Did you pay for your country?

I doubt it.

And yeah, I did pay little things here and

there.

I bought the vacuum cleaner

and helped my dad, helped my dad quite a

lot.

Helped him dig holes,

helped him lift the air conditioning unit

up into the balcony, helped him

hold his ladder when he was going up the

loft.

I did help out a bit.

Haven't me and my sister inherited part of

the house?

No, because my dad didn't leave a will.

It all went to my mum, next of kin.

Me and my sister got nothing apart from a

little life insurance payout packet.

We didn't get any money directly from him.

So people keep saying I got my inheritance

money.

I didn't inherit anything.

I only got a little insurance company

payout.

Do you think if, if I had 25% of the

house, my sister had 25%, my mum had 50%,

do you think people would still be saying

you should kick Daniel out?

How can you kick me out when I own 25%?

You said your dad gave you an inheritance.

No, I didn't.

I said we got an insurance group payout.

It's just easier to say inheritance money

than saying insurance group payout every

time.

I just feel kind of unwelcomed everywhere

I go.

Everywhere I go, people trying to get me

kicked out.

People trying to get me kicked out of

Japan.

Trying to get me kicked out my own home,

trying to get me kicked off YouTube.

It's like everywhere I go or try and be,

I'm not welcome.

Everyone's trying to kick me out from

where I am.

Even my own home.

This is what I miss about living in Japan.

I had my own place.

Even that wasn't legally my own place.

It was the landlord's place and my wife

had her name on it and we were renting,

but it was, you know, it was our place.

We paid 50/50 on the bills, so, you know,

it was our place.

I felt like I had my own place where

people couldn't kick me out of as long as

I paid rent.

You couldn't kick me out of my own place

unless we trashed the place or something.

And it was nice, I had my own little

apartment.

It was a really nice apartment,

3 rooms.

Furnished.

Really good internet, 20 megabits upload.

That's amazing for me.

I live on 1.5 megabits upload.

It's like torture.

You know how many hours it takes me to

upload a video?

Takes me all afternoon.

Oh, thank you, Mario.

Can I flash my chest for $2?

I don't wanna flash my chest for $2.

Oh, maybe for 100 I would.

Can you flash us your chest?

I'm surprised that— yeah, I'm surprised I

can even stream at all.

This phone is so good.

I can't believe how good it is.

Yeah, and I didn't really take it too

seriously.

It's so quick.

And the wide angle, it's really nice

having a wide angle so I don't have to

keep using my GoPro.

Audio is great when I speak into it like

this.

Look!

The only thing I don't like about it is,

although the screen is very nice with this

curved edge, it makes it a bit cumbersome

to grip.

I keep accidentally touching the screen

when I'm trying to grip it.

Especially when I'm in bed and I'm lying

on my back and I'm holding it like this, I

keep accidentally touching the sides

because there's not much room to grip it

compared to the iPhone, because the

iPhone,

it didn't have this edge-to-edge display.

Although it looks nice, this is a bit

annoying sometimes.

I bought a battery case Oh, thank you,

George Sarcasm.

Yes, I'm half Asian, half white.

Everyone thinks I'm 100% white.

I mean Asian.

Every time I tell anyone I'm half Asian,

they'll say they're surprised and they

thought I was 100% Asian.

I'm not.

I look nothing like a 100% Asian guy.

Look at my eyes.

To an Asian person, I don't look the same

as a fully Asian person.

It's just you white people who aren't used

to Asian faces who think I'm Asian.

What was I saying?

I forgot.

I completely forgot what I was saying.

I was talking about my phone, wasn't I?

Oh yeah, I got a battery case.

Hopefully that fixes the problem, but I'm

worried that the wide-angle camera

will capture the edge of the battery case.

Hopefully it won't.

I have a battery case for my iPhone and

it's really good, so hopefully this one's

good as well.

I'm just worried because the wide-angle

lens is here, and then if the battery case

is around here, it's gonna capture the,

the edge of it.

If that happens, then I need to refund it

because it's not gonna be very

Good.

It's been raining all day today, didn't

get a chance to go outside.

I always watch your videos after a lonely

day at college.

Thanks.

I kind of like those comments.

I kind of like how some people are

watching because

I don't know, they feel like they're

watching a friend maybe.

I was watching my old videos when I was in

Japan, made me sad.

Especially the moving videos when we were

moving apartments.

I feel bad about the whole situation.

Especially when I keep thinking to myself,

oh, she looks so happy.

We're moving into a new place together.

She must have thought that that means I

was really serious about her and us.

What have I done?

I don't think I could go back.

I mean, the trust has completely been

shattered between us.

I don't know how she could trust me again.

She promised her mum that she'll never see

me again.

She moved out

and she probably hates me.

I'm not sure.

Maybe if I go back to Japan, maybe I'll

ask her if she wants to meet up just to

see how she feels, you know, just like for

an afternoon.

I'll get my own place.

We had a little chat, you know, friendly

chat.

She asked how my mum was doing, how

Sabrina was doing.

She said she sold my laptop for

10— 100,000 yen,

which is about $1,000.

I bought it for 18,000 yen.

Wait, I'm not doing the numbers properly.

This fingerprint scanner is not good.

Oh, now I can't try my fingerprint again

for 30 seconds.

Stupid.

I bought it for 180,000 yen.

That's 180,000 yen.

She sold it for 100,000 yen, nearly half

the price.

And she sold my iPad for about 40,000 yen.

She said she couldn't sell it for more

because they needed my Apple ID password.

Well, you could have asked me and I would

have given it to you.

I don't actually, because if she knew my

password, she could have logged in and

accessed all my private stuff, and there

might have been some nudes on it.

It wasn't your iPad, she bought it for

you.

No, she didn't.

I bought that iPad in 2016 before I even

met her with my own money.

Yeah, I just got the job at the petrol

station end of 2016.

I was very happy, decided to reward myself

with a £900 iPad Pro 12-inch.

Can you believe it?

It was £900.

Lasted me for

2 years.

She bought me a smart keyboard for the

iPad as my Christmas present, and I bought

her Ray-Ban sunglasses, which cost more,

by the way.

People keep thinking she bought me stuff

all the time.

She never bought me anything apart from

the smart keyboard, which was a present.

And I bought her sunglasses.

So now someone has my laptop and my iPad,

someone in Japan, and they'll never know

the history.

She bought you clothes.

Yeah, she bought them with my money.

I gave her the money and I just titled the

video to make it look like she bought it

for me for the— for the meme, you know.

But it was my money that bought it, not

hers.

She's not that generous.

She's not that kind of person.

Yeah, there are Japanese women that I've

met in the past who were very generous,

let me stay with them for free, paid for

all the hotels.

My wife is not that kind of person.

She's very calculative when it comes to

money, and she hates feeling like she's

being used for money.

As soon as I moved in, she was very strict

about me paying for my share.

My chlamydia girlfriend, she didn't ask me

for a penny for rent.

She only asked me for food.

She didn't ask me to pay any rent.

I need to go to the toilet.

I had an onion for lunch, a roast onion,

an entire onion and some bacon.

I made a video It's actually quite good.

I think it's a good Cooking with Daniel

episode.

You pay the price of chlamydia.

Yeah.

If I could go back in time and do it all

over again, I would.

The sex was that good.

Trust me.

It was like 3 months of great sex.

It was definitely worth getting chlamydia

for that.

I would get it again.

If I could do it again, I'd do it again.

It's hands down the best 3 months of my

life.

It was summer, it was hot, we were just

lying around the apartment naked all the

time.

Ah, the good old days.

I was so young.

I was 5 years younger.

So I was 25, 24, 25.

It was, I think it was just after my

birthday.

2014, 5 years ago.

Yeah, I was 25.

She was about 32, so 7 years age

difference.

But 32, at 32, girls are still kind of

hot.

25 is old.

When you're 30, 25 is not old.

When you're 30, anything under 27 is

young.

And you start thinking, oh, I used to be

26.

I was so young.

And then to a 60-year-old, I guess 30 is

young.

Am I a sexaholic?

I don't know.

I just I like having sex.

Feels good.

It's fun.

Why not?

It's not like it damages your body like

alcohol or drugs do, so I don't really see

what's so bad about it.

I guess it's bad if it's If you're

cheating and it's destroying your life—

okay, I cheated a bit, but it didn't

really destroy my life.

It destroyed my marriage,

but that was only because I didn't care

about the marriage enough to not want to

destroy it.

You got chlamydia from it?

Okay, okay, there's STDs.

That's true.

But that's only because I did it with an

infected person.

So if you drink a can of beer, it's not

really gonna harm you much, is it?

But if someone poured bleach into the

beer, then yeah, you're gonna get sick.

It's like that.

If you just have sex normally,

you're not gonna damage your body unless

someone

Has someone's infected?

Pretty sure you could have still been with

her if I apologized.

I know I could have been with her if I

didn't do the London trip, or if I just

apologized after it.

Yeah, I could have probably gone back to

and saved it.

But the point is, I didn't want to.

People keep misunderstanding this.

It was my decision.

It wasn't her decision.

She didn't leave me.

I left her.

This is what she said to me.

She said, "I 50% want to get divorced, but

I don't know what to do."

So you decide.

She let me decide, and I said.

Let's get divorced.

People keep saying that she left me as an

insult to me, saying that you didn't leave

her, she left you.

No, she gave the decision to me.

I left her.

It's not hard to understand.

I think there were lots of factors that

came in when I made my decision.

The biggest factor would be

the prospect of being able to find someone

more suited to me, who I would be able to

care more about.

Also, my dad just died and I wanted to be

here in this place, in this house, so I

could heal spiritually.

I just felt as though if I went back to

Japan, I was so far away from here, my

family, after everything that happened,

after losing my dad.

I just felt— I just imagined myself being

really depressed, being stuck in that

apartment so far away from home.

But now I feel a bit better.

It's been a few months since it happened.

I feel like I'm starting to accept it

more,

starting to feel like

maybe I can leave this place.

It was very confusing, you know.

There's also the content thing as well.

My channel was kind of dying

after we came back from Christmas, and I

couldn't get more than 20k views a lot of

the time.

I kept thinking— I was just tempted by the

sex and the content that I thought I would

be getting if I separated.

But now my channel's dying again, isn't

it?

Last couple videos didn't even get over

25k.

One of them didn't even get over 15k.

So I don't really know.

If I was in Japan— I keep trying to think

about what my life would be like if my dad

didn't die.

Well, I would still be in Japan.

I'd still be married because I wouldn't

have had the guts to leave her.

So I'd still be there, it would just be

like before we left and came for

Christmas.

Wouldn't be any exciting content, just be

me moaning in my Japanese apartment.

Maybe I'd do a I met my Japanese wife's

family video because her family did want

to meet me

when, um, when we were here for Christmas.

No, I keep trying to imagine what my life