Erectile Dysfunction at 28

Hey, it's me again. So I'm back from my girlfriend's place. I decided to spend the night with her last night even though it's not her day off. Usually I go on Saturday night and then I spend the next day with her all day together because it's her day off on Sundays, but I was just really bored this

week and I didn't feel like sleeping alone yesterday. And she said that I can come over her place whenever I want to. So I decided to go over to her place last night, and we just spent the evening together, and then she went to work today, so I came back early. It was okay. I had a fun

time. It's just that there was one slight problem. Um, I had a bit of a problem getting an erection. Which was a bit worrying because usually I have an erection pretty easily. It doesn't take much to get me erected, but we were lying in bed naked together and kissing, about to, about to start the show, and it

just wouldn't stand. It was completely dead. And we kissed for about 5 minutes, and then I said, I can't get it to stand. And she was like, That's okay, we can do it in the morning or later. So I started fiddling with myself, and then after fiddling with myself for about a few minutes, it started to get

bigger. So it did eventually get fully erect and we did it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm only 28. It's, it's way too early to, to be having these kind of problems, kinds of problems. Maybe it's the antifungal cream. Is the antifungal cream numbing me down there? Is that why it says do not use on

genitals? I mean, it is designed to be used on your feet, and the skin on your feet is usually fairly thick or tough or tougher than your regular skin. The antifungal cream is kind of strange because at first it stings. It stings quite a bit, and then after the stinging goes, there's like a tingling sensation, which I

think feels quite nice. And it completely gets rid of the itchiness. I don't quite know how it gets rid of the itchiness. Maybe it does it by numbing the area. Maybe it's because it has like a numbing effect. That's why I feel less sensitive down there. That's why I feel less aroused. We slept naked together, and I

woke up one time very early in the morning, around 6 AM, and I felt very aroused, and then we just had sex then, and there was no problems there. So I felt kind of relieved. But the first time last night was a bit worrying. It's just so frustrating because I'm fantasizing about having sex with a naked Japanese

woman so much of the time, and then finally I'm lying next to a naked Japanese woman and it's soft like jelly. I'm not exactly sure what the problem is. Maybe it's the antifungal cream. Maybe it's because I'm getting old. Maybe it's because I'm not that attracted to her. Ever since I slept with that half-American, half-Japanese girl and

I lost my erection during sex, I've been worried a lot about losing the ability to get an erection. Being able to get an erection very easily and very quickly has always been something I've been pretty proud of. I've never really been able to offer much to women, you know, things like stability or security or loyalty, but I've

always felt confident in my ability to, to be able to provide her with a fully erect penis at any given time during the day. Now I kind of feel like— I feel a bit worried that the only thing I was good at providing is, is being taken away from me, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because

I've just had so much sex in the last 4 weeks with people that I don't really find attractive, but I had sex with them anyway. Maybe it's just my body's way of telling me that it's fed up and tired of all these mediocre partners and it wants something more. It wants It's lusting after something more attractive. Anyway,

that wasn't the only thing I wanted to talk about. There was something else that kind of bothered me when I woke up this morning with her. Her alarm started to ring on her phone, so she was in the shower, so I had to turn the alarm off myself. So I opened her phone and I turned off the

alarm, and on her phone screen was this notification from an application called Happn, spelled H-A-P-P-N. I looked on Google Play Store to see what kind of app it was, and it said it was a dating app. And the notification said something like— it was in Japanese, but it said something like, um, Nishimura has sent you a message

and has shown interest in you. Now it's your turn to show interest back and say something back to him. And then there was a love sign, a love emoji at the end of this sentence. And I felt a bit disappointed. Well, not a bit disappointed, I felt very disappointed. I don't know how many dating apps she's been

using, apparently not just Tinder. She came out of the shower and I quickly closed the phone down and put it back where it was. I didn't say anything to her. I didn't feel like there was any point in saying anything to her. It was too awkward, and I just kept quiet. She could have been using the app

weeks before when we first met, and she wasn't sure if she wanted me to be her boyfriend or not. And maybe she just still had her profile open and he sent her a message or an interest thing. It doesn't really mean that she's actually using the dating app. Or, um, you know, at the very least, just, um,

okay. I just wish she would delete these dating apps if she's not looking for someone else. Or at the very least, I wish she would disable the notifications so I don't see them. I feel very scared now to look at her phone in case some kind of notification from a dating app or Tinder is going to pop

up saying she has a new match or a new message. I just find it very confusing. Why wouldn't you disable the notifications? Why would you let notifications from dating apps appear on your phone when you have your boyfriend over? Doesn't she care if I see them? Maybe it's because she's not hiding anything. She doesn't care if I

see it or not.

Maybe she just doesn't know how to disable notifications. No, she couldn't be that dumb. It's so easy to just, just go into settings and turn them off. Maybe she's using these apps to find friends. I've spoken to loads of Japanese girls on Tinder who say that they're just using it to find friends, but I feel like that's

kind of unbelievable. People don't use Tinder to find friends. They use Tinder to find hookups, relationships, boyfriends or girlfriends. And if they're saying that they're just using it to find friends, that's just like It seems like they're ashamed of using a dating app and they don't want to admit that they're using it to find a boyfriend, so

they just say, I'm looking for friends. So a few hours ago, I finally built up the courage to finally ask her about, about these dating apps and notifications. I finally built up the courage to confront her about it, and I just asked her. I asked her, are you still using dating apps? I said to her, I saw

some notifications from Tinder and Happn saying you had new matches, and I was just worried that you might still be using these apps. And she said no. She said she's not using them. She just got some notifications because someone must have liked her profile when she was using them before. And she even told me that she deleted

her Tinder account. Completely. That's why the message history disappeared from my Tinder between us when we first started chatting. And I said to her, oh, because I went onto Tinder to look for our first messages when we first started talking and I couldn't find you. And she said, yeah, that's because I deleted my Tinder profile. I'm pretty

sure she's not lying. I feel like I can trust her. I don't see why she would lie about it. It just doesn't make sense. Why would she be looking for other guys on dating apps and then ask me to live with her? So I think it's safe to trust her. I felt a lot better after talking to

her about it. I should have said something about it the very first time it happened with Tinder when we were watching Game of Thrones on her phone and the Tinder match notification came up. I guess I just felt scared. To ask her about it. I felt scared to start pulling at that string.

Maybe I should delete my Tinder as well. I mean, things would get very complicated if I accidentally got a second girlfriend. Now that I'm moving in with, with my current girlfriend, it's going to be kind of tricky to

to have 2 girlfriends. Maybe I should just focus my efforts and energy onto just one girl and not worry about getting caught or making up lies so I can see someone else. It's just so difficult.

I feel like she's pretty serious about me. She said I love you to me for the first time, which is a big step for Japanese people. They don't say I love you very easily. Um, she's also planning a romantic trip for us in Hiroshima. She's planning it all. She bought a little booklet, a guidebook, which I thought

was cute. And she asked me to move in with her, which is a pretty big step. Most people wouldn't move into their partner's place after just 4 weeks of dating, but I really want to move in. I mean, what's the worst that could happen?