feeling sad and lonely -(

Shit.

Testing.

Testing,

testing.

Oh no.

Wow, wow, I need

to cut my hair. It's getting long.

Didn't think you'd stream today. Me too,

but I feel like I'm getting addicted to

streaming now. If I don't stream, I feel

so empty and bored.

Oh no, this is what my life

has become.

I've had zero human interaction today,

apart from saying maybe 2 words to my mum.

Oh no, the bitrate's at 1500.

That's a bit high. Hopefully it doesn't

Hopefully it's fine.

Hopefully it works on my phone this time.

I changed the Twitch ingest server to

London before it was set to America.

Don't know if that makes any difference.

Do you think I should make an OnlyFans

video like this, but like naked

like this?

What? Oh well. I think my hair looks nice

in the mirror, but then when I sit at the

computer in front of the webcam, it looks

weird. That's why I keep fiddling with it

and putting the hair clip. But when I sit

in front of the mirror, I think it looks

fine. That's weird.

Maybe it's the camera angle. Maybe the

webcam camera angle just is not very

flattering. I don't

know, how do

I fix that?

How much did I lose from Bitcoin's day?

Oh my God, if you thought I lost a lot of

money back when I made that video I lost

even more money today.

Well, I put a couple hundred dollars more

into Bitcoin when it crashed again,

and I'm up $20.

Oh my God, first Elon Musk crashes Bitcoin

and then China crashes it by clamping

down with Regulatory things

not going good.

I'm down so much because of stupid Riot

Blockchain.

I thought today was going to be a good day

on the market. It was a good start.

Everything was going green. Everything was

shooting up, and then the Bitcoin crashed,

and everything else crashed too.

Terrible. Look, this is my Bitcoin.

I don't know if you can see it. It says

I'm up $34. It swings so much up and down.

Don't let Mimo get close to the ducklings.

I hope she doesn't attack them. She still

hunts. I was surprised because she

got a baby rabbit a few weeks ago.

Baby wabbit. I've got $1,700

in Bitcoin now, and I bought it around

$35K, $36K.

I get the fear in crypto is finished.

Yeah, knowing my luck, it probably is.

Every time I decide to get into something,

it crashes. I decide to get into stocks,

crashes. I get into ARK Invest, crashes.

I get into crypto, crashes. I bet if I

invest it into Warren Buffett's ETF,

next thing Warren Buffett's going to die.

Everything I choose to bet on crashes.

So annoying.

What can you do?

It's going up. Look, I'm up like $40 now.

Look at this, $40. I opened up all

these different positions that they're

going green. Some of them are still red.

I'm gonna sell one actually. I, I might

sell this one that I bought at $38K.

I feel like that one's gonna fuck me over

if Bitcoin crashes again.

Hmm, they're all going green now. That I'm

up about $40. It's just

a 1% gain. If that can go up 10%, I'd be

up like $300, $400.

Wow, this really is gambling at this

point. I think I'm gonna hold.

I feel like it will rebound,

but today was pretty crap. Compared to

yesterday. And now we've got the long

weekend of boringness,

nothingness.

Oh, weekend's so boring, I can't do any

stocks.

Someone emailed me. Do you remember me?

I don't know how many people you've done

jerk-off videos for, but I'm one of them.

Want to make a quick one for me now? I'll

pay on PayPal. Oh, it's this guy.

He keeps messaging me. Before,

when I was married, there was this one guy

who messaged me on Twitter and he was

like, if you ever come to London, I'll let

you fuck my girlfriend. And he was like,

me and my girlfriend have this

slave-master thing, and,

and he— I get to decide who fucks her.

Where are they now?

I'm back in England. I'm ready for

fucking. Can I borrow your girlfriend?

That'd be weird.

There's some girls that are into that,

like the whole sex slave thing. I messaged

a girl before and she was like, you can

bring your viewers and fuck me. And I was

like, uh, I don't really like to share.

That'd be so weird. She was like, you can

bring your friends and you can all fuck

me. I wouldn't want my friends I

want to do the effing. I don't want to

bring my friends if I had any, do like fan

meetup where we all eff her. That's just

weird. Some girls

are weird. Some have like that breeding

fetish where they're like, breed me, I

want you to finish in my uterus.

A lot of strange girls out there.

My hair's looking good. What was I moaning

about just now? I like it.

I did trim the back a bit. Might need

a bit more trimming. It's getting a bit

fluffy. I wanted to trim

the sides a bit. I don't like when the

sides get too big because it looks like I

don't know, it looks like that haircut

monks used to have when it was like a bowl

cut.

What are the things they could say that

would really freak you out?

I swear, every time a girl asks me what my

kinks are and then I ask her back, what

are yours? Every time They say, I like

being choked, I like being slapped,

I like being beaten up, or whatever weird

thing. I don't want to slap and choke

girls. Why do they always say the same

thing when I ask them what their kinks

are? I want to be gentle and

be nice, make them feel good, not push

them around and Be abusive. I was raised

to be a gentleman, nice guy. I didn't

realize girls want to be pushed around

and choked and stuff.

I got this thing coming tomorrow. It's

called Huel. It's like protein powder,

but it's supposed to be a proper balanced

meal in powder form, but it's not like

made out of chemicals and stuff. It's made

out of actual food. And then you're

supposed to just mix it with water and it

has all the vitamins you need and it has

like proteins and oils and

carbs. It's supposed to be the perfect

balance of what the body needs.

It's called Huel, H-U-E-L. I got vanilla

flavor and salty caramel. And it comes

with a free t-shirt. It's about £50.

I think it works out to about £1.20 per

meal. I decided to get it because I feel

like my lunches are really unhealthy. I

always have a ham sandwich and then I have

a packet of crisps. It's just like carbs,

carbs, carbs, junk food, processed meat.

And the only good thing of About my

lunches, the cucumber where I just have

four slices. I don't think my lunch is

very healthy. I don't know what else to

have for lunch, so I thought I'd just get

this Huel thing, try it out,

cut down on because I feel like I'm

getting fat. Do you think I'm getting fat?

Like there's chub on my belly.

Now even if I'm not getting fat. It's a

pretty high sodium, high carb,

unhealthy diet.

Plus, if I get trapped in my room and I

can't go down to make lunch, I can just

get some water from the sink and mix some

Huel into it, and then

I've got a meal. I don't have to go

downstairs and make anything. It's a

pretty convenient way. I'm just wondering

what my poo would look like. Is it gonna

be all weird?

You were snacking the night— the other

day. Yeah, maybe I should stop night

snacking too.

Why no Bitcoin chart?

Don't really want to keep looking at it.

I want to try and detach from staring at

charts all day.

Oh my God, what the fuck was that?

It says my heal is on its way tomorrow.

Oh, I'm so bored. I don't know what to do.

I feel like this is the worst time in my

life.

Ever. I don't know if this time is worse

than when I was in Korea. At least now

I've got my family, but I don't even talk

to them, so it's barely like they're here.

Any stock gains?

Not really. Uh,

I got some gains on the Ford. I sold my

Ford stocks, but I only had a couple

hundred in, in Ford. I wasn't expecting

Ford to go up so much.

It's been raining every day. I can't go

outside either. And then it says it's

gonna rain every day for the next week.

How's it raining so much?

How come you started this stream so late?

I don't know, I wasn't gonna stream

because I, I've been streaming like every

But when— now when I don't stream, I don't

know what to do, and no one's chatting to

me. Well, the one person is,

but I mean like on Instagram,

no one messages me anymore.

I was just scrolling down my Instagram

chat history, just looking at all these

people and wondering where they were. And

there were like 20 accounts that just says

Instagram user. So they got banned or they

deleted their account, I guess.

And then I was reading the messages trying

to remember who they were. Some of them I

don't remember who they were and some of

them I do. Some of them deleted the whole

chat history like they were paranoid I was

going to screenshot the chat history and

then put it in a video or something. Some

people are weird. Yeah, as if our chat

history was so amazingly interesting, I'm

going to make a whole video about it.

They get really paranoid. They're like,

well, please don't use this chat in a

video. Like, people think I use every

single human interaction in a video.

Sad. Why would they think that? I don't

know. So I've

had hundreds of conversations with people.

How many times have I made a video about a

conversation I've had with a girl on

Instagram? Never. But they all seem

paranoid.

Use this free time to bond with your

relatives. Your relatives? Who, my family?

My mum and sister? Well, I can't because

people keep coming over and then I can't

go downstairs. Usually if no one comes

over, I'd go downstairs for dinner, and

then around 8 PM I'd have dinner and watch

TV and we'd sit together on the sofa, but

then people are over here and I have to

stay upstairs,

or they're sitting in my place where I sit

on the sofa and I can't sit at the table

because there's always junk on it.

So today I didn't even go downstairs.

Just— I just went to get— um,

I just went— did I go downstairs?

Yeah, I think I did, just to get, um, tea

and to make coffee.

How often do they come? I feel like it's

almost every day someone's coming. Today

my sister's friend came over, yesterday my

mum's friend came over, and then weekends

my uncles come over to do the building.

So annoying.

Life didn't used to be like this.

My dad would be at work and my mom would

be at work, and then I'd just be at home

all day by myself. That's how I started my

channel, from loneliness.

How come there's barely any people today?

Usually I get 100 viewers.

50.

Because it's Saturday. No, it's Friday

night, isn't it?

Friday night. I didn't think my viewers

were so outgoing and busy.

Maybe I've just been doing too many

streams, they got bored.

Whatever, don't know what else to do.

Most depressed.

In my life.

Can you read it? I think you

can see. Hmm.

Have you tried not being depressed?

No, I don't know. I feel like

I'm drowning recently.

It's a weird feeling. It's like you're

just existing, but you don't really feel

alive. Like you're just floating.

Things will get better when Japan reopens.

I don't know about that. I feel

like I'm losing hope.

Losing hope.

Why is the Japanese vaccination effort so

bad? It's like they're putting more effort

into doing the Olympics instead

of getting vaccinated. I don't

even feel like getting the vaccine because

I've heard people getting really sick just

from the vaccine. And then what's the

point of me getting the vaccine? I'm not

going anywhere anyway, and no one wants to

meet anyway.

I feel like I have I

have a lower chance of getting the virus

than I do from getting sick from the

I can easily avoid the virus, but you

inject— injecting it directly into me,

I don't know, I feel a bit worried now.

After seeing Ice Poseidon's tweet, he said

he had like a 100-degree fever.

But I guess having side effects and

symptoms is proof that your body's

reacting to it and fighting off the virus

and then developing antibodies.

I don't know why I'm feeling similar

levels of loneliness and depression that I

was feeling in Korea.

I just wonder if things are going to get

better. They did get better after

Korea for a bit.

Korea, I felt alone.

Here, I also felt alone.

Yeah, I also had this problem in Korea. I

lost all the girls. Lost all girls.

Same thing.

Remember, I was doing exactly the same

thing when I was in Korea, writing these

girls. Crossing them off.

But this time I'm not going to write them

down because last time one of them was

watching the stream and she got angry and

messaged me. She said

Do do da da. Other similarities.

I felt great in January. January was so

great. My stocks were up so much. I had

like ten thousand pounds in gains. I had

about five girls who seemed interested in

meeting. Then just one by one, they all

just vanished. Ghosted me, didn't reply

anymore. So weird how that happens.

Da da da da da.

I was thinking of going to Germany again,

so like. Relive the

back to Germany adventure I had last

year, kind of like a pilgrimage.

What about the girl you were talking to

yesterday? Who, the Japanese one? I don't

know, she said we could meet on Saturday

and then she said we can't meet on

Saturday anymore. So every time these

girls say let's meet and then when it

comes to the time that we discuss meeting,

they either change their minds or they

stop replying.

Did I feel alone and depressed while

married? Not really. I felt different

things. Like,

I felt frustrated because all these girls

were messaging me and I couldn't freely go

and meet all of them. Or any of them. And

then I felt worried my channel was going

to die because just being stuck in the

apartment living in Japan,

it was kind of boring unless there was—

unless there was drama.

My life in Japan was also pretty boring.

Hmm.

So what else happened in Korea?

There was this feeling of hopelessness,

same as now,

very similar

patterns.

But there was light at the end of the

tunnel after Korea.

Things did get good.

Would it get good again? Don't know.

What would make you feel whole again?

Some kind of human interaction, you know,

actual interaction. Physical in real life.

Tonight, it should be nice if I just want

to do simple stuff like going on a walk

together. Living like this sucks.

I hate when people say you should feel

happy being alone.

I don't think the human species was

designed to be alone.

No, I don't want any guys. Guys don't

help.

Interaction with guys is not what I'm

after. Being alone is

just boring. Yeah, it's easy because

you don't have to worry about a second

person and you can just do what you want

when you want, but it's so boring.

It just feels like every day is pointless.

Oh, but then when you're with someone,

you have to do all this stuff that you

don't want to do, but they want to do it.

And then if you keep saying no, I don't

want to do it, then they dump you.

Solitary confinement is torture for a

reason. Yeah, it's a punishment they,

they have for really bad criminals.

So people saying you should learn to be

happy on your own, it's just stupid.

Start going crazy, don't you?

What did I write on my Tinder bio? I think

I just put, hey, I'm Daniel, I like

traveling and Japan.

I forgot why I picked up my phone.

Oh, I was gonna check Bitcoin.

Do I believe in the afterlife?

Not really.

I feel like the idea of heaven and the

afterlife is just something

people came up with as like a coping

mechanism to make the idea of dying less

scary.

It's a good idea, I guess. Because if you

think— if you genuinely think after you

die you're gonna go to a better place,

then you wouldn't be so sad about the idea

of dying, would you?

I don't know how they convince themselves

into believing that stuff. I just can't— I

can't believe it.

I'd probably go to hell anyway.

I keep flip-flopping between missing

Mida and then missing Chihiro. I was

missing Chihiro, but now I don't miss her

anymore because she doesn't— she's not

I thought I was being really nice to

Chihiro recently. I even got her a

birthday present, and then all of a sudden

she does this, and then I ask her why,

and then she's like, I don't care if it

upsets you. I was like, what the hell?

Why are you hating on me all of a sudden?

I've mostly been saying good things.

I didn't expect her to be so hostile

towards me.

I guess it's good we

divorced because this stuff just kept

happening over and over.

Such a bloody headache.

Maybe I should do a pros and cons of being

single. Maybe that'll make me feel better.

Single Versus

not single.

She has an entire server full of people

talking in her ear. I know,

that's why I'm against the Discord,

because I just knew this would happen.

She's going to have all these weirdos and

trolls.

Trying to get in her head, and I don't

know how good she is at ignoring it all or

filtering it. Doesn't seem like she's very

good at it.

She modded the crazies. Yes, what I'm

saying, she doesn't know who these people

are. I know who's who because

they always come back to the Discord and

then I remember them.

It's probably like me in the beginning

when I first started using Discord. I

thought, oh, these people are normal,

nice people. I'll make some of them mod.

No, half of them are bloody nuts.

Easier, cheaper.

Get fed up with all this.

All you have to do is join the voice chat

to see what kind of people are on the

Discord. It's mostly just like a bunch of

This person's so annoying. He keeps

messaging me. He's like, I want a jerk-off

video now, Daniel. I'll pay you. But it

needs to be now. As if I'm going to

quickly stop everything I'm doing, go and

jerk off and film it and send it to him.

Get lost.

His tone is so annoying. Like, who the

hell does he think he is demanding I send

him a jerk-off video? Why don't you sign

up to OnlyFans and pay for it like

everyone else does?

People demand me to do stuff. I just won't

do it because I don't like being told what

to do.

Cesium got thrown off her server. Why?

What did he do?

I think I convinced her that Cesium needs

to be blocked and ignored, but I

don't know if she understands that they're

all like Cesium. Like, 80% of the people

are just other Cesiums, but they're just

different people. He's back with Pia.

Surprise, surprise.

What's the last advice you were glad you

followed? I'm not glad I followed anyone's

advice. Every advice I followed has just

turned out to fuck me. Like trying to

make friends. The Casey thing happens.

Investing in crypto, investing in stocks.

It's all just been bad.

No one's ever given me advice that has

actually been useful.

They all say the stupid same stuff, like,

you should get therapy, you should get a

job. Yeah, as if there's people

who have jobs who don't have problems in

life. Yeah, as if having a job just fixes

everything.

React to K-pop. I don't want to.

I don't do reaction videos. I have

no reaction. My face is like dead all the

There's no good advice. I don't know what

the solution to my problem is.

I keep thinking back to the Mina

relationship, trying to solve the problem.

Was it money? Was it because I was

stressed? Was it because I just got

annoyed with her?

I don't know. I don't think

more money would have solved it.

Because you didn't care about what she

said. Yeah, but I don't care what anyone

That's the problem, isn't it? I have to

fake it.

I wish I'd tried a bit harder though now,

because now I'm all alone and depressed.

I feel like, oh, I should have tried

harder at caring. Like, how hard would it

have been to just ask some questions back

instead of just going, oh, hmm,

really? I could have just

picked out something from the story she,

she told and said Did she do this?

How was that? I don't know.

The thing I'd be worried about is if I

find a new girlfriend, the same thing is

just going to happen again. I won't show

interest, enough interest in her, and then

she'll notice And then she'll feel lonely

and then dump me because she didn't feel a

connection. There's only 2 depressing

outcomes. Number one, I never find another

girlfriend as good as Mila again.

You know, I'll never feel as happy as I

did again with a different girl. Or number

2, I do find someone good and then the

same thing happens again because she's

annoying in a different way. Everyone

seems to be annoying to me.

I don't know how to fix that.

I feel like I get annoyed by everyone.

How do you not get annoyed at people?

It's probably because I feel frustrated,

and then I take the frustration out on the

annoying things people do.

That's a difficult one to stop.

How'd you stop that?

Maybe you just have to realize that if you

keep getting annoyed at people, then they

won't want to be with you anymore.

I mainly felt annoyed because at the time

I was just getting into stocks. And I was

really addicted to it. I just wanted to

focus on stocks,

and then I kind of felt annoyed that I had

to stop doing stock stuff when Mila came

over. I felt really addicted to it now I

think back.

Ah, what a mess.

Things were so different when we first met

in Germany before I got into stocks. I

feel like when I got into stocks, that's

when things also started going downhill.

I started getting very stressed out, very

irritable. All I could think about

was stocks, and then if my stocks were

going down, I'd be all snappy.

That's not good.

You're saying it's stocks' fault? I feel

like stocks were part of the reason. I

wonder how things would have went if I

wasn't into stocks.

But it's difficult. I like doing stocks,

it's fun.

It's fun when it goes up and then I press

sell and I get the money, but then I just

lose it again.

Oh, I need to turn my heater off. It's

getting hot.

I'm looking forward to the Huel thing

tomorrow. I wonder if it tastes good. If

it tastes good and it fills me up, that

means I don't have to bother about food.

That'd be nice.

Oh, the jar thing. I found out how to open

jars. The reason why I can't open

jars is, is because of the air pressure.

So if you stab a hole into the top of the

lid, you can open it really easily. It's a

little trick, life hack. Remember when

YouTubers were doing life hacks?

I found this out when I had, um,

Frankfurters in a glass jar and I couldn't

open it. And then I just got a knife and I

stabbed a hole into the top and it

released the air pressure, and then I

could unscrew it. I got vanilla flavor and

salted caramel Huel, and I got gluten-free

because I'm wondering if I have some kind

of bad reaction to gluten. Maybe that's

why my skin gets bad.

Maybe the gluten or The carbs

inflame my skin.

I'll try it for a month. A month on Huel,

like that Mike Jevons guy. He does a month

on KFC or whatever.

I think I'll just start off by having the

Huel for lunch and, and stop eating my ham

sandwich. Ham sandwich is pretty unhealthy

because it's processed, high sodium

processed meat with white bread,

which is full of refined carbs, which is

bad for you, and gluten.

What's Huel? It's human fuel.

Don't they have it in America? It's like,

it's like

protein powder. But it's not. It's got

nutrients and vitamins and everything,

and then you mix it with water and you

shake it. I don't know what Soylent

I'm wondering if it actually fills you up.

Is it like a liquid, or is it going to be

like porridge? Did I check on the ducks

today? No, I couldn't

go outside, it was too windy. I tried

going out yesterday and it just started

raining and it was windy the whole time.

It's like a smoothie. I'm hoping it's kind

of pasty, not like a milkshake that's

really runny. What are you doing these

days? I am trying to make back my money

on the stock market by doing aggressive

day trading and

Bitcoin, trying to trade Bitcoin.

And then I play football in the garden

about 2 hours. I walk about in the garden

and I do some exercise.

Then I try and make videos and then I do

some streams.

Uh, not much else.

There's fiber in the hule.

It says it has everything, and then you

could add some bananas to it. You could

like slice up bananas and add it to it.

I probably just have a banana with it too.

I put £1,700 into Bitcoin when it

dropped around £35,000,

£36,000.

I'm currently up $42,

2% gain.

Those crashes are scary to buy though.

You need guts to jump in when it's

dropping so low because it feels like, oh

no, it's going to drop even more.

Is it really gonna rebound?

I think it will.

Okay, what should we plan?

Fed up complaining about being lonely.

We need plan of action.

Would I get the vax? I can make a video

why I refuse to get the vaccination.

Uh, excuse me.

I don't want to get banned. Oh, I don't

want to get in trouble. I feel like

YouTube won't like it if If

people start saying stuff like, oh, the

vaccine's bad, the vaccine

is dangerous,

what is our plan of action? Is that a

syringe? Yeah, it's my thermal paste.

Where my computer— my computer's still

down there. I still haven't put it back

together. Remember my graphics card was

going funny and I couldn't get it to work,

so I took the graphics card apart to put

new thermal paste, but that didn't fix it,

so I had to get a new power supply and

that did fix it. That was ages ago now

and I still haven't even put it back

together. I don't see the point.

I haven't had flu jabs either. I only had

flu once. Last time was in 2018

when I was with Chihiro. I got it pretty

bad.

It's not heroin.

No, I haven't had any vaccines. I think I

had one vaccine when I was a kid. I think

it was for meningitis.

I still have the scar on my arm from that

injection. I wonder why it left a scar.

When, when was the last time I got an

injection? I think 2014 when I

had an STD test. They took

a blood sample. It was really painful.

They stuck it right in the big vein in my

arm.

But not recently.

I don't think I'm scared of injections.

Some people really hate them, don't they?

Like, they're terrified of injections.

You know this tripod? I got it from the

Korean ex-girlfriend. It used to be hers.

I took it from her apartment. She said I

could have it. I've been using

it for 10 years now.

They should make a pill that you can just

swallow and then it gives you protection

against it. Why, why'd you have to get it

injected? Then they could send the pill to

people in the mail.

Can we send you post? I can't

stop you. Depends what you want to send.

People know my address, don't they?

Actually, someone did send me something

today.

They sent me hair clips.

They sent me a hair clip.

Why? It just says To Daniel,

enjoy.

2 hair clips. Very weird.

I don't really need a hair clip today. My

hair's looking good.

These ones are a bit big.

Can't get it out. They're a bit big,

these ones.

Prince Harry has said he drank heavily,

took drugs, and had panic attacks while

struggling to cope with the pressures of

royal life.

Must be tough for them. I know people A

lot of people don't like the royals and

they think, oh, they're spoiled, they get

taxpayers' money, they're just celebrities

for nothing. But it must be hard for them

as well. They're always in the public eye

and they get criticized for everything.

When you were younger, what did you want

to be? I never really wanted to be

anything. I thought I would just be young

forever. I never imagined I would

eventually become an adult and then I

would have to find a way to make money. I

just kind of always assumed my dad would

be working and then I wouldn't have to

worry about money. Don't know

why I felt like that. I just couldn't

imagine the idea of getting old. It's like

in my mind I always saw myself kind of

like Peter Pan, maybe.

No one really sat me down when I was a kid

and said, Daniel, you have to think now,

what do you want to do? For your job,

because I'm not going to be around

forever, and one day you have to provide

for yourself.

I just thought,

um, I would just stay at home playing

games and then I wouldn't have to worry

about anything, which is kind of true. I

mean, I do just stay at home all day and

play games. But I didn't— I never expected

that I'd be so sad about being lonely.

I never foresee this— foresaw this,

because there was always people around

when I was young. There were always people

coming over, and I had school friends.

And I used to think getting a girlfriend

was easy. It did seem easier back then.

I just went onto a dating site and I

messaged a bunch of people. But now you

can't go anywhere because of lockdown.

Can't go to different countries.

I feel like I need to do something drastic

because

if I don't do anything, then nothing's

gonna happen.

But it's so hard to just do it. I've gone

really lazy now.

It just seems very risky, and then it

might result in nothing, and then it would

just be expensive as well. The only thing

I can think of is getting an apartment

in London and then doing

a whole moving to London series,

and maybe someone would message me to meet

up.

Why London? Because it's a big city and

it's got lots of people, and it's got good

access to different parts of England. Why

would I go to like some tiny town in Dover

But all of England's expensive. It's not

just London. You even look in the

countryside and towns, it's all expensive.

I think my best chance would be maybe

finding a foreigner girl in London, not An

English girl. I don't feel like English

girls like me.

I've got 10 matches on Tinder, but I can't

see it because I have the free version.

It wants me to pay £30 to see

who likes me.

Matched someone. Who's that?

I mean, not— that was rude.

Maybe I shouldn't do Tinder on live.

I'm sure she's lovely.

Oh my God. Shall I? No,

I shouldn't.

It just look— it makes me look really bad

if I'm like judging people's pictures.

My instant reaction was She

says she likes good restaurants,

conversations that touch the

core of existence, and good banter.

I don't think you'll find those things

with me. Just came back from

the Middle East.

Hmm, I should put my Tinder profile: I

suck at talking, I have terrible social

skills, and I just want to have sex. No

one would match me,

and I have no interest in other people.

You're full of banter. I'm not very

talkative in person cuz I don't feel

confident to just talk about random stuff,

or I get worried that I'll say something

and then they'll disagree and then we have

to have this big debate over who's right,

and it's just a pain. I don't really want

to debate. It's why I never really talked

much to Mida, cuz I felt like she would

just disagree with everything I said,

and then I have to start like debating

her on why I think I'm right, and then

she'd be like, no, you're not. I felt like

she disagreed with nearly everything I

would say. And then I was constantly

disagreeing with everything she said.

Well, one time we went to play billiards

or pool. How did it go?

We had a disagreement on the rules of

billiards, and I play the billiard mobile

game, or I used to. I used to play that a

lot, so I felt like I knew the rules

pretty well. What was the thing

we had?

So I pocketed my ball plus

her ball at the same time, so I

would get another turn because my ball

went in first, so it doesn't matter if her

ball also went in. And then she was like,

no, it's my turn because you pocketed my

ball. And I said no. I also pocketed my

ball, so it means the next turn is my

turn, because that's how it works on the

game, on the mobile game. And then

she kept disagreeing, so I had to look up

Wikipedia to find where it says. And then

she was like, oh, that's 9-ball pool,

we're playing 8-ball pool.

So annoying.

It's like she would— she was so stubborn,

she would never listen to me, and then I

also never listened to her, so it was just

annoying all the time.

Or she would say, you should use your

money to buy a house, and I'd say, I don't

have enough money to buy a house, I've

only got 40K, and And she says, no, you

can buy a house in Sweden for

10K. I saw people do it on YouTube.

Yeah, if you like buy a rubbish,

abandoned, ugly, falling apart home in the

middle of nowhere, you could get a place

for like 10, 20K in Sweden. But why would

I want that? I don't want to move to

Sweden and then live in like a falling

apart building in the middle of nowhere.

Well, she would say you can buy a house in

Ukraine or Uganda or some other

shit country.

Yeah, great idea. And then I'll just be in

the middle of nowhere in Sweden in the

forests, and I can't even stay there

because we're not in the EU anymore. And

then I would have just wasted half my

money on some rubbish building in the

middle of nowhere.

It's like the worst idea I ever heard.

I've got no interest in living in Sweden.

People just nonstop come up with silly

ideas.

I don't think being completely isolated in

a foreign country would

really make me feel better.

I think I'm gonna go to bed. I feel bored

now.

Well, good night then. I don't know what

to talk about. It's just annoying people

in the chat tonight. Can't be bothered.

I don't know what to do to fix

my problems. Streaming's not really

helping.

Which problem?

I don't know, just the feeling of boredom,

I guess,

and loneliness.

Let me just ban these annoying people.

Ban him.

Who else wants to get banned?

I think it was just those 2 annoying

people.

Hmm, I don't know.

Starting to relate to Asmongold now when

he said all of— he's already had all the

good things in life and now there's not

much to look forward to.

Oh, thanks. Welcome.

Hey Danny boy, working more hours so you

can have these $5.

Been watching you for a while, so you

deserve it. I also have feelings of

loneliness.

Yeah, it's tricky, isn't it?

Because you feel— I feel annoyed when

people are around too much, and then I

feel lonely when there's no one around.

I feel like I've hit the peak of things.

Like, I hit the peak of my YouTube

success. Probably won't be able to do any

better than what I had in my— during my

And then I met Miida, which was probably

the best girl I'm ever going to meet.

Can't imagine meeting someone better.

And then Physically, I've probably gone

past my peak and now I'm just getting

older. Just feels like everything's

going downhill now. I've already

experienced the best, and then to

experience even better just seems

unlikely. My channel would have to go

viral again, or I'd have to meet a girl

that I find even more attractive than

Mila, who also likes me back.

Make girlfriend wife drama. But even then

I was only getting 60k, 50k views,

and that was like peak drama. Divorce,

cheating, arguments, kicked out,

sex dolls. And even then only 50, 60k.

That's rubbish.

It's not worth it.

Hahaha, Chi-Chi has more friends and a

bigger family on Discord than you.

Really?

Yeah, I guess Chihiro is better than me at

being likable because

she's very— what's the word— calculative,

I guess. I'm too emotional to be likable.

I get upset and I get angry. And then I

snap at people. Just looks

People like Chihiro way more than they

liked me, that's for sure.

Why are you so snappy? I don't know. I

guess it feels good to, like, release the

anger.

It's hard not to sometimes when you're in

a bad mood. And then you've got annoying

people yapping at you.

Ah, Streamlabs is bugging again.

I think I found out how to fix it. You

have to do a test donation like

this. Watch, watch, I'll fix it.

See, the test works,

and then after the test plays, it will

play the real donation.

This is a test BitAlert.

See,

it's not working now. It was working

before. Ah.

Daniel, do not feel jealous of Chihiro's

Discord at all.

Yeah, I bet there's lots of people in

there who have multiple accounts.

This app's so buggy.

It's gotten a lot worse. It used to be

fine. I wonder why.

Phone heats up. Oh yeah, it's a bit hot.

I wouldn't even want to get back with

Chihiro anyway.

There's too much— too many problems with

all this Discord stuff.

And all these annoying trolls messaging

her all the time, trying to stir drama

up. I don't want to be with someone like

Such a headache.

Oh, I can't see

it. Oh, there.

They're trying to give Cami a present,

but they really want to dodge it.

Because they want the money to be sent to

McLovin.

Yeah, there's all these crazy people on

there,

and Chihiro doesn't care about moderating

it.

Stop, too many sounds. Is loud.

Okay, I'll turn it down a bit.

Oh, I don't know how to fix Streamlabs.

How is she not creeped out? She says she

doesn't care because everyone's hating on

me, not her, and she's just using

it to get views, to build a

community. Is that really the community

you want? A bunch of trolls and toxic

people? Fine, don't listen to me.

No one ever listens to me, do they?

I know my community better than anyone

Trolls are using her to get to you. Yeah,

I know, that's what they've been doing all

this time, for years.

They take stuff out of context and then

they message her saying, look, Daniel said

this. Daniel is talking shit about you on

his stream, and then she believes them,

and then I've got to defend myself, and

then she doesn't believe me and she

believes a bunch of stupid trolls.

There's no proof.

Just a bunch of people snitching and then

twisting things.

Oh my God, Bitcoin is going! I'm $50

in the money!

Look at that,

beautiful!

Baby, look at that sexy chart. I bought

that dip and I bought this dip.

Now we're going to the moon.

What's this? Like, it spikes up there for

a second, then it drops back down.

Am I buying Coinbase? No, I've got too

many. Bitcoin-related stocks.

I've got too much Mara and Riot.

I'm up $50 and it's just a 3% gain.

Imagine I get like a 20-30% gain.

I'll be up loads. I'd be able to recover

my ARK Invest loss— losses. I sold my ARK

Invest It's not going anywhere. I've been

holding it since February and it's just

been down 30%. The Nasdaq's already

recovered from its correction, but ARKK

is still down like 30%.

Waste of time.

I feel like putting that money into

something else would get better returns

faster. Yeah,

maybe ARK Invest would be good after a

couple years, like in 5 years,

but I'm not Patient enough.

Wow, that was instant.

That donation didn't take any lag. Isn't

it crazy that Kentent is McLovin though?

Isn't it crazy that Kentent is McLovin?

He acted like such a nice person.

Yes, like I say all the time, you can't

trust anyone on the Discord community.

Half of them are probably Caesium or

McLovin.

If Chihiro donated $80 on livestream,

would you be on good terms? No,

if she deleted the Discord, then we would

be, but she's— but

she can't delete it anyway. That's the

I think it's more complicated. I don't

think she has admin powers, but they've

tricked her into promoting it as her

Discord, getting members onto it, and now

they've got the members on it and they've

got control of the Discord.

You're the headache. You bring nothing to

the table.

I built the table. I am the table.

What would being the table mean in that

context? It means the girl comes

to you. Means you're a— I was going to

say the S-word— a Simpson.

You're a Homer Simpson.

I can't

believe there's hundreds of people on my

Instagram message history and not a single

one sending me

anything. What the hell?

I can go back 50 weeks ago. That's like a

year ago. Look at this. Melissa sent

me a message, 5th of March, 2020. Hi

Daniel, I watch your videos when I'm

depressed. I relate with many things. I

know you're not going to read this, but if

you do, I appreciate you and your videos.

Greetings from Argentina.

Wow, she's cute.