First day in Japan - I feel so alone

Hey, so it's 6 AM in the morning.

I just had a shower. We're going to the

airport today. I woke up nice and early

because it takes a few hours for my hair

to dry, so I need a lot of time to get

ready. I guess I could just use a

hairdryer, but I like to let it dry

naturally. Here's my bag.

I've nearly finished packing. It's pretty

heavy. It's about 14 kg.

I just need to pack my hair straightener

and then my battery bank, and then we're

good to go. It's pretty dark right now.

It's still pitch black outside.

Well, not exactly pitch black, but it's

like it's nighttime. The sun's starting

to rise.

Hey, guess where I am? I'm in my room in

Japan. I just got here about an hour ago.

I talked to the manager, we finished

sorting out my room and the contract. And

I have to get my room ready. This is my

room. It's actually

pretty big. It feels like it's at least

twice the size of the guesthouse in Tokyo.

I was actually quite surprised how big it

is. It's so strange to be back here. The

first time I came to this guesthouse was

about 7 years ago, and nothing much has

changed. It looks almost the same apart

from the living room has had a bit of a

renovation. They've put in new seats,

which look quite nice. There was no one

down there. It was completely empty,

which is kind of strange considering

there's over 100 rooms in this place, so

there should be at least 100 people here,

right? But there was no one down there. I

guess they were working or at school.

There was one Japanese woman, but I didn't

talk to her. I'm not gonna start talking

to people on the very first day. I'm

exhausted. I'm covered in sweat.

I can't remember the last time I slept.

The plane flight was so rough. It was— it

was horrible. I felt like I was going to

vomit on the transfer flight from Hong

Kong to Japan. I felt terrible. The smell

of the food just made me sick. It was kind

of embarrassing at the airport. They

wanted to search my bags for some reason.

And this woman took everything out of my

bag and then started using this plastic

stick which had a piece of fabric on the

end, and she was like wiping it on the

inside of my bag. And then she came to my

zipped pocket and then she took everything

out. And in this pocket is where I keep

all my condoms, and she went like this and

she just started taking them all out. It

was, it was kind of embarrassing. I know I

keep saying this, but it's so strange to

be back here. I have so many memories

here. I did so many things for the first

time here. First time having sex. First

time getting a blowjob. First time I

pissed myself as an adult. I'm not sure if

you've seen that video where I talked

about pissing myself. It was in this guest

house. It was my first time in Japan and I

was feeling so nervous I wet the bed.

Feels like there's so much to do. I need

to get my bed sorted out. I need to What

do I need to buy? I need to buy washing

powder so I can do the laundry. I need to

buy drinks. I need to buy food.

Um, I think I have everything else. I

brought toothpaste, a toothbrush, dental

floss, deodorant. Oh, I need

to buy shampoo and conditioner. This is

what it looks like outside. It's not very

impressive, so Don't expect too much.

Da da.

It's kind of depressing, isn't it?

This is what Japan looks like. It's pretty

dull. I think it's still raining.

It's still raining. I need to go and buy

stuff. I want to buy drinks. I think I'll

get some beer. I need to buy some towels

as well. I only brought this. It's not

really enough, is it?

This is so weird. It's so strange

when you come to Japan for the first few

days, you feel like, what am I doing here?

Why am I here? Why did I come here? Maybe

I shouldn't have come here. Feels kind of

lonely. You don't know anyone, you don't

know what you're supposed to do.

This was the neighborhood me and the

Korean girl used to walk around 7 years

ago. I don't really remember it.

It looks kind of different.

There's people riding bicycles everywhere.

I don't really know what to do.

I guess I should buy food and

then sit in the living room for a bit.

I hate this part of coming to Japan. The

first few days when you don't know anyone.

It's so awkward. But if

I just hide in my room the whole time,

then what was the point in coming here? I

might as well have gotten an apartment. I

need to force myself. Just sit in the

living room so people start to get used

to you. So they start to notice you.

And then eventually someone might approach

you and say hi. That's the plan. I guess I

could just approach someone first myself,

but that's kind of weird. There was a man

just standing in the road. Didn't notice

him at all.

We're looking for towels. If you see any

towels, tell me. I need some towels to

dry my lovely hair after I've had

a shower. I feel a bit drunk.

Feeling drunk always helps, especially

when it comes to vlogging.

I'm pretty sure this supermarket wasn't

here last time.

Oh look, my favorite, Jack Daniel's.

Whiskey. What else do they have? Japanese

whiskey. Maybe I should try some Japanese

whiskey, make a video. Oh, this is the one

on PewDiePie's video when he did that

whiskey video. Hakkushu.

Are these towels? They're kind of small.

It says face towel. I need a body towel.

Maybe they'll have towels in here.

I think I found the towels. Should I get a

pink one or a yellow one or a green one or

a blue one?

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at my legs. I've been bitten by mosquitoes

already. It's starting to swell up.

You can't actually see the bone here.

Usually you can always see the bones on my

legs because I'm so skinny, but it's all

swollen. It's so itchy. It's so itchy. I

scratched it so hard it started to bleed.

Look, look, this part's bleeding as well.

It's disgusting, isn't it? But this is

swelling up as well. Damn it. I don't know

how they bit me. I was wearing 2 pairs of

trousers, jeans, and socks.

How the hell did they bite me? Some of

these bites are fleas, but the flea bites

are old. The red ones are the mosquitoes.

So I'm back in my room. I just went to a

convenience store. I bought some beer. I

drank it all at once and I started to feel

a bit tipsy. And then I went to the

supermarket. I tried buying a towel,

which I bought. And then I came back to

the guesthouse and I just sat in the

living room for about 40 minutes eating my

chicken, seeing if there was any

interesting people down there. There were

about 4 people. One of them said good

evening to me. I said good evening back

and that was it. I guess I should have

tried to make conversation then.

That would have been a good opportunity.

There's also this other guy, this European

guy. I think he was saying he was from

Scotland. He had really long curly hair.

He was kind of noisy. I just

sat there for about 40 minutes eating my

chicken in this kind of drunken state,

seeing if anyone would approach me, start

talking to me, but No one did.

It feels so lonely when you come to Japan

and you don't know anyone. I've been

living with my parents for such a long

time since the last time I came to Japan.

You kind of get used to living with your

parents, and then when you suddenly go to

Japan and you're all by yourself, it

feels— you feel so isolated and

alone. And it's hard to get used to.

I guess I feel kind of depressed right

now. I wish

I knew someone. I wish there was someone

here to meet up with me straight away.

I guess I have to be patient. I know I

should try talking to people. I should

approach people myself instead of waiting

for people to approach me, but it's just

so difficult. I know it's easy. You just

go up to someone, you say hello, and then

you introduce yourself. But saying it is a

lot easier than doing it. I just— I can't

do it. I've tried doing it before and it's

always resulted in being rejected or being

ignored, and that doesn't feel good.

I'd rather just not risk The

embarrassment. Maybe I'll try again

tomorrow after I've had a good night's

sleep, had a shower, freshened up. I just

feel so tired. I'm covered in sweat. I

feel kind of disgusting. I've got a

pounding headache from the beer, so I

don't feel my best. Maybe I'll try

livestreaming tomorrow. Maybe we could go

somewhere. And I'll just livestream it.

Or I could livestream myself walking

around at 2 AM in the night, see if we can

find any drunken people. That might be

I feel tired. I think I'm going to go to

sleep. So see you tomorrow.