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i'm shitting myself about going to Japan (i might delete this)

2017-04-02 · 5 min

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    So I just wanted to make a quick video

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    about what's going on with my girlfriend.

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    It's not going well. I'm kind of worried,

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    to be honest. I'm slightly shitting myself

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    because there's not even 10 days left

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    until I have to go to Japan, and I don't

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    know what's going on with her. She's

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    hardly even talking to me. I thought she

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    forgave me for what happened last time a

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    few days ago, but we just haven't been

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    talking much, and every time I try to talk

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    to her, She just replies with a really

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    short, blunt kind of cold answer.

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    And she takes ages to reply now.

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    Sometimes she won't even reply until the

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    next day. And I have no idea what's going

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    on. I just sent her a message asking her

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    what's going on. How come you're not

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    saying much? And I was really worried.

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    Should I send her this message or not?

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    Should I just not say anything? But I find

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    it really difficult to control my emotions

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    in times like this. And I

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    wrote like this long, long text message to

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    her and I said, is everything okay? How

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    come you're not talking to me? What's

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    going on? And she just said, she said

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    something like, everything's kind of

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    overwhelming right now. Everything's going

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    wrong. It's just like really vague, this

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    really vague answer. And I don't really

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    understand what any of it means. I said,

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    What do you mean everything's going wrong?

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    What, what's wrong? And she just said

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    everything. I don't know what everything

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    means. Is it because of me? Is something

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    going on in her life? Is work going wrong?

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    Is something happening? I have no idea

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    because she's not saying anything to me.

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    It's like she's just shut down all the

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    lines of communication and she's just like

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    shut me out. So I have no idea what's

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    going on. I have no idea if I've done

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    something wrong. It's— I just feel like

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    she's completely ignoring me. But I feel

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    like I'm, I'm close to making this mistake

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    of thinking that it's all about me, that

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    I'm the one who's causing all these

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    problems for her. But maybe it's not all

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    about me. Maybe there's something else

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    going on in her life that she's not

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    telling me about, that I have no idea.

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    And I'm just— I'm not really sure what to

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    do. Maybe I should stop messaging her.

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    Maybe I should just leave her to cool down

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    a bit. But it's just so

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    hard just to ignore her and leave her

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    because I want to know what's going on.

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    It's killing me inside. I want to know

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    what's happening. I want to know what's

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    wrong with her. And it's kind of

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    frustrating that she doesn't feel like she

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    can talk to me about it. If we're in a

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    relationship, if I'm in a relationship

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    with someone, I want them to feel like

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    they can be open with me, like we can talk

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    about things. How are we supposed to

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    resolve problems if If one side of— if

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    one person in the relationship just shuts

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    down completely, what am I supposed to do

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    about that? I did ask her a few days ago,

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    are you sure you still want to meet me?

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    Are you sure you still want to be in a

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    relationship with me? Do you still like

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    me? And she said, yeah, I still like you,

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    I still want to meet you, but I

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    don't know, it just— it doesn't feel like

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    that. It's like, I don't know what's going

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    on with her. Maybe she does still want to

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    meet me and she still likes me, but

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    there's so much going on in her life right

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    now that she's too busy, or she's too—

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    she's not in the mood to talk to me. It

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    felt like everything was going so well

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    just a few weeks ago, and then suddenly

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    all of this came out of nowhere. The

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    silent treatment, the getting angry at me

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    because I didn't notice that she was tired

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    because she was hiding the fact that she

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    was tired. And then all of this is

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    happening just 2 weeks week before I have

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    to go to Japan. It's like, why is this

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    happening now? Why couldn't it have

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    happened 4 weeks ago? Then there would

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    have been time to solve this problem. But

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    I just— I'm starting to panic a bit,

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    and it's kind of worrying because I

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    don't know, I feel like this is slowly

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    driving me crazy. I can't think about

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    anything else. I can't concentrate on

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    anything else. I tried doing some drawing,

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    but I just can't get into it. I'm just

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    repeating it over and over in my mind.

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    What's wrong with her? What can I do to

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    fix this? Should I not do anything? I'm

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    just so scared she's gonna say something

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    like, sorry, I've changed my mind, I don't

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    want to meet you anymore. And it kind

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    of feels like it's heading in that

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    direction. Maybe I'm just being overly

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    negative, or I'm worrying about

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    this too much when it really— it's not

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    that much of a big deal. But it

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    really feels like a big deal right now,

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    and I can't— I can't get my mind off it.

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    I just really don't want to make the

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    situation worse, so I think that for now

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    it's better if I don't send her any more

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    messages because she obviously doesn't

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    want to talk to me right now.

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