I hate my coworker

Hey, and welcome to another video. So

someone asked me in the comments what my

goals and aspirations were, and it really

helps when you ask me questions like that

because it gives me an idea for a video to

make. Sometimes I don't have any ideas of

what kind of video to make. Sometimes I

don't really have like a particular story

that I want to tell. So it really helps

when you ask me questions in the comments

because I can make a video about it. So

what are my goals and aspirations? I guess

I have 2 main goals in life. The first one

would be to find a job, to find work

that I enjoy doing, that I want to do.

And the second one would be to find

someone that I can love and who loves me.

Working at the petrol station has really

made me realize that I can't stand working

with people and I can't stand dealing with

customers. What I really want most in life

is to have a job that I can do on my own,

working at home, Or anywhere, as long as

it's by myself and I don't have to work

with people in a team. This is actually my

second attempt at making a video for

today. Last night I kind of had an

argument with my coworker and he swore at

me. I've been under a lot of stress

recently, mainly because of work, and as

you can see, I've started to get a lot of

pimples. I think that's related to the

stress. I don't know if you guys want to

see that super negative video. It's

basically just 10 minutes of me moaning

about how much I hate my coworker and how

much I hate my job. And I think I'm

actually gonna quit in April because I

just can't take it anymore. I can't stand

it any longer. It's just, it's driving me

crazy. I just feel physically exhausted

and mentally exhausted. And the main

reason why I really want to quit my job in

April is not only because I can't stand my

coworker, it's also because I want to move

away from doing jobs that I hate. I want

to start focusing on doing things that can

lead me to work that I can enjoy and do

by myself. I just really don't want to be

spending 8 hours every night at the petrol

station. I've been getting a lot of jobs

on Fiverr. I've already finished about 5

translation jobs, and I really want to

focus on doing more translating work. I

also want to focus on improving my artwork

and adding more illustrations to my

portfolio. I also want to focus on this

YouTube channel because I really enjoy

making videos and I make a bit of money

from it and there's always the potential

for it to grow bigger and bigger. I also

have a few webcomics that I started a few

years ago that I haven't actually updated

for a long time and I'd like to continue

making those webcomics and try and finish

them, try and get to the end of them

instead of just leaving it uncompleted

halfway through. So I just feel like I

have a lot of things to be doing, a lot of

things that I want to focus on. And it's

really difficult to concentrate and focus

on those things when I'm working full-time

at a petrol station and it's really

stressing me out and, and I really just

want to quit the job as soon as I can so I

can focus all my time and efforts on doing

things that I'm interested in, things that

are important to me. So if you're

interested in seeing my webcomics, I'll

leave all the links in the description. I

also made a new YouTube channel which is

just for my artwork for time-lapse videos

of me making artwork.

What are you— She just hissed at me!

That cat is such a little shit. She just

randomly hisses at me from time to time.

I don't even do anything mean to her.

It's not like I beat her or anything. She

just hisses at me. She's not like this

cat. This cat's nice and friendly. He

always sits on my lap. Anyway, what was I

talking about? Oh yeah, I have a new

YouTube channel just for drawing and

artwork, and it's called Drawing in My

Room. I'll leave the link for that in the

description as well. So those are my goals

right now: to finish my webcomics. I also

started a new webcomic which is about

introvertedness. I also want to build on

my YouTube channel. I want to focus on

translating work. So there's so many

things I want to do, and I just don't want

to be wasting a third of my day at this

bloody petrol station with this cunt of a

car— no, wait, I can't say that. Edit that

out. Edit that out. The original plan was

to go to Japan in April just for a few

weeks and then come back and then go back

to work and then work until at least the

end of summer and then quit then after I

had saved up some money. But to be honest,

I don't think I can even last until the

end of next week. I'm just so exhausted

and fed up with this job. I wanna— I want

to quit as soon as possible. I want to

quit right now, to be honest. The thing

is, I have to try not to get fired until

at least April, so I can get my April pay

plus my holiday pay. If I quit now, I'm

going to lose out on quite a lot of money,

I think. So I've just gotta grit and bear

it until at least April. In my current

state of mind, I'm just thinking of going

to Japan and then not coming back until

July. If I go to Japan and I end up

staying there for 3 months like I used to,

then it's going to be difficult to

concentrate on doing things like my

webcomics or translating or even YouTube.

So I think I'm just going to stick to the

original plan, just go for 2 weeks and

then come back and then concentrate on my

little projects. So yeah, those are my

goals and things that I'm working on right

now. If you want to check any of it out,

I'm going to leave all the descriptions in

the links or the links in the

descriptions. I'm going to leave that

really negative ranting video at the end

of this video. So if you don't want to see

that, just stop playing the video now,

click off, and close this down or

something. It's a really negative video,

and at the time I was kind of emotional

and pretty angry, so a lot of the things

that I say in that video aren't based on

logic or reason, but based off of my

emotions from that time. So you've been

warned, don't watch that video and then

start complaining that I'm really negative

and I just moan about everything all the

time, because That was kind of the whole

point of the video. So yeah, see you

later. Bye.

I don't think I can do this anymore. I

want to quit. I was talking about quitting

in summer, my job. I don't think I can

last until summer. I want to quit right

away. So last night I was on my break at 4

AM. I always take a break at 4 AM for

about 10 to 15 minutes, and then my

coworker came in, the bloody coworker that

I absolutely hate. He comes in, he says,

are you just gonna sit there playing on

your fucking phone or you're gonna do some

jobs? And I had no idea what he was

talking about because I had finished all

my jobs. He was still running around doing

stuff. I had no idea what he was doing.

But in general, I have my jobs I do and he

has his jobs that he does. And when I

finish my jobs, I don't help him finish

his jobs because he doesn't help me finish

my jobs. The other coworker, the

Bangladesh guy, he always helps me finish

jobs when I've still got things left to

do. But this coworker who swears at me,

he doesn't. He just goes and sits behind

the till. So I do the same, and I always

take a break at 4 AM. So I don't know why

he was so angry at me. It seemed like he

was pretty busy. I still don't really

understand what he was doing. He just

looked like he was rushing up and down

doing nothing important. And I'm

getting sick and tired of being sworn at

by him. It's like the 3rd time he's sworn

at me. And it's really irritating. And I'm

not a confrontational guy. I'm not the

kind of person who stands up for himself.

That's why I was such an easy target to be

bullied. You know, sometimes I wish I was

more like Eurasian Writer and I could

swear back at him and tell him to fuck

off, but I just don't see how that's gonna

help the situation. Sure, it would help me

feel better. It'll help me feel like I'm

standing up for myself and not being a

pushover, but I don't really see how it's

gonna help things. It's just gonna make it

more awkward, and then he's gonna run off

to the bloody manager and moan about me,

and I might get fired. And to be honest,

I don't really care if I get fired at this

point. I actually wish they would just

hurry up and fire me, but I want to at

least last until April so I can get my

April pay and my holiday pay. So I

need to at least last for about 10 to 12

more days, and a few of those days I'm

going to be working alone. I'm just so

sick and tired of this job. The job itself

isn't too bad, it's just having to work

with this cunt of a coworker that I

absolutely can't stand. The problem is he

always tries to do everything 100%

perfectly that it takes him absolutely

ages to get anything done. It takes me at

least half the time to do— to finish the

things that he does because, okay, I do

things half-assed and I cut corners, but I

get things done to reasonable standard.

It's fine. It doesn't have to be 100%

perfect all the time. I really wonder how

he manages to work alone when we have to

work alone. How does he get all the jobs

done? Because even when we're working

together, he, he doesn't get all the jobs

done on time. Like, sometimes he gets

things done slowly, so he rushes around,

and then he gets irritated at me because

I'm not helping him because I'm sitting

there playing on my phone. It's not my

fault you're so slow and you couldn't get

all your jobs done. That's your fault.

For example, a few nights ago when I was

checking the bread for expiry dates, I

missed one loaf of bread and he had a big

go at me. He said something like, how come

you always miss the bread? How come I have

to check it again after you? How come you

don't do it properly? Do you need me to

show you how to do it again? And he speaks

in this really irritating, patronizing,

condescending way which doesn't make me

feel like saying, oh sorry, I'll try

again, I'll try harder next time. It makes

me feel like saying, why don't you fucking

do it yourself? I was so irritated last

night when he swore at me. I felt like

saying, if you swear at me again, I'm just

gonna go home and you can finish all the

jobs by yourself. I actually felt like

just leaving, just picking up my coat and

walking out the door. But I can't do that.

I can't quit yet. I have to at least hold

out for another 12 days. Just, just 2 more

weeks I have to put up with this, and then

I'm gone. I'm quitting. I don't even care

anymore. I don't care about the money. I

don't care about having a job or holding

on to the job. It's just not important.

The reason why I keep making mistakes and

I keep messing up is because I don't give

a shit about this stupid petrol station or

the stupid jobs. I don't care if I miss

one loaf of bread or if I miss one

sandwich. It's insignificant to me. It

doesn't matter to me. He'd be the kind of

guy who'd be perfect in the army because

he does everything he's told. He does

everything 100% perfectly. He doesn't

disobey orders. He doesn't break rules.

He's the kind of guy who'd actually enjoy

being told to clean out his rifle with a

toothbrush and a magnifying glass. You

know, even if they told him to jump off a

cliff, he'd probably go and jump off a

cliff. Sometimes I asked him, why do we

have to do things like this? And he just

says, because that's how everyone else

does it. Well, if everyone else ran around

naked, would you also run around naked?

It's just so frustrating having to work

with him. He's the complete opposite of me

personality-wise. And he just triggers my

anxiety so badly. I've actually developed

like a twitch here. It starts twitching

involuntarily every time I hear his voice

or I see his face. It's just— he really

sets me off. He really makes me feel

anxious because he's always watching me,

seeing if I make a mistake or if I slip

up. And as soon as I— as soon as I make a

mistake, he's there to start complaining

and moaning and start saying things like,

you're not doing it properly again. Do you

need me to show you how to do it again?

They're gonna blame you. And I said to

him, I don't care if they blame me. They

can blame me all they want, but they're

not gonna fire me. They're not gonna fire

me just because I make a tiny little

mistake. You're just overreacting all the

time. I just don't feel like this job is

important anymore. I've got more important

things to be doing. I've got Japanese

translation work coming in from Fiverr

almost every day that I really want to

focus on, and I've got artwork that I need

to be doing and working on. I've got a

portfolio to be improving. I've got

YouTube videos to be making and trying to

improve my YouTube channel. I just, I

don't give a fuck about this petrol

station job anymore. I just, I can't stand

it. And that's why he's getting angry at

me more recently, because I'm not even

trying anymore. I'm just doing things

really half-assed. I'm not even putting

any effort into trying to get things done

properly. So yeah, I can understand why

he's angry and, you know, I kind of have

to expect it now that he's gonna start

swearing more. But I only have to last

another 10 days and I'm gone. I'm never

going back there again. I'm never going to

have to see his stupid face again.

Working at this petrol station has made me

realize how much I hate working with

people, how much I hate dealing with

people and customers, how much— how

depressing it is having to work in a

shitty job, how important it is to find

things that you're interested in and work

towards that and trying to aim for a

career that you actually think you're

going to enjoy. I mean, this coworker,

he's been working there for 3 years now.

How can he stand working at a petrol

station for 3 years? Doesn't he have any

other goals or ambitions? Sure, I can't

really talk because I'm also working at

the petrol station, but at least I have

other goals and aspirations like my

drawing, my artwork. Translation,

Japanese language stuff, YouTube. At least

I have projects and goals outside of

working at that stupid place. He's the

kind of guy who just spends all his money

on alcohol and beer and cigarettes. He

tells me on his days off he doesn't do

anything. He just sits around his house

drinking beer, or he goes to the pub and

drinks beer, or he goes and meets his

mates and drinks more beer. And then he

tells me how his dad, like, sends him

money, like £1,000, and he'd spend it all

in a week. On beer and cigarettes. And the

first time I saw him, I was pretty

impressed because he drives a really nice

car. And I was like, wow, you can afford a

really nice car even though you're just

working at a petrol station. But it turns

out his dad paid for his car. It cost like

£10,000 or something, and his dad paid for

it all. Sure, you might think I'm a

spoiled little shit because I live with my

parents and I don't pay for food or rent,

but my parents would never give me £1,000

just out of the blue. My My parents would

never buy a £10,000 car for me. Sure,

they might lend me some money when I'm in

a tricky situation, like when I was in

Taiwan, I needed to borrow some money to

buy a plane ticket, but I pay all that

money back. They never just give me £1,000

or £10,000 out of the blue so I can buy

something I like. The thing I don't

understand is why he takes the job so

seriously. It's like he owns the place.

He acts like he runs the place. He's just

my coworker and he's always acting and

talking to me as if he's my supervisor or

if he's my boss. I honestly feel like he

takes the job more seriously than the

actual owner or the manager does. If it

was me and I had to work with a coworker

who was lazy and didn't do things

properly, I would just say, okay, you— if

you don't want to do things properly,

that's up to you. But if you get the blame

and you get fired, that's your fault. I

wouldn't be like Why aren't you doing this

properly? Now I have to do everything for

you. I wouldn't rush around finishing his

jobs. I'd just say, that's your problem,

it's nothing to do with me. I've showed

you how to do things properly. If you

don't want to do it properly, that's up to

you. But this coworker is like— he has

OCD. If I don't do things properly, he'll

go around after me fixing all my mistakes.

And it's not like the mistakes I make are

big mistakes, they're just really tiny

mistakes like I leave a can of beer in the

back that should have been brought out,

or I forget to check all the bread and I

miss one loaf of bread. And then if I've

made a mistake, I'll get a little message

from the manager the next day. How did the

manager know that I made a mistake? Well,

obviously because this stupid coworker

goes and tells her, doesn't he? Also, the

strange thing is, even if I'm working

alone or if I've worked with someone else

and I've made a mistake, then the next day

when he comes in, he knows I've made a

mistake. How did he know I've made a

mistake when He wasn't even there.

Obviously the manager told him, but how

come he and the manager are talking to

each other? He was at home. He didn't come

into work until that night when he was

working with me. So how did he find out?

It's like he's— maybe he's messaging the

manager, did Daniel make any mistakes that

night? Or maybe the manager messages him

and tells him all the mistakes I've made.

I don't understand. It's just— it's really

weird. So I'm sorry about the super

negative video. In conclusion, fuck my

job, fuck that guy. And, um, subscribe to

my new YouTube channel if you're

interested in drawing. I've made a new

YouTube channel dedicated to showing

videos of my artwork. It's called Drawing

in My Room. I'll leave a link somewhere

here in the darkness, and I'll see you

next time.