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I shut it for you. How about that,

bitch?

It's about the number of viewers you have.

Oh God,

why the fuck would I believe anything you say? You don't even have a channel, you know, you don't even stream. Well, how the fuck would you know anything about it? Stupid idiot.

Fucking disagree with me? You don't even stream. How the fuck would you know anything about anything?

Imagine thinking the number of viewers isn't what makes you money. Yeah, chat makes a bit of money. I don't know how much money it makes.

Stupid motorbike people about.

Great, got a little motorbike gang living opposite. Yeah, maybe I don't want to move back here.

Trust the spawn of the Travelers to start a little motorbike gang. Next thing they'll be drunk driving, smashing up cars, getting into trouble, just like their parents.

Apple don't fall far from the tree.

Yeah, the only way to make good money off this cake thing is if I got a stream like 10 hours minimum.

4th gen Travelers.

There's a documentary on TV about life in Thailand.

Guess what it's all about?

It's always about the same thing in Thailand— the sex industry, the party scene. The cheap living.

All these things are exactly why I didn't want to go back, because it's just like degen country, isn't it? Drugs, partying, prostitutes,

random sex with people, and then getting in trouble with the police.

How do you do the show? Yeah, they interviewed this Asian guy and he's quite buff looking and he's got a British accent. He said he was just there on a layover and he does TikTok and he makes like 10K a month. And I thought, that looks so lame. On the surface it looks cool. You got a nice

condo, infinity pool, blah, blah, blah, £500 a month. Yeah, but it's so vain, it's so shallow. Living like a concrete tower in a concrete jungle surrounded with all these vain people obsessed with going to the gym who think they're so smug because they're paying a couple hundred a month to live in a little shoebox in the sky.

They don't even drive a car, and they probably haven't seen nature or the countryside in years.

I just don't— I don't get the appeal of it anymore. Maybe I used to think, oh yeah, it's kind of cool,

but it's like some kind of weird dystopian lifestyle where you live in this country of degeneracy where it's just like prostitution and all the— all the foreigners there are just trying to live off of social media like TikTok and Instagram and doing YouTube.

All they aspire to doing is just trying to get views off social media,

and then they make a couple thousand a month, don't they?

No, nobody else's audio is glitching. It's just you and your shit phone.

Testing, testing, testing. Oh yeah, it's glitching. Uh, hold on.

Testing,

testing, testing. It was crackling a little bit.

Yeah, new iPhone's quite nice, I guess, but at the end of the day you just do the same things that you were doing on your previous phone. It's just slightly faster.

The camera is pretty damn good though. I took some videos of Pushkin.

It's weird because you zoom in and it's all grainy and noisy, and then it takes a second and it clear— it like denoises whole image and it looks really clear. Look,

really crisp.

Where's the sound?

The low light is really good. Look, it's all fuzzy and noisy and then it clears it up using some kind of software.

I don't think Pushkin likes crying. That— I got him on camera.

It wasn't me.

He just knocked it away. It wasn't me.

It wasn't me. It's Pushkin.

He knocked it all off the table. I keep missing the beginning. It wasn't me. No, no, no,

it wasn't me. It was Pushkin.

Got a nice photo.

Let me zoom in.

A really good image quality.

And this is in low light as well because it's quite dark downstairs.

Yeah, camera's really good.

Come on, focus.

I'll try to get some footage tomorrow,

although I should probably go out and do Uber Eats because this money is really, really bad. I really need to get back to streaming all day, or at least 6 or 8 hours.

I made £16 in 2 hours. If I did 8 hours, I would have made £64. It's like 2K a month.

Yeah, you start slacking with the streaming, then my income really drops.

It really is a quantity over quality kind of thing.

Yeah, so I either have to go back to 12-hour streaming shifts in Devon, or I combine Uber Eats with a short stream, like 5 or 6 hours. 5 or 6-hour stream plus 5 or 6-hour Uber Eats. And maybe that could make up for the loss of a 12-hour stream. It's more like 6 hours, but you got to

do Uber Eats, which is actual work,

for a shorter amount of work to make the same amount of money. Or you just do it the lazy way, which is just barely moving or talking in my house all day long. It's like slow and rubbish pay, or slightly better pay but a bit faster to get it over with.

It will stream doing Uber Eats.

Yeah, out of all the delivery gigs, Uber Eats is probably one of the easiest. You might just have to do 3 or 4 deliveries per hour. Because it's like you sit around 5 minutes, you get McDonald's, you pick it up, deliver it, you get back to the McDonald's. That will take 15-20 minutes. Probably do it through an

hour, and then you get paid like £5 or £6 per delivery. It's a lot better than doing hundreds of parcels.

Do my own projects, like what?

I mean, I could have just strained myself making the iPhone videos, I guess.

I don't really know. I mean, iPhone video is not getting any views. I thought I'd do a gaming performance video and then a why I hate my iPhone Air

and call it a day.

Call it a flop.

Yeah, sometimes you get tips too, which kind of makes it a bit more exciting to do Uber Eats because you get that random number generator thing. With Amazon, I've really never got any tips. And sometimes doing Morrisons, they'd give you a couple pound coins. One woman gave us £10 note.

Stream Rainbow Six? I don't play Rainbow Six. I don't play any games anymore apart from Mario Kart a little bit.

I don't really do anything all day. Today I was just messing about with the iPhone,

and then I went down for dinner for 2 hours.

Oh, is the audio crackling again? Fucking hell. The only way to fix it is by restarting the phone.

Is it really that bad?

Testing. Testing. Oh, yeah. I don't know why the only way to fix it is if I restart the phone. Hold on.

Testing. I thought I'd just use the iPhone whilst I wait. The quality is going to be rubbish because I'm using the free version of the app on iOS. So this is the iPhone, uh, what, iPhone 12? For an error.

And now it's making me watch an ad. What's the audio like now?

Testing.

Is it working now?

This is using iRail Pro.

I didn't fix it, I just switched apps. I couldn't even get iVCam to open. Now it keeps doing gray screen for some reason.

Testing. The Wi-Fi is really weak.

I don't know why I'm getting such low bitrate.

Maybe someone's downloading something.

I don't know.

Bitrate is really bad.

That's probably what was causing— maybe I'm downloading something on Steam by accident.

No,

I can't even stream properly. No,

well, at least the audio is fixed, but now the vis— the visuals are fucked.

I think that audio crackling Had something to do with the lag, maybe.

Seems okay.

Just a lot of gray screen.

Ah, that's really annoying.

Okay, what about now? I'm back on IV cam. Testing, testing, testing,

testing. It's still doing the audio crackling.

It's still doing the audio crackling. So it's either audio crackling or gray screen flickering. Which one? Do you prefer—

the other bed was from the guest room, used to be by the window. Don't know why they brought it up here.

I don't know why the internet's kind of rubbish at the moment.

Change it back. Oh, okay.

Testing, testing.

I don't know why it keeps flickering the gray screen on and off.

I'll put the bitrate down as low as I can.

So the guest bedroom just has what it had before but minus one little bed. It still has the double bed.

So the

audio is fine, but now the video keeps flickering gray for some reason.

I don't know why the Wi-Fi is really weak. There's some kind of storm outside. It's really windy.

It's barely getting 250 kilobits.

What if I stand next to the Wi-Fi box?

Oh, you got not enough room in the window.

Meow, meow,

meow. I can't leave the stream. I don't know why the internet has always been shit at my mom's house.

My internet at my house is perfect, never had any problems. I've always had internet problems at my mom's house.

It's just— I don't know what the fuck it's doing now.

Streaming over Wi-Fi. I don't have 5G.

What I could do is

do my little trick. I did this trick when I came back from Japan last year where I put my phone up on the window and then it got connection with the 5G tower.

So if I put my phone up there,

it might get a better connection,

and then I connect to my phone hotspot. Instead of the house Wi-Fi.

See if that's better.

Is it any better?

Seems like it's better. Oh, I jinxed it.

What if I do 3 mobile instead?

If I put 3 up there,

isn't it up there?

Seems I've got 2 bars of 4G on 3 and EE.

The bar is not getting anything really.

Mm-hmm.

Oh no, fucking hell. Barely making any money and now I can't even get the fucking stream to work.

The Wi-Fi was working fine yesterday. I don't know why it's being shit now.

It's really windy outside. I don't know if that affects it or anything. Usually when there's a storm, it kind of fucks up the internet unless someone's downloading a big file. I don't know. It can't be because I'm using my data and it's still rubbish.

This is not really any better than the house Wi-Fi. I'll try the house Wi-Fi again.

My house Wi-Fi is really bad.

I used to get really good signal by putting my phone up there. When I came back last year, I did that.

It had to be up higher, up high here.

I shut this window,

put this phone up here,

and then I switch it.

See, having lots of phones is pretty useful.

I don't think that's any better.

Don't know.

This internet's rubbish. Simple house Wi-Fi.

Well, at least you can hear me. I guess that's all that matters.

I'm back down to 50 viewers.

It's over.

And I can't even get this stream to work, probably.

Whoa,

what are you doing, Pushkin? Silly cat.

Making a tunnel.

Look, I don't know why cats love going under things like a dark box or something.

What if I turn off my data?

Yeah, anyway, I was talking about Thailand. There's a show on TV about it showing how cheap it is. Why is he scared? He's like scared of the vape or something. I held up the vape and he ran off.

That's weird. He looked straight at the vape and ran off.

Yeah, so I was just saying that whole condo lifestyle in Thailand is boring.

All these people do, they just go out at night and party and bang prostitutes. And I think it's just a bit of a sad life. Maybe it's cool when you're young, but when you're getting near your 40s, it just seems like an empty, vapid lifestyle, doesn't it? It's like living in Amsterdam,

surrounded by drugs and prostitutes. It's not really very cozy.

He doesn't like the smell of vapes, but he likes the smell of his butthole. Okay, makes sense.

He likes the smell of disgusting putrid cat food but can't handle a bit of strawberry mint.

I thought maybe the iPhone Air would be better because it's got more advanced modems, but I guess not.

Yeah, I feel like these people, they're just like broke losers living with their parents at home. And then they go to Thailand and they're just running away from reality. And then they cope by saying, oh look, our rent's only a couple hundred a month.

And then the presenter of the show was like, how come prostitution is illegal but they let it happen in open sight, but then people overstay their visa by 2 minutes, they get thrown into a detention jail. Yeah, cuz it's all corrupt, isn't it? They just want to make money. All the police standing outside the brothels obviously getting

paid by the owners of the bars and clubs. They want to make some money.

The police even blackmail you. I mean, they bribe you. You got— I mean, you got to bribe them I keep getting the word bribe and blackmail mixed up, don't I? I remember I made that video about the single mother girlfriend and I said she was trying to emotionally blackmail me when actually I meant emotionally manipulate me. I

remember Joy then pointing it out and I thought, yeah, I chose the wrong word. Sometimes I do that and then people misunderstand what I'm trying to say because they're stupid. I felt kind of miserable in Thailand because you don't feel like you can go out because it's so fucking hot all the time. The food is shit. I

had a girlfriend, so I didn't do the whole partying, nightclubbing stuff. So I don't even think I would like to do that. I tried it in Japan. I did not— it was a horrible, miserable feeling

missing the last train, being drunk, having no girls.

And then back to a lonely room all alone with a terrible headache.

And I felt like I couldn't do anything else apart from do content creation. And obviously, as you know, my content creation

attempts are not going very well. Never really gone very well. I tried to make Thailand videos, like best places in Thailand, they never got any views. Maybe I should have tried TikTok. It seems easy. People just post some stupid clip of some weird food and get a million views, make 5K a month.

I try, I'm bothered. I don't even want to do that.

And then you got to go around outside pretending to be all enthusiastic about random stuff in Thailand.

Just don't care. You can't drive a car. I mean, you could, but who would want to in Bangkok?

It's also pointless.

But I like having a car.

I've gotten really hot.

I don't know what Wi-Fi I'm using now. I'm back on the S10 Plus, which is not any better, but That's a cosplay, maybe.

That's the problem with this area. If the Wi-Fi is not doing good, you can't really rely on your data. I mean, my house is also the same, I guess. Signal's not great, but it's better than this.

Yeah, also the other problem with this setup is it's streaming to the Norwegian server and then coming back here, which is why it's glitching out more, whereas iVCam just goes straight to the laptop, but then the audio sucks. You know what I could do? I could plug in my mic and use iVCam.

But then I've got to hold up my mic.

Maybe I'll try that.

Test, test, test. So this won't do the gray screen thing, but the audio now crackles, doesn't it?

I'm so uncomfortable.

Why they do this to my fucking room? So fucking uncomfortable. Fucking getting annoyed. Hitting my head on this stupid metal bar.

Fucking bedroom supposed to be comfortable. I'm not fucking comfortable. Pain in my backside, pain in my head.

Fucking bedroom's supposed to be comfortable.

Audio is rubbish.

Ah, so irritating. I can't find anywhere comfortable to sit in the house.

I've never been so uncomfortable in my own bedroom. I leave for 9 months and it's, it's like sitting in a torture chamber.

Going to fucking rage in a minute and flip the bed. Oh, smash up my whole room. Getting really pissed off.

This whole fucking house is like a dump. There's stupid bits of furniture everywhere. Really stressing me out. I miss my house. Nice and clean and tidy. I don't know how you could live like this. I don't know how. You just have bits of furniture all over the house randomly with no thought to layout or design or anything.

And then people say I'm untidy. What a joke.

I hate these metal bars. They're so uncomfortable. What's the point? It's supposed to be a headrest. Well, I'm supposed to rest my head on a metal bar. What idiot designed this?

The whole bedroom is just taken up by stupid beds. Yeah, I mean, yeah, it's got a bedroom, isn't it?

It doesn't mean the whole room is supposed to be full of beds.

Put 2 single beds in a tiny bedroom like this, it's ridiculous.

Worse than Apple Host— it's like Apple Hotel room again.

Oh my God, I'm so annoyed. Nice comfy chair out there, there's no room to put in here.

I managed to do push-ups, but go diagonally like that in the room.

There's no room on the sofa because it's full of people and a baby. I can't use any of the other rooms. My bedroom is like a tip. Every time I come back to my fucking room, it's a fucking tip. After I leave it in pristine condition, I come back to it and it's like this. Why the fuck

would you put double beds in here?

Stupid fucking room. Irritating.

Supposed to sit on the bed like that.

My sister's room never gets messed up.

My sister's room's always untouched, always just how it was when she leaves. And when I come back, my room's fucked up, turned upside down. When I came back from Japan last year, oh my God, there was everywhere just rubbish all over my desk. Like, they took all my stuff out my drawers and tipped it all out. Why

can't they just leave my fucking room alone? Fucking irritating.

Not even any nice food as well. It's just like leftover scraps of curry and rice.

Some lasagna thing doesn't even have any meat in it.

Testing,

testing.

These are the worst headrests ever.

Look.

My favorite food? I don't know.

Um.

Fish pie, maybe?

I mean, I guess I missed— I was here too late when the food was made. I guess they made all the food a couple days ago when my sister arrived, and then it's just leftover scraps in the fridge from then. They'll probably make new food tomorrow, but yesterday and today I just had leftover curry

and bits of lasagna,

and then it's just kind of like sort yourself out.

I had a Rustler's burger for lunch.

Gonna make like £30 today.

I gotta do an all-day stream tomorrow.

Maybe I start around 10.

Really good. My finances really been hit hard.

Oh my God, the stream yesterday only made $15.

The YouTube stream.

Oh my God, at least today's Kick stream made $22.

YouTube shit.

It might go up to 20 after it gets a few more views, but it won't be much more. Probably max out at like 25 after a while.

YouTube's over.

Without any Super Chats, it's just not going to be able to compete with Kick.

Oh shit, I just smashed my iPhone with the S10 Plus.

Imagine I can't send it back. The annoying thing about this bed is it rattles.

Only averaged about 95 viewers on YouTube. It peaked at 140, dropped down to 90-ish.

So it's not like I'm getting way more viewers on YouTube, and per hour makes way less. So it made $6.50 per hour, whereas Kick made $11 per hour.

But the thing with YouTube is even if I did 10 hours, it wouldn't translate to 6 per hour.

Because I've got a very small pool of viewers to draw from and it's capped at a certain point.

Like, I mean, 3,000 people is 3,000 people. If 3,000 people watch for 10 hours, it wouldn't make more money on YouTube. You get more watch time. I don't know, maybe it would.

But not the same as Kick. Kick pays per hour.

Yeah, I, I thought things would get good when I come home, but now it's hard because now I can't— I mean, I can, but then I'm trapped in my room the whole stream. I can't potter about,

and this room is so uncomfortable. To sit in.

My light's broken.

Only nice thing is Pushkin comes,

comes and sees me. Not really, he just comes to sit by the window. Doesn't give a fuck about me, does he?

He likes my room for the same reason I like it, cuz you get the best views out of the driveway, so you know if someone's coming. I like the lookout Watchtower kind of location. Pushy-wushy. Meow meow. Stupid cat.

Zero affection.

He doesn't even— I mean, with Mr. Meow Meow, I stroke him and he looks really happy to see me. Like, he rubs his face on me and he purrs. Pushkin doesn't do any of that. I don't even know if Pushkin likes being stroked. Look, you stroke Pushkin, he just looks pissed off all the time. He doesn't rub

your knuckle, he gives you a little sniff.

He doesn't seem to really like anything. He doesn't— there's no reaction. Like, you stroke his chin, he doesn't do anything. Like, he doesn't stretch out his neck. I don't think he even likes that.

He doesn't seem to like anything.

Look, no purring or anything.

Oh, he is purring a little bit.

He's very non-reactionary.

He's such a boring cat.

Why are you so boring?

Dry and cold as fuck. Dry AF.

Maybe he likes that.

Doesn't even— most cats like that on the neck.

I miss Toffee. He would come up and cuddle with you.

I miss my red gamer chair. It was so comfy.

Kick stream earlier made $22 for 2 hours 20 minutes.

YouTube made $15 for yesterday's 2-hour stream. $15,

and it was slightly longer than the Kick stream. It was 2 hours 40 minutes.

It's not really the same. It's quite a bit less.

Dark times indeed.

Yeah, all my stuff's in Devon.

Why would I bring all my stuff here and then go back?

Yeah, I made $10 an hour for the 2 hours. I need to do 10 hours, make $100.

I don't know,

I feel like I'm just as bored here as I was in Devon.

But now it's just very uncomfortable.

I guess we go to Uber Eats and see if that changes anything. But yeah, I really— I could not imagine moving back

because I would want to get this bed out. The fuck up my room. And then my mom would be moaning about it. She'd be like, oh, oh, why you come back?

I don't know why it puts bed in my room.

See, one of the benefits of having your own place is you can arrange it however you want, and I can arrange a house better than anyone in my family.

Not bragging, I'm just saying that I think I have best style and taste and best ability to make a comfy room. Than anyone

because I keep things simple. I don't clutter.

My bed in my Devon house is so comfy. I've got that big green back pillow. I don't have this stupid metal bar. I've got a nice wooden bed. My bed is so comfy to just sit there and sit back.

Yeah, I have seen my living room because I live in it, dumbass.

Yeah, so what? There's a minion on the wall. Doesn't make me uncomfortable, does it?

Also, I didn't buy the minion, did I? One of you idiots sent me a stupid minion. I don't even like minions. When have I ever liked minions? The hell am I supposed to do with a minion doll apart from fuck it?

I didn't ask you to send me a minion, did I? Just give me money.

How am I supposed to do with a minion doll?

Also, this pillow sucks. It's so flat. It's like a towel in a pillowcase. There's no firmness at all.

I've got a nice big sofa to stretch out on.

Oh, hey AJ. Yeah, I'm back at my mom's place. It's so uncomfortable. Look at my bed.

I've got nothing to rest my head on. This pillow,

it's not comfy. Like, look,

they put a second bed in my bedroom, so now I don't have space to put my chair in front of the desk.

Also, I got the new iPhone, but it's kind of boring. It doesn't do anything special or new that my 12 mini didn't do. It's just a bit faster and the camera is a bit nicer.

Move the bed where? There's nowhere to move it.

Every room is packed full of junk. It would only fit back from where it came from, which is the downstairs bedroom.

You always have the new phones. Yeah, I'm a phone enthusiast.

I got my Switch, but I don't really feel like playing it.

I've got the brand new ultra thin

iPhone Air.

Pretty nice.

You know, the game controllers vibrate. Did you not put it on your willy when you were a kid and put the vibration on?

Yeah, me neither. That's just weird. It didn't really do much anyway.

And then you got the most boring cat in the world that just stares out of the window of darkness.

He just sits there with his back turned at you.

At least Mr. Meow Meow meows at you and comes up to you.

Come on, Pushkin, do something, we're bored.

He always seems to turn his head at you. Turn his back at you.

He was such a cute kitten as well, and he turned into a boring adult.

Oh, so uncomfortable.

Maybe the cat's depressed as well.

Finance has taken a massive hit by not streaming enough.

I saw they have electric planes now. James May was flying in one. It could fly for about an hour, then it's got to go down to charge again. Rubbish.

I can't take a break from streaming. I've had a break. I took 3 days off nearly.

I've made not even $50 since yesterday.

I got bills coming. I can't get any YouTube views.

Endlessly streaming is the only way I can make any money.

I can't just make— I wish I could just make a video and it'll pop off and get like 100K views.

It's either kick slavery or get a job.

I've only got Sun— Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday for the Thursday payout.

Even if I made £100 a day, that's like £200

for Thursday payout.

Oh God.

Oh Jesus, maybe

if I made a, a targeted strike video I could make $15 or $20 if I get the right topic.

Yeah, I don't know, things are tough.

Yeah, iPhone's on a 3-month payment plan. I'm gonna send it back though.

It's just not worth it. It is nice, I guess, but it's a luxury I can't afford.

Nice screen.

Yeah, I think the regular 17— iPhone 17 is better because it's £200 cheaper. It's got a wide-angle lens.

Oh look, Pushkin found his pillow. You found your pillow.

Yeah, I wanted the Air because it looks cool and it's thin and it's got the A19 Pro chip, not the peasant A19 chip. Look, he's scared of my vape. Look.

Why is he fascinated by it?

He ran off earlier when he, when he saw it.

Yeah, maybe he heard noise.

He's so fidgety. You can't just sit still in one place.

You want a peep?

Why is he saying that?

Whoa, what was that? Oh wow, thanks, Nicholas. Very generous.

He's such a big cat, he would destroy my neighbor's cats in a physical altercation. Oh, there's purring now. Do you like that?

I think the Flip 7 is way better than the iPhone Air. Number one, it flips. Number two, it's got wide angle. Although the Air is way more powerful on the benchmarks. It's got a way stronger GPU.

Yeah, well, who does gaming on a mobile anyway? I've got my Switch 2 for that.

Oh look, he does like his neck stroked.

Look, he's so fluffy. Imagine being covered in all that hair.

He's got like a lion's mane.

Why I hate my bedroom.

Flicky ear.

He's got such a chunky head compared to Mr. Meow Meow.

Pushy push.

I like the black around his eyes, like he's got mascara on.

It's kind of noisy as well. I can hear the traffic outside from the A20. In my Devon house, it was dead quiet.

But my dad made a really nice conservatory, way better than the conservatory in my house.

My dad made a very nice conservatory, I have to give him credit where credit is due.

I don't know how you can possibly make a bedroom so uncomfortable.

I'm resting my head on a metal bar, look.

Why would Dave Gibson live here? He's got his own house.

Sometimes he stays a night or two.

Well, I use my bedroom just for sleeping too in my house, so I can go down into the living room.

Number one, there's no space on the sofa most of the time. Number two, I can't stream on the sofa because then people be like, oh, why are you streaming?

I can't stream in the living room.

Baby might start crying as well.

He seems pretty peaceful right now though.

Beelivery's dead here. I thought Beelivery would be more active here, but it's not. It's actually more active in Devon.

Yeah, coming home, I had different expectations, I think, about how it'd be like. I think my bedroom being wrecked is kind of Soured the mood. I was expecting a wide open floor space.

This bed in my room has really upset me, to be honest.

Upset me a lot.

It's the one little space that I thought I, I could call my own.

That's taken away from me too.

Oh, if you have too much nicotine, makes me feel sick, like I want to puke. It happened when I did shisha as well. I had too much. I wonder why.

It's weird, coming back here has made me kind of miss my house.

Although I do like Bristin, even though he is a bit boring.

It's nice he sleeps in my room.

Yeah, I've got very low tolerance for everything. I take one puff of weed and I'm high.

If I take more than 3 or 4, I feel terrible. I feel like my face is melting off. I have one beer, I get drunk.

I'm very

weak to substances. The

light doesn't even work.

After 25 years, the light bulb finally went out.

Actually, the light switch being there is really nice because you can sit in bed and turn the light on and off. My bed's supposed to be in the corner. My bed's supposed to be here. That's where I used to sleep.

I sleep like that.

No, I can't be bothered getting a light bulb.

Actually, the whole house is just full of lamps because light bulbs go out and no one changes the light bulb.

Downstairs there's like 6 lamps.

There's just lamps everywhere.

But it's nice when I put my head in between the bars like that,

a bit more comfy.

No, my mom doesn't drink.

She doesn't even eat. I didn't even see her eat dinner.

I swear I never see her eat anything half the time.

I'm a firm believer in having a proper dinner at dinner time. A full meal with carbs, meat, and some veg.

She doesn't seem to think that's important.

I actually hardly ever see her eat, like, food on a plate.

I think that's one thing I picked up from my dad. Dinner time always at 7 or 8.

There must be a dinner time. My dad was very rigid about that. Always 7 o'clock on the dot, he would have dinner

and then 2 oranges and a cup of tea.

I think it makes sense. You gotta have dinner. How do you not have dinner?

No, he didn't drink jasmine tea. He had normal tea, milk and sugar.

I've added my own Asian blend to it.

I don't know how you think this room's beautiful. It's an abomination.

Look at it. The whole room is filled up with the bed that's too big for the room. The hell are you talking about? How the fuck do you think this is a beautiful room? Full of junk.

Something wrong with your eyes?

Look at this table. It can't even fit in the corner where it's supposed to be because this bed's in the way.

Spirit's kind of down.

I can't make any money unless I stream all day,

but I, I can only stream in my bedroom. It's not like I can walk around the house freely streaming.

I can't mess about with food. I've got to sit in my room.

Can't go outside because the weather's shit.

I can't get any views to make video making worth it. I gotta stream insane hours to make decent money.

Bored out my mind.

Not even comfortable because this stupid bed.

Look at this bed, ugly thing. Stupidly high headrest that prevents you from resting your head. It's so high you can't lean back into it because your head just hits the metal bar. It needs that big green pillow thing I've got in my house.

The whole point of the headrest prevents you— I mean, the whole Headrest prevents you from resting your head. It's stupid.

No, there's nowhere else in the house I can stream.

Where?

Maybe in the guest room downstairs,

but what's the point? It's not any different to this room.

It's just another uncomfortable room.

There's no office.

Who would use an office here?

Guess house is occupied.

Okay, then what do you call that? It's called a headrest, isn't it?

Headboard? I don't know what even is the point of it?

You put the pillows up against it, don't you?

Do you remember that movie Bedknobs and Broomsticks where they had a magical bed and you twist the knob on the headboard or headrest And then it would time travel or something. I remember watching that as a kid thinking it was really cool.

Stupid idiots. Fucking idiots horning because they're too lazy to get out and open the gate.

Yeah, just blast your horn in the middle of the night, don't care about everyone else.

She's too fucking lazy to get out the car.

Although there does seem to be less cars going in and out of the compound recently.

It's nearly 11 PM. What do you mean not 10 PM yet? It's 10:50,

10:49.

Are those kids who are in the movie Are they dead as well? Because that movie must have come out in the '60s or '70s,

or was it '80s? They would be like 80 themselves now.

Had that man and the woman—

I forgot what happens in it, something about Portobello Road.

Don't they go to the bank? I forgot.

I just remember them sitting on the bed and it would fly through space or something, time traveling.

Ah, I get backache at the end of the week.

Yeah, it is kind of sad. Men have dreams, aspirations, but then they meet a woman

have kids. They would give up on their dreams, get a real job.

But that's called being responsible, and you get more happiness, I guess,

from being with the woman and having the kids than just being a loner forever trying to achieve this dream that just never comes true.

Just got to wake up to reality at some point,

or you just be stubborn and never give up. Even if it never happens, just never give up.

Everyone's so scared of being alone, they even abandon their dreams to avoid it.

The life of loneliness is pretty miserable.

But so is a life where you had to give up on your dreams and now you're doing something you hate, and then you fight with your wife and your kids hate you and no one appreciates you.

That sounds pretty shit too.

I'm here until next weekend.

You know, ever since my dad died, life at home has just never felt normal like it used to.

When my dad was alive, there was always this feeling of stability and routine.

Normality. My room was always

how I wanted it to be. Didn't used to have so many people coming in and out either.

I miss that. So much. The, um,

2010 until 2017 times

since he died, it's just the feeling, the atmosphere at home has always just felt like this constant state of instability.

Things keep changing, people keep coming and going.

Didn't feel comfortable in my own house anymore. That's why I kept left— lefting. That's why I keep leaving.

I miss those days, just, I don't know, in my bedroom, got the Total Biscuit Corruption Podcast on, I'm buying some crap off Amazon, making some silly YouTube video, not a care in the world.

I felt safe, secure,

and then it all fell apart.

Life was nice. I'd just buy some stupid camera off Amazon, go in the garden, mess about with it, come back in, put on YouTube, do some gaming, eat a pot noodle.

Do as I please, didn't get disturbed.

The house wasn't such a mess either back then.

The house just gets more and more full of junk and clutter. I don't even know where it all comes from.

Just keeps piling up.

Things stop breaking, don't get fixed.

My bedroom used to be so nice. My bedroom used to be the best room in the whole house because I kept it orderly.

Now look at it. Dump.

One thing I worry about is if I did move in with a girl, she just wrecks the place with all her junk.

Why do women do that?

Well in the stuff.

Another 2 hours streamed. That's another $20 in the bank.

That means I made $40 today. Easy money.

No, no one came over from YouTube.

My uncles left.

Which ones?

From where?

What, my neighbor uncle? Singular. It's not like there were 2 uncles living together next door.

I had one uncle living next door. He moved out,

so they would use the money to live off. And then rent a place and then move closer to their son.

No, I don't have uncles in the US.

My granddad's brother moved to the US and had kids, so I don't know what that is. Like uncle second removed, something like that.

I think when it comes to interior design, I don't think women are very good at it. I mean, look at Blood Bucket's house. Jesus.

I think women just love stuff. They just love collecting stuff and having it everywhere.

I don't think men are like that.

Men just like stuff that perform a function and don't get in the way.

Blood Bucket's house kind of gave me a headache, all the stuff everywhere.

I don't like stuff.

I only like having what I need, and if I don't need it, it goes in the bin.

And they love things covered in flowers for some reason. I don't get the flower obsession.

Flowery curtains, flowery wallpapers, fake flowers.

Flowers are nice and everything, but they should stay outside in nature, not printed on things.

Yeah, I like minimalism and clean aesthetics, not junk everywhere. But I mean, look at all this, giving me a headache.

No point tidying up if I'm just here a week.

I'll tidy it all up and then when I— if I come back again, it will just be a dump again.

I don't know how a room that I'm not in anymore becomes messier when I leave it. And come back.

If no one touched anything, it would have looked just as nice as when I left it.

Blood bucket style of interior decoration. Awful.

Not my cup of tea at all.

It's a nice house, but All the stuff in it would have to go if I was in charge.

You said you liked it. I don't think I did, but if I did, I lied.

She don't even watch my channel anymore. Whatever.

Do one more hour, squeeze an extra $10.

I'm gonna be busted back down to $5K savings at this rate.

Hmm, where are my tweezers?

Ah.

Oh, he's got drool on his chin.

Why are you drooling?

It's like he's got no neck.

Whoops, that accidentally closed the camera.

What is he teetering about?

The

kitty.

Probably take my gaming mat with me. I forgot to take it when I went to Devon. It's got a wireless charger built into it.

I'm gonna take my wireless mat.

I don't know if I'll take this monitor. I just don't really need another monitor.

Take that tripod and that fabric drawer.

This is my room.

I'm gonna pilfer a bunch of stuff. It's my stuff anyway, I paid for it.

Yeah, I don't know how to fix audio. I reset the phone, I switched app on and off.

Watch, it doesn't seem to fix it.

Is it better now? I don't

know what to do apart from turning the app off and on.

Let me hear.

Testing, testing.

Testing, testing. I really don't know why it does that. Let me switch to the mic then.

Why does that? Let me switch to the mic then.

Testing, testing.

Testing, testing. Okay, I fixed it.

Testing, testing.

I didn't really fix it, I just switched the mic to the plug-in mic. So now I've got to hold the camera and I've got to hold the mic. Oh, I just put the camera down.

Now I've got to hold the mic the whole time.

Because I didn't bring my mic stand.

I've got this little stand here, but it's so tiny.

I really don't know why it does that.

Testing, testing. Yeah, I pulled the cable out.

It's not really the proper cable for this mic, so it doesn't fit in there perfectly.

Actually, I lost the proper cable for it. I can't find it.

I took it out, shoved it in the closet, and then lost it.

Is the mic working again?

Now I've got to sit like this. It's not very comfy. If I accidentally tug it, it might come out again.

This is the cable for the iPhone Air.

Perfect. So uncomfortable on this bed.

No back support, no headrest.

No mic on.

I was surprised Blood Bucket came into that hotel room. I thought she was just going to drop off the bag and then go. She said she had something planned,

something to go to afterwards, and then she didn't go to it.

She was like, aren't you going to invite me in? And I was like, okay.

I thought she wanted

sex. But then she said, let's do a stream, so I said okay.

Oh yeah, if a woman comes into a hotel room, obviously you're going to have sex, aren't you? I think Blood Bucket and that German girl—

the only 2 times where a girl came into my hotel room and we didn't have sex.

That's the whole point of the hotel room, is to have sex in it

and then sleep. That's the only reason they exist, isn't it? What else are you gonna do in a hotel room?

All there is is a bed. There's only 2 things you can do in a bed: sleep and fuck. Isn't that right, Pushkin?

Mm-hmm. I don't know why I get this kind of weird, lonely feeling when I'm back home. It's like there's people here,

but you aren't really part of their life.

It's like,

hmm, it's hard to explain. I mean, this is why I always want a girlfriend, is because having a girlfriend or wife is the only way I get the attention I want.

Because, you know, family's family and everything, but they got their own lives and you're not really part of the actual life. I'm like

a faraway planet. You know, you got like the Sun and Earth, and then you got the faraway planets like Saturn and Neptune that are there, but they're not really part of the inner circle. It's just like distantly orbiting. I want to be like Saturn, but I got my own little moon orbiting me. Or I want to be

the little moon orbiting something big. That's why I always want a girlfriend. This is why you guys never seem to understand why I don't just get a prostitute, because it's not just sex that I want. I want attention as well.

That's why I started the YouTube channel, because I wanted attention. Now I'm not really feeling like I get it anymore. Stupid thing's dead.

You

know, I always feel a bit lonely when I come home.

It's not really my place to get involved. What am I supposed to do, like show up at my sister's house and say, hey, I'm staying with you guys? Weird.

They got their own lives. The hell am I supposed to do to get involved? Well, that's just weird. Like overly attached brother.

I've got to find my own life.

Stupid things to say.

It'd be weird if I was too involved. The hell kind of involvement are you talking about?

Okay, I'm blocking Chuff Weasel again. You always gotta disagree with me and try and invalidate what I'm saying with stupid fucking annoying arguments. I really can't stand you most of the time. You're muted.

I don't know why you try and be really annoying. Whenever you can? Like, does it give you some kind of pleasure or something to be as annoying as you fucking can?

You're just gonna make some stupid idiot argument. Fucking annoying.

I don't know why some guys, I, I want to be really annoying for some stupid reason.

And now the mic's off.

Testing, testing.

Yeah, stop doing that. If I'm saying I feel a certain way,

don't just go, oh, it's because you did this, because you did that, trying to blame me for feeling the way I feel. Shut the fuck up. It's fucking irritating.

I'm telling you how I feel. I'm not saying, oh, please blame me for everything negative that I feel. Get the fuck out of here, fucking idiot. I hate you. People like you really piss me off.

I'm just expressing how I feel. I'm not saying, oh, I don't understand why I feel this way. Of course I fucking understand how I feel this way. I don't need you to sit there pointing out every fucking thing I've done wrong. Fucking idiot. God, you're irritating. Fucking annoying, you people.

That's why I can't stand some of you. You're so fucking annoying, you people. Jesus fucking Christ. I don't know why you're so fucking annoying. I really fucking hate you sometimes.

Literally just say one sentence that I feel kind of lonely when I'm at home. And then he's like, oh, you're fine. You isolate yourself. Oh, you don't get it. Shut up, you fucking prick. Fucking irritating cunt. Fucking hate you so fucking much.

Okay, you're banned.

Fucking banned.

Get the fuck out my chat.

You want to be annoying, then you get fucking banned.

I can't ban because his name's not in the chat. Can you type something so I can ban you?

Ban, never unbanning, one of the most irritating people in the chat consistently.

Congrats, you're in the top 5 most annoying people in the chat along with TB, Moodooce,

Mummy,

Fucking gone. Get the fuck out of my chat. Always gotta try and bring me down and blame everything on me when I'm expressing my feelings. Get the fuck out of here. Fucking idiot.

Stupid dumb fuck. Piss me off over and over and over. Give you so many chances and you just piss me off over and over and over again.

The hell kind of involvement am I supposed to have with my sister's life? I'll like show up at her front door and be like, oh hey, you're moving? Shut the fuck up, you stupid fucking prick.

The hell kind of involvement am I supposed to have?

I have perfectly normal amount of involvement.

Dumbest thing I've ever heard.

Retarded thing I've ever heard.

Completely missed my point.

The point was, the reason why I want a girlfriend is because I get the attention that I want from that kind of situation that I don't get from my family. Because if I did, that'd be a weird family dynamic, wouldn't it?

Oh God, I hate that chuff guy so much. He's so annoying.

Oh, Jesus Christ.

He's always got to do the moral grandstanding thing, doesn't he?

Insufferable person. I can't fucking stand him. Oh mate, I think I actually hate him the most out of every— I think I hate him more than Gunnar Larsson, actually.

I think I'm putting him to number 1 viewer I hate the most.

Him, and then Gunnar Larsson, and then maybe TB.

Top 3 most irritating viewers. Irritating viewer tier list.

Jesus fucking Christ, you guys are fucking irritating.

Blame everything on me. Stupid fucking prick.

Get the fuck out of here.

Do people do this to your friends in real life?

Like, act like such massive pricks? Imagine you got a friend, they're just saying about something that makes them sad, and then you're like, oh, it's your fault, oh, you did it to yourself. You're such a fucking prick. I bet you're not like this to your friends, are you? Just like that to me.

Fucking stupid fucking morons.

Fucking hate you people.

Yeah, thanks for just making me feel even more shit. Fucking shit viewers.

Dumbass fucking prick. Never unbanning him ever again.

Stupid mentally ill fucking retard.

Badges revoked as well.

Badges all gone.

VIP revoked.

OG revoked.

Permanent ban badges all revoked. Fuck off, prick.

Okay, give Christopher OG. He's always nice.

I gave you OG.

You can have Chuffs OG.

That Chuff guy's so annoying. He's got a massive chip on his shoulder. He always thinks he's right. Always fucking disagreeing with me or trying to one-up on me or trying to tell me I'm wrong. Get the fuck out of here.

Argue with me about every fucking thing. It's

annoying. So irritating.

I mean, I wasn't saying that

I expect more involvement with my family. I'm just— I accept the way it is is the way it is.

And that's the reason why I seek out girlfriends and relationships.

And then idiots like, oh, it's your fault because you don't get involved. It's like, I fucking do. Went to the wedding, didn't I?

The hell am I supposed to get involved with a stupid idiotic comment?

Anyway, what was I saying? Basically, I was saying

that. It's like a male lion has to leave the pride to start his own pride, doesn't he?

Like, my mum has her own life and my sister has her own life.

It would be weird if I was heavily involved with their lives.

Be like that episode in Friends where Rachel dates that guy and like the sisters In his apartment all the time, having a shower at his place. It's just weird.

So my point was, uh, I still feel kind of lonely even when I come home.

I go down for food and stuff and talk a bit,

but I don't really do anything with my family.

What I mean is, it's like

everyone acts or moves independently, not as a group. It's not like a group movement. It's like everyone just does their own thing.

I feel like my family's always been like that.

It's not really been like a unified movement.

Also, sometimes I don't feel welcomed.

I'm not saying that I am not welcomed. It's just like this weird feeling I get.

It's like one example,

I think it was just before the wedding and they all got food and they were all eating it together in the tent, the marquee. But then they put my food in the house

on the table, like I was supposed to eat alone in the house whilst they all ate together outside in the tent.

It's just little things like that I feel sensitive to,

and I didn't feel like taking my food back out to the tent to join them.

It's like little tiny things I pick up on which probably are nothing, but

it feels like a big thing in my mind.

So I just ate my food alone watching the TV.

Oh, my mum used to do this thing when I was addicted to World of Warcraft. She'd bring my dinner up to the computer,

and it made me feel kind of sad, like I wasn't welcome to come eat dinner with the rest of the family and I had to eat my dinner alone at the computer.

I got angry at her because she kept bringing my dinner up to the computer, and I was like, why? Stop bringing my dinner up. I want to eat downstairs with everyone.

And then recently another thing happened last year in November for fireworks night. My mum and sister were gonna go watch the fireworks and they didn't even ask me if I wanted to come.

I had to basically invite myself and my mum was like, oh, I didn't know you liked fireworks. I don't give a shit about the fireworks. It's not the point.

The point was it would have been nice if you invited me. But they just assume that I don't want to come or don't want to do anything.

Like, they assume that I don't want to join in, but actually I do.

But I don't have the confidence to assert that I want to join in and be involved. But I don't— I'm like, not— I don't have the confidence to say it.

Yeah, because I got anxiety. Obviously I'm not going to be like, oh yeah, I want to come, can I come, guys? Now I feel like I'm not welcomed if I'm not invited.

Like, they just assume that I don't want to join and don't want to come, and actually that's completely not true.

I do give a shit about social stuff.

Yeah, and then I open up about this sensitive stuff and got idiots like Chuff attacking me, blaming me for everything.

Stupid fucking idiot. More annoying than TB.

It's like in Hey Arnold,

who's that blonde ugly girl who fancies Arnold? Like, she fancies him, likes him, but she pretends that she doesn't like him because she's embarrassed or something. It's like that. Helga,

I think her name is.

No, I like eating with people.

It's hard to explain. People just don't get it.

Why is he all sad now? Because I All I said was coming home makes me feel a bit lonely because, um,

everyone's got their own lives. And then idiot chuffery weasel says it's my fault because I don't get involved

and I isolate. So he basically starts blaming me, and then I banned him, and then I revoked all his badges. I don't know what is wrong with him. I'm showing a moment of vulnerability and then he attacks me. Fucking idiot. Now I'm in a bad mood.

Discord must be all gay if they're obsessed with my nudes that much.

Yeah, I'm upset.

The hell does I don't get involved with my family mean?

How

am I supposed to get involved? What do you mean

get

involved with what?

I did sit with them. I was downstairs for 2 hours. The fuck did you think I was doing when I ended the previous stream and then came back to this stream? What do you think I was doing for the 2 hours?

I was just standing here staring at the wall doing nothing. Obviously I went downstairs, had dinner, and sat with everyone.

I can't just follow them around all day like I'm stuck to their hip.

That are riled with stupid chuff weasel.

It's not my family's responsibility to,

um, give me the attention I crave. That's why I need a girlfriend.

Yeah, he doesn't like that sound. He doesn't like the whistling sound when I Inhale, suck the vape.

Look, that's weird.

He's scared of it. He's like looking at the vape now. Push again.

Maybe if I hide it.

Yeah, I deleted my Instagram.

I didn't block you.

Actually might regret the 18 days.

Oh, my voice hasn't gone.

I just got— I got so fed up. With having all this online footprint and profiles and this and that.

Testing, testing. The stupid cable keeps getting loose and coming out.

This, this cable keeps coming out.

This mic design is so bad. It's only designed for the official cable to fit snugly, and then you try and wedge another cable in there. It fits, but it doesn't fit in snugly. It keeps coming out.

I said I hate having all this social media now.

I don't want all these

Social media profiles showing all this stuff now.

Just won't disappear.

Who's this idiot spamming? Oh my God. Why'd you have to be so annoying?

It's kind of making me money though.

Oh wow, it's midnight.

Yeah, thanks, Chuff, for ruining my evening.

Really nice of you.

Crypt accepted your

request.

I added her on Facebook, but she ignored me.

Okay, I gotta ban this guy. I can barely see the chat now, it's full of spam.

Yeah, I might try do not buy iPhone Air, but it never works with iPhone. Maybe a why I regret buying it might work better.

The iPhone people are not

very easy to ragebait.

The most views I got with an iPhone video was just some comparison video.

Mudeus and chuff, definitely. 2 most annoying viewers,

both revoked badges.

Badges revoked and permanently banned. At least Mudoose didn't come back.

Yeah, Gunnar Larsson's annoying too, but he's, he's a pure hater, so I don't expect anything else from him. But when people are like kind of neutral but then they lean towards being annoying and hateful, then I get pissed off.

Because Gunnar Larsen's always been like that since day one, so I don't expect anything else really.

I don't hate you the most anymore,

TB. I put you down to like number 6 most hated.

Oh,

did I yank the cable again?

I don't know why some of you keep trying to neg me out.

Camera is kind of glitching.

Might go to bed soon.

I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow.

I'm conflicted because I feel like maybe I should make a couple more iPhone videos and then maybe I do Uber Eats on Monday.

Yeah, but I can't on Monday. I want to look at the stock market,

so maybe I should do Uber Eats tomorrow.

But I don't want to be in a negative mood if I'm going to go out. That's— being in a bad mood and driving don't go well together.

It leads to making silly mistakes.

I just feel pretty down.

Maybe I had

unrealistic expectations of how it would feel like when I came home. My room being in the state it is has not helped.

I'm very annoyed at the state of my room and how uncomfortable it is.

What did I expect? I don't know.

I don't really know.

No, I don't want to say anything because I don't want to fight over a stupid room.

Just— I'm a bit upset that my room got trashed.

I always had my room exactly how I like it.

Why the fuck are there 2 beds in here?

It doesn't need 2 beds in here. When the hell are there ever 2 people staying in my room?

All I wanted is my room to be how I remembered it. Fucking trashed.

How many damn guests do you have?

Whole massive house and they couldn't have slept anywhere else in the house?

I mean, you could just put a mattress on the floor

so the mattress was easily removable, and then a whole bed in here.

Now I'm so uncomfortable, I can't—

I can't sit down. I can't lay down.

Start telling them how you really feel. Yeah. And when I do that, it ends up in an argument. Which is why I keep my mouth shut. Well, I try to,

because it just feels like no one gives a shit about my feelings at the end of the day.

It's always like I'm— I've got no priority.

No one cares about how I feel.

And then when I,

when I voice express my feelings, it turns into an argument.

Now I've got to suffer backache. 'Cause I can't put my fucking chair in here.

Pillows are shit as well. The pillow is like a towel inside of a pillowcase.

I should have brought my own pillow.

Yeah, that's how I've always felt. I always felt like no one cares about me. That's why I always try and get a girlfriend.

My sister's room's always the way she leaves it. My sister's room never gets changed. Whereas always my room gets wrecked when I come back. How hard is it to just not touch anything in my room?

Yeah, when I came back from Japan last year, my room was in a complete mess. I spent all day reorganizing it. There's just cables everywhere. It's like they took all the stuff out of my drawers and just chucked it all over the table. I had to reorganize all my monitors, put everything back in the drawer. I don't

know why. Why are you going through my drawers and taking everything out?

Oh wow, thanks Christopher.

I'm very sensitive about my room.

I don't like it being messed with.

No one respects my opinion or even asks for it. No one ever asks for my opinion.

That's why I'm not moving out of my house.

I can't live like this.

I need my own space.

The original bed's still there. It's in the corner.

Look, that's my original bed. Perfect size for the room, and then there's another single bed in here that used to be in the downstairs bedroom, the guest room downstairs. It used to be in there, and it was fine in there for 20 years, and now all of a sudden it's in here for God knows what reason.

Yeah, Dave Gibson probably helped move the bed up here,

probably with the other David. I don't think a woman could easily lift this bed up. Definitely not my mum.

Definitely not my sister since she would have been pregnant.

No, I don't know if I'm gonna bother doing Uber Eats. What's the point? I don't want to move back here anyway.

I mean, so what if it makes extra money? What, so I'm gonna move here and live here again? No thanks.

Somerset's expensive. I had a look at properties. It's like £1,000 or more to get a semi-detached house. I do not want to live in a flat.

No, from my experience, letting people know how I feel doesn't fix anything. It just makes things worse.

That's what these explosive arguments come from?

Because I feel like no one cares if something upsets me. It's like, oh, Daniel, just deal with it.

Oh, Daniel, who cares if it upsets him?

Testing. This stupid cable keeps coming out.

Well, I'm gonna go to bed. Half past 12 now. Hopefully I made a bit of extra money. $35 plus $22 earlier.

It's just so hard to stream in this room. For long periods of

time.

I'm gonna get a hunchback.

Good night.