life updates

I— 哈。

Hello, it's me again.

Welcome back to new stream.

I've got beers.

It is one month In

the car. I can't believe how long it's

been.

Who's Tom?

Why do cars keep driving up and down the

road? Can't they go home? Sick and tired

of the traffic. I just want peace and

quiet.

Why is it so loud? Why has

it got to go as

it goes past?

Promise I have to have the door open for

this light to stay on 30 minutes. If I

shut the door, it shuts off the light in

like a minute.

Yeah, I mean, money-wise, life is

the best it's ever been. I've,

I've never made more money than I'm making

now,

which is good, I guess. But then it's just

like my whole life is just making money.

And, uh, I don't even get to use the

money. It all goes straight to my mum.

No, I don't know the minimalist Japanese

guy in Japan.

So sorry to disappoint you, but I

got this cool pocket knife thing.

But it's really hard to get the central

blades out without another tool, which is

stupid design.

Supposedly this is supposed to be a bottle

opener. We'll see about that.

So I predict I can fully

pay off my mum in about 86

days according— if plan goes to plan

according to the plan.

My mouth has been in so much pain the last

few days. It's finally healed.

I had this massive ulcer here and this

whole lip was swollen. So it looked like I

got lip fillers for like 4 days.

It's still slightly swollen, but not much.

And then I had this weird painful

lump on the side of my tongue, which

happens like once every 3 or 4 months.

I get— I don't know, it's like you can't

see anything on the tongue. I've got this

stupid spot on my nose now.

I'm so sick and tired of random areas of

pain on my face. It's either in

my mouth or it's on my face.

So I had this really painful lump on the

side of my tongue. I think it's vitamin

deficiency, so I started drinking these.

Uh, turmeric and ginger shots with vitamin

B12, and I've been trying to

drink more orange juice for vitamin C.

So I don't know why I get these weird

painful lumps on the side of my tongue.

It lasts like a week. That's finally gone.

Oh, it was so painful to eat food, and it

was so painful to talk. How many effing

cars are gonna drive past me?

Go away! My new

campsite is— the previous campsite

was better because it was peaceful. This

place, it never shuts up

with random cars until about 11 or 12.

Yeah, I'm still living in my car.

Um, the reason why I'm still in my car is

because I can make a lot of money here.

Um, and by living in the car, it saves me

having to pay rent. And also, I've stopped

paying for campsites because that was

costing me £20 a day, which would be like

£300 a month. No way, it's actually £600

a month. Jesus Christ, if I lived in a

campsite for a whole month, it's not that

much cheaper than rent like a house.

So I thought, if I'm gonna do this, if I'm

gonna live in a car It better be damn

cheap, and unfortunately campsites are

not cheap. It's a rip-off, really. £20 a

night just so you've got a field and a

shower and a toilet.

How do you live without a toilet? I just

go to McDonald's or the petrol station.

I was worried that— because usually I need

to desperately take a shit first thing in

the morning. My body has now adapted to be

able to hold it in. It's strange, isn't

it? The body can adapt.

So, it's like the body knows there's no

toilet nearby, so it's going to hold off

on the bowel movement.

Shower. I wash my hair using the bottle

method, and I use wet wipes for the

smelly areas. And then the rest of the

body doesn't really need washing. It's

like my stomach, my arms, my legs don't

smell. For my feet, I get Fairy Liquid.

I've been using this, and then I just

rub my feet with it and then pour water.

That does the job.

And then for the ballsack and bum hole and

willy I just— I use the soap in the

toilets and then pat dry with tissue

paper. So it's not really difficult,

actually. I used to think, how could I

survive without a shower? How could I

survive without a hair dryer? Uh, you

actually— you don't need a hair dryer. I

put on my heating in the car, the hair

dries, takes about an hour. Because the

heating dries out the air inside of the

car. So I mean, I fixed— whoa,

why did my chair just randomly move back

into default position? That's weird.

The first night I'd slept like this, I

was, I was really nervous. I didn't

sleep well. The next day I felt terrible.

But it's been about 10 days like

this now. I'm quite comfortable just being

here, sleeping better. The mornings

are tough though. I've had to take these

shots because it also acts like an energy

drink. Uh, so I feel so groggy,

and then I've got to drive to McDonald's

to get my coffee.

Um, sometimes I put the self-driving on

just because I feel a bit— I don't know,

like, um,

I'm not fully awake.

Still need a piss bottle. I got one.

Wee in the bottle. It stinks

so bad. I thought I spilled it in the car

because my car really stunk, but it turns

out I just stepped on dog poo and then

stepped in the car and there were maggots.

On the floor mat, and then I had to stop

and then get all these tissues and wet

wipes, and I fairy liquided all the foot

pedals because I stepped on those as well.

It was disgusting. I was

like, what's that smell for shit? It's not

So, I sent my mum £2,000 last week.

She asked me when I'm coming home. I said,

I can't come home. I'm making too much

money here. If I go home, I get really

lazy. People don't understand. They're

like, why doesn't he just go home and live

rent-free and get free food and free

electricity at his mum's house? Uh,

number one, I'm doing my mum a favour

because now she doesn't have to pay for my

food. All my car's electricity. I'm now

paying for it myself. I've taken burden

off of her, so I'm looking after myself.

Number 2, when I'm at home, I feel really

lazy because it's a really nice house,

really comfy. I don't have the motivation

to work hard. But when you don't have a

house, I mean, there's not really anything

to go back to, is there?

So your whole life is just work, isn't it?

I'm getting so annoyed with the sound of

traffic. Why don't these people go home?

Stop fucking driving.

Uh, it's artificial.

What is? No,

sometimes you have to put yourself in a

position where you have the best,

um, the best motivation and the best

efficiency. It's like when you're

studying, you're not going to study at

your mate's house with the music on and

everything. You go to a nice quiet

library, and then seeing everyone else

study kind of motivates you to study

harder.

I've also managed to completely do my

whole morning routine without getting out

the car because it's been raining

recently. You see, the light turns off so

quickly if I have the door shut.

What was I saying? Yeah, I was worried

that When the weather gets bad, how am I

going to do everything inside the car? I

figured that out. Um, I don't make coffee

anymore because it was taking too long,

so I just get a flat white at McDonald's,

£2. I also— I can get a free coffee at the

petrol station for charging my car. The

problem is I don't charge my car in the

Will I rent a house? So after

I finish paying my mum back, which I

predict is going to take 86 days, which

would put us at the end of November, I am

seriously considering applying for some

houses. I've been looking for houses now,

but there aren't any that I like. The

thing is, if one pops up that I really

like and I don't take it now then

I'm gonna lose it. So either

the house I want never pops up and I stick

to the plan, or the house I really want

pops up and I have to take it, and then

I'm gonna be shedding out about £1,000

a month. But if I'm making £6K, making £5K

instead and having a house might not be so

bad. There's a few areas I

have my eye on that I would really like to

live in, but they don't have any

availability. Let's see if this bolt

opener works.

It doesn't even work.

Ah, what?

No, what if I

use the pliers? Oh, oh, I squeezed my

finger in the middle of it like that.

Really? Why do they make these? I thought

they had like twist caps.

I really should just buy a bottle opener

at some point.

I thought this was supposed to be a bottle

Oh,

oh my God, why do they make

it so hard?

I don't know where my screwdriver's gone.

I try the fork.

No, I've already got to buy a bottle

Oh, I got it, I got it, I got it! The

pliers, pretty good, didn't break the

bottle this time.

Mmm, smells like a mixture of weed and

armpit.

Um, I don't know what I was saying.

The cars driving by really distracted me.

I'm not saying what I'm doing to make

money. Every time I talk about What

I'm doing to make money, people trying to

ruin it for me.

Job at the sausage factory.

No, I'm not buying a house.

Here comes another one.

So the problem— the problem The

problem with buying a house is when I—

here comes another one.

The problem with buying a house— fuck's

They drive so slow as well. Oh my

God, someone's pulling in!

Oh, thank fuck. I thought he was gonna

park right in front of me. He pulled in

and drove into the woods. I didn't know

you could drive in there.

So what was I saying? The problem with

buying a house is when I break up,

when I get dumped by a girlfriend, which

happens a lot, believe it or not, I don't

like being in the same house anymore. It

makes me depressed. The memories,

everything reminds me of her. I want to

get out of the house. The If I buy a house

and then get a girlfriend, she moves in,

and then we break up, which let's face it,

at this point it's guaranteed to happen at

some point, I don't want to be in the

house anymore. But if I own the house,

then I'm kind of stuck with it. And yet,

or I could rent it out. I can't be

bothered. I don't know how to do that.

At least if I rent a house, easily ditch

the house if I don't want to be in the

house anymore. When I broke up— when I got

broken up with the last time, I felt

so miserable in that house because

everything reminded me of her. And I

left the house like 2 days— when was

it? I think it was like 4

days after the official breakup.

I couldn't be in the house anymore. And I

went back to my mum's house, and I was at

my mum's house for like a month while

still renting the house in Devon. I just—

I couldn't be bothered to go back to the

house. There was no point going back to

So I was How many fucking

cars are there? Oh my God,

3 cars coming now.

One slow bitch at the front and 2

tailgating behind. So they're

doing like 40 on the 60 road. I can tell

how fast— what was I saying?

Yeah, so I was never at the

So she would come to the house and then

she'd leave, and,

uh, and then I would go back to my mum's

house, and then I would stay at my mum's

house until she wanted to meet again,

and then I'd go back to the house in

Devon. It was so dumb.

Basically, the house was just like a fuck

pad at that point. I'd rather

be at my mum's house than in the house in

Devon.

So without a girlfriend, it just felt I

never had a reason to go back to the

house. So obviously I left, I moved

out of the house, and then now I'm back in

Devon. But now I don't have a house, so

then it's like, we should have kept the

house then. Yeah, but I didn't like the

house. The house is in the middle of

nowhere. It was too big for one person.

It was, um, too expensive and

not worth the money.

I think if I get another house, I want it

to be on the outskirts of a town, not like

in the middle of the countryside.

So I mean, the whole thing's kind of funny

because I left Devon because I was lonely

and depressed, and then I came back to

Devon, and it's like, why did I come back?

Or why did I leave in the first place?

And now I'm looking at getting a house

again. Sorry, it's like I shouldn't left

the first house then. Now the next house

will be better because it'll be cheaper,

smaller, in town,

not council tax band C. It'll be like

council tax band A, hopefully.

You don't need a house right now. I don't

need a house, but if I got a girlfriend,

I need a house because where are we gonna

have sex? You can't— I mean, if she's okay

having sex in the car, great, but most

women are not going to be okay with that.

Maybe they would do it once to please me,

but I don't— I mean, I would love to have

sex in the car. It'd be great.

But you really need a house if you're

gonna have a girlfriend, because most

women here don't have their own houses

unless they're like 40-something.

Why go all the way west to Devon when you

could have gone east? There's not really

much east to my mum's house. It's pretty

east already, and I like Devon.

I'm familiar with it. I know some people

here. Um, rent is way

cheaper here. Like, you can get a house

for £900, but in Kent it's like £1,200

How close to the road are you parked? I'm

basically right next to the road. Why not

get an apartment? Because I don't want to

park my car on the street. I need a

driveway. No way am I parking my car on

the street.

Have you made any friends in this spot?

Yeah, I got Spanish girl and I got van

girl and Keith.

Why is there so much traffic? Oh,

it's half 9 Friday

Why did I disappear from YouTube? Because

I was in a happy relationship and

I thought my life was getting better. I

had a house, a job, a girlfriend that I

really liked, and then I lost the

girlfriend, and then I lost the house,

and then my life just turned upside down.

And now I, I want to rebuild that life,

but not whilst having massive debt,

because I was so stressed out because of

the debt, and I was stressed out because

of money, and I wasn't able to— I wasn't

able to—

I wasn't able to fully focus emotionally

on the relationship because I was, I was

too stressed out with money.

And I did some really stupid

things because I didn't think before I

spoke. I think it's

because I was just stressed out with work

and money, like the debt thing,

and my monthly expenses were so high and

I owed my mum so much money.

You know, I want to sort that out first

before I get into another relationship.

I hate owing my mum money. My mum keeps

saying, don't worry, don't worry, pay me

back as much as you can whenever, no rush,

which is great and everything, but I don't

want to To owe my mum money, it makes me

feel like a loser.

Makes me feel pathetic.

I'd rather owe thousands of pounds to the

bank or the credit card than to my mum.

Oops, I keep pressing the brake

pedal and it resets the chair.

Uh, now I turn my headlights on by

accident. Lights off.

So yeah, I don't, I don't like owing my

mum so much money because I feel bad about

it. So I'm like aggressively attacking

the debt. I've got it down to £19,700.

I'm gonna send off another £2,000,

I think, next week.

Hopefully— hopefully I'm gonna send off

£5,000 end of the month.

And get it down to 15,000.

I got it down from 25,000 since July,

so I've gotten it down by 5,000 in the

last few months. When do you think you pay

it off? I reckon in 86 days.

I've also got 1,780 in stock.

At some point I'm gonna sell that. I'm

just hoping it goes up a bit more first.

I'll use that as like a bit of a boost,

but I don't want to use my boost now. I

want to strategically use my boost,

um, at the best psychological point

because I don't

really have any savings apart from that

money that's in stocks.

Close the door, then the light keeps

turning off. How much do you make a month

these days? My current projections are

£6,200 a month.

Get a lamp. Yeah, that's a good idea

How long will you keep making 6K? I don't

know, depends how long I

can do it without burning out.

Uh, 86 days is long,

but I just want to get it over and done

with quickly. And then I still got to save

up £6K for the tax bill in January, which

is like 5 months away,

so I need another £26K basically.

It's going to take fucking ages.

It's going to take ages, and I got nothing

to look forward to apart from getting rid

of the debt. Every day is the same.

I got like nothing that really excites

me or like something I'm

really looking forward to.

Mentally, it's tough,

but I have to do it. Now is my best chance

whilst I have no girlfriend, whilst I

have the ability to live out my car. It's

now or never, because if I get another

girlfriend,

I was barely able to pay back my mom any

money. Whilst I was in the relationship

because I was missing out days of work.

I was missing out maybe 5 to 6

days of work every month, which was losing

me income that I could have made,

plus spending the money on the dates, all

the activities. And then I had the house

and I had bills. I barely had any money

left over every month even though I was

working myself to death.

But now I've got no girlfriend and no

rent, so this is my best opportunity to

make progress on this debt repayment.

Is this my last chance at love?

Um, no. I mean, people— women are looking

for partners at all ages,

and I think out of all the women I dated,

the best partners were the older ones.

Maybe they weren't the best looking ones,

maybe they weren't the ones with the best

sex, but as partners they were always the

best. Like, they were committed,

they, they put up with a lot of my

shit without dumping me, gave me a lot of

chances that younger women just don't.

Like, the young— the younger the women are

the less tolerance they have for some

reason. I don't know if it's a personality

thing or if it's something that changes as

they get older. I feel like the

younger the woman is, the higher her

standards can be. The older

the woman is, either she becomes maturer,

more understanding of men, In combination

with just not really having,

um, the leverage to demand high standards

anymore because she knows she's getting

old and she knows the only thing she

brings to the table is her looks, which

are deteriorating. So as I get older,

I will date older women and be

okay with it. I mean, I've always dated

older women. But I wasn't really happy

with it. I mean, like, who— no man really

wants to date a woman who's 10 years older

So when I'm in my 40s, I will date women

in their 40s or late 30s. Right now,

because I'm still in my late 30s and I

still look young, I can easily get

girlfriends who are in their 20s. Like

late 20s. The problem with women in their

late 20s is they know they

are attractive and they can easily get a

better man, so they don't put up with

shit. They're also

much more immature. Um,

like they have all these demands, but they

don't really understand themselves why

they want those things or demand those

things. I think

as they get older, they, they probably

have realizations or become

more understanding with age.

I mean, if I'm in my 40s, I would be okay

dating someone in their late 30s. Or 40s.

I just wouldn't want to date someone in

their 40s when I'm still in my 30s.

So maybe my dating life will be better

when I'm older. Who knows?

It's just I don't want to be in massive

debt. Living in my car at that point.

I want to clear my debt. I want to start

building savings, become cash positive,

have somewhere to live so she could move

in with me. You had

cereal with BB? Yeah, but I didn't date

her, did I? It's not like I'm gonna date

blood. When she's 20 years older than me.

Yeah, I mean, it's tough

dating women in their 20s. Yeah, they look

good. They look the best they're ever

gonna look. But they,

they're just gonna— if like you slip up a

couple times, they're just gonna dump you.

You know, the crazy thing is, is like I'm

suffering so much, like every single

fucking day I feel like I'm dying.

Like I feel I'm dying inside.

The last 4 months since the breakup, I

just— I've been feeling like, like it's

like torture.

It felt like death.

I keep thinking that, how, how's life

going to get better? Where's the light at

the end of the tunnel? How am I going to

get through this? It's so fucking hard.

And then you think, how can they— how are

they able to do this? How are they able to

just so easily walk away? Like,

they, they seem fine.

Like, oh, it's over, I ended things.

That's it.

But how are they so strong?

Like, was it more special to me— for me

than it was for them?

How many fucking cars are gonna fucking

drive past me? Fuck off!

I can't concentrate on what I'm trying to

Yeah, what I was saying is like, I'm dying

inside every day. I'm miserable.

And then it's like they just ended things

so easily. Like,

how, how can they not— what, they don't

miss me at all? They've got no desire at

all to see me? Not even a little

bit?

But how are they so strong?

That's what kills me inside, is that— is

knowing that I'm hurting so

much and like they just moved on so easily

like it was nothing.

Like it was just canceling its Netflix

subscription.

So if they wanted to, they could see me at

any time they wanted to, but they don't.

I'm the one who got dumped, so I don't

have a choice. All I can do is just

sit here and suffer and endure the pain.

So how, how do they do it?

Here comes another one.

Faster.

When things ended with faster,

it just ended. She didn't beg.

She didn't blow up my phone. She didn't

text me loads trying to fix things.

She just accepted it.

And I was fine with that because, you

know, I was the one who ended it.

Yeah, in that, in that case, I ended it,

so I was okay with it being ended.

But in this situation, I would— I wasn't

the one who ended it, so obviously I'm not

okay with it ending.

So I'm like, just, I'm suffering

every fucking day. Fucking chair. Why does

the chair keep moving itself? This didn't

used to happen.

I think when a woman likes you, it's

because on some level they respect you.

They look up to you, they think you're

cool. But when they,

they don't respect you anymore, They

basically think you're beneath them. They

think that they are better than you.

They think you're below them.

I find that insulting.

How can they possibly think They're better

than me.

How? How are they better than me?

How? Every criticism

that has been laid upon thyself,

I can make against them, straight back at

them. Everything I've been criticized

for, I can say, hey, wait, you did it,

you did this too, you know.

But they have the power to end things.

Because they don't like what they saw,

even if they do the same things

themselves.

That's what pisses me off, is,

is getting criticized for something that

the critic does themselves.

You aren't better than me. You ain't shit.

I make more money. I had,

I had 2 houses. I got a better car.

And you think I'm beneath you?

Really?

You ain't shit.

You have more debt, so I

have the earning power to destroy the debt

if I focus all my power.

Onto it.

Your exes don't have explicit videos of

them circling the internet. Oh really? Oh

really?

That's what you think?

The problem is, women can dump you for

things they don't like, even if they do it

themselves.

Like, a woman cannot like a man because

he's immature, but then act immature

herself. And it's okay.

I mean, yeah, it's fine. It's within her

rights.

Plenty of men are fine with having an

immature girlfriend. Plenty of women are

not fine with having an immature

At the end of the day, they're the ones

who get to decide, don't they?

I don't think any man ever dumped a woman

because she was too immature or too

The only reason that I want to leave a

woman is if the sex was like really bad,

or if she scared me

and I felt like my life was in danger. If

she had dangerous family or she was

dangerous herself, then yeah, I'd probably

It's like Venus Angelic genuinely scared

me because she's got a history of

Crip's dad was, was a murderer. Yeah,

when I found out about Crip's family

history I was completely put off because

I was scared. Like, I didn't want to piss

her off and then have her murderous family

coming after me.

Do you think you are better than them?

Yeah. I mean, what do you mean by better?

Better at what?

I don't, like, I don't see how my exes are

better than me in any way.

How— who— how are they better than me?

Now, unless they make more money or have a

better house or a better car then I

don't see how they're better, or like

they're physically way more attractive

I'm not trying to brag here.

I'm not trying to brag or anything, but I

don't think I've ever dated anyone who I

would say is physically more attractive

And then if you factor in the age

difference, like, they've got youth on

their side. I, I'd love to see what they

look like. At age 37.

Because don't

forget, I'm 37 years old.

I'd love to see what they look like at 37,

because even at their prime I rate

them 6 out of 10 at best.

I mean, my score is probably not very

high. Like, I wouldn't give myself an 8

out of 10 or even a 7 out of 10,

but I think my score

remains stable.

Over the years,

whereas other people might start off as an

8 out of 10, but then over like 5 years

they go down to like 6 out of 10.

What do I think my score is? I give

myself a Hmm,

let's be realistic.

Um, I'd give myself a 6.2 out of 10.

The thing that lets me down is my body.

My body is very skinny. That is the

problem. Oh yeah, my skin's not

great too, but I don't really think the

skin's a big problem.

I think my main problem is my, my body is

too skinny.

No, I'm a 6.2 out of 10.

I mean, if you look at all the other

people out there, there's some fucking

weird looking people.

There's some, there's some weird fucking

looking people out there.

Who is weird looking? Oh God,

like anyone with a massive beer belly,

for starters. Beer belly,

like elephant trunk looking legs.

Varicose veins. I saw this one

guy, his nose looked

like a goblin nose. It was like all red

with pimples all over it.

And then there's balding— there's like

beer belly, balding, elephant trunk leg

Obviously I look way better than they do.

Have you seen my nose? My nose is fine.

I actually got a compliment saying my nose

looks great from all angles, if you

I got ID'd when I bought my vape.

I still get— at age 37, I gotta show my ID

to buy a vape.

You think it's like people don't think I

look older than 25? That's crazy.

Or if I go on dates, the girl's like, I

can't believe you're 37, you look like my

age in, in your 20s. Clear skin

doesn't matter.

I've seen some bad skin.

There was this girl working at the KFC.

Jesus fucking Christ,

covered in pimples, like white pimples

about to burst. My skin's nowhere

near that bad.

Yeah, if I had a normal-sized man's body,

I would look much better, but it's

just tough being a skinny guy that

struggles to put on weight.

I personally don't really care about the

girl's skin as long as it's not awful,

like covered in spots that are going to

burst.

My height?

175, probably like 178 when I'm wearing

shoes.

I was drinking a lot of beer in Thailand.

Because it was so refreshing. I was

getting a bit of a fat belly.

You remember people calling me Daniel Gord

because my face was like getting really

fat in Thailand? Yeah, that was weird. As

soon as I left Thailand, my face— remember

I was doing all the walking in Japan?

People were saying, oh, my face is

becoming more chiseled again.

You would be an A if you lose the glasses.

Yeah, so I mean, it's not my— it's not my

looks that are bringing down my looks.

It's the things I have on my face, like

glasses. I mean, my glasses aren't part of

my DNA, are they?

Better now?

But I mean, my point was I feel personally

insulted that when

you get dumped, it's because they now

think you are beneath them,

when I'm not. I'm not beneath no

one, bitch.

You're beneath me.

How the fuck am I beneath you, fucking

loser?

She said that? No,

it's just implied. That a woman only likes

you because she thinks you're at least on

her level or above it.

She dumps you because she now sees you as

below her, which I

take as a personal insult.

So now I'm like thinking, how can I make

myself better? Do I— I mean, I'm making

more money now than I've ever done before.

Okay, great. I'm driving a

better car than 90% of the cars on the

road. Great.

My biceps still bulging

even though I haven't been working out as

much. I've tried to, like,

I, I lift my dumbbells on the side of the

road, which feels a bit silly.

I do have a refillable vape. I take this

bit out and buy a new bit. This bit.

Work on not being a terrible person. I'm

not a terrible person. I'm a good person.

Okay, riddle me this then. If doing

good deeds doesn't make you a good person,

because I've done plenty of good deeds,

then how come doing bad things makes you a

bad person? Yeah, didn't think of that,

did you?

I do good things all the time.

When I saw the bread, I saw bread and

chocolate fell on the floor in the shop,

and I picked it up and I put it on the

shelf, and the staff thanked me.

I gave money to homeless people.

I let the disabled people go in first,

and I let— I gave way.

I do, I do nice things all the time.

So answer me this, if doing bad

things makes me a bad person, how come

doing good things doesn't make me a good

person?

You still park in the parent and child

space? How do they know

that I don't have a child? How— why are

they just assuming that I don't have

children?

Maybe my wife and kids are waiting in the

store and I'm just park in the car waiting

for them. Why is it every fucking

person who sees me park in the fucking

cars, why, why do they always bitch

and moan at me because I park in the

child-parent space?

How do they just assume that I don't have

a wife and kids in the store?

I swear to God, next time someone gives me

shit for parking in the parent-child

space, I'm gonna say, how do you know I

don't have a wife and kid in the store?

Yeah, how do you know? You're just

assuming that I don't have a wife and

kids. Based on how I look.

Oh wow, thanks Summer, very generous.

No, I didn't get fined, but I've had

several people bitch

at me because I parked in the child-parent

parking space.

But they never say it to my face. They

always say it as they walk off.

Oh, you're parking in this parent-child

space then. Yeah, I will.

Who are you, the car park police?

What? I never brought hookers to my wife's

home. The fuck are you talking about? So

sick and tired of these stupid fucking

retards. Saying I did stuff

that I never did. There's one thing saying

that I came on my family's laundry and

put it back in the laundry. No, I never

did that. Shut the fuck up.

People on Reddit are so stupid.

It's like I, I eat McDonald's once and

then Or

they say, oh, he never wipes his ass after

shitting. I did that.

I do something. One, uh, good people don't

make fake statements to create

an animo against the ex because the bitter

and jealous and angry.

In this— in the statement that was made to

create Mo in the first place Most of it

was bullshit. This is what some of the

statements said. He, he got angry

and destroyed our furniture and became,

um, violent in front of me. I never

fucking did that.

I shouted and I swore and I What

did I do? I threw a tennis racket on

stream when I was by myself. I never did

that in the presence of anyone.

She said he would often destroy our,

our possessions and furniture and get out.

No, I fucking didn't. I never fucking did

that.

Fucking lies.

And then another thing that was in the

statement was something like, he got angry

and threatened me when I said I was gonna

spend time with my family. No, I didn't.

What a load of bullshit.

That's why when I got served the NMO, I

was saying, oh, this statement's a load of

nonsense. And then the police arrested me

for breaching the NMO for saying that.

When the rules of the NMO never

said I couldn't talk about the NMO.

The NMO rules were saying, do not talk

about this person online, do not go to

their address. I didn't do any of that,

and they still arrested me and said I

breached it. No, I fucking didn't. I

didn't breach anything, which is why they

dropped the case.

Do good people receive NMOs?

Yeah, when the ex is not a good person.

Yeah, the police brought up things viewers

said about her. I didn't say them.

How's that my fault?

I'm the victim, if anything.

I got falsely accused for a bunch of stuff

I never did, arrested for

a bunch of bullshit reasons that were

dropped because they were bullshit reasons

that the police knew themselves wouldn't

hold in court, which is why they didn't

proceed with it.

I got accused of rape threats which I

never made, and then I had

to live in stress for 6 months. Whilst

they kept postponing the, the return to

station date.

So unfair. I suffered all that emotional

pain and stress because she made up a

bunch of lies.

Women will happily lie and twist the story

to make false police reports. It's fucking

insane. And then they don't suffer any

consequences.

It's sickening.

It is sickening that people would go to

such lengths and tell lies just

to get some stupid petty revenge.

That's what I'm saying. People in this

country are so petty. They can't let

things go. They always go get their stupid

little fucking revenge, and when they

can't get it, they go running to the

fucking police.

Like, maybe you don't think I'm a good

person, but at least I don't start

twisting the story and going to the police

with false reports. That's, that's low.

Couldn't win and get your way, so you had

to resort to that.

It's pathetic. I don't twist anything.

How many fucking cars are there?

God damn it,

3 cars.

1, 2.

You know, the other thing that annoys me

is being accused of putting on an act

and faking a persona,

and then they, they literally did the same

thing.

So, if someone tells you a story and

you didn't find it funny,

but you pretended it was funny anyway,

and you just laughed along with it whilst

secretly in your mind you thought, oh, I

didn't like that. Is that not an act?

Is that not acting?

Because it seems like an act to me.

How can you criticize me of putting on an

act when they did the

same fucking thing?

It's two-faced. Like, I'm telling a story

of something that happened during my day,

and then you're like, oh, haha, lol,

those, those stupid idiots, they're so

dumb. And then I'm thinking,

oh, this is nice, they're agreeing with

me, they found my story funny. But then

secretly they,

they are resenting me because of the story

I told. That's fucking two-faced.

That's an act because you're

pretending to find my story funny and

then secretly not finding it funny.

And then criticizing me for it later.

That's fucking fake and two-faced.

What story? It doesn't matter what

specific story. I mean, I tell a lot of

stories about people I encounter during

the days.

That's what annoys me.

I don't like being criticized for

something that you do yourself.

It's called being a hypocrite.

Like, if you didn't find what I said

funny, then don't pretend it was funny.

Because I'm gonna think, oh, you found it

funny, I'll do more of that.

Damn, it's really hard to stream it.

Everyone has some hypocrisy. Yeah, I know,

but the infuriating thing is when they

won't admit it.

They won't accept responsibility or take

accountability that they also did the

things that they're criticizing me of.

That's what pisses me off.

It's like, I don't know, like criticizing

me because I complain about my mum whilst

you also constantly complain about your

own parents for some reason.

Anyway, I'm just like really, really

bitter about things right now.

I mean, if you're gonna criticize me

because I treat other people badly, then

you better not treat anyone badly

yourself. You better be treating everyone

you know the best,

otherwise who the fuck are you to

criticize me?

Where am I living now? I'm in the UK.

Keeping score isn't the way either. Yeah,

I know. I know it's all pointless,

this whole trying

to defend myself by pointing out your

hypocrisy and the bad things you've done.

In the end, it's not going to change

anything or make things better, is it?

It all just falls on deaf ears.

I mean, like, what would I hope for?

Maybe some self-awareness.

At the very least, just admit it. Like,

say, yeah, I,

I harshly judged you for these reasons

even though I do the same things. That was

my bad, then I'd be like, okay, cool,

at least you see it. But they don't, do

they? Because in their stupid fucking

minds, they can justify what they do,

because in their minds,

they have a legit reason for what they've

done, whereas I don't. I'm just a dick.

I'm a cunt. I'm not nice.

Do you genuinely believe you're a nice

person?

Um, I've done not nice things.

Does that make you not a nice person?

Because then doing good things should make

you a good person, shouldn't it?

Why, why does doing not nice things make

you not a nice person, but doing good

things doesn't make you a good person?

Nice things you do don't get credited.

Because they'll say, oh, that's what any

decent person would do. You don't get to

claim credit on good things you do, but

then any little bad thing you, you get

credited for.

So every little bad thing you do counts

towards you being a bad person, but

everything good you do gets invalidated

because that's what, that's what a decent

person should be expected of.

So you can do a thousand good things, but

a couple bad things you do would nullify

all of it, which I think makes no sense.

Why did you get upset about this today?

I don't know, it's like it's been building

up in my mind, I guess, over the days.

The feeling of— the

feeling of being deemed inferior.

By people who are

no angels themselves.

I mean, I don't think I've done anything

bad recently. What have I done recently

that's bad? I didn't cheat on anyone since

2024.

I think I've been pretty good this last 2

Oh my God, what? When are people gonna

stop driving up and down my road?

You can say that you haven't done a bad

thing today, doesn't make you a good

person. How much fucking time has to pass?

Then.

I mean, Arnold Schwarzenegger cheated,

Jackie Chan cheated, but people don't

think they're bad people, do they? Why?

No one thinks, oh, Arnold Schwarzenegger

is a terrible person.

They actually respect him because he had a

son and the son's like ripped and stuff

and following in his father's footsteps.

So you're saying because they're rich and

famous and had successful careers, it

means that even though they cheated, it

doesn't make them a bad person? That's

such a stupid way of thinking. Like, I

cheated, so it makes me a bad person, but

because I don't have a successful career,

that means I'm a bad person? What?

It's just because they've done cool stuff

and they've been in cool movies. And

they've got an aura and

people like them, whereas I'm kind

of unlikable and I don't have success and

I've not done cool stuff.

You can

say all these things about other people

you want, doesn't change you are a

terrible person. Yeah,

but You

know what's unfair? Okay, I've done bad

stuff and you can say I'm a terrible

person if you want, but you

have also done bad things.

You're no angel yourself.

I mean, not you personally, but like you

in general.

I'm the one who got dumped and has to

suffer in misery every day because of bad

things I did, when they've also done bad

stuff themselves,

but they get to sleep easy at night with

the decision they've made to end things.

That's what pisses me off.

I mean, I'm not talking about you guys

personally. I don't know what you've done,

but I know what some people have done,

and they fired shots at me, and I could

fire back the same shots if I wanted to,

but I'm better than that.

What happened to the house with the

beanbag? I moved out of it and I got

another house, and then I moved out of