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Hello.

Okay, hopefully today's

stream goes better than last time.

Not gonna show my fish tank this time

because I'm scared. I think the fish tank

is causing me problems.

Also, I have a bit of a problem with my

fish and I don't really—

can't really show it. Need to get a

haircut. Yeah, I know. I'm scared.

I'm nervous to get a haircut now because

if I mess it up, everyone at school is

gonna see it and then I'll feel silly.

Before, I was very confident cutting my

hair because I never went anywhere, so I

didn't really care if it took a week to

fix. But now I'm

kind of nervous to cut it.

Maybe, maybe this weekend I'll,

I'll cut it. Keeps going in my eye,

stupid fringe.

Did you have the same issues with your

fish in Japan? What do you mean?

With it affecting my YouTube channel? No,

it never caused any problems,

but that was 4 years ago,

so, um, things that

applied 4 years ago on YouTube don't

really apply now.

I'm gonna try and be very careful what I

say today because all my streams are

getting demonetized recently. I don't know

why. It's like they,

they're monetized whilst I'm streaming,

but then when I end the stream, it gets

demonetized. And then I request a review,

and 4 times out of 5, it gets reviewed and

set back to green. But the fish stream

for some reason got reviewed and they

said, um, we have determined it's not

suitable for ads. And I watched back the

stream, I just— I can't figure out why.

What did I say that was so bad that means

the stream was not suitable for ads? Some

people were saying the fish tank was cruel

or something, or something like because I

was saying one donation equals one treat,

it seems like I'm saying if

I don't get a donation then I don't feed

my fish, which is not what I was saying.

But maybe the reviewer saw it as

I was only gonna feed my fish if I get

donations. I don't know. They don't tell—

it's so annoying because they don't tell

you. They don't tell you why it got

demonetized. If you tell me, then I won't

do it in the future. Is it hard? Why can't

they leave a little note saying

demonetized because X, Y, and Z?

No, it's not because of malpractice for

carrying fish. I had fish in Japan. I

streamed my fish all the time. But again,

like I said before, that was 4 years ago,

so maybe they got stricter since then. I

don't know. Also, I remember I streamed in

the market and I showed all of the animals

in the cages. So if the

last stream— and that, that stream also

got demonetized and then reviewed and set

back to green. So obviously animals in a

cage is not, not bad for

monetization. It's not going to get you

demonetized. So no, it's not because of

the fish in a small tank or whatever. I

literally went to the market and showed

all of the, like, the big parrots chained

up and the big dogs in a tiny cage, and

that stream got reviewed and set back to

green. So it must have been fine.

The risk is if I try and repeat what I

think I said, I in the last stream, then

won't this stream also get demonetized

because I'm repeating the same thing? I

don't know what I said that was bad

because last stream, the first hour, I was

mostly just talking about the fish, and

then I was talking about my Thai lessons,

had a bit of a rant about skin

color. Maybe that was why things got a

little bit little bit racial.

So I'm gonna try to be really careful not

to say anything weird today. So I'm just

getting so fed up.

Everything has failed. I at least want to

be able to get some ad revenue for

my livestream, even if it's just $15.

I don't know what's going on these days.

Is it YouTube as a whole just has like a

big algorithm change or, I don't know, am

I getting tar— am I being targeted?

What did you say about skin colors? Well,

that's the thing. I can't say it again

because then the same thing will happen

like before.

How boring is your life from 0 to 10?

I don't think it's boring, to be honest.

I know you guys think it's boring now,

but I like going to school. I like looking

after my fish, like playing some games.

It's not my fault there's no drama.

I got more fish, by the way. I also got a

bigger tank. Do you remember last stream

my tank was like this big? Now I got a

tank that's this big. It's huge. It took 8

bottles of water to fill up— these

bottles. It took 8 of these to fill

up the tank, and this is a I

don't know how big this is.

How big is it? Like a 1-liter bottle? I

don't know. It took 8 of these to fill up.

It's huge. I bought some shrimp. I went to

the market. I've been going to the market

every day for about 4 days now. I went to

buy some shrimp and I got some neon tetra.

I got 10 neon tetra, 5 shrimp. And 4 of

the shrimp have eggs, so they might make

babies. That'd be interesting. And the

betta fish doesn't seem to mind. I don't

know, actually, it seems the betta fish is

kind of weird now.

It keeps swimming up and down against the

glass in the same spot all day long,

and I can't get it to stop, and I don't

know why. Either the water quality is

not good, which I don't know why because

I've— I changed the water yesterday, did a

25% water change. I've got living plants,

the water's oxygenated, I've got a pump.

There's some idiot in the comments last

time accused me of claiming— he

claimed that I said I only use that tiny

sponge to clean the tank when I never said

that. And then he was like, oh, you need a

proper filtration system. I have a filter,

it's hanging off the back. That's why you

couldn't see it. Obviously I bought a

filter. I mean, I bought it live on

stream, remember? Remember I bought the

filter pump? Stupid idiots saying I don't

know how to look after fish. I know what

to buy. I know you need a pump and you

gotta get like a scraper to scrape that—

the algae off. Which I haven't bought yet

because I haven't got any algae yet. I

need to buy one of those siphon vacuum

things. I also got gravel and plants

to put at the bottom.

I'll be interested in hearing Dan speak

Thai, must be funny. It doesn't really

sound that weird unless— I don't know,

it's like I know what you're saying, that

Thai sounds kind of funny, but it only

sounds kind of funny when it's like a

woman screeching, like a middle-aged woman

screeching. But usually Thai men just

sound normal, and women sound normal when

they're not screeching.

Oh, thanks Neil Marshall, very generous.

For the 20 Canadians.

Also, sometimes I get a donation from that

Swedish guy in SEKK, so I'm

scared because I say thanks for the— you

know what SEKK sounds like when you say it

out loud, so I'm scared if that's getting

my streams demonetized.

Oh, my girlfriend bought fish too, but

they all What,

what code words should I use? They all—

they all died.

They all— in

less than a day, and I don't believe it.

I never had a fish. In less than a day.

It was kind of— my girlfriend's really

sad. We put them in that tiny tank. She

bought like 8. One of them already,

you know what, before we even got home in

the bag. And then the rest of them just

slowly, one by one, you know what.

And then next morning they were all gone.

I don't know why.

I think she put too much food and they all

pooped, and then it just spiked the

ammonia in the tank. But my

new fish, they're fine. It's been a day

now. I think because my tank's bigger and

I Hmm,

I don't know if my water's good. I think

it's good if they're not— if they're not

unalive.

Although I'm worried about the betta fish.

He seems stressed. He keeps— I

think he sees himself in the reflection.

He's trying to attack the reflection, but

the other fish don't care about the

reflections. So I don't really know what's

Gone are the days when I can just say

anything on stream and it would stay

monetized. Still monetized.

If this gets demonetized, I swear to God

I'm gonna rage.

The AI will struggle with you today.

Hopefully we're gonna make up our own code

words like, oh, all my fish— I think

you know what I mean. Have to— you know

when YouTubers edit their videos and they

swear, they make the funny sound like the

quack sound over the swear? I guess I have

to make my own sounds live.

Ask for advice from fish keepers? No, I

already googled it, so I know it's stuff

like the pH level is not good, or there's

too much ammonia, or there's not enough

oxygen, or I

I don't think there's too much ammonia.

Yet. Might have to get— I might have to

clean it probably tomorrow.

It's kind of hard to clean now. I've got

gravel and the poop falls in between the

gravel, so you have to like move the

gravel around to make the poop float back

up so you can catch it.

Oh, I wore this shirt to school today.

The teacher said it was funny.

It says Thailand in Thai.

I want to get another shirt now. I want to

get a shirt that says I am not Thai in

Thai. She'd find that funny.

I can't believe I've gone to school now

for 3 weeks and I can already— I feel like

I can speak quite a lot of Thai now.

We learned today's grammar. We learned how

to say, have you ever done something? And

then how to say, I have done this before,

or I've never done before. It's quite

simple, really.

Do I still have the sound effects machine?

Did I ever have one? Oh yeah, I had that

program. You press the buttons, it will

make a sound effect. Does your

girlfriend watch your streams? She said

she won't watch them to

not jeopardize our relationship, which is

what Chihiro should have done.

I think if you want to have a good

relationship with me, it's best not to

watch my live streams because I'm very

negative and I complain a lot.

That Canadian D guy that I met at

immigration in 2017, he's such an idiot.

He wrote a comment recently and Surprised

he's still around.

He said that I suck or something. Let me

find the comment.

He said, Daniel, you are too cruel. She

put up with your— you didn't

work, you played video games every day and

do nothing. You took her money and spent

it on You know what hotels.

You doomed yourself from the moment you

got there. This is not an is her, it's an

ish you. What? What do you mean I didn't

work? I busted my nuts grinding on YouTube

all day long, doing streams and making

videos, and made nearly triple the money

she was making doing 2 jobs. And yeah, I

play video games every day, so what?

What's wrong with that? And then he says I

do nothing. What do you mean I do nothing?

I make videos and stream. And then he said

I took her money and spent it on hotels.

No, I never took her money once. What are

you talking about? That guy

is such an idiot. He must be trolling.

Do you think Chihiro would give me money?

No way. Chihiro never gave me any money.

She didn't even buy me a gift for my

birthday present. She didn't— oh yeah,

she bought me a jumper for Christmas.

Chihiro is the most stingy girlfriend or

partner I've ever had.

Imagine thinking Chihiro gave me money.

Hey Daniel, how's life been lately? It's

been okay. Uh,

not had a good month, to be honest. July

has been pretty bad for the channels.

The second channel was okay with the

Diablo videos, but the main channel, not

good. My streams keep getting demonetized.

Uh, no one is interested in any kind of

video I make. Thailand, Japan videos,

relationship videos, they're just

averaging like 4K views now. And there's

no trending things, there's no games

trending that I could make a video about,

there's no new games coming out. It's been

a tough month. The main channel currently

has only made like $400 this month.

It's pretty bad.

Don't know what to do.

I'm waiting for Starfield to come out,

hoping that gets me some views.

I don't know what to talk about. I tried

making some videos about Thailand, like

life in Thailand, but they don't get

views.

Made one about divorce, just seeing if

that would still get some views, but it

doesn't anymore. I don't know, I'm kind of

out of ideas, I guess.

I'm just grinding on Diablo, trying to

make some videos about it since the new

season's coming out soon.

Kind of screwed. I still don't know about

my tax because they take so long to reply.

They want my reports, my bank statements

for 2019, but I don't have them. YouTube

AdSense statements, for some reason

they don't go back as far. Actually, I did

get my 2019 YouTube statements. I meant my

bank statement doesn't go back as far as

2019, but my Twitch statements and

my PayPal statements don't go back to

2019, so I don't know what to do.

What are your sources of income? Just

YouTube now. Can't do OF for obvious

reasons.

I do a bit of Twitch, but it makes like

$30 a month.

Yeah, I'm kind of screwed. I get some

dividend stocks, but it's like £50 every

few months. It's rubbish.

My life is ruined now. I'm gonna have to

pay this massive tax bill, and I'm making

like $500 a month.

Maybe my mum will lend me some money.

I want to get the Thai Elite Visa though.

I can either pay my tax or buy the Thai

Elite Visa, because after a year on the

education visa, I can't get another

education visa. I would have to get a new

visa or leave. So I'm thinking

maybe I'll— I think I can get it.

I currently have— I currently

have $24,000,

and the Thai Elite Visa costs— I

think it's like 600,000 baht in USD.

Yeah, it's $17,000, so I could afford it.

I have $6,000 left to

pay my tax.

Ask my bub to lend me some money, maybe.

I don't want to leave Thailand. I like it

here. I think Thailand's a pretty good

country, which should—

it should say a lot because I'm the guy

who whines about hating every country he

goes to. But I think Thailand's pretty

nice. Well, Bangkok is.

And I'm getting pretty good at Thai. The

teacher has started to speak more Thai.

She's like slowly, gradually using less

English and using more Thai.

But the annoying thing is my girlfriend

doesn't understand what I'm saying.

Like 1 PM in Thai is bai mong,

and I kept trying to say bai mong, bai

mong, and she didn't understand.

She thought I was saying bye instead of

bai. Bai means go.

And I said bai mong, and she's like, oh.

So I had to tell her in English 1 PM, and

then she said bai mong, and I said,

that's what I said. How is that any

different to what I just said? How did you

not understand? The teacher understands.

You don't like Japan anymore? Uh, I don't

know. It's not that I don't like it, it's

just I don't really care about it anymore.

My obsession with Japanese girls is over.

Actually, I think Thai women look way

hotter. They've got bigger bums and nicer

hair, and they've got nicer skin. They've

got like this nice,

slightly kind of like caramel glowing

olive nut skin color instead of just

sickly pale yellow.

And I'm talking about race again. I

actually think the women here look better

than the Japanese women. Do,

which I wasn't expecting.

Stream's still monetized.

The problem isn't really during the

stream, it's when I end the stream it

usually gets demonetized.

Yeah, there's a place in Thailand called

Ayutthaya. And I was trying to ask her

something like, when are you going to

Ayutthaya? And she just did not understand

what I was saying. It's like, uh,

Ayutthaya, when are you going? She kept

saying, what? And I was like, oh my God,

how do you not know what I'm saying? It's

the place where you go to work. And then

she was like, oh, Ayutthaya. And I said,

yeah, how was that? It's barely any

different from what I just said. It's

like, okay, I said ayutthaya and then you

said ayutthaya, but why does it matter?

It's like I could say London,

but you would still understand it,

wouldn't you? Like, when are you going to

London?

And I feel like the teacher pronounces

things differently to how my girlfriend

Maybe the teacher is just trained to know

how to understand when foreigners are

trying to speak Thai because she's

teaching foreigners all day. And I,

I don't know, I feel like everyone in

our class, everyone in my class, we can

speak a bit of Thai, but I reckon Thai

people won't actually be able to

understand us because we're completely

butchering the tones. Only the teacher can

understand us. I don't

even— I don't feel confident that a

natural Thai person outside would be able

to understand what I'm trying to say. I

don't really feel confident.

I haven't really tried to use it.

Yet. Yeah, the tones are hard. Like, the

falling tone is hard.

It's like, uh,

uh, like that. I think shirt

is su, like that. But xú is

tiger, so you could accidentally say

tiger. This is xú, but tiger is xú.

There's no way I'll be able to tell the

difference if someone said that. And then

eye is pom, but skinny

is pom pom.

Arm, like a long arm sound.

What is there to do in Thailand besides

finding women? I don't know, go to the

market and buy some fish. That's what I

like to do. I went to the market every day

this week. First I bought some gravel,

and then I went back to buy more gravel,

and then I got some plants. Now I've got

some cherry shrimp. I hope my cherry

shrimp They lay the eggs and they make

babies, and the fish don't eat the babies.

I think my betta fish will eat the babies.

You mastered 3 languages, Thai is not

impossible. Yeah, but Thai has tones.

Japanese and Korean don't have tones.

I think if you, if you say like a whole

sentence based on the context, they'll be

able to understand what you're trying to

How's my Cantonese? I never tried.

Cantonese has like 9 tones. I don't

think knowing the tones— I mean, it is

important, but I think What's more

important is you say the words how the

Thai people say the words. So if Thai

people are saying leo like that,

then you should say it like they do

instead of saying leo. Rising tone for

leo. Then just say it how the Thai people

say it. I don't

know why my girlfriend didn't understand

when I was trying to say 1 PM.

We learned time. Oh my God, telling the

time in Thai is a complete nightmare.

You, you don't know how easy it is in

English to tell the time when you try

learning it in Thai. In English, all we

say is 1 AM, 1 PM, 2 AM, 2 PM.

There's just either AM or PM in English.

In Thai, there's like 5— based on the time

of the day, there's 5 different ways So

from from six a.m. to eleven a.m.,

it's mong chao.

So six is hot mong chao, jet mong chao,

bet mong chao for morning, and then midday

is tiang. And then from one

p.m., I forgot now. It's like one p.m.

until four p.m. Is bai mong.

So 1 o'clock is bai mong, and then 2 PM is

bai song mong, and then 3 PM is bai sam

mong. And then from 4 PM until 6

PM, it is yan.

Like 4 PM, it's like

si mong yan, ha mong yan, and then hop

mong yan. 4 PM to 6 PM. And then from 7 PM

to 11 PM— oh, this is so

dumb— what you do is you subtract

6 from the number. So 7 subtract

6 is 1. 1 in Thai is nung. So it's nung

tum. And then 8 PM subtract 6

is 2. It's song Tum.

And then 9 PM subtract 6 is 3. Sam tum,

si tum, ha tum, 11 PM. And then midnight

is tiang khun,

tiang khun. And then 1 AM to 5 AM

is di nung, di song, di sam, di si,

di ha. That is— how

hard do you want to make it to tell the

time? That is the most ridiculous

time-telling system I've ever heard. I

can't believe I remembered it all though.

I guess having a good memory is helping

me. My God,

it's like Mongchao,

Tiang, Baimong,

Yen, and then Tum, and then Di. There's 6

ways to tell the time depending on the

time of the day. Insane.

Whoever came up with that system,

why? They should just use 1 PM, 1 AM.

A lot to remember. And then we did times

of the day like morning, noon, evening.

Thailand shirt is color of Pepsi. Oh yeah,

it's like red and blue and white. It

actually looks like the Colgate, you know,

toothpaste, the Colgate toothpaste

picture and the colors that come out.

All this led from a dating site. Yeah,

it's kind of funny how life goes. Just

because I matched someone on Tinder and

ended up here in Thailand learning Thai,

living in Bangkok, going to school. Who

would have thought? I thought I was gonna

go back to Japan and try and get another

Japanese wife.

You just don't know what's gonna happen in

life.

Oh, thanks, Sea Proo.

Yes, I agree.

Maybe next I learn Chinese. Next

girlfriend. No, just kidding. It's funny,

I learned the languages of— well, not

every girl, because I never learned French

Imagine just learning languages because

you dated a woman from that country.

Stupid.

Would I marry a Thai girlfriend?

Maybe. I don't know.

I think I'd rather get the Thai Elite

Visa. That's 5 years.

By the end of that, I'll be how old? I'll

be like 40. Maybe I should get married by

Almost all the guys at the class are

basically there because they've got Thai

girlfriends. There's one married

couple from from Russia. Couple American

guys who got Thai girlfriends.

Uh, one American guy is really smart.

He's got like master's, bachelor's, and

he's doing a PhD. And the other one has

like this, this business that he runs in

Thailand. His business is in America.

It's like insurance company or something.

The American guys are pretty smart. They

seem pretty smart. Not what I was

expecting. I was expecting like a bunch of

dumb serial pats who

are like creepy and weird. Very different

to my expectation.

During the break times, they talk about

things like politics and interest rates

and economics, which is kind

of surprising. I thought the

stereotype is Americans are dumb, but

they're pretty smart in my class.

I think most of them are not taking level

2, so I won't see them again after

probably like next week. Imagine I see

them randomly outside, that would be

embarrassing. You know what's really

frustrating me is I still don't know what

the teacher looks like because of the face

mask. Doesn't it really— does it really

annoy you guys that you can't see

what people look like because of the face

mask. It's like really bugging me. I

really feel curious about knowing what she

looks like. On the first lesson, she wore

this mask with a transparent plastic bit

around her mouth so you could see her

pronounce words, but then she went back to

wearing a normal mask, so I could kind of

see what she looked like. But I still

don't really know what she looks like,

and it's bugging me.

I hate how everyone wears face masks still

here. You get on the train, everyone has a

face mask even though you don't have to

wear one. You don't have to wear it, but

they still want to wear it. I don't get

it. Why would you voluntarily

wear a mask when you don't have to wear

it? Even in Japan,

not everyone was wearing a mask. Yeah,

I guess it could protect you from the air

pollution and obviously the sun. I guess I

got sunburned on my nose last time I did a

stream outside. I don't like

wearing them because it fogs up my glasses

and you can smell your breath in the mask

even though I brush my teeth. After a few

hours, the bacteria starts festering

again.

I think people are getting

scared of not wearing a mask in the same

way you wouldn't walk around without

underwear. I feel like people are going

to start getting scared of people

being able to see their face because

they're so used to hiding it, which is

kind of weird. Looking at someone's face

used to be the number one way of

identifying someone. Now we have to use

other ways, like the shape of their body.

What do you think about Nick White? I like

Nick White. He's funny.

I like when Ice makes him go and do pickup

and he's just— at least he tries though.

I wouldn't even try. He just like walks up

to women. He's like, hey,

he looks so creepy because he's got zero

confidence. That guy's funny.

I think I'm sick. I've got snot.

I don't think the face mask is good enough

to filter out air pollution though. You

need like an N95. I don't think these

cheap flimsy ones— because they've got

gaps around the side. The air pollution is

just gonna come in the gaps.

Oh, we're gonna get demonetized now. Said

anti-mask things. No, I love masks and I

think we should all wear them every day.

Stream's still monetized.

Imagine it is because I say masks are

stupid, that's why my streams get

Demonetized. It's funny because I thought

I would hate learning Thai and I really

didn't want to, but now it's actually

quite interesting. Maybe I do like

learning languages.

I can't believe how much we learned in

just a few weeks. I can basically ask

anything. I can ask what, Why? How?

When? How long? Have you ever?

How many? How much? I can even

form complex sentences like,

have you ever swam in the sea

in Bangkok with your girlfriend?

I could ask that. Probably take me quite

a long time though to— I gotta think. How

do I make the sentence?

Learning Thai is faster, easier than

learning Japanese. Yeah, maybe.

I don't know. Because I watched anime for

like 2 years before I seriously started to

learn Japanese.

Yeah. What is arai? Why is tam mai?

Where is tea night? How long is nan

tao dai? How much is tao dai? When is mua

dai? I think that's it really.

All you need to know for asking questions.

And then you got can, cannot, dai, mai

dai, and I'm

looking forward to tomorrow when we

practice have you ever. I think have you

ever and I have never is a very important

bit of grammar. It's good for— it's

a good way to get to know people because

you can ask some things like, have you

ever done this or done that?

I'm getting ulcers on my tongue again.

Not enough vitamin C. Next,

maybe I'll learn Vietnamese. Maybe

Cantonese. I'm surprised at how easy it is

to learn a new language.

Maybe Cantonese is not that hard.

I remember when Chihiro used to wear face

mask. Was not expecting her lower face to

look like that. Yeah, the weird thing is

when you look at someone who's wearing a

mask, you imagine that they would look

attractive even though you don't know what

they look like. Your imagination creates

this face that you would like them to look

like, and it'll be like an attractive

face. Then they take the mask off and it's

nothing like how you imagined, and it's

kind of shocking.

But I remember people kept saying Chihiro

is so beautiful when she first— I remember

she was wearing the mask on the I think my

husband's cheating on me video, and

everyone was saying, oh my God, she's so

beautiful. If she's so amazingly

beautiful, then how come she ended up

marrying me instead of like an actually

successful man with a career? Doesn't look

like a twig stick insect. Oh,

thanks, Yohan. Hello, Danny boy,

how is life going? It's going Okay.

I feel, I feel, I feel at peace with life,

but I feel, I feel upset with the failure

of my YouTube career.

She hooked up with Chad Australian. Yeah,

but Chad Australian dude would literally

sleep with anyone. So I don't see— she

couldn't get him as an exclusive

boyfriend, so that's like an L.

It's a W for him, it's an L for her

because he gets to smash her and not have

to commit to a relationship. It was an L

for me because I wasn't allowed to just

smash her without committing to her or

promising to commit.

It's an L for her because she, she gets

smashed by him but couldn't get him to

commit to her.

I can't believe they did it 2

days before I met her. The first time, I

think. I actually think they hooked up

after I met her for the first time. Maybe

like one— the one last time they hooked up

was, was just a few days before I hooked

up with her. That's crazy to think he was

in there doing her days before I

got with her. That's crazy.

Now she has Atsushi. I don't know,

my little birdies have been telling me

that they broke up and Atsushi's with this

other girl who's like an Instagram

influencer or something. Why did Chihiro

randomly put her videos back to public?

The, the Pokémon Center video where you

can see him blurred out, I think she set

it back to— yeah, she set it back to

public.

4 videos have been set back to public now

after she took them all down. That is so

weird. Why does she do that?

She obviously doesn't care about being a

YouTuber. That's why she doesn't make

videos anymore. But for some reason she

cares about having those videos up. Like,

she thinks— she thinks her channel is

gonna blow up and she's gonna get like an

audience. When those views are only from

my channel and the people who are

interested in the marriage drama.

These, I don't know. I mean, Nintendo

World video could get views,

but it didn't for her.

I don't know why her videos don't get like

a million views, because I have seen very

simple travel videos just go to USJ or

get on the train to Kyoto and it gets like

a million views. But it needs to be titled

and the SEO and tags need to be done

properly. I don't think she's done that.

You're always keeping an eye on her?

Yeah, sometimes I'm bored, I just search

on YouTube. She's at the top, top 5

of my search thing. You know when you

enter the search bar and you start typing?

She's at the top. Hiding My Room,

Revenge Star, Ice Poseidon, Chiroke,

Bendine.

And I'm bored on the train, I just

randomly check, see what she's up to.

You don't search Mila's socials? Well,

I'm kind of scared to. I know her

TikTok. I don't know if she deleted

everything. Her TikTok is like Forest Fox

Spirit, I think. But I was too scared to

look it up because I was scared of the

emotions I'd feel if I see her face again.

But people on my Discord have shared

screenshots of her TikTok. I don't— I

think I'm over her. I don't really feel

anything now. I got a few of her pictures

saved as well. Just in case, you know.

I don't really feel anything really when I

see her face again.

It's a long time. 3 years.

It's a long time to forget someone.

Although sometimes I see girls, like white

girls who've got brown hair.

And it triggers a bit of an emotion in me.

Or I see girls with the pigtails and it

triggers a bit of an emotion.

I do like pigtails.

Not, not like side pigtails. I like the

little— when they have like a twin mini

ponytail at the back and it comes down

like that. I like that.

Do I like white girls? Yeah, if they're

hot. I like anyone, even black girls.

I like all kinds of girls,

just not ugly fat ones. Is that what's

getting me demonetized when I say that

stuff? Let me check.

I haven't sworn today yet.

Monetization on. Okay, I think we're good.

Don't ask me about weird stuff that

could get me demonetized.

I love everyone of all color.

I have so much love for the world and its

YouTube has become such a boring platform

to make stuff on. Can't do this, can't do

that. I don't even know what

I say that's so bad that I get

demonetized. I'm not saying anything

crazy,

and they won't even tell me what I'm

saying because if I knew, I would stop

saying it.

I wonder what else to buy for my fish

tank. Maybe like a They

sell such weird stuff at the market. You

can get a crab and get a

little snake worm looking things.

They've got these see-through fish as well

where you could see the skeletons. Looks

really creepy. Are you still making money

on YouTube? Yeah, I'm still making like

$1,000 a month. The second channel is

really helping. I'm focusing more on the

second channel with gaming content because

that has the potential to get views.

Hiding in my room content does not have

any potential.

It just averages, I don't know,

5 to 9K maybe. I don't know, some of the

older videos from 2 weeks ago got like 14K

views, but that was just like a special

one-off. I have to be very careful

about what topic I choose.

Yeah, I got triggered when my mum showed

me that picture. But that was 2021

Christmas. I was very sensitive then. I

was very lonely. I was stuck in England

because of lockdowns. It's very sad about

being alone again. 2021 is probably the

worst year of my life. That Manchester

I have no idea what was wrong with the

fish tank livestream. Maybe it was the

whole donos for treats thing.

I deleted the whole stream, so I'm kind of

It's so dumb because there's mukbang food

channels where they're literally tearing

apart live squid and octopus and shoving

it in their mouths, and that's completely

fine. But I show a cockroach lying on its

back squirming, and I got a 90-day strike

for violent content. How is biting—

tearing off an octopus's leg live— alive—

how's that not violent just because it's

food?

It's so unfair. I don't

trust YouTube, to be fair. I don't think

YouTube likes me.

Yeah, it was back in 2018, October. I was

in a hotel. Chihiro kicked me out.

And then I got a 90-day strike because of

the stupid cockroach. And then I

appealed and they said, unfortunately, we

will stick by our decision. And then I

said, well, how come all these other

channels have videos of them exterminating

cockroaches and pests? And they

didn't reply.

Stupid people. Maybe I should make like

a big text on the screen saying, dear

YouTube reviewer, can you please tell me

why my stream is not suitable for ads?

So when he's reviewing my stream, he can

see it. Please email me.

I will pay you $100. Please, for the love

of God, tell me. This is costing me so

much money not knowing.

I don't know, this stream probably gonna

get demonetized as well.

Dear YouTube reviewer,

write it here. What should I say?

Dear, dear YouTube Review—

reviewer, please tell

me why this stream

is not suitable for ads.

Thanks,

I will PayPal you $100.

So when I request a review and they're

watching the stream, they might see this.

Do you think they would? What if some

troll messages my email and says, hello

Daniel, I am from the YouTube review team?

Yeah, I won't know that it's actually

them. Bribery? Oh, hide it.

Haha, okay, get rid of the pay you $100

thing.

There, I put it up here.

I just want to know so I know not to say

Whoa, I didn't even remember why I subbed

to you. Now I see your livestream pop up.

Uh, maybe you remember me from such famous

videos as Why Love Dolls Are

Better Than Real Women, or Why I Cheated

on My Wife and Gave Her Chlamydia, or Why

I Slept with My Wife's Best Friend.

You may remember me for such amazing

videos from 2019 when I made

a video with Elvis the Alien. I bet

everyone who's subbed to me doesn't

remember who I am.

You know the British guy who cheats on his

wife? That's me.

Imagine being famous for cheating on your

wife and getting chlamydia. How sad is

that? Oh wow, thanks Nobita for

the wow wow.

Very generous. How's your marriage? I

wonder how Nobita's marriage is going.

Are we still monetized? I'm so scared

now. I want to

keep checking because if it goes yellow,

then I know that I've said something.

Because as of right now, after— how long

have I streamed? 57 minutes.

I have not said anything to make it go

yellow, so I think we're good. Just gotta

be careful I

don't say anything weird.

I could make it go yellow if I just

dropped a load of f-bombs. I think

I should not talk about the thing that

happened in Japan 70 years ago that

America did to them. Maybe I should not

talk about such events.

What should I talk about then? I can't

talk about anything now. Oh my God,

this is why I want to go to Kick. At least

on Twitch you can say— there's no

demonetization on Twitch that I

know of. I don't know

if I get less ads on Twitch if I say weird

stuff.

Wow, I got 3 viewers on Twitch.

Are you allowed to visit Khao San Road on

your own? I could sneak out and go there,

but I don't really want to. So I don't

really want to be tempted by massage girls

Twitch doesn't have demonetization.

There's no such thing. As monetized or

not monetized,

unless there is secretly but they don't

show you. I need to pee.

The Tim Schofield thing was because I

used, I used 1 minute of his footage and

then he gave me a copyright strike and

I couldn't stream on YouTube for 90 days.

Oh, thanks, Phil the manager. Going to ask

the audience if they would like a cup or

2? No, I'm not your tea boy.

Anymore. Get your own drinks.

That Tim Schofield channel is completely

dead as well. He gets like 20K views.

He has nearly a million subs. He gets like

20K views most of the time. His last good

video got about 400K views. It was about

the Motorola Razr.

But that's kind of like what tech channels

are like. Gaming channels are the same.

They'll have like a million subs and just

get 40K views, but when there's a trending

new game out, they'll get a couple hundred

thousand views.

It's cuz they're not really

personality-based channels, they just get

views from whatever's trending, which is

what I want to do. I want to do like a

channel where I don't have to rely

on my personality or my life to be

interesting, just rely on whatever's

trending. The problem is when there's

nothing trending, you're kind of screwed.

You have to wait until the next big thing

comes, or you just trundle along making

videos about random stuff to fill in the,

fill in the gaps.

I think even if,

even if my relationship ended, I'd still

stay in Thailand.

And then go to Japan. I wouldn't be in a

massive rush to go to Japan. I don't

really care about Japan anymore.

I'm more interested in having a home. My

number one priority now is, is having a

home and being able to do stuff like

have a fish tank. Buy decorations

or, I don't know, do stuff like painting.

Imagine trying to do painting in a hotel.

What are you gonna do? Just buy the paints

and then just put them in the bin when you

leave? You can't do anything when you live

in a hotel, like get pets or do any kind

of hobby where you need stuff. I think

having a place to live really opens up the

world in terms of what you can do because

now you have a place to live and call

home. Living in

like a guest house or hotel really sucks.

Yeah, a garden would be nice. We,

we have talked about maybe moving to a

house. Oh, thanks.

Nicholas, would your girlfriend consider

moving to England? I don't know. Maybe she

would, but I wouldn't. You know what she's

saying recently? She's saying she wants to

go and work in America. So she

got a visa for America, I think a couple

of years before she met me. And it's like

a 10-year visa or something. Means she

could within 10— within 10 years from

getting the visa, she can go to America

and work. But then she decided

not to go. But she still has the visa, so

she could go. And now she keeps bringing

it up, saying, what do you think about

going to America? And I'm like, I would

never want to go to America. She,

for some reason, she thinks that she can

make more money in America because wages

I said, yeah, you can make more money in

America, but then living expenses are way

more expensive, so it wouldn't matter. It

would just cancel each other out. I don't

think a pharmacist in America is living

like a, like a queen compared to a

pharmacist living in Thailand.

So I don't know why she thinks That if she

goes to America, she'll, she'll be making

so much money. I would

never want to live in America. So

expensive, dangerous, too many social

problems. The government's a joke. Got

like the gun problem stuff.

America just looks like a bad place to

live. And maybe it's nice in like the

middle of nowhere.

State where nothing happens.

Why would you want to live in America?

Thailand is so much better than America.

Cheap, it's safe. I have not seen any

violence, any kind of fights on the

street. I have never seen the police have

like a problem with people. It's just very

peaceful and harmonious here.

It's because her sister— her sister lived

in America for a few years, and her sister

loves America.

But even if you make like $50K a month in

America— okay, maybe that's a bit too

much. Let's say you make like $10K a

month. Yeah, that's loads of money

compared to what you'd make in Thailand,

but then you're going to be spending

thousands on rent and food and stuff.

The only reason the wages are higher is

because the cost of living is higher.

Imagine how expensive a place like this

would be in America. I reckon like $3,000

a month if it's in the city. $2,000 a

month. Ice said his condo in Austin,

Texas is like $4,000

a month and his place is not huge. He's

just— he's got 2 bedrooms, he's got a

kitchen and a living room.

So he's just got one extra bedroom than my

place. My place has one bedroom, this big

living room, kitchen, shower room, and a

little balcony. I've seen Ice's place on

his streams and it doesn't look that big.

It barely looks any bigger than my place

and he's paying $4,000 a month.

That is insane. My place here costs

$300 a month.

That's like 300—

what is it, like 1,000% more expensive?

Is it 1,000%? No, that's wrong.

50% would be— no,

100% would be double. It's definitely more

than double. It's like 10x

more than 10. It's like 15x.

Okay, maybe like 12x more expensive than

my place. My YouTube money

would not get me anything in America.

I'd have to live in like a dormitory or

something. Ice hates Thailand.

I don't know why he said— yeah, I did hear

him say he would never want to live in

Thailand. He would rather live in America,

which is so dumb because Imagine the

standard of living Ice would have in

Thailand with the amount of money he makes

on streaming, from streaming.

He's probably spending like $5,000,

$6,000 a month for cost of living in

Austin, Texas. But he obviously, he likes

Austin, Texas, I guess. Looks kind of crap

to me, but what do I know? I'd rather live

in Bangkok than Austin, Texas.

And then I have to get a visa and go to

him. No way. Why is she saying this weird

stuff? I want to live in Thailand.