I survived the christmas party!

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Hey, so, um, I'm back from the Christmas

party. I survived. Um, it was an

interesting experience. There's a lot I

want to say, but I don't want this video

to go on super long. Number one,

I was dressed completely inappropriately.

I didn't realize that it was going to be

such a formal occasion. I was wearing this

hoodie and I was wearing trainers and I

had my uniform underneath. And when I went

to the petrol station to meet my boss who

was going to pick me up and give me a

lift, she was really shocked. She said,

Daniel, you're not going like that, are

you? Wear your nice shoes. Do you have any

shoes? I said, yeah, I'm wearing them.

I'm wearing my trainers. And then they had

to phone up the venue to check if my

clothes were okay. She didn't tell me

there was going to be a dress code, that I

had to wear really nice clothes. And she

was wearing like this, like a dress and

nice shoes. And her daughter was also

there, who I've worked with before. She

was wearing a nice dress, and her

boyfriend was also there, the second Nepal

guy. He was wearing a really nice jacket

and really nice shoes and trousers, and I

felt— I felt really embarrassed. I didn't

realize that it was going to be such like

a fancy event. I thought it was just going

to be like we go down to the pub and we

get a drink and have some food. I didn't

realize it was such a fancy event.

So they phoned up the place and apparently

it was okay. It didn't really matter

because When we got there, it was really

dark. They had dimmed the lights down.

You couldn't really see much. So

everything was okay. I just felt really

out of place because when we got there,

everyone else were wearing really nice

clothes. The women were wearing nice

dresses. The men were already wearing

really nice shirts. And then there was me

in my hoodie wearing trainers.

I could— I didn't take my uniform because

my boss told me to take my uniform off.

She said, take your uniform off. You can

put it back on when you When you start

work later tonight. So I was a bit

disappointed because I thought it would be

funny if I went there in my uniform. So

what happened? Well, we got there, we got

some food, and I had some drinks. People

kept getting me drinks. They kept pouring

me wine and bringing me beer, so I felt

like I had a lot to drink. I had 2 shots,

2 glasses of wine, some cider,

this weird almond whiskey thing, which is

quite nice. It was really hard to refuse

the drinks because when you drank,

everyone was, everyone was so happy. They

were cheering and laughing, and I felt

like I was part of, of the social event.

I felt like I was taking part, like I was

being included. So it was really hard to

refuse. It was really hard to not drink,

if that makes sense. And I just kind of

followed the manager's daughter and her

boyfriend around. Her boyfriend's really

funny. He's really friendly. He kept like

saying, Daniel, let's go and get more

drinks. Daniel, let's go dance. Daniel,

let's go to the toilet. He really made me

feel comfortable. If it wasn't for him, I

would have felt really out of place. I

would have just sat there on my own not

talking to anyone, but he kind of pulled

me around, which is nice because I would

have felt really lost and out of place if

he wasn't taking lead and telling me what

to do. So I felt really grateful that he

was there. And yeah, I did dance.

We went to the dance floor and I just,

I just like shook, like swayed from

side to side and did this for a bit and

that was it. I didn't enjoy the dancing.

I don't really enjoy dancing. I don't find

it fun. I just feel stupid. I feel really

stupid. But I felt like I had to join in.

I had to take part. So I did dance for a

bit. I was really dizzy and I couldn't

walk straight. I couldn't walk properly

because I had so much to drink. And I

tripped and I fell into the manager's

daughter. And my face went straight into

her breasts. They were really soft. It was

so awkward.

It was really difficult to talk to people

because the music was so loud and everyone

was really drunk. Everyone else was just

talking about really stupid things, like

the kind of things you would expect drunk

people to talk about. It wasn't like we

were having intellectual, interesting

conversations, and I felt really out of

place and awkward. I just sat there not

speaking, just watching them. I was just

observing their drunken behavior.

In the car, when I was with the manager

and the others, when they were giving us a

lift to the place, she said, okay, it's

Daniel's turn to talk. What have you been

up to last night? She asked me, what have

you been watching on YouTube recently?

And I couldn't actually remember what I

was watching on YouTube. It was probably

just PewDiePie or something. I'm pretty

sure she doesn't even know who PewDiePie

is. I said I couldn't remember and that I

was playing Battlefield 1 all night. And

she said, oh, what's that? And I said,

well, it's an online shooting game where

40 people murder 40 other people for half

an hour. And then none of them knew

what I was talking about. They weren't

into video games. They had no idea. So I

just— I stopped talking because I realized

that they don't really understand what I'm

saying. They just laughed awkwardly, and

that was the end of that conversation.

This is why I don't talk, because I know

that people don't— aren't interested in

what I have to say or what I'm interested

in. What I was actually doing last night,

I was on Wikipedia for a few hours reading

about the Franco-Prussian War, which took

place in 1871. I found it really

interesting, but there's no way I would

have brought that up as a conversation at

a party. No one would know what I was

talking about or even be interested. This

is the problem that I— this is the thing

that I find irritating. People keep saying

things like, Daniel's weird, Daniel's

boring, he never talks, he never speaks.

That's because I'm just not really

interested in talking to you, because I

know that you're not going to understand

or be interested in what I have to say.

If I met someone who was also interested

in video games or nerdy stuff, then Yeah,

I bet we would be able to talk a lot. We

would have a lot of things to say, but I

don't have— I don't really know how to

talk to drunk people because it feels like

I'm talking to a 5-year-old child. When

people get drunk, that's what they become.

They become like a child. It's not like

you could have an intellectual,

interesting conversation with a drunk

person, can you? My boss, the manager,

she found it entertaining asking people

how old they thought I was. One person

said they thought I was 16. The other

person said that she thought I was 12.

Come on, 12? I don't look like I'm 12, do

I? I felt a little bit upset

about it. I know people usually are—

people would say that it's a compliment

that you look young, but it's only a

compliment up to a certain point. When

you're nearly 30 years old and people are

saying that you look like a 15-year-old I

don't really feel like that's a compliment

anymore. It feels kind of insulting.

Like, I feel like I'm a freak of nature

that I'm nearly 30 years old, but I don't

look my age. I don't look like what other

30-year-old English people look like. In

England, people age very badly.

Guys in their 30s, they'll have a beard,

they'll probably be balding, losing their

hair, they'll be fat, they'll have a beer

belly. And they'll really look old.

I don't look old because number one, I

don't have a beard. It's not actually

possible for me to grow a beard. I can

grow like a few black hairs on my chin.

That's, that's it. I won't grow a

full-blown beard. I can't do it. Um, I

don't really smile or have much facial

expressions when I speak, so I don't

really have wrinkles. You notice when

white people speak A lot of the times

they're raising their eyebrows and they're

making all these creases in their forehead

and you see all these wrinkles in their

face because when they talk, their faces

are so expressive. When I talk, my face is

very neutral. I don't really have many

facial expressions. So I think that's one

of the reasons why I don't really have

wrinkles. And I don't drink. I don't

smoke. Drinking and smoking can age

you a lot. Really badly. And English

people drink and smoke a lot, a lot.

Everyone at work, they smoke so much.

They're smoking non-stop, non-stop smoking

breaks all the time. Also, I work night

shift, so I'm not getting any sun

exposure. Do you know how much damage the

sun does to your skin? People who like to

go to beaches and they like sunbathing,

look at their skin. It's like leather.

It's so It looks terrible. It looks

wrinkly and sun-damaged. It's horrible.

So you add all of that together. I don't

have wrinkles because I, I rarely smile or

have, or have facial expressions. I don't

drink or smoke, so I don't have that

damage to my body. I don't have sun

exposure, so I don't have UV rays damaging

my skin. And I have Asian genes,

so that makes me look extremely young.

Also, my clothes don't really make— don't

really help. I don't wear mature-looking

clothes. Also, I guess my hairstyle kind

of makes me look really young as well.

Also, I look after my skin. I wash it

and I moisturize and I exfoliate.

It's nice to be told that you look young,

but Sometimes it feels kind of like an

insult. I don't— sometimes I want to

look my age. Sometimes I feel like I wish

I looked more mature, like I wish I looked

like a man, like a proper man that women

would be attracted to. I know most women

aren't really attracted to, to men that

look like boys. They want a mature-looking

man who looks like an adult, like a

grown-up. So it kind of makes me feel sad

when women say things like, I thought you

were 12 years— you look like a

12-year-old, you look like you're 15 years

old. It feels a bit like an insult.

Anyway, I stayed at the party for about 4

hours and then my boss took me back to

work. I had to do night shift. She took me

back at about 1 AM, so I only worked 5

hours, so it wasn't too bad. I had a

splitting headache. It was terrible. I had

such a bad headache. It felt like someone

had punched me in the back of the head.

Then the Paul guy, he was really nice. He

said I could just sit down behind the

till. I didn't have to work. I didn't have

to do much for the first few hours. I feel

like things have gotten a lot better

between us. We had a lot of things to talk

about last night about the party, so it

felt like We cleared a lot of the bad air,

and I felt kind of bad. I felt like I've

been behaving and reacting kind of

immaturely to him, towards him, when he's

told me that I've been doing things wrong

at work. I feel like I've been reacting

like, not like how an adult would react,

so I felt kind of bad. I feel

like I want to buy him a Christmas

present. He always buys the same

cigarettes. Maybe I'll buy him some

cigarettes and write him a card. I'm not

sure. Oh, and I met the owner of the whole

petrol station. He was nothing how—

he was nothing like I was expecting him to

look like. I thought he would be like this

middle-aged guy, fat guy with white hair,

but he wasn't. He was like this really

young-looking guy. He looks like Angry

Joe. I don't know if you know this

YouTuber called Angry Joe. He does video

game videos. He had the exact same

hairstyle, exact same beard, and his face

kind of looked like him. He was just a bit

slimmer. He was really friendly and he

gave me this. Look, he gave me a Christmas

card and there was loads of money inside

of it. Gave me £40.

Oh, there's only £20. Where's the other

£20? Oh wait, it's not £40, it's £50. He

gave me £50. That's so generous. I was so

surprised. I thought it was just a card,

and then I opened it, and then there was

£50. Uh, it was like a bonus,

Christmas bonus. Everyone got one, not

just me. But he was really friendly. He

just came up to me and shook my hand. He

said, hey, I'm blah blah blah, it's nice

to meet you. And I said, I said, oh, you

look younger than I expected. I thought

you'd be older. And then we laughed

awkwardly. The manager was so shocked

about my shoes. She said, how come you

don't know that you're supposed to wear

nice shoes to a Christmas party? She said,

if your mates invited you to go to a

nightclub, would you wear those shoes?

And I said, I don't have mates and I've

never been invited to a nightclub, and

yeah, I would wear these shoes. And then

she said, yeah, and you would be kicked

out. You wouldn't be allowed inside the

club. And I felt like she thought

that I was very weird, that I was 28 and

I've never been to a nightclub. I never go

out drinking. I don't have friends. I

guess they all think I'm really weird.

Um, yeah, I'm glad I went. It was fun

overall. It was an interesting experience.

It was quite fun. I wouldn't really want

to do it again anytime soon. I wouldn't

mind going to the next Christmas party,

but I feel like going to a party,

drinking and dancing is something I don't

really want to do more than once a year.

I felt really out of place.

It was kind of stressful, and I really

didn't enjoy drinking. I felt terrible

after drinking all that wine and alcohol.

I had a horrible headache. It was really

painful. It's like someone hit me over the

back of the head, and I felt

really dizzy. I couldn't walk straight,

and I felt really sleepy. When I drink

alcohol, I feel really tired. I feel like

I just want to put my head down and go to

sleep. There was this blonde-haired woman

who just suddenly came up to me, whipped

out her phone, and took a photo with me.

It felt kind of nice. I felt a bit like I

was a celebrity. Someone just came up and

randomly took a photo with me. I didn't

even know who she was. It was really

strange. And that same woman also gave me

a drink. She just came up to me and gave—

handed me a pint of cider. She didn't say

anything. She didn't talk. She just gave

me a glass of drink, and then she

whipped out her phone and took a photo

with me. It was really weird. So yeah,

that was my Christmas party story.

Not too crazy. I didn't really humiliate

myself. I didn't, didn't find a

girlfriend. There were a lot of attractive

women there, but I didn't really feel

attracted to them. There's something about

English women I don't really find— I don't

really feel attracted to English women

because they're very mature. They look

very They look like

adults. I guess I'm more attracted to cute

girls. That's why I find Japanese girls

more attractive, because in Japan there's

a very— what is

it? The style in Japan is more aimed

towards looking cute. Girls would have

cute hairstyles, cute clothes. But in

England, it's like the opposite. Women

want to look mature and they

want to look like an adult, not like a

little girl. Yeah, it was okay,

not too bad. It was, um,

it was interesting.