my girlfriends face is ugly [LuSH1TuIpK8]

Hey, and welcome back to my room. So it's

been a few days and I've had some time to

think about things, and I feel a lot

better. Um, try not to pay attention to my

lip. A few days ago it split really badly

and it swelled up a lot and it looks kind

of disgusting, so try not to pay too much

attention to it. I did get this cream in

Japan which is supposed to make it better,

but I don't really know if it's making any

difference. I have no idea why my lips

split so much and get dried up. I use

chapstick every day and it still cracks up

and gets dry. Maybe I'm not drinking

enough water. I've always had this

problem, and I remember back in school

people always used to tease me. They used

to say things like, Daniel, your lips look

disgusting, no wonder no one wants to kiss

you. Sometimes I'd get cracked really

badly and they'd just start bleeding, and

then the kids would start teasing me

saying things like, Daniel got punched in

the face again. I want to show you some

things that I bought When I was in Japan,

I didn't buy many things. This is all I

bought actually. Look at it! It's a pork

chop. Can you guess how much this cost?

It cost three thousand yen, which is like

I don't know thirty dollars or twenty to

twenty-five pounds. But it looks so real.

Doesn't it look real? You can stick it to

your fridge. It's a magnet.

Mmm, it's delicious. My dad actually

thought it was real. He said, why did you

bring a pork chop from the aeroplane? He

thought it was from the in-flight meal,

but it's fake. It's not real. Looks pretty

real though. I also got this, a little

pizza and,

um, a cucumber. These are also magnets.

They cost about ¥7,000 in total for all of

them, which is about, I don't know, $60 or

£50. £50 worth of fake food.

I also got this. I also got this. It

copies everything you say. Copies

everything you say. I thought it was

funny, so I bought it.

The in-flight meal on the aeroplane was

disgusting. I had the beef option for

dinner, and it was just like this

McDonald's beef patty. And they soaked it

in water and then they reheated it in a

microwave. It was soggy and wet and

horrible. It didn't taste too bad, but the

texture was just really gross. I don't

know why they always try so hard to make

these really fancy posh-looking meals when

I wish they would just give me a sandwich

and a packet of crisps. And there's this

Japanese guy who sat next to me and he was

so clumsy. He spilled his drink on the guy

next to him, and then he dropped the lid

from the container of the meal that he had

on my lap, and then he was snoring, and

then there was these Japanese guys in

front of us who took off their shoes, and

then the flight stewardess told them to

put their shoes back on for takeoff. This

is something I don't understand about

Asian people on aeroplanes. Why do they

always want to take off their shoes? It

stinks and smells so bad. Last time when I

went to Korea, I was sitting next to this

Korean guy and he took his shoes off, and

the smell of sweaty socks was so bad. It

smelt disgusting. I don't care if it's

good for blood circulation or if it

prevents foot cancer. It smells horrible.

Don't these people have any consideration

for the people around them? If you're

gonna do that, at least wash your feet or

wash your socks or change your socks

before you get on the plane. So, um, I

want to talk about my girlfriend a bit.

I'm gonna be brutally honest right now and

just say it. I don't think my girlfriend

is very attractive. And now that doesn't

mean I don't feel attracted to her. I do

feel kind of attracted to her, but I just

don't think that her face is very

attractive overall. When I got to the

airport and I met her in person for the

first time, my honest reaction was I felt

kind of disappointed. I knew what she

looked like because we Skyped, we did

video Skype, and I saw her photo, but you

can't really tell what a person really

looks like just by looking at videos of

them and just by looking at their photos.

I felt like the more I looked at her face

and the more time I spent with her, the

less I cared about what she looked like

and It felt like the bond was getting

stronger between us and I was liking her

more and more. I don't know, it's really

confusing. I don't find her physically

attractive, but I do feel attracted to

her. Is that even possible? I guess a lot

of people would say you shouldn't focus on

looks or appearances and personality is

what counts. That's what's important.

Something that really surprised me was the

day before I left, we spent the day in the

shopping complex underneath Skytree in

Tokyo, and then we went to the hotel at

around 7 o'clock. And when we got to the

hotel, we just— we had sex straight away,

and then we fell asleep. And we slept from

7 PM until midnight, and then we woke up

for a bit, and then we went back to sleep

and woke up at 8 AM. So we slept a lot,

and she looked completely different

compared to the day when we went to eat

sushi. Where she looks really tired and

really— she looked terrible because she

looks so sleep-deprived. And the day

before I left, after we slept for like 12

hours, she looked so different. She looks

so refreshed and she looks so much better.

And I know it's kind of silly because

obviously people aren't gonna look great

when they're sleep-deprived, but she looks

so much better after she slept for a good

solid 10 hours. And I think it was at that

moment, for the first time during the

whole trip, that I looked at her face and

I thought to myself, Hey, you don't look

so bad. Actually, you look quite nice. I

know it's pretty unfair of me to criticize

the way she looks because she's a single

parent and she has a full-time job, so it

must be a lot of stress. She must be very

tired most of the time. One of the reasons

I look so young is because I lead a really

stress-free life. I sleep a lot, maybe 10

hours a day, and I have pretty much no

responsibilities. I have no people to take

care of, and I'm pretty sure that if I was

in the same situation as her and I had a

child of mine and I was a single parent,

I wouldn't look like this. Anyway, looks

aside, personality-wise, I do like her

personality. I do like the type of person

she is. I do feel like we're kind of

similar because she's not really a loud,

extroverted person. She's kind of quiet,

reserved. She doesn't have a social life

from what I can tell. I also like the fact

that she doesn't mind breaking rules.

When we was driving back from Tokyo to

Nagano Prefecture, she was speeding pretty

much the whole way. The maximum speed

limit for the motorway was about 100 km/h,

but she was driving at 120, 130 most of

the time, which I found to be pretty

funny. She's not a very talkative person.

We were in the car together for about 2 to

3 hours, and to be honest, we weren't

speaking much at all, and I didn't find it

awkward or uncomfortable. I like the fact

that we don't have to speak all the time.

We can just sit there in silence and enjoy

each other's company. And it doesn't feel

weird or uncomfortable. I want to talk

about another problem I have. Now, if

you're a human being and you're watching

this, I'm not trying to be offensive when

I say this, but I don't find the human

race to be very attractive in general.

I'd say 90% of humans are unattractive. I

think we look kind of goofy, kind of

strange, especially compared to cats,

which I think are aesthetically superior

to humans in every way. I would easily say

that 90% of all cats are to my eye,

aesthetically pleasing. The only 10% of

cats that I think are ugly are those

furless, weird-looking cats that look like

ballsacks. The only reason why they look

unattractive is because they don't have

any fur. That's the problem with humans,

we don't have any fur. I think that one of

the reasons why men with beards look

better is because the beard kind of hides

their unattractiveness. Do you see what

I'm talking about? Don't I look so much

better like this? All the ladies would be

queuing up at the door if I looked like

this. This is the pinnacle of human

attractiveness. Ugh. Pfft. Pfft. Pfft.

Pfft. Pfft. What the hell happened to fur?

Humans used to have fur, right? Where did

it all go? If we had fur on our faces like

we used to, then we wouldn't have to worry

about things like blemishes or freckles or

pimples and spots or bags under our eyes.

Life would be so much more easier. I think

that one of the main reasons why I find

Asian women to be more attractive than

other types of women is because Their eyes

kind of look like cat's eyes. Just add on

a tail and some cat's ears and—

perfection. But yeah, cat fetishes aside,

I do feel like I really want to see my

girlfriend again. She makes me feel good

inside. She makes me feel happy, even

though I don't find her face to be

extremely attractive. Um, she makes me

feel like I have some kind of sense of

direction in life, like I have a purpose.

She makes me feel like I'm not just

floating around aimlessly in the sea of

life. The current plan is I'm going to

work for a few more months at the petrol

station, save up some money, and then go

back to Japan in summer, rent an apartment

which is closer to where she lives, and

then just live there for a few months and

see how things go. She said that when she

told her daughter that I went back to the

UK, uh, but I'm coming back in summer,

she said that her daughter is excited to

see me again, which made me feel nice and

warm inside. It's nice to know that she

doesn't hate me. I'm not sure if her

daughter actually realizes that we're in a

relationship, that we're seeing each

other. She kind of seems like she's in a

world of her own, like she doesn't really

realize or understand what's going on

around her. We never did anything

affectionate in front of her daughter. We

never held hands or kissed in front of her

daughter. And her daughter hasn't actually

asked if we're in a relationship. So it's

kind of difficult to tell if she knows

what's going on or not. I'm not sure if

she's old enough to understand what's

going on or to be able to figure it out on

her own. Oh, and by the way, I recently

updated my Patreon page, so if you want to

support me and help me get back to Japan

to see my stepdaughter and my future wife,

then you can go onto

patreon.com/hidinginmyroom. I think it's

something like that. And you can choose

from one of the many rewards that I've

recently created. I've recently added

rewards such as you can chat to me on

Skype using letters and words. And

unfortunately, I've had to remove the

become my girlfriend and become my wife

rewards because I'm spoken for now. So

sorry,