i feel lost in life [b2Vp3g4jBFI]

Recently, I've been really struggling to

try and figure out what I want to do in my

life next, and I just feel kind of bored

every day trying to figure it out.

I know I have to do something.

I still have quite a long time left here

in this world, maybe another 30 to 40

years, so I have to do something, but I

just don't know what that something is.

I'm 35 years old and I'm living with my

mum, and I don't have a job.

I don't really have any talents or skills

that could be useful for some kind of

career or job, and I'm kind of losing hope

at this point.

I don't have a girlfriend and I'm in debt

by about £13,000, including credit card

debt and debt to my mum.

So things are not looking very bright for

the future.

So every day, basically, I just sit around

trying to think what to do next.

And I've had some pretty weird ideas

recently, like I'm going to buy a Tesla on

finance and then become an Uber driver, or

I'm going to deliver Amazon packages, or

I'm going to buy old cars and then get

them repaired and then try and sell them

for profit, even though I don't know

anything about cars.

But after sitting around all day and

thinking about these ideas, I kind of

talked myself out of doing any of these

ideas because I get worried about things

like, well, this could go wrong and that

could go wrong and it could be a massive

waste of money.

I'm kind of scared to try new things right

now because I don't have a lot of money.

I'm kind of broke.

And the idea of wasting time and money

trying one of these harebrained schemes is

a little bit scary.

I do really miss that feeling of having a

goal, a challenge that really want to

accomplish, something you feel passionate

and interested in that's slightly

difficult.

And after you finish accomplishing the

challenge, you're left with something

that's practical and actually functions

and serves a purpose.

So if I am going to find my next passion,

my next obsession, it has to meet a few

conditions.

Number 1, it has to be very cheap and low

cost to get into.

Number 2, I have to be actually interested

in doing it, otherwise I won't be able to

do a good job at it.

And number 3, it has to be able to some—

in some way it has to be able to make

money in the future or help me save money.

So let me just tell you a few of the

things I used to do in the past, my

previous failed dreams and goals that I

had when I was younger.

So first of all, I wanted to be a manga

artist and then Japanese translator, video

game designer, stock market investor.

And then I also learned to drive a couple

of years ago because I thought I was going

to be a delivery driver or maybe a taxi

driver.

All those plans fell apart because I lost

interest in them.

I tried it out.

A little bit and they were just too

difficult and not very rewarding, and I

got stressed out and just had enough of

doing it.

So I don't want to do those things again,

it has to be something new.

I got this banjo a couple years ago

because I thought, well, maybe I can't get

a job or make money doing something

practical, then I'll just learn to play a

musical instrument and I could get really

good at playing the banjo and then people

would be really impressed, and then I'd

play banjo on YouTube and then people

would like tip me money because they

really enjoy my banjo performance, but

That didn't really work well because it

hurt my fingers, and then I got bored of

it, and then I forgot how to play it, so I

can't play anything right now.

Sometimes I do feel like, why don't I just

give up trying to find something and I

just play video games all day?

Because if I can't find anything rewarding

and challenging in real life to do, then

you can always find it in video games.

That's how they're designed to be

addictive.

And video games are challenging, and you

level up, and you beat bosses, and it

rewards your dopamine centers with that

feel-good feeling of you just achieved

something, even though it's meaningless in

a video game.

At least it feels better than doing

nothing.

But then I don't want to become that kind

of person who just plays video games all

day and has nothing going on in his life.

That's kind of sad.

So recently I kind of like to do tidying

and cleaning my room.

So I just go around my room and I find

things to tidy up and put away or

rearrange my desk so it's cleaner and

tidier.

And that does make me feel kind of nice

mentally.

It feels like I'm decluttering my room and

also decluttering my mind.

So for now, I'm thinking instead of

stressing out over trying to find

something to get obsessed over.

I just relax, stop stressing out about it,

stop trying to desperately force something

to happen.

And if my true calling is going to arrive,

then it's just going to naturally show up

on my doorstep without me having to put

any effort into trying to look for it.

That's how it's usually happened for most

of my life.

Hello, welcome back to a new cooking with

Daniel.

Today we're going to be making the perfect

Bacon sandwich.

So we've got egg and we've got bacon

rashers, reduced salt, so it's very

healthy.

And we've got white baps, so it's gonna be

like a bacon wrap, I guess.

And also house salad to make it healthy.

So here is the frying pan, it's a really

nice frying pan, non-stick.

And put it in the kitchen.

Okay, just first start warming up your

frying pan.

I like to put, um, maybe the heat, and

then we're going to put some oil just in

case for the egg doesn't stick, just to

make sure.

But yeah, it definitely won't stick.

Okay, so we can hear the sizzling, and I'm

going to put the egg in first.

So just crack it and then put it there.

And it looks like a backcomb.

I think I'm going to— I want 2 slices of

backcomb.

Then for the plate, you want to get your

6-inch pan, hold up the mask, still check

knife, and put it in

the pan.

Oh wow, it looks so delicious!

Okay, bacon.

Keep it a few minutes toasted because it

really shrunk down.

Egg.

Okay, so it's finished cooking.

You don't want to put it onto the plate,

not on the bread yet, not finished.

Put it on the plate and then put the bread

on the pan like that.

Oh, it's going to smell.

Then quickly give it a quick stir and

we're just going to put the bread

Lovely.

Be careful not to burn it.

Yeah, okay, that's, um, nicely brown.

Put the other one in

and then put the bacon on first

and then the egg.

And that is how you make the perfect bacon

sandwich.

That

looks great.

Wow.