hello

Is it back?

Testing.

Is it back? Okay, it's back. So I was

saying my second goal is I want to one day

try out the IRL dating. Thing with going

to like a bar social setting. I have a

plan like how I could make it work. We

need to come up with a strategy first. We

need to scope out suitable places. It's

got to be like a nice open area

where there's food and drink, maybe like a

stand-up bar stool kind of drinking area.

Music not too loud. So we got to scope out

some places that fit this description.

It's got to be in close area so I can like

go from one place to another and then

rotate, cycle around. So we need to get

the places sorted out. Second, we need to—

I don't know, I need to like feel what it

feels like to talk to strangers.

And since I've been doing a lot of talking

recently with the IRL streams and with my

girlfriend, I feel more confident about

speaking to strangers. Don't feel so

scared. And I can actually imagine, yeah,

maybe I could go to like a social

gathering place and just strike up

conversation with a random Japanese woman.

I could actually imagine it being fun and

maybe a bit scary, but I reckon I could do

it. I don't think it's actually out of the

realm of impossibility.

Yeah, my social anxiety definitely got a

lot better since I started doing the IRL

streams and forced myself to talk to

people. Don't feel so scared about

it. You know, I used to be terrified to go

into a restaurant and order food. And now

I just walk in. I'm like, yep,

2 people. And it feels like nothing.

So yeah, I'm opening up to the idea of

maybe trying nampa, but I'm not going to

do like cringe nampa where you go up to

random strangers on the street and be

like, oh, do my chat-up lines. I'm going

to go to places where nampa is supposed to

Like where places, places where people go

to because they want to meet foreigners or

do language exchange or meet guys. There

has to be like some lonely, sad

middle-aged women that go to these places

that I could— that would be my target,

my, my target prey. And then if I'm

feeling confident enough, we could work

our way up to, you know, younger, more

attractive women. That would be like the

end goal. So I don't know

how I'd do that whilst being with the

Korean girl. Maybe I could go to like a 5

PM bar and then experiment

for a few hours and go back home to her

place in the evening.

I just, I feel like I am pretty successful

with online dating. I got a Korean

girlfriend within 4 days of being on the

app. I got a wife. I got a Thai

girlfriend. I think it's safe to say that

I can get girlfriends online pretty

easily. Now, can I transfer those skills

into the real world?

Possibly. But I think it's like a very

different game.

But also not completely different.

I'm just wondering if I can, you know,

take my success from online dating and put

it into the real world and become like

pickup artist king.

I could have like 10 girlfriends at once,

probably.

So that's like a long-term goal that I

have in the back of my mind that I want to

try at some point. I think, you know, we

take baby steps. We just go to— first we

need to just go to a bar, get a drink,

and just sit there and scope out the

place. Observe. We'll just observe,

see what they— see what the people there

do. If anyone comes up to us and initiates

conversation, that would be a bonus. But

the goal wouldn't be to like get laid. We

need to take baby steps. At first we just

go, we scope out, observe, take notes,

and then we have to like start thinking,

okay, who do I want to go up

to and

test out stuff with?

And then build confidence little by

little. I'm not expecting to like go to a

bar and like chat up a 20-year-old hot

girl, take her home on the first night.

That's just setting yourself up for

disappointment. You got to be realistic.

It's like going to the gym. You don't just

start trying to lift the 20 kg straight

away. Yeah, I'd livestream it.

I think the livestream would give me

confidence. Definitely feel more confident

with the stream. Plus it'll be content and

So I just like walk, maybe try walk into a

hub, I don't know, with the stream on.

Hopefully it won't disconnect.

I need to think about the gym as well. I

haven't been to the gym for nearly 3

weeks. I'm definitely losing my strength.

I'm still doing the push-ups, but I think

I'm losing my biceps.

My girlfriend said your arms look smaller

compared to when you were in Thailand.

Made me feel sad. They still look kind of

big, but I don't feel strong like I used

to. I was struggling with the 15 kg last

time I went to the gym.

No way I can do 17. You look the same.

No, my arms look bigger.

I feel sad losing my hard work.

Bring something that's conversation

starter. Yeah, I need like a prop,

something that's interesting that

the girl could comment on.

I don't know if my legs look bigger from

all the cycling. I feel like maybe the

thighs do a bit.

Probably not.

What do you think? My thighs look bigger?

My trousers are too tight to pull up

because my bulging biceps.

It's hard

My lower legs still look like sticks. I

don't think cycling actually exercises

your lower legs, it's just your thighs.

I thought like something small that's

funny but quirky that I could show her.

Not cringe like a rubber chicken. That'd

be stupid. Your legs are even thinner.

Maybe. I've been— I've been so tired last

10 days. We've been traveling nonstop,

hiking up mountains, walking and walking

and walking. Poor girlfriend was so tired.

I dragged her up the mountain in Kyoto and

she was just— she looked so fed up, like

she wanted to give up on life.

My feet were aching. I was all sunburnt.

My sunburn's a bit better now.

I've been having hot baths every night to

soothe my body. Traveling is so much hard

work. Tiring. Exhausting.

Yeah. The good thing about chatting with

real-life women in a bar kind of

situation, you know exactly what they look

like. I wouldn't waste my time going up to

a girl I don't like the look of.

There's no filters or silly photo angles

hiding stuff. And you don't have to like

plan a date. Don't have to like, oh, chat

them up and then get their line and then

arrange a date. I mean, that basically is

the date. It's the first interaction at

the bar. That would be the meeting.

Don't have to like waste all this time

building up to the meeting. The meeting

just happens straight away.

I don't think it would be like a bar bar.

It'll be like a I don't know

what kind of place I'm envisioning.

Not like a club. I don't want to go to a

club. It has to be like a friendly,

friendly vibes,

drinks and food. There's places in Japan

like street food marketplaces where It's

kind of like a bar. I went to one in

Kyoto. They've got these barrels. It's a

big area. On around the side of the rooms,

they've got stalls selling food and drink,

and then they've got these barrels with a

table on top of the barrel, and then

they're just placed around in this room,

and then people just stand around the

barrels eating and drinking. I went there

with my girlfriend. I got I got a glass of

sake and a beef skewer,

and I was just standing there sipping my

sake and nibbling my beef. And I was

thinking, yeah, if I was here alone, I

could imagine maybe chatting

to some strangers. And if it

was evening,

everyone's like in a good mood, chatty,

sociable.

Make eye contact. Smile. Maybe. I went to

a bar with T-Kira-san. We went bar

hopping. Went to a cocktail bar. And then

there were these girls at the bar and I

was— we were sitting behind them, not at

the bar. And they were turning around,

looking right at me and laughing or

smiling. Maybe they were smiling, but they

were definitely looking around and having

a look in our direction. But I was too

scared. I feel like I wish I, like, I

don't know, waved at them or something. I

went like this.

I need to stop being scared of initiating

interaction.

Also, my tactic wouldn't be like sniper

tactics. I feel like people like David

Bond, they are— they have a sniper tactic.

Like they, they scan, they locate the

target, and then they go straight to the

target and then do their lines or the

moves or whatever. I wouldn't do that. I

would describe my tactic as like

a spider's web. I would, I would create my

web and then sit in the corner And

then people would come to me.

Now, I wouldn't go up to people on the

street because I don't want to bother

people. It would have to be in a place

where people are there to meet people.

Your tattoo would be go to the club,

stand in the corner all night. No, when I

went to a sheesh show with TKO Sam, uh,

and the Hong Kong guy came, when the Hong

Kong guy left and I was alone, a guy came

up to me and initiated conversation.

Now all I have to do is, is be there

for long enough until a woman comes up to

me. And I have to put my phone away so I

don't look— um, when you look at your

phone, you look like you don't want to be

disturbed. So you put your phone away,

look up, like drink like this. Look like

you're welcoming.

I went to a hub before, actually. I went

to like a meetup thing. I opened the door,

walked up to the bar, then walked straight

back out. There was so many people I got

scared. But that was in— I think

that was 2017. I think

I'm not as scared as I used to be back

Okay, I might do my laundry and eat my

food. Be right back.

Ah, it's nice to be back streaming. Kind

of missed it. Streaming is the only time I

can just talk about stuff.

Without having to filter myself or

anything. I can't talk about anything to

my girlfriend because she barely

understands what I say.

So I could probably do like a whole

monologue about my ex-wife when I'm

vlogging in front of her and she wouldn't

even understand a word I'm saying.

Sam said he was with you around the time

you left Chihiro, but he makes sure to say

he wasn't the reason you left her.

Why would he think he's the reason? I

mean, kind of— I'm not directly his fault,

but like indirectly. Because I went to

meet him, Chihiro found my iPad

stuff. I'm just saying

that wouldn't have happened if I didn't go

to meet him because I would have been at

home. Now, usually I'm never

not at home when Chihiro's there because

I'm always at home. And then Chihiro would

come home after work and I'd be there.

There was never a time when I was not

there and she was there. I think that was

like the only time where she could see my

stuff and snoop around.

So I'd feel nervous leaving my stuff in

the apartment with the Thai girlfriend

there and I'm not there.

No, no one talked me into leaving her. I

left her because I wanted to have sex with

viewers and, you know, have more drama.

And so many girls were messaging me back

then who liked my channel and wanted to

meet up, and I thought the channel

would be more exciting if I just left my

wife and then slept with a bunch of random

girls. Random viewers, had drama, went on

dates.

Plus, I felt like my life in Japan being

married was kind of dull and people were

losing interest. I needed some action.

So I was motivated by sex, drama, views to

leave Chihiro. Do you wish you

were still married? Sometimes I do think I

made a really dumb decision because I had

everything I wanted. You know, marriage,

spouse visa, life in Japan. Not a

bad looking wife. Regular sex.

Nice place to live. Cheap. I had

everything I want now. I mean, that's what

I want now. I want to live in Japan. I

want a cheap place to live. I want a

partner who's not ugly or fat.

But I don't think I'd ever— I think

the main problem is I keep lusting after

other girls. So I keep thinking, oh my

god, I wish I had a younger,

better-looking girlfriend. So I

don't know how I'd get rid of that. And

then that will just make me miserable with

anyone I'm with.

Chihiro's not bad looking, it's just the

age gap. I wish she was younger. If she

was like 31 and I was 34,

there's no way I'd leave her.

But I don't want to have a like

middle-aged 40-year-old girlfriend or

wife.

I want someone who's at least around my

age, at most a couple years older.

But it's frustrating because Chihiro gave

me everything I wanted apart from that one

thing, which was to have a partner who's

Does it matter if you don't want kids?

Yeah, 'cause— 'cause I want a

younger-looking girlfriend.

It's not about kids, it's about—

if I like the way my girlfriend looks.

I want to be attracted to my girlfriend or

I think the problem is maybe I'm not

attractive enough to attract a girl that I

would feel attracted to.

Unless I make some drastic changes. Like,

I think my outfit is pretty bad. Women— I

mean, everyone always says my, my outfit

looks bad,

so I got to do something about my upper

body outfit. I think my jeans are fine.

I don't know what to do about my, my upper

jacket area. I think

I kind of get what they mean. I look like—

I look like I dress like I'm a teenager.

I can kind of see it,

but I don't know what to wear. I like

hoodies because if it rains, I've got a

And also, I just suck at talking to

people. I don't know what to talk about

most of the time.

Still a look from Uniqlo. All my clothes

are from Uniqlo. These jackets are from

Uniqlo.

This This

is from Uniqlo. Why don't people like it?

What's wrong with it? It's just a thin,

nice thin light, light hoodie jacket.

I don't see what's wrong with this. Cyrus

got a hood, so what? Well, if I cut the

hood off, is it going to look better? I

don't know why hoodies have to be

associated with young people.

It's comfy, it's practical with the hood.

Maybe if it had a collar instead of a

I look at what other guys are wearing.

They, they usually just wear like a long

sleeve, long sleeve kind

of sweater, or they have a white shirt

with like a coat.

I don't, I don't like to look like a kid,

like I'm trying to dress up like a kid,

because I don't want to look like I'm

trying to look like a kid. That's— even I

think that's embarrassing.

You have to wear clothes that fit. What do

you mean? This does fit. This is S size.

Oh no, it's L size. Well, I tried M size

and it was too tight.

I'm gonna do my laundry quickly.

Form-fitting? My clothes are form-fitting,

it's just I'm skinny.

So I mean, everything looks baggy on me

because look at my arms. I would have to

wear spandex for it to be form-fitting.

So no, no clothing is designed to

to fit my body because no one has a body

like me. And maybe 1% of the population

has a body like me. So I need like

specially custom tailored clothing. Maybe

if I get— I try and get M

size t-shirts and it's too tight, so I get

L size and it fits comfortably, but then

it looks kind of baggy. My trousers

are a problem too, because it feels too

tight around my legs but then too loose

around the waist.

What, you think my t-shirt is too big too?

Oh my god, complain about everything.

What's wrong with my t-shirt?

Okay, I need to wash. I already washed

these a few days ago.

I think I'm

sick. I've got a bit of a sore throat.

That is

clean.

Uh, what else should I clean?

Is it back? I think it effed. Who's

outside my door?

American tourists outside my door.

Okay, let me do my laundry.

Hmm, maybe I'll

do my trousers as well.

Oh my God, why is the connection so crap?

Okay, I just pressed start. So it's going

to do a 55-minute course.

I'm not sure why the Wi-Fi is not great

today. I don't use a SIM

card. Not sure how much data it

has left.

Girlfriend was here for

10 days. She came on the 10th,

left on the 20th, but the 10th she arrived

late, so we didn't do anything. And then

the 20th she had to leave early, so we

didn't do anything. So really it's like 8

days, not 10. And we

stayed here for 7— no, 6 days, and then 2

days in Kyoto.

I got 2 more videos edited. One is in USJ

and then the other one is in Kyoto.

Probably upload those when I'm at the

Korean girl's house so I could end the

stream, then just post the videos at

night.

They're not that interesting. It's just

like us sightseeing and eating food.

If you enjoy that, you might want to watch

it. Most people will think it's boring,

probably.

The thing I hate about vlogging is for

vlogging to work, you kind of need to be

famous. If you don't have

like a big fan base, vlogs don't get

views. People only want to watch like very

big people do vlogging, so it's hard to

get views with vlogging. Unlike,

you know, reviewing a video game, you

don't have to be famous to review a video

game, still get 200K views.

Korean girl is 35.

People hate watch you? Yeah, but they

don't— I don't know if they would hate

watch my vlogs.

Because it's not really any— there's

nothing to hate about in the vlogs. Just

like us seeing some temples, climbing a

mountain, eating some crab.

It's hard to piss people off with the

vlogs. I'd have— I don't know what to do.

Like, be like Logan Paul,

which I can't. It's easy to have like an

opinion piece video and then just say

pretty dumb stuff like, oh, PewDiePie's

kid won't survive in Japan. But to do

that as a vlog, I don't know.

It's hard to get views with a vlog unless

you have a big fan base already.

Oh, unless it's like going to some really

interesting weird place.

The most dangerous hood in Guacamole.

I don't know.

I told Korean girl I am an investor. I

thought that's better than saying I'm a

digital artist because then she'll be

like, oh, where's your art then?

She didn't really ask anything about it.

She just said, oh, so you check the

markets a lot? I said, yeah.

You know what I saw my girlfriend checking

a couple of days ago? She was on this

website recommending the best stock

photography websites. So I'm wondering if

she's thinking of doing stock photography,

which is funny because I used to do it and

I saw the websites on the list and I, I

used to use them. Shutterstock,

iStockphoto, Dreamstime,

CanStockphoto.

I think I got banned on all of them

because I was stealing people's images.

It is a good way to make money if you

learn how to take good photos,

and I was making a bit of money, maybe $50

a month.

If I didn't get banned and I kept trying

to make good photos, I might have been

able to make good earnings from it.

But you really have to take it seriously,

like get a good camera. The images have to

be really good quality. No noise. It's got

to be framed well. So they're very strict

about what photos they will allow on the

website. And then when you sell a photo,

you get like $0.20 per photo or maybe

$0.50. You have to sell thousands of

photos.

So it was interesting she was researching

about that. She seems like she wants to do

online work so she can be with me.

That would be so bad because I won't be

able to do YouTube. I need her to be

working outside.

I want to try living with this Korean

girl, see if I can survive with a

girlfriend who works at home. I think

it'll be challenging, so I have to go out.

I think we'll just do bike streams, just

cycle around, chat, buy some food,

do some outside stuff. But if the

weather's bad, I won't be able to do it.

I have to stay inside, play games while

she works. Oh, thanks,

IP2. Why?

Really? For what?

How have your stocks been doing? That's

not— they're not doing anything. It's so

boring. Nothing's happening.

Gold did well, but now it's not really

Walgreens Boots never moves.

AbbVie moved a bit. SPY keeps

going up, so my inverse SPY is not doing

well. It's -4%.

It's pretty boring. Nothing's happening.

Market's just flat. Same thing every

week. It's like, oh no, Fed might raise

interest rates. Oh no, they didn't raise

it as much.

Oh no, banks, blah blah blah. So boring

now.

Can't it either crash or go up already? I

want the market to crash so I can get

money from my inverse and then invest

money when it's crashed.

I don't even check it much. I didn't even

check it last night.

I'm gonna show my food. Oh crap,

look at my mic stand.

Do you like my suntan?

My bicep still pretty big.

I had a dream about Chihiro a few nights

ago too. I was going— I was riding past

her apartment, knocking on the door, and

then running away, and then she was

chasing me. The on-screen chat keeps

1 o'clock, time for lunch.

Today I'll make noodle.

Oh, I just noticed. Oh no, that's— I

thought that was my back. I thought there

was a picture on my back.

I recently also discovered the joy of

drip coffee because they gave us

this coffee in the apartment. I never

really tried it before. It's like a bag,

you tear it open and then it's got these

little cardboard props for either

side of the cup and then it's like a bag

of coffee, ground coffee beans. And then

you pour the water into the bag and it

drips into the cup. It tastes so freaking

good compared to instant coffee.

So I bought a new pack of it. The hotel is

really nice. They give us all this tea and

coffee and a little box full of snacks.

Look, they gave

us this little box and it's full of

Japanese candy and stuff. It's all eaten

now. My girlfriend liked it because she

wants to try all the different snacks.

Gave us a load of tea.

Oh wait, I think this is tea that my

girlfriend brought and she just put it in

there.

Stop saying I'm 36, I'm 34, okay?

Jesus Christ. I'm not 36.

I was born 1899. I mean,

1989. I'm not 100 years old either.

1899. So yeah, maybe— I don't know how

much more expensive drip coffee is. Maybe

I'll upgrade, cuz me and the Korean girl

went to Yodobashi Camera And we're

just going floor by floor looking at stuff

because she said she enjoys it. We went to

the coffee area and she said she wants to

get like the grinding bean grinding thing.

I wonder if that tastes good because

people who are really into coffee, they

always rave on about grinding their beans

and stuff.

Just came in and it was clickbait. Well,

if the only reason you watch my stuff

because of the title and you're not going

to stay because of me, then maybe I don't

want you here in the first place.

It shouldn't matter about what the title

is. You should— I mean, if you're subbed

to me, you should want to see what I'm

doing. Isn't that the whole point of

subbing to a channel? Why would you sub to

a channel you don't want to— you're not

interested in what the guy or the girl is

doing? I don't get it.

And it's not clickbait because she did

leave me. She left yesterday morning.

It's a bit, bit scary. This thing's gonna

topple over.

So I want to save the sesame seeds for

for my yakiniku beef. I think that would

be good with the yakiniku. And then you

also get seaweed and

you get the sauce. Somen is weird because

it's like ramen but you dip the noodles

into the soup instead of just pouring the

soup all over the noodles. I don't

understand why instead of dipping

it, why don't you just pour the soup all

over the noodles? Wouldn't that just make

it a lot easier.

What's this? Kake mizu.

They give you a pouch of water to pour on

it. I guess it's to make it less salty.

Title needs to match the video content.

Well, it does because I already talked

about how my girlfriend left.

And she left yesterday. I said goodbye.

She was here, now she's not.

That is the definition of leaving.

I want to be— I would like to be honest

and just put the title or something like,

oh, making noodles and talking, but then

I'd have like 50 viewers. Now I spilled

the sauce all over the noodles anyway.

It's really nice,

nice noodle sauce.

Why don't I just pour the sauce on the

noodles? I don't get it.

And then the noodles all stuck together.

Look at this, it's like a big lump. How do

I make it loose?

It's all sticky and stuck together.

It was only ¥200. It won't come

apart. I don't understand.

Got some negi.

Negi and some seaweed.

Use the water. Now you're not supposed to

heat it up, it's supposed to be cold.

Why do I put water on it?

Weird. Put the seaweed.

And then, yeah, that's it. Put the pork

It's not separating.

The noodles still stuck together. I don't

You think

I'm gonna give up?

Look at my idea.

Don't need to separate it. Let's just make

like a big stick of noodle.

Is it back?