[2025-01-30] everything's a mess... [IvxnnTQvSIE]

Testing. Testing. Hello.

Testing. Hello.

Okay, streaming attempt number 2.

Can the internet actually stay on,

please?

Oh my God, I'm so sick and tired of this

place. I think I'm actually going to leave

tomorrow.

I think I'm actually going to leave this

place and go back to the place I was at

before the conjoined house place.

I don't even know if I'm going to get a

refund at this point. I don't even care.

I can't even stream.

By the way, I have great news. But before

I get to that, I'm gonna whine because I

don't even know if I'm— I don't even know

if I can stream or not. It seems like it's

I don't know how long it's gonna hold out.

Yeah, it seems okay now. The internet here

is really weird. It'll be fine, and then

it just drops, and then you have no

connection for like 2 minutes. That's why

my last stream, it just ended because I

couldn't reconnect before the stream just

automatically ends itself.

So I don't know, I kind of packed up my

streaming setup because I got fed up and I

thought, yeah, I'm not even going to

bother trying again until tomorrow and

then I'm just going to leave. But I think

the, the owner guy, he's going to knock on

the door tomorrow to see if he can fix the

internet. It's breaking up. Oh my God,

I can't stand this place.

Honestly, I can't stand another night

here. Can you hear me?

It's breaking up. Oh my God, I can't stand

this place. I'm actually losing my mind.

It's been, what, 5 days? Sunday, Monday,

Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. It's been 5

days like this with barely any internet,

really slow internet. And then it keeps,

it keeps going off and then coming on and

then going off. I thought it was because

of the storm, but the storm ended like 2

days ago and the internet's still really

bad. I just, I don't understand it.

And there's, there's barely any data here

anyway. There's no signal. I checked on

the locate cell signal towers and

there's, I don't know, there's like

nothing. So I, I only barely get

1 bar of 4G if I go stand in the bedroom

doorway. And, uh, yeah,

so that's also pretty unusable.

Especially for streaming.

Is it streaming now? I'm just like

constantly paranoid it's disconnecting.

Is it streaming now? Paranoid. It seems

okay.

So I got good news, which is what the

stream was supposed to be about. I got the

house. I'm moving in in 8 days,

but I cannot stand having to stay here for

another 8 days if this is what the

internet's going to be like. What am I

supposed to do? Just like not stream or

not be able to do anything for 8 days?

I'm actually— I feel like I'm in a jail

cell. I can't do anything. I have to watch

YouTube on 144p, otherwise it just keeps

buffering. I can't play games, obviously.

I can barely even— I wanted to stream

yesterday, I couldn't stream yesterday

because the internet was really bad as

well. So I got updates

about moving.

Um, I haven't heard back from the Brick

Shack place I paid holding deposit to,

they're still doing referencing. And then

the other farm, they asked me when I could

move in, the one I wanted in the first

place, but I had to say sorry, I don't

want to move in anymore because I got

accepted for the house. I got a 2-bedroom

house with a driveway and a garden, and

they said I can move in next week. And I

paid the deposit and I paid the first

month rent and I passed the referencing.

And yeah, I've done everything basically.

I paid the deposit and the rent,

but they said I can't move in until The

7th of February, which means I'm stuck

here for another 8 days. And I just can't—

I know it's really stupid to book another

place for a week and it's gonna cost like

£450 just so I can stream. Obviously, I'm

not gonna make that back from streaming.

I would save more money from not streaming

and just staying here. But it's not just

the streaming, like I can't do anything

else. Gaming, watching stuff. What am I

supposed to do? Just sit here and stare at

Yeah, the rent is about £875

a week— a month, not a week.

But it's really good because it's got a

driveway, so I can charge my car in the

driveway. And the location

kind of sucks because it's really far from

anything. The rats will destroy you. The

rats will eat you. The rats will recruit

you. You will become one of them. Wait,

is that a rat to your left? I don't know.

I think the rats might be dead because I

didn't hear anything last night. And they

might not be rats. They might be mice. I

don't know. But mice aren't really much

better. It's just rats are really creepy

because it reminds you of stuff like the

bubonic plague and World War I trenches.

A bit.

Things are a bit, bit patchy with Sunny

at the moment. I'm not sure what to do.

She doesn't like how dry my responses are

when I talk to her.

Um, not really. I don't know if I could

say it's the same reason. I guess it's

kind of like a similar reason.

But that's just how I've always been. I am

very— not very good with replying.

That's just how I've always been my entire

life, being like that. But she

doesn't like it. Sorry, I don't really

know what to do. I can try and change,

but I'm kind of already 36 years old.

I'm going to be 36 in under

2 months. It's a bit late to, like,

make massive personality changes.

Could have stopped at, I'm just not very

good. At what? I don't know what you're

£875 for the new place, £1,600 for the

current place. Yeah, in pounds. Why are

you putting dollar sign? I wish it was

dollars. Dollars would have been way

cheaper than pounds.

Yeah, so I've blown 1,500 for this place

and I've overbooked it for more than 2

weeks than what I actually needed it to

be. And then now I'm sick of this place,

so I'm actually considering blowing

another 400 or 500 for a week in a

different— well, actually not a different

place, but the same place I was in last

time because that place actually had good

internet. It'd be funny if I show up there

and they're like, oh, you again.

How's the Beelivery app going? How do you

know I was doing Beelivery?

It's not very good, to be honest, because

you mostly get job offers in the middle of

the night, usually people who want

alcohol. And I'm not running out into my

car at 10 p.m. or 12 o'clock to go find

where I can buy alcohol and deliver it to

them. I can't be bothered.

Yeah, so things are kind of a mess.

Um, your location got posted on Kiwi

Farms. Really? What, what is the

location?

Because if I'm doxxed, then I might as

well stop bothering to hide where I am,

because then I could just show you the

place I've rented, which would be fun.

Well, I'm not gonna dox myself, but if I'm

already doxxed, then I mean, I guess I

could pretend that that's not where I am.

No, I can't be bothered to go on Kiwi

Farms. Probably get a virus getting on

that site or something. If it—

just type it in the chat then. Why did you

keep saying it's on the Kiwi Farms, on the

Just show us. Who cares? Well, I'm just

worried that—

I don't know. I don't really know what I'm

I just feel like if I start being careless

and something bad's going to happen.

And they can't really kick me out because

I haven't done anything wrong. I got

banned on Airbnb because obviously of the

spatula thing. The problem is I do things

you're not supposed to do without knowing

that you're not supposed to do it. And

then I, I show it online.

Yeah, so I got problems because of my new

place. It has no furniture and no

internet, so I don't know how

to set— I mean, I guess you go onto the

internet website and then you have to

order the hub So I need that to arrive

on the day that I'm going to move in so I

can set the internet up straight away

because the place I'm moving into has no

phone signal either. So I have to get— my

phone carrier doesn't have any coverage in

the house that I've rented, so I think I'm

gonna have to get something else like

Lebara or EE, and I might be able to get

something. But if I don't have internet

sorted out in my new place quickly, I

won't have phone signal either, which is

really gonna suck. I'm thinking I just get

Starlink because my new place has a

garden, so I could put the Starlink in the

garden, but it costs like £500 because I

need to get the extension lead, which

costs like £100 something, and then

it's going to be £75 a month.

Why this strange angle? Because they've

put this stuff on the wall. And I don't

want to show this stuff on the wall

because it might give you a way to

identify the place, so I have to angle it

at the ceiling. They've got ornaments.

If the stream actually doesn't disconnect,

I might move somewhere else.

No, I don't want to show you the wall

because it's got ornaments that could

reveal my location. Well, I could just

move a bit closer.

Hey guys.

Yeah, I'm just really annoyed with this

place. It looked really nice on the

website, and then I get here and then it's

Flies everywhere, rats in the roof,

internet's rubbish, smells a bit weird.

Really disappointed. I should have just

stuck to the other place. I was going to

stick there, but someone else booked it,

so I had to leave. Also,

I didn't know I was suddenly going to get

a house and then be able to move into it.

That's why I booked a whole month here.

If I had known, I would have only booked

like a week or two. And then if I just

booked a week, I would know how bad this

place is and then I could have just left.

But now I've got a message from the guy,

he's gonna come over tomorrow to see if he

can improve the connection. I don't know

what he can do though, because he's just

got like a Wi-Fi hub plugged into the

wall. I've already pressed the on and off

button, I've already moved it about, I

don't know, there's no settings or

anything, there's nothing he can do. I

don't know what's wrong with it, because

when Sunny was here, it was fine and we

played games, online gaming, watched

movies, and it was great. And then as soon

as she left, It just became terrible.

So I really don't know what happened. It

must have been the storm did something,

but the storm's over. How come they

haven't fixed it? And also, I feel kind of

bad because the guy's a nice guy who's

very friendly. It's not really his fault.

But seriously, if you're going to be

renting out a place that's in such a rural

location, Why not get Starlink?

He probably doesn't even know what

Starlink is. That's the problem.

If I was the landlord or the owner here

and I was renting this place out and I

knew the connection was a bit shaky and

unstable, wouldn't you think you'd invest

into it so the guests are happy? I think

the reason why is because probably most of

the guests that come here, they only stay

for a week or maybe the weekend, and

they're usually old people, so they're not

really bothered about the internet. They

just go out, walk the dogs, go to the pub,

get some food, come back, put on the

kettle and turn on the news on the TV.

They don't care about the internet.

That's probably what most of the guests

are like. And then I'm here for a month

where I just stay inside all day. He

probably thinks I'm weird because I

haven't left since— I haven't gone out

since Sunday. Since I got back from

Sunday, I've been inside every single day.

I haven't even gone to my car once. I

haven't even opened the front door. He

must be thinking, Jesus, has he died in

there or something? Doesn't he ever

go out? He must be thinking that. I

haven't even seen him. He did drop by a

couple days ago to give me the air fryer,

and he gave me some cakes.

You never needed to tell us it was a rural

location. Well, I kind of did because

that's an important part of the story,

and also literally everywhere here is a

rural location. There's no Maidstone

or something unless you drive for over an

hour.

So it's really stressful, all this. Like,

you're trying to find a place to live.

You don't know which place you're going to

get accepted for. So you apply to a bunch

at the same time and then you get chosen

for one. Then the other ones are like,

oh, hello, when are you moving in? Hello?

And then I got to tell them I don't want

to move in anymore. And then you book

hotels and stuff like that because you

don't know where you're going to be the

next week and then you overbook it too

long. But I booked it this long in the

first place because I didn't want to keep

having to move up and down.

How much money I blow so far?

£1,500 on this place. My spreadsheet says

I spent like £5,000 this month. Because I

bought— what did I buy?

No, I didn't buy. I mean, I booked

probably £1,000 worth of places and then,

yeah, I paid rent and deposit for my new

place, which I'm moving into next week.

And that was £1,900 for the rent

and 5 weeks deposit.

And also I got banned on Wise. I did

a credit card transfer to send myself some

money, and then they just closed my

account and they didn't even tell me why.

They said, sorry, but we had to close your

account. We cannot tell you why. Is it

because I tried sending a large amount of

money from my credit card to myself? So I

had to appeal and send pictures of myself,

and now I've got to wait for them to

review my appeal. I have no idea why Wise

banned me. Because I was relying on that

in case I needed to pay a large amount of

money. I was relying on that to use my

credit card to send myself money. So in

the end, I had to ask my mum to send me

some money so I could show that I

have money. So without my mum, I wouldn't

have been able— well, I would have, but I

don't know. No, I wouldn't, because I

needed 7,000 and I've only got 4,000 in my

stocks and 7,000 on my credit card. But I

couldn't take the money out of my credit

card. So actually, I just had to £4,000

plus my overdraft, so I had £5,000. So I

would have been short like £2,500 if it

wasn't for my mum sending me some money.

So I'm a bit annoyed that I haven't been

able to do this all by myself and I still

needed my mum to help me. The whole

point of this expedition is to prove that

I don't need my mum. Kind of failed at the

first step. So it

is a bit annoying and it kind of shows you

that you should always have an emergency

fund of at least $10,000 just in case.

So yeah, without my mum, I don't know what

I would have done. I would have probably

had to get a room share and just pay $400

or $500 a month whilst I worked and saved

up a couple thousand and then shown that

to the real estate agency.

So now I've got a place confirmed. I just

gotta wait eight days. I now have to

decide: Am I gonna stay here? Like right

now, internet seems fine, but if. After an

hour it cuts out, I'm going to be mad.

And I'm so bored. I don't know what to do.

Streaming was the only thing that I was

looking forward to doing,

but I literally can't do anything apart

from watch YouTube videos at 144p.

And even that doesn't really work well.

Did I give up on delivery work? No, I'm

starting a new delivery job on Saturday.

They're going to give me like a trial

route and then they're going to move me

into full time. So they seem pretty eager

to get me doing full time. I just don't

know how much money you could make doing

that. I need to be making about £400 a

week. £350 a week minimum is what

I need to be making from whatever

part-time or full-time work I do in

addition to YouTube to be able to not only

survive but also build, rebuild my

emergency fund and pay my mum back.

Oh my God. Oh, I just vomited in my mouth.

Oh, did you hear it all come out? It was

like acidic jasmine tea.

Don't buy all brand new furniture. Well,

I got a £1,000 loan from IKEA.

Problem is IKEA is a little bit far away,

but I don't mind driving there because I

want to get a bed and a sofa. And you

really need to test out the bed and sofa

before you buy one. I was going to get one

on Amazon, but you just can't really trust

the pictures. So I got a £1,000,

0% interest loan and the repayments would

be over 10 months, £100 a month. So I'm

thinking I just go to IKEA and I get a

sofa and bed and a mattress and I get that

delivered next day.

And yeah, I need a wash— do they sell

washing machines? A new washing machine as

well. But I also need someone to help me

get the washing machine into the house

because I don't know if I'm strong enough

to lift a washing machine without breaking

my back. Yeah, 0% interest. Isn't it

great? 0% APR, 0% interest.

You just have to make monthly payments,

£100 a month over 10 months, and they

would only lend me a maximum of £1,000. I

tried £2,000 and they said no.

So I really need a washing machine. It's

not that important. I'm not really that

bothered if I'm really smelly. I'll just

put the deodorant on. But I really need a

bed. Probably don't really need a sofa

that much. But if I was going to get a

sofa, which I will, I mean, obviously I

need a sofa. I'm going to get one from

IKEA because I want to test it out before

I before I commit

to buying a sofa. I want to see what it's

like. But it's not just the streaming.

Like, I can't do anything. What it's like.

But it's not just the streaming. Like, I

can't do— Whoops.

I haven't really looked for coin

laundries. I'm sure there's one somewhere.

I haven't really been doing laundry. It's

like my lowest priority right now.

Tesco's have them. What, they sell washing

machines or they let you use washing

machines? Yeah, I don't know. Maybe I just

won't buy a washing machine because

they're quite expensive. They're like

£260.

Get a futon. Yeah, I did think about just

getting like a foldable mattress that can

go into the car and then I sleep Japanese

The problem is, by the time it's my

move-in date, I might be doing full-time

delivery work. So I

hope that doesn't cause a problem because

obviously I need to be at the place to

receive the deliveries. I guess I just

tell them, can I have the day off? I'm

sure they would not be bothered about it.

They seem pretty laid back.

Scrub your clothes in the sink. Does that

really work?

How hard do you have to scrub them? Just

put some soap in and then rub it together.

Is that enough to kill the germs and

stuff? The bacteria?

Yeah, it's really annoying. I wish they

just provided this stuff. I guess they

don't provide it because most people

renting, they already have this stuff, so

they just bring their old stuff with them

when they move. I'm starting completely

from fresh because I don't have anything.

It is kind of surprising to think that I

don't own anything because this is like

£2,000 worth of home stuff that pretty

much everyone has if they aren't living

with their parents.

It would just be really annoying if I

don't have a washing machine because then

I have to keep taking my laundry to the

coin laundry and then I've got to sit

there for like an hour. That's what I used

to do in Japan and it was really annoying.

How much is rent? It's going to be about

£875. I don't want to give the exact

number. People are going to try and dox

So yeah, I've been really stressed out

recently because no internet, can't do

anything. I feel

a little bit more relaxed now I have a

place sorted out, but 8 days. I gotta wait

8 days until I can move in. I want to move

in now and start sorting stuff out. I hate

waiting. I just want to start getting

stuff rolling, you know. I'll wait for

this, wait for that. What are they doing

that takes so— just give me the keys. Let

me move in now. I don't get it. What could

they possibly be doing that has to make me

wait 8 days?

Yeah, it's only a tiny bit more expensive

than my Manchester place. My Manchester

place was about £850 a month, and that

place was tiny. This place I'm moving into

is massive. It's got a living room, it's

got a little kitchen, it's got a garden,

it's got bedrooms, it's got a staircase,

it's got a driveway, and it's got a little

patch of grass. Which I have to take care

Manchester was £885. How do you remember

that? I don't even remember it.

So you think because it's the countryside

it should be cheaper? I thought because

it's the countryside it should be more

expensive because it's nicer, it's more

beautiful, and the house is bigger. Than

the tiny place I got in Manchester, but I

guess cities have higher cost of living.

Yeah, so I guess it's around the same

price as my Manchester place. I didn't

have to buy all this stuff for the

Manchester place because it already had a

fridge, a washing machine, a mattress, a

bed. They also gave me a sofa. They bought

a brand new sofa and they gave it to me in

Manchester. So now I've got to buy my own

sofa. And if it's

IKEA, I think I'm going to have to

assemble it myself.

I don't know. I might just not care so

much about doxing myself once I'm settled

in. This is what happened in Thailand.

Remember, I was really scared about doxing

and I only shared a little square of my

background. And then over time I stopped

caring so much, relaxed, and then ended up

But I ended up just showing you guys the

whole place and it didn't really matter

because my, my luxury condo tour video

got like 4K views. So it's not like I

really care about showing it because I'm

not going to get views doing it anyway.

But it is nice to show, to be able to show

what kind of place I'm living in. I

probably video it So I've got video

documentation in case, you know, in the

future I could just make a vlog

out of it, you know, in like a year's

time, 2 years' time when I don't care

anymore. Because right now things are very

tense and I just want things to go

smoothly and get things sorted out without

interference from internet weirdos.

Update screen for IKEA debt. Well, I

haven't spent anything yet, but I will

spend £1,000. Oh, my leg hurts.

I need to get bedding, mattress,

bedsheets, pillows, duvet, blanket,

duvet, duvet cover. What else?

I don't want to spend too much on a sofa.

I think my budget would be about £400,

maybe £500 for a sofa. The problem is

sofas are really expensive, and then the

cheap ones are really ugly and rubbish.

Beds are not too expensive. I think a bed,

like a bed frame, would be about £150,

£100. Mattress, maybe about £150 to

£200 for a good one. So I should be able

to get all the bed stuff and sofa within

the £1,000 budget. And then everything

else I'll probably just buy off Amazon,

like air fryer, cutlery, cups,

towel. I need towels, toilet paper.

I need everything.

Uh, maybe I should reply to Sunny.

Um, so basically, I don't

ask her how she's doing enough.

I didn't know that it bothered her so

much. To be honest,

it is true. I don't really ask people how

things are going.

Can't really say she's wrong.

I do kind of just go on and on about my

own stuff, and then I might ask a little

bit about them.

What do I say?

I thought she was just at home all day and

wasn't really doing anything.

I'm pretty sure I asked her yesterday. Or

did I? I can't remember now. I'm pretty

sure I said, how was work? How did

it go? Or was that 2 days ago?

Oh, it feels like every day is just

merging into one really long day.

Well, I've never had anyone get mad at me

about it, so I never really noticed.

Um.

It's tricky. Like, sometimes she sends me

TikTok memes and I really just don't know

what to say because it's like,

are you trying to say something through

the meme? Does the meme— is the meme

like a way of telling me that you're

not happy, or is it just because you found

it funny and wanted to share it? So I'm

like really confused when she sends me a

meme and I don't know how to interpret it.

It was a meme of Gordon Ramsay on a jet

plane and then that Geo logger

guy figuring out where he was.

So I don't really know what that— I

thought maybe it's related to something

we're talking about, or maybe it's not,

or maybe it's like in relation to how I'm

trying not to get doxxed and showing how

easily you can get doxxed just by a simple

piece of landscape. See, I look, I think

way too deeply into the meme and then I

just get confused and then I'm like, I

don't know what to say to that.

I think I'm too old. Am I just too old to

get all this meme stuff?

Gonna be nuts if you do all this moving

stuff and she dumps you next week.

Yeah, I have factored that into my risk

calculations, and I have determined that

I would still— I would still like to have

my own place and house anyway.

It was still one of my goals. It was

always one of my fantasies that I live in

a house and it's mine. Well, not

technically, it's not mine, but it kind of

is because the landlord's not just going

to pop round. So I can basically do

anything I want apart from, you know, DIY

and smashing stuff down within reason.

I don't want to do that stuff anyway.

It's not like I want to smash open a new

doorway or anything. So I don't

really care if I can't have full control

over the property because I'm not really

planning on doing that stuff anyway. Just

decorate it, keep it clean.

Also in the contract it said the tenant

must agree not to do anything illegal or

immoral in the property. What does that

mean? Lift up your bum immoral?

See, another reason why I don't really

want to get doxxed. Yeah, I really