my ex wife is SO ANNOYING

Testing.

Testing. No, it's not fixed. I don't know

why my mouse is all choppy, but when I use

the trackpad on the laptop, it's

completely smooth.

I unplugged the wireless mouse receiver

thing, plugged it back in. When I move my

mouse around, it's all choppy,

but when I use the trackpad, it's

completely smooth. Don't understand why.

Maybe my coffee cup is blocking the

I hate it when you put down the cup and

then my stupid long finger gets stuck in

the handle. Oh, it's smooth now. And then

I nearly spill the cup. Oh, it's smooth

now. That was really weird. Okay,

I think we're good to go.

Discord notification,

back to Twitch channel.

At everyone,

send.

Um, I don't know what kind of gaming I'll

do today because there's just no way

online games are gonna work. I was playing

Call of Duty Warzone 2 yesterday all day,

and even without streaming and using my

strongest connection, it still lagged

constantly.

Sometimes it would play without lag But

then sometimes the lag will just be really

bad. We're getting internet here on

Friday, so hopefully

that'll fix my issue— my issues.

So if everything's fine, I would like to

publicate my YouTube video.

And then I will rant about my annoying

wife and my annoying girlfriend who keeps

taking days off work.

What did your Chihiro do? Oh, she's just

being an annoying petty woman again, like

usual. Can't get her way, so she has a

little cry tantrum about it. Goes running

to my mummy to telling her about me.

She's such a little snitch. Like when I

slept with that woman and I filmed it and

then she found out about it, she filmed a

little video of it on her phone and sends

it to my mum. She's such a weirdo. I mean,

who sends a video of their

husband having sex to their own mum?

I can't believe my own mum has seen me

having sex now.

Okay, new video going public now.

So on Tuesday I didn't stream because I

was focusing on making a bunch of videos.

I made 3 videos, 2 for the main channel,

1 for the second, so that I can just

upload it straight away— I mean, set it to

public straight away and then get a stream

going. Otherwise, I'd have to make the

video today and not be

able to stream until later. I need to

stream as early as I can, straight away,

as soon as my girlfriend walks out the

door and I gotta get the stream going to

maximize the amount of time I can stream.

Otherwise, she's gonna be home at 6, and

if I start streaming at 12, then I've only

got 6 hours. I need to do like a 9 or 10

hour stream, really.

Yeah, I need to upload the video after I

start streaming, because if I upload the

video before I stream, I'm not streaming,

they'll click on the link and And then

it'll say I'm not online. I need to be

online whilst the video goes live.

It'll be silly to upload the video whilst

I'm not streaming because then they'll

click the link to nothing.

Make sure my link is in the comments.

Yep. Wow, my hair looks so wet in

that video. I thought it looked okay, but

you look at the beginning of the video,

it looks flat and wet, and then you skip

to near the end and you can see it's drier

and fluffier. I really should wait a bit

longer before getting out the shower.

It's just I get out the shower, it takes

like an hour for my hair to dry, so I

wait about 20 minutes and it looks okay,

but it's still kind of wet. Today I

haven't had a shower yet. So my hair is

nice and fluffy, but then my face is

oily. I need some tissue.

That's why I don't like doing facecam. I

thought I'd do facecam because I'm not

sure what game to, to play.

I've got Resident Evil 2, but I'm a bit

scared to play it.

Why 9 or 10 hour streams? Because the

thing with Twitch is you've got to stream

as much as you can, because when you're

not streaming, you're not really making

any money. You're making 90% of the money

whilst you're streaming. So it

feels like an addiction really. You make a

bit of money after you finish the stream

because some people watch the stream when

it's finished, but most people want to

watch it live,

and that's— you get most of the views when

it's live. I noticed if I only do a 2-hour

stream, it will make way less money than a

9-hour stream or 10-hour stream.

Don't YouTube streams make more money?

No, actually, because the stream I did on

Tuesday, I made like $29 ad

revenue, plus I got a couple subs and a

couple donos. So I probably made like $40

from that one stream, and that's just from

having about 40 viewers and only getting

about 1.7K views. So even though the views

and the viewers are like a a third

less— I mean, two-thirds less than

YouTube. It makes almost the same money as

YouTube does.

So I'm thinking I just purely make videos

for the main channel, which links to my

Twitch, which will bring people here,

and then I just do all my streams on

Twitch. Because it makes more money and I

can just stream whatever, like gaming and

stuff, and just do like a really long

10-hour stream without people whining

about it being boring. Because I keep

getting people whining saying, oh, these

10-hour streams are boring, just make

I've made $230 this month.

In November on Twitch, which I think is

pretty good. I never ever thought I'd make

over $100 on Twitch just from having like

40 viewers, because 40 viewers is so small

you wouldn't think you'd make much, but

Well, I do, because I don't really have

only 40 viewers. Technically, there's like

1,700 viewers. They just don't watch all

at the same time. Imagine if all 1,700

were viewing right now. Wow. If I had

1,000 viewers, I would nut myself. I

haven't had 1,000 viewers since 4 years

ago.

Am I still doing OnlyFans? I haven't

uploaded anything to OnlyFans since

beginning of October, and I still made

like $450 last month on OnlyFans. Even

though I haven't uploaded anything, I

really should upload something. Maybe I'll

just take a picture of my bum crack or

something. Nothing too explicit.

You've got to give them something. Maybe

some— what if I tuck my willy between my

legs? Technically, I'm not showing

anything, just my poobs.

Another power play from Daniel where he

uses psyops to convince his new girlfriend

he isn't a bad guy.

Still some funny comments. My comment

section isn't as funny as it used to be,

but it's still pretty good.

Do hot underwear pics. Yeah, maybe I

should have done more mysterious— I mean,

revealing less genitals and doing more

sexy pics.

I should have teased it a bit more.

This mouse is weird. Why is it not moving

smoothly?

How am I supposed to game like this?

I made the chat bigger.

Maybe it's just low on battery. Let me

check the battery. That's the annoying

thing about wireless mouses.

It says inactive.

What?

Loading resources. 25% battery.

It keeps saying inactive. On the Logitech

dashboard thing.

Connection light speed.

Did I watch Bold and Bankrupt's video in

Japan? I did, and it was so bad.

Number one, he completely clickbaited the

thumbnail and title saying, this is the,

the Japan you never knew. And you think,

oh my God, he's going to be exploring the

abandoned nuclear reactor Fukushima, or

he's going to go to some abandoned

military ex-KGB spy warehouse

with military gear. But then the whole

video is him going to 7-Eleven and sitting

in a car with some random English guy and

then trying to make silly little jokes.

The whole video is just him making dad

jokes the whole time. Going, oh, in Japan,

people don't speak English. Oh ho ho.

Oh, there's a nice little Japanese

babushka. Let's say hello. Oh, she didn't

say hello back. The whole video is so

lame. His humor is so cringe.

It's just like dad jokes all the time.

And he kept going on about how Japanese

people don't talk. Yeah, because they

don't speak fucking English. Of course

they're not going to talk to you. You're a

big 6-foot-tall, bold-looking, scary man.

What do you expect? Bloody English people,

they go to Japan, they think everyone's

going to speak English. Jesus.

And then he kept saying ありがとうございます all

over the place every time. The worst

pronunciation of gozaimasu ever heard.

Keep saying gozaimasu or gozaimasu is so

bad. It was the worst video in Japan I've

ever seen. Even my videos are more

interesting. He should have gone to the

slum area like I did.

He only gets like a million views because

people Were expecting him to do like an

abandoned warehouse or something.

Who's that random English guy he was with?

Probably his fellow sexpat friend. They

probably just went there to bang some

Japanese women, and then he thought, oh,

I'll make a quick video, I'll get a couple

million views easy.

It's really weird that he's in Japan

because he's never talked about Japan

before and he's always gone to rubbish

countries. I mean, poor countries. But I

can see why he and Harold don't really

like going to Japan. It's not very

interesting for his kind of content

because Harold and his kind of content is

all about talking to homeless people and

donating money to beggars on the street

and finding rundown, weird-looking places.

Japan is just too pretty and pristine.

He would have to stick in the— stay in the

Nishinari area in Osaka if he wants like

the homeless rundown parts.

I noticed Harold and them lot, they never

go to places like Korea or Singapore.

He always goes to Mexico. Harold has like

this obsession with Mexico for some

reason. Mexico's so boring. I like

Harold's videos, but I never watch the

Mexico ones because Mexico is so boring.

And people were saying collab with Chris

Broad, as if Chris Broad would ever collab

with Bold and Bankrupt. Bold and Bankrupt

is too, too edgy.

He makes these political little jabs,

political jokes all the time.

And he has his shady past.

So I had to spend a lot of Tuesday

blurring videos because stupid Chihiro

reported about— she reported 3 videos

of all at once. And it's weird because she

could have reported a lot more. There are—

well, there were a lot of other videos

where her face is in it. For example, the

cooking ones, the one when she went to the

crab restaurant. But she only reported

a few. The Osaka Castle, I had to blur

the entire thing because, because her face

kept appearing in the video, the whole

video throughout, and it was really

annoying using the blur tool to make sure

her face is completely blurred because I

would suddenly pan the camera very quickly

and then there'd be like a split second

where her face is visible. So

unfortunately the whole Osaka Castle video

has been now completely blurred because I

tried so many times to try and blur her

face out and then the stupid editor thing

said an error has occurred, your save—

your changes have not been saved, and I

had to do it all over again. So after the

third time I thought Fuck it, I'm just

gonna blur the entire video. No one

watches it anymore anyway. I just don't

want to have to take the video down

because, because it's like a piece of

history on the channel, isn't it? And then

she reported the one where she's

explaining why she forgave me in front of

the camera. That was easy because the auto

blur worked really well.

And then she reported the new video that

had her picture in the thumbnail. And I

just changed the picture of the thumbnail

and then it was fine. So it's been 2 days.

YouTube gives you 48 hours to change the

thumbnail or to blur out faces before they

take action. And that's all you have to

do, you just have to get rid of the bits

that violate privacy and then you don't

have to take the video down.

You don't even get a strike if you don't

take action because I remember when I

first got a privacy complaint I didn't

think it was authentic. I thought it was

like some kind of fake email from YouTube

because I made this video once in Japan

where I randomly zoomed in on a Japanese

couple for like 2 seconds, and then I got

a privacy complaint. And I thought,

there's no way they found the video and

they were the ones who actually made the

complaint. So I thought it was like a scam

thing, so I ignored it. 2 days later, the

video just vanished off YouTube. I didn't

get a strike or anything, but it just

disappeared, and I thought, oh, this is

actually YouTube saying that I got a

complaint. I have no idea how that

Japanese couple found out about my

channel. There's no way.

Chihiro went shopping. I was waiting

outside, and I was just filming some

random bits. I zoomed in on this Japanese

couple standing By

the thing where you lean over, like a

shopping center by the escalators.

It was a Redditor. I don't think so,

because when you make a privacy complaint,

you have to provide a ID so it proves

that it's you. Otherwise, you can just go

around pretending to be anyone. I could

pretend to be whoever I want and then just

start privacy complaining people. You need

to provide your passport or driving

license so they can confirm that it's

actually you. So it has— it had to be

those people who reported it.

Very weird.

Stupid idiots.

They're saying my video is harassment.

How is it harassment talking about

It is so silly, some people saying that

I'm harassing my ex-wife, because in that

logic Then a lot of YouTubers

harass other YouTubers, don't they? I

mean, SunnyV2 is harassing Boogie. Why

doesn't Boogie sue him for harassment or

What's happening, Big D? I'm streaming and

then I might do some gaming. Am I

watching the World Cup? No. Do I look like

I care about football? I saw that

Germany won— I mean, Japan won against

Germany because it was on Twitter.

I saw this clip of Cristiano Ronaldo

putting his hand into his pants and then

eating something. What was that? What was

he eating? Why would he keep

it in his pants? Don't they have pockets?

Are they allowed to bring food onto the

And then all these replies in the tweets

were things like guys stuffing

stuff into their foreskin. There's one

picture, this guy got an entire apple into

his foreskin. It was disgusting. How can

you stretch it that much?

Doggy treats to reward himself. Really?

It's funny.

Dick cheese. He should have had some

biscuits to put the dick cheese on.

So the videos she reported are fine,

they're still up, so I guess YouTube

reviewed the videos and thought, okay,

there's no violating stuff in here, video

is fine. Let me check.

We lost the Osaka video, it's just a

massive blur now. He wants me to blur the

private content? Fine, I'll blur the

entire fucking video. And then the Why I

Forgive Daniel video. It's so annoying how

she's trying to cause trouble for me. You

know, she doesn't really care if her face

is in the videos or not. Because she's

completely okay with her face being in

Casey's videos. So it's not like she

suddenly wants to disappear from the

internet. She's just doing it out of

spite. No one even watches the videos

anymore. The videos have no views since

probably 2 years ago. They have maybe 50

views since 2 years ago. The old videos

from the marriage, they don't get views

anymore. So it's not like she's thinking,

oh, I don't want my face to be on it

because I don't want more people to see

me. No one else is seeing it. The people

who have seen it have already seen it. So

she's only doing it because she's upset

that I'm talking about her, which is so

dumb because I talk about everything. I

talk about exes I had 12 years ago.

If she thinks I'm not going to talk about

one of the biggest events of my life She's

so silly. It's the number one thing that

everyone finds interesting, so obviously

I'm gonna talk about it. You can't make me

not talk about something I want to talk

You did make a video not very nice. Yeah,

well, she made an entire year's worth of

videos and streams with Hong Kong guy

trashing me, didn't she? So it's not like

she can talk. She's a complete hypocrite

whining to my mum saying Daniel's being

not nice. What about you? You spent the

entirety of 2020 shitting on me with

Casey.

I didn't really care at the time because I

was with Miela,

and in my videos I don't even insult her

or anything. In her one with Casey They

were constantly mocking me.

Bunch of hypocrites.

That's what pisses me off. She does— it's

okay for her to do it, but then when

someone else does it, she's all like, oh,

Daniel's being horrible.

It's okay for her to cheat on her

ex-husband, but then when I do it, she

acts like she's some perfect angel.

I had to block my mum again because she

keeps spamming me messages, stuff like,

Daniel, leave her alone for God's sake.

Why don't you leave me alone?

I'm trying to make money to pay the bills

here. Fuck off. Let me do my

So I had to take down some other videos

because her face was in it as well. I

couldn't be bothered to blur it. I don't

really care that much. The only thing I

care about is by taking a video down or

setting it to private, It means my total

channel views, when you click on About,

it goes down. I can see

that my total views are like 34 million

because it still counts the views of

videos I deleted. But I would like it if

people go onto my About page and they see,

oh, he's got 25 million views, it's pretty

good. But now I have to take down videos,

I lose hundreds of thousands of views.

Those videos don't really make money

anymore, so I'm not bothered about the

money. I took down some of the videos

she made, like the Why I Hate My Husband

I whine and talk about a lot of my exes.

Tomoko knows about it. Tomoko doesn't

complain, and Mila hasn't complained at

all. Yeah, I did private it. When I say

take down, I'm not deleting the video,

I'm just setting it to private. I talked a

lot of bad stuff about Mila. She never

said anything, did she?

Chihiro is just very petty. She always

wants the last word, or she wants— she

doesn't like to feel like she's being

taken advantage of.

Do you think your mom has traits of a

personality disorder like narcissism or

borderline personality disorder? Oh,

thanks, vagina. And can be verbally

abusive, not gonna lie.

Do you think your mom has traits? Well,

yeah, definitely. I've been saying it for

years, my mom is definitely a narcissist,

and she can never take any kind of

criticism. She'll never— I've never seen

her apologize, even if she's clearly

wrong.

She'll snap at people and just say really

horrible things and then not even say

She could be completely wrong about

something, you'll be telling her that

she's incorrect, and then she'll just

refuse to accept it and then tell you that

you don't know what you're talking about.

It's so frustrating.

So if you think like I'm a narcissist and

I don't take criticism well. Guess where I

get it from? The apple doesn't fall

far from the tree.

But people won't believe me because the

only small bits of my mum they've seen in

videos are when she's in a hyper good

mood state. Trust me, you don't want to

see the opposite state. When the cameras

are off. It is not pretty.

I would just be full-on shouting F-bombs

at each other. I usually win because my—

I guess my voice— I don't know, I don't

think my voice is louder, but usually when

we're in like a swearing standoff,

I'm usually the one still swearing and

then she stops talking. Because I start

getting a bit violent. I start smashing

stuff. I swear I lose my temper and I

smashed a glass once. I just smashed it

into the sink. The whole thing shattered.

I'm a bit scared what I might do if I'm

too angry. I think I would actually put my

fist through a window and then break my

hand. I get so angry sometimes. I just

want to smash something. Because if I

don't smash something, I feel like I'm

gonna smash someone. And I don't want to

hit anyone. I get so fucking angry

sometimes with people.

I broke so many things in my room. And one

time my dad took away the internet, I

couldn't play World of Warcraft. I punched

the wall so hard my middle knuckle was

swollen for like a week. Actually, when

you look at my knuckles You can see one is

slightly bigger than the other, and I'm

pretty sure that's because I kept punching

stuff. Do you remember the old monitors

that were made out of glass? They had the

glass screen and there was like a big

square box. One time I kept losing on

World of Warcraft, I punched the screen

and then I injured my knuckle for days.

I punched my door and I cracked it once.

I had a fight with my sister and I kicked

the bathroom door, and that's why there's

a massive crack in it even to this day.

And then I tried using my World of

Warcraft— I mean, I tried using my

Warcraft— I mean, my Warhammer paint

to paint the white onto the crack to make

it seem like there's no crack, because I

was worried my dad would find out. But

then my dad noticed.

Would I go to the Philippines? No, I don't

think so. It looks too jungly. I don't

like it when countries are too jungly.

Thailand is nice because Bangkok is

surprisingly well developed and it's like

a proper city. I don't know if Philippines

has an equivalent. Philippines is just

like jungles, isn't it? From what I've

seen, it's just like jungles and shacks

made out of corrugated metal and people

selling coconut water.

This guy in the comments says, why do you

keep talking about her? Because you guys

want to hear about her.

Although there are less views with the

ex-wife stuff now, it's just less views on

everything in general, so I'd

probably leave it with the ex-wife stuff.

I don't really have anything else to say

anyway, but I gotta talk about something.

Who should I talk about next? Maybe I'll

move on to Mila. It's just no one cares

about anything I talk about unless it's

some ex or girl problem.

It's just the ex-wife Chihiro stuff gets

so much debates going. Everyone's debating

who is wrong, who is right. Some people

defend Chihiro, and then some people point

out that she's no angel. You get like a

really good discussion going on in the

comments, which I want.

No one can hear you because you played 7

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then. Should subscribe

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Manila is developed. Maybe,

I don't know. I'm not sure. I really need

to start thinking what I'm gonna do

because I've only got about a month left

until I have to leave and I still don't

know what the plan is.

Am I gonna take her overseas? Then I'd go

to Vietnam. If I go alone,

I might just go straight to Japan.

But Japan is gonna be tricky because I

don't know if I want to get an apartment.

It's kind of expensive. I think I can get

an apartment for about £800 or £900 a

month. Or I could just go and get a guest

house for about £260 or £300 a month.

And then I need to get pocket Wi-Fi for

internet, which is going to be about $250

for 6 months. So I might get a few of

those, then it's going to cost me like

$600 to get a couple in case I want to do

IRL streaming.

So I could get some pocket Wi-Fi, pick it

up at the airport, and then I might be

able to live in a guest house. I don't

know, it's just I can't stream in a guest

house because the rooms are so small and

the walls are so thin in the guest house.

I'd be constantly worried about, oh, can

people hear me? And then I'd be whispering

the whole time like this. Hey guys, I'm in

my guest house. I can't speak loud because

someone might hear me.

So a guest house would be cheaper, but

then I wouldn't be able to stream or make

videos there because I'd be constantly

anxious about the sound. Then I'd

have to go outside again like I used to at

night, maybe. Or I could splash out and

get my own place and then feel comfortable

making videos and streaming.

Which is kind of what I want to do. I want

to focus on making content. Otherwise,

what am I gonna do? Sit in a guest house?

I could play games in the room, could meet

people in the guest house.

Maybe I get a new girlfriend at the guest

house.

Do you think you'd fall in love with this

girlfriend? I don't know.

I don't really see myself falling in love

with anyone because I got hurt so badly by

Mila. It's like my brain has

subconsciously made this self-defense

mechanism to prevent me from falling in

love again. It's like you get cut deep,

the new tissue and skin grows back

thicker, and you get a scar. So it's

harder to get cut again. The same thing

kind of happens with mental wounds. You

get slashed deep by a mental wound, you

kind of grow back thicker and stronger,

but then you become kind of emotionally

dead.

I kind of prefer that because I don't want

to get heartbroken again because

honestly, being heartbroken was the worst

feeling I've ever had. It was terrible.

I'd rather be an emotionless, heartless

husk than fall in love again and then

experience that again. That was horrible.

It was like 2 weeks of crying every night,

constantly obsessing over her, not being

able to sleep. I couldn't do anything. I

was just like some kind of alcohol addict,

completely unable

to think of anything else. Never again.

Don't want to fall in love ever again.

Do I have enough money to rent an

apartment in Japan for a long time? Well,

I make 1,000— I made 1,800 this month.

I'm not sure about next month, but it

seems like I'm able to make about 1,500 to

1,800 on average a month.

So I could stretch to maybe 1,200

a month on rent for an apartment,

but it's still pretty expensive. I won't

be able to save any money. I'd like to get

maybe a £600 or £700 a month place, but

they look really crap and the reviews are

not promising. The main thing I'm worried

about is internet. They say they have

Wi-Fi, but then a lot of the reviews say

stuff like, I couldn't connect to the

Wi-Fi, or the Wi-Fi was bad. But this

shouldn't be a problem if I get my own

pocket Wi-Fi. The internet is the most

important thing. And then quietness, and

then the temperature settings for the

shower is important. A lot of reviews say,

I couldn't get a good temperature for the

shower. It's either too hot or too cold.

If I see that and I click off, I'm not

staying there because having a nice warm

shower is so important, especially if it's

cold in Japan. You need to have a nice

warm shower that's not either freezing or

burning.

But I'm not sure what I'm gonna do in

Japan. Just same, I guess. Livestream,

make clickbait videos. I don't know if I'd

bother going to places like net cafes or

videos. I would like to clickbait

some ex-wife stuff like, please, Chihiro,

take me back, but she's gonna get pissed

off, and then what if she reports me to

the police or something?

I don't know what is wrong with my mouse.

It's so jerky. I have to use my trackpad.

I wonder if Chihiro would try to report my

Twitch stream if I use her picture,

because I don't know how Twitch works.

What does Twitch do if I show a picture of

Chihiro, for example? Because there's no

blur thing on Twitch. You can't edit a

stream and then put a blur. And I don't

know if Twitch warns you for showing

someone's face. No, it's not

the battery. It says I've got 25% battery.

I wonder if I plug my mouse into my laptop

with the cable, would it speed up?

Hotel reviews in Japan,

but it's kind of a gamble because I pay

for the hotel and then if I don't get the

views, I Then I lost money booking the

All these quirky hotels get good views,

like sleeping pod in Tokyo Airport,

capsule pod hotel. People like that kind

of stuff, but I've already made them.

I made a I made several capsule hotel

videos. They got good views. Every time I

walked out on Chihiro— actually, a few

times I faked being kicked out and I went

to this capsule hotel just to film,

and then I booked the hotel but I didn't

stay there. I just filmed it and then

walked straight out and then went back to

Chihiro. People thought I actually stayed

the night. Those capsule hotels are

horrible even during the day. You go there

during the day and you think it's gonna be

quiet. You can hear some stupid idiot

snoring. You just know it's like a

6-foot-tall big fat white guy from

America, probably, just sleeping at 2 PM,

snoring, tossing and turning.

And you get like a really fat person

getting into the capsule, the whole thing

starts shaking. I hate capsule hotels.

They're terrible.

Bunk beds are worse. You get a dormitory

and you got the lower bunk, some big guy

climbs up to the top bunk, the whole thing

shakes. I stayed in a dormitory once for

about a week when chlamydia girlfriend

kicked me out. It was horrible. The whole

room smelled like body odor. Someone was

snoring. I actually managed to jerk off

because the bed bunks, the bunk beds had

curtains around it. And you had— I had to

be really quiet and not shake a lot, but I

managed to jerk off with

10 other guys in the dormitory.

The good thing was when I woke up, which

was pretty late, there was no one there

because everyone goes out to go traveling.

So I had the whole place to myself. By

waking up late, they knew.

Yeah, but even if they knew, what are they

gonna do? They're gonna open my curtain

and say, "Excuse me, what are you doing?"

I'd be like on that scene on We Have to

Talk About Kevin when his mum walks in on

him jerking off, and then he just stares

right back at her in the mirror and

carries on doing it. That's. Alpha male

energy. Not that Ezra Miller is alpha.

Ezra Miller is such a loser. Have you seen

the stuff he gets up to? He's been in some

scandals in the past year. He seems

like a complete weirdo. People are saying

he's actually like Kevin in that movie.

He wasn't acting. That's what he's

actually like. Why are all these people

like him so weird? He looks like Georgie.

Doesn't he?

But he's not half Asian. Uh, talking about

food, I had the worst— we had the worst

food experience ever yesterday.

Oh my God, it was so bad. So she had

a discount for some restaurant that sells

steak and pork chops. So she got me a

steak and chips, and then she also got a

pork chop. And it was the most disgusting

steak I've ever had. It was like this

gray, bland-looking thing,

and you bite into it and it was like

chewing on rubber. I couldn't eat it. I

took one bite and it was so chewy and

disgusting. It came in these white

polystyrene boxes. So I

was annoyed and then I got up and I

started cooking thinking, okay, I'm going

to rescue the day. So I took out pork,

onions, some pak choi, chopped it up,

fried it, put some kimchi, and it was

the worst meal I've ever made. It was so

bad. I don't know why the kimchi was so

disgusting, but the whole dish tastes

really sour. I put the kimchi into the

frying pan and thought, okay, I'm not

going to use any sauce or seasoning

because the kimchi is going to be

powerful. So I mix the kimchi up with the

pork and everything. It looks good. And I

dish it up, serve it to her. I take a bite

and it tastes like— tastes like soap.

Tastes like yogurt. You know, like the

sourness you get from yogurt? It was so

sour. It was disgusting.

So she tried to save it by taking the

kimchi out, putting some fish sauce and

oyster sauce and some sugar. It tasted a

bit better, but it still had that horrible

sour flavor. So we chucked that out as

well, and then she made pancakes, which

tasted fine. I was so annoyed because

usually I can make a good stir-fry if we

got some Japanese yakiniku sauce. But we

didn't have any yakiniku sauce because we

didn't go to the big supermarket recently.

I thought the kimchi would be fine because

I know what kimchi tastes like. I like

kimchi, so I thought, okay, let's put some

kimchi, but it tastes disgusting. I kind

of lost confidence now in my cooking.

I've never made something that tastes so

bad, and I was trying to be all, you know,

showing off. I'll save dinner today by

cooking I said, oh, I think my cooking's

better than this meal. So she chucked out

all the steak stuff. I can't believe I

made something so bad because usually I

can make a good stir-fry.

Sometimes cooking is so annoying because

you don't understand why it tastes so bad.

You think it's gonna taste okay.

I'm starting to get a bit fed up with

cooking. The same thing is happening that

happened with Chihiro. In the beginning of

the relationship, I'm really into cooking

and I feel like I'm trying to impress her

with my cooking. But then after a while,

I get bored and then I get lazy and then

she takes over the cooking because I make

the same thing over and over again. I can

make kimchi or Japanese nabe. Or I can

make stir-fry or fried rice. That's it,

really. I don't know how to make anything

else.

I made chicken and vegetable soup. I put

potato, tomato, onion, some chicken

drumsticks, chicken stock, and some

garlic powder, and it was pretty good.

Just like a pretty plain English soup.

I think we have to go shopping today. I

don't know what to make anymore. I don't

want to make stir-fry again.

Eat an alligator in Thailand street food.

That doesn't sound great.

That sounds disgusting.

I don't want to get diarrhea if I eat

street food. I just

don't really feel like I want to eat much.

I barely ate anything yesterday. My

stomach is still fat. Maybe I

need to start exercising my stomach

muscles because my belly is still chubby.

I don't know why I got a chubby belly now.

I don't even eat much.

It's like I have a beer belly, but I don't

even drink beer.

Have I tried exotic fruits? I tried a few.

She brings home the weirdest fruit all the

time. So she recently brought home this

weird orangey-brown looking small

round-looking fruit,

and it smells like feet. I kid you not,

it actually smells like cheesy feet.

Kind of like, um, smells a bit like natto.

You know Japanese natto? It smells like

that. It's rancid.

So bad, I swear it smells like feet. She

brings home this other stuff. She brought

home this weird clear transparent

jelly-looking thing. She had to peel it

and then inside was like jelly, but it was

firm jelly. She brought home mangosteen—

mangosteen? Mangosteen,

which looks like a garlic. Made me a bit

sad because I remember my dad used to

really like it. I remember my dad used to

say, you've got to try mangosteen, it's

the sweetest fruit you'll ever taste.

Last time I went to Malaysia with Chihiro,

my dad was really excited about mangosteen

for some reason. This random European guy

just came up to us and joined us. It looks

like garlic, but then it's really sweet

like a grape.

And then there's that other spiky looking

thing, rambutan. So many weird

fruit in Asia. I don't like any of it. It

looks like it came from an alien planet,

but it all has similar flavors to stuff

like a grape. One of them tastes like a

combination of a grape and a mango.

One of them tastes like an orange but

doesn't look like an orange. And then she

keeps bringing back Testing,

testing. Is it

working now?

Yeah, something weird happened. It said

your USB device is not working. I think,

I think that's why my mouse was playing

up. Hello, welcome Whoops.

I had to unplug the USB hub, plug it back

in. Now the mouse works perfectly. That's

so weird. You know that weird sound I had

last time where it was going boop boop

boop boop? I think that was the USB hub.

It said your USB device is not recognized,

so I unplugged it, plugged it back in.

Now my mouse works. So strange.

Strange. Windows is weird. It's just weird

how things break and then the only way to

fix it is by unplugging it and plugging it

Chihiro never replied to my message. I

think she knew that I was trying to bait

her for content.

She didn't even read the message.

Is it working? Yep, it's working.

Let's see what my new video is up to.

10 out of 10, worst views ever. Thanks,

great. It has 10

out of 10 on the ranking thing.

How do I get my viewers back? Nothing I

talk about seems to interest them.

Maybe I can talk about life in Thailand.

Am I fasting? I am trying to reduce the

amount I eat, hoping that it will make my

stomach smaller.

I don't like having a big belly. It looks

weird, especially when I'm banging my GF

and I've got this big belly. It looks

like— looks like a beer belly. I feel like

an old man. Like, you watch those pornos

of old men banging girls and they got a

big belly and it looks gross. In a way,

it feels kind of hot because I'm like, oh

yeah, look at my gross-looking weird body

banging this girl. Where do you

look when you're having sex? Do you look

at the girl's face or do you look at

yourself or do you just look down at both

of the bodies banging? I like to look at

where I'm banging and like the whole view,

because ideally I want to film it and then

look at the, the film, you know, like plug

the camera into a big screen, into a big

TV, and then have it angled from behind

and then watch the screen whilst I'm doing

it. So it's like I'm watching a porn of

myself whilst I'm doing it. That's pretty

hot. I did that with my sex doll— I mean,

my love doll. And that's pretty hot.

Imagine doing it with an actual girl.

I feel awkward looking at their face, you

know, like staring into the eyes whilst

doing it. I avoid eye contact during sex

because it feels weird. Although there

have been a few times where I look

straight into her eyes,

like with that Chinese— at the Chinese

massage parlor, I I did it with this

really old woman. She was like 50, and she

seemed to really like me. I could tell

when a you-know-what is actually into you

because she put her hands around my waist

and she was like, wow, you're so thin.

Because I bet all she gets is

gross-looking 50-year-old fat salarymen,

and then I come in, I'm like this slim

young guy. Bet she hasn't had a slim young

guy since she was 30-something. She's like

50 now. What slim young guy is gonna want

a 50-year-old? And I'm pretty sure most of

the clientele at that Chinese massage

parlor were 40 or 50-year-old fat

balding old Japanese salarymen just having

a quick one before getting on the train.

I really doubt young-looking,

nice-looking guys go there.

And they're all Chinese because they spoke

really broken Japanese. She put her hands

around my waist. She was like, oh,細いね.

And then she said she'll give me special

service. She put her tongue in my bumhole.

Why would a you-know-what voluntarily put

her tongue in the bumhole when she doesn't

really have to? She obviously wanted to

because a girl is not going to tongue your

bumhole unless she really likes you. If

they don't like you, there's no way

they're going to voluntarily offer to do

it. So she did the tongue in the

you-know-what, and then we stared into

each other's eyes as we did it. I bet she

was really into me. I should have went

back there. I did go back there again,

but I chose someone else. So I thought I

could have the same one I had before, or I

could gamble and then try a different one,

see if it's better. That's the dilemma,

isn't it? Do you go back to the same one

because it was okay, but you could risk it

and try and upgrade, but then the risk is

she's worse and then you wasted your

money.

I made a video about that place, it got

130k views, made like $500,

so I easily paid For the amount of times I

went there. So funny. YouTube just

basically pays for stuff that I do. Like,

I bought a Switch, made a video about it,

made $450 off the video. I literally don't

have to pay for anything because YouTube

pays for me.

If you're ever in Osaka, I recommend

Chuso. Spelled J-U-S-O.

It's like a really rundown,

crummy-looking part of Osaka. It has this

weird vibe, like stuck in the '80s or

something. But it's got all these massage

parlors around the train station. Me and

the Hong Kong guy went there because

that's— I think he lived nearby Juso. So I

would go to Tsukamoto, which is near,

because you couldn't get a direct train

there because there were 2 different train

lines running parallel. There's a Hanshin

train line, which is like the fancy train,

and then there's JR. I was nearby JR, he

was nearby Hanshin, so we'd meet in the

middle. We'd meet at that river. I'd go to

Tsukamoto and then walk north up towards

the river, and he would walk down. We'd

meet halfway, and then we went to Juso to

look for abandoned love hotels because we

were going to make a video in an abandoned

love hotel. But then I chickened out

because I thought someone's going to

report us. Instead, we just hung around

the outside and messed around with the

cat. But then on the way home,

I was walking to the train station and

then I walked past this shady street.

This guy was sitting on a stool and he was

waving at me. So I thought, I wonder what

this is. So I walked in. He took out this

catalog, this magazine of women. I

thought, oh, so this is what this place

is. Had a quick, you know what,

and then went back home.

So if you see a shop that says Chinese

massage and it says like 30 minutes,

¥8,000, that is not massage.

I mean, you do get a massage, but you also

get other stuff. You'll get a shower.

She'll take— she'll undress you, take you

to the shower. Give you a good wash, then

she'll dry you, take you back to the

massage area. Now, they're not Japanese.

These were like really cheap, ¥8,000 for

about 40 minutes, but they're all fat

middle-aged Chinese women.

But it was pretty hot. It just felt so

degenerate humping in these little massage

booths with these Chinese woman.

And then I would always leave after the

you-know-what finished. I didn't stick

around for the massage, so I'd leave

halfway through, and then I'd walk out,

and then the man at the entrance would

say— he would say sumimasen, which I think

is weird. Why are you apologizing? It's

like he's apologizing because I left

early, because maybe he thinks I think the

service was so bad. So I just nod and

smile, put my shoes on, walk out.

I missed the start. What did your ex do?

She reported a whole bunch of my videos

for privacy, and then I had to spend all,

all of Tuesday afternoon blurring stuff.

I had to blur the entirety of the Osaka

Castle video because her face kept popping

up randomly everywhere. It's too much

work. Blurring her face out manually,

and the auto blur just wasn't working very

well. So I got fed up and just blurred the

whole thing, which is a shame because I

like the Osaka Castle video. It started

off in that Airbnb. I was making sausage

and eggs for her, and then we go to Osaka

Castle. I say, oh, Chris Broad hasn't made

an Osaka Castle video yet. I think Chris

Broad actually commented on that video as

well.

And then we go to yakiniku at the end. We

get a beer. It was a nice video. I

complained about the castle being boring,

but no, Chihiro wants to ruin my memory

and ruin the videos because she's upset

that I still talk about her.

So I decided to just blur out the entire

video. It's fine, at least I don't have to

take the video down.

I was supposed to stream on Wednesday,

but then my girlfriend took another day

off work and I was just so annoyed. It was

so frustrating, she keeps taking days off

work. When I think she's not coming home

and I'm planning to do a stream and make

some videos. She said her ribs hurt from

all the coughing. She went to the doctor

again, got some new pills, new

antibiotics. She said the doctor gave

her permission to take the day off from

all the coughing. She went to work today,

thankfully. She's also working on Friday.

Because we're getting proper internet

installed on Friday. And I asked her, are