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Okay, um,

uh, let me

just change this.

I want to make a donation goal for

Christmas, Christmas trip back to England.

$1,000?

What? Huh. Pretty sure

last time I checked it, it was like $400

for the bar donation goal.

Uh, how do I change it? End goal title.

Christmas trip to UK

with girlfriend.

Hmm, how much would

it cost? It's like £1,000 for

plane tickets now.

I asked her that— I told her she would

have to pay for her own ticket.

So maybe— oh

my God, $1,200.

Okay, start off the goal at,

I don't know, $111. End after

25th of December.

There you go, that can be

my next goal.

I got this new t-shirt but it's too big,

so annoying. Because I really like the

t-shirt and I wanted a new white t-shirt

after I lost my Malaysia shirt. So I went

to Phuket and I saw this shirt and I

thought I'll get L size because all the

shirts I bought in Japan, which are M

size, are too small and I

don't wear them anymore. So I thought

maybe I need L size. I should have bought

M size. Buying t-shirts is so frustrating.

And this is way too big.

It's weird because I was in Uniqlo in

Japan and I tried out the 2 t-shirts I

bought and I thought they were fine, and

now they feel really small. Like when I

lift up my arms, you can see my stomach,

which I don't like, and it just— it feels

tight and the neck feels tight and it's

like the neck's like up here, which is way

too hot for Thailand.

So I thought, okay, if M size is too

small, then I need L size. Now L size is

too big. I wasted money on so many shirts.

Liked your last latest video. Oh, thanks.

I spent all day long making that video,

the one about the dark side of Thailand.

I started editing the video at like 8

a.m., finished it maybe 7 p.m.,

actually later because we went shopping,

went for food. So I finished editing at

like 9, 8 or 9 p.m.

And yeah, I know it flopped and it's not

going to do well, but I just made it for

fun. Got a bit carried away. I found

some nice music. And it gave me an idea of

what kind of video to make. And it was fun

doing the silly voice and everything.

It's just kind of sad because on YouTube

you think, oh, you put more effort into

the video because it's going to get more

views. But that's not how it works. That

video, I probably put more effort in than

any video I've made in the last 5 years.

It took me literally 10 hours to make.

And it's gonna do really badly.

So that's why I hate YouTube. They don't

promote good stuff. They don't promote

your videos if you put more effort into

it. More effort doesn't equal more views.

It just kind of sucks because like a

crappy video when just saying, oh, Zelda

sucks, gets 76k views, and then something

I actually care about and put passion and

love into will just flop. So I hate

YouTube. It sucks. But I'll do it for fun,

you know, now and then. I do enjoy the

editing process sometimes if I got some

good footage to work with and I can find

some good music that puts me in a mood.

Then yeah, I'll make a video for fun even

if I know it's gonna flop and

it's not really gonna do well.

Still gotta do stuff for fun now and then.

So many older channels don't get good

views anymore. I know, I've found loads as

well. Channels that were popping 4 years

ago are like dead now. And do you know why

they die? It's because they try to stick

with the same content that made them big.

And it doesn't work anymore and they don't

want to change. I mean, I don't want to

change, but I have to because I need

money. Ideally, I'd make, you know,

Testing. Uh, stupid mic battery died. I

keep forgetting to plug it in. What was I

saying? Oh my God,

that whole rant was muted. They try to,

and they don't want to change. I mean, I

don't want to change, but I have to.

Haha, I just ranted for like 40 seconds

muted. Basically,

I was saying I don't want to change and I

want to continue making my original style

of content, but I had to start doing

these stupid tech reviews because that's

what gets views. But it's boring. It

sucks. I don't want to do tech reviews. I

want to be like my own original

character with my own original content.

But if it doesn't work anymore, then you

got to give it up. Just do it now and then

for fun, I guess.

That is the harsh truth of YouTube.

I keep forgetting to plug the mic receiver

in and then the battery dies.

Look how big this damn shirt is. It's a

shame because I really like this design.

It says Thailand on it. Had a Malaysia

shirt, Thailand shirt. Now I never got a

Japan shirt.

My girlfriend said she'll look online if

she can get the same one. I should have

bought M size and L size. So dumb.

I swear some of my t-shirts are L size and

they fit fine. And then some are M size.

M and L size are not the same universally.

It's hard to tell. And they don't have a

changing fitting room on the street. I

bought it on like a street clothing store

in Phuket. Tourist shirt. I like the

tourist shirts. I think it's funny.

Do lazy Ben Dean eating videos.

That won't work for me. It works for

some people, but I don't know how long Ben

Dean was doing that stuff before his

channel blew up. Maybe he was doing eating

videos for like 2 years. Before he got any

views. I would not be bothered. I just

could not be bothered to do eating videos

for 2 years before seeing results.

And I really hate the way I look when I

eat. My face looks weird when I start

eating, so I wouldn't want to do it.

I want to do like parody troll

videos. I think that's what I'm best at.

It's easy. It's no effort.

Well, it can be time-consuming editing the

video, but I feel like there's stuff

that's time-consuming and takes mental

effort because you, you're forcing

yourself to do something you don't want to

do. And then there's time-consuming

non-effort, which is like, it takes a lot

of time, but I don't really mind doing it

because it's easy. I'm just clicking

around.

The hardest part of making a YouTube video

is the footage.

You can't steal people's footage because

you get copyright problems. I don't want

to buy footage. I mean, I could buy stock

footage, but then I don't want to pay for

it. So you have to get your own footage,

which I got a lot of footage in Phuket,

which is why I was able to make that

video. But usually I don't have any

footage because I can't be bothered going

outside. So I don't know how to get

footage to make kind of troll parody video

essay videos.

I was thinking maybe there's AI

generating— AI generated videos, but the

only stuff that exists is they just get

stuff that's already on the internet.

Which is gonna be copyright protected.

So I just have to show my face because

I've got to show something, I guess.

Oh my god, the Phuket trip was so tiring

and stressful. I swear that was the most

stressful trip I've ever had. It was only

3 days, went on Friday and Came back on

Sunday, but it was so exhausting.

It felt like we were there for a month. I

want to rant about the whole trip. I just

want to, like, figure out where to start

It's a long rant.

You seem like you enjoyed yourself. Yeah,

on the video it looks fine. Looked like a

good time. But trust me, being there in

person was complete torture and a

nightmare. And some of it

was okay. Like there was some excitement

arriving there. The hotel was really nice.

The jacuzzi hot tub thing was really nice.

And I got some good footage of some nice

islands. But apart from that, it was a

complete nightmare.

So the moment we landed, the nightmare

began. This random Colombian guy came

up to us. So we landed at the airport in

Phuket and they've got these taxi vendors,

like taxi shops around the entrance. You

go up to them, say, I want to get a taxi

to this place. And then my girlfriend was

sorting it out, so she was doing all the

talking and I just stood at the entrance

of the airport looking at my phone. And

then I see her talking in English to some

white guy and I was thinking, okay, she's

just giving him directions. Maybe he's

lost. And then she comes over to me and

says, oh, this guy wants— asks us if he

wants— if we want to share a taxi with

him. What do you think my response was? I

was like, do we have to? And I whip out my

phone, start looking at the Uber app,

Grab, and I see a taxi to a hotel is going

to cost like 850 baht. Which is about $20.

It's nothing. It's peanuts. $20, get a

taxi to the airport. I mean, to the hotel.

That's nothing. $20. Come on.

And then she said we could split the bill

with him halfway if we share a taxi. And

I'm like, uh, but then we're only saving

$10. And then the guy comes over to me and

her because I was like standing away from

them. And then he was like, oh, hey, so

what's it gonna be? And then I'm like,

okay, I guess, because you know what I'm

like. I find it very difficult to say no

to people. And he was so like happy

looking and smiling and very friendly

looking. Mid— middle-aged guy, big

stomach, beard, backpacker kind of look.

Looked like he was like 45 years old from

Colombia. Colombian accent as well.

Give you an idea of this guy. So he looked

fine, didn't look weird or creepy or

anything, but I really didn't want to

share a taxi just to save $10.

So I have to say okay because I didn't

want to be the guy who was pissing on that

bonfire. My girlfriend loves saving money

no matter what, even if it's like $0.10,

she'll want to save $0.10.

So I begrudgingly said okay because I

don't have the guts to say no to people

face to face. Get in the taxi and it's

like the most awkward taxi ride in silence

for an hour. And I'm

just thinking, I can't believe these

people, just to save

$10, you want to have this awkward taxi

ride. Why? What? I just

don't get it. Oh, wow. Saved $10. Yay.

Hallelujah. Who cares about $10?

So I did talk to him a little bit.

I just said, hi, I'm, I'm from the UK.

Where are you from? He said he's from

Colombia, but he lives in California. So

I'm thinking, come on, you live in

California, the most expensive place in

America where people pay like $4,000 a

month for rent. Even if you're sharing

your apartment with 5 other people,

you're probably going to be spending like

$1,000 a month to rent in California.

California. I don't know a lot about

America, but I know California and Los

Angeles are like the most expensive places

to live. You live in California and you're

penny-pinching $10 for a freaking

taxi. Oh my God.

But he's like a backpacker type. Maybe he

just really wants to save every penny and

maybe he wants to make some friends and

chat to strangers because he seemed like a

very outgoing guy. But we did not

chat to him. Well, I didn't chat to him at

all in the taxi. I just sat there staring

at the floor in silence. And my girlfriend

chatted to the taxi driver in Thai for

like the first 20 minutes. The taxi driver

was this woman, very chatty woman. Thai

local woman, and they were chatting in

Thai for a good 10 or 20 minutes. And the

Colombian guy was, was looking backwards

and forwards to the taxi driver and my

girlfriend as if he was trying to jump

into the conversation, even though he

doesn't speak Thai. Pretty sure he doesn't

speak Thai, but it's like he was

pretending to be part of the conversation

when he obviously wasn't. The funniest

thing is when the conversation in Thai

stopped and then he started to try to talk

to the taxi driver in English. And he was

saying, oh yeah, Colombia is nice, full of

very nice, sociable, talkative people,

just like Thailand, which is why I like

Thai people. And then there was just dead

silence. The taxi driver just said, uh. I

don't even think the taxi driver

understood what he said. But I thought it

was so funny. He was saying, oh, I love

Thai people because they're so sociable

and talkative. And then there's just dead

silence. Yeah, real talkative and

sociable, aren't they? Anyway, the taxi

ride, I was fuming and I was just

thinking, should I rage when we get out of

the taxi? Because I was just so, so mad

that we had to sit in this taxi with this

stranger. But we got to the hotel and I

kind of calmed down. I thought, I better

not make a big fuss about this because,

you know, it's over. It's not going to

happen again. Just let it go.

So that was the first thing that really

pissed me off about the Phuket trip. I

hate sharing a ride with strangers.

Okay, train or bus is fine because it's

expected that you have to share it because

it's public transport. But when I get a

taxi, I expect it to be private.

And I feel like there's a certain

expectancy of conversation. I feel like,

okay, he's kind of expecting there to be

some small talk and banter because we're

sharing a taxi. So I felt pressure and I

felt nervous because when I feel like

there's an expectation of banter and I'm

not Giving it, I feel like, oh my God, I

must look like such a weirdo loser because

I'm just sitting here not talking. If it

was a real alpha man, then he'd be

chatting, be like, oh yo, what's up dude?

Blah, blah, blah. But I just don't want to

do that. I feel like an idiot.

So I just felt humiliated.

So yeah, 1 hour horrible taxi ride.

We get to the hotel. My mood gets better

because hotel's nice. Nice jacuzzi and

everything. Go to the beach.

Everything's fine. Walk around Phuket.

Yeah, first day was okay. Didn't get to

swim in the sea because of the rough,

wavy, choppy sea. One funny thing was

everyone in Phuket who was Thai kept

talking to my girlfriend in English or

Chinese. So it was like Thai people don't

think my girlfriend is Thai because

they're all super brown, really dark brown

looking people. And my girlfriend doesn't

look like that. So we arrive at the

airport and everyone's like, hello, miss,

you need taxi? And then she would reply to

them in Thai. At the beach, they had these

really dark-skinned guys. I don't even

know if they're Thai. Maybe they're from

Laos or Myanmar or something, trying to

sell us jet boat, jet ski,

parachute, parasailing rides. They kept

coming up to my girlfriend saying ni hao.

I thought it was funny because in the UK,

British people say ni hao to me because

they think it's hilarious. And in

Thailand, people say ni hao to my

girlfriend. So that's kind of relatable.

It was kind of annoying because we just

want to walk up and down the beach.

Constantly got these brown guys coming up

to us saying, ni hao, do you want a

parachute thing? No, I don't want to go on

your stupid parachute. The parachute

looked terrifying. They attach it to a

speedboat, hook you up into it, and then

some guy hangs off the back. No harness or

anything. He's just hanging from the

ropes. Controlling it. And then to land

it, he, he like jumps off holding onto it,

hangs off the back pulling it down.

And then they charge like 1,500 baht for,

I don't know, a minute on the parachute.

So they must be making pretty good money

doing that. But I don't know, there's like

20 of them on the beach directing where

the parachute's gonna land, and the guys

driving the speedboat. There must have

been like 20 guys, so even if they make

1,500, they're gonna have to split it 20

times, aren't they? So that's like divide

by 20, they're gonna be making 75

baht per person, which is like $2.

If they're doing it all day, I don't know

how many people actually do it. Let's say

100 people do it. Maybe they make a couple

hundred dollars per person doing that all

day.

No NF cuz is in Phuket.

I'm not in Phuket anymore. I came back to

Bangkok. What's he doing?

Vlogs.

Don't assume the guy is rich.

Well, if you're not rich, then why are you

living in California? I feel like

California is where you live when you're

like some kind of software engineer making

$100K a year. I mean, why would you choose

to live in California? If it's not for

work, because of the weather maybe. But

you're coming from Colombia. Colombia has

good weather, but then Colombia has like

the cartel and all the gang and drug

stuff. So I don't blame him for leaving

Colombia.

So we split the bill, ended up paying 450

baht instead of 800 baht. And I

was thinking, yay, we saved 400 baht,

which is like $5, I think.

400 baht in US dollars is— okay, it's $11.

I really don't care about saving $11 to

share a taxi. I just don't understand,

like, what kind of person goes up to

strangers in an airport and says, hey, do

you want to share a taxi? That's just

weird. Instantly, I would say no thanks.

But my girlfriend obviously

entertained the idea. Straight away, I

would just say no, no thanks, no thanks.

But because she had already started

negotiating and they were chatting

already, I found it hard to say no to the

guy. So I felt like if I said no, I'm the

one pissing on the bonfire because they

both seem so excited to share and split

the bill. So I didn't want to be that guy

who just rained on the parade.

Some people like sharing taxis to meet

people. Yeah, that's the impression I got.

He wanted some kind of social interaction,

maybe.

But I don't. I hate social interaction

with strangers. I think she still doesn't

understand it. I keep trying to explain to

her that I don't like talking to people.

Very hard to explain this to people who

don't get it. I just would rather not

have to talk to strangers. I don't mind

talking to staff because Because it's like

a service. I'm paying you to do something

for me. This is not small talk. This is

not banter. I don't want to talk to

strangers because I don't want small talk.

I hate small talk. Talking to staff is not

small talk.

I will avoid banter and small talk at any

chance I can.

So that was really stressful. And then the

second day, oh my God, it was probably the

most stressful day of my entire life.

We went on this boat tour to

a bunch of islands off the coast of

Phuket. And you might think, oh my God,

that sounds amazing, Daniel. Sounds really

adventurous. Bet you saw some amazing

islands. Had a nice swim in the sea.

I was dying. The speedboat was the worst

thing I've ever done in my life. The first

20 minutes were cool. You know, it was

just like a short 20-minute ride to one of

the closest islands. The waves weren't too

bad. But then the second island,

oh, it was 40 minutes on this packed

boat that was going like this. Woo, woo,

woo. The waves started to get really big

and rough. Um, an hour into the

tour. And every time we hit a wave,

the boat went up into the air, back down,

smashed back onto the surface of the sea.

It was like, whoa, whoa,

whoa, like that for 40 minutes.

And then you get splashed in the face with

the water every time you landed. There was

like a 50% chance of getting splashed in

the face because the boat design is so

stupid. It's got a roof, but there's

a small gap in between the roof and the

wall of the boat. And you get— the wave

would go and then splash you. And I was

soaked. The water splashed me in the face,

dripped down into my eyes. The salt water

was so painful in my eyes. And I was like

this. Trying to wipe the water out of my

eyes, and then we would still keep

bouncing off the waves whilst I was doing

this, and then more water would splash

into my face, and I felt stupid because I

should have prepared a towel. And I was

just like trying to wipe the water out of

my freaking eyes. Oh my God, it was a

complete nightmare.

I took this motion sickness pill, but it

didn't do anything. I felt so sick.

Yeah, we all wore life jackets,

but kind of pointless because we didn't

drown or anything.

So the first island, I was in a good mood

because it was only 20 minutes and the sea

wasn't too bad, and we did a bit of

paddling. I was going to swim, but I

didn't really want to get completely wet

and then get back on the boat packed full

of people. So I didn't jump into the sea.

I just sat on like the paddling surfboard

thing. We got a paddling surfboard and had

a paddle, and that was okay,

I guess.

And then we got back in the boat after.

We only have 30 minutes to swim

and stuff, and then they, they get us back

on the boat to go to the next place. And

then going to the next place was horrible,

like 40-minute horrible ride to the next

island. And I was so fed up, hated it.

The next activity was snorkeling,

and this is the point where I just had a

mental breakdown. I didn't even get out of

the boat. Everyone else got out of the

boat. A few people also stayed in the

boat, but they handed out snorkeling gear,

and I felt kind of bad now because my

girlfriend seemed like she really wanted

to do snorkeling, but I just, I couldn't.

I was like this on the boat. I was like

this.

I was just dead. I couldn't even stand up.

I was completely shell-shocked. From all

the— for 40 minutes.

And I didn't want to get in the sea. And I

feel kind of guilty now because she seemed

like she wanted to, but she didn't. She

didn't snorkel, I think, because she

didn't want to snorkel without me. So I

feel a bit guilty I didn't just get up and

put the snorkeling stuff on.

But I just couldn't. I was in such a bad

mood. I didn't even film anything, get my

camera out or anything, because I couldn't

be bothered. And then just sat in

the boat for 30 minutes and then another

nightmare boat ride for like 40 minutes to

the next island. It was called Cat Island.

It was just like this bit of sand,

barely even an island with a hut on it

with some restaurants. And I didn't even

take my phone with me. I just got off the

boat, went onto the island, and just

stood around playing with the cats.

And I was just so miserable.

I just felt like I wanted to actually die.

Couldn't wait to get back. We just stood

around the island for an hour. They gave

us an hour on this island. Didn't bring

any money. So we couldn't buy any food or

drinks because I couldn't be bothered to

take anything out my bag. I just got off

the boat with nothing. No phone, no money,

nothing.

It was the worst thing I've ever done. Do

not, do not go on it. I cannot

say strongly enough to not do it if you're

thinking about doing it. It was a horrible

experience. I hated it. Every second.

And I feel bad because my girlfriend

planned it and she thought it would be

fun. She hated it too, but I really

brought the mood down because I was so

miserable. And when I'm miserable,

I can't hide it. You see it on my face.

I am having a shit time.

So I brought the vibes down completely.

And she was kind of sad, and I just said

to her, it's not your fault, I'm just

feeling horrible, terrible and horrible.

Not going to lie, I hate this. We got

back, back to the tour

headquarter place in the main place of

Phuket, got back on the minibus, and I was

sitting there thinking Oh, thank God.

Thank God it's over.

It was horrible. And then we went back to

the restaurant, to the hotel, and then it

was like 7 or 8 PM. I'm starving hungry,

super tired and fatigued. And we go to the

hotel restaurant and I'm thinking, okay,

now I just want to have a nice meal.

There's no one in the restaurant. Great.

No, no people I have to worry about.

We order the steak at the

bar. There's like 3 waitresses, a

bartender standing around doing nothing,

just chatting because there's no

customers. And we order. I tell my

girlfriend I want this steak, sirloin

steak with chips. And then she says in

Thai that I want the steak. And we go and

sit down at the table. I'm waiting like 30

minutes and still no freaking steak.

So she waves over to the staff,

says, hi, hey, we ordered a steak. Where

is it? And they didn't even start making

the steak. They, they're not even making

anything. I don't know what happened,

like some kind of miscommunication, but

they didn't seem To get the order, even

though we clearly ordered the steak at the

counter. So I'm sitting there starving,

waiting for 30 minutes for nothing. And I

actually lose my temper and I raise my

voice at the staff, which I've never done

in my entire life. And I was like shaking

because of the adrenaline. And I was like,

but we ordered the steak at the bar. How

come you're not making it? I actually

raised my voice at the waitress. I was so

pissed off because

this happens a lot in Thailand. It

happened the day before we went to Burger

King on the first day in Phuket. We went

to Burger King and I was waiting like 20

minutes for my freaking burger. I ordered

a chicken cheeseburger at Burger King and

I saw the guy give my burger to a

different guy. And then he realizes

they gave him the wrong order, order, and

he ran to the guy, said, sorry, this is

the wrong order. And I can tell that's my

burger because I can smell it. I can smell

the chicken and cheese. And they put the

burger in the bin and start making a new

burger for me. They're so stupid.

They can't, I don't know what is wrong

with them here. They can't get orders

right. So I'm sitting there waiting for 30

minutes for my Burger King burger Chicken

and cheese. And I see them in the kitchen,

like there's a woman and it was a young

guy who was making my burger and doing the

order. And the woman is telling him off

saying, you did the wrong order. This is

the wrong one. What are you doing? Get the

burger back. So he runs back to get the

burger. So I was pissed off because of the

Burger King thing. And then the same thing

happens again the next day. We order a

steak and they don't even make the steak

until we say, excuse me, where's my steak?

And they gave us a free plate of pineapple

and watermelon, and they gave us a 20%

discount to say sorry. But my

girlfriend starts crying because I'm like

raging. She thinks I'm raging at her,

which I'm not. She said, why are you angry

at me? Why don't you be angry at them? I

said, I'm not angry at you. I'm just

angry. So she thinks I'm being angry at

her. So she starts crying. So now I'm

getting more angry because I'm like, why

are you crying? I'm not angry at you, I'm

just angry because they, they're so dumb.

Why? Where's my steak? Oh my God.

I like to bitch and moan a lot when I'm

pissed off. She doesn't like it. She

thinks I'm being angry at her when I'm

not. I'm just bitching and moaning.

Oh, thanks, Blood Bucket.

Usually I don't have anger issues and I'm

quite patient and calm, but after a whole

day on this torture ride speedboat,

I just broke. I was at breaking point. I

was starving. I was Hungry, tired,

and these idiots can't even get an order

right. Completely empty restaurant, not

like they were rushed off their feet.

They're just standing around laughing and

chatting. This is the thing that pisses me

off about Thailand. They don't take their

work seriously. They're just standing

around laughing and chatting and playing.

It's weird to use the word playing because

it's like you're talking about kids, But

the word playing is exactly the word I

would use to describe people here.

They're laughing and slapping each other

and having a good time when they should be

working. This is not playtime.

You're supposed to be working.

Make my fucking steak, not laughing and

chatting and looking on your phone. I'm

getting so pissed off. At the customer

service in this country.

Oh my God.

They're just having a jolly good time,

laughing and chatting. It's so irritating.

I'm like sitting there waiting for my

order, looking at them slapping and

running around like they're kids. They

look like they're kids. Like 15-year-olds

at school. They're supposed to be adults

at work. I'm paying you to make my fucking

food.

I get so annoyed. Like yesterday

we went to a ramen restaurant at our local

supermarket and I now have trauma that

they're going to forget my order. We order

ramen, fried chicken, and a beer. Waiting

for the ramen comes first. And I'm

thinking, where's my beer? Surely the beer

should come first because you don't have

to make the beer. You just take it out of

the fridge. So I said, maybe you should

ask if they forgot my beer or not. I think

they forgot the beer because they didn't

bring it until we asked for it. So now

I've got trauma every time we go to a

restaurant. Have they forgotten my order

again? Please tell me you didn't forget

it. We just ordered it. You wrote it down

on a piece of paper. We shouldn't have to

keep reminding you to bring me my beeru.

So I'm so triggered now at restaurants.

Why is it so hard? I order a beer,

you bring me the fucking beer.

This boat trip in Phuket has really broken

me when it comes to ordering food at

restaurants. I'm actually shaking

right now with anger.

I just, I don't understand it. Why is it

so difficult for them? You write my order

on a paper and then you go and get it.

It's like they write down your order and

then they forget and you have to

constantly keep reminding them.

So I had a terrible time day 2 in Phuket.

I couldn't control my temper anymore.

And I mean, I'm at like 90% rage mode

right now. I was at maybe 40% rage mode.

I usually don't activate rage mode unless

I'm alone. And I'm streaming and I'm in a

safe place. I never rage mode in public in

front of people. And I never rage mode at

staff because, you know, I never want to

be that guy who's rude to staff. But I

just, I couldn't contain it anymore. I

actually snapped and I was shaking. I was

like, like my body language was all over

the place with my anger. I actually nearly

Could have broke something. Like, I— if

I rage mode another 20%, I could have

actually smashed something because I was

pissed. I don't usually raise my

voice in public, but that was the one time

when I just couldn't control it any

longer. Oh my God.

But after I let the rage out, I felt kind

of stupid, like I was a spoiled kid.

I'm just so sick and tired of ordering at

a restaurant and it costs— ordering food

at a restaurant is expensive. So I'm

paying all this extra money. The food was

okay. I mean, they cooked the steak

eventually and it was fine and everything,

but come on, it's just a steak. It wasn't

amazing, but you're going to be paying

like I think the bill for 2,

2 of us was 870 baht after the

discount. So without the discount would

have been over 1,000 baht, and that's like

$28. I could have done a whole week's

grocery with $28.

So I always get pissed off with how much

money I'm having to pay at restaurants

just for getting pretty basic food. Like,

oh, ramen. I could make ramen myself and

it would taste the same

and it would cost like $1.

But I finally understood why Jeremy

Clarkson punched his producer for not

preparing dinner when Jeremy Clarkson got

fired by the BBC. I finally get it.

Because when you're hungry, you're so

angry. You just want the food to be

being made. I want it now. Stop messing

around. Come on, give me my food.

So I had my food, calmed down. I said

sorry to my girlfriend.

Didn't mean to make her cry, but it's

collateral damage. You ever tried fasting?

I can't. I get so hungry

and I can't control myself. I just start

eating snacks and chocolate and stuff.

And then day 3, um, we checked out the

hotel, we rented a car, drove around

Phuket for a bit. It was okay. It was

raining. Saw some viewpoints. Had a nice

morning. Had a nice little morning swim in

the hot tub, which I really enjoyed. It's

really nice. I had a nice, nice cool

refreshing swim in the little hot tub.

Nice view, but then it started raining and

I was sad because I wanted to swim in the

sea. Still didn't get to swim in the sea,

which I'm still annoyed about. So last

year, remember I went to Malaysia and I

was hoping we would go and swim in the

sea, but we didn't get to because we

didn't go to any of the nice beach places.

And the only beach we went to was Penang,

but it was all brown and wavy. So it's sad

we didn't get to swim in the sea like back

in 2018. 2018, went with my family, my dad

and you know who, and we went to Redang

Island again on a speedboat, which I

hated. But Redang Island was really nice,

blue seas, calm seas. We went swimming in

the sea, really nice. I wanted to do that

again, so I thought, okay, Phuket, famous

for its blue seas. Day 1, we go to Patong

Beach. And it's just really wavy and

windy. No way I'm getting in that sea.

Day 2, yeah, we went to some nice seas,

but I was not in the mood to swim after

the speedboats. Day 3, raining and

waves again, so we— I didn't get to swim

in the sea, just swam in the little hot

tub.

I want nice sandy beach, swim into the

sea, and it's calm, and I'm looking at

little fishies, but I can't do it. Every

time I go to a beach, it's brown and wavy.

You had your chance on the previous days.

No, the first day was really windy and

choppy. Second day, I was in a bad mood

because of the speedboat. Do you think I'm

gonna jump into the sea, get completely

wet, and then have to climb back?

And also, they only give us 30 minutes,

so we're being shepherded around like a

flock of sheep on the stupid speedboat.

You know what I felt like? I felt like a

sheep. I felt like cattle. I felt like

livestock. Shepherding us around on this

speedboat, maybe 20 people of

people on the tour, saying, okay guys,

you got 30 minutes here, get in the sea,

start having fun. Tick-tock,

back on the boat, back onto the boat to

the next destination. Okay, you got 30

minutes here, do some snorkeling, have

fun, start having fun now. And then we're

back on the boat after 30 minutes and got

an hour at the next place. It's just

annoying. This is why I don't like tours.

I hate tours. But this is the only way you

can experience this because you can't like

get your own boat, I guess.

So I felt like a sheep. They were— I mean,

we are their livelihood. They make

their money from us. So we're like their

prized livestock they have to shuttle

around to these different islands. And I

just, I felt like I was a commodity. So it

felt weird and I wasn't in the mood to

like start having fun after the horrible

speedboat and then get completely soaked

in the sea and then have to climb back

into the boat. And the boat floor was all

wet and like covered in sand and was gross

and everyone's barefoot and stinks of

feet. And there's like 20 people, all of

them like Indian brown people, by the way.

Not a single white person, because, you

know, white people don't like tours. You

noticed white people never seem to go on

these big tours. So you're walking around

Bangkok or Tokyo or some kind of tourist

attraction and you see tour guides and

there's like 50 Indian people or Chinese

people. And you know they're Chinese

because you can hear them speaking

Chinese. It's always Indian and Chinese

people on these massive tours. Have you

ever seen like 50 white guys? On a tour.

Western people don't do these tours

because we know they suck and we want

freedom and we want to like enjoy a

holiday with our girlfriend or loved one

or our family. And can you imagine going

on holiday with like 100 strangers? I

can't. But these buses pull up and

like 100 Indian people pour out with a

tour guide and I just, I don't get it.

You're on holiday and you're being

shepherded around with 100 strangers. And

unless they're all family, I mean, they

could be like big family. I really doubt

it though. It just seems like such a shit

way of going on holiday. I go on holiday,

I want to spend time with my family or my

loved one, not on a bus full of

people and someone telling me, okay,

we're going here, we're going there. You

got 1 hour to do this and then we're going

there. Where's the freedom and

independence? I would never want to go on

a tour, but the tour on this boat tour

thing, everyone was like Indian or

something brown. Not a single white

person. And then we pull up at the lagoon

at the islands where all of the other tour

boats— this is not the only tour boat.

There's like 10 tour boats all doing the

same tour. So we arrive at the destination

and there's like 10 of the same tour boats

and they're all Indian or Chinese. Maybe

one— I'd say I saw maybe 2 white people

out of like 100 people.

And I reckon they're from East Europe,

like Ukraine or something. Slovakia,

Latvia, maybe Polish. Definitely not,

um, Western European.

I didn't hear a single British person

apart from Phuket. If you go to Phuket or

Patong town with the beach and the bars,

I heard a lot of British people. But on

these tour things, not a single British

So that's just an observation that Western

people do not do these tours, and I don't

Patong was full of Indian people as well,

like full of Indian and Turkish people and

Middle Eastern people. Not a lot

of white people until we went to Phuket

Old Town And then there were quite a lot

of white people at the street market and

stuff. It's just weird how different

ethnic groups and nationalities congregate

at different types of places.

That's just my observation.

Yeah, day 3, we rented the car,

drove around Phuket, saw some of the

viewpoints, drove to Phuket Old Town.

Um, we went to the museum, but like,

for some reason, every time we go to the

museum, we go right before it closes,

like 4 PM, and most museums close at 5.

So we're rushing around and you You know

how much I love history. I want to spend

at least a couple hours reading the

history, but we only have like 40 minutes

in the Phuket History Museum, and I was

kind of annoyed because I wanted to read

the history. The history of Phuket is

quite interesting.

It's mostly about Chinese people

immigrating to Phuket to mine tin because

British the British Empire wanted tin,

so they're mining tin at Phuket. Loads of

Chinese people immigrated to Phuket to set

up, uh, tin mines, and they set up towns

in these kind of European/Chinese-esque

architecture. It looks like— I don't know,

Phuket Old Town has like a European Dutch

kind of looking town with these European

buildings, but they, they call it

Sino-European architecture.

It's this style that they, they had in the

British colonies. And yeah, it was really

cool and interesting to read about the

history. A shame I didn't get to, to,

to read everything and have an enjoyable

experience in the museum.

Apparently the word Phuket is actually a

Malay word from Bukit. So if you've been

to Malaysia, you'll know places like Bukit

Tinggi and Bukit something else. It means

hill. So Phuket is like the Thai

romanization spelling of Bukit.

It just means hill or mountain area

because Phuket is like very mountainous

and hilly.

And it was mostly built by Chinese people.

Surprise, surprise. But these days,

I don't know where the Chinese people

went. I guess with the tin— I don't know

if tin is in high demand anymore. I guess

they have other mines for tin.

Not in Phuket, so I guess they just moved.

And then the—I don't know—places like

seems like mostly brown Thai people, not

Chinese Thai people catering for

the tourists.

I don't think I want to live there. Also,

there was like a massive tsunami there,

wasn't there? Back in two thousand. 2004,

which I actually forgot about. And I was

looking up videos of the place I stayed in

getting wiped out by a tsunami, which was

kind of chilling and weird. I was— 2004,

I was like 15 years old. I was not

interested in what was happening around

the world. I didn't even know about Twin

Towers until I was like 20. And it

happened when I was like 11, I think. I

had no idea what was happening around the

world. So yeah, I Googled about this

tsunami which happened back in 2004.

230,000 people died, not in Phuket,

but across the Indian Sea and Indonesia.

And it hit Thailand, Phuket. I think like

10,000 people in Phuket alone died, 2,000

of which were tourists. That was pretty

scary to find out about this. It was in

the place I stayed, Patong Beach.

So yeah, imagine you bought a house in

Phuket and it just gets destroyed by

tsunami. So I wouldn't really want to live

there. Plus it's just full of tourists,

which I don't like to live in a place

that's full of tourists. It's just

annoying. I like being surrounded by

tourists when I'm a tourist.

So I was watching videos of— there were—

there are some videos of the tsunami

happening back in 2004 before— I

guess this is before YouTube was even a

thing. People were vlogging it.

It's pretty scary hearing the screams and

stuff and the panic.

Damn, I gotta clip that rant when I'm

complaining about Thai service stuff. I'm

gonna put that on my second channel. That

was a pretty good rant. I think that's

like second channel worthy content.

It's a nice place, I guess. Didn't really

have any good food. I mean, the first day

I had a Scotch egg for lunch, like a big

Scotch egg. First thing I saw, we went to

Central Patong shopping mall and went down

to the food court, and they had loads of

British food for some reason. Sausage

rolls, Scotch eggs, quiche, pies. I had

the Scotch egg. It was pretty crap.

Didn't taste like a Scotch egg at all.

It's like very doughy, sausagey kind of

meat with an egg in the middle. Very

disappointing. And then for dinner, we had

Burger King because the

taxi shuttle only picks us up at 6

PM or 9 PM. And my girlfriend thought we'd

stay until 9 PM. But I was like, I don't

really want to stay past 6 PM because this

is Phuket. I don't really

want to be around when all the drunk

weirdos, like the drunk Fat Betty White

guys, come out with the prostitutes and

like the go-go girls saying, young man,

excuse me, young man. I don't really want

to be around when all the whores and the

fat sleazy drunk guys start coming out.

So I thought, I said to her, let's go back

at 6 PM because, you know, tomorrow we'll

wake up early. Had to wake up at freaking

6 AM the next day, by the way, to get the

taxi which picked us up at half past 7 in

the morning to shuttle us, taxi us to the

boat place. So I had to wake up freaking 6

AM in the morning to get ready, have a

shower, have— I take a very long time to

wake up because first I wake up,

I make my coffee, I'll wait for the kettle

to boil, go drink my coffee. It takes a

while for the coffee to cool down. It

takes like 10 minutes before I can

actually begin drinking the coffee because

it's so damn hot. And it takes me like 20

minutes to drink my coffee. I'm watching

YouTube and stuff, checking my analytics

email. And then after I finish drinking my

coffee, I go do my pushups. Takes me a few

minutes and then I have my shower. Takes

me about 6 minutes. Then I'm blowing my

hair dry. I'm getting dressed,

getting dressed and stuff. So by then it's

been like 40 minutes.

So it takes me a long time to get ready in

the morning. So if we're getting out at

half 7, I need to wake up maybe 6:00.

Yeah, I was really tired, but I knew I had

to wake up, so I just forced myself. So I

didn't hang— we didn't hang around into

the evening, the night. We didn't see the

nightlife because I don't like the types

of people that come out during the

nightlife. It's just like very chavvy

looking people covered in tattoos,

smoking weed. And I just—

I don't— call me stuck-up or whatever,

but I don't want to be around that. The

smell of weed starts to get very strong as

well.

So we looked around for food. I didn't

really know what to get. The restaurants

look weird. I didn't really like— didn't

want to eat Thai food, so I just saw

Burger King and We've only got like 1 hour

left. I'm hungry. Let's just get Burger

King. It took freaking half an hour for

them to get my order because Thai customer

service again, they can't get orders right

to save their life. It would be faster if

they just let me in the kitchen and make

my own burger. I thought Burger King,

they have all the food ready, like they've