life is about to change and i'm scared [87qpDebmeyA]

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Do you like my new angle?

I like this angle more, but the

light is coming from that side and this

side is all shadow, so it looks

dark.

I miss my old angle where I put the camera

here, but I can't now because this monitor

is so big. And then when I put it behind

the monitor up there, then it's too high

up. I don't like it so high up.

Tricky figuring out where to put the

Hmm, okay.

Maybe like that.

So I've got some stuff to talk about

Scary scary

stuff.

So I was thinking I'd still be in Thailand

for another 5 or 6 months, but I think

I'll probably be leaving sooner than we

expected through no fault of my own.

Seems like changes to the plan have

started to be put in motion.

I hate this part of the journey, you know,

the sad bit when it's like the end of an

era. You feel like the end is coming soon.

Starting to get that feeling.

Chihiro's been messaging my mum recently

as well. My mum sent me a message

yesterday. She sent me a picture of my

girlfriend. You remember when I

re-livestreamed and I accidentally showed

her face? She sent me a screenshot of the

stream with my girlfriend's face in it.

And I said, where did you get that photo?

And she said, someone sent it to Chihiro.

And then I said, how do you know that?

And then she said, because Chihiro told

me. Why did Chihiro just send you a

picture of me and my girlfriend? It's so

weird, don't you think? My mum has already

seen my girlfriend. I sent her a picture

already of us together. So I don't know

why Chihiro is sending my mum a picture of

me and my girlfriend that was leaked,

probably by some Redditor or troll. So

kind of weird. And then she told me,

please stop making videos about her. But I

already made the video about why I hate my

ex-wife. I made that before my mum started

messaging me, so it's too late, isn't it?

I already had the video ready to go.

She keeps saying Chihiro is my friend and

I'm like, no, she's not. She's some random

Japanese woman I married. I'm your son.

Why are you taking the side of some random

Japanese woman who I married and divorced

over your own son. It is so weird how she

thinks Chihiro is her friend.

Why? The only kind of relationship

they would have is through me. And when I

severed the relationship, that means by

default it is severed between my mum and

her as well. You can't just be friends

With some woman your son used to date or

be married to. So weird.

But yeah, she keeps saying Chihiro is her

friend. Her fwend.

Oh, thanks, Gerbert Sherbert. Well, I

haven't seen you in ages, Gerbert.

Missed you. I remember you from

the subathon cyclothon.

I'm really kind of sad and a bit

disappointed and stressed out recently.

Why is my stream lagging? Is it lagging or

is it just the camera?

Are you doing YouTube full-time? Yep,

YouTube is my only way of making money.

Well, apart from the stock market. Stock

market's been really good this week. I

made loads. I made hundreds of pounds.

I should look into selling soon so I can

book some profits, otherwise I'll just

lose it all again. But it's been great

recently. I feel rich. I need to sell off

some so I can pay my tax.

Is the tax situation still affecting your

cereal making? No, it's been a bit better,

being a bit more in the mood, mainly

because, yeah, I think I know basically

what I'm gonna do with the tax problem.

I'm going to Oh,

thanks, Gerbert. Very generous.

Whenever you like.

How much do you even make? I make— well,

for last month I made about $950.

I think for this month I'm on track to

make nearly $1,100,

which is quite nice. But then January is

going to be really rubbish.

I also bought £500 of Japanese yen

in cash delivered to my mum's house

because the exchange rate is really good

and I'm a bit worried it won't be so good

So the big problem now is I

thought I was going to stay in Thailand

until May because that's how long I can

stay here because I got the 11-month visa.

I extended it for 3 months last week and I

should be able to get another 2 months.

So I was expecting to be here until May,

which is quite a long time, not have to

worry about leaving anytime soon. But now

my girlfriend seems completely dead set

on this idea of going to America,

and she wants to go in March. And I keep

saying, why do you want to go in March so

badly? Why don't you just wait until May?

But she's like, no, I have to go in March

because of some school she wants to sign

up to. The semester begins in March, so

she wants to leave end of February. And

then she said I can stay here in the

apartment. But that doesn't make any sense

because when I leave,

what are we going to do with the

apartment? All the stuff, my fish tank,

sorting out things like canceling the

internet. What about the electric bills?

How am I supposed to sort all that out by

myself? Or is she going to do it over the

phone? And be like,

you just take all the stuff, put it in the

bin, everything sorted, you can leave.

And then I'll just leave. Maybe it'll be

like that. I mean, I could stay here for 2

months after she's left and just live here

That's one possibility.

But I'll go be sad. Just go. I'm going to

be sad just being here left alone.

After being here a year with her.

I keep— I kept trying to tell her America

is not some paradise

wonderland where everyone goes to and then

just becomes rich. But she doesn't believe

me. I think her whole family are trying to

convince her into going to America. Her

sister loves America. She's like obsessed

with America, thinks it's the best place

in the whole world. Her mum probably has

high opinions of America. Her uncle lives

in America and has a business and can get

her a green card. So it's like they're all

telling her to ditch Daniel and go to

America. So I can't win. You think you can

win against a Thai girl's family? There's

no chance. In Southeast Asia, family is

number one. You can't compete

against the girl's family.

Even though they don't know what they're

talking about. I study economics all day

long. I know what's going on in America

more than they do. They've all got this

Goldilocks rose-tinted goggles perspective

and opinion of America.

And I keep trying to tell her it's not

like that. The average American is broke.

They're in debt. They work 2 jobs.

They're living paycheck to paycheck.

They're living with friends just so they

can rent an apartment. They're living with

parents because they can't afford it.

So it's not like, oh, all Americans are

loaded and rich because they live in

America. It's like thinking, oh, there's

no broke people, no homeless people, no

people living in poverty in America

because, you know, you just go there and

get a job and then you earn loads of

money. It's magical paradise, isn't it?

But she seems convinced that she can go

there and make loads of money. Her sister

keeps telling her she can make loads of

money too. I don't know what she's talking

about. I said to

her, I'm not going with you to America

because I don't like America. It's

expensive, it's dangerous, it's boring.

As someone who comes from the UK, why

would you be interested in going to

America? The USA is basically just Europe

2.0. It was colonized by the Europeans,

it was built by the Europeans in the style

of Europe. So to me as a European, I don't

care about America. It's boring. I like

Asia because it's different and it's

interesting and it's cheap. So America

has no appeal to me at all.

Plus it's really expensive. I just looked

at hotels. For Washington, one month in a

hotel in Washington, D.C. For the cheapest

hotel, it was like $4,000 for a

month in a hotel. That's insane. For the

cheapest hotel, that was the cheapest I

could find. $4,000.

So I wouldn't be able to even stay there.

Like 2 weeks in a hotel in Washington

would be, what, over $2,000? It will

literally bankrupt me if I try to go

there. It's so expensive. I don't want

to go there. I can't even afford to go

there, so I'm not going to go there. So

going there is kind of out of the, out of

the equation.

A lot of people outside the US believe

everyone's a millionaire here. Yeah,

especially people from third world

countries. They're all desperate to get to

Europe or America.

But people in America are doing the exact

same thing people all over the world are

doing. They wake up, they go to work,

they work some job they probably hate.

They study, go to school. Life in Japan

or Thailand is probably the same as it is

in America. People do the same stuff.

It's just different place, numbers a

little bit different, like one extra digit

on top of everything. It's like weebs

thinking Japan's this amazing holy land.

It's going to fix their entire life. They

go there. It's basically like weebs,

isn't it? Weebs fantasize about Japan

because they watch anime and they think

it's some kind of amazing paradise.

There's a lot of that kind of thing going

on with America from Asian people.

I think, you know, a lot of People

glamorize the lifestyles of Americans,

think, oh, they all own massive houses and

drive massive cars and they drive Teslas.

They make like $100K a month or this and

And sure, a lot of people do. But those

people, they have businesses and they're

smart and they're

clever and they've got the entrepreneurial

spirit. I think if you've got that spirit,

you, you can recreate the same success in

any country. Well, maybe not Africa,

any developed country.

So I'm like, what,

what can you do in America that you can't

do in Bangkok? Bangkok is a great city.

It's a big city full of opportunities. I

don't know why She has to go all the way

to America. It just doesn't make any sense

to me. So I don't know what the

whole plan is. How long is she going to be

there? Sounds like she's going to be there

for a while.

So I don't really know how things are

going to pan out. I thought she was going

to come with me to the UK and go to my

sister's wedding. But she says she doesn't

have money and she can't work in the UK,

and she's got an opportunity in America

because of her uncle.

I thought she would just stay in Thailand,

like, stay here and then I'll come back

because this is our home.

What state? She said Washington,

but then she told me she lied because

because she knew I was going to say it on

stream. But I think it is Washington. I

don't know. Confused now.

So I don't know. I tried to tell her that

America sucks, but she won't believe me.

I can't really tell her otherwise. She

can— I mean, it's up to her, really.

She seems upset because I was making plans

like buy a house in Japan and rent a car

and visit Japan again. And she said I was

making plans without including her. And I

said, you can come if you want. I'm not

saying you can't come. What more can I do?

What more can I say? I can't afford to pay

for her as well. I'm broke.

You know, I don't even make positive money

every month anymore. I'm minus every month

because I owe my mum £500 a month.

No, I'm not going to America. So much

money. I don't want to go. I want to save

money to go to Japan. I want to go to

Japan again. My heart is in

Japan and Asia. Not anywhere else in

the world.

So it seems like end

of February, early March is when the end

of all this is going to come. Unless I

stay here by myself. Now, I don't know

what to do. I can either stay here by

myself or leave and go and live in a hotel

in central Bangkok, which would be

expensive. Or I could just go back home to

the UK and then sit around until June for

my sister's wedding, waiting. Or I could

go to Japan in March, do 3 months in

Japan, then go back to the UK before my

sister's wedding. I'm not sure what to do.

It's kind of disrupted my thinking and

plans. She says she wants to leave end of

February, which isn't much time

left until end of February. It's like 2

months and half of December.

So I could go to Japan again until June

and then just, I don't know, book a guest

house room and sit there being bored.

Well, I could just go home and then wait

until June and then go to Japan in maybe

July. I don't know. What do you think I

should do?

I mean, I could go to the USA and be funny

for content because I don't like it.

Imagine if I go and I actually like it and

I'm like, wow, American people are so

nice. Wow, America is so modern. It's not

full of crazy wackos like Twitter tries to

make me believe.

Oh, thanks, Johnny Somali. Tesla don't

have an engine, so they're not cars.

Well, I think a car is just something that

has wheels and moves.

I don't know. Go home and

save money. Yeah, I could do that.

Could go back in March,

but then I have to wait for March, April,

and June. Yeah, I mean,

I could wait there 3, 4 months until my

sister's wedding and then maybe head to

Japan. July or September.

Or I could go Japan, then the UK. I looked

at flight tickets, it's pretty cheap.

It's like £600 for a multi-city ticket.

Imagine I do a road trip across America

and then I get, I get held up in the

middle of the desert and then buried in a

hole like Breaking Bad.

Oh wow, thanks, Johnny.

I disagree. What would you call it then?

A vehicle? A vehicle?

Electric vehicle.

Do you want to live in Japan? I don't

know. I don't know if I want to live

anywhere. I just want to be in countries

for a few months and then go to a new

country. But then I also

don't want to keep moving around because I

feel sad having to leave places.

The difficult thing about Thai people is

it's really hard to travel with them.

They can only stay 2 weeks in Japan

without a visa. They need a visa to go to

the UK, so they can't just show up in the

UK without planning. They can go to

Vietnam without a visa. They don't have a

very good passport. British people, we can

just like go to Japan for 6 months, no

visa. Go to Korea, 3 months, no visa. Go

to Malaysia, 90 days. Go to Thailand for a

few months. There's not many countries

where we need a visa to even enter the

country or where we can only stay for 2

weeks. We can stay for a minimum of 90

days in a lot of countries, Japan being

the most important one.

It's really dumb though, because if you

don't have a return ticket, they'll

question you and they'll, they'll give you

a tough time and they'll be like, where's

your return ticket? But then if you buy—

what I always do when I go traveling is I

book a return ticket for 10 days later.

So it looks like, oh, I'm only there on

holiday for 10 days. And then I ditch the

return ticket. I don't use it. And then I

buy another ticket somewhere else. Maybe

that's a waste of money because I'm buying

a return ticket, not using it. But the one

time I just— I bought a single-way ticket

coming back to Thailand from Japan earlier

this year, and they gave me such a hard

time in the stupid detention center about

it. Where's your return ticket? You have

to buy one now. And I was like, okay, but

there's no internet here. How am I going

to buy one? So they said, okay, well,

make sure you buy one. You promise?

And I said, yes. I didn't buy

one. I'm still here a year later.

I don't believe that they don't have

internet or Wi-Fi in the airport in

Bangkok.

So just to be on the safe side, I always

book my return ticket a week or 10 days

later and then I ditch it. And then buy a

new ticket. It's just a little

travel hack.

At some point in your life, you need to

experience comfort independently in Japan.

Well, that was my dream, but I couldn't do

it because you need to get a job,

unfortunately, or you need to get a visa.

Maybe I can get a student visa in Japan

and then live independently. But then I

gotta go to school and pay for tuition.

And then for a work visa, obviously you

need to get a job, which I don't want to

get a job. I'd rather just go for 6 months

and leave and then come back again.

I don't really know what I want.

I want everything that I don't have, and

then when I have it, I don't want it

anymore. Like, I'm in the UK, I'm bored,

I want to go to Asia. I'm in Asia, I'm

bored, I want to go to Japan. I'm in

Japan, I'm bored, I want to go back to

Thailand. And then I'm bored again, miss

UK. So basically I can't be happy anywhere

because I'll just be bored. About any

situation I'm in.

It'll be weird going back home. It's been

over a year, and then going back to the

single life will be weird again. No one to

cuddle me at night. But then

on the plus side, I can buy stuff on

Amazon like the MacBook Pro on

credit, 12 months.

24-month finance system.

And I can eat pot noodle and bacon again.

And I could ride my bicycle. And I could

play with the cat.

So those are bonuses, I guess.

But then I feel sad leaving this place.

It's been my home for a year now.

I was hoping she would just stay here,

but she said she can't afford to stay

here. So if I— she said if I leave,

then she doesn't want to be here either.

So I don't know how she would be able to

stay here without me if she can't afford

it. But then I don't understand how she

can't afford to live here, but she can

afford to go to America and sign up to a

school. It doesn't make any sense. Maybe

her mum's gonna give— I think she said her

mum's gonna give her money. So very

convenient.

Give me some money too.

I was hoping she would just get a job. I

mean, she has a job, but it's not enough

apparently. I was hoping she'd get a job

and then be able to just stay here by

herself. You know, keep it warm for me

when I'm back, because eventually I'm

gonna come back here. Well, I was hoping

to. Now I don't know. How can

we— where can we live on a long-term,

medium-term basis? I don't want to go to

America. She doesn't want to go to the UK

because she can't work there. She can't go

to Japan. The only choice is Thailand,

isn't it? But I can only stay here for

about 90 days after my student visa is

over.

It's kind of tricky.

So she said she wants to go to America so

she can make money and then come to the UK

to visit me or come to Japan.

So it's like she's got money in

her sights so she could join me on my

travels. She said she'll send me money. I

said, no, I don't want your shitty

American money. Actually, I do. US dollar

is pretty strong. Send me those Benjis.

No, I said I don't want her to send me

money. It'd be weird. I don't want my

girlfriend sending me money like I'm a

charity case.

I think she actually makes more money than

me right now, but she has so much debt.

So she's always paying the money out as

soon as she earns it, whereas I don't.

I've only got my mum's debt already.

So what do you think I should do? Go back?

Really, the only two choices: I go back to

the UK or go to Japan.

I don't know.

If I go to Japan straight away, I can't

drive because I didn't get my

international driving permit.

I finally got the mount attachment for my

mic arm, so I got the mic on the stand.

It's pretty nice.

And then the fish tank. What do I do with

the fish tank? That is a big pain in the

backside. Why did I get a fish tank? I've

really enjoyed it though. It's been great.

The plants have grown so much. A 3rd

generation of shrimp are going to be

hatched in a few weeks, I think. I saw one

of the shrimp carrying eggs. And the baby

shrimp have all grown up now, they're all

big, big and strong. But what am I gonna

do with the fish tank?

Just flush it down the toilet? I don't

know what to do with it. I think the

responsible thing to do would be I catch—

I'm gonna have to catch every single thing

in there, put it into a container,

and then take it down the market and ask

if they'll take it off me. So they can

sell it. There's no point selling it,

it's worth nothing. It'd be worth like—

you know how much all the tank and the

fish and stuff cost me? Like $25 for

the tank, the filter, the light, the fish.

5 shrimp cost— it was like 5 baht per

shrimp, so 25

baht is like 50 cents.

I could release them into the lake in

Jack-to-Jack Park. They should be fine in

a lake. It's not salt water. Lake is fresh

water, isn't it? But the shock of the new

water will be— it could be fatal.

If you just dump fish into new water, the

stress can sometimes just kill them.

So I could free them into a lake,

but there's at least 30 shrimp in that

tank. I'm gonna have to catch each one one

by one, and it's way too heavy to be able

to lift the whole tank. Do you know how

heavy 10 gallons of water is? I think I

googled it and it said 38 kilograms is

how much 10 gallons of water weighs.

Yes, what I said.

So what I do is I get like a little

container, try and catch everything, put

it in the container with some of the water

in it, and then put all the plants in the

bin, and then siphon out the rest of the

water, flush it all down the toilet,

chuck all the gravel into a bin bag.

And then clean the tank out.

Lucky you didn't get a cat together.

Yeah, it's weird because just a couple of

months ago she was saying all this stuff

like, let's get a new apartment. We nearly

moved into a new apartment. What would be

the point of that if she's going to

America? And then she said, do you want to

get a cat? And I said no. And then she was

like looking at cars, thinking of buying a

car. So a couple of months ago she was

doing these kind of long-term staying in

Thailand-centric plans, and now all of

a sudden it's like, oh, I'm going to

America. Okay, well, what was the point of

all that stuff earlier then?

Make up your mind.

She's making these decisions because she's

looking to you to take some lead. Yeah,

exactly. How do you know that? So she was

really upset seeing me sell my tech

because it's like, oh, I'm getting ready

to leave, gotta sell everything. So that

kind of upset her. And then all my talk of

plans in Japan, like buying a house,

upset her too. Made her feel unstable.

But what can I do? I can't stay in

Thailand much longer. I don't know

how to get a visa. I can't afford the Thai

Elite Visa. There's not a lot of choices

I have. All I can do is go back home and

then wait for a while before coming back

to Thailand.

And whilst I wait, I'm going to go to

Did you stop ED visa? No, I renewed

it. I mean, I extended it for another 3

months, and I can also extend it for

another extra 2 months on top of that.

But she wants— seems like she doesn't want

me to extend it anymore, and she wants me

to go home to the UK so she can go to

In an ideal world, she would stay here

with me until May, until the end of my

visa, because I paid all this money for

the visa and I went through all

the effort of going to school every day so

I could get the visa. And now it's like 2

months of the visa is now going to be

wasted if I don't stay here for the last 2

months. So I feel a bit annoyed that I'm

wasting my money.

On getting the 1-year visa and then just

staying for 9 months. So she said,

don't extend it again, go back to the UK

so she can go to America.

That's not how I imagined it to go. I was

hoping she would stay here and then I

would leave and then she sought out the

apartment, then she would leave. But it's

like she wants to leave before I leave.

She also said she doesn't feel safe

because I keep telling everyone all our

plans on YouTube. Bit too late for

that, isn't it? I said,

why don't you feel safe? What are they

They're gonna bully us on the internet.

Oh no. People have known my address for

what, 6 years? Nothing's happened apart

from one viewer came over and

ditched his girlfriend at my doorstep,

which was a bit annoying, but it

wasn't too bad.

Maybe she thinks you want to live in the

UK. I don't want to live in

the UK. I want to go back for a bit and

then I want to leave again. I don't want

to be anywhere for too long. I like to

move around, but I don't

like to move around a lot. Like maybe once

a year I like to move around. Daniel, do

you love her? Oh, thanks, that's very

generous. Yes. What kind

of question is that? Obviously.

Why would I rush back to Thailand from

Japan if I didn't? I would have just

stayed in Japan, wouldn't I?

People know you live in Essex. No, I

don't. I live in Kent.

A completely different county. Why are you

scared? Because saying goodbye is always

hard. There's no way to make it easier.

I feel so comfy here. I've got all my

stuff here. I feel relaxed.

I don't like having to move. You know how

stressful it is when you move fish from

one fish tank to a new fish tank? And the

sudden water change can stress them out.

It's like that right now. I feel super

comfy, and now I have to leave and move

into another fish tank and then get used

to it. But it

took me a year for my gut to get used to

Thailand, develop the right gut bacteria.

Why is my whole life just moving around

from country to country for what, nearly

15 years now?

Getting tired of this.

If I go to Japan, I don't even know what

to do. I'll have to book a guest house and

just sit in the room all day.

I don't know what to do. I want to stream

and I want to make videos. That's like the

number one thing I want to do. So if I can

set up a home, a temporary home anywhere,

and do that, then I'll be relatively

happy. If I can stream and make videos, I

don't really care about much else.

And as long as it's a nice place and safe

and not too expensive.

So really, we're looking at 2 months.

That is not a lot of time.

I've got to start thinking about, you

know, packing up the tent,

back home to the bedroom.

How old are you? I'm 34. I'll be 35 in a

few months. Oh my God,

35. I still haven't got my life sorted

out. I thought by the time I'm 35 I would

have settled down.

You can stream at a net cafe? Not really,

because those places are really silent and

people are expected to be quiet.

So I'd feel— I went to a net cafe once to

make a video and it was so quiet. Even

whispering feels really noisy.

Prediction: you'll break up with her after

leaving. Oh, thanks.

I'm not saying anything, but I don't know.

I don't want to break up,

but you know what they say about long

Distance relationships.

Maybe I go to Japan with my sister. Oh,

that's so lame. Imagine you go on your

honeymoon, your stupid brother's like

tagging along. Because my sister's

also planning to go to Japan for the first

time ever in July. I don't want to go at

the same time because then it's like, oh,

I'm just following her. I followed her to

Thailand and I'm following her to Japan.

She'll be there for a month. I mean,

it would be interesting to meet her in

Japan. She's never been.

It's interesting to see her first-time

reaction to Japan.

I can't believe she's never been to Japan.

Why does no one in my family care about

Japan? Even my dad, he was never

interested in Japan. He probably thought

it was all just like big bustling city,

noisy and stressful, and he wants to go on

holiday to relax, not be in a big bustling

city.

Long-distance relationships. If you don't

close the distance in time, they'll

magically find a new boyfriend. Yeah,

that is pretty much what usually happens.

People would find someone else who's in

their vicinity, and then they spend enough

time together, and then they'll develop

new feelings. That happened to Sayaka,

my first Japanese girlfriend. When I was

17 or 18, I met her online and we were in

love and we were like boyfriend and

girlfriend for nearly 2 years. And I was

trying to work hard and save up money so I

can go and see her. She ended up— she was

going to an English class, like an English

language exchange, And then she met this

Czech Republic guy there.

Wait, is those people being noisy in the

corridor? And she told me about

him. She said he was scary and he grabbed

her and he was like standing in the

hallway or the doorway and then tried to

stop her from leaving. And I was like,

you should leave that English club. He

sounds like a weirdo. Because he was like

trying to make his moves on her while she

was with me, and then she ended up falling

in love with him. They spent all this time

together at the English club, and then one

day she said, Daniel, mo skidzhenayu,

don't like you anymore. I was devastated.

Cried in front of my dad. I was like, I

thought we were gonna get married and have

kids. I must have sounded like such an

idiot. Fell in love with this woman on the

internet, and we're both, what, 19, 20?

This is new info? No, I made a video about

it. It's called White Guy Stole My

Japanese Girlfriend. That was my first

ever girlfriend.

Stupid Czech Republic guy. She ended up

moving there and getting married with him

and had his kid. And then she works for

him now at his company. I think he started

some like AI tracking camera company.

He's doing all these AI robotic kind

of research work.

She lives in Prague. I was tracking her

for a while, but then she disappeared.

She banned— she banned me or blocked me on

Facebook, and then she took down her

website. She had a website where she sold

jewelry. It was very easy to find

her because you just put in her husband's

last name and her name, which is a very

unique combination of names.

I found her LinkedIn as well. Said she

works for him. Secretary, secretary or

something. So yeah,

when you've got that distance, all it

takes is another guy showing up.

And if he manages to weasel himself into

her life,

You've basically lost.

But that's what women are like. I came up

with this theory about women.

They've got a logical side and they've got

an emotional, physical side. And the

logical side almost always gets overridden

by the emotional, physical, intimate side.

If you can— so for example, when you go on

a date with a girl and you get

her in a secluded private area and you

make your moves, like you go for the hand

grab or you go in for the kiss, they will

just kind of be frozen in fear. Not fear.

It's kind of like a on the road,

frozen in its place by headlights,

because the logical side and the emotional

side is like trying to figure

out which direction to go in. Like on the

logical side of things, they probably

understand this could be a bad idea or

they're not thinking clearly, but then it

feels so good, the intimate, emotional,

physical in-the-moment feeling feels so

powerful and strong, overrides the logical

That's why I always say when you're on a

date, you've got to make your move quick

before the logical side takes over and

they say, actually, I'm going to go home

before they— it's kind of like pre-nut

clarity. Men have post-nut clarity. Women

have pre-nut clarity if you let the

logical side take over the emotional side.

That's why you got to get in quick, make

That's my new theory.

It's kind of

like, you know, in Diablo 4, you've got

the vulnerable states. You can put enemies

into a state of vulnerability where they

take extra damage depending on your build

or your playstyle. An enemy that has

vulnerability state on can take up to

150-200% bonus damage. And you've

got your cooldowns, your most powerful

weapons— I mean, your most powerful spells

and abilities on cooldown. When they're in

the state of vulnerability, you spam all

your cooldowns to do maximum damage.

That's kind of like what it's like being

on a date. But instead of having magic

spells, you got some— you know, as a guy,

you got cooldowns like intense eye

contact, the hand grab or the hand

touch. Going in for the kiss is basically

the ultimate cooldown. So when she's like

in that state of confusion, you go wham

with all the cooldowns all at once.

Because if you don't, the state of

vulnerability wears off and she comes to

her senses, and then you've kind of

screwed up your only window of

That's how it works when you're on a date.

Pretty much the same thing.

I should write a course on dating,

really. I've got so much wisdom.

So yeah, I don't know, can we survive a

long-term distance relationship when I got

all these hoes coming at me? Well, not

anymore because I'm not famous anymore.

How come you only score with 35 to

40-year-old women? No, had plenty of women

in their 20s as well.

I don't want to start listing it off

because it seems like I'm bragging. But if

you know, you know that there's been many

20-year-olds.

I can't find your white guy stole my

Japanese girlfriend vid. Yeah, I took that

down. I don't know why I took it down. It

was a good video. It got like 70K views.

I put their faces in the thumbnail.

Suckers. That's what you get for ditching

me. Going to make money off your face.

So I could go to the UK, go to Japan, and

then come back to Thailand for a few

months. And then what, leave again? Then

what's she going to do? I don't know.

There's no good solution here.

What's a good solution?

She would have to come back to Thailand

the same time I come back to Thailand.

And then we— where are we going to live

for 3 months? You can't rent an apartment

for 3 months. I mean, I guess you could,

but it'd be double the price of what you

should normally pay. So I have to, like,

rent a short-term apartment for a few

months and then leave again, and I'll go

to UK and Japan again. And she's like,

going to go back to America. I don't know

what's going to happen.

Life kind of sucks when you've got to get

My mouse is low battery.

Don't know.

Really what to do.

If she came to the UK, what's she going to

do? She can't get a job cuz she won't have

a work visa. Just sit around all day being

bored.

See, it really sucks when you can't make

money off the internet. Because then

you're kind of restricted to only

being able to live in a place where you

can work. I can go anywhere

I want. It's great.

But then it's tricky when you're in a

relationship with someone who can't go

wherever they want. And I'm not rich

enough to be able to just pay for them.

If I was super rich and like making Chris

Broad money, I would just like get her

visa or I don't know, pay for everything,

wouldn't I? It wouldn't be a problem if

money was no issue.

She was excited to come to the UK for

Christmas, and we nearly did all the visa

stuff, but then I changed my mind because

I got worried about tax. It's too much

money, and the whole visa application

process was a pain in the backside.

I needed to move £6,000 into my bank

account to have a bank statement to show

the visa people.

I don't have that much money to just move

into my bank account. I gotta pay £7,300

in about a week's time. I'm waiting for my

Tesla stock to go up so I can sell it and

then use that money to pay it.

I've only got 12 days Until my deadline.

I think it's okay if I'm late. They'll

just charge me a bit of interest, like 50p

a day.

I don't think it's like a hard deadline.

It's just like a soft deadline.

They probably want me to pay it late. So I

pay more interest. Why would they

encourage me to pay on time when the

longer I don't pay it, the more money they

So what do you think I should do?

Japan could be fun for content if I go

again, depending on what I do.

I can't really afford it though. If I do

go to Japan, I'll be dipping into my

savings because after I pay my mum back,

I've only got about £400 left over.

Maybe it's enough to Book a guesthouse.

Also, I have my Japanese yen cash at home.

Japan is really cheap now though.

Like ¥45,000 a month guesthouse.

That's only a couple hundred dollars. I

could probably get a fancier guesthouse

like ¥60,000 a month.

I remember when I was younger, looking at

the, the Shinjuku guesthouses and they

were like ¥60,000, ¥70,000. And I was

like, that is so expensive.

But ¥70,000

is $500. That's not that much.

And they're quite nice guesthouses. Very

big rooms,

big kitchen. Hopefully they have

cleaners. The problem with the guesthouse

is no one does the washing up. They just

dump all their dirty dishes in the sink

and leave. And then when it's your turn to

cook, everything is disgusting. I remember

the stove just being plastered in curry

stains and sauce and the sink full

of piled up dishes and you kind of have to

clean it, otherwise you can't use it.

So you end up having to clean other

people's stuff.

Yeah, guesthouse is pretty poverty, but

it's cheap. You get your own private room.

It's good for long term. It's better than

a dormitory. I mean, there's 10 people

mixed dormitories that cost more than a

guesthouse. Why would you choose that over

a guesthouse? You got capsule hotels, but

they're expensive because they're kind of

a novelty thing. You can't

really live in a hotel for a month. It

will cost thousands, like $2,000 maybe for

a decent hotel, $1,500. And then crappy

2-star hotel, maybe $1,000. So the

guesthouse is so affordable. Plus you pay

in cash, so you're paying local cash

prices. When you book a hotel on a booking

website, you're kind of paying

international prices. You're not paying

local prices. So you're not really taking

advantage of the weak yen like you would

be if you just walk into a guesthouse

because they have to keep the same prices

for Japanese people, I think, as well.

I don't know what Airbnbs are like because

I'm banned.

But I think they're pretty expensive.

They're like hotel prices.

Why does my hair look all messy?

But the problem with the guest house is

even though I get my own private room, it

would be very hard to make videos because

of the other rooms next to your room. I'd

be very embarrassed. I'd have to speak

very quietly. I'd be like, hey guys, I'm

in my guest house now. It's pretty

nice. It'd be really annoying making the

video in a guesthouse room. I felt really

self-conscious about people being able to

hear what I'm saying. So I feel stupid

making a video and people can hear

me making it.

So I have to go back to what I used to do,

which was I'd go out in the evening or the

middle of the night to walk around. The

streets and make a video because no one

would be around. So it's either you sit in

the room in the guesthouse and talk really

quietly, which is boring because how am I

going to bring the energy and charisma

into the video if I'm sitting there

whispering? So that leaves the only choice

is to go outside and make videos. But

during the day, people are walking around,

so you have to go out at night when

there's no one around. Which is why all my

2017 videos, they're all made in the

middle of the night, me walking around

residential areas in Japan like a creep.

Until I moved into Chihiro's place, then I

finally had a place to make videos in.

The problem with the guesthouse room is

it's small, so the next room

is right on the other side of the wall.

In an apartment, you are like a big space.

So I don't know. Ideally, a hotel room

would be best, but it's expensive. Or an

apartment, like a rented apartment. You

know that apartment I stayed in the first

week I went to Japan with the trains going

by every 5 minutes? That was not bad. It

felt like a homely apartment. That train

was so annoying though. Every 2 minutes I

think it was going by,

and it was pretty depressing. I met this

old woman, had a chat with this old woman

outside at the entrance, and I can't

imagine being her. She lives there because

she probably has no money and that's all

she can get. But it's like a miserable,

tiny apartment in a miserable building

block next to the train tracks. It

probably costs like $150 a month and she

probably lives there all alone. I don't

know if she's got kids or grandkids, but I

felt kind of sorry for her.

That's where old people in Japan end up,

like all alone. Their partner probably

died 5, 10 years ago. They probably have

kids somewhere in Tokyo. I don't know

where. They end up in a tiny, miserable

little apartment all alone. They'll

usually die in it and then get found weeks

later and then taken off to a hospital or

a more— what's it called? A morgue.

It's kind of sad, isn't it? But what

are you gonna do? Got no husband, got no

money.

If you're an 80-year-old woman, what are

you gonna do? You don't have your looks

anymore. Husband probably died 10 years

Seems like you're sold on the idea. What

of the guest house? I really don't want to

go from this to a guest house, but I don't

have a choice. What am I gonna do?

Blow thousands? I mean, I could just blow

thousands of dollars and then go home

anyway. Why not? I'm only there for 3

months. I could look at hotels now.

Where would I go? Oh, girlfriend messaged

me. Hello,

how are you? She's not watching

my stream, is she?

Why are you talking about your mum like

that? I'm not. I'm talking about your

average Japanese woman who's old. My mum's

lucky. She's got a massive home. She's got

a very generous pension and life insurance

that my dad left for her. In addition to

her own pension, she's got a massive

house, big garden, 2 kids,

one kid, me, who's like still dependent on

her.

Miss you too.

I think in a way my mum is kind of happy

that I'm still dependent on her because it

makes her feel like, I don't know, like

she has a role, like she's still needed.

Maybe my parents intentionally sabotaged

my development so I'd never be fully

independent. That was one of my theories.

Some parents are like that. They don't

want their kids to ever leave.

They want to look after them.

It's funny, my mum's boyfriend sometimes

comments on my YouTube videos.

I think they're still together. I don't

know. I think he still comes around.

I'm not a stay-at-home son. It's just I

like to travel. So going back

to my mum's house in between traveling is

a good idea. I'm not going to rent my own

place for 5 months in between travels.

His mum's house is like a gas station,

fueling up for his next move. Basically,

it's like an aircraft carrier.

Refuel, rearm, and then I go back out on a

bombing sortie. Across the Asia-Pacific,

and then I fly back home. I mean, I

literally fly back home and then land back

on the aircraft carrier, restock,

resupply, create a new plan.

Imagine if I had an aircraft carrier. I

just have like a, a massive aircraft

carrier in the sea, and then I live on

that. And then fly off to Japan or

wherever, and then fly back to the

aircraft carrier. Did you see on Chris's

new video? There's that guy. He's selling

that island for $200,000.

You could buy an island for $200K. A lot

of people would think $200K is not much

money. You just buy a whole island.

Do you think Sabrina's marriage will last?

They've been together for 4

years. I think they got together when I

was with Mila back in 2020,

but they've known each other for longer

than that. They knew each other as friends

for a couple of years before.

I don't know. They seem like they're