im bored

I'm so bored.

What happened to your crappy marriage?

I don't know, nothing happened.

I'm so bored.

Why is life so boring?

Ah,

my uncle and my auntie from

Australia are here and I

can't do anything.

So annoying.

I can't play piano because I feel,

I feel nervous about it.

I can't play piano because I

don't feel comfortable when there's people

in the house. Oh, thank you for the Super

Chats. Take off my old

man glasses. I already updated my look

a few months ago. Cut my hair short, got

new glasses, I grew a beard. Don't you

guys notice anything? I look completely

Look, I got this cool new hairstyle,

got a little mustache.

I feel like I can't do anything because I

can't play piano. I can't, I can't run

around the house shouting.

And my auntie and uncle don't go anywhere.

They just sit downstairs doing nothing,

and it's so boring,

and it's so awkward.

I can't even make silly videos now.

I can't do Cooking with Daniel because

they're in the house all the time.

What am I supposed to do? Stop asking

about the SD card.

Can't go outside because it's all windy

and cold. Can't even talk normally because

they might hear me. Oh,

when's this nightmare gonna be over? And

they're here for 4 weeks.

You don't get it. I know I can do all

those things. I know I can go downstairs

and play piano. They're not stopping me.

That's not the point. The point is I don't

feel comfortable. No one's stopping me

from running outside naked, but I'm not

gonna do it. But if there was an

apocalypse and everyone died, then I

probably would just run outside naked

because no one would see. Everyone would

be dead. Why would I care?

I'd be naked right now if you guys weren't

watching.

Some people, they just don't get it.

I just like going crazy on the piano, and

I can't do that when there's people around

because I make a bit of a racket and I

don't want to disturb people.

I've got nothing to do. I can't think of a

single thing to do.

I went outside and I played football for

about an hour, did about 20 keep-me-ups.

It's pretty good. Pretty good, isn't it?

And then I tried playing piano, but then I

gave up because it's just not fun when

there's people around. And then I tried

to make a video, but it was really boring,

so I deleted it. And then I

had lunch. I had a quiche. And some

salad and a piece of ham.

I already went for a walk. I was outside

for an hour. It's not nice weather. It's

really windy and cold. I don't think it's

very windy now. It looks like it's a bit

calmer. It's still pretty windy.

Can't tell you what's on the SD card.

I'd lose so many subscribers. My

subscribers keep going down.

No one even watched my GoPro video.

Look, has— doesn't even have 6K views.

Bought this new GoPro, it's pretty cool.

No one cares. No one cared about my

Apex Legends video, and then I get idiots

asking me, why do you keep making toxic

and petty videos about drama? It's because

it's the only ones that get clicks. If

people clicked on my Apex Legends video,

then I make more of that, but no one gives

a shit, so I'm

forced into making petty and toxic videos

because that's the only thing that gets

views. So don't blame me,

it's your fault, not my fault.

It's just so annoying because either

people say my content's boring when I talk

about things I'm interested in, or people

say it's childish and petty and toxic.

But if I don't do that, then no one

watches. What am I supposed to do? I'm

damned if I do, I'm damned if I don't.

People say, why don't you make videos

about stuff you're interested in? Because

when I do, no one cares.

Her funeral

is in

a few days, and I'm thinking about

vlogging it.

I'm not gonna vlog the entire thing, you

know, just snippets. So press 1

if you want me to vlog the funeral.

Divorce equals views. Oh, thank you,

Aaron.

I don't even know how we would get

divorced. Would I have to go back to

I don't want to go all the way back to

Japan just to get divorced and then have

to come all the way back here again.

Oh, thank you, Top Lists. What do I think

about the weird self-improvement freaks

who write just Talk me, Daniel bro. I can

give you advice. Also download meme

rebuke.

Um, I don't know. I haven't found anything

that anyone said to be very useful. I know

I said that last time, and then people

complaining that I'm a dick.

So last stream I did, I said all the

advice people giving me isn't very useful,

and then someone commented saying that I

wasn't being very nice when I said that.

I'm sorry if it doesn't sound nice, but

So if I go all the way back to Japan,

then get divorced Would

I have to leave straight away because my

spouse visa would become invalidated?

I'm not gonna go all the way just to get

divorced and then have to get out of the

country. So I guess she could send

me the divorce papers in the mail and then

I just sign it and then send it back.

Well, can't she get it done by herself?

Why do I have to sign something? What if I

refuse to sign? Does that mean we're

married forever?

Don't you find it condescending? I see

many people forcing themselves on you

because they have basic advice that

doesn't help and they quickly move on.

Yeah, I do find it a little bit

patronizing. People always give me the

same advice: go for a walk, get a job.

I had jobs before, it didn't really make

me feel any less depressed, just made me

feel more stressed out. No, after divorce

you have 3 months tourism stay.

I read that after you get divorced you're

supposed to inform immigration that you've

gotten divorced and then switch over to a

different visa. But what if I don't

tell them? And I just kept the

visa and stayed until May, which is when

it expires.

I don't really want to stay anyway. I

mean, what would I do in Japan that

would be so exciting? I'll just end up

staying in some guesthouse, probably on

Tinder. Probably having sex

with a bunch of fat Japanese girls.

Do I really want to be doing that?

David Bond said I should go to Thailand

since I got myself a GoPro. I could go to

the beach. I got myself a chest strap as

well. It's coming today, so I'm gonna wear

it on my chest. But the chest strap looks

kind of big, and you have to put the GoPro

into this case, and then you attach

the mount bit to the chest. It's gonna

look massive. Look, it'll be like this

big. Pretty obvious that there's a massive

camera stuck on my chest. Why can't they

make this thing smaller? I want to

secretly film the funeral, not get caught.

Do I realize how toxic my community is

towards me? I know, people are so horrible

to me. I looked at my Chris Broad video,

all I got were comments from people saying

that this was an appalling way of

trying to get attention, you're so petty,

you're like a 12-year-old girl.

I don't think it was that big of a deal.

I explained my reasonings fairly

effectively, I think.

The point is, part of being a real man is

when people wrong you, you don't just sit

there and keep quiet about it like a

pussy. You expose

them and then you let everyone know what

they've done. I'm not gonna just let

people walk all over me and wrong me

and then keep quiet about it. I'm gonna

scream and shout so everyone knows what

they've done to me. Actions should have

consequences. If Nobita wants to copyright

strike my channel, then he can, but then I

can also retaliate by telling everyone

that he did it, and then people can be the

judge of that. I'm not just gonna— I'm not

gonna keep quiet when people think they

can walk all over me and think I'll just

sit here being all quiet about it.

It's called calling people out for

the BS.

I think not, not that many people are

capable of doing that. They'll just

pretend to be more manly, more adult,

more mature about it and keep quiet.

No, real man calls people out when they've

wronged him.

A real man sails his own ship, goes where

he wants to go. Doesn't— he doesn't have

his ship sailed by someone else.

Why do I have the camera in the corner?

Who am I looking out for? I'm just, just

being nosy, seeing what's happening

outside.

Has anything interesting happened on the

driveway? Not really. A horse walks past,

which is quite interesting, I think.

Am I 100% divorcing? Well,

considering that my wife hasn't replied to

me since I messaged her a few days ago,

and considering all of the things I've

said on Discord, on livestreams, in that

last video,

She might not even want to stay married to

me anyway.

And it's like I said in the video, I don't

even know if I want to stay married. I

mean, what's the point?

I don't think we make that— I don't think

we make each other that happy.

Sorry, I'm just burping.

And it's pretty obvious that I've upset

her a lot. Of times, and it's pretty

obvious that I'm not very happy in this

marriage. Do I look like a happily married

Oh shit, my, my failed stream is

public. Let me quickly delete that.

That's embarrassing.

So I started the stream And I didn't even

realize the stream was unlisted for the

first 2 minutes.

It has 200 views.

That's funny. Uh,

good job I didn't start picking my nose,

which I do quite often.

What EU country except England do you

Um, what EU country except England do you

like? Don't really like any of them.

They're all the same to me. I guess

Germany's pretty cool.

I'm not going to tell you why because then

people start calling me a Nazi.

I'm not a Nazi,

but when I watch the History Channel on

TV, my favorite country to listen about is

Germany. I mean, which other

country in Europe has a history as

interesting as Germany's? It's pretty

interesting, isn't it?

Yeah, I guess Russia is also a little bit

interesting. France is quite interesting

with the Napoleon stuff.

What was I talking about before? I got

I'm not sure if I would want to go to

Germany.

Who are those people? I was

talking about divorce. Oh yeah, I was

saying I think most people could agree

that I don't really look like a— I didn't

look like a happily married person, did I?

I mean, if I was happily married, then I

wouldn't have ran away to hotels so many

times, wouldn't have made so many videos

complaining about her.

I wouldn't have said the things in

livestreams.

I don't think it comes as much of a

surprise that I wasn't happily married.

Thank you, Big Stubby.

Make a video with my wife. I don't think

she's gonna be appearing on the channel

Didn't I once do a video about running

away from my problems? I can't remember.

I've made so many videos now, I can't

remember what I've made.

And yet you always lied to your viewers

saying you did not say ugly things about

your wife. I didn't. I've never said that.

I've never said anything negative about my

wife. Why would I say that when I've made

multiple videos Saying negative things

about her.

What kind of woman do I actually even

like?

I don't know.

Do you mean personality-wise? I guess you

do. Maybe someone who is kind

of nerdy and is kind of weird.

I'd like a weird girl. Maybe someone

who I could relate to, who understands me

and the problems I have.

Maybe someone who also hates people and

society as much as I do.

Like someone who isn't such a

goody-two-shoes, which would be nice.

I just find goody-two-shoes kind of

tiresome. Oh, you have to be nice and

you have to be good. And you have to

follow the rules. Rubbish.

I don't know, maybe I'd feel annoyed if,

if she was too negative, but then I feel

annoyed if she's too positive. A balance

would be nice. Balance is always good.

Maybe someone who inspires me or

or makes me feel stimulated mentally.

It's a lot to ask for. It's hard to find

someone who matches everything that you

want.

I feel like giving up though, because I

just feel as though that person doesn't

exist. Or maybe she does exist, but she's

really fat and ugly, so it would be

Vivian Yale, thank you. Do you think

you'll ever genuinely love someone? I'm

not sure. I don't know if I'm capable of

love.

Do you think you will ever genuinely love

someone? Uh, Chang Life,

thank you. I appreciate the videos you put

out, and I don't think you're that bad of

a person. You do have your questionable

moments, but other than that, I think

you're alright. Oh, well, thank you very

much for those kind words.

I don't know what love feels like. I

thought I was in love when I had this

Japanese girlfriend called Sayaka who I

met online. I never met her in real life.

She ended up leaving me for some Czech

Republic guy. Now she had his baby.

I thought I was really in love then,

and then she broke my heart. And then

after that, I don't know, I felt as though

I would never feel as happy again.

I can honestly say that I never loved any

of my exes, and it was just about sex

and, um,

companionship. It wasn't because I loved

I liked them. But I don't think I was in

love with them.

Are you open to dating white chicks and

black chicks? Yeah, I wouldn't say no if

they were attractive.

Childless women's misplaced maternal

instincts projected onto Daniel in the

Uh-huh. I'm not sure what that means.

Wait, let me read it again. Childless

women's misplaced concern.

Are you saying childless women want to

protect me as if I were their son?

I feel as though a lot of my exes were

older women and they were kind of

mothering me and looking after me,

and it was that kind of relationship.

I've been— most of my relationships were

like that, where they were kind of

protecting me. I'm very similar to you

IRL. I wasn't capable of love.

Only cared about S_EX until I went to

therapy and I finally wiz. Why are you so

opposed to going? I'm opposed to going

because I just— I can't imagine it

working. I can't imagine how talking

to someone about something would change me

I'm not the kind of person who can just

change after listening to someone say

something. I need to experience it and

feel it for myself.

Even if you kept telling me, um, boiling

water is hot, don't touch it, I won't

believe you until I've actually touched it

and burnt myself.

I'm very stubborn. I just

can't imagine it helping.

They have these online therapy sessions

now as well where you can just chat to

them, but I can kind of imagine

what they would say.

And I got myself a new HIV test kit

because I've started to feel a little bit

weird in my chest up here.

It started yesterday and I still have it a

bit, but my chest around this area feels

tight, and if

I try and breathe in deeply, there's,

there's this sharp stabbing pain.

Around here,

and I'm a bit scared. I googled it and it

said one symptom of HIV could be chest

And sometimes when I lie on my side, my

left side, and I breathe in deeply, it

feels painful. There's like a sharp

stabbing pain around here. I'm not sure if

it's my lungs or my heart.

I guess I should, I should get checked up.

I'm a bit scared.

I have no idea what it is.

It just feels heavy.

Don't know what it is.

I did have raw onion yesterday, maybe

that's why. Do you think it's heartburn?

It just feels tiring breathing.

It's a bit scary.

What else could it be? It's not lung

cancer. Maybe I've been eating too much

bacon and, and I'm getting a heart attack.

It feels slightly better than yesterday,

so hopefully tomorrow it will have

gone by— it's gone away by itself.

There was something called Peri—

I can't remember now. I love

you and your videos. I hope things work

out. Oh, thank you, Awkward Child.

It was called pericarditis or something,

and it's where, well, you have this lining

around your heart, and then that lining

can get inflamed.

Maybe it's that, who knows.

I really should get a checkup. I've got

this weird chest problem. I've got a tiny

little lump on my right testicle, but I

don't think it's anything because it's

always been there and it hasn't gotten any

bigger and it doesn't hurt. So if

it was cancer, it would be getting bigger,

won't it? I don't think it's cancer.

I think it's a bit of the tube where the

sperm comes out, and maybe it's deformed,

or maybe it's like a cyst. I don't know.

I just don't really want my balls to get

touched by some guy.

My dad said I should go and get it checked

out.

That was before Christmas, when I had a

If you won't read, respond to chat defeats

purpose of it. I am responding and I am

reading it. That's what I'm looking at

when I'm looking here. It means I'm

looking at the chat. I'm just not

responding to everything.

No, I haven't

gone to the doctor to get it checked. I

just don't think it's anything to worry

about.

I need to go and get a photo taken for my

passport, which expires this year. Too

lazy to do that as well. You can take your

own photo and do the online application,

but I kept trying, kept failing. Said— it

said my photo was too dark, so I need to

go into Maidstone, get my photo taken

in one of those photo booths.

I can't be bothered.

I got this camera mount for

my bicycle. I was thinking about going to

Sutton Valence where my old house is, put

my GoPro on it, but my GoPro doesn't have

a mount thing, so I had to buy one.

I don't think people would find that very

interesting anyway.

It's interesting for me. I would like to

go back to my old house. I haven't been

there for 20 years now.

Be weird to stand outside of it. Maybe I

could ring the doorbell, say, hi, I'm

Daniel. I used to live here. I grew up

here. Let me in. I want to see what you've

done. So weird that my dad's work is still

there. In that house, all of the new

parts of the house, the extension, the

walls, the electric gate, the driveway,

the garden, was done by my dad.

It's probably stress or symptoms or

depression. Go to a clinic. Do you think

just being stressed and depressed could

cause problems in my chest? How come that

all rhymed? That was amazing.

That all rhymed. Chest stress

depressed.

Yeah,

I have been feeling pretty stressed,

mainly because I feel so bored.

Don't know what to do.

I played Rainbow Six all day, then that

got boring, couldn't play anymore.

Listened to some YouTube videos, that got

boring. Um, what else did I do?

I bought a GoPro, then that got boring.

It's alright, I guess. It's so stable,

there's no camera shake at all, even when

I'm walking. It's really smooth, and the

audio quality is great,

and it's so tiny. Look at it. I could eat

It's not a good idea. Look, I could vlog

like this. Maybe not.

Or I could make a secret pocket, put it

here. I could hang it. I can make a

necklace around my neck, hang it here.

And then film people.

What do you think?

It goes inside of this case.

It's really hard to open. I kind of miss

my apartment in Japan. I miss doing

cooking livestreams. Can't really do that

anymore. So I miss going to the

supermarket and buying some ingredients,

doing a livestream cooking. Had great

internet in that apartment. Unless I'm

gonna cook in my bedroom. I could do,

couldn't I? I could get a gas cooker. My

dad's not around, so he's not gonna get

upset. Just put the camera down here. We

could do some cooking up here.

The great thing about the GoPro is There's

a flat base so you can just put it on a

surface and you press the film button. No

one would even know you're filming. Just

saying, if you, um, if you ever take a

girl back to a hotel, just put your bag

down, press the button, place it next to

your bag. She won't even know. I should

have bought it earlier. You can't do that

with your phone because your phone's not

going to stand up. By itself, you'd have

to prop it up, and then it's kind of

I'm not saying that's what I'm gonna do,

I'm just saying that if you would like to

do that, then GoPro is pretty good for

I need to take this stream down now.

I can't let YouTube find out that I'm

promoting illegal activities. See,

this is why I can't keep streams up.

I know people want me to leave the streams

up, and I would love to, but I'm just kind

of scared because I say weird stuff on

them. If it was Twitch,

I would just leave it up because, you

know, it's Twitch. Who cares about Twitch?

If I streamed on Twitch, then I hardly get

any viewers because people too lazy to

come over to Twitch, so I

have to do it on YouTube. But then I have

to be careful. I don't really have to be

careful. I have to

take this stream down just, just in case,

just to be safe. I don't want to get some

kind of strike.

I don't know if I could get a strike for

the stuff I've said.

I'm not sure. I did say that Zach Choi

should go and choke on a piece of chicken

last time. That was pretty funny.

My Twitch is kind of dead. I applied to be

a partner on Twitch Over a month ago, and

it just says under review. Didn't even get

back to me.

If I had good internet, I would download

this stream and then re-upload it onto my

second channel because I don't really care

about my second channel.

Am I excited to move back to Malaysia once

my mum sells the house? If my mum sold the

house, I wouldn't move to Malaysia. I'd

get myself my own place in Maidstone. I

had a look on rightmove.co.uk. It's not

actually that expensive to get your own

place. I found some pretty decent places

for about £500 a month. Get your whole

place, get a whole place to yourself.

Get a kitchen, bedroom, don't have to

share it. I'm not sure if I'd be able to

because how would

I explain my employment status?

I don't really have a job. Do you think

they would let me rent out an apartment as

a YouTuber? What if my

YouTube dies the next week? And then I

might need a guarantor or a witness. I

guess my sister could be my witness. I

could just say I'm unemployed now, but I'm

looking for work. Do you think they would

rent me out a place? I could say I have 2

years worth of savings, so don't worry.

And then you have to pay a deposit, but

£500 is just the rent. That's not

including bills. I'd say bills might be

£150 electricity, water, might have to get

internet, and then plus food. I need to be

spend— I probably have to spend £1,000 a

month just for food bills and rent.

Doesn't leave with— leave me with much.

I'm just, um, saying that if I had to

move out, that's what I would That's what

I might do. I'm not sure, it might be

cheaper to just go to Thailand and

then go to, I don't know, Cambodia,

live in a mud hut for £2 a day.

My mum's not going to sell the place, I

don't think she would. She keeps saying

that she wants to, but she says a lot of

stuff. She keeps saying she wants to go

and live by the sea. Why? And my dad

always used to say, if you want to see the

sea, just drive down there. You don't have

to live there. You could just go for the

day and then come back. My mum

keeps saying she wants to live by the sea.

I guess living by the sea could be nice.

You could go for walks on the beach,

but you would get sick of it, wouldn't

you? Going to the seaside every day.

We went to Folkestone during

Christmas. Me, my dad, my mum, my wife.

We had fish and chips. My dad just

sat in the car the whole time. He came out

on the beach for about 2 minutes, then he

went back to the car. He just sat in there

whilst me, my wife, and my mum were

playing, throwing stones into the water.

He always does that. He, he never comes

down to the water. Maybe he's scared.

I guess he wanted to stay out of the cold

so he didn't get ill. Kind of ironic,

he got ill anyway.

Oh, I found out something else about Chris

Broad which kind of pissed me off, by the

way. So my sister— this is top secret, by

the way— my sister has a friend called

Kathy, and her friend Kathy has an

older sister who, guess what, was in the

same class as Chris bloody Broad. And

apparently they're very good friends, and

she went and stayed with Chris for some

time when she went to Japan. Can you

believe that? Everyone knows bloody Chris

Broad. Even David Yates knows him. I had a

friend in school called David, and he said

he knows him as well. I can't believe

it. How come everyone knows who Chris is

and I didn't?

So annoying. My best friend Ricky, he was

in Chris's class.

So how, how is that even possible?

Like, we went to the same school and we

have all of these mutual contacts and

acquaintances,

and then he just ghosted me like that.

How? I thought I was the only YouTuber

from Sutton Valence, and now there's

someone else and he has a million

subscribers and everyone loves him and

he's more successful than I am. I can't

even have that, can I?

Why are people saying they can't hear me?

Well, if you can't hear me, press, press 2

if you can hear me.

See, people can hear me. Why are you

saying you can't hear me?

Trying to trick me.

I know you can hear. There's a little

green bar that goes up and down every time

I say something. Why would

you do that? Why would you try and make me

think that my stream is broken? Hate when

that happens. You know when I'm telling a

story and then it's disconnected or it's

lagging and then people didn't hear what I

said and I have to repeat everything? So

Okay, what was I saying? Yeah, apparently

my sister's friend Kathy's older sister is

really good friends with Chris and stayed

at his house in Japan. Do you think Chris

would let me stay at his house? I don't

think so. Maybe it's because I'm not a

girl. Even that What's her

name? Kelly? There's a channel,

this white girl who lives in Japan, I Love

Kelly Z or something. She said she met

Chris as well. Yeah, because she's a girl.

If I was a girl, Chris would be messaging

me as well, wouldn't he? He would say,

hey, Daniela, do you want to come and meet

me now? I'm here with the boys, Joey and

Charla. Come and hang out.

Didn't even invite me to hang out.

No one ever invites me to hang out.

I don't

know why people want me to go back to

Japan. Was it that interesting when I was

in Japan? I didn't even go outside.

Much. What was so— what made my videos so

much more interesting when I was in Japan?

Is it because you just like Japan?

My life is more depressing in England.

I don't really know why it was more

interesting in Japan.

I'll go back to Japan eventually.

Even if we did get divorced, I wouldn't

stop going there. I mean, how would I end

up having sex if I stopped going there?

It's a goldmine for guys

that look like me. I just don't look very

manly. I don't look manly enough to get a

Western girl.

I didn't really have any plans. Video

ideas before my dad died.

Actually, I was gonna do my sex doll

video. I decided not to upload it because

it'd probably get demonetized. And then

the whole Tomoko thing, you know, the

Kanaeito guy, that drama started happening

right before my dad died.

So I had to put that on hold, and then

Didn't I make a response to him? I cheated

on my wife video whilst my dad was in

hospital. Yeah.

Apart from that, I didn't really have any

Japan-related videos planned.

Oh, I was gonna use my blender to make

soup, and I was thinking about shaving my

head. That's why I bought a shaver. I was

gonna do a shaving my head livestream.

Glad I didn't do that. I think my hair

looks pretty good now. I think this is the

best my hair's ever looked.

I look so stupid about 2 years ago

when I had that mushroom hairstyle. Do you

remember that? 2 years ago when I got to

Japan and I was seeing Tomoko. It was

really long. It was all long at the sides

and long on the top and the back, and it

came down to about here. Looked like a

mushroom. At least this hair makes me look

a bit more masculine. Nice and short on

the sides, short on the back, and you can

see my ears. Don't know why I was so

scared of showing my ears before. I had my

ears covered in hair all the time for

about the last 10 years.

It feels like it was such a long time ago

when I was messaging Tomoko. I was

all excited to go and meet her. I thought

she was this 27-year-old attractive, fun

girl. I can't believe she, she was so old.

Ugh. I thought something looked a bit

strange in some of her photos, but I

thought, oh, it's just a photo. Maybe she

doesn't look like that. Maybe she looks

better in real life. I had no idea she

would lie to me about her age. That's

never happened to me, ever. Never had

anyone lie to me like that. Before,

I thought she looked quite cute in the

photos, but I did notice in some of her

videos her chin looked kind of weird from

the side. It was like she had no chin. It

was like this. Her face just went from her

lips and straight down into her neck.

I guess I should stop saying horrible

things about her appearance. It's not

really her fault. I can't

believe she was so old. I was so

depressed. And she kept filming me from

the side and from behind. It was really

annoying. And I looked really depressed

because I felt depressed. I felt like I

came all this way for nothing.

And then I felt really depressed at the

guest house as well. Everyone at the guest

house was so boring. Apart from James.

James was the only interesting person

there. And it's not like I didn't try. I

did try to talk to people. They were just

really boring and annoying.

There was this fat French guy who seemed

kind of crazy.

There was this Mexican guy in my room—

next to my room, and then he, he He opened

the door to my room because he thought it

was his room. It was so annoying. He kept

talking to someone on his phone.

I think James told everyone my YouTube

channel because there was this English

guy, and then I tried making conversation

with him. I said, hey, what have you been

doing today? And then he said, oh, not

much, I've just been hiding in my room.

Come on, he's— he was— he was taking the

piss, wasn't he? He knows my channel.

There's no way that could have been a

coincidence. And then he had this kind of

smirk on his face. Oh, I was just hiding

in my room. I said, oh,

and then I walked away.

I heard him talking about Tobita Shinchi.

He said he walks down there. And he saw a

woman with big boobs. I bet he effed her.

Come on, no one just goes to Tobita

Shinchi and doesn't— doesn't try one

out.

No one talked to me apart from James.

And then the stupid manager told me off.

Ugh, I hate that guy. The stupid manager,

remember him? The one who walks like a

duck? I was doing livestreams in the guest

house, and then someone grasped me

up. One day I went into the living room,

and then he came over to me and said,

Daniel, can I have a word with you? And I

said, okay. And then he said,

Yuri, you do YouTube, don't you? And then

my face went all red. I said, yeah. And

then I said, why? He said, Some people in

the house have been complaining that

you're filming them, and if you carry on

filming, then you'll have to leave. And I

said, okay, well, I'll just stop filming

then. And then we shook hands and he said,

thank you.

But how is that even possible? Number one,

how did they know I was filming for

YouTube? How did— how do they know that I

wasn't Skyping my mum or something?

Number 2, who would grass me up? I bet it

was that stupid Japanese woman.

I thought that someone who hated me

found the guesthouse and contacted the

manager and was pretending to be someone

at the guesthouse, but I don't think that

was the case.

I think someone actually grassed me up who

lived in the guesthouse. I can't believe

someone would grass me up. They don't even

have the balls to tell it to me to my

face. They had to grass me up behind my

back to the manager. I mean, what are you,

12 years old? Telling the teacher about

me. And Daniel's filming in the living

room for his YouTube channel.

Who was it? I asked him who it was. Who

was it? He said, I can't tell you. Yeah,

bet you can't.

I don't know who it was. Do you think it

was a Japanese person? How did they know I

was secretly filming?

Can't believe they grasped me up.

And then he threatened me, said that he

would have to kick me out if I didn't stop

filming. And guess what I did? Guess what

I did that very evening? Me and James did

a livestream in the living room. I said,

I promise I won't film anymore. And then

we shook hands. And then about 6 hours

later, me and James do a live— does a

livestream in the living room. We drank

sake, got a bit drunk. If you

go on Twitch and look at my really old

clips that people clipped, you'll see

clips of me and James drinking in the

guest house. There were some clips of me

trying to chat up this girl at a Halloween

party. I had to delete that. In case my

wife saw it. What was

her name? I can't remember her name.

I really didn't like that manager. He was

so unfriendly. There's one time,

um, I was late paying rent because I

couldn't find him. He was never around.

And then I walked past him one day, and

then I thought, oh, I better pay my rent.

I asked him, can I pay the rent now? And

then he was just like, yeah.

Yeah. That was how he said it. Yeah.

Like this rude way.

And I saw him coming out of the office one

day with this girl, this woman. I bet he

was banging her. The manager lives in the

guest house, in the office. It's kind of

sad. There's a little bedroom next to

the office.

You can find YouTube videos of that

guesthouse if you search for it, because a

television crew came one day and

they did an interview with some of the

guests. They interviewed this white boy,

white kid called Chris. He's from Canada.

I knew him. We used to hang out. He hugged

me during a party.

Maybe he liked me.

Why is everyone called Chris? Chris the

Canadian guy, Chris Broad, my uncle's

Name of the guest house is JF Plaza. I

stayed in Osaka JF Plaza and Saitama JF

Plaza.

There were 4 Canadian guys. They were all

really nice. There were 2 Chrises,

actually. One of them was called Colin and

the other one was called Reid.

They were very friendly.

I think that was the best time of my life

when I was 21 at that guesthouse. It was

just so much fun. Had all these friends.

I was hanging out with Korean people,

Canadian people, Japanese people.

I was going out socializing, going to

restaurants, going to karaoke. Having sex,

eating good food.

I wanted to live in the guesthouses for

the rest of my life. I didn't want to

leave. I thought life would be so great if

I could live there forever.

Kept going back to guesthouses. I think I

went to guesthouses about 5 times.

After the third time,

I couldn't find anyone to have sex with.

Only the first and second time I found

girls to have sex with. After the third—

after the second time, no one wanted to

have sex with me apart from that bisexual

guy. I couldn't— I tried talking to girls,

but nothing happened.

I couldn't get close to anyone. I think I

just became very negative and pessimistic

about people in general.

I just felt really lonely at the

guesthouse. Just felt like I didn't belong

there. I didn't have any friends. I felt

as though people didn't want me around.

I met 3 girlfriends at guesthouses, and

then the rest were online. There were 2

Korean girls, but the second Korean girl,

nothing happened. We just kissed. She was

really nice though. I really fancied her.

We used to go on evening strolls together

and we would hold hands and kind of chase

each other. There's one time we wrestled

each other to the ground in the middle of

the road at around 1 AM at night. It was

so much fun. And then I kissed her and

we kissed a little bit. And then we

stopped, so we went back to the

guesthouse, and we went to the roof of the

guesthouse, and then I kissed her again

against the chain-link fence. And we kind

of— I don't know how, but we ended up

lying, rolling around on the floor. And

then she said she had to go back to her

room, and then we stopped, and I went back

to my room, and that was the end of it.

Nothing else ever happened.

It was nice though. I think she was the

most attractive girl I've ever kissed.

I felt really attracted to her.

Objectively, I guess you guys might not

think she's very attractive. She's very

stereotypically Asian looking,

but I like that look,

you know, round face, small nose. Narrow

eyes. I think it's— I think it's

I can't believe how brave I was at some

points. I just kissed a girl without

thinking anything of it.

She was a bit weird. I remember telling

her that I fancied her. We were in

a park holding hands. I said I liked her,

and then she just started laughing. She

said she had a boyfriend. If she had a

boyfriend, why was she walking with me and

holding my hands and kissing me? She said

she had a Korean boyfriend in Korea, and

then she moved out of the guesthouse the

next week. I was so heartbroken.

She said, I'm moving out next week.

I was so sad because I used to enjoy

sitting with her every evening so much.

I met her one more time after she moved

out. We went on a date. Oh yeah, I

remember. We went on a date. We went for

sushi, and then we walked around

a bit, and then she said bye,

and I just watched her walking away into

the distance, standing there staring at

the back of her head. And that was the

last time I ever saw her. I chatted to her

for a bit a few days after, but then a few

weeks later we stopped chatting as well.

And then she just kind of vanished from

social media completely. She deleted

everything, so I have no idea what

Oh, Diego Dan, thank you very much.

Show feed. It takes ages from seeing— from

the point when the Super Chat shows in the

chat to when it pops up on the stream

takes ages, doesn't it? Why?

Please don't slip into depression. I get

that it's easy to do, but by having

nothing constructive to do all day makes

it worse. Why don't you learn something

new? I did. I learned a new piano song.

If you check out my Instagram, you can see

me playing it.

And yeah, it felt satisfying to learn it,

but now it's kind of boring again,

and I can't practice it because there's

people here. I feel uncomfortable

practicing.

Buy new games. I'm not really interested

in any new games. I just play Rainbow Six.

That's it. It's the only game that's good

enough for me. I mean, it's the only game

that I enjoy playing.

Get a digital piano. It's not the same as

playing an acoustic piano. It's not as

satisfying. Oh, my mum's home. Oh,

that's my sister. Is that my sister next

door? No, it's not my sister.

I played some football. That's quite fun,

and it's good exercise.

It hurts here. Why does it hurt here?

My heart should be down here, so it's not

a heart problem.

I don't understand. I think I'm

dying because

of my posture. Yeah, I do tend to hunch

when I'm streaming because I'm trying to

stay near the microphone. If I

sat like this, then it's too far away.

Oh, I saw a video on YouTube about someone

baking an onion. I might try that, looks

interesting. He just baked it and put some

salt and then ate it. That's weird.

Can you hear that sound? My uncle's trying

to fix the green car.

He's been doing it all day, revving it,

charging the battery. He said the battery

in the car was dead.

Dad's dead, my cat's dead, YouTube

channel's dead.

I was playing piano a couple days ago,

and then I finished playing. I walked out

of the piano room. My uncle quickly just

came up to me and he hugged me and he

started crying. He's such an emotional

person. He's so different to my dad. When

he first got here, I don't think I've

talked about my uncle much. Haven't done a

stream since he came. Yeah, when he first

came here a couple of days ago, he hugged

my mum. He didn't hug me at first,

and he seemed alright, you know, he was

smiling, kind of cheerful. Then my mum

started telling him about everything that

happened to my dad. He just started

crying, and he quickly walked off. And you

could hear him crying. It was very

awkward. I didn't know what to do.

And then my mum made him cry again the

next day. She tried showing him my dad's

funeral booklet thing that my sister made.

He said he didn't want to see it, but my

mum showed it to him anyway. Then he

started crying again. Then I was playing

piano, he came up to me, and then he

hugged me. He said, that's sounded

beautiful. And then he started telling me

about how he's learning piano as well.

I was so surprised. I've never been hugged

by a relative like that,

apart from my French auntie, but she hugs

everyone. Even my own dad didn't really

hug me. The only time I remember him

hugging me was at Christmas last year when

he picked me up at the airport. Last

Christmas, me and my wife, we were walking

up and down looking for him. I saw him in

his hat and his coat. He hugged me. I was

pretty surprised. Usually he doesn't hug

me.

And yeah, it was weird.

He said, that was so beautiful, you play

so well.

I didn't know what to do. I said thank

you. I didn't really hug him back.

I just kind of— I patted him on the back.

I didn't know what to do. It wasn't like

a strong hug. He just kind of put his arms

around me, and then I was just standing

there kind of frozen. I just went, thank

you. I patted him on his shoulder.

My dad always said the same thing whenever

I left for Japan. He would say, okay,

Daniel, well, take care then.

Take care of yourself. Have a nice time.

Then sometimes he would pat me on the

shoulder, and then I'd say bye.

He would always say, send me a message

when you get on the plane. I never did

because there's no Wi-Fi on the plane.

I wish she didn't die.

It's just weird.

I don't want to start talking about my dad

again. I just start getting— start feeling

really depressed.

It's weird because you never think that

your parents— everyone knows that their

parents are gonna die eventually, but when

it happens, it's a shock, as if you didn't

think they would die.

It's weird, isn't it? I don't

think I'm gonna die. I know it sounds

stupid. I know I'm gonna die, but I don't

believe it. I can't imagine dying. Me

dying? No, that's not gonna happen. I'll