New New YouTube Livestreams/why i moved back in with my Mum [U0_v-BCH8Cw]

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orange, horrible.

Yeah, so as you can see, I'm back at my mum's house.

Look what happened to my room. I don't know what they did.

Pushkin, meow meow.

Every time I come back to my room, it's just a mess. I don't know why. I don't know why I can't just come back to my room and it's how it was when I left it. Every time I come back, it's a massive mess. Only my room becomes a massive mess when I come back.

All the other rooms are the same as how I left it, apart from my room.

I left my room so nice and tidy, and I come back to it like, I don't know, like a tornado came through it. Now there's 2 beds in my room. Look at my room. There's now 2 beds in here. The light doesn't work, so I'm using a lamp. The light bulb went out of my room and no

one even changed it.

And

my table

is weird looking. Shh.

Meow meow.

And Pushkin's trying to get in the closet.

So now I can't make videos in my room because usually I sit here where the bed is.

Oh, what's he doing? Where am I?

Why are you in the closet?

Oh God, Pushkin's so big. Pushkin, look, it's YouTube. What? Are you so big?

Big boy now.

Big boy.

Whoa.

He's so big, he keeps going in the closet.

Yeah, I decided to do a YouTube stream because it's just not really worth doing a 3-hour stream on Kick.

Kick's all about the numbers, like 12-hour streams.

Mama.

Whoa, meow meow. Look how big he is.

He's so fluffy.

Yeah, now I can't sit on my chair because the bed's here. Gotta sit like this.

Now he's stuck behind the table. Oh, there he is.

Why am I live on YouTube? Because

it's already— what time is it? 9 o'clock. So I don't really have time to do a long stream.

Thought I'd just do a quick stream on YouTube instead.

I forgot to bring my mic stand. For some reason I thought I had one here, and I thought the one I had in my Devon house was a new one, but it wasn't. It was the old one. So now I don't have a mic stand.

Why'd I change the channel name? Because—

I don't know, hiding in my room just caused me so much trouble.

I hate the whole hiding in my room branding and everything related to it. It's just caused me so much trouble in life.

I wish I could just get rid of it.

Wish all those videos about me would just disappear.

Um, I don't know about Kik.

I'm only making about— I'm making like $8 or $9 an hour. I don't know if I get more viewers on Kick now. I don't know, but I was only getting like $8 or $9 per hour. So to make it worth doing, I need to do at least 10 to 11 hours on on Kick. I just, I hate

streaming all day long. It's so annoying. It's so boring.

I miss just doing short streams on YouTube, just talking, and then I don't know, do boring stuff before the stream, off stream.

The drive was so— it took like 7 hours in total.

And the motorway was all blocked up because there were some traffic accidents.

There was like a multiple, multiple collision, multiple vehicle collision the other night.

And then all the, all the lanes were slowed down. It's like 40 mph speed limit on the motorway. I saw someone crash on the motorway. It wasn't a big crash. It was all jammed up, so it was like back-to-back traffic. I don't know if I dreamed this or if I actually saw this. I was about to change

lane into the right lane, and then the lane next to the right lane, a pickup truck braked pretty hard, and then the car behind it rear-ended it. It went pew, and then this crashing sound. Everyone was doing like 10 miles per hour, so it wasn't bad or anything. But it must have done some damage. I looked at

it, I was like, whoa, and then I carried on.

I'd never seen a crash in, in real time happen before. That looked pretty crazy. It was like a 10 mph crash, probably like 5 mph, but the sound was like plastic and stuff shattering.

Just rear-ended the back of this car. I saw them brake hard to try and stop, but they They probably accelerated too hard and didn't brake hard enough or didn't brake fast enough.

Yeah, it's weird being back home.

I got all emotional when I started getting near the house,

when I saw those familiar roads again.

It's a shame my room doesn't look like how it was supposed to look like.

I don't know why there's 2 beds in my room now.

This bed's bouncy.

How does it feel to be back on YouTube? Yeah, nice, I guess.

I don't know if I'll make some videos or not. It's kind of hard to make videos in here now because this bed's in the way. Unless I sit on the bed and make the video.

No, I didn't bring Bobby. I put him in the closet.

Yeah, it was nice being back on YouTube. Kick's so boring. The Kick— when I stream on Kick, the chat is like the same 6 people every day. Every day is the same 6 or 10 people or something. It's so boring. The chat's dead all the time.

The chat is just so dead when I stream on Kick. There's barely anyone there, and half of the people there are just bots probably. There's probably just 30 people watching my Kick streams and the rest are bots.

Stream on Kick and YouTube.

If I only stream on Kick, I make double the money. So I make $8 or $9 an hour on Kick with double the money. If I only had half the money, I'd make $4 an hour on Kick. And then I'd have less viewers on Kick because people would rather watch me on YouTube. So I'd probably have like

15 viewers on Kick, which wouldn't even make— they make like $1 an hour. It's not worth it.

Kick's only worth it if you can stream 12 hours a day and you've got like 60 or 70 viewers.

Ow. You got to move all this, Daniel. This is Pushkin place.

He's upset.

She can't hear me. She doesn't have her hearing aids in. There's no point saying anything back because she can't hear.

I'm not saying anything back because she can't hear me. She took her hearing aid out because the battery ran out.

Yeah, I saw the baby. He looks nice.

Sister looks very tired. It's not disrespectful. She doesn't— she can't hear anything.

Apparently Pushkin sleeps here when I wasn't here.

Pushkin's massive because I was used to that Mr. Meow Meow Bengal cat who's really skinny. I saw him the other day. He came in my house. Don't tell anyone. And obviously I chased him out straight away, just as my dear neighbor requested. Definitely did not let him spend any time in the house.

Pushkin's massive. Pushkin would destroy Mr. Meow Meow in a physical confrontation.

Yeah, it's nice seeing some of you guys again. I missed you.

I remember a lot of your usernames. Brings back memories.

I hate— I hate doing Kick, to be honest.

No, Mummy. Go back to Kick where you belong.

Oh, it's so nice. Look, I actually have a chat with people in it, not just the same 5 people.

I really, really hate doing Kick. It sucks, but it makes good money. All I got to do is go live and have it on all day, but it's like soul destroying.

It's soul destroying and it encourages you to just endlessly stream. So then you feel like, oh, I got to stream every single hour and then you get burnt out and then you hate it. And then I've got nothing to talk about because everything's a secret. Otherwise I get in trouble.

Yeah, I felt like I became a streaming slave,

but I don't have any other way to make better money. My YouTube videos don't get views anymore. I get— I make maybe $15 per video, $20 maybe.

So I don't have a choice.

It's the only way I can make $100 a day. I can't make $100 a day on YouTube. Even if I streamed every day, I don't know if I did an all-day stream on YouTube.

I miss the old days where I could just make a couple videos a week. A couple streams here and there. I didn't have to do it every single day.

My view on the Charlie Kirk thing— thought it was very sad.

He seemed like a nice guy. I don't really know why people hated him so much, because he had controversial opinions, but he seemed like a nice guy.

Like, he didn't seem like a dick.

Mic's cutting out.

How about now?

The cable doesn't quite fit.

Testing. Kick got you out of debt?

Yeah, yeah, look at my numbers now. They're covered by the camera. Oh yeah, look, so I got about £6,000 savings.

Out of overdraft. I've got Amazon debt again because I bought a Flip 7. Got my iPhone 17 coming tomorrow. I got the iPhone Air coming tomorrow

to my mum's house. Not— imagine I ordered it to the wrong house.

I can double stream. There's just no point because if you multi-stream, Kick cuts your money in half.

So then I'd make like $2 an hour, probably $3 an hour,

and then I'll have less. I don't know. It's not worth it. Like if I stream 5 hours, I make $38 an hour. It's like $15. Who cares?

A plan for the channel?

I don't know, really.

Not enough.

No.

Say hello.

She can't hear me. This is his place, ma'am.

She can't hear me. Are you shy?

Turn over.

Turn over. Actually, best not. She might say something she's not supposed to say.

She took her hearing aid out.

She still thinks she didn't do anything wrong, like for the fight. So I just said, oh, whatever. Forget about it.

She still thinks I just started randomly shouting at her. I don't know why

her version of the events is so different to what actually happened, but who cares? There's no point keep going on about it.

Pushkin. I wonder if he forgot me.

Go to Japan again? No, so I kind of have a girlfriend now,

but I'm not really gonna talk about it much.

I'm gonna see her next week.

I don't know if I should officially ask her or just assume. I mean, it's pretty obvious.

Am I supposed to ask her? I thought you just don't really ask and you just assume.

I met her on a dating app. We met twice already.

Things going pretty good.

So yeah, no Thailand, no Japan, not dating any viewers now.

Yeah, I don't think I really want to date viewers anymore. It's not really worked out very well, has it?

He keeps looking at me.

Wait, oh, I left my laser pen at my house.

What do I do with the old phones I don't use? I use all of them. Look, I've got my iPhone here.

I got this one here, and then I'm streaming with that one.

It's actually quite useful having 3 phones because I stream with this phone And then

I put Apple Music on this phone, and then the other phone can be, I don't know, GPS or whatever.

Or for chat, I use the Samsung for chatting.

You can always have more phones.

If your Kick chat was this active, you'd be making $20, $30 an hour. I mean, it was when I first started Kick. I had around these viewers, although I don't think the chat was this active, and I was making like $16, $17 an hour. The best I made on Kick was $280 in a day. The first month

or two on Kick, I was making like $200 a day, and now it's down to only $100 a day.

But yeah, I might do some Kick streams later. I don't know.

Can you hear the baby?

Yeah, I just, I feel bored streaming on Kick because

all my viewers are here on YouTube. The only thing Kick has going for it is it has a lot of money and it's very generous with its money.

I don't know why YouTube can't do the same because they don't have to. YouTube is already number one platform, so

They don't need to beg people to come over to it.

It would also be really boring streaming on Kick all day here because I can't really— unless there was no one at home,

I feel like I can't really walk around the whole house just streaming.

Gone are the days where I used to have the whole house to myself. Back when my mum used to work, I used to have the whole house to myself pretty much every day.

But it's very rare that I'm the only one here now.

Are we gonna talk about why you moved in? Uh, to see my nephew. Sister had a baby. I thought I'd come visit, pick up some stuff.

See Pushkin.

Momo.

He's so fluffy.

And I was getting really tired and fed up with my house in Devon. Needed some kind of change.

You want content? Well, I don't really have any. What content?

My only content was relationship drama.

And I'm not really— don't really want to do that again.

I just want a nice relationship where I don't get in trouble,

which probably means I shouldn't talk about it.

I don't think daily life vlogs were my content. It was just marriage drama and then maybe some life in Japan vlogs, but I don't live in Japan anymore and I'm not married anymore and I'm not making my relationships public anymore.

So I don't really know what my content is anymore. It's basically just what am I going to do with my house?

Don't know really. Well, I'm going to stay at my mum's house for maybe about 10 days because I booked a hotel. I booked a hotel to see my girlfriend, so I've got to drive back.

Now, the thing is, I don't know after I go to the hotel, I don't know if I'm going to come back to my mum's house or go back to my Devon house.

Maybe I'll just come back here.

Maybe I'll just live here whilst paying for rent for my Devon house that's empty. It's funny because I've got the camera set up so I can see what's going on there. I've got my baby camera pointed out the window.

It's weird, I can see what's going on outside the house in real time.

How can I afford it? I still make 500 pounds a week on Kick. Maybe 5 or— I make £500, £600 a week on Kick from streaming every day on it. And then I make a couple hundred OnlyFans and YouTube.

But it's not quite the £1,000 a week I was making in the beginning.

No, Devonark's not over. It's just on pause.

How's the baby? Yeah, he looks healthy.

Cries a lot

and then sleeps and then cries again.

It's not my baby. It's my sister's baby.

Some of you are so out of the loop. I'm an uncle now.

I'm not saying its name. I mean his name.

M5 reopens, but long delays remain after fatal crash. Damn, someone died. I drove past it thinking, where's the crash? I didn't see anything. It was just barricaded off, but I saw another crashed car. So how do people crash on the motorway? I don't get it. Motorway driving is so easy. You just drive in a straight line.

Noobs.

So it made the drive home really long.

And then I saw someone get rear-ended in the jam. I don't know how they— what did they do? Did they stop on the side of the road to assess the damage? It was like a bump. I don't know if you even bother getting out for a little bump like that. It sounded loud though.

And then I stopped at the Supercharger, charged up, had some snacks.

It really aches your arm doing such a long drive because your arm's always like held out. I try and rest my elbow on the side, but it's not very comfortable. 'Cause I got bony elbows.

There's a Tesla Supercharger exactly halfway in between my house and this house.

Made it there with about 25 miles left on the battery. So if it was winter and I had the heater on, I don't know if I'd make it to the Supercharger because the battery pre— I mean, the heater uses a lot of battery,

which is why it seemed harder when I left the house back in January.

'Cause the battery didn't go as far.

No, I'm not selling the car.

It's been very useful.

Hmm, I don't know. I mean, even if you get a petrol or hybrid and you could do the whole trip in one go, I don't think I would want to. I felt so— after about 2 and a half hours, I feel so tired and my bum hurts.

I start getting pins and needles in my left leg. I need to stand up after a couple hours. So having to stop to charge is actually quite good so I can have a rest. You start really getting numb in the bum.

This bed's so high up because there's, there's 2 mattresses on top of each other.

So, I'm gonna sleep like this.

I've got to sleep like that.

It's kind of weird.

I don't know why they put 2 beds in my room.

Who was staying in my room?

What do you mean you should have let run the surveillance cam? I did.

Why would I turn it off? It's always on. Why would I turn it off? Because I'm not there. Me not being there would be the reason to have it on. I don't know why you assume that I turned it off.

Yeah, it's weird being back. It's like I woke up from a nightmare.

I feel like I went through this whole nightmare moving to Devon, getting a house and everything,

and then makes you think, what was the point of all that?

It's made me lose £15,000 at least, I think.

9 months of rent plus bills and council tax must be at least £14K, and then the furniture must have been at least a couple thousand. It's cost me probably nearly £20,000.

It, it might be one of the most costly endeavours Almost maybe more expensive than Rotterdam.

And what I have to show for it is I got a house in the middle of nowhere, in a place where I don't really want to live anymore or care about living there anymore.

So yeah, I don't know.

I don't know.

It's just like another $15K blown on nothing.

Anything good that came out of it?

Absolutely nothing.

I paid off £10,000 of my landlord's mortgage. How nice for him.

Although he's probably already paid it off. He probably got the house for like $100K back in the 2010s,

so I don't know, he's probably using the money to buy other houses. That's how the rich get rich and the poor stay poor, spending all this money in putting it into something that It's not even going to be yours at any point.

It's just going to someone else's pocket.

Oh yeah.

My day trading portfolio is absolutely destroyed. The market just endlessly keeps going up. I got margin called.

I put another $100 in, instantly it just vanished.

I put another $100 in and then the market pumped and the whole $100 just vanished instantly. Vanished into Thin air.

So fucking done with it.

I've lost like £600 now in the CFD account.

I think If you just made a new rule, which is never, ever, ever, ever go short again,

you would save a lot of money. Just pretend the ability to go short doesn't exist and never, ever go short because it never ends well, does it? I mean, they should just get rid of the go short button.

Because I've lost like £500, £600 from trying to go short, waiting for some pullback that never comes.

But they say end of September, October is when a pullback could come. So if I close the short now, it's probably gonna crash.

It will crash when I close my shorts, won't it?

So I'd have an extra £500-600 if I didn't do the stupid CFD stuff. Maybe I make £10-15 gains here and there, and then ultimately I'm down like £400. With these shorts.

So it's really annoying,

but I'm not really day trading. Like, these shorts are not day trades. I've had these shorts for months. It is a very long failed swing trade. A day trade doesn't last for months, does it? That's why it's called a day trade. If I actually just day traded

and didn't hold positions, then I wouldn't be down so much. But because I keep holding it, it keeps going down.

So I'm not even day trading, I'm just swing trading.

Really? I think I just close everything and top it up and start again. This account's basically blown.

Oh, it's not comfy sitting like this. I want my chair back.

Huh, maybe if I sit like this.

I can't even put my— why couldn't they just leave my room how it was? I don't understand. Why can't they just leave my room alone?

They think when I leave the house, am I never gonna come back again? They never change my sister's room about, do they? Why does my room always get wrecked when I come back? I have a stupid bed here where my chair's supposed to be, and now my room— there's no room in my room. Look,

there's no room at all because there's 2 stupid beds in here. Really annoying.

But what can you do? I can't take the whole bed down

and then they gotta move it back up again.

Where's the bed even gonna go? Where did it even come from is the question.

Oh, well.

It's not easy moving a whole bed,

the whole frame and the mattress.

Uh, they're not— you need at least 2 people.

I'm only going to be here about 10 days, so there's no point.

No point moving everything.

How many freaking guest rooms do you need? You already got a guest room downstairs, and then you got the second living room can be turned into a guest room. How many damn guests are coming?

Yeah, I booked a hotel. I'm gonna see the girl again.

Yeah, I can't really move back here because if I get a girlfriend, how are we gonna— if we're gonna live together at some point, then I gotta go rent another place, which should be a pain in the backside because I have to move all my furniture and stuff. Back to my mum's house and then find a new

place to live and then move all the furniture and stuff to the new house. It's such a pain, isn't it? So I kind of have to keep going with my rental place because you can't really have a girlfriend and live at your mum's house at the same time.

It's just kind of weird.

Unless she has her own place and then I just move into her place, which would be a lot easier. But for some reason, no one has their own place. Everyone lives with their parents. I don't know why.

Oh, I don't know what I'm gonna do tomorrow.

I thought I might do Uber Eats.

It's Saturday tomorrow, isn't it?

Pushkin was really mad because all my stuff was on the windowsill.

That's why he was being weird, and then I cleared it, and now he's looking quite comfy.

Yeah, unfortunately I have to, um, stick with my rental.

And if it comes to it, I have to get a new rental.

Not— I can't really move back in with my mum.

I really need my own place.

Yeah, kind of stuck in Devon.

I got all my— well, I mean, even if I came back, what am I gonna do with all my stuff? My sofa, my bed, my furniture. Where's that all gonna go? It can't fit in the house.

It actually can't even fit in the house because there's already beds and sofas here.

Kent is probably way more expensive.

Sell it. Yeah, and then I move out and get another place, and now I've got to buy all the furniture back again.

I sell it for less than half the price I bought it, and I'm gonna buy it all back again for full price.

Great idea.

Where

were the donos? Yeah, no, not even one dono. I've been out and out. What's the fucking point? Should just stream on Kick.

Mm-hmm.

It didn't play.

What?

Oh,

wait a minute.

Oh wow, thanks. Glad to see genuine hiding in my room once again. So generous.

Whoops, it played twice. Glad to see genuine hiding in my room once again. I miss the Indian woman's voice.

No, no.

No, I didn't hold the baby. I wouldn't really want to.

I'd be scared.

I touched his arm with my finger. That was it.

Pushkin. Pushkin. Pushkin. He doesn't know his name. His ears don't even twitch.

Pushkin. Do cats even know their names? Like a dog knows its name, doesn't it?

He's so fixated on looking outside.

Yep, I'm an uncle.

Life's moving on, isn't it?

Oh God, I'm so uncomfortable.

I can't even sit on my chair.

My neck's gonna be aching.

Beds are not very comfy chairs, are they? Yeah, my room looks like shit now. It's full of beds.

Not even any space to make a video where I sit on the floor.

Don't even know if I'd make a video. I thought maybe when I'm back in my room I'd feel in the mood.

I don't know why I had to ruin my room. My room had perfect feng shui with the bed in the corner and this bit in the middle clear, and now look at it. It's not supposed to have 2 single beds in it.

Really annoying.

Am I missing the Devon place? No, it still feels nicer here in my house.

It's nice having people around as well. I felt so isolated and alone in that Devon house.

It was like a prison, like a streaming prison where I'm just— to be able to pay for it, I'm forced to stream all day, every day, being bored out of my mind.

The only time I go out to do something is go to Tesco or go to the dump.

Be nice if I had a house nearby, a bit closer, not all the way at the other end of the country.

Could be worse, could be Scotland or Manchester, couldn't it?

Stupid people at the dump were pressing me. I took a bunch of black bags and it was filled with mostly plastic and paper. And then he said,

if I go in and look inside those bags, I'm not gonna find any food waste, am I? I said, no.

Definitely not got orange peels and tea bags in it. Why are they being rude to me? Like, what's with the tone and the attitude? Go fucking have a look inside the bag then, be my guest. Go crawl into the skip, stupid idiot. I'm paying his wages and he's being rude to me. Fucking idiot.

So if I go into the skip, I won't— and look in the bag, I won't find any food waste, will I? Don't know. Depends who's asking.

So now I don't want to go to this— to the dump anymore because they might press me again.

Who cares? It's all going into a landfill anyway. It's a bit of orange peel, whatever.

When you leave the black bags outside for the bin men to take, they just take it, no questions asked.

So I guess I'll just do that.

I do not want a flat in Kent surrounded by chavs. No parking. How do I charge my car? I need a driveway, I need a garden, I need conservatory.

Pushkin, why are you twitching? Why does he sleep there? Look, he could sleep anywhere he wants and he sleeps there. That looks so uncomfy.

Pushy whoosh.

I'll change my mic.

Hmm, how do I get the chat? I don't know, whatever, just look at it on my laptop.

Why is it lagging?

I'll put in the Wi-Fi password.

Yeah, why not store your junk in the separate apartment Cami built?

Because there's no room.

You think it's just an empty, empty cabin with nothing in it? Of course there's stuff in it.

Yeah, why not store your junk in the separate apartment Cammy built?

Yeah, why not store your junk in the separate apartment Cammy built?

Been visited by your chums from the police lately?

No.

Why does it not show that I'm live on YouTube?

Oh yeah,

wow, I got an ad from Kraken.

Testing.

Wow.

Why did I stop streaming on YouTube? Because I was streaming on Kick because it was making more money. Now I don't know,

it depends really if I— so basically Kick was making really good money for streaming all day long.

But now it's making shit money because I've got less viewers because they got bored.

And now I'm thinking if the Kick streams start making the same money that the YouTube streams make, but the YouTube streams are like a third of the length, so I have to stream a third of the time, then I'd rather just do YouTube streams because who the hell wants to stream all freaking day long?

I like Kick because you could play music and you don't get copyright problems. That was nice, so I could just drive and put my music on and not worry about copyright.

Streaming's boring. When you gotta stream so long, it's really boring.

Uh, how do I just get the chat on YouTube? I forgot how I did it before.

Yeah, I left my Discord as well and I feel less annoyed. Discord's just really annoying, full of annoying people

and stupid trolls. Leaving it just makes you not—

makes you less annoyed.

Ah, what even is this bed? This is weird and crinkly, noisy duvet.

Pushkin,

do you want to be on stream?

What's wrong?

He's not a very

Like he doesn't sit on your lap, he doesn't come up to you, he doesn't want affection. He's a very boring cat, to be honest. Mr. Meow Meow, I like Mr. Meow Meow more.

Pushkin just, I don't know, he sits on his windowsill and stares out the window.

He's a very boring cat, to be honest.

He's never— he never sits on people's laps.

He never comes up to you and like sits next to you.

Why are you always looking out the window?

Nothing out there.

I like me some Meow Meow more. It was more lovable.

And affectionate. This Pushkin there is a boring cat.

He's always been like this. I like Toffee more. He was really soppy. He liked sitting on people's laps.

Can't let Miss Meow Meow in his house. Yeah, only if it's, um, as long as I don't film it.

Can't prove it. Next time you see Miss Meow Meow, he's gonna have a camera on his collar, isn't he?

Can he even see anything? It's pitch black out there. How well can cats see? Can they see even though it's pitch black?

I thought there was a way to pop out the chat.

Pop out chat.

And then what? Send this myself.

Oh God, I just can't believe how badly my CFD account's doing. It's just awful.

So bad.

I can't believe it.

I'm just shocked.

Da da da da da.

See if this— oh, it worked!

Nice,

but it's really small.

Uh, maybe I'll do it like that.

Ow, I really hate this bed rest thing. Headrest, horrible metal bars.

What? I didn't turn anything to sub-only mode.

Just massaging the bed.

Bitte mal, ja, ma'am.

Why is it sub only?

Is it? I didn't do anything. I haven't even touched my laptop.

Uh,

is it really hard to just press the subscribe button? Doesn't cost any money.

Yeah, I put sub only. Yeah, yeah, I remember now. I put sub only mode because some stupid troll kept spamming my streams with bots and the bots were spamming in the chat. So to get the spam bots to stop, I could change it to sub only because the bots can't sub. That's why.

Yeah, cuz before I started Kick, people kept botting my streams.

I forgot how to turn it off. What, are people here not subbed to me? If you're not subbed to me, then maybe you shouldn't be able to fucking chat. He's too lazy to press the fucking subscribe button, then maybe you shouldn't be able to chat then, bitch. Fucking sub to me or else.

Okay, I'll put anyone then.

I didn't even remember I put sub only mode on.

Pushkin.

Why does he always look away?

Massaging my bed.

Why do they do that? Is that making it softer?

Maybe it just feels nice on his paws.

Miau, miau.

What are you doing? Massaging my bed?

I guess I got a cat on my bed now.

The baby crying isn't that loud unless they— I wonder if they bring the baby upstairs when they go to sleep, or do they sleep downstairs?

We're roommates, Pushkin. I don't know why he likes my bedroom so much.

He didn't used to sleep in it when I was here before, and then I left, and then he started sleeping in it. Maybe he's gonna leave again.

He must be 3 years old now.

Remember when he was a little kitten before I went to Thailand?

He was so tiny.

He doesn't even seem like he likes being stroked, does he?

He's breathing weirdly.

Viewers tanking.

Guess being back at my mum's house didn't really change much.

Yeah, it's kind of what happens when you got no content. Doesn't really matter which platform you're on,

which house you're in.

Guess back to kick tomorrow.

Oh God.

What should I do tomorrow?

My new iPhone is coming tomorrow, so I want to make videos about it.

The drive back was really slow.

There was so many crashes on the motorway, slowed down all the traffic.

And then I saw someone get rear-ended. It was, it was like stop-start traffic jammed up,

so it was just slow, like 5 mph rear-end collision. But it sounded pretty loud. It looked scary. I've never seen a crash up close like that.

It does kind of creep up on you because you're going along on the motorway and then the traffic just starts stopping.

You kind of get hypnotized, don't you, on the motorway? And then you gotta slam the brakes.

I saw them. I saw one car just slam its brakes because it was going too fast. Maybe they didn't realize the traffic was stopping, and then the one behind it just slammed its brakes too and then hit the back of it.

It's a slow journey back, doing like 40 or 50

on the M26. When you got onto the M25 to M20, all cleared up, but on the M26 It was so slow. And the M5 as well had some kind of crash overnight,

so all the lanes slowed down.

It was such a slow drive. It should only take 4 and a half hours. It took like 6 or 7.

Yeah, I had to charge my car. Stopped at the Tesla Supercharger, spent about 30 minutes, only cost £16,

and then I plugged in the car to my mum's house, so free charging.

He's doing

the leg thing.

Why does he like doing that?

Or if he gets hot,

he lays on his back, kind of half, half on his back.

Well, the market is not even open

and it's ripping. What do you mean tanking?

Tanking sideways.

Back in my bedroom.

Yeah, my mum forgave me. I forgave her.

Oh, the YouTube stream is just as dead as Kick streams now.

Plans now I'm back?

Uh, I want to try to do some Uber Eats.

I don't know, really.

My YouTube stuff's just so dead. I can't get any views doing anything.

Yeah, I'll go back to Devon.

I gotta find something else to make videos about because this just isn't gonna work, is it?

The whole vlog my life talking about my problems, it's just not getting any views anymore.

I gotta find something else to make or just get a job and pack it in,

because what worked before just doesn't work anymore.

Really, those are the only 2 choices. I find another way to get views on YouTube, or I gotta get a job.

The classic style of hiding in my room stuff just doesn't work anymore. I made a couple videos a few weeks ago, none of them broke 5K.

What can I do? It used to be so easy when I had a bigger audience.

Clickbait the fuck out of anything.

I made a video about being skinny once. It got like 40K views.

I literally could make a video about anything and it would get 30 to 40K. Remember the video? It was like, these are my legs, they're very skinny, they've always been very skinny. I made a whole 10-minute rant about being skinny.

Such a stupid video. Boring as well.

But when people love you, they'll watch anything, won't they?

Even Chris Broad and Linus Tech Tips were complaining about their views being down saying something changed with the algorithm.

It's funny, people used to think I was like a YouTube genius or something.

I even let it get to my head and I thought myself, damn, I'm really good at YouTube, when really it was just the algorithm blessing you. And when the algorithm takes it away You're just as hopeless as all those other people who can't even get 1,000 subs.

When the algorithm blesses you, you

get deluded into thinking it was your own genius that led to the success,

like you did something special that no one else could do.

And then all these fresh new channels now

having their turn

getting these one-off videos popping off, just like how my No Friends video did.

Everyone gets their 15 minutes of fame.

Back to the job center.

Yeah, I don't know how I'm going to do all-day streams on Kick here,

just sitting in my bedroom.

I can't really just walk around the house streaming, can I?

It's also really uncomfortable streaming here. I don't have a chair. The chair's over there, but it can't fit in front of my desk because this stupid bed's here now.

And I didn't bring my mic stand, so I gotta hold my mic.

So I don't know how— I can't sit on the bed like this.

With no back support all day long.

Her furniture is in my house.

No, I can't go downstairs. People

there who don't want to be on the stream.

He's got spots on his belly too, they're just harder to see.

He's laying on his back like a human.

Push, push.

Where am I?

My light stopped working. Use the lamp now, in case you wondered. Not that you care.

I don't know where my Amex credit card is. Did it even arrive?

I might take this with me when I leave, this fabric drawer. I might take the tripod as well.

Do you remember this camera angle?

My wife is so stupid.

Do you remember all the videos I took in this mirror?

Easy 40K views mirror video.

I don't know if I take this because then I can use those Tesco chargers because you've got to bring your own cable.

Yeah, but the Tesco chargers are so slow and you're only going to be there for like an hour. You can't charge much in an hour, can you?

Kind of pointless. I don't know why they put such slow chargers at supercharg— uh, supermarkets.

My little fridge, remember this?

When I got stressed out, my mum kept having guests over.

I put milk and bread in it and some ham. I made sandwiches in my bedroom and then I stormed off to Manchester.

I got so stressed out, all these people kept coming to the house.

I've got to do my dumbbells tomorrow before I shrink. All my muscles shrink.

How many days has it been? I think I've not worked out for two. Today's the third day I haven't done dumbbells.

I brought my dumbbells with me, just in case.

But my original ones are still here. Where are they?

Yeah, those ones that I used before are still here.

Oh, I might take my red bathrobe as well because I like this more than the blue one I've got. I'll take my bathrobe. Oh, my hoodies. Oh, so much clothing here I could bring back. Oh, look, underwear.

Oh look, my Thailand thin hoodies. My Japanese gym bag. Yeah, I'm gonna loot a load of stuff. Oh look, my hoodie!

I like this hoodie. It's been a while since I've worn a hoodie. Yeah, I'm gonna take all this clothing and my red bathrobe, and maybe— yeah, I'm gonna take this drawer.

And I've got my mini ITX computer, but it's only got a GTX 1060. It's probably not very good anymore.

Got jeans. Oh, my Khao Yai t-shirt! I thought I lost that.

Thailand, another life, wasn't it? Can't believe it, 3, 2 years ago now.

Long gone and over, the Thailand arc. Good old Farsta took me here, Khao Yai.

Khao Yai was pretty nice.

Can't believe it. Thailand's so in the past now.

That was quite an adventure.

Ended in tears, just like everything does.

Got some fluffy pillowcases. Might take those.

Got my winter coat.

Oh look, my spa uniform from the petrol station.

Oh, this is a button shirt that actually fit me. This is what I wanted from those Tesco shirts, but they were too big. Might take this with me as well because it looked quite good on me. It actually fit me as well.

Else, I think that's all.

Leaving tomorrow. Imagine I just got here today, I'm leaving tomorrow already.

You seem slightly more depressed. Yeah, cuz I don't know what to do. Before, I always felt like, yeah, I know how to get the views up. Yeah, I'll do this and I'll do that. But for the first time in nearly 10 years, I honestly don't know what to do. I honestly feel completely fucked.

My bag of tricks is empty. Clickbait doesn't work anymore. I got no drama. I got nothing interesting to share with you guys.

Um, I just don't know.

I, I tried to milk this YouTube thing for as long as I can, but I just think there's nothing left to milk anymore. I don't know what else to do.

It always came so easy to me to make videos and make content. Now for the first time, I just honestly don't know what to do.

Actually feels like it's over. Before, I could just say, oh, I'm just gonna— I'll clickbait this and I'll fake some girl thing. I just can't be bothered anymore.

It's exhausting.

Also, I don't want to get big views. 'Cause the more views I get, the more risk I have of being exposed.

So it's like a weird contradictory feeling of I need views to make money, but actually I don't want views because people knowing my past and knowing who I am

kind of works against me. I'd rather be anonymous.

I don't have the hunger for fame anymore. I actually don't want it, but I want the views because I want money.

My entire YouTube career I've been complaining about views. Probably the only time I didn't complain about views was when The channel blew up in 2018 when I was getting views for about a year,

and then people were getting bored of the marriage drama, and then I felt the views slipping, and then that's when it began. Ever since the channel blew up, basically I've been stressing out about views. I mean, that's the life of a YouTuber, isn't it? Doesn't matter if you get millions of views or billions of views. I think

every YouTuber stresses about it.

Right now, I don't know what my hunger is hungering for.

I don't know.

How am I an incel? I've got a girlfriend.

I don't know why people insist on calling me an incel.

I have a girlfriend nearly all the time.

No, Kick didn't end anything.

There's no point streaming for 2 hours on Kick, I'd make

$15.

So I thought I'd try a YouTube stream, but it's not going very well.

No, I can't double stream because they slash my earnings in half and I'll have less viewers.

I don't know why do people think if I double stream I'll have double the viewers. It doesn't work like that. I've got a very small pool of viewers.

Just because I double stream doesn't mean I'm gonna have double the viewers. It'll just be the same number of viewers. Maybe they'll open up a second tab so they watch me on both platforms.

Well then, Kick cuts how much money you make in half if you multi-stream. So then you're gonna make like $2 now on Kick. What's the point?

Where's

he going? Back to the window.

I keep forgetting there's a baby here, then it starts crying.

How does Kick know? Cuz stupid trolls would report me, wouldn't

There's no point trying to get away with stuff when you got a bunch of idiots reporting you for every damn thing you do.

Hopefully the crying's not too bad. I've got earplugs. Imagine I forgot my earplugs.

Not even a single Super Chat. It's over. Where are my earplugs?

Got my hair dryer.

Oopsie. Oh, here they are, my tweezers.

My sister said that he starts crying at 5 AM.

They must be exhausted. Can't sleep at all, can you?

Or much. Can't sleep much.

Yeah, I don't know if I'd want a baby. I'd like my sleep. Maybe if I get fed up with the crying, I'll go home. Well, I can't leave until about 10 days when I booked the hotel.

Yeah, having a baby looks like hard work.

Hmm,

well, I don't know what time my iPhone 17 is coming tomorrow. I want to do unboxing

and then what?

I want to do comparison video with iPhone 12. I might get some views,

mess around with it for, with it for a month, and then send it back.

I got these earplugs.

Where's my toothbrush?

Oh,

I've got some Japanese yen. 1,000 yen.

Can you hear

it? How old is he? Must be like 2 weeks old, 3 weeks old, not even a month.

How long until they start talking? Like a year. How much is the 17? I got the iPhone Air, it was £1,000.

I'm gonna see if it's any good.

I just brought lots of underwear and socks.

Ah, why do they put 2 single beds in my room? What is the point?

So annoying. Fucking room's a mess now.

I haven't even looked at my drawers. What did I leave behind? What is all this? Oh, there's no room anywhere. Fucking room's got no fucking space. Look at this shit. Fucking hell,

there's no fucking room in my bedroom now.

Look, look at this. It's a draw— I can't even open my drawer over there. The hell, they stuffed 2 single beds in my room. Fucking annoying. HDMI

webcam. Oh, tripod. I might take that.

There's so many things I didn't bring with me, so just didn't think to bring it.

Might take that.

Gotta rip that webcam off.

So

another little— oh, I might take that too. Can always use more tripods.

Uh, looks like a monitor. I don't know what that is. Power supply. Wow.

The condoms. These must be so old.

2026.

Tulips.

Oh look, my iPhone. I've still got the iPhone 12 box. No way. It's not like me to keep the box for so long.

I can't believe I still got the box.

What's that? HDMI? Is that HDMI? No, what is that?

It's not HD— oh, it is. No, it's not. It's got weird flat side to it.

Oh look, oh, another mouse.

Maybe I'll take that with me. I don't know if the one I rinsed under the tap is still broken.

What's this one? Is that my JLPT?

Oh, a JLPT Level 2.

I got it in 2009.

I was so proud when I passed this. I studied so hard to pass this exam.

I wish I got Level 1. I nearly passed it, just messed up with the reading segment.

Oh, my dongle.

That might be useful. I bought that for my LiveU Solo setup. Didn't Mizuki give me this plastic bag? She put my stuff in little plastic bags. I suppose she didn't put it in the bin after what I did to her. Yeah, I got this for the Thailand IRL streams.

Little dongle, you put the SIM card in there.

Could be useful.

What's that? Vape juice, melon premium liquid.

Oh, my mic, the Blue Yeti.

That's a big mic.

Cost £150 back when I cared. Oh look, my rat £120 pro gamer mouse. This mouse was horrible. Look at it, so uncomfortable. I might bring it with me. You never know when you need another mouse.

I don't know why I bought the most— it was like £200 actually. I just bought the most expensive gaming mouse I could find to try and make a video about it, and the video flopped. For some reason I didn't send it back.

Lots of face masks. Pushkin. Meow, meow, meow, meow, meow, meow.

What is it?

Big cat.

Damn, look how small my face was.

Bicycle adventure in Japan.

It's a nice bed.

I've got my school report from 1999.

I got attendance record of 345 days out of 346. I was in class 6. Daniel is a fluent reader and can write detailed

answers to comprehension— comprehensive— I can barely read this writing, it's so bad. Showing good understanding of text, information, and creative writing planning and drafting. Shows a good grasp of spelling, grammar, and punctuation, but Daniel sometimes lacks the confidence to develop his writing with the length and detail necessary for a good mark.

I must have been about 10. The teacher must have been like 35. So she must be like 60 now. That's crazy. The teacher that wrote this must be like 60. Daniel is gaining confidence in this subject, so much of his work has been quick and accurate.

His, his mental maths has really improved, and he handles data confidently. Daniel still needs help with shape, space, and measures. He is not a natural mathematician and does not particularly enjoy problem-solving or investigations. He needs encouragement.

I got a C grade. Maths, C grade. English, C grade. Science.

Daniel has a tendency to rush with practical work without first considering what is to be done and how it might be achieved.

As a consequence, Daniel's experimental work is rather poor, although his scientific knowledge has improved. He should— he showed great interest in the human body.

Not much changed.

Daniel needs to concentrate on problem solving in maths. He has necessary skills but lacks confidence needed for success. Story of my life.

Daniel's designing and making skills are well developed. He is able to adapt his designs when necessary.

History. We studied the ancient Greeks and how we use their ideas today. Daniel has enjoyed learning about Greek myths.

Daniel has revealed an artistic talent in his copy of a Van Gogh— Van Gogh painting. It was carefully and accurately drawn and completed with successful use of color and texture.

Daniel hits a rounder's ball with great determination.

Daniel has shown that he is a very capable pupil and I hope that he has gained confidence this year. He has taken a more active role in the classroom recently and has revealed a good sense of humor. I wish him every success at his new school. Your capabilities are far greater than you let on, Daniel. You really

do have the ability to succeed if your new skill.

Mr. Thomas. Chris would remember him. He must be dead. He must have been like 50 when we were 10.

That means, I don't know, he might be, he might be 75 to 80 now. He could be alive.

Mr. Thomas. He was a cool guy. What's that? Oh, my Tara Plus for my,

um, skin rashes in Thailand.

What's that?

Is that Apple Hotel toothpaste?

Oh, 2010 guest house.

Me and the guys and girls.

It looks like such an old picture, like from the '80s.

I'm there with Canadian guys.

My first time in Japan and I'm not even hanging out with Japanese people. 2 Korean women and 3 Canadian guys.

That's what life's like. You think you're gonna go to Japan, make all these Japanese friends, you end up hanging out with all these foreigners and having a way better time than hanging out with the Japanese people.

What a life.

One big round trip to Japan and Asia and all the way back here again.

Just a load of memories.

The gay guy made this photo album for me.

That's me clubbing with the black man from the guest house. That was the guest house manager.

He used to bang remedial girlfriend.

Oh, there's gay guy. And there's French girlfriend, and there's me

15 years ago. Crazy,

can't believe it.

Look at my hair.

Jesus, looks so stupid. What was I thinking?

My hair looks so bad.

Oh God, it just— it looks like a helmet, like a bowl cut but really long.

Look at this.

What? Why is it not focusing?

Look at my hair. Oh God.

Jesus, I can't believe I ever got a girlfriend.

Oh God, look at my hair. Oh my God, and you think my hair looks bad now. You have no idea how bad my hair has looked.

My hair now looks so much better. Look at the middle bit. Look how this middle bit is just like really short.

Look at this one.

People kept saying that guy looked like me. He did a little bit.

What was I doing with that hair? Oh my God, it looks so bad.

His hair looks bad too. His hair looks like mine. We all got those mullets.

I just wanted like long hair, but it always ended up looking like a helmet.

I can't believe I thought my hair looked good back then.

I thought this girl was cute.

All the other girls there weren't very good-looking.

That was French girlfriend. That was gay guy.

They both suck my dick.

Everyone in this pic suck my dick. French girlfriend is not bad looking.

She's a bit chubby, I guess. Her face was nice.

She had a nice face.

This guy was a weirdo.

He was American. He was really cringe and weird.

People kept saying he looked like Adam— what was his name? Robert Pattinson.

He was like the cringiest American stereotype you could imagine.

His French girlfriend is me. See, my hair looked good there when I've parted it with some fore— I need forehead. When I have no forehead, it looks stupid. It took me a long time to realize that.

I tried many times to do the fringe, the full fringe thing, and it just did not look good. It's not until I did the sweep, the swoop with the forehead, it started looking a lot better.

It took me a long time to figure out what kind of hairstyle to have.

I went through so many phases of stupid looking hair. Now I think this is probably the best it's looked.

Oh look, my toothbrush is in the way. Do you want me to move it? She's using my toothpaste as a pillow.

Yeah, I

saw the baby.

I think in general fringes don't look great on guys. I think guys just look so much better with more forehead.

Stupid fly.

Yeah, well, mind your own business, Mummy. It's my personal relationship.

You're not part of my relationship.

Meow, meow, meow.

He doesn't even purr or seem happy when you stroke him.

Does he even like it?

What about under the chin? He doesn't even seem to like that.

Do you like anything, Pushkin? Boring cat.

That would kill that fly.

Why are you such a boring cat, Pushkin?

You just want to stare out the window.

Why is there a stupid fly in here?

I might go to bed soon.

Yeah, for some reason my mum put 2 mattresses on top of each other.

I don't know why she put 2 mattresses. Is it— yeah, it's 2 mattresses on top of each other.

I don't know why. What, like, how does she think of this stuff sometimes? I don't get it. What is that? It's like really a big pillow.

My bedroom was looking so nice and neat when I left, and now look at it, absolutely trashed.

The table is not even put together properly. This bit is supposed to go in the corner. That bit's supposed to go there.

Oh God, my poor little room.

No room for my chair.

What a horrible room now. This is what I was talking about. I mean, you look at my, my house in Devon, look how nice and clean and neat it is. And then I'll come back home and look at this.

What have they done to my room, Pushkin?

Oh, no market because it's Saturday tomorrow. I was waiting for Asia market.

Massaging.

Massaging.

Massaging the bed.

What's that stupid fly buzzing in here?

Oh, it's so big as well.

Whack it,

Pushkin. I'm gonna whack the fly.

Oh, I missed it.

My mom got the baby.

It went back to the corner.

I think I got it. Probably didn't kill it though.

It's probably just knocked out.

Yeah, imagine thinking I came back from Devon with a kid.

I'm not Kanae.

Who get— who understands what I mean?

Kanae knocked up his girlfriend and got ditched with a kid, and then the girl left him, and now he's like a single dad, isn't he?

Where are my toothpicks?

Well, I'm gonna go to bed.

Oh wow, thanks. We go cereal win. So generous, $1.

We go cereal win.

See you back on Kick, I guess.