My Channel Died And I'm Sad -(

Okay,

I think it's time that we talked about

the elephant in the house. I guess

there's no point pretending to ignore it

anymore, but my YouTube channel is dead.

Fucking dead.

Can't believe it.

Finally. My God.

I wasn't expecting it to happen this year

though. I thought it would happen maybe

next year or the year after.

Wasn't expecting the channel to die this

year, even after all of the

amazing content I put out this year.

Wasn't enough to sustain the channel.

It's just not fair. I feel like I

sacrificed so much and I put so much

effort into making interesting stuff

happen, like the divorce, going to Korea,

meeting random girls, going to Germany,

digging the hole, but still not good

Just feels like everything I did None

of it was good enough.

Tried as hard as I could since 2 years

ago, grinding away every day

trying to come up with ideas, doing dumb

stuff, upsetting people,

sacrificing relationships, all for

nothing.

All the sacrifices I made in my life and

all the money I wasted to make interesting

content to try and entertain my viewers,

and then they all left anyway.

Absolutely no loyalty.

Now you look at PewDiePie, you look

at what he's doing now, he just does live

streams where he plays video games. He

doesn't put any effort into his content

like he used to, but he doesn't have to

because he's got a loyal fan base of 5

million who still watch, who would watch

him do anything. What about me?

Where's my loyal fan base? They all left

when the drama dried up.

So annoying.

PewDiePie doesn't even read donations. He

gets all these donations and he doesn't

even read out the message or answer the

people who donated. He just ignores them

It's just so— oh, don't even get me

started. When I was putting out toxic

content and drama all the time, people

were just constantly whining all the time

saying, grow up, Daniel. You're a horrible

person, Daniel. Blah, blah, blah, blah,

Daniel. And then as soon as I stopped

doing all the stuff they're moaning about,

they don't even care anymore. So I feel

like, what was the point of at

least pretending to try and be a nice

I can't believe it.

You know what's annoying? I put a video

out on my second channel, Chef Daniel,

about Cyberpunk and why it's a bad game.

It has nearly 30,000 views now.

Obviously I'm happy. But those

30,000 views— testing.

Is it streaming?

Fucking hell.

So annoying when I'm ranting and then it

disconnects.

Okay, press 1 if you can hear me.

The stupid fucking Wi-Fi here is so shit.

And I put my SIM card into my new iPhone

and I tried using the iPhone as a hotspot,

data hotspot, and then I connected this

phone to the iPhone's hotspot to try and

stream off the data, and then it still

wouldn't connect. It kept Saying

reconnecting, reconnecting.

If I should try and stream on the iPhone,

I don't want to put the SIM card back into

my old phone because I want to use the new

Yeah.

Hold on, I want to try— hold

on,

I'm gonna try and stream from my phone,

my iPhone.

Oh my God, I can't even do a livestream,

can I? Jesus.

I took the SIM card out of my iPhone and

put it back into my Samsung because when I

tried streaming on the iPhone on data,

it kept disconnecting again.

Oh, what was the point of even buying the

iPhone if I can't even use it?

Now we'll wait for everyone to come back

and hope that the data is working

properly.

It's understandable why the Wi-Fi might be

rubbish here, but There's no excuse for

the data to be rubbish because I'm in the

city. There should be good coverage of

mobile data. It's not like I'm in the

middle of the woods. Okay, is it

streaming now?

How can the data be lagging? It's fucking

4G.

Let me check because

the Wi-Fi here is not reliable. It goes—

sometimes it's good, then sometimes it's

Fucking hell. Testing, testing.

Fucking hell. Testing, testing. Okay, it

looks fine. I think it's fine now.

Do some hand movements.

Yeah, it looks fine. I think it looks

good. Oh, I guess I've

used my data.

Thankfully it reset a few days ago, so

I've got another 20 gigs. This livestream

alone will probably use up 6 or 7 of it.

Oh, I hate streaming. Streaming's good

when you've got good internet.

Isn't it stupid? I got this new phone,

the latest state-of-the-art technology

iPhone 12, and I have to resort to using

my old Samsung phone to do a stream.

What was the point of getting a new phone?

What was I saying? Now I need to get back

into the flow. It's so

annoying when you're ranting about

something and you get disconnected. It

feels so unsatisfying,

you know, like you're chopping a garlic

halfway and then the

knife won't cut it.

I think iPhone has always been bad for

livestreaming. I knew this since iPhone X

when it used to overheat. I don't know

why. Why can't it just be like Android?

Number one, you can't use the wide angle.

When you're streaming on the iPhone. You

can flip between the different cameras,

but it won't flip through the wide-angle

lens. And then for some reason, there's

all these problems with data when you're

trying to stream from your data. You get

these weird problems that you don't have

It's a shame because I prefer iPhone when

I'm using the phone because it just feels

better, but then I still need Android to

do live streaming, so I'm always going to

need 2 phones and I can't just have one

main phone. So this means

every time I stream I need to put the SIM

card back into my old phone, and then when

I go outside I need to take it out and put

it back into my iPhone. So Fiddly.

Oh, I got a Super Chat from Rio.

Thank you. Congrats on your new job.

What was my new job? Oh yeah, that fake

one I made recently.

Yeah, even the new job clickbait stuff

doesn't work anymore. Nothing works.

And now even the livestream chat doesn't

work, so I don't see any chat. Hold on, I

need to restart the app.

I don't see anyone in the chat.

Oh my God, driving me crazy.

Okay, I think I fixed it.

Yeah, when I restarted the app, it had

like closed off my face. That's why I

don't show my face in streams.

Okay, I think it's finally working. I got

the live chat back up. This weird thing

happens sometimes on YouTube when the live

chat just stops working and it looks like

no one's saying anything.

Yeah, I got a massive pimple next to my

chin. I always get them all

at once. The last week I've been pretty

good for pimples, didn't really get many.

And then I woke up yesterday morning and I

got one by my lip, one, 2 on my chin, one

on my nose. They all come at the same

time.

Oh, this has to be the worst stream I've

Okay, I think everything's fine.

Yeah, okay, so I

wanted to talk about my channel dying,

but now I've kind of lost interest in it

because of all the problems I just had.

So stressful doing this.

Um, I don't show my face because I got

pimples. It's not really that complex

of an issue.

I can't squeeze the pimples because

they're just red. There's nothing to

squeeze out yet. It will take a few days

until it goes white, white.

Oh, I can't be bothered to say anything if

I'm just gonna lag all the time. Let me

check again.

Hello?

Hello?

Is my hand moving properly? I don't know

why tonight has been such a mess. Usually

when I stream, it's not this bad.

I'm not even using the, the Wi-Fi here.

I'm using my data now. Should be fine.

Give it a few minutes. Hey, the other

thing I don't understand is how come I've

only— I don't even have 200 viewers.

Where the fuck did all my viewers go?

It's like they all just vanished

overnight. I used to get 500 or 600

viewers when I streamed, and now channels

that have less than 10K subs are getting

more viewers than I get during streams. I

watch these tiny little stock analysis

channels where they've only got about 8K

subs And they'll get about 500

or 600 viewers in their streams. Tiny

little channels that don't even have 10K

subs get more viewers than I get now.

Pisses me off.

And if they don't want to watch anymore,

why don't they just unsubscribe? I don't

understand why they stay subscribed if

they're not going to watch anymore. Just

fuck off then.

Why don't they just unsubscribe and piss

off if they're so much better than me and

I'm so boring? Don't subscribe

to my channel then, idiot. I wish I could

just start a new channel so I can get

the people who are still watching to just

come over to the new channel.

But then I have to get it monetized again.

Such a pain.

If I'm only going to get 5K views, then I

want a channel that only has 5K subs. I

don't want all these dead subs,

something I was really scared of

happening. Way back,

I was always worried that my channel would

end up becoming big, but then everyone

would just stop watching, and then I've

got this massive dead channel. Just looks

bad, like Canada Gin or Gimme

a Break Man. I didn't want to become like

them, and now I have.

At least I'm not as bad as Gimme a Break

Man yet. Gimme a Break Man has 90k subs,

and then he only gets like 500 or 1,000

views.

Thank you, Mark C. Should have told people

to ring the bell. Now, I never told people

to ring the bell or smash the like button

like all those obnoxious people do on

YouTube. Could at least give me some

credit for that. Could at least say, at

least Daniel doesn't keep telling us to

smash the like button.

What do I think of Paul Joseph Watson?

He's one of my favorite YouTubers.

He always makes good content.

Yeah,

it just looks bad when you've got 100K

subs and then 90% of them don't watch. I

just, I really don't like it. It just

really triggers my OCD.

It just kind of shows you that the sub

button is completely useless. I wish they

would get rid of the sub button and the

sub count because it's rubbish. People sub

and then they don't watch, or they sub and

YouTube doesn't recommend them my videos.

And you don't need to sub to a channel in

order to— for YouTube to recommend you

their videos. For example, I watch all of

these stock channels. I'm not subbed to

any of them, but YouTube keeps

recommending me more of their videos

because I'm watching them. So you don't

even need the sub button in the first

place. It's completely useless.

Get rid of the sub button. Get rid of

likes and dislikes. Likes and dislikes

completely useless as well.

And it just feels like. I've got all these

subs that, that have completely forgotten

that I existed.

And you know my video on my second

channel, which has gone kind of viral now

about Cyberpunk? There, there's actually a

few comments on it saying, what the F,

why is Daniel on my recommended feed

again? Why is Daniel on my YouTube home

again? People who used to watch me who are

into video games, they got my new video

recommended to them and they remembered my

voice, I guess. And I remember some of

their usernames. That I Am Morty guy, he

used to watch me all the time.

Yeah, well, people think they can forget

about me. I'll just make a video about

something that they're actually interested

in, and then I'll pop right back into the

home feeds. Think you can get rid of me?

Huh?

You don't get to decide when you get rid

of me, okay?

Try to make a positive video about things

I'm grateful for. And how do I get

rewarded? It has the worst views ever,

barely scraped 5K. So what is the point of

pretending to be all nice and positive

when I'm not feeling very positive? It

doesn't even get good views. But why,

why even bother at this point?

Uh, why bother pretending anymore? What

good would it do? People aren't gonna

suddenly go, oh look, Daniel's being

positive, let's all watch him again.

Yeah, right.

So the good news is Chef Daniel has

a video on it that is gonna get 30k views,

which means I don't need a fan base to get

30k views. I just need to make a clickbait

video about a trending topic. The video

doesn't even have to be good. My video

about Cyberpunk was utter rubbish. I just—

I didn't even play the game. I don't even

have a PlayStation or a console or PC.

What do you mean my Cyberpunk video is

gone? It's on Chef

Daniel, my second channel.

It's not gone, it's there. Look. Oh my

God, it's got 27,000 views now.

It's got 1,200 comments, 1,100 likes,

and 1,100 dislikes. So the people saying

your videos don't go viral anymore because

people are disliking it, that's a load of

rubbish. And that new Cyberpunk video

is proof that dislikes do not stop a video

from going viral. I don't know why people

got this thing into their mind where they

think, oh, your videos don't go viral

anymore because you got lots of dislikes.

Utter bollocks.

They're not going viral anymore because I

don't make videos about trending topics,

and my viewership have abandoned me.

But I lucked out on the Cyberpunk video

because it is a trending topic now.

Cyberpunk just recently came out.

Everyone's playing Cyberpunk. PewDiePie is

constantly live streaming Cyberpunk, so

obviously it's a trending topic. And I

made that video, it took me like 5 minutes

and it's got nearly 30,000 views.

Yeah, 27k views is viral for me.

On my Chef Daniel channel, I usually get

between 500 and 1,000 views compared

to 500 and 1,000 views. 30,000 views is

mega viral.

Stop trying to burst my balloon.

Yeah, exactly. The algorithm doesn't care

about likes or dislikes.

And there's been proven tests run that

show that the dislike has the same

effects— button has the same effects as

the like button when it comes to

engagement. So stop trying to make it seem

like, oh, the haters are keeping your

channel down. Haters can suck my

garlic-smelling cheese dick.

So my strategy now is, I guess since the

clickbait drama stuff isn't working

anymore— I don't know, do you think it

would work more a few more times?

I'm now going to switch my tactic over to

trending topics like new

video games, or just basically jump on the

bandwagon, but I have to be quick. Oh my

God, this onion's burning my eyes.

I have to be really quick, and I've missed

out on a lot of the bandwagons recently,

like the PlayStation 5 bandwagon. I missed

that. iPhone 12, I missed that because I

was too slow.

I just have to force myself and do it.

But it's— it was nice getting views like

that again. I remember back in the day,

every single video I made on hiding in my

room would get easily 40K views. I

wouldn't even have to try or put any

effort into it. It's been a long time

since I've seen those numbers, so I guess

it's kind of like a bit of motivation,

telling me that, yeah, I can get those

views again. Maybe not with my old

audience because they've abandoned me now,

but I can get views from

tapping into a different audience.

Nothing's impossible. Never let your

dreams be dreams. Don't let the naysayers

bring you down. Chef Daniel is proof.

That I can still get views. And I don't

need views from my audience. I can get a

new audience. There's 1.6

billion people using YouTube. I just have

to tap into 0.00001% of that user base to

make money. So suck my dick.

YouTube. You don't put any effort

in your videos. You don't have to put

effort into videos. Look at my Why I Have

No Friends video. I 100% ripped off some

other channel, took me like 10 minutes to

make, didn't put any effort into it, and

it got 1.4 million views. That's the thing

about YouTube. You don't actually

have to put any effort into it if you know

what topic to choose. If you pick the

right topic at the right time, you don't

have to put any effort into it.

Look at my Chef Daniel cyberpunk video.

You search cyberpunk into YouTube right

now, I'll bet you anything my channel will

pop up. Chef Daniel.

And also another annoying thing is I

thought the landlord said that the people

upstairs moved out. Are they back again or

something? Because I can hear footsteps

and I can hear that stupid coughing guy

and I can hear the car. You know what they

do? They park their car outside the house

on the bicycle lane and they leave the

engine running. They left the engine

running for about an hour plus a few days

ago. Why? Why would

you just leave the engine running? All I

could hear was jujujujujujujujuju for an

hour. You either get out the car and turn

the engine off, or you're in the car and

you're driving off to somewhere. Why would

you sit in the car with the engine

running? Idiots.

I don't know what happened, but for some

reason the noise is back. Not as bad as it

was before. The little kid running up and

down is not back, but I can still hear

someone going up and down. I can hear the

door slamming, and it sounds just like

the person who was there before they were

supposed to allegedly move out. So I don't

know what's going on.

I still haven't decided if I want to move

out or not because my

address got doxxed. Don't know if you

check the Reddit, but the stupid freaks on

Reddit are doxxing my address again, so I

don't really feel comfortable living here

knowing that Anyone could just show up.

Obviously, I won't open the door.

If anyone knocks, I'm just going to ignore

it. So I don't really feel very

comfortable here knowing that my address

is on the internet now.

I don't know if I moved out. I don't know

where to move to. There's nowhere cheaper.

Than this place that I know of. I don't

really want to get into another contract

because I don't know how long I can stay

because of Brexit.

I think most people were saying I can stay

until July because after 1st of

January Brexit will officially happen and

then I am no longer an EU member.

And then I have

until July 1st to apply for residence.

So until July, I don't have to do

anything, I think. I tried phoning the

embassy and there were just so many menus.

Press 1 for this, press 2 for that.

All I want to do is talk to a real human

being. And get some easy answers.

So I need to make dinner and then we need

to do some brainstorming. I need to get

the notepad out. There's someone upstairs

still walking up and down, really

irritating.

I thought they moved out. Why are they

I don't even know where all my viewers

went. I had 100,000. I used

to get 30K, 40K. Now I can't even get 5K.

I'm struggling to even get 5K views now.

The hell happened?

How do I get them back? The only thing

that would get them back is probably if

Chihiro made a re-entry, but I don't

think that's gonna happen.

Oh, I'm so sorry, my life is so boring

now. Oh, I'm so sorry I decided to stop

making people cry and cheating, and now

apparently that's too boring for you.

Shame on me for deciding to stop

doing toxic things.

Idiots telling me to grow up. Why don't

they grow up? Why don't they shut

up? The stupid

Elvis aliens say, oh, this guy's so weird.

Why does he do this?

Why the fuck do you think?

You know, my only last trick in the hat is

the Stuff like why I hate Rachel and

Jordan, why I hate blah blah blah. So I'm

gonna do one about Aki Dearest, I guess.

She's been stewing in my pot for a couple

months now. The thing is, I don't really

know what to say about them. I can't make

fun of their physical appearance because

that's against YouTube's guidelines now,

describing people as Referring to people

as animals is also against the guidelines,

so no calling people fat pigs or ugly

rats. That's, that's not against— I mean,

that is against the rules now.

So what could I even say about Akidearest?

I could say I just make up a load of

rubbish, like, um,

I went to school with her and she was not

a very nice person, blah blah blah.

So since my own viewers have stopped

watching me, the only way I can get views

now is by getting other people's viewers

to watch me by talking about their gods

or their heroes. Do you know how much

money I made off my Chris Broad video?

The first one? Over $400 now.

And then if you add in all the other ones

I made, I've probably made near to $500

off of Chris's name, which is pretty

funny. My Chris Broad video has 120,000

views. Isn't that amazing?

So I'm gonna do more of those. My problem

with insert big YouTuber name.

On Chef Daniel, my highest viewed video

is, uh, Why I Hate Rachel and Jun.

Has over 100,000 views. I wasn't even

getting 100,000 views during peak drama

That's the annoying thing is the annoying

thing is. Even during peak drama with all

the Hong Kong guy stuff and getting

divorced and getting kicked out,

I was only getting about 60,000 views at

most. 60,000 views

is not really enough to justify ruining

your marriage and your relationships and

spending all that money on Airbnbs. Maybe

if it was a couple hundred thousand or a

million views, Then yeah, you could

justify it because that's a lot of money.

But I was ruining my life for 60,000

views at most. It's just rubbish.

It's pants. So no, I don't really feel

like ruining my life again just so I can

get pathetic pants 60K views, which I

wouldn't even get anyway because,

you know, law of diminishing returns.

States that you keep doing the same thing

over and over again, it becomes less

effective. So even if I had exact same

kind of drama again, number one, it would

ruin my life and my relationships again.

Number two, it won't get as many views as

it did before because obviously now

there's less viewers. So why would I do

So that's my answer to people saying my

life's boring now, why don't you do

something for content? It's because it's

not worth it. It's like biting off my arm

to eat my finger, you know what I'm

saying? I could,

I could, you know, I could technically

destroy my current life living situation

right now and get what, 20K views,

30K views? It's not worth it.

It's not worth going to a completely new

country and spending all that money just

to get 30K views. So I'm sorry,

but if

you're waiting for me to destroy my life

for content, then no, I'm not gonna do it.

Unless you're some kind of YouTube genie

and you can somehow promise me 10 million

views, then maybe I'd consider it.

And then people wonder why I don't like my

viewers. It's because all they want is to

see my life get destroyed for their own

sick pleasure.

Instead of wishing me well and hoping that

my life goes well, they want a train

wreck, and they want to see my life fall

apart, and they want to see me in misery

so they can get a cheap laugh. They can

suck my tit.

So what happens from now, I guess you're

asking? Obviously I'm not gonna quit

YouTube. Still gotta make money.

Hmm, I don't know.

Now my only ideas are hating on big

YouTubers.

Don't know, to be honest. I really don't

Maybe more investing update videos, but

people are not interested in that.

People just don't find the stock market

interesting.

Even if I went to a new country, it would

just be the same. There'd be some travel

video where I'm on a plane or on a train

and Then I would show

you my new apartment or hotel, and then I

just sit in the apartment or hotel whining

about how bored I am.

It's not like something magical is going

to happen and I'm going to fly off into

But I guess I have to do what I've always

been against doing, which is make videos

about trending topics. Because it

works! Proved by my Cyberpunk video.

You make a video about a trending topic—

even my Trump video proves it. Trump video

got good views. I'm just

gonna have to stay up to date on what's

You sound genuinely depressed right now.

Well, yeah, number one, I'm really pissed

off that I had all those problems just now

with streaming. Oh, what a mess. I

couldn't even get the stream started off

properly. Let me check.

I hope there's not like a 30-second save

livestream. That's been uploaded now.

No, it looks fine.

Okay, take a deep breath, calm down.

The stream is working,

the data is flowing. It will be fine.

It'll be fine. It's not the

end of the world. We've just— we've

just— the channel has just run its course,

and now we need to, um,

change battle tactics. Yeah, that's the

word. We need to change, switch up

tactics.

It'll be fine.

The money will carry on coming in, don't

worry. I won't be homeless. Wouldn't it

be ironic if I actually do become

homeless, but by then everyone has just

completely forgotten about me?

Nothing is impossible.

We just need to— I think the most

important thing about YouTube is picking

the right topic.

That's all that matters. Everything else,

like, oh, quality,

that comes next.

So we just wait for the opportunity to

arise and then we pounce.

Kind of like the stock market, if you

think about it. You know what, ever since

I started doing the stock market, I'm

thinking about everything else in life in

terms of line charts and stock market

tactics. You know, like in the stock

market, you have to wait for a good buying

opportunity and then you buy.

Or you wait for some kind of crisis to

present some kind of buying opportunity,

and then you profit. Like with

the whole COVID thing, when all the

markets crashed back in March because of

lockdowns, that was, that was the best

opportunity ever to do some buying because

everything came back up.

So next trending topic, I will be all over

that shit.

See how many views my Cyberpunk video has

now? It's going parabolic.

Oh, it's nearly got 28,000 views now,

and they don't even know who I am. They

just think I'm some random little tiny

channel, but little do they know I

am the infamous hiding in my room smasher

of Japanese pussy. Cheater of wives,

backstabber of Hong Kong guys.

They are just fueling the fire.

And all I have to do is change the channel

name and change the avatar so they don't

know it's me. I'm not that famous, that's

the good thing about it. I'm not that

recognizable. Maybe a couple people would

be like, isn't that hiding in my room?

But most people outside of my tiny, tiny,

tiny niche, they don't know who I am.

We need some fresh meat.

Fresh meat in the cooker.

So there's plenty of audiences out there.

We just need to, to find one and target

them ruthlessly.

So that's where you guys come in. You need

to help me find trending topics.

And then we make a sensational,

sensationalized video title,

and then

profit.

I will creep my way back in. To their

subscription feeds and their

recommendation feeds, whether they like it

or not. You think they escaped me? Oh no,

oh no. I will utilize

the power of search engine optimization.

Make fun of people on the internet like

Critical. I don't know, I feel like that's

kind of risky. I heard some YouTubers got

strikes for bullying and harassment.

I don't really want to get in trouble. I

also don't want to get the negative

attention of someone else's fan base

because let's say I make a really negative

video about some random YouTuber, what if

he makes a reaction video and sends his

audience at me, and then they

will mass flag my channel and I get

banned. That could happen.

I feel like it's safe to make videos

shitting on games because,

because Cyberpunk isn't a YouTuber.

Cyberpunk can't defend itself. It's just a

video game, isn't it? Oh, thank you,

JP Music. Very kind of ye,

kind gentle sir. Yeah,

so I can shit on things like Cyberpunk

because they're not going to defend

themselves and make a video sending their

rabid fans on me. But if I make

one about like a reaction channel about

how much they look stupid and annoying

they are They could do a reaction video

and then get me into trouble, so I don't

think that's a great idea.

I think it's safer just to shit on

trending things, not people.

Because no one cares if I hurt the

feelings of a video game.

It can't be considered as bullying—

bullying a video game.

Yes, that's what we shall do.

Yeah, I guess I have to stoop to Onision

levels, but that's what happens,

you know.

When you've lost your viewers, what else

are you supposed to do? If you keep on

making the same stuff, it's not like

they're gonna magically come back. It's

kind of like when an ex— when a girlfriend

dumps you, she's not going

to come back, is she? You got to find a

I might do more illustrated videos. They

still do not too badly. Could do more

stuff like why I failed at life, how I

wasted my life, why I'm a complete failure

at everything. Just kind of

self-deprecating stuff seems to do

okay-ish still.

I still want to do the quitting YouTube

clickbait video. I think that could work,

but it's only going to work once, isn't

it?

And people don't understand that. You

might think this is lame. Oh, he's so

desperate for views. But for me— to you it

doesn't really matter because you have

your own life. My life doesn't affect your

life. But for me, this is how I pay for

money. This is how I put rent on the food.

If I don't do this, I'm gonna literally

starve. And you think I'm gonna starve and

go homeless over some stupid thing called

integrity?

This is a fight for survival. I don't care

if you think I'm lame or desperate for

views. I need to pay rent.

Yeah, in an ideal world, I'd make content

where people loved me and respected me.

But if I knew how to do that, I'd be doing

it already, wouldn't I?

So what am I supposed to do? I can't just

pretend to be a nice guy and make videos

like 5 things that can make you positive

and change your life. 5 tips

so you can become a better human being.

As if anyone actually believes I'm being

genuine about that stuff.

Aren't I making bank on OnlyFans? No, my

OnlyFans dead as well. This month I've

only made about $500.

Because I've been lazy and I just can't be

bothered filming myself jerking off for

the 100th time. It's just annoying to do

Less people are subscribing to it,

less people are resubscribing.

I just, I cannot be bothered. I'm not

really interested in becoming a porn star,

if you haven't noticed. Yeah, I like

having sex, but I'm not really that

interested in filming myself on my own.

It's just kind of boring,

and I don't know what else to do, and it's

kind of stressful. And every time I turn

the camera on, I I kind of feel less

aroused and less horny,

and I'm too lazy to buy props or hats or

toys or costumes.

Is there any real-world job I would like

to do? Um,

not really.

I don't know what kind of real-life job

would be fun.

Helping people? No,

let me think.

I just cannot think of any kind of job

that I would really want to do.

Um,

no, my mind is blank.

Just something you can do from home on the

internet digitally.

So for me, I feel like the stock market

and YouTube are perfect. It's just YouTube

is tough because you need to be relatable,

you need to be likable, you need to be

able to reach people and not be hated.

And you need to be good at something. So I

fail all of those criteria. I'm not

likable, I'm not handsome enough, I'm not

really talented at anything like musical

or at making stuff or artwork.

What type of videos entertain me?

I like— recently I found this channel

called The Internet Historian. He makes

really good videos. He's got a really good

voice. My voice just sounds gay and not

cool. He's got like a really deep manly

voice and he sounds articulate and

intelligent. And witty.

And the videos are so well made and

they're so interesting and the topics are

good. There's just no way I could make

stuff like that. It would take way too

much time. I don't have any ideas about

topics. I don't know how to be funny. My

voice sounds stupid. I'm too lazy

to do any of that editing.

And then even after all that hard work,

the video would probably get demonetized

because it's full of edgy jokes and

violence.

But that's quite a good channel.

I like those channels when they analyze

things and make it funny and edgy,

kind of like Colossal Is Crazy. I did try

making videos like that, but it didn't

really work, and people didn't find it

funny. They just thought I was being mean

and being a dick.

And it's kind of hard to do that stuff

these days on YouTube. You just get

Who else do I watch?

I watch a lot of stuff about investment.

I can't really do that because I'm not an

expert in investing,

so I don't really have much to say about

What should I make for dinner?

My face is in pain. I've got 2 big pimples

on my chin, a big one on my nose.

Uh, it feels horrible. I hate it when you

wake up And then you yawn or

you move your face in some way and you

feel that pain.

And then you realize, oh God, I got

another pimple.

And then it takes a week for it to

recover. For the first 2 days or 3 days,

it'll just be red and swollen. And

painful. And then after the 3rd day,

you'll get a little white dot where you

can finally squeeze it out. And then it'll

take another few days for it to heal and

then scab over. And then for another few

days, you've got this scar. So after over

a week, it's finally gone. And then you

get another one in a different place.

And then maybe you'll have a break of a

few days where you don't get any pimples

and there's no pain. But then a week later

you get another pimple somewhere else.

It's just never ending. My face is

constantly in pain. Or I bite my lip

because my food is tasty, and then I keep

biting it in the same place because it

swells up, and then it'll take a week to

heal. And I got all this skin stuff.

I got exfoliating cream and I got

moisturizing cream and I got cleansing

stuff and I still get pimples. It doesn't

make any difference, these stupid creams

and washes. They don't do anything.

Useless. Look.

Look, I got this. I got blackhead clearing

green tea scrub. It says it clears

blackheads and unclogs pores.

And I got this exfoliating face wash for

normal and combination skin, invigorating

and cleansing. And I've got this

moisturizer, age control day cream for

normal to dry skin. And then wake

up today and I've got 4 new pimples, and I

feel like, what is the point of even

trying to wash my face when it doesn't

make any bloody difference? And then

people keep saying, why don't you try this

and try that, or try lemon juice, or try

cucumbers, or try tea tree oil? And I

try it all and it doesn't make any

difference. So irritating.

It's like nothing works, and people

keep saying that I should try this and try

that, and when I do try it, it doesn't

make any difference.

My face is painful.

My face is dry. My face feels dry now,

actually.

If I don't put moisturizing cream on my,

on my face, my whole face feels really dry

and tight and uncomfortable.

If I'm using face wash it ends up

washing off all of my natural oil, so what

it leaves me with is dry skin. So I have

to put moisturizer on, otherwise it feels

horrible. And if I don't use

the face wash, then my face stays oily and

looks greasy. Wow, these are so

good for cutting. I tried cutting this

pork yesterday with my knife and it was

all over the place. Look at that,

effortless. And you don't need a

razor-sharp blade to cut things with a

pair of scissors. This is why I don't

understand why people think it's so weird

that I use scissors for cooking. When you

use a knife, you need a really sharp

knife, otherwise it slips and slides and

squishes things. When you've got scissors,

they don't even have to be sharp, and you

can easily Cut things into pieces. Look at

effortless! What about steaming over boil

bowl of hot water with a towel? Do you

think that would work? Sometimes I put

really hot water onto a face cloth and I

wring it, and then I I press it

into my face. It's so relaxing.

Oh, that's so satisfying.

It's just weird. This, this looks so

delicious. Look at that meat, the lines of

fat. But this was inside of an animal and

it had blood running through it. And it

was alive. It had cells that were living

cells, and now it's

just a piece of meat. So weird

to think of it that way. This was a pig.

His name was Jimbo, and he ran around

eating grain. And look, now he's in a

plastic box. My mind is

blown.

Poor Mr. Piggy, he died for Danny.

Now he's gonna be in his stir-fry.

What a sad world we live in.

Our world is just an abomination. You know

why there's no life in the universe?

Because life is just gross. Look at our

planet, for example. It's just creatures

killing and eating each other for their

own survival. It's basically hell.

Demonic. The universe is

better off without life.

You know what? All of the conflicts and

war and pain and suffering comes from,

from life.

Otherwise, things out there in the

universe are pretty peaceful.

So weird that life exists in the first

place. So let me get this straight. First

of all, we have space, which It's just a

load of black with nothing in it, like an

empty box. And then there was a big

explosion and all this dust flew out,

and then the dust started clinging

together to make rocks and planets. And

then all of these other chemicals and

stuff were swirling around and turned into

different elements.

So weird.

Don't be mean to the plants, they did

nothing wrong. I will look after them

well.

Yeah, when I start thinking about the

universe, I do start getting a bit

overwhelmed. How far out does it go?

Is there an end? Is there an edge? Is

there an invisible wall? How can something

just go on and on and on infinitely

without any end?

And how many universes are there in

existence? We can't be the only universe.

And why is it black?

Well, it's not black, it's just the

lacking— the non-existence of light makes

Oh well, I'll never be intelligent enough

to understand it.

Do you think I could eat this raw? What

would happen?

Oh look, I can make a Jenga stack of pork

belly.

You know what I wonder why they never

teach at school? The stock market and

investing. Why don't they teach that to

kids? The classes

I had when I was in school were maths,

geography, science, history, English,

and French. Why French? As if we're

going to need French. French is the most

useless language to learn. At least learn

Spanish. Or Chinese. Why would you

want to learn French?

They should teach business, the stock

market, and they should also,

also teach entrepreneurial spirits

so it encourages people to start up their

own businesses.

But I feel like they don't want to

encourage that kind of behavior. You look

at the backlash I get when I talk about

entrepreneurial spirits and starting

your own business and making your own

money. Everyone gets so pissy at me,

like they've been brainwashed into

thinking they must work for a company or

else that is not good, and anyone else who

dares defy that rule,

then they must be crazy and we must insult

them. Everyone gets so pissy when I talk

about not getting a job and how

to make money online,

as if I'm preaching satanic

preachings to them like it's the worst

thing ever to try and not get a job.

How did my channel die? Because I stopped

making drama videos, and apparently

without drama, my content's not

interesting enough.

Can you believe that?

Okay, how should I make my food?

Getting a job is the worst thing in the

entire world. I cannot think of anything

worse than having to make a CV and then

apply to some stupid company and go for

some stupid interview. Stupid interview

and then try and get some stupid person to

like you enough to give you the job and

then have to get on with your stupid

coworkers and then learn how to do a bunch

of stupid tasks that I couldn't care less

about just so I can get some stupid money.

Yeah, that sounds amazing. Sign me up for

that. No thanks.

And then I'm gonna get on a stupid train

every morning to go to some stupid place I

don't even want to be at. So I

can say, oh, I've got a job, I'm a normal

That's the real world. Yeah, well, the

real world sucks. It's full of sad people

suffering and death and gang rape

and crime and shooting and war and

annoying co-workers and bosses. Why would

I want to be part of the real world? The

real world is shit.

I want all of that separated from me. I

don't want to be part of that real world.

I want to live in my own world where it's

safe and comfy and cozy. And has

all the things I love and none of the

things I hate.

Having a job is just—it's so hard.

Not the actual work is not that hard.

Getting on with other people is.

Hard. You know those Korean dramas where

the main character is in a company? Those

dramas always make me feel really

depressed. I don't know if that's a

realistic portrayal of real life,

but Korean work culture just looks so

toxic. They have that stupid hierarchy

kind of thing, don't they? Where your

superiors and your bosses and anyone older

than you, they're superior to you and they

can treat you like crap and you have to

take it. And then anyone who's younger

than you, you can treat them like crap and

they have to take it because that is the—

that is the culture.

Japan's like that as well. You have to

suck up to the people above you, and then

if they want to go for drinks, you have to

go for drinks. And if they want to go on a

work company dinner, you have to go.

Otherwise they won't think highly of you

and your reputation will get damaged.

And one thing I liked about England was

when it was 5 o'clock, everyone just went

straight home. They didn't have to hang

out with the boss and go drinking and do

all this stupid stuff. I guess making