My girlfriend doesn't want to meet me yet...

Hey, and welcome back to Japan. So I

wanted to make this video because people

keep asking me this same question over and

over. Why don't you go and meet your

girlfriend? Where's your girlfriend? Why

don't you go and see her if you feel so

lonely? And I guess I want to make this

video so I can tell you why I haven't met

my girlfriend yet. Okay, so the main

reason I haven't seen her yet is because

she lives pretty far away from me. She

lives on the smallest island of the main 4

islands of Japan, and I didn't really want

to go and live on that island because it's

kind of like countryside. It's not really

a built-up area, and I really wanted to

live in the city, in Osaka.

And I also really wanted to go back to

this guest house which I used to live in 7

years ago. I thought it would be an

interesting experience to go back to the

place where I had my first blowjob, I had

my first sexual experience, I pissed

myself in my bed for the first time ever.

So I thought it'd be interesting to

revisit this place.

So the original plan was we were supposed

to meet up in October. I chose October

because I wanted to avoid the Japanese

summer, which is really hot and humid and

I hate it. So we were planning to meet up

in October, but then I found out that the

plane tickets in September was about £200

cheaper than the plane tickets in October.

So I said, hey, why don't we meet up in

September instead because I can get a

cheaper plane ticket? And she said that I

can come to Japan in September, but she

won't be able to meet me in September

because she didn't feel like— she

didn't feel like she was ready to meet me

yet. And since we planned on meeting up in

October. If I just suddenly changed our

plans to meet up in September, she felt

like she wasn't prepared mentally to meet

me. This is a really bad time to

vlog. There's so many people everywhere.

It's about 6 PM.

Yeah, it's 6 PM. Everyone's coming home

from work and school. I really shouldn't

have come out at this time. So she said to

me, even if I came to Japan in September,

she wouldn't be able to meet me until

October because That was when we planned

to meet, and she just can't— she can't

just suddenly change her plans. She's not

that kind of person. So I said, okay,

I'll come to Japan in September anyway,

just a few weeks earlier so I can save

money on the plane ticket, and I'll go to

the guesthouse that I used to stay in

before, and maybe I can meet interesting

people and make friends. But did that

happen? No. The guesthouse was a huge

disappointment. There's no interesting

people here. The only interesting person

is the Canadian guy. There's no cute

girls. They're all really ugly or really

stuck up and bitchy. Most of the people

here aren't really social. Most of them—

it feels like it's 80% Japanese guys

living there, and it's really boring

because most of them, they just come home

from work, they eat their meals, and they

go back up to their rooms. It's just like

they're living here not because they want

to meet people, but because it's cheap and

convenient. Anyway, I've already moaned

and whinged about the guest house enough

in previous videos, so I won't do that

again. Oh, well, I'll try not to.

Sometimes I do feel a bit frustrated that

we can't just meet up. We're in the same

country, we're not that far away from each

other, and it feels a bit frustrating that

we can't just go on the train and say,

hey, let's meet up, let's go somewhere

today, without having to plan things

months in advance. But I knew I was

expecting this. I knew this would happen.

I knew that I wouldn't be able to see her

straight away. And I didn't really want to

make her feel guilty for making me feel

lonely. I didn't want to make her feel

rushed or pressured that she has to meet

me straight away. I guess if I was really

desperate to see her, then I could have

just chosen to live closer to her in her

city or nearby. But I get the feeling that

even if I lived right next door to her,

she still wouldn't meet up with me until

October, the planned date. And I don't

know how this relationship's gonna work

out. I don't know how I'm gonna feel when

I meet her. And if I meet her and I feel

like she's the one, she's the one for me,

then yeah, I'm gonna think about moving

closer to her so we can meet up more

often, not just a few times a month. But

if I meet her and I don't feel like she's

the one, then I'll just end up staying

here in the guest house in Osaka, and I

don't think I'll move. Anyway, we're

meeting up soon. We're meeting very soon

this week. I feel like I'm pretty excited

about it. I have a good feeling that I

will like her when I meet her and see her.

I've been waiting for this day for such a

long time. We've both been waiting since

around June when I first met her in

May. Was it May or June? I can't remember.

I wasn't actually sure if we were going to

meet up. I was actually pretty sure that

we weren't going to meet up because she,

she She seemed pretty firm about not

meeting people that she met online, and

she didn't really seem very interested in

meeting me in person in the beginning.

But thankfully she changed her mind and

she agreed to meet me. That's, that's the

whole reason why I'm here, actually. So in

a few days, I guess we're going to find

out if all of this waiting, all of this

traveling, has been worth it or not.

I'm pretty sure it will be worth it.

Yeah, I'm looking forward to it. I think

it'll be fun.

What is that car?

Strange. Anyway, I also want to talk about

live streaming. So I'm having a lot of fun

doing the live streams, especially the one

a few days ago where I live streamed for 8

hours. It's, it's a lot easier to do a

livestream because I don't have to do any

editing. Plus I get donations, which is

great. There's no donation option for

normal videos, which I don't understand.

Why don't YouTube just add the Super Chat

function to normal videos as well? Then

people have the option to donate to a

video if they want to. And yeah, I know

that kind of makes me sound greedy for

money, but I'm unemployed and I'm in Japan

and The only way I'm getting money is from

doing odd translation jobs on Fiverr and

a bit from ad revenue, so every little

helps really does help. Also, I have a

Patreon in case you were wondering, or if

you didn't know. I have a Patreon. It's

something like patreon.com/hidinginmyroom,

and you can support me if you want to for

as little as $1 per month. And if you

donate more, pledge more, then you get

special rewards which are listed on the

website, on the Patreon page. Um,

yeah, so if you feel like you want to help

me or support me, then the option's there

for you. I'll leave links in the

description.

Also, I think that a lot of people don't

know this, but we have a Discord server.

So if you're feeling bored, come and join

us on Discord. It rhymes. You can chat

with us. It's actually, um, not very

active recently, ever since it got

deleted. Since the last Discord server got

deleted, a lot of the more active members

disappeared, or they became less active,

which is kind of upsetting,

disappointing. Where'd you go, guys? Come

back! We used to have interesting

conversations. Now it's just full of

spamming and Idiots.

So yeah, we have a Discord, I have a

Patreon, you can find links in the

description. And yeah, you, you also

saw me in the living room, didn't you?

Sitting by myself, not talking to anyone.

And I find it kind, kind of irritating

when people say, oh my God, why is he just

sitting there? Why doesn't he go and talk

to them? He complains about being lonely,

but he doesn't talk to anyone. It's

because I have social anxiety. I can't

just walk up to them and say hi. It sounds

easy to do, but for me it's not. It's like

telling a person who has a phobia of

spiders to just, hey, why don't you just

pick up that spider? It's just a spider,

it's not going to kill you. It's so

irritating when people say, why don't you

just go and talk to them? Because it's

scary for me, okay? Telling me to just go

up to random people and say hi and

introduce myself, it's like telling

someone who has a fear of heights to go up

Mount Everest. Sometimes I feel like

there's some people who don't actually

know what social anxiety is or that it

even exists, that people who don't have

the confidence to talk to people are just

weird. Okay, it is a little bit weird,

but there's a reason why I find it so

difficult to talk to strangers. Anyway,

I've already spoken to most of the people

in the living room that you saw on the

live— on the livestream, and I didn't

enjoy talking to them. Them, I didn't feel

like they were interesting people. They

weren't really interested in me, so I

stopped talking to them because I don't

see how talking to them will benefit me

or, or make my life any

more interesting. So I just don't talk to

them. That's why most of the people that I

talk to I find boring or uninteresting.

It's just rare exceptions like the

Canadian guy where I actually enjoy

talking to people. Also, recently there's

this new guy who moved in next to my room

who's really irritating. He keeps talking

to the phone, talking on the phone in his

room in this kind of irritating voice.

He's not speaking English. He just sounds

and I just really want to yell, shut up!

I'm pretty sure he's Middle Eastern. It

sounds like some kind of Arabic language.

Great, now we have a suicide bomber—

suicide bomber next to my room and, um,

crazy weirdo French guy who's gonna go on

a killing rampage any moment. I need to

get out of this bloody guest house. Also,

I forgot to talk about the manager in my

previous video. The manager of the guest

house is really irritating as well. He's

always there every single day. I'm pretty

sure he lives in the guest house, which is

strange because the previous manager of

this guest house, he didn't live here.

You hardly even saw him. He just came in

every now and then to show new— to

show new people around and to do the

contract, and then he would go back. But

this manager, he's always there, and he

has this really irritating voice which

kind of sounds like Mickey Mouse. It's

really high. How can you be a man and have

such a high-sounding voice? And he talks

way too much. I see him talking to people

sometimes and he just goes on and on and

on, and the other person's just sitting

there listening. It's like listening to a

radio or watching TV when he starts

talking, and the other person isn't even

saying anything most of the time. And he

has this really strange kind of boring

monotone voice, which I find very

Irritating. I keep saying irritating,

don't I? Also, I don't like it when the

manager's around because I don't really

follow the rules. I do things wrongly on

purpose. For example, I'll wear my indoor

slippers outside and I'll just walk

outside and go for a walk. I'm wearing my

slippers right now, and then I'm gonna go

back to the guest house and then walk

around inside with the same slippers

because I'm too lazy to put my shoes on.

Also, when it comes to throwing away

rubbish, I don't do it properly. You're

supposed to recycle in Japan. They have

all these different bins where you're

supposed to put certain things, and I

usually, I usually just put all my rubbish

into one plastic bag and I just chuck it

into any bin because I don't really care.

It's not my job. I'm not a bin man. Let

the bin men sort out the rubbish. It's

not— I'm not getting paid to do it. Oh,

and I need to talk about the livestream

video quality. Some people have been

saying that the video quality is pretty

bad sometimes, even with my new pocket

Wi-Fi, and I don't really know what I can

do about that. I've bought— I've rented

the most expensive, the fastest pocket

Wi-Fi you can get in Japan. It's supposed

to have 187 megabits download with 75

megabits upload, but I guess it gets

limited, or it gets— what's the word?

I guess you don't always get the

advertised upload and download speed

that's written on the website. And I

watched back some of the live streams,

and with the new pocket Wi-Fi, the

high-speed one, it seems like it's okay

most of the time, but there are spots

where it gets pixelated and it goes like

Minecraft mode. And I am kind of

frustrated about it because I paid decent

money for that pocket Wi-Fi, and my

livestreams look like shit, which is kind

of frustrating, and I don't know what to

do about it. What else can I do? Maybe I

could try getting a rental phone. Maybe I

could try getting a rental SIM card. I

don't know if that's going to be any

better than the rental pocket Wi-Fi. The

pocket Wi-Fi is supposed to be 4G. I don't

think Japan has 5G. What's better than 4G?

Anyway, tomorrow I have to return the

high-speed pocket Wi-Fi. I only rented it

for a week to test it out to see if it

made any difference.

So after tomorrow or a few days, we're

going back to the shitty video quality

livestreaming, and I don't

think I'm gonna rent the high-speed Wi-Fi

again because it's kind of expensive.

It's expensive to rent 2 pocket Wi-Fis for

3 months. I have the money, I could afford

it, but I don't know, I just don't feel

like it's— I can justify spending that

amount of money on pocket Wi-Fis. And I

don't make that much money from live

streaming. I make more money from live

streaming than I do from normal videos if

people are generous and they donate, they

do a Super Chat.

It's just that I really enjoy

livestreaming. It feels so much different

than making regular videos. It's really

fun vlogging stuff and having people

watching me in real time, and to be

able to interact with the audience whilst

I'm doing things is a lot of fun. But

these things cost money, they cost data.

And I don't have unlimited data. I only

had 30 gigabytes of data on the high-speed

pocket Wi-Fi, and to do an 8-hour

livestream, it, it took almost 4 gigabytes

of data on my pocket Wi-Fi.

So yeah, it's not really something that I

can keep doing unless I made loads of

money. Anyway, that's enough whinging

for today. I'm gonna go and get something

to eat. And the next video that I'll

upload will be after I've met Tomoko,

so that should be interesting. See what

happens, and, um, yeah, stay tuned.