Wow What Happened

What happened?

That's some good tea.

Jasmine tea.

What am I doing?

Oh, I'm back.

Why doesn't my vape work?

Oh no, I took out the Charger,

because I forgot why I had it. It's for

this. Was it USB-C?

No, oh, it's micro USB.

Stupid micro USB.

Hate micro USB.

Oh, that's my gun. Don't want

to show gunny.

I don't know where I put it.

I shoved it somewhere.

USB-C.

It's all USB-C.

What's this one?

Lightning. Oh,

but I want to smoke my vape.

Yeah, I got some.

How come when I stand by the mirror it

stops working?

Oh, whatever. I'm gonna have

to look for my micro USB charger somewhere

Who remembers the hair clip?

Red hair clip.

And the GoPro chest mount.

Oh, what's this?

What if I put this up my bum and inflate

Oh look, the Taiwanese girl gave me this

mosquito balm. I never used it.

I kept getting bitten in Taiwan.

Whoa,

whoa, that smells vapory.

Mosquito!

How's the mushroom lamp doing? I put it up

there. In the closet because I got

this new lamp which is much better,

better and nicer.

Oh look, I got some RAM.

Anyone want 4 gigs of RAM?

Fury. Oh look,

from the petrol station, my name tag.

They didn't even give me my own name tag,

they just gave me this trainee sales

assistant for 9 months I worked there.

They didn't even give me my own name tag.

It's sad. That place isn't even Texaco

anymore. It's now BP. They got bought out.

Bought out.

Maybe it's

Oh,

I took it out and I put it in here.

I think I'll give up. I'll look for it

later. I can't be bothered.

So how have you been?

Uh-huh. Oh, really?

Wow.

That's so amazing.

Not— why

is Pia want revenge on you? I don't know,

I didn't do anything.

What did Oi do? I can't

believe it's April soon. Isn't it

tomorrow? April.

Can't wear my red robe anymore.

Hopefully the stocks do well.

Tomorrow is the last day the market's

open. Stupid Easter. I hate holidays now.

Easter means the market's closed on

Friday, and I think it's closed on Monday.

I think US markets are open Monday.

Stupid religious holidays.

I tried shorting the NASDAQ today. That

was not a good idea. It kept going up.

Pia blocked Caesium on Instagram. I

blocked him too. I told Chihiro

to block him as well. He's just a

troublemaker. He just messages you to

cause problems and stir up drama. Nothing

he says can be taken seriously. He just

goes on and on about a load of rubbish.

You should have seen the stuff he was

saying to Chihiro.

He's just a complete troll, or he's

mentally ill.

Let me

see if I got the picture.

Where is it? It should be on my iPad.

Yeah, this is the message he sent to

Chihiro. Daniel stole my girlfriend.

She was cheating on me by talking to him

on Instagram and arranging to meet up. He

has ruined my relationship. They are

together now. I took her to his place now

after breaking up with her. Daniel is

truly evil.

Such a troll.

I didn't do anything. I was just chatting

to Pia in a non-flirty way.

Did I record Pia turning up? No, I'm not

making this into content.

Because that's what he wants. He want— he

does this so it becomes content.

I think that's the main reason why he does

it, because he thinks I'm gonna make it

into content like before.

But I can't be bothered.

I don't even know why he messaged Chihiro

all that stuff anyway. That message was to

Chihiro. He messaged her straight away,

like the very next day.

Why? We're not even

together. It's like he was trying to break

us up, but we're not even together, so

what's the point?

Do you like my tea? It's jasmine.

Reminds me of Chinese restaurants. I

always used to get excited to go to

Chinese restaurants because they'd have

Chinese girls. I think

my Asian fetish started when I was a

teenager. I definitely remember going to

Chinese restaurants as a teenager and then

getting excited seeing the waitresses,

even though the faces weren't great. Just

seeing the black long hair, the straight

black hair, and the slim figures was

exciting.

Because that kind of body shape,

this— the small body frame and the large

head, that's kind of uncommon with English

girls. Most of them are fat.

But I always used to get excited to see

them because it was so rare. You just

normally, you wouldn't see Asian women

just out and about. You would have to go

to the Chinese restaurant.

I, I used to get excited when they served

the food and then they would like lean

over you to put the plates down and

then you could almost smell them. Good

times. Bet they're

all old and ugly now. There must be like

40, those waitresses.

If I was a teenager and they were about 20

back then,

probably same age as my ex-wife.

I thought Daniel would be more careful

than to piss off his main followers. I

don't know how I've pissed him off. It's

not my fault if his girlfriend fancies me.

How is that my fault?

I think I've done a pretty good job at

repelling women, so it's not like I'm

trying to charm girls all the time.

You did sleep with her in the past. Yeah,

but she was single then.

When we met, she didn't have a boyfriend.

And then after I found out her boyfriend

was Caesium, I made sure not to get

The hotel cost about £160. It was

the cheapest one I could find.

Did you pay for it because you felt bad he

dumped her on your doorstep? I paid

because she didn't have anywhere to go and

she couldn't stay here. I felt like it was

the least I could do since apparently

it's all my fault.

Have I seen Shin without the wig? Yeah,

she did send me a photo with her natural

hair. Back when we were talking.

No, it's not 160 for one night. It was for

four nights.

Why did you buy a hotel for someone?

Well, what was I supposed to do? Dump her

at the woods. Give her a tent and

a sleeping bag.

It's kind of stupid he would drive here to

drop her off. If you're gonna dump

someone, just kick them out your house.

Why would you drive hours and hours to

drop them off at someone's house? It's

just so stupid.

On her leaked Reddit OnlyFans, she doesn't

have a peepee. Yeah, I think I saw that

when I was subbed to her. She definitely

has a pussy and it looks quite

I probably would have met her if it wasn't

for Mila. Mila just kind of came out of

nowhere.

I don't know why Mila was so desperate to

meet me. First, she was messaging me when

I was in Korea. And she was telling me not

to leave Korea because she's coming. She

was saying, I'll be there soon, wait for

me. But I ended up leaving Korea because

the virus was getting worse. And then she

ended up coming to England to see me.

It's like she was so desperate to come and

see me. I wonder why.

Why did she think it was a good idea to

come to you? You must have told her. No,

I said to her, don't come. I said it's not

a good idea, but she ignored me and she

came anyway. I didn't

think she would actually come. I thought

it was just like a joke.

I didn't think they were being serious.

I think the final straw for me when it

came to Mira was when she started talking

about doing drugs again. That was just it.

I knew she had a past with drugs, and I

was already kind of a bit— I felt like

that was a bit of a red flag. But I

thought, well, that was in the past,

just forget about it. But then she started

talking about buying drugs from her

coworker. I was like, oh my God,

you still want to do drugs?

I'm not having a girlfriend who does

drugs, for fuck's sake.

And then she started talking about getting

more tattoos, and I said, you want more?

And she said, yeah, I'm not done yet.

Oh my God, she's already got loads of

tattoos. Why would you want more?

Why do you want to ruin your body?

No, it wasn't weed. It was like DMT or

something. You know that square thing you

put on your tongue? You get a trip. She

said she was thinking of buying some from

her coworker.

Why did you disable clipping? Did I? I

wondered why I wasn't having— getting any

clips. I don't think I did disable it.

The shark tattoo is a huge turnoff. Yeah,

the shark tattoo looked awful. The other

ones weren't too bad.

No, I don't want a girlfriend who does

drugs.

It's so unattractive.

Oh yeah, that's my girlfriend.

She does drugs and she's covered in

tattoos.

How great.

This is why I like Japanese girls. They

don't do this nonsense. I don't know what

it is about Western girls and tattoos.

It's like they're obsessed with them.

I do not like tattoos,

especially not those massive huge ones.

Small one, yeah, fine, whatever.

If it's on your ankle or your wrist or

somewhere, not massive tattoo

across your chest. Oh God,

why do they do that?

So you have a beautiful Brand new Tesla

and then just spray paint, spray paint

crap all over it. Why?

New age hippie love

hallucinogenics. Yeah, she was obsessed

with it. She kept watching documentaries

about ayahuasca or whatever it's called

and trips. Stupid.

Get a job. Learn about economics.

Stupid drugs and tattoos.

Do something sensible.

Yeah, I guess there's guys out there who

would like her because they're also into

doing drugs and getting tattoos,

injecting themselves with heroin, and then

getting drunk and puking on the street and

becoming homeless. That's not me.

That's not what I like.

That does not sound appealing or

attractive in any way at all.

I don't get involved with those kind of

people ever.

The only reason I fell for her was because

she's pretty.

Such a waste though.

I like nice sensible girls who are

intelligent and don't do dumb stupid stuff

that ruins their bodies and

don't get drunk and jump into rivers half

naked. It's just embarrassing.

I was going to do a video talking about

why I hate drugs and tattoos, but then I

thought Then 90% of the girls who like me

will probably hate me because they

probably have tattoos.

I don't understand the appeal of tattoos.

They're just stupid. If you

like a piece of art, why don't you just

get it printed and framed and then hang it

on your wall? If you like it so much, why

would you want it on your skin?

Forever. I don't want anything on my skin.

Mina's friend had a massive tattoo on her

chest, like a spider-looking thing.

Looks so weird.

If Mila decided to air you out on the

subreddit, would I be mad? I don't really

know what she would say. She'd probably

just say Daniel was boring, he didn't want

to go out or do anything. He just stared

at stocks all day. He didn't care about

what I had to say. Don't think it would

come as a surprise to anyone.

I think you guys know my bad my

bad personality flaws already. There's,

there's nothing someone could say that you

probably don't know already. Like, I get

annoyed quickly. I don't like noise,

don't like strangers. I talked about

everything I don't like already so much.

I don't know what else I could tell you.

I pick my nose and I eat it.

That's kind of gross.

Because if I don't, it all just starts

building up and then I get a blocked nose.

So how am I supposed to get it out? And

then if I don't have a tissue, where am I

supposed to wipe it? So I might as well

eat it. Nothing wrong with eating it.

It's just like dried up liquid. It's not,

it's not poo.

It's just liquid that's dried up.

Just a little bit salty.

And I eat my fingernails. That's what I'm

doing now.

What did the Turkish girl say about me

that was exposing?

She just said she cried and I didn't

realize, but I made my case.

How was I supposed to know?

When it's dark and they're not making any

sound for the crying, then how are you

supposed to know they're crying?

It's not like she was going, ooooooooh.

If I knew she was crying, I would have

stopped effing her because

it would be weird. Be like, why are you

Did you decide where you want to go after

lockdown? Not really.

I don't really feel like meeting anyone

now. I just feel like there's just going

to be more crazy girls.

The only place I want to go is Japan, and

they're not reopening until— don't

know when. They were supposed to reopen in

April, but now they've pushed it back.

How are they going to have the Olympics

without foreign spectators? No one cares

about the Olympics now. It's just like

this— they stole the Olympics and then

kept it for themselves, and they stopped

foreigners coming to go and see it. The

Olympics is supposed to be a world event.

You just took the Olympics and shut out

They should have postponed it.

Now they just have like a massive stadium

that's completely empty, and it's just a

bunch of Japanese and foreigners running

around in a circle. No one's going to

care. Can you imagine how sad it would

be? This— the Olympics, and it's

Just an empty stadium. I guess it won't be

empty, it'll be full of Japanese people,

won't it?

Or will it? Won't it?

Waste of money, just a bunch of people

running around in circles.

Throwing things.

Imagine training all your life just to run

around in a circle, then you get a stupid

medal and

that's your accomplishment. You ran around

in a circle faster than the other people

did. Wow, amazing.

Wow, you can throw a stick really far.

That's so useful.

Idiots. Just let the Olympics

die. It's another one of those stupid

old-fashioned traditions, like Like

Easter. Can't we just move on?

This is all just nonsense that our

ancestors did. Just let it die.

Who cares? It's a bunch of old people who

care about it.

Why bother with all this rubbish like

Easter and Christmas and Thanksgiving.

It's not important.

Stupid old-fashioned mumbo jumbo.

Couldn't care less.

Could you be more negative?

Maybe.

Like, what is the point of Easter?

Who actually cares about Easter? Oh, I can

get a chocolate egg. You can get a

chocolate egg any day of the year. You

should go into the shop and get chocolate.

You don't have to wait until Easter to get

chocolate.

If you want chocolate so badly, just go

and get some. Bloody Easter.

With your stupid bunny rabbits.

Easter can suck my nut.

Now stupid stock market's gonna be closed.

Oh, what am I gonna do?

Aren't the hotels shut? Yeah, they did say

that, but apparently they're obligated to

let you stay if you say that the person is

homeless. So I said she's homeless,

she doesn't have anywhere to go, so they

let her stay.

So stupid that you can't even stay in a

hotel because of lockdown. Why?

How's booking into a hotel going to

increase the spreading?

Some of these rules don't make any sense.

Like, you can't even meet up outside with

someone. But now you can.

I'm a bit bored of the stock market

anyway. This entire month nothing has

happened. There's a bit of recovery and

then it dropped again. Now it's

trying to recover again. It's just like

nothing happens.

It used to be so exciting.

Things would go up 10%, 20% every week.

What do I own now? I've got— well,

I sold BNGO today because it went up 10%.

I'm thinking of changing my strategy to

aggressive profit-taking.

So before, I kind of had this buy-and-hold

mentality because everyone kept saying you

gotta buy and hold. Yeah, buy and hold

doesn't work when you have a stupid

correction. I should have just taken

profits and then put that back into safe

stuff, which is what I'm thinking of doing

now. So every time something goes up 10 or

15%, I'm taking profits and I'm keeping it

as cash for a bit. Whilst I figure out

what's going on. So I've got most of my

money in Bitcoin mining stocks

called Riot, Riot Mining,

uh, and then I have about £7,000

in bank and oil stocks and tobacco

stocks. That's kind of like my hedge

against inflation and the reopening stuff

because, you know, they're gonna need more

oil and shops and

retail are gonna sell more when it

reopens. Those are doing well.

And then I have another portfolio which I

just put ARK— I put into ARK Invest since

it's dropped quite a lot now. So I put a

couple thousand into ARK Invest,

and then I've got some recovery stocks

like airlines, Airbnb, smaller portfolio.

And then I've got a couple thousand in

these copy portfolios. I don't really know

what's happening. They just— I let them

manage it. They know what they're doing.

And then I've got this smaller one where I

just mess around trying to short the

NASDAQ, which sometimes works, but today

didn't work. I lost £20.

It's a bit of a gamble,

50/50. It'll probably come back down,

then I can cover my shorts.

It's just annoying because I had so many

gains before the correction happened. I

was up like £14,000. I should

have just taken it.

The problem is I didn't understand

diversification properly. I thought, oh,

I've got Tattooed Chef and I've got NIO

and I've got BNGO. They're all different

things. It's a car company and food

company and genomics. I thought

that was diversified. But it wasn't

because they're all growth stocks. So

they're all companies that don't really

make any money and they're just

speculative. So I wasn't diversified at

all and they all got hit the same

amount when the correction happened, like

40%. So I had no idea

how to properly diversify, but now I know.

You gotta diversify across sectors like

banking, oil, energy.

I always used to think, oh, banking and

oil, that's boring, they only go up

2%. Actually, oil went up,

went up 100% since last year.

So I guess I learned a lot from it. But it

was an expensive lesson.

The problem is I, I did take my gains,

but I put them back into the same stuff,

so it wasn't really taking gains. I

thought I was taking the gains and

reinvesting it. I should have reinvested

it into a different sector.

Oh well, I think a lot of newbies

to the stock market suffered the same way.

I got a 15% gain on Bank of America.

I would never have thought I could get a

15% gain on a bank stock.

Banks are doing really well.

Let's talk about Daniel kicking Pia out.

No, let's ban McLovin because you're

annoying.

Bye-bye. And ban Cartoon Scientist because

you messaged me horrible things.

So my next plan for investing is I

want to ride the next bull run on Bitcoin.

People are saying it's going to go to

$100K, so I want in on that action. And I

think I'll hold on to my bank stocks and

my Walgreens Boots and tobacco because

they're doing pretty good and they give

good dividends. Tobacco stocks

give like 7 or 8% dividends.

Cartoon Scientist was nice, and then she

started horrible to me. I don't know why.

I think the important thing is to have a

finger in each pie. So you don't want to

be all in on one sector. You want to be

spread around. So when

one sector is going up, you can take

advantage of it.

Because they all go up in sectors. One day

the bank stocks are booming, one day the

oil stocks are booming, one day the

Walgreens and the Coca-Cola stocks are

booming. So you want to have money in

each sector so when they boom you take

some profits, put it aside. Put it into

something that's not booming.

What did I get on my birthday? I got this

cup.

Sector rotation. I did

not know about it.

I'm not really sure what kind of stocks I

want now. I kind of feel like it doesn't

matter about the company. Like, the

company could be a really good company

that has a good product and makes

lots of money, but it doesn't matter if

there's a sector rotation and the entire

sector is getting destroyed by the NASDAQ

going down.

So I'm thinking just forget about trying

to find good companies and then invest in

different sectors.

Focus on the sectors of the market, not

individual companies.

Like Apple is a really good company,

makes lots of money. It hasn't gone up in

like 6 months. It went up a tiny bit and

now it's back down to where it was 6

months ago. What's the point?

Pointless.

If I could go back in time, then oil

stocks would have been great to invest in.

But everyone's saying, oh, people won't

use oil now, there's solar energy. Oil

stocks have no future. Yeah, but they've

2x'd, 3x'd since last year

now. Plus they give amazing dividends.

I think the important thing is finding

what's undervalued. And avoiding

things that are overvalued.

But it's hard to tell.

Last year everyone was going on and on

about EVs and solar energy, so I didn't

think getting an oil stock would be a good

Oil's not going away anytime soon.

Still going to be heavily dependent on oil

for decades.

If I had $5 million, what would I do with

it? Don't know.

I still don't feel like I want to move

from here.

Maybe buy some things to improve the place

and then just put the rest in investments,

savings.

I don't really feel like my unhappiness is

because of lack of money. Even if I had

loads of money, there's nothing I want to

buy really badly.

I guess I could buy my own house,

but I've already— I'm already in a house.

Yeah, I don't think getting loads of money

would really make me super happier.

It would make me a bit— I guess I'd be

excited at first and just buy a load of

rubbish. And then I just go back to

being bored again after I bought all this

What is your unhappiness caused by? Well,

it's like I explained before a long time

ago. It's loneliness versus horniness.

And they,

they don't go well together.

So what I mean is, the loneliness

makes me want a relationship, but when I'm

in a relationship, the horniness makes me

want to cheat, which destroys the

relationship, which then makes me lonely

again because I'm all alone. So then the

loneliness pushes me into finding finding

a relationship again. But then I get the

horniness pushing me into cheating

again. So it's like a never-ending cycle.

The horniness isn't completely satisfied

in a relationship, and the loneliness is

not satisfied with, like,

sleeping around. Because you don't feel

like you have a proper partner. So it's

like this balancing act. You got

loneliness on one shoulder, horniness on

the other shoulder.

Find an open relationship. No, I don't

think loneliness would be satisfied with

an open relationship. The loneliness is

needy and insecure and sad.

And narcissistic, so the narcissistic

lonely part of me would not be satisfied

with an open relationship. I need a

partner devoted to me, otherwise it's

not, it's not gonna work.

Why am I so horny? I don't know.

I think I'm not as horny as I used to be,

but I guess I get bored and my mind

But you said you didn't talk to Chihiro

anyways. Why are you lonely now compared

to Because she cared for

me, like she cared about me in a loving

way,

and I miss that.

Like you could feel the love, I guess you

could say. It's that

feeling. Of having a partner who, who

cares about you. That was

great.

I know my mom cares about me, but it's not

really the same, is it?

It's not the same kind of dynamic.

Did you feel that way with Mila? No, I

didn't feel like she really cared about

me. She's, she, she's kind of selfish,

like she just thinks of herself, like

what's best for herself. Bit like

me, I guess. But I just, I didn't really

feel satisfied with her because I didn't

feel cared for.

Like, she just did her own thing, and I

felt like I was just some guy that

she met a few days a week.

Like, there was one time when She helped

me sell my phone to this guy in Rotterdam.

So I went to meet them in the shopping

center, the guy and her. And then after

we finished selling the phone and the guy

left, she was just like,

okay, well, bye, I'm going. It just felt

so cold. I thought, well, I thought maybe

we could hang out. I thought maybe you

want to see me and talk for like 10

minutes at least. But no, she was just

like, okay, I'm going, bye.

Just felt really cold and uncaring.

I just felt lonely with her.

It's like she doesn't know, or she doesn't

have an interest in being someone's

partner. She just wants to do her own

and then it just makes you feel like

you're bothering her or something.

I don't know if I— what would have been

nicer on that day.

I don't know, maybe something romantic.

Like, she never did anything romantic,

like surprise visit me, or she

never, she never said stuff like, Daniel,

I miss you, can I come over?

Or she didn't just show up and say, hey

Daniel, let's hang out.

Just felt very one-sided.

I guess she satisfied the horny part of

me. That's why I didn't cheat.

I felt pretty satisfied when it came to

sex.

I think she was the first girl that I ever

managed to do it twice in a row with.

Usually I just do it once and then I fall

asleep and it takes a few hours until I

can do it again. But she was the first

time I did it and then I could do it

straight again— straight away again.

That was usually something I could never

What is this thing on Twitch called

redeemed highlight my message?

What does that mean?

Did you ever make her feel wanted, loved

like you wanted to be?

Um, I don't think I did a great job at

it because I was scared. I was scared

that I would be coming on too strong and

she would feel— because she kept saying to

me she didn't like feeling pressured. She

didn't like the pressure of being in a

relationship. So I thought, oh, I better

not be too strong. I better be more laid

off. So I was always kind of

scared about making her

feel pressured into being my girlfriend.

Maybe I should have— I should have tried

harder to be romantic and stuff,

but I just felt scared because the first

time she rejected me, she said it was

because she didn't want a relationship and

she didn't like labeling things and she

didn't like the pressure.

So I was even scared to call her

my girlfriend because I thought she would

feel pressured and then run away again.

I think it was just a lot of

miscommunication.

Then she said stuff like she didn't want

to live together, and I don't know,

just— it really knocked my confidence.

I don't think she's ready to be in a

relationship. I think she just wants to be

alone and hang out with her friends and

then go on trips and not worry about

having a boyfriend who's all needy like

me. Maybe she'll meet a guy who's just

like— who just wants to have fun and mess

around, do drugs and drink,

and that'll be good enough for her.

Maybe when she's older, like in her 30s,

she'll start thinking like I'm thinking.

But she seems like she just wants— she

prefers to be alone in her room and just

read books and play with her cat and then

sometimes go and meet her friends. I don't

really feel like she's the type of person

who wants to be in a couple

as a couple.

But I'm curious to what— as to what kind

of guy would be happy with her.

You'd have to put up with a lot of

annoying stuff.

I'm just wondering what kind of guy would

not find her annoying. You'd have to be

very patient and very,

very unirritable, I guess.

What is a highlight my message for 170?

What does that mean?

I just don't know how it could have worked

long-term. I didn't want to live in

Rotterdam. I don't think she would have

been interested in living in Japan. She

kept saying she wanted to go to weird

countries like Mexico. Or Uganda,

or countries that I would never want to go

to. And then she never had any money,

so she would just be at her grandmother's

place all the time. And then she didn't

want to live with me, so I would have to

live near her,

which means I'd be stuck in Rotterdam as

It's just a nightmare.

Why didn't you break up with her earlier?

Because I really liked having sex with

her. It's just really good.

She was pretty,

especially when she wore certain outfits.

She was really cute.

I don't know what was so good about it. I

mean, the actual sex wasn't special, it's

just normal sex, but I just found her very

It's just a shame about everything else.

I think she just had a lot of features

that I, I like, like roundness,

round kind of facial features,

round soft facial features.

And I liked her hairstyle.

She had a very nice smile as well.

I like the shape of her lips.

It's just a shame I didn't like anything

about her personality. I guess I kind

of liked Her playfulness,

but sometimes it got too much.

I thought she was great personality-wise

when I first met her. I felt like we

clicked and she was— I felt comfortable

being around her and it was fun.

And it was fun going to the trampoline

park, going to the Korean restaurant,

getting drunk, going to karaoke, then the

hotel. It was probably the best date I

ever went on. It just felt perfect.

Usually I feel kind of awkward and nervous

around girls, but it just felt

But it was just too difficult.

Everything else was just a mess,

especially the whole YouTube and streaming

thing. Like, she didn't want me to do— to

make videos around her, and she didn't

like it when I livestreamed and I

She didn't like my toxic content.

It's like, even if the person— even if you

like the person and it feels good,

there's all these other outside

things that, that can ruin it.

Like, just little things, I guess.

Like all this, all the extra baggage just

makes it impossible.

Even if we were still together, I don't

know how we could have made it work

because of Brexit. How could I stay there?

And then now we can't even travel because

it's illegal to leave the country and

everywhere's locked down again.

So we'd be in like a long-term,

long-distance relationship.

And then she'd probably change her mind

because she would have time to think, and

then she'll think it's not a good idea,

and then she'd probably end up dumping me

again anyway when things start opening up.

I was planning on coming home anyway

because of the Brexit stuff. Stuff. I

didn't think I could stay.

I guess it's best we broke up.

Just a bit sad sometimes.

There were good times.

It was nice having her come and stay with

me. Watching Netflix, making food

together. It was nice traveling

around Germany with her.

Relationships are hard.

I don't really know much about Brexit.

How are we benefiting from Brexit?

We get to control our laws.

We don't have to let Brussels

decide things for us.

But then we lose the ability to just be

able to travel around Europe freely.

No, relationships can get very tricky

based off of other things, like if the

other person lives in a country you don't

want to live in. Or if the

other person doesn't like how you make

money, but you don't want to change how

you make money. Or the other person has

hobbies and interests that you absolutely

hate. I think little things like that

become big.

Ideally, if I could just control her,

let's say I could control everything she

did, I would like to just go to Japan and

then stay there for a couple months, and

then we would live together, and then we'd

go to a different country, and then maybe

we'd have a few months apart.

But we had completely different interests,

so it won't work.

But even then, I don't feel like there'd

be a long-term endgame

for us because Either

I would need a way to live in her country

long-term, or she would need a way to live

here long-term. I don't know how you could

do that.

It was just doomed to fail.

There's no way she would be able to get a

visa here because I

don't even know how you get a visa here.

You would need to apply for a student visa

or get some kind of job,

which I don't think she'd be able to do.

I don't think she would want to.

It's just very difficult.

It's a lot of effort you'd have to put in,

and I really would not want to live in the

Netherlands. It's just Too expensive.

I've got no interest in the country at

I don't know, recently I just feel like— I

feel like it's too hard trying to find

someone, which is why I kind of regret

losing Chihiro.

Back then I thought— I underestimated how

difficult it would be to find a good

partner. I thought it'd be easy for some

reason. I thought, oh, I'll just meet

someone who messaged me on Instagram and

then that'll be my new girlfriend. But I

didn't consider all these other things

like, where does she live? How does she

live? Is she annoying?

Is she a good partner?

I just thought, oh, she looks cute,

let's to have sex, throw away my marriage.

Stupid, stupid decision.

Yeah, I think it's going to be very hard

for me to find another good partner who is

not annoying, is completely okay with my

YouTube stuff, completely okay with my

OnlyFans stuff, completely okay with me

being lazy and not wanting to get a proper

job. Having zero

social skills, no interest in people.

I think I'm just gonna give up,

do MG Tao. I can't be bothered anymore.

Just save my money, invest it.

It's too hard.

What did Jimmy9 ask? I didn't catch it.

Do I have any actual friends you can talk

to? Yeah, but I think I already talked

My OnlyFans still makes like $600

or $800 a month.

I guess people find the old videos and

they subscribe to it.

I need to pee.