sad and lonely again -( forever alone [-JNZWoYcfVQ]

Testing.

Hello, welcome back to a new stream.

Let's just pretend what happened earlier

didn't happen.

Positive energies,

positive energies.

Positive energies.

Yes, I am alone once again.

Just me and you.

I need to find a big pen.

Hmm, I've got

paint. I could paint it on there,

but then it will make a mess. I would like

a felt-tip pen, really. Surely my

girlfriend has one.

How much would you pay for the laptop?

It's got a bit of cardboard here, but I'm

sure you could scrape it off with a bit of

soap. I would

want— so it was like a $2,400

laptop. I want at least $800.

What do you think?

I can't— this— the text box is so small I

can't— okay, I'll use

the arrow keys. I want $800. What do you

think? Fair price?

Come on, it's a 10th generation i7, RTX

3060.

Demonetized again. I don't get it.

Last time I streamed, it was fine.

It's laggy for me. Are you sure it's not

just your phone that's lagging?

What is lagging, the video or the sound?

Looks fine to me.

You streamed at an unusual hour. Yeah,

the only thing that was different last

time was I streamed later, and you said

maybe the person reporting my streams was

sleeping. That's insane if all it takes is

one person to report my stream to mess

it all up for me.

Yeah, today's gonna be bad.

I don't know why. Last stream was great

and then today sucks. Low viewership.

I can't get it to go green either.

Oh my God, it's not good, is it?

I don't know what to do about this.

Can't it just at least let me monetize my

remaining few thousand views? At least

give me that, for God's sake.

Throw me a bone.

Oh, thanks, Mayor of Maidstone. We are

taking up a collection to build a statue

of Maidstone's greatest son, Christopher

Broad. How much would you like to

contribute? I will contribute one

peanut.

What was the point of restarting the

stream? Well, I was hoping a new title

would bring more people in and I wouldn't

get demonetized, but neither of those,

those things worked, so there was no point

really. There's no point at all.

Yep, we're yellow and same number of

Great, really great.

Oh, thanks Junkers. Ah, thank God.

Thanks to Junkers and Mayor of Maidstone,

you made the stream already worth more

than all my recent videos. I make like

$12 for making a video nowadays.

Oh, thank God it's not all for nothing.

Yeah, maybe if I ever become broke in

Japan, then at least I could live in Blood

Bucket's garden.

I've never been so broke in my life since—

last time I was this broke was probably 20

Probably 2015, before I got the petrol

station job. It's been nearly 10 years

since I last felt extreme poverty.

It's scary how fast you can fall,

how quickly it happens.

I'm still in Thailand, if you don't

know. Oh,

thanks, very generous. Yeah,

maybe next year. She said she'll help me

I saw Charlotte's video. They're looking

to buy another house to turn into an

Airbnb. Must be nice having loads of

money. They were like, oh, my budget is

$150,000.

See if I can find a pen.

Found some

paints. Could paint the sign with this.

Do you remember when I was into painting?

What was the point of that? Why was I so

into— I watched one Bob Ross video and I

bought all this painting stuff. God, I'm

such an idiot. Why do I do this? I watch

Gordon Ramsay and I buy expensive pro chef

kit, and I watch one Bob Ross video, I buy

all the stupid paints. I watch stupid Ice

Poseidon, and then I buy all this crap for

streaming, and then I don't even stream.

Look, I bought this stupid thing.

Bought this stupid LiveU Solo live

streaming encoder, all these battery banks

so I can do IRL. I do like 2 IRL and I

Sick and tired of failing. Everything I

try and do in life.

Is that visible? I think it's pretty

visible.

This is pretty fun, actually.

Oh my God, there's not enough room for the

R.

Hmm, I think I took out too much paint.

Uh-oh.

There's not enough room for the E.

Uh, there's enough room here.

I took out way too much paint. Well,

that's a waste of acrylic paint that I'll

never use. Yeah, that's pretty good.

Replicate a Bob Ross painting and sell it.

Well, I sold one painting. That guy bought

one for $250. But then no one else bought

any, even though I made an even better

What is the most infuriating thing or

person you dealt with these last days?

Um,

Probably the guy I sold my Switch OLED to.

He showed up 40 minutes late. He kept

phoning me even though I couldn't

understand what he was saying. And then he

kept getting lost. And then he didn't

bring enough cash.

Thank God my girlfriend was there. And now

the camera has cut out. Oh my God.

Can this day be any worse?

This is probably the worst stream I've

ever done. It's probably run out of

battery.

No, it's not run out of battery. I don't

know, the app just closed itself.

Oh, thanks, Johnny Somali. Yeah, I see,

but it would take— I don't know why it

takes like a minute for the pop-up to pop

up. Oh, thanks, Johnny,

very generous. Hiroshima, Nagasaki,

Fukushima. Yes,

I agree.

Um, yeah, the guy who bought my Switch

OLED, he turns up 40 minutes late, keeps

phoning me even though I can barely hear

what he's saying, doesn't come to the

place we agreed to meet at. I said BTS

Station, Victory Monument, up on the

platform, and then he's like, oh, I'm at

the hospital. What do you mean you're at

the hospital? And I had to give the phone

to my girlfriend so she could talk to him

in Thai. And then he only brought 3,000

baht when I said 5,500, and then he Cash

App'd the rest of it to my girlfriend. So

unorganized. The second guy who bought my

iPad Pro was much better, came up with the

cash. I think these people were buying it

to resell it, so I must have sold it to

them lower than I could have sold it.

Well, at least it was fine. I got the

money. They didn't show up and say,

actually, no thanks.

Next, I want to sell— I'm thinking of

selling this. The only reason I like it

was because it was very good for slotting

into my backpack for IRL streaming, but I

really don't think I'm gonna IRL stream

again. If I go to

Japan again, I'm not doing that biking

stream stuff again. That was— number one,

it was really boring. Number two, it

really hurt my entire body, and I got

really badly sunburned, which you can

still see. Look, my fingers are pale, my

hands are still brown because I was biking

all day in Japan, got super sunburnt,

and I still got those brown marks.

Actually, it's mostly gone now. I had

that, that thick brown mark on my ankle

from where my shoe was rubbing against my

foot when I was pedaling.

So this is good because you can open it

like that and take a video, so it stands

up on its own. See that? That is really

nice when you're outside vlogging and you

don't have a tripod. You can just open it

slightly, hit record, put it down, and it

stands up on its own. Or you could do like

this, so it's like a tent.

Or you could do like this, prop it up like

that and take portrait mode video like

that. It's really cool. Or you can just

tap on the little mini screen, and if you

double-click the lock button like that— is

it double? Yeah, double-click. It's got a

little viewfinder. You can switch to

video,

photo, video, and then you can take a

video like this. So you could hold it like

that, or like that, or put

it on a surface like that. So it's got

really cool options when it comes to

taking photos and videos. That's the

only good thing about it really.

I think it cost me £900. No, it cost me

like £1,000, so that's over $1,000. I

would like $500 or $600 for it.

Do I really need it? I mean, I could just

go back to using my iPhone. Would I rather

have the iPhone or the Flip? Hmm,

the Flip is worth more than the iPhone.

Did I mention it? Last time we went to the

shopping mall, we went past a looking for

staff sign, and the hourly wage— the

hourly payment is 42 baht an hour, which

is like $1. And the monthly pay for a

permanent staff member was 14,000 baht,

which is like $300. And it also said Thai

nationals only. So I don't know how you

find a job here if you're a foreigner.

Did you make the first payment to your

mum? Yeah, I sent her £500. She said,

thank you for your payment, like a robot.

My mum never used to be so— I don't know

when she got so polite because she never

used to say please and thank you. Now

she's like, Daniel, can you please do

this? Thank you, Daniel. And now she gets

mad when I don't say please and thank you

back to her. I don't know what happened

because she never used to be— I swear, 10

years ago she was not like this.

I don't know where she learned to be so

polite, and now she expects me to be

really polite as well. Yeah, that's not

how it works. I am the way I am because

that's how I was raised. I don't just

suddenly change unless you really want to

change because you feel inspired by

something. People don't change unless they

want to change. You've got to really want

to change. I don't want to be like, oh yes

please, thank you madam. It's just

not me. It's not my persona.

I am polite to strangers, like I say

thanks, but not to people who are close to

I feel like it's weird.

What else do I have?

I reckon I could get some good money for

this flip phone, probably like $500.

What else do I have? The laptop is a hard

sell because it's so scuffed looking.

Might have to sell it at a discount.

I don't need the laptop because I got the

ROG Ally, which is fine

for what I need it to do. Does everything

the laptop does— streaming,

editing. I edited a whole video on the ROG

Ally and it was great and exported

really quickly as well, even though it was

at maximum output settings,

1080p, 60 FPS.

I don't really know what to do for money

anymore. All my tricks don't work. My

little YouTube tricks don't work anymore,

do they? I don't know if I've— if

I made a new channel and I just put stuff

out like, I cheated on my wife, my wife

cheated on me, like how I used to, do you

think it could go viral again? It's not

hard to do. I'll just get my phone and go,

um, guys, I got some really bad news.

I was in bed last night and my wife left

her phone unlocked And I checked her

messages and I think she's cheating on me.

I can't believe people bought all that

back then or found it entertaining. So

dumb, isn't it? 100K views that stuff used

to get. Seriously? Oh my God,

why can't I just do that again?

If it works then, why doesn't it work now?

Just make a new channel. It wasn't

COVID, it was back in 2018, remember?

Sell your outdoor livestream tech. I don't

know if anyone would buy the LiveU Solo.

Smoke started coming out of it. I plugged

in the charger the wrong way around. I

forgot how I did it because it's got I

don't know, it's like a 12-volt DC input

port, and I plugged that in, and then I

plugged the other end into the DC port

of the battery bank, and then smoke

started coming out of it. So it's probably

screwed now, and who's gonna buy anyway

unless you're an IRL streamer? How many

people here are IRL streamers? Not one.

So that was a bit of a waste of money,

and I don't think I can sell it. It's a

very niche product that 99% of people

don't want or don't need. You've got to

be a YouTuber or a Twitch streamer or

someone who wants to become one to even

consider it. And it screwed up anyway

because smoke— I think it still works.

It's just a bit of smoke came out of it.

It's fine,

but it's rubbish. I wouldn't recommend it.

Just stream off your phone. You don't need

like 4 SIM cards.

Yeah, you notice my channel started to die

after I came back from Japan. Hmm, I

wonder why. I wonder why that

is. I wonder why my views drop

when I suddenly can't make whatever I want

to make, when I can't make the crazy

stuff. Hmm,

I'm sure there's a reason.

I've got to pay— I've got to go back to

the school next week, I think,

and pay $100 for my next

visa extension. I think I've got 2 more

visa extensions. Next one is in December

for another 3 months, and then I've got to

do another one for the final 2 months.

So that means I'll be in Thailand until

December, January,

February, March, April. Yeah,

I'll be here until April, so I hope you're

looking forward to another 5 months of

solid Thailand action.

It's gonna be so wild.

Have you seen Chris Broad's new video?

It's so lame. It's titled The Next

Chapter. Makes you think, oh my god, is he

quitting YouTube? Oh my god, he's leaving

Japan. And then all it is is him saying,

oh, we're gonna do another journey across

Japan for the 4th time where they

just sit in a car and drive to some random

location. And then he shows off his

'70s-themed Japanese living room with

Natsuki. The whole video was stupid.

To announce his new series where he's

gonna milk the December Christmas CPM

doing daily videos. Why does no one see

it? They're all like, oh yeah, Chris,

another journey across Japan. Oh, good

luck doing daily videos. No one's like,

oh, you're just doing daily videos because

the Christmas CPM is really good and you

want to spam out as much content before

January happens and the CPM gets cut in

half. YouTube viewers are

such sheep.

When you talk about views and money

constantly, they're like, oh, we don't

like you anymore because all you do is—

all you care about is money.

When other YouTubers like Chris disguise

how much they only care about money

because they're like, oh, I've challenged

myself this year to make my videos better

and I really love making videos and no one

sees through it apart from me.

Why do you smack talk Chris so much? It's

not that I hate Chris, I hate his stupid

viewers. Bunch of stupid

sheep because they will suck up to him but

then they think I'm a scumbag or loser or

whatever. Chris is the exact

same as me, he's just doing it for money.

He just disguises it better.

As if Chris isn't sick and tired of making

videos. He's probably like, oh my god,

I'm gonna make another stupid video. But

the money is so damn good, he can't stop.

Everyone hates on me, but they all suck up

to these other YouTubers when they're

literally the same. It's just they don't

say this stuff.

I'll just tell you, I'm sick and tired of

making YouTube videos. Hate it. But I got

no choice. If I don't do it, then I'm

gonna be homeless and I starve. Making

YouTube videos sucks.

Hate it.

I'd rather just wash— honestly, I would

rather wash dishes than have to make

stupid YouTube videos anymore.

Washing dishes is more fun, to be honest.

It's just I don't want to have to have a

boss. I don't have to go into like a place

every day if I can do it in my kitchen.

And just endlessly wash dishes and make

money, I'd rather do that. But I can't. I

wish— I wish in the future they invent

teleportation and restaurants teleport

their dirty dishes into my kitchen and I

teleport them back and they pay me like

$0.10 per dish.

That would be great.

Just teleport me your dirty crap, I'll

wash it. And then I'll send it back.

I just don't want to see people or go to a

place to make money.

Maybe I can buy and trade stuff on

Facebook Marketplace. I could look for

cheap deals and then sell it for more.

Oh, I could try that.

Why don't I just scour Facebook

Marketplace and try and find stuff for

cheap? And then try and sell it for more,

for profit. That would be way more fun

than doing stupid YouTube.

But it's a risk, because what if I can't

find a buyer?

Chris is a millionaire at this point, it

makes sense he might not care about the

money. I don't know. Then why is he doing

everything to make the maximum amount of

money? Like cashing in on a book,

spamming out videos, planning to spam out

videos in December during high CPM month,

only seemingly making videos when he's got

a sponsor. Why always new videos have a

sponsor in it? He only made

the video because he got a sponsor deal.

I think he's scared about his future,

that he sees he won't be able to do

YouTube forever, and there could be a

point where people will lose interest. So

he's like trying to make as much money as

he can now whilst he can. YouTubers all

have that same worry in the back of their

mind, which is this isn't gonna last

forever.

Is my laptop for sale? Yep, $800.

RTX 3060, i7,

16GB of RAM. 512 SSD.

Comes with the SD card. If I

put the SD card with it,

how much would its value go up?

Do you have Apple Watch for sale? No. But

I would if Chihiro gave it back to me. I

bought her an Apple Watch 6 brand new and

she sold it.

Don't you think she's weird? Like, she

just sells my stuff, or I give her a gift

and she sells it. She's so unsentimental.

Shouldn't have put cardboard on your

laptop. Yeah, I guess so. I'm sure

you could scrape it off or use water to

dissolve it. Well, I didn't know I was

going to get an ROG Ally and a monitor and

an external keyboard,

but next time I go flying I really don't

want to have that in my backpack. The

thing weighs a ton. It's like 5 kilograms

and it's so big. Shoving that in my

backpack is horrible. It's so heavy. I

don't like it.

Never buy a 17-inch laptop. I put

cardboard on it because it was getting

really hot and burning my hands. When I

played Rainbow Six, it was really hot,

and instead of buying a keyboard, I

decided to put cardboard on it.

Great idea.

I don't play ranked on Rainbow Six.

Because the people who play ranked Rainbow

Six are a bunch of lame-os. They take the

game too seriously, they do the stupid

sideways peeking around corners. It's no

fun. They suck out all the fun, all these

stupid tryhard people playing ranked.

My tactic doesn't work in ranked where I

just rush in and shotgun them in the face.

If I can't do my tactic, I don't want to

play the game. So I do casual, I just rush

in and I knife them all in the back. Have

you ever aced an enemy team with only the

knife? So funny.

When there's players where, you know,

they do the little peeking sideways thing,

as soon as I see that, I just leave. I

don't want to play with those people.

They suck. They take the game too

seriously. It's not fun.

I would sell my channel for $100,000.

Dead channel.

I don't know why dead channels get

screwed. And people just make new

Why is it not possible to revive a dead

channel? I've never seen

it happen. Have you ever seen it happen?

I don't want to make a new channel, I just

want to use this one.

Because I've made new channels, they don't

get views. At least I get some views.

I don't know, I just, I don't know how to

do YouTube anymore. I've got no ideas.

The best ideas I had was using a crazy

Japanese woman for drama content.

Maybe I'll do Vlogmas daily. Christmas

vlogs in Thailand, would you watch?

It's nice outside my condo building, they

put up all Christmas lights, it's cute.

And, um, I went into Bangkok Central

yesterday evening to sell the iPad at 7

PM, and there's no way I would have done

that in London. Can you imagine getting on

the train on your own going into London at

7 PM, you'd probably get stabbed. But here

it feels so safe. Everyone just— there's

people everywhere, feels warm. There's not

this scary I'm gonna get mugged feeling.

I like Bangkok.

Everywhere feels nice.

All these cosplayers, anime cosplayers

everywhere yesterday as well. It was

weird.

Are you doing better for yourself?

Not really.

Making less and less money each month. I

got no ideas to turn things around.

Things look pretty bleak. My biggest idea

now is selling off my tech so I could stem

the bleed. People just have

lost interest in my content.

Completely.

I'm giving up on everything. No more

drawing videos, no more IRL, no more

vlogs, no more cooking videos.

Nothing works. The only thing that works

Which keep getting demonetized.

So instead of $30, I make $12 instead

from ads. What happened to buying a house

in Japan? I'm still interested in it, but

it's very difficult. I would

need a Japanese person to help me. Blood

Bucket said she would help me. Don't know

how serious she is.

I want to get a house and just destroy it

for fun. Livestream myself

in the house trying to fix it up. I think

it's a fun project and people would root

for me to do a good job and be interested

in the progress. But people were saying

stuff like, oh, you have no idea how to

fix up a house. Yeah, but that's the fun

part, isn't it? Watching someone clueless

try to do something difficult. I'll get

tools like a drill, a saw, buy some wood.

I don't know if you can do that though,

because to buy an akiya is quite a strict

process. You've got to meet the village

council, prove to them that you're going

to fix up the house and be like a

contributing member of society. What if

she does that and then I just— she leaves

and then I move in and then they're like,

who are you? Why are you burning the house

down? Would they kick me out? They can't

kick me out. I own the place. I bought it.

I don't know what the legality of it is.

Maybe we just find a place that doesn't

require you to do all that stupid Japanese

village.

You need me. You're a dying village.

Just shut up and give me a house, idiots.

And from all the videos I've seen, when

they describe the process, it sounds like

an annoying process. Fill out all these

documents, and then you go to the village

or the town, then you gotta meet the

owner. I heard one story where

the house was owned by 6 children. I mean,

not actual children, 6 people who were the

children of the owner, and they had equal

share and they all had to agree to sell

the house. And before they

haven't even agreed to sell the house yet,

and the buyer was meeting the one sibling

who wanted to sell it.

It just sounds like a long process.

Why can't it just be easy? Just give them

the money, give me the house, get lost.

Do you like Japan? Yes, I do.

I don't know why I feel interested in

driving across Japan, but then I've got no

interest in driving across Thailand. Very

little about Thailand interests me,

and I don't know why. It's the same,

isn't it? It's got mountains, rivers,

waterfalls. How is it different in Japan?

What makes it so interesting just because

it's in Japan and not here? I don't know.

It's just like my brain is wired to find

Japan interesting and

I don't feel interested in Thailand.

My girlfriend gets upset because I'm not

interested in Thailand.

I just don't know why I don't feel

interested in Thailand, but I feel

interested in Japan. Maybe because I

watched anime when I was a kid.

Japan attracted so many foreigners who are

interested in their country just through

cartoons. It's Funny, isn't it?

Are you fluent in Thai yet? No. I stopped

learning it now. Now that I don't go to

school anymore. I can't believe school's

over just like that. It was very

anticlimactic. I actually felt kind of sad

when I got sick and I couldn't go anymore.

Felt like I was ditching my classmates and

just not even saying bye. When I go back

to the school next week, obviously they're

not going to be there anymore because

they've finished their classes now. It'll

be all new people who don't even know who

I am. All the people I met, they've all

long gone. I feel

a bit sad because I did talk to a few of

them but didn't exchange contact

info with anyone. And then I got really

sick a couple months ago and I couldn't go

anymore because I was so sick and I missed

the last 2 weeks.

But I don't really care about learning

Thai anymore. I know

a few words, I can say some basic things,

but I don't really care. I don't

use it. I use English whenever I can.

I wonder if I can buy low and sell high on

Facebook Marketplace.

What would I focus on?

ROG Ally? Oh look, someone's selling an

ROG Ally for 17,000 baht.

Wait, is it the Extreme? Yeah, Extreme.

Oh my God, I paid 25,000 for mine brand

new.

17,500 baht in USD is $500.

I should have bought that instead of

buying it brand new.

I'm trying to sell mine for 21,000. But no

one's going to buy it because there's all

these other ones for 18,000,

17,000.

Oh, the GDP Win Max 2! I want that. It

looks really cool. It's like a Steam Deck,

but it's in the form factor of a tiny

laptop. Look at this.

It's really cool. It's like a tiny 10-inch

gaming handheld that looks like a laptop,

but it's damn expensive. 30,000 baht is

like $1,000. But that'd be so cool because

it's like a tiny little laptop but it can

play PC games. It's not like a little

No, it's $850. It's got

the Ryzen 6800U 1TB storage.

I tried to play Alan Wake 2 on my ROG Ally

and it wouldn't even open. It said you

don't have 16GB of physical memory because

it's only got 8GB of RAM, so I had to

refund it. Couldn't even try to play it.

What else is on the marketplace? Why they

got women on the marketplace? Are they

like selling their bodies? It's just like

women posing.

You missed opportunity to learn Dutch.

Well, there was no need to cuz she spoke

English. I'm not going to learn a language

if they already speak my language. What

other countries you plan on visiting? I

don't think I'm gonna go to any new

countries. I'll just stick to what I know.

I would add Thailand to my rotation for

sure. My rotation would be Japan,

Thailand, South Korea as

my holy trinity of countries that I can

tolerate living in. I would say Thailand

is my second favorite country. It's so

annoying because my girlfriend keeps

saying, I know you hate Thailand, I know

you only love Japan. And I'm like, no,

actually, I like Thailand the second most.

She keeps accusing me of hating stuff I

don't really hate just because I keep

moaning about it. Honestly, I like

Thailand as my second favorite country.

I wish she would see this. She won't see

this, but she'll see the bits when I

complain about her or I talk about exes

and then she'll get mad about it, but then

she'll ignore all the positive stuff I say

and just focus on the negative stuff I've

said. Thailand is

way better than South Korea. South Korea

is just like a cold country full of

miserable people and

the food sucks in Korea. I don't know

which food sucks more, Thai food or Korean

food. I hate Thai food and Korean food.

I don't think I like any Korean food.

I like— kimchi's okay,

I guess, but you gotta be in the mood

for it.

People keep asking why didn't I learn my

mum's language. Because she didn't teach

it to me. She made no effort to try and

teach me her culture or language.

She just shouted a few words at us when we

were kids and didn't even, like, explain

what it meant or anything. The only reason

Joey speaks fluent Japanese is because his

mum refused to speak to him in English and

made a conscious effort to teach him it.

My mum did no such thing. Imagine my mum

trying to teach a language.

I know a few Cantonese words just because

I figured it out by myself.

Like, yip bun means Japan, which is the

same as Thai. In Thai, yip bun means

Japan, which is funny.

Now all I know is when she's calling me

stupid boy, which is like sei jie bao,

which means stupid boy. I know stupid boy

and Japan and eat and poo and fart

and fat woman.

Those are the words I know. Those are the

ones I hear her say a lot.

I don't know why she says eat and poo,

eat and poo. It's like or see or leo or

leo. I can't remember. If I hear it, I'll

know it. Yeah, yap bun yip bu. I can't

remember exactly how it said, but if I

hear it, I know it.

Fei po is like.

Fat woman.

And orpei is fart, so if she farts,

she'll go orpei because she farted. It's

like saying I farted after you farted.

And she speaks, I don't think she speaks

Malay. I think she knows how to say hello

and how are you, but she probably can't

have a conversation in Malay. People say,

why don't you speak Malay? Because my

mum's Malaysian. She's not Malaysian.

She's Chinese Malaysian, which basically

means she's Chinese, but she was born in

Malaysia. Malaysia is a weird country,

you know, it's like a segregated culture.

With 3 big populations. Obviously you've

got the main population, which are the

ethnic Malays. Then you've got like 20%

Chinese Malays who don't really assimilate

into Malay culture. They just stick to

their own people and their own culture and

language. And then you've got the Indians

who make up what, 5 or 10%?

But they all stick to their own people.

They don't mix. In Thailand, it's

completely different. Everyone's like

proud to be Thai. The Chinese Thais

identify as Thais and they're proud of

being Thai and they speak the Thai

language and they ditch their Chinese

roots. But in Malaysia, it's completely

different. They don't ditch the roots,

they don't assimilate, they don't identify

as proud Malays.

It's not the same at all.

They only learn like some basic Malay if

they need to talk to a car park attendant.

All the traffic attendants, manual labor

people, car park attendants, they're all

going to be ethnic Malays.

But they actually use English to talk to

each other. If neither of them knows each

other's language, they'll use English.

I had a Malaysian, a Chinese Malaysian

friend when I was searching for Japanese

girlfriends. I met some non-Japanese girls

and I used to chat to this Chinese Malay

girl and she speaks fluent Mandarin,

Cantonese, and English because she was—

she's more like a an upper class,

from an upper class family. And they— she

was sent to Mandarin school and English

school, and she knows how to read and

write Chinese characters. My mum was only

sent to English school, so she wasn't sent

to Mandarin school. She doesn't know how

to read and write Chinese. Her whole

family, none of her family speaks Mandarin

or knows how to read or write kanji.

So when they text each other, they speak

in English. It's a complete mess.

Nothing is unified.

My uncles and aunties speak to my cousins,

their children, in English, but they speak

to each other in Cantonese. But on

Facebook and online, they speak to each

other in English, and none of them speak

fluent Malay. Maybe one of my aunties

speaks fluent Malay because she had a

Malay husband.

And she converted to Muslimanity.

But I think some of them might speak some

basic Malay just, just to get by.

It's a complete mess, confusing,

hard to understand,

but that's just Malaysia, isn't it, in a

nutshell? That's why I like Japan. Japan

Japanese people speak Japanese and they

read and write Japanese. It's so easy to

understand.

I'm actually 7% Vietnamese.

So my mum's probably 15% Vietnamese. So

her grandparents are probably like half

Chinese and Vietnamese. So her origins,

her ancestors probably originated from

around the Vietnam and southern China area

where they speak Cantonese. Those southern

regions of China, the dialect is

Cantonese. Like Hong Kong speaks Cantonese

too.

That's why my mum looks more like

Southeast Asian than Chinese. People

think— I mean, other Southeast Asians

think she's Thai or Filipino, not Chinese,

because she's got like the wide nose that

I have as well. That's because she's

probably half Vietnamese.

She doesn't have pure 100% Han Chinese

blood. Han Chinese are very distinct.

They got the very slim, small nose, very

pale skin.

So even my mum is probably mixed.

Not pure Chinese.

I'm hungry. I don't know if I'll do

cooking today. I don't know. I wanted

to try out my new batter recipe with beer

and baking soda. I saw Gordon Ramsay do

it, but I don't have any fish. I have

chicken.

Ah, what are we talking about today? Race

again.

On Saturday— wait, today's Monday.

Yesterday was Sunday. On Saturday, we

spent all day driving to different cafes.

We went to the seaside

on the west, southwest side of Bangkok.

It was boring. We just went to

a bunch of cafes and sat there and the

food sucked.

We went to— first we went to some cafe and

we got a cake, like a tiny little cupcake,

and there were some pigs and goats and

cats. And then we went to a seafood

restaurant Which I hate seafood, so all

the food sucked. We got fried rice, which

was bad. My fried rice is better. And like

fried chicken, but there's barely any meat

on the bone. And like tom yum soup,

which I didn't like.

And then we went to some seaside bridge

thing and they had these flying parakeets.

They flew so close to my head. It was

scary. Massive parakeets just flying

around and they swoop in, they fly

near your head. It was scary, I didn't

They don't sell any good food. If this was

a British seaside, they would have fish

and chips and burgers and hot dogs. Nope.

What do they have? They have stinky dried

fish that smells Like fish.

No good food at all.

I can't remember what else we did.

We just drove to a café.

Oh, we went to this weird temple thing

that had loads of chicken statues,

and then we drove home. Oh, she bought

crab. She bought a bunch of smelly crabs.

I want to get a little crab actually for

my fish tank, like a tiny little crab. I

thought it'd be cute.

I might go to the fish market, see if I

can buy something interesting. Getting a

bit bored of my fish tank. The fish don't

have babies. I don't know why they don't

make eggs. Is it

hot there? Actually, it's really not hot

anymore. It's quite nice.

I feel kind of cold. It's like 29 degrees,

but I feel cold. It's weird. If it's 25

degrees and I step out onto the balcony,

I feel like it's cold.

December and November are the coldest

months in Thailand, but it's still pretty

warm. It's just not boiling and melting

hot.

Yeah, I think winter in Thailand is nice.

Don't have to worry about being freezing.

Spend my winter here. I really would not

want to go to Japan right now. Japan's

freezing in the winter. Have you ever been

to Japan in December? When I was younger

and broke, I would always go to Japan in

the winter because the flights are were

cheaper. So I'd go to Japan in November

for November, December, January. I'd be in

Japan and Korea, and it was so cold,

but the flight tickets are so cheap.

Try living in a guesthouse in winter.

When you go into the shower room, all the

windows are open for ventilation. It's

freezing. Having a shower

was the worst thing because you were

supposed to get dressed outside of the

shower at the entrance, Japanese style,

where you get all naked. But I didn't want

to get naked, so I'd bring my clothing

into the shower cubicle. You get a little

plastic basket. I'd put my stuff in the

plastic basket, bring it into the shower

cubicle, and then you'd have to be very

careful not to get your stuff wet. So I

take off my shoe and my slippers, put it

into the bottom of the basket, then I'd

get undressed, put all my clothing into

the basket, and then I put a plastic bag

over the clothing so it wouldn't get wet.

And then I'd aim the showerhead at the

wall so it wouldn't spray onto my

clothing, and I would shower in the corner

really quickly because it's so cold. The

water doesn't get very hot, and it

fluctuates between really hot and really

cold You got to like try and fiddle with

the knob to get it just right, and it

would only just be just right for like 30

seconds before it fluctuates to the other

end of the temperature spectrum.

So I had to quickly shower, as quickly as

I could, and then get dressed.

I would try and time my shower so there

would be no people.

Hated it.

That's the worst thing about living in a

guest house, getting a shower.

And then going from the shower back to

your room and bumping into people was was

also annoying because they would say

hello, but I've just had a shower. I

haven't fixed my hair yet. I don't really

want people to see me. I was very fussy

about my hair back then. I would spend

like an hour doing my hair with a hair

iron, hairspray. I had to make sure this

bit was all straight. It's funny now

because now it's really straight, this

bit. I used to spend ages. I ironing this

part of my hair to make it super straight

so I had the visual kei look. And I had

to like straighten all this and straighten

all that, and then I get hairspray to make

it stay in place. And then I'd

feel very embarrassed if people saw me

before I fixed my hair, like I was ashamed

of having wavy hair. I don't know what was

wrong with me, back then. Why did I care

so much? I think my hair looks fine now.

I just embrace the waviness cuz that's my

natural hair. Don't know why I was so

obsessed with having it super straight.

When you're young, you seem to care a lot

about really dumb things like how your

hair looks, your fashion.

The good thing about getting older is you

do stop caring about everything, which is

nice. I still want to care about some

things, like nose hair. I never want to be

that kind of old guy who just has one

massive long nose hair coming out,

or like one random hair just coming out of

your ear. I try and keep my facial hair

maintained.

Are you planning to go back to a guest

house? Yeah, I had a look at some guest

houses and I was looking at the types

of guest houses I used to avoid because

they were too expensive. Like the ¥65,000

a month guest houses were way out of my

price range back then.

I would always go for the ¥40,000. But

¥65,000 now, thanks to the exchange rate,

is actually— it's only $300

$400 a month, I can afford that easily.

And it's quite a nice-looking guest house,

big room, nice facilities. It's probably

not got weirdos living in it because

they're broke.

The problem with super cheap guest houses

is you're gonna get a load of weirdos in

it, like 20-year-old weirdo

from America who's got like stupid hair

because he's broke. That's why he's there.

And likes doing WED, and he's like lost

in life, don't know what he's gonna do.

He's just in Japan because he likes anime.

I don't want to live with people like

that. They're just weird.

Get a haircut, stop obsessing over anime,

get a job. Weirdo.

Was JNF that bad? It wasn't too bad,

but it had a few weirdos like that,

like weebs and broke people. But the

majority of it were nice, uh, young people

want a cultural experience, looking for

work, or they're already working.

I don't want to live in like some ghetto

hood guest house full of weirdo foreigners

who just talk about smashing Japanese

women and watching anime. It's just so

degenerate.

I know I sound like a snob, but I don't

want to live amongst that riffraff.

Yeah, I was once like that. A broke

weeaboo with bad hair obsessed with

Japanese women. We were all there once.

But I'm not there anymore. I have

ascended. Oh, thanks, Hamalot,

very generous. If you dropped the soap in

jail, what would you do? Well, I don't

use soap, number one. I don't know why

people think you have to use body wash and

soap. I only just realized people

washing their legs is a thing. I don't

wash my legs. I let the water drip down.

There's nothing on my legs to wash. What

am I going to wash? Shampoo is a soap.

It breaks apart oil and bacteria. So if

shampoo works on your hair, it works

everywhere else. The only places that need

to wash are pits and grooves and

holes. Your open, bare skin Why

do you need to wash that? There's nothing

on it that's like smelly and festering.

The only place where it's gonna be smelly

and festering is like your armpit, your

crack, your five skin,

um, your ears. Everything else

is fine. You don't need to soap that.

Just soap the sweaty smelly bits. I use

shampoo for it and it's fine. I put

shampoo on my armpit and smells like

Need to exfoliate dead skin cells?

Not really, that just happens naturally.

That's what dust is. It just flakes off

and then flies away.

When I scratch my arm, I don't have like

loads of dead skin collecting. It just,

it flakes off and it flies off somewhere.

And also you got bacteria on your skin.

This is good bacteria. People are too

obsessed with trying to destroy and kill

bacteria when they don't realize there's

good bacteria that's beneficial for your

immune system and body. And you over-soap

yourself, you're killing off the good

bacteria and you're just going to make

yourself more sick. Bacteria is

good. It's only like a small percentage

of bacteria that is bad, but if you've got

things under control, your good bacteria

will keep that under control. It's not

like you've got smallpox or polio breeding

on your arm.

It's the same for the fish tank. Took me a

long time to learn this, but bacteria is

good for the fish tank. And I don't,

I don't do water changes for my fish tank

anymore like I used to. I used to change

the water every 3 days because I thought,

oh no, the bacteria is going to build up,

my fish are dying. I haven't changed the

water in my fish tank for months and they

are fine. I top up the water because it

evaporates, so I top up the water because

it It starts evaporating. But you don't

need to take water out.

The plants and the bacteria colony and

shrimp, they keep everything safe. And you

need the bacteria to break down ammonia.

Some people scrub their whole body with

like, oh, I'm scrubbing my back and I'm

scrubbing my legs with my body wash.

That's insane. You're insane. You don't

understand how science works. You got no

clue.

You don't need to do that.

My arm. My arm smells like nothing.

I don't wash my arm or my legs.

Why sad and lonely again? Because my

girlfriend left me, my viewers left me,

no ads, demonetized again.

Forced into selling my tech to make ends

meet.

I'm gonna make a new tank soon. I want to

go to the fish market though. I got this

one.

I got this tiny tank with a bit of gravel.

I'm not sure what to do with it. I want to

make a sloped— like a sloped

sanded tank.

You can get this foam to sculpture a

landscape. I want to make like an

aquascape. It's gonna have like a sloping

hill.

Maybe I wanted like grassy green with

a stick coming out with a little cave so

they can go into the cave, but cut out a

hole so I can see the inside of the cave