[2025-02-03] feeling sad and lonely... [ix-ELtdphAo]

Testing.

Hmm. Ah, it feels cold.

I don't understand the heating system

here. It seems to turn itself off every 3

hours and then you gotta turn it back on

again. Yep, we're doing another

stream.

Can you hear that?

They're not rats, it's the heating turning

on. Okay, I need to make

a new text thingy.

Why is all that clicking in the roof?

Um, days until Moving

into— why is it so long? Days until

move-in new house.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday. Is

it 5 or 4 days? Getting excited.

Oh crap. Oh no,

I deleted all the debt stuff. I didn't

mean to do that. Can I— I can't undo it.

Oh my god, now I've

got to retype it. Credit card debt,

it's about £2,500.

Mum debt, I think it was £8,742.

And then car debt, I forgot, it was like

£13,000-something. Just say that,

whatever.

And then I'm going to delete this.

Oh, Amazon debt, stupid thing.

I think that's how much. And do— this

time I do a new text box. Where is it?

Text, days until move in new house,

5. Phew,

that took a lot of work.

There's too much stuff on the screen.

Yeah, I paid off all my debt, guys.

That looks pretty good. God,

hard job being a streamer. My whole body

aches from yesterday. Today I felt so

tired. My legs ache, my back

aches, and my fingers got all scratched up

somehow from my first

shift doing every delivery. My legs are

killing me today because I parked so far

away and I had to run up and down

everywhere.

There's 2 problems. Either I park too far

away and then I gotta run all the way to

the house, or I park— I drive up too close

and then my car gets stuck and I gotta

reverse out. I'm really scared of driving

down a lane and then I can't turn the car

around. I've got to reverse all the way

back out. Need to

make a live streaming set in your new

house. Yeah, I will, but I'm just gonna

do like Um,

you know how I used to do it in Japan

where I just showed you the whole place

and you could see me doing stuff? I'm

gonna get a new tripod.

I can't wait. I think it'll be so nice to

have my own place. Did Every— did you tell

Every you quit? No, I'm just gonna ghost

them. Maybe I'll feel better about it next

week and I'll maybe see if I can pick up a

4-hour shift instead of an 8-hour shift.

Because on the Every app you can say when

you're available and how long for, so you

can choose up to 4 hours or up to 8 hours.

And it's now updated with my My

performance rating, but it still doesn't

say how much money I made. When do

I get to see how much money I made? But it

says my, my delivery

on time rating was 18%.

Recommended training, estimated time of

arrival.

I don't really want to do it again. It was

horrible.

Yeah. So I'm not sure what to do on moving

in day. I feel like making a vlog where I

film myself leaving this place. I'm like,

okay guys, time to get in the car and get

to my new place. And then I vlog the first

day, but then I would also want to stream

on the first day setting up the new place.

So I'm not really sure. I want to make

like a cinematic vlog with a bit of music,

maybe some captions like I used to do.

But I don't know, I guess I would have to

do some setup before I can stream, like

setting up the internet. And then what, I

post a video and then go live on the same

day? That'll be a bit weird because I

definitely want to set up the new house.

Live. I think it would be good live

content.

Thought you were gonna take it easy today.

Yeah, I did. I did nothing. I sat at the

table on my computer all day.

Didn't do nothing.

And then I started getting kind of sad.

Started missing Thailand. I was watching

old videos with Faster, and then I started

watching old videos when I was in Japan

with Chihiro, and then I got like a

different kind of sadness.

Why does it always feel like, oh, those

days were so much better, but then when

you were in the moment, it didn't, didn't

feel like they were better?

It's too hard to make money trading.

There's too much risk that you're just

going to lose the money. And it's kind of

boring. You're just sitting there staring

at lines going up and down. It's not

interesting. You're supposed to learn

and create systems that you follow and

like you only take a trade if these 4

things happen. And it's replicable,

and if it doesn't follow my rules and I

don't take the trade, it's just so boring.

It's fun when you're gambling and you're

like, oh, I'm just gonna blow, YOLO my

money into this stock and then see if it

goes up or down, but then you just end up

losing money doing that.

I'm bothered trading.

Stressful. You can lose a lot of money.

You might make some money, then next day

you just lose it all again. Don't like it.

I think I'm more of a creative. I'm not

really that much of a numbers person.

Yeah, so we got 5 days until I move into

the new place. I've been,

um, doing my Amazon shopping list.

I've got it to around £1,000 now. It's

really hard to get it under £1,000 because

I need a washing machine, that's £200. I

need a fridge, that's £80. I deleted the

microwave. I think I don't really need a

microwave because I never use the

microwave here. As long as you're cooking

fresh food and you don't put food in the

fridge that needs to be reheated, you

don't need a microwave. So I got rid of

the microwave, I got rid of the sofa, I

shrunk the futon from a king size down to

a single, and, uh, I chose

a £50 computer desk and a £50 computer

chair. Got a kettle. I got rid of the air

fryer. I don't think I need the air fryer.

I'll just use the oven with the stove,

and I'll get a frying pan and a pot.

What else? I think that's pretty much all

I need. Just need a bed, way to

wash my clothing, and I got rid of the

vacuum. I replaced the vacuum cleaner that

was £130 with a little broom that you put

wet wipes onto for about £4. That should

be good enough. Yeah, it's got a

toilet. Yeah, I need towels, but I think I

might just buy those at Tesco because I

want to feel the towel before I buy it. I

might get towels and pillows and stuff at

Tesco. Don't really need to order that on

Amazon, do I? I can get a lot of stuff

from Tesco, like knives and forks, cups

and plates. So I'm not going home? Nope.

I think having my own house and furnishing

it and trying to make some content in the

house could be more interesting than, oh,

I'm back in my bedroom, guys. Watch me sit

in my bedroom being bored every single

day. That'd be so boring. Let's just go

get the new house, furnish it,

live in the house, see what it's like. If

I don't like it, I can leave after 5

months. I've only

signed the agreement for 5 months.

And then back to Thailand, baby! I've been

planning how I can return back to

Thailand. So, um, for a 3-month

trip, I reckon £4,000 would suffice.

£650 plane ticket,

£800 a month condo in Bangkok,

£400, maybe £300 for food. I reckon

you could have a nice 3-month trip in

Thailand for like 3 months. So yeah, I've

been kind of missing Thailand recently. I

don't know, maybe it's because Instagram

keeps showing

these foreigners in Thailand saying how

great it is, and it's making me feel like

I shouldn't have left. Well, I had no

choice. I had to leave. My visa ran out

and I was in massive debt, so I didn't

really have a choice. I had to leave and I

had to stay in England to try and pay off

my debts. Otherwise, I just wouldn't

be able to afford paying all that stuff

and also trying to pay back my rent.

But now I've got to pay £1,800 a month

expenses for my house here and pay off the

debt. So actually it's worse because at

least in Thailand I had a place to live

and it didn't cost £1,800 a month. So I've

actually just dug myself in a deeper hole.

Because if I can do that here, I could

have done that in Thailand much easier.

The only problem is I couldn't really stay

in Thailand for very long, only 3 months

at a time. Well,

Sunny, today I got an email saying that

she removed me from her Steam family, so

it's probably well and truly over now

because we were connected on Steam so we

could share each other's games. I got an

email today saying she removed me.

Don't think she was happy with what I've

Oh, I went on to e-bookers to check

flights and it says e-bookers is shutting

down. Can't believe it.

I've been using e-bookers for 15 years.

My dad used to use ebookers to book our

holidays, and I used ebookers because he

recommended it. And I went on it today and

it said, we're no longer accepting looking

for flights from the UK. Please use

our Experian— what's that? Experian app

or something. So where am I gonna buy my

plane tickets now? Maybe Booking or

Skyscanner. I've always used ebookers.

Now it's weird. Can't believe they're

shutting it down. Nothing stays the same,

does it? End of an era.

What's the latest on Sunny? Uh, she

removed me from her Steam family. That's

it, really. Haven't heard anything from

So yeah, I don't know what to do. I've

been thinking all kinds of stuff like,

should I just cancel my car contract so I

don't have to pay another £7,000? Should I

keep paying for it? Should I borrow money

from my mum to outright buy the car and

then sell the car and then pay my mum back

and use the excess? Or maybe there's

probably not even gonna be any excess

because to outright buy the car I need to

borrow about £14,000.

To pay for the balloon payment as well and

the remaining 38 months of payments. So I

have to, I have to borrow $14K to buy the

car, and then I could probably sell the

car for maybe $10K if I'm lucky,

maybe $11K, I don't know. So then I'll be

losing $3K, won't I? But that's better

than losing $7K, isn't it?

Because you'll say, oh, but you're gonna

lose the car and lose £3K if you do that.

Yeah, but if I keep paying the payments,

I'm gonna lose the car anyway and end up

paying £7K if I don't have the money for

the balloon payment, which I doubt I will.

Will I have £5K just lying around in 2029?

So it's either lose the £3K or lose the

£7K. It's like lose the £3K now or lose

the £7K very, very slowly over 3 years.

But at least I'll be able to use the car.

But I don't know about the car anymore. I

kind of started to feel like I'm missing

my, my nomadic digital nomad

lifestyle where I had very little monthly

payments and I could just— I had no

commitments and responsibilities and just

fly off to any country. And now I can't do

that because I'm crippled by all these

monthly payments. The car, the monitor.

I feel like I should sell the monitor too

because I'm not even using it. So you are

moving and furnishing a home you know you

are already going to leave behind in a

couple of months and expect your mum to

bail you out again so you keep living like

an irresponsible teenager at 36 years old?

Give me your mum's number ASAP. Yeah, but

I need to buy furniture for my new house

and the lowest I can get it is to about

£1,000.

I need a washing machine. How am I going

to wash my My towels— I can't use the same

towel every day for the shower. How am I

gonna wash my bedding? Can't keep going to

coin laundry. So yeah, I kind

of need to spend £1,000 for furniture that

I'll have to ditch, unfortunately. I mean,

I'm not gonna bring a washing machine and

a fridge home to my mum's house, am I?

Well, I could try and sell it before I

leave, put it on Facebook Marketplace. So

I really feel like maybe I should sell my

big monitor because that's going to cost

me £1,400 over the next 4 years, and maybe

I could get £900, £800 for it on Facebook

Marketplace. The problem is it's a bit

scratched where it's been in the car. It

was rubbing against my seat belt and that

scratched the metal frame on the top bit,

so I can't say it's really good condition

and they might want like £750 for it.

So it seems like, yeah, I financed the

monitor with 20% interest,

20% APR. So it's a £1,000 monitor,

but in total it's gonna cost £1,400 over

4 years. It's costing me £25 a month,

and now I don't even use it. It just sits

on the floor. Because I can't be bothered

to plug it in, and I'm just pretty happy

using my laptop screen. Well, it was nice

when I had a room. Maybe when I'm in my

new house, I'll feel like I have a room

and I can set it up and it'll be nice

again. Don't know, have to see,

because I could, I could have furnished

the whole house with the money that that

monitor's worth. So yeah, I've been doing

my Amazon Wish, my shopping list. I've got

futon, bedding. My bedding in total is

going to cost probably about £300 for the

futon, the duvet, bedsheets, pillows.

I'm— don't— I don't know if I want to get

the tatami mat because you kind of need to

put the futon on top of the tatami mat,

but it's not necessary. It's just, just a

bit weird to put the futon directly on the

How much money do I make on Uber? Best I

did was about £87 for doing 6 hours, but I

got a £10 tip because it was Christmas. I

usually get about 10% in tips. Worst was,

I don't know, 5 hours and only made about

£55. Yeah, so worst day, bad day, you make

like £50. On a good day, you can make £80

or £90 if you are lucky with the traffic

and you don't get stuck and the orders

keep coming in. You stick to your little

route around McDonald's.

Subway— Subway is annoying because they

take ages making the stupid sandwiches.

All the damn toppings, they got to get out

all the toppings and then they got to put

the stupid sandwich in the oven. And then

cook it. And then sometimes customers come

in and they start serving the customers

before they prepare the Uber Eats order.

And then one time I was sitting in Subway

for like 20 minutes. I might just not do

Subway orders next time.

Yeah, Subway is a massive time waste.

So I just stick to McDonald's, maybe do

some Morrison's

or Tesco's if there's really nothing else.

Sometimes it's been really quiet and I

ended up sitting in the McDonald's car

park for like 40 minutes. And you want to

be careful because if you're in the car

park too long, you might get fined because

usually it will have a sign saying maximum

stay 1 hour or 2 hours, and you never know

if they have a camera.

Yeah, people are insane. They pay like

£15, £20 for a sandwich. You know,

you can just go to Tesco's, buy a loaf of

bread, bit of ham, coleslaw for about £5,

and then you can make 10 sandwiches.

People really do blow money on food.

You are a jobless loser. You can't even

pay your monthly bills even if you work

24/7. Wake up, weirdo.

I could, but I don't want to.

Don't really want to work 24/7. I'd rather

just stay at home and focus. So many Bee

Livery jobs popped up today and I was

like, oh, I can't be bothered. I really

don't want to go out in the car and drive

an hour and then an hour back just to make

£25. It's not worth

it. And then I'd have to charge at a

Supercharger. That'll cost like £15.

I'd do it if I had my own place to charge,

but I'm not gonna go out to make £20 if

I'm gonna have to do a 50% charge.

Some of them were quite easy. It was like

one bottle of red wine.

A pack of Stella Artois.

But it's annoying when they've got loads

of items and you go— it's like, have you

seen that show? It was an old show in the

UK. It was called Supermarket Sweep with

Dale Winton. Most people are going to be

too young to remember that show. It was

like a popular show in the '90s where

contestants would go on and they had like

a fake supermarket full of items. And the

challenge was you got to rush around the

supermarket and fill your trolley with the

items that were on the list. And the more

items you got from the list, the more

points you get, and then they'd win the

prize. That's what it feels like. You're

rushing around the supermarket trying to

find these very specific items that the

customer has requested.

But usually you'll find everything in

I much prefer that over Every.

Beelivery is like, okay, you gotta drive

an hour and deliver one bottle of wine to

a house, to one singular house, and make

£20. Every's like, oh, you would deliver

40 parcels to 40 different addresses and

it's going to take 2 hours and then you'll

make £20. Which one's better?

BeLivery destroys Every. Every is

terrible.

Even Uber Eats is better than Every

because all you have to do is deliver 10

to 15 McDonald's and you will make what

you would make doing Every if you

delivered 100 parcels. So Every

is 50p per parcel. Uber Eats

is about £6 per McDonald's depending

on how far away it is.

Even if they reduced it down to £40, I

don't know, maybe it would be doable. It

did basically feel like doing Amazon Flex

again. I was getting to about 30,

40 parcels and at that point I felt like,

yeah, I had enough. First 20 were fine, I

felt quite relaxed. And then after 50, I

was getting stressed out, especially when

they sent me to the industrial estate and

I couldn't find the damn— it was like,

oh, G's Groceries Depot,

where the fuck is that? It wouldn't show

up on the map. I just randomly chucked it

at some building's door and just fingers

crossed, hope it was that one. I don't

know, the map says it was that one, so I

guess it's that one, but there's no sign.

How come your mum still keep financing

your lifestyle? Is it because of the Asian

mother's shame, or why does she keep doing

this? Every white British mother would

already had kicked you in the butt.

She's not financing it. She lent me

£1,000. To set up my life in

Devon. That's it. It's not for

me to keep. I'm gonna pay it back.

I think I'm gonna get— I think

I'm gonna get in trouble if I go back to

Everett because I did such a terrible job.

I didn't even take the photos properly.

And I lied on where I left it. So I would

just ditch it at the front door, but

instead I put, oh, I left it at the back

door, so they can't complain. And they'll

be like, are you sure it's the back door?

And I'll be like, yeah, definitely wasn't

the front door on the street. There was,

there's some houses where it was just a

front door on the street and there was

nowhere else to put it. I couldn't be

bothered, so I just put, oh, I left it at

the back door, but it was actually the

front door. Sometimes I have like a wooden

gate and I just leave it by the wooden

gate and then I would put, oh, I left it

by the shed. It could be the shed door,

it's a wooden door, how are they gonna

Can't be bothered.

Yeah, I don't care if I get clips and sent

to them, I'm not doing it anyway. It's a

rubbish job. So I signed up to Deliveroo

and Just Eat today. Seems promising.

I got all my checks done quickly and

they're just waiting for the background

check. Seems like maybe they want drivers

in this area, whereas they didn't really

want drivers in Maidstone. So if I can get

Deliveroo as well as Uber Eats together,

that could be a good way to make money.

And I've found a McDonald's. It's in a

little town on the outskirts of Plymouth,

and the little town has a population

bigger than Aylesford, so that

should mean it's more active.

And Aylesford was pretty good. I made good

money in Aylesford, and it was only

population of 10,000.

Why don't you get a real job? Because I

want a job where I can pick and choose

when I work and I don't have to work with

people. I'm lazy. Sometimes I just can't

be bothered. And then sometimes I'm like,

let's go, I need to make money. And then

I'll do a 6, 7-hour shift on Uber Eats. I

want the freedom to be able to just do

what I want. If you get a job, you got to

show up and you go work and you, you get

told off by the boss. I want freedom and

flexibility.

What if it's raining really hard and it's

all icy and I don't want to go to work but

I have to? So that's why I

want to do delivery work and gig work and

not get a job.

I want to focus on my YouTube stuff,

not having to go to work, and then I'll

use the gig work to, to increase

my earnings a little bit. But my main

priority is YouTube. You are a delusional

mfcker. Are you really expecting to pay

your bills being a delivery guy?

Really? Lol. Delivery people make a lot of

money. I don't know what you're talking

about.

You could easily, if you wanted to and you

tried every day, you could easily make

£500, £600 a week.

Did I get the £5 you sent me? When did you

send it? Not during this stream.

Yeah, I want a job that I can do how I

want, when I want, for as long as I can

until I get banned. It's basically

my modus operandi.

Do everything the lowest effort you can

possibly do for as long as you can get

away with it is my life motto. There's

plenty of jobs out there. Just do every

single job as lazily as you can until you

get banned and fired from everything.

There's always going to be another one.

Zero effort, maximum outcome.

My life motto.

It works great for relationships too.

Women love it when you put no effort.

They definitely don't freak out and have a

tantrum.

Can't be bothered, whatever,

plenty more fish.

I think I put way more effort than Sunny

did though. The only effort she did was

getting on the bus. I don't see what else

she did. Okay, she helped me get an

Airbnb. Wow, clicked a few buttons.

What was Cami's reaction about the Sunny

blowup? She said, come home, Sunny's just

messing you around. No, I've already put

so much effort into getting a house, I

might as well just go with it.

What? Why wouldn't you try to get your

Amazon Flex account back? I did. When I

sent the email to [email protected],

someone from Amazon Executive Relations

replied back and said she would love to

look into it. I sent— because my email

isn't connected to your Flex ACC. I sent

one to Jeff. I sent one to the support.

They said the same thing. Can you please

explain why it makes sense to rent a house

right before you take an extended

vacation? Um, okay. In hindsight,

if I knew I was going to plan to take an

extended vacation, I wouldn't try and rent

a house. But I only just this morning

started to think about, yeah, I kind of

miss my digital nomad days.

So the plan was I was gonna get a house

and then maybe Sunny would move in and

then we'd have a relationship and it'll be

nice. But it didn't really go that way,

did it? Are you in Torquay?

No, but very close. And it's funny because

that's where Pia's from, and Pia messaged

me and she was like, it's funny you're in

Devon, because that's where she grew up.

Yeah, I do remember she told me she was

from Torquay. And then I saw it on the map

and I was like, wow, I'm so close to where

Pia was born. But Pia

doesn't have like that Devon accent.

Loads of people here have that country

accent, like, oh, I'm working down at

the farm. Look at your stupid face. You

are an insufferable loser. I don't know

how you keep waking up every day thinking

you are anyone on this earth. Thank you

for being our most loving laughingstock.

I feel so good watching your miserable

life. I'm a famous YouTuber, bitch.

Torquay is pretty rough. Yeah, I would

expect it to be since it's like a seaside

town. For some reason, all the seaside

towns in England are horrible,

ugly, disgusting places full of homeless,

jobless bums. Maybe I'd fit in.

I don't know why in England all the

seaside towns are horrible places,

because they probably used to be very nice

in the '60s or something.

I heard something about how the Victorians

used to go on holiday to places like

Margate, you know, it was very luxurious.

Margate's a shithole too. I went on a date

with this English girl back in 2015 or

'16. We went to Margate. She looked like a

witch. We went to this pub for

lunch and she didn't like the food and she

was like, I'm gonna complain about the

food to the manager. And I was thinking,

oh my God, just let it go, it's just a bit

of pub food, who cares?

I had a vlog as well, I deleted it, I

guess. Because I was worried it made me

look bad.

Yeah, I was thinking if

I sell the car, I could use the money to

get the Thai Elite Visa. 5 years. What do

Could be doable.

So I live in my house for 6 months. I'll

probably just scrape by to pay rent and

minimums. I might be able to make a bit of

extra money, a couple hundred pounds

surplus a month. So I'll probably be able

to save maybe £2,000 max after 6 months.

And then I go home. I go home in— when's

my tenancy over? My tenancy is until July,

so I'll probably go back to my mum's house

in July and then maybe do a few

months Uber Eats whilst I pay no rent at

my mum's place to scrounge up another

couple thousand. And then I'll pay off the

credit card, and then I'll pay my mum back

a bit, and then I've got my stock money of

about £4K, but by then it'll probably be

like £6K because gold's gonna do well.

And then I only owe my mum a couple

thousand. Work a bit more and then I'll

borrow money from my mum to buy my car and

then I'll sell my car and then give the

money back to my mum. Crap, then I won't

have the 15K for the Thai Elite Visa.

I can get the 5-year Thai Elite Visa for

£15,000.

I was thinking I escaped to Thailand for

winter, do my wintering in Thailand.

I'm gonna get a nice condo in Bangkok.

I quite like Thailand, it's very nice,

relaxed place, warm, cheap.

Bangkok's really impressive modern city as

well. Yeah, I am planning Something

like that. Unless I really enjoy living in

a house by myself in England. Maybe I'll

really enjoy it and I don't want to give

that up to go blow several thousands

in Thailand just for a couple of months.

I reckon about £4,000 would be good for a

few months in Thailand. Look at your

chopped hair and your face full of acne

spots. Your teeth are brown and your

breath probably stinks. Your pullover

looks like cheap sheet from Primark and

your car is a stupid EV. OMG, I can keep

going on and on. Actually,

I don't have any spots recently, which

means I'm not stressed. Maybe I was more

stressed being with Sunny than not with

her. Right now I feel so stress-free

knowing that I don't have to be insulted

and criticized over my personality every

time I meet her. It's actually so

relieving that I don't have to deal with

her toxicity anymore. I feel like, phew,

dodged a bullet there. I don't have any

spots.

I had a bit of a spot here, but it's gone

I feel so relaxed now. I just— I don't

have to put on this act about caring, and

I can just be like, yeah, I don't really

give a shit about anything, to be honest.

I'm just doing my thang.

You said you hate Thailand before, why go

there again? Well, yeah, if you're in a

place for nearly 2 years, you're going to

hate anywhere. It gets boring.

Imagine caring about another human being.

What is caring though?

My interpretation of caring is that it

affects your emotions depending

on the outcome of the thing you are caring

about. So if some random Jim Bob in New

York died, I don't care. It would have

no emotional effect on me. I'd be like,

oh, that sucks. I wouldn't feel happiness,

I wouldn't feel sadness, I just feel

nothing. That is because I do not care

about that Jim Bob.

But I would feel emotions depending

on what Sunny's actions are, which means

I care. Like, if she cheated on me, I'd be

angry and aroused. And if she attacks

me, I'd be upset and annoyed. If some

random Jim Bob's like, oh, Daniel is so

dry, I'd be like, yeah, Yeah, so what?

Wouldn't even care. So in my

definition, I do care. If I didn't

care, my emotions wouldn't be affected.

I don't know what your definition of

caring is, but that's mine.

It's like if my sister died, I'd be really

sad. And might cry, so doesn't

that mean I care about her? If I didn't

care, then I wouldn't cry. I care about a

lot of stuff and a lot of people.

People think I have no emotions or

something. It's not fair. To label me

like that. You don't understand me at all.

Yeah, I can't believe I even suggested me

and Sunny signing up for the tenancy

together. Nobody cares about you, Daniel.

We just want you to keep living life like

this, like the ultimate loser. Yeah, no

wonder. It just feels so good. No wonder

she wasn't interested in my idea, because

she can't even make up her mind if she

wants to be with me or not. She changes

her mind every week. Imagine we signed up

for an apartment together. Oh my God,

that'll be a nightmare. Lesson from

this is never do stuff that relies

on another person. Always just get it

sorted yourself, no strings attached.

That's why I'm— I don't want to get

married. That looks like a massive

nightmare. I don't want joint ownership

over money or a house or property. That

sounds like a nightmare.

You go into Thailand by yourself and Vassa

won't be there. Well, yeah, obviously

that's over, isn't it? I swore I'd find a

I found a new girl pretty easily in Japan,

didn't I? Last year, that Korean woman.

She was okay. If I had no one else, then

she'd be fine. Maybe I can like

get her some more feminine looking

clothing, get her to stop wearing those I

don't know, she dressed like a guy.

The Korean woman. Maybe she'd be kind

of hot if you just give her a little

skirt, knee-high socks.

Ice Poseidon invited you to Japan.

Really? Did he talk about me? I did watch

a bit of his stream today, but it was

boring. He was just walking with a bunch

of streamer guys that I've never seen

before, and he was making fun of this fat

Indian-looking guy who looks like Mutaha,

who was whining the whole time. They were

just doing like a massive walkathon in

the dark, and it was a bit boring, to be

honest. I don't like this new cast of

people. They look very uninteresting.

He's still live. Who? What, Ice?

Imagine I met Ice again and he saw all the

stuff I said after I met him in

Thailand. That would be

funny. Yeah, Ice has just been live 24/7,

hasn't he? He's doing a subathon.

Maybe because I watched a bit of Ice

today, it kind of made me miss my days

back in 2023 and '24. Can you tell us how

many days you spent together with Sunny in

total? You guys were making some big

commitments for a couple who didn't really

know each other. Did you even spend a

month in each other's company? What, a

whole month at once? No,

because she would come over, stay a week,

go back, and then come back in a couple of

months for a week. The most she ever

stayed over was 2 weeks.

It's funny because me and Sunny announced

that we are officially boyfriend and

girlfriend only a couple of weeks

ago. It was in January 6th.

You remember we had that big fight after

Christmas? And then she made this big

dramatic speech about how we should end

it. And then we talked and then she came

over anyway. And then we had like

a serious talk about our feelings. I'm

going out to have dinner. Me and my wife

are laughing at your ethnic Malay face.

You are so good, Daniel. LOL. Talk without

being interrupted. So yeah, we had a big

talk and then she was saying stuff like

she likes words of affirmation. She needs

to be reassured. And then we took a test

like, what's your love language.

And then we did this big talk in my

bedroom, and in the end it all

meant nothing. And then I asked her to be

my girlfriend. She said yes, and then she

announced it happily to everyone. Not even

a month and she dumps me.

Such a joke. She can't make her mind up.

Guess I've got to make it for her.

Like, literally not even a week ago we

were in IKEA and she was all happy about

the idea of decorating my new place and

coming over. And then literally 4 days

later she's like, you're the shittest

boyfriend ever. Talk about bipolar. Jesus

Christ, she's such an

emotional roller coaster. One moment you

think— one moment I felt like, wow,

things are going so great. We're going to

be so good together. And then next minute,

oh my God, just because I gave some short,

blunt replies because I was a bit stressed

and not really in a chatty mood.

She was trying to make it work. Well, she

was the one who kept breaking it. She kept

having to— she kept having to fix the

damage that she was causing from flipping

out all the time over the dumbest things

like, oh, you didn't text me for one day.

That means you don't care about me.

Who even thinks like that?

Imagine a guy doing that. Oh, you didn't

text me every day. I hate you.

Now you'll be alone for Valentine's.

Thank God, now I don't have to get a gift.

Always make sure if you're gonna break up,

break up before their birthday and break

up before Valentine's, then you don't have

to waste time getting a present.

Yeah, I just can't believe it was not even

a week ago we were at IKEA celebrating

that I got the place and we're looking for

furniture. Eating fish and chips at IKEA.

Seems so great, and she seems so happy.

Sort of like the German girl, remember the

window? Yeah, she was a nut job too.

All these girls, they're just existing to

make some guy in the future's lives a

misery. I feel sorry for the guys who are

gonna end up with these women. They're

just gonna go through the same pain, the

same misery.

Well, it's their turn. Their turn to take

the bullet. I've done my round.

So I'm thinking, hmm, I stay at the

apartment for the tenancy agreement

period, move out at the end of the

agreement instead of renewing, which

should be around July, and I just go home,

ditch the washing machine and stuff like

that. I'll just, I don't know, chuck it in

the farmer's field. I'll just dig a hole

and bury it. I dig a hole in the garden,

I just bury the washing machine. Can't be

bothered to get rid of it.

I guess I'm gonna have to ask if I can

leave it there and they can gift it to the

next tenant, because people do that. Oh

yeah, I could sell it, but I can't be

bothered. Who's gonna buy an old dirty

washing machine full of my bum fluff?

Sunny was a good influence on your life.

Yeah, I know. If it wasn't for her, I

wouldn't have gone so far to try and get a

place. I would have been lazy. There's no

way I would have left the comfort of my

mum's home to come all the way and rent a

house. So in a way, I guess I

can thank her for giving me that push,

because I don't think I could have done

it. If I was single, I just wouldn't be

bothered. I'd be like, what's the point?

It's such a waste of money. But now I've

already committed and I'm kind of stuck

and I have to go through it now.

Can you even pay this rent? I'm pretty

sure I can. I probably make like $1,000 on

YouTube if I really commit to it. That

means I've got to find another $800.

Um, I could just use my stock market

money. £4,000 in the stock market could

easily pay for 5 months of rent,

couldn't it? I just pay for the 5 months

of rent using my stock money and then live

off the YouTube money and then go home,

and then I'll have zero in stocks and I

will still have the credit card debt, and

I already gotta pay that off before April.

I pray the worst-case scenario is I'm

gonna have to use the stock money to pay

off the credit card before the interest

starts kicking in.

I always got the stock market money as a

net to fall back on.

I'll move back in with my mum in July,

and then I'll just grind Uber Eats and my

favorite McDonald's. I could probably make

£2,000 a month on Uber Eats doing that

McDonald's. I made £260 in 4 days grinding

that McDonald's in Aylesford. That's,

um, £65 a day times 30.

I could make £2,000 plus my YouTube money.

I made like £3,000. It would literally

take 2 months to make £5-6K, and then I

could probably pay my mum off within 2 to

3 months by just Do Uber Eats every day.

The problem is I might get sick and then I

have to take 2 weeks off. That's my only

worry. I have been getting sick

more often recently,

and then it'll just take 2 months to

create a Bangkok fund.

Maybe I don't even sell the car, just

leave it at home.

We always gotta plan the next adventure.

Wait, I need to fart.

My stomach hurts. Oh, now it smells

bad here. I should have done it in the

I only had a ham sandwich for lunch.

It was silent. Yeah, I spread my cheeks.

I don't want to go on camera. That's

disgusting.

Next 6 months would be hell slaving wages

to cover your expenses. I don't think so.

I think I'm gonna have a nice home. I can

get creative. I might make some videos.

I'll get some tech, review it, send it

back. Switch 2 is probably gonna come out.

There's surely gonna be some trending game

coming out around summer.

I'll be able to have more of a routine

where I can just focus on YouTube, and

then if I get bored and feel like I want

to go make some extra money, I'll just go

do Uber Eats. Or do a bee-livery.

Hopefully I might get signed up on

Deliveroo. Oh, I think the fart

means I need to poo. Hold on.

I got a message from Blood Bucket.

She said, it's been a while since I

checked in, hope you're doing good.

I said things didn't work with Sunny.

Oh, thanks, Jake. You playing Kingdom Come

2, Daniel? No, but that idiot Matt

Glasscock used to love that game. That kid

who used to bully me at school. I remember

he used to talk about that game. So now I

hate that game because it reminds me of

him. Oh wait, not Kingdom

Come. I'm thinking of something else. I'm

thinking of— what's that game with the

Final Fantasy looking character with the

big key as a weapon? Kingdom Hearts.

I hate that game. No, I haven't played

Kingdom Come. I played the first game.

When does the second game come out? So I

could do a review. Should I send Blood

Bucket the screenshot of Sunny saying I'm

the shittest boyfriend ever?

I'll send it to her.

She got this mad at me because I'm dry.

I thought everyone knew I'm dry,

especially if you're a viewer.

I've been sending that screenshot to

everyone. I'm like, look what Sunny said,

can you believe it? And I'm supposed to be

the bad guy, give me a break. I was a

sweet angel.

Is Kingdom Come 2 out then? If it's

trending. I thought it wasn't out yet.

When's Kingdom Come 2

out?

February the 4th. Oh my God, that's 2

days. Oh, thank you for telling me. Good

thing I'm in a place with amazing

internet, it'll probably download in 10

minutes. Yeah, I'm gonna review that,

so that's in 2 days, that'll be on

Tuesday, innit?

As an avid fan of the first Kingdom Come,

I knew I just had to play this.

Unfortunately, it's not good and rubbish.

Henry's shtick of being a dumb idiot has

kind of gone stale and old. The combat is

as stiff and stale as the first game.

Yeah, I could probably review that and get

some views.

The problem is I kind of want to actually

play it, which means I won't be able to

refund it. Which means I'm not gonna make

any money because I'll just spend it on

buying the game. And it's not like you can

do guides on Kingdom Come, it's not

Diablo. So it's only a one-video kind of

game because I don't know what else you

can do. Most insane Kingdom Come 2 build.

I don't think it even has builds, you just

level up your sword skill thing. Yeah, I

really liked the first game, I finished

it. It reminded me when I was in Germany

with Mila. The Hungarian countryside with

all the rolling hills and the forests,

the sun, all the greenery.

The countries and places just look so much

better in the medieval ages without all

the roads and ugly towns and cities and

all the stupid cars everywhere. It just

felt like you're living in pure nature.

The only downside is people just ran

around killing each other all the time.

Yeah, I guess I could do like noob guides

or hidden secrets, but I'm just not good

at finding them.

Why not move home, do Uber Eats, and just

pay rent and council tax without paying

all the other expenses? What do you mean

pay rent and council tax for my Devon home

without living in my Devon home? Yeah,

I'd save money by not having to pay bills

and food,

but I'd still be paying £1,000 to

not live here. So I might as well just

live here and have the fun and experience

of moving into a new place. And decorating

it. A whole lot of bee livery popped up.

Oh, £28, and it's to

Taunton. It's pretty far away.

He wants 3 galaxy counters, 1 Seabrook

crinkle cut variety, 3 old speckled

hen 5mm— 500mm.

So that would take about— hmm,

it's annoying you can't hold it to copy

and paste the address.

Taunton, 40 miles away.

50— no, 60 miles away. It'll take an hour

to get there and then an hour back. £28

for 2 hours driving. Worth it?

Spend 10 minutes at Tesco's buying the

stuff. What you do is you go to Tesco's,

you buy the shopping, you give it to the

customer, and then the next day BeLivery

reimburses you the money for the shopping

plus the £28

payment. So you'll get, I don't know, £50

from BeLivery.

It's actually pretty good. I mean, £28 for

2 hours work is, well, £14 per hour.

But it's only good if you can charge at

home. If you gotta drive 2 hours, that

means I've got to do basically a full

charge, which is going to cost about £18.

Yeah, the risk is you buy all the stuff

and then the customer cancels, and then

you're stuck with all this. I mean, you

could just eat it yourself. Or you could—

maybe you could refund it to Tesco if you

just bought it. Do I miss Sunny or Faster

now? I kind of miss Chihiro. I was

watching my old videos of me and Chihiro

doing furniture shopping, moving into our

new place. Chihiro was so funny and I was

so weird back then. And no wonder people

hated me so much. I was— I kept making

these childish grunting noises like,

mm-hmm. I stopped doing that and I

kept saying, it's your fault. And I was so

childish back then. And Chihiro used to

laugh. Chihiro was just laughing at

me all the time. She didn't get mad. And

Chihiro looks so happy. Shut up. Chihiro

looks so happy in the videos.

She was so happy to marry me and live with

me, wasn't she? Until things fell apart.

And then I felt bad. I thought I could

have made this woman so happy if I was

just a better husband. And we had a good

thing going. The viewers loved her. The

dynamic between us was entertaining for

videos. We had a nice comfy life that was

really cheap. And I just treated her so

badly because I just, I don't know, I just

got tempted by all these other girls.

Messaging me. And then I got kind of— I

became crazy over all this YouTube stuff.

I feel like life could have been so nice

if I just stuck with TriHero instead of

keep trying to switch and upgrade.

It's weird because back then when I was

younger, I used to see Chihiro as

like kind of old looking. But now I look

back at the old videos where in the videos

Chihiro was about 37, basically my age

now because I'm gonna be 36 next month. I

am basically the age Chihiro was when we

were married, and now she's looking pretty

good in those videos. And I was thinking,

damn, I can't believe when I was with her

I felt so unhappy with her looks because

now I'm looking at the old videos, I'm

thinking she looks pretty good.

Now that I'm 35,

I would not be complaining. The problem is

back then I was still 29 and I

was still very young.

She did have a nice face. She didn't have

like weird features or unbalanced

features. She had very nice features, big

eyes, normal-looking nose. Her mouth area

was a lot better than a lot of other

women. She had a good jawline too.

I didn't really appreciate it back then

because I felt like, oh, I'm a famous

YouTuber, I can do better. Didn't really

though, did I? It's like every single girl