day 6 of reconstruction

Is it streaming?

Ah, stupid internet.

Stupid internet keeps getting

disconnected. Oh,

so now I'm not even allowed to get an

Airbnb for the love doll. So it's

either get the love doll and leave her,

or stay with her and never be able to get

one ever. Okay then, I see what

your point is.

First, she said if I want to get a love

doll, then I have to get my own place.

Then I start talking about getting my own

place. Now she says if I get my own place

for the love doll, then it's over.

Why do I want a love doll? So I can have

sex with it. Why else? Because it's hot

and attractive.

I don't really see why anyone would have

such a big problem with it.

Wait, this bit didn't save. That's

strange.

It's just a

sex toy. Everyone has sex toys. It's just

a really, really big realistic sex toy.

Why would you get upset over a toy?

I don't,

I don't understand.

It's like having a packet of crisps.

Doesn't really have any nutrients, it's

not good for you, it's just a bit of fun

to fulfill a bit of your hunger.

It's like having an ice cream or a packet

of crisps. Doesn't really mean anything.

She's basically just forcing me.

She's asking me that— she's telling me

that I have to just

depend on her 100%. To fulfill my urges.

I feel

so trapped. Either option I choose,

I'm going to be unhappy. So anything I

do, doesn't matter what I do, I'm just

going to be unhappy with what I've chosen.

I can just imagine leaving, going to an

Airbnb, and then being being miserable.

It's like having to choose between, do I

want to drown in the Titanic, or do I want

to be stuck on an aeroplane that's about

to crash into a mountain. Which one should

I choose?

The love doll's not worth it. But it's not

just the love doll. It's not just about

the love doll. It's about having freedom,

independence.

I feel like I'm someone's child being

scolded all the time.

I think everyone knows that when it comes

to sex, I have a bit of a problem.

So why can't she let me do something that

makes the problem easier to handle?

It's kind of funny, actually. If you

think about it, it's like, you know,

usually married couples, they have

problems, but it's between those 2 people.

It's like a private thing between the

married couple. And then our situation,

there's thousands and thousands of people

who know about all of our problems. It's

like Having thousands of people involved

in your marriage. It's kind of strange,

isn't it? I think it's funny.

Do VR porn. I am actually a little bit

interested. Could get an Oculus Rift. Is

it any good though? What if it's not good?

And you have to pay for VR porn. They have

a few free samples on Pornhub, but then

you have to pay VIP to get access to the

good stuff.

I didn't see what my wife said because my

internet disconnected. What did she say?

What was the last thing she said?

Oh, today— tonight's not gonna be good

when she comes home. She's gonna beat me

again. Thanks a lot, guys.

Why can't you be on my side for once?

Everyone always takes her side. They

always say things like, oh, I hope Chihiro

finds happiness. What about my happiness?

No one wants me to be happy.

Yeah, she just kept saying that the love

doll was disgusting over and over. Kimoi,

kimoi. How dare

she say that? The love doll is beautiful.

She's just jealous.

I'll do a community poll asking women,

how would you feel if your husband wanted

to get a love doll?

She does loads of things I'm unhappy

about. She puts that ugly tissue cover

over the tissue box and And,

um,

Why not get a flashlight? Because I want

something more. I had one before and it

just— it wasn't that much of an

improvement.

She has a vibrator as well, by the way.

Just because it's small, she thinks it's

not a problem. So it's okay for her to

have toys but not me,

just because it's realistic.

Buy her a doll as well. A big black

6-foot-tall guy.

Can make the dolls have sex with each

other.

I'm so screwed.

Maybe I should get that Airbnb.

What about the camping trip? I wanted to

go camping. I'll go camping with

my love doll instead.

What if

I get a very small one? 100 centimeter

tall one, put it in my bag.

If only I could shrink it into a very

small size after I finish.

Do you think it really hurts her feelings,

or, or does she— does she just think it's

disgusting? Now, if she said to me, oh,

it hurts my feelings, then maybe I would

understand a bit more.

Well, I wouldn't understand why it hurts

her feelings. But I might be able to be

more understanding because

I guess it is kind of like saying you

don't satisfy me anymore, so I'm gonna get

a fake woman. It's not—

I'm not trying to replace her with the

doll. I just want to supplement my sex

life with the doll.

I wouldn't stop having sex with her just

because I have the doll. It's just

something to do out of boredom when I'm

feeling bored. Why not

have sex with your wife? I do. I wouldn't

stop having sex with her just because I

got a doll, but it's not enough.

I want the doll as well. And 2 extra

girlfriends, maybe a second wife,

but I'm okay with just the doll.

I watch porn, so how's it any different?

When I watch porn, I fantasize about doing

it with the woman I'm watching. Isn't that

like cheating? So I'm not allowed to watch

porn either.

My sex drive will fall off pretty hard

soon. I don't think so,

because I use sex as a coping mechanism,

like a fat guy uses food.

So I fill the empty void in my life with

pleasure. My favorite kind of pleasure

is my dick.

Everyone has their coping mechanism. Some

have alcohol, some have smoking, some have

drugs, some have food.

I have smashing.

No, I'm pretty sure it doesn't fall off in

everyone's case because my mum said even

Recently, my dad always wanted a lot of

sex. I said— I asked her, when was the

last time you and dad had sex? She said,

uh, last year. I said, what? You were

still having sex up until now? She said

yes. She said, your father

always liked sex. Even after he came home

from a hard day at work, he would still be

up for it. I said that's too much

information, Mum. Please stop talking.

I can't imagine ever losing interest in

sex. It's just the best thing ever.

Better than any video game, better than

any camera. It's so simple as well.

It's like a sausage going into a hole.

How can something so simple be so

satisfying? I don't understand. That's the

problem with sex. It feels too good. I

know it's supposed to feel good to

encourage to make babies, but I think

they made it a little bit too good. They

should have toned it down a tad.

So it's okay, it's quite good, but not

that amazingly good.

I feel a bit curious about asexual people

who don't have any interest in sex. That

must be weird. How can you not have any

interest? I guess it's nice because you

don't really waste time and money

obsessing over it or thinking about it.

Just get on with life. Do some

painting or, I don't know, stamp

collecting.

Do I ever get post-nut clarity? Yeah,

every time I finish I think to myself,

thank God I didn't waste any money doing

that. But then it comes back

again.

I just want to enjoy life whilst I can.

Before I know it, I'm gonna be an old man,

be 60. I'm already halfway to 60.

No, I'm gonna be 60.

I'm gonna be old.

Don't want to be old.

It's so depressing seeing the Friends

actors. They look so old now.

They used to be so young.

The most depressing livestream on YouTube.

Welcome. We talk about getting old

and dying and running out of time.

This is why I'll never get big on YouTube.

I just bum people out all the time. I

either irritate everyone or I bum them

out.

I don't think PewDiePie would have gotten

big if he was like me.

You need to be high energy,

energetic. Yay! Hey guys, we're gonna have

super fun today.

Stupid man on his motorbike. Why'd I have

to get motorbikes? So noisy. They think

they're cool, don't they, by having a

really loud engine? Look at me, I'm making

noise. No, you're just irritating

everyone. I hope you crash.

Why would you want a really loud engine?

Some people modify their engines to make

it even louder because they think it's

cool. They should ban people from doing

that.

Oh, I wish I was deaf sometimes. I

wouldn't have to hear all the irritating

noises in the world. Wouldn't have to hear

my wife's nagging.

Nag, nag, nag, nag, nag, nag, nag, nag.

Why am I building a tree? Because I need a

tree. How else am I supposed to make a

No,

how can I understand her nagging anyway?

Because I'm fluent in Japanese.

Nihongo para para da yo.

Oh, I'm so tired.

I've got 3— 2 and a half hours of

relaxation before

the boss comes home and beats me again.

If you want to get loved on,

Baby.

It's so uncomfortable when we're not

talking to each other. Just imagine hours

and hours and hours and hours of this.

Not saying a single word.

Imagine that for 5 hours straight.

No rooms to go to, no doors to shut.

Oh, it's torture.

Absolute torture.

Where, where can I go? I can't go

anywhere. I can go for a walk, but I don't

want to be stuck outside.

Oh, how are we going to get past this?

It's so annoying. What if I buy one for

the Hong Kong guy and he lets me come over

to have a go? Then I can say, oh, it's not

mine, the Hong Kong guy bought it.

Maybe this is why I need friends. A good

friend would let me use his love doll. I

think we

could DP it and double penetrate it.

The problem is YouTube. If I wasn't doing

YouTube, I would just get a secret Airbnb,

secret love doll. But I want, I want to

monetize it by making videos. Plus it's

funny. I think it's pretty funny.

I think you can't deny that it's funny.

It's just weird, isn't it? Guy leaves his

wife for for a love doll. Cracks me up.

I'll get onto those meme pages again.

I want to do weird stuff for the channel.

I think it's funny, but then my wife

doesn't think it's so funny.

She'll say it's weird, and then I'll say,

yeah, that's the whole point. It's

supposed to be weird. The whole channel is

built off of weird. Weirdness. They're

telling me not to be weird.

I'm not Ben Dean, unfortunately.

Do I really want the doll more than my

wife? Well, if I had to choose,

I guess I prefer having my wife.

But I'm just so curious about the doll.

I just want to know what it feels like.

I got a message on Instagram from a guy

saying, hi, big fan in UK.

Just seen you in a vid on YouTube called

Hypocrites, You Can't Stop Progress,

episode 119. It's 40 minutes in.

What?

Hypocrite, you can't stop progress. The

hell does that mean?

Episode 119.

Oh, the channel is I, Hypocrite, You Can't

Stop Progress. 40 minutes,

40 minutes in. Super easily influenced by

things. Experiment with things that are

not going to be permanent. Oh, it's me!

What the hell? I'm on this channel. It's a

very small channel, 40k subs. It's not

exactly an STI, but it's kind of similar.

I think I have urinary tract infection

from using it, and that may be because,

well, I haven't exactly been washing it.

Every time I use it, it's just a bit of a

pain in the backside having to wash it

every single time after I use it. I don't

really want to have to do that every time

because number one, it's pretty big. It's

like carrying a baby, and I have

to take it all the way to the bathroom,

put it in the sink, give it a wash. I've

washed it once, but that was about four

days after I. I don't know how I feel

about it. There's no commentary over

it. They've just. Stolen my video and then

put it onto this 56-minute-long video.

Well, well,

well, well, I've been using the Love Doll

for about a week now. And you know in my

previous video when I talked about not

having to worry about STIs? Well, I'm

gonna use it again when I wake up. What is

this channel? i, hypocrite.

How was any of that hypocritical? Says

it's a channel

and then the about page says, here there

be fuckery. I don't know, I think it's

like one of those meme channels.

They didn't even link the channel or

anything, so how are people supposed to

find my channel?

I didn't actually get an infection, by the

way. I made it up for the video.

I got a bit of a yeast infection, but I

didn't get a urinary tract infection. I

just thought that sounded funny.

I got a bit of dick cheese, but no urinary

infection.

What do I need to do? I need to make this

tree bigger. It's a sycamore tree.

Sycamore in my garden.

Maybe I should leave. Do I really want to

be here when she gets back? Depends what

mood she's in. If she's gonna be angry, I

don't really want to be here.

I don't understand why she's so angry.

Such a stupid thing to be angry about, an

inanimate object that looks like a woman.

Because every time she gets angry, it's

always over stupid The first time we had a

big argument was because I said I made a

Pornhub account and I got verified as an

actor. She said, what woman would be

laughing if their husband told them they

became a porn actor? I said, I'm not

actually a porn actor, I just made an

account.

It's like her brain doesn't work properly.

And then after we have the argument, we

laugh about it afterwards, which just kind

of proves that it wasn't really a big deal

in the first place.

She feels like she gets replaced by

something inferior. I'm not replacing her.

I'm not gonna go to bed with it. It's just

like a toy to

keep myself amused with during the day.

They get so sensitive when it comes to

things like looks or other women,

especially if it's a younger woman.

You know, these good-looking women, they

probably take a lot of pride in being

good-looking, and then they start to get

older and their looks start to fade. I

think they start having a bit of a mental

breakdown because it's like the one thing

that you thought made yourself so valuable

is slipping away from you, and then you

try your best to hold on to it, but you

can't really stop time.

I feel like that too, sometimes.

That's why I don't really show my face

properly in videos nowadays. I just feel

like I'm not as young looking as I used to

be.

I feel like she doesn't understand. She

doesn't understand things from the

viewpoint of a man.

You look better now than from that I Have

No Friends video. I think my hairstyle was

a bit better. It was way too long before.

My skin's pretty bad. You can't see it

probably because quality's not very good,

but my skin's not very good recently.

Getting a lot of pimples and it's taking

ages for them to heal. They leave these

dark marks behind. They're quite deep

pimples and it leaves a dark bruise.

Takes weeks for it to fade away.

I don't understand why it's so hard to

understand that men want variety when

it comes to sex.

I thought that was pretty common knowledge

by now.

It doesn't really have anything to do with

not loving your partner, it just means you

want a bit of shiz kabam in

your steak.

Most men just keep it secret. They don't

talk about it, they don't admit it.

Otherwise people wouldn't cheat.

I have this sense of impending doom.

That's my nickname. I mean, that's the

nickname for my wife. Impending Doom.

The old chain and ball.

Why do you want to buy a doll if you have

your wife? Because the doll is super sexy,

and apparently it's very realistic.

And I don't want to cheat again. I don't

want to pay a hooker,

and I don't want to replace my wife with

the doll. That would be stupid.

That'd be like replacing your gaming PC

with an Xbox.

I want both. I want the Xbox and the

gaming PC, but I can't. I have to choose.

If I get the Xbox, the gaming PC will

start whinging about it.

Saying, how can you prefer that inferior

games console when you have me?

I can do everything you want and you'd

rather have the Xbox.

That's what

I don't even want sex with a real woman.

I just want like a, a thing to fulfill my

fantasies, and I've kind of realized that

real women aren't very good at fulfilling

my fantasies. It's always not

as good as I expected or hoped it would

be.

My imagination's way better. Way better.

But imagination is just, you know, in your

mind. I want something physical that can

help make the imagination more

realistic.

Ouch, I keep stepping on my power brick

and it's burning hot. I'm surprised it

doesn't melt. It's like a hot brick of

lava next to my foot.

I want a sex doll.

Should I— oh,

thank you, Michael E.

Keep the Xbox a secret.

That would be so much easier if I wasn't a

YouTuber. The problem with being a

YouTuber is I want to make videos about

everything, and I feel like it's kind of

pointless getting one if I can't make a

video about it. Half of it, you know,

it's not even all about sex. The sex bit

is only half of the reason why I want to

get it. The other half is because I want

to make content out of it. I think it's

I might even say that it's more about

content than sex. Sex is like a bonus.

I mainly want it because I want stuff to

make videos about, and I'm kind of bored

right now. Nothing's happening. The only

thing I can make videos about is

complaining in front of my mirror. I want

something interesting, and I think

the love doll was pretty interesting. I

would say it's 60% because I want to make

content out of it and then 40% because I

want to fuck it. I'm a

YouTuber, I'm always on the lookout for

weird stuff to make videos on,

and if it can get me views and

satisfy my addiction, then it's like 2

birds with one stone.

I made a video before I started the

stream. It's going to be called My Advice

to Married Men. I was thinking about

naming it Advice— My Advice to PewDiePie

since he got married recently. Do you

think he would watch it? I don't think he

watches my videos anymore. He probably got

bored. Like everyone else, so my new

videos probably won't get suggested to

him. But it'd be funny if he did watch it

and then he reacted to it with Marzia.

That would be a dream come true. The

amount of exposure I'd get from that would

be so funny. Oh, thank you, Strife.

Get hentai games? No, I don't want to play

games. That doesn't really do anything for

me. When it comes to sexual

things,

I made a really sarcastic video giving

advice on marriage. I think the comments

are going to be funny. You're the last

person that should be giving advice on

marriage. You are literally the worst

husband in the world. You can't give

marriage advice. I can't wait to laugh

at those comments.

And then there's broccoli soup. Who

remembers the broccoli soup livestream? I

finally edited it, did a voiceover.

Make sure you buy the right doll. I found

this really good doll. She's 100— I feel

weird calling it a she. She— I should say

it. I'm starting to develop feelings

for it already. She's 168 centimeters,

so that's a little bit shorter than I am.

And she's got these big boobs, cute baby

face. I like the way you can change the

hairstyles. You can get different wigs.

I think it would be quite a fun hobby.

You could buy different outfits for it,

take photos of it. Give it new wigs,

try out new things that you wouldn't dare

do with a real woman.

Look, I am a not very attractive

Not a very charming person who doesn't

have a lot of money and has a very high

level of standards when it comes to who

he's attracted to.

What option do I have?

I don't have a lot of options available to

me apart from paying for it

or getting a doll.

I can't even get fangirls anymore. I don't

get any messages from fangirls now. It

creeps them out so much. Early this year,

I was still, you know, quite popular with

the ladies on the channel. I was getting

fangirls sending me nudes still up until—

I think it was a Turkish girl thing that

really brought an end to

it all. When was the last time I got

nudes? I can't even remember.

I think it was before I came— probably

before the Turkish girl thing.

I think I've just stepped— crossed over a

line that's too far now. Even if I was

single, I wouldn't be able to use my

channel to get a new girlfriend like I did

before. Because before the

Turkish girl, I kind of seemed at least a

little bit normal. I just seemed a bit

weird. But now I'm just, you know,

completely gone.

All I get now is foot fetish people and

gay guys who are still interested.

Oh well.

I think if I went back to being single, I

would just get a love doll and give up on

women.

I don't have the energy to do it anymore,

to go on Tinder, dating websites,

guesthouses. So much work. I really— I

used to think those Japanese guys who

would, you know, just give up on women,

get love dolls, and become hermits in

their bedrooms. I used to think that was

really sad, but now I'm starting to

understand it. I'm starting to think

actually that makes sense.

Doesn't seem like such a weird idea.

Okay, it's still weird, but it doesn't

seem like such a bad idea. Women are a lot

of work, and some

men, we're just too lazy to put in that

work.

Why not go gay? Because I love women, so

much. The shape, the smell.

There's also like a psychological

thing that's happening when you're doing a

woman. I don't really think you'll have

that with a man.

It's not just physically satisfying, it's

also psychologically satisfying.

But I can imagine getting really lonely

again and then going back to Japan,

trying dating again, and then having

another miserable experience, whinging

about it, going back to England, and it's

just like a never-ending cycle. That is

the struggle of life, trying to

manage your depression, loneliness, and

your sexual urges without going crazy or,

you know, kidnapping someone.

So I think I feel quite proud of myself

that I haven't kidnapped anyone yet.

I'm not a criminal.

I'm a good boy. I would

never have a dungeon.

Although the prospect of having content

does sound enticing.

As a content creator, it's so depressing

when you have no content to make. It's

like being an artist and you've run out of

paint, and then you're just spitting at

the canvas trying to use that as paint,

or you start making yourself bleed so you

have red.

Anything for views.

What happens if your mum passes away and

you're not there? Oh, that's another thing

I have to dread— my

mum passing away. As if losing one parent

wasn't hard enough. I'm gonna have to go

through that all over again, and then I'll

be left with no parents. That's scary.

When you're left with no parents,

that's gonna be tough.

No longer baby boy Daniel. Where's mummy

and daddy? They're gone.

It's just me now. No one else to rely on

apart from my wife. No more

safety nets. It's just me.

It's so weird not having my dad around

anymore. He was like my biggest pillar,

support pillar, safety net. I always felt

safe because, you know, I had my dad. He

always knew about everything.

I'm scared. Oh, you'll be

all alone with my love doll.

I've seen people and they're 60 years old

and they still have their parents and

their parents are 90. I thought I'd be

like that as well. If my dad lived until

90, I would be nearly 60.

Loads of people live until they're 90,

or at least 80. I mean, how many people

these days die in their 60s from a bloody

flu?

Of all things, the flu? The flu is

like the most unscary disease

next to getting a cold. I would say

getting the cold is like the least

intimidating thing to get. People think,

oh, it's just a cold, take some Strepsils.

And then the next thing would be a flu.

It's like dying from chickenpox.

I would be so annoyed if I died because of

a flu. I want to die from something manly,

like getting shot in

Have you heard about that guy who died

because someone, some Japanese guy, did

this prank on him? You know that Japanese

prank where they stick their fingers up

each other's a-holes? It's called kancho.

They make their fists like a gun like

that, and they, they shove their index

fingers into someone's a-hole. That's a

prank in Japan. Apparently some man did it

to his coworker and it killed the

coworker. That's the most pathetic way to

die— finger up the bum. Apparently it

caused internal bleeding and rupturing.

That would hurt, shoving your fingers up

there like that.

I thought it's just in anime when they do

that, but they do that in real life. I

think it's starting to die out. Starting

to be socially unacceptable,

but I guess it still happens.

I remember when I was about 10, this kid

at school called Daniel Macken,

he used to bully everyone. He stuck his

fingers up my crack and then he started

wiggling his fingers and I said, are you

gay? And then he punched me in the back of

my head like this. That he got really

annoyed that I called him gay. Well,

you're the one who stuck your fingers up

my crack.

I remember that very vividly.

I have no idea why he did that. I did not

enjoy it.

Everyone hated him.

I wonder what happened to him. I bet he

has kids now and he has some kind of

business welding car engines together.

How come all my buddies, all the people I

hated, do well in life?

They get married, have kids, have proper

jobs.

I'm the victim. I should be having kids

and being successful. Successful. I

suffered enough, didn't I?

Have I not suffered enough?

I never

bullied Anyone.

You should go on the RV trip. I've seen

his other RV trips, it looks horrible. I

would hate it. All these crazy streamers

Doing all kinds of idiotic stuff for their

stream, pranking each other and stuff.

I liked it when Ice said, imagine if

Daniel was waiting at the top of the

mountain. That'd be so creepy.

Yo, imagine if Daniel was at the top of

the mountain. That was my American

impression, my American accent. Yo,

dude,

I can't believe people actually speak like

that. I thought cartoon characters spoke

I was shocked that people actually use the

word dope unironically. This is such a

dumb sounding word. That's dope, man.

Dope. That's dope, dude.

Yeah, man. Groovy.

People speak funny.

Yo, Daniel. Daniel.

Dude. Daniel, man.

It's so funny to me.

I guess it's funny to me in the same way

that Americans do British accents. They

start doing that. Mary Poppins accent,

you know, the chimney sweep guy who's not

even British, by the way. Well, who is he?

That Van— Vincent Van something

guy? Dick— Dick Van Gogh?

Can't remember.

I wish I could do accents. I'm so bad at

accents. I think it's the same reason why

I can't sing. I think people who can't

sing can't do accents either.

It's like they have bad listening,

bad hearing when it comes to pictures and

sounds. They can't make their voice do the

sounds that they want to do. My mum's

really bad at singing as well. I think I

inherited it from my mum. Maybe it's like

an ear thing, the way your ear canals—

canals are determines

whether you can sing or not. I don't know

anything about that.

Yeah, why do British singers sing in an

American accent? I've always found that

weird. What if they can't do British— I

mean, American accents?

What if they can sing in an American

accent but they can't speak in an American

accent? That's strange. Or what if their

accent's really bad? Not many

bands sing with a British accent. There's

Coldplay, that band

called The Kooks.

Um, it just sounds strange when you sing

in a British accent.

Do the Japanese call me Dani? They call me

Dani. Dani.

Dani. Or they call me Dani-chan.

When I worked at the convenience store,

they used to call me Dani-chan.

Every time bloody Japanese people say I

look like Harry Potter, say, you look like

Harry Potter, and I just make a fake

laugh. Oh really? I do not

look like Harry Potter at all. Well, my

facial features are nothing like his. He

has blue eyes, thin slim white man's nose,

thin lips. I have a wide round nose, I

have thick lips, I have black eyes. Brown

eyes. There's nothing about my

face that looks like Harry Potter. The

only similarity is we wear glasses and we

have dark-colored hair. Our hairstyles

aren't even the same. I don't know how

people think I look like Harry Potter.

Daniel Sadcliffe. We're both called

Daniel. I've been told I look like Harry

Potter so many times by Asian people.

Makes no sense.

Do I look white? Harry Potter is white.

Saying I look like Harry Potter is like

saying I look white.

The glasses, if I take them off, what

I think my nose bridge stands out more

when I take my glasses off because this

bit isn't hiding it.

Oh, when will this nightmare end?

I've got 2 hours of not being beaten.

Aren't you bored of Minecraft? A little

bit. I feel like I've done

most of the hard work. I mean, I finished

most of the difficult bits getting the

house to look right. Now I'm just doing

finishing touches. Still need to extend

the garden. Haven't even begun doing the

apple orchard.

Wow, the apple orchard goes all the way

until here. Why is this piece of land so

big? And then

I need to do my neighbor's house. This

river needs to be removed.

Still a lot of things to do. I'm actually

losing interest a little bit. I've gotten

the house finished, so So that's good.

Losing, losing the will to mine.

I need to see the gypsies compound as

well. That won't be hard, it'll just be a

field with a caravan.

I need to do a hedge here, do the road as

well I guess. Is there tarmac?

No, I think it'll just be concrete.

Grey concrete maybe.

I remember watching my dad go to work

every morning thinking, oh, thank God I

don't have to go to work. Waking up at 7

AM in the morning, you can hear his razor

going zzzz, and then hearing his car drive

off.

It's all over.

I wonder what his company is gonna do now.

I guess they replaced him already. They

must have.

He always used to say the company would go

bust if it wasn't for me. Because they

didn't have anyone else that knew how to

design machines like he did. Everyone else

just did little jobs like repairing

fridges. He would do the big jobs like

designing cooling machines for Navy ships

and big yachts. Big ships,

those bring in the big bucks.

It's kind of surprising the Royal Navy

would rely on such a little company that

my dad was working for. You think the

Royal Navy, they would have their own

military departments that made all of the

bits for the ships, but they don't. They

contract out. They, they get little

companies to make all of the individual

bits for the ship. It's weird. I think

it's weird. I thought the military would

have their own specialized people making

it.

I don't

know, I just— I feel weird that a military

ship uses machinery

designed by my dad.

Is my channel demonetized? No, I'm making

stacks of Benjis. I can't

wait for that new Breaking Bad movie. I

love Breaking Bad so much, I watched the

whole thing about 3 times now.

I think it's my favorite TV show,

better than Game of Thrones or Walking

Dead. By far. The good thing about it is

it didn't go on for too long and it had a

good solid ending that you felt satisfied

with. And I always wondered what happened

to Jesse after he drives off. Finally

we'll get to find out.

Oh, it's been such a long time since I've

looked forward to a TV show or movie.

Everything's just been complete garbage

recently. Even the new Star Wars films

suck. I'm not even excited at all.

I'll go and see it just out of curiosity,

see how bad it is. The new Star Wars film,

that is.

I love Better Call Saul as well. That was

great. When's the next season coming out?

Me and my wife binge-watched it.

What a great show. Great acting, great

story, great plot twists, great

everything. It's amazing how they're so

good at writing. Who, who wrote Breaking

Bad? That Vincent guy,

Vincent Van Gogh.

I don't understand how these really bad

writers and directors get to write and

direct these high-budget movies like Star

Wars. Can't they get anyone better?

I feel like I can relate to Jimmy. I see

myself as a bit of a Slippin' Jimmy as

well, not doing things by the book,

trying to take the short easy way.

I hate people like Chuck. I would

definitely take Jimmy's side over Chuck.

People like Chuck just irritate me. Oh,

you have to do everything properly, by the

book. Shut up, Chuck.

He was just annoying the whole time.

Slippin' Jimmy. That's my way of life as

well.

Have I seen Malcolm in the Middle? Yeah,

me and my family used to watch it every

day when it was on. I don't think it was

on every day, I think it was on once a

week. It was one of our favorite shows to

watch down— sit down and watch together.

Didn't the actor who plays Malcolm,

he lost his memory or something?

All those actors just kind of disappeared

apart from— what's the man called?

I know his name. I know his name.

The one who plays Hal. Fucking hell,

what's his name? Don't tell me.

I know his name.

David?

His face. I can see his face. I'm not

looking at the chat. I really want to

know, remember it myself.

Breaking Bad. Walter White.

Harry? No. What's his bloody

name? No, don't tell me.

I'm not looking. I will remember.

I can't believe I forgot his name.

I've seen so many interviews where he's in

them.

Was it David? Gary?

Simon? No. Vince?

This is so frustrating. I know when I look

at the chat I'm gonna say, oh yes, that

was it. I cannot remember it.

I'm losing my memory.

What was it?

Walter White, played by— can't

remember.

I can't remember what it's named.

I can't even remember the first letter.

It's in here somewhere.

It's in here. I just need to find it.

I think I have to give up. This is so

annoying. I can't believe it. I can't

believe I forgot his name.

I know Aaron Paul plays plays Jesse.

Why can I not remember Walter's actor's

No, it's not Howe. That's his name on

Malcolm in the Middle.

I think

I'm gonna have to look at the chat.

It's a very simple name. It's not an

elegant name. It's a very Bog-standard-ish

name. I think

I have to give up. I can't.

Oh, oh, oh,

oh, that was it! I had to look at the

chat. Someone wrote it, but they wrote it

Not properly. Bryan Cranston.

I completely forgot. Bryan— he does not

look like a Bryan. He looks like a Hal or

a Walter Cranston.

I'm so disappointed with myself.

I completely forgot.

He doesn't look like a Brian. He looks

like a— how?

How?

I was so close. I knew it was something

Simple. Brian.

He's not Brian.

I don't really feel like building. Should

I just end the stream? I want some peace

and tranquility before impending doom

comes home. It's already half past

5.

Not a very good day. I don't

know why, I just don't feel like I did

anything productive.

She's gonna start whinging about the love

doll again. I wish we could just go back

to normal a few days ago.

I shouldn't have sulked about it so much.

I was just so annoyed about

not just the love doll, but being bossed

about all the time.

And I don't want to live by myself.

So hard to choose what I want to do.

Sometimes I want to be single and then

meet random girls, but then I don't want

to do that anymore.

I don't like this flavor.

We haven't had dinner together for 2 days

now. It feels weird just going back to

normal. I don't know how we can go back to

Brian bloody Cranston.

I can't believe I forgot his name.

Spawn villagers, then pillagers. Why?

What will happen? What is

a pillager? Never heard of a pillager

before.

Oh, he's killing him.

He's trying to kill my dad. My dad

ran away, the iron golem. Don't know where

Look at him running.

Can I make villagers that fight back?

What fights the pillagers?

They're shooting each other.

Friendly fire.

Look at the friendly fire.

I want to make a war between pillagers and

something.

A monster. What kind of monster? Do

pillagers really set my house— would it

set my house on fire?

I don't think so.

Iron Golem.

Okay,

we'll try.

Will they fight? Oh, they're fighting.

Whoa, he just one-shot killed him.

One golem versus 20 pillagers.

He's pretty strong. How many pillagers

does it take to take him down? To take the

iron golem down?

Oh, he died.

How many times did I yeet my meat? Well,

I've done it twice now. I feel like doing

it again after I finish streaming.

Oh no, they died.

Hey, who's doing that?

Hahaha, it's quite funny.

Oh, I remember doing something like this

ages ago. I made a fort and then I made

loads of zombies spawn outside. And then I

got sound effects of people screaming,

and I put villagers inside of the fort.

It was quite funny actually, like a zombie

apocalypse.

Oh, what about zombies? Do they fight?

But they'll just burn up.

Are there

any big monsters like

a dinosaur or something?

Oh.

The Ender Dragon, it will destroy

everything. Okay, let's not do that then.

I'm tempted to see it though. I want to

see what it looks like.

Endermite, Enderman,

ender chest.

Are there any firebombs or something I can

blow up? Firework rocket.

I wish there was like a rocket launcher

that you could shoot and then it blows

things up.

This fireworks doesn't do much.

Napalm.

Well, at least I don't have to worry about

getting an Airbnb since my wife said if I

get an Airbnb then it's over. Very mixed

signals because she said I could— if

I want to get a love doll then I would

have to get my own place and then keep it

there, and now she's saying if I get my

own place and keep it there then don't

come back here. She needs to make

So my decision is love doll and my own

place or my wife. Hmm.

What a tricky decision.

My wife or hot attractive

love doll?

Oh, I feel so bored.

Why does buying a love doll matter so

much? Because I'm so bored out of my

bloody mind. I want to get something

interesting.

I don't know what to do.

He's breaking stuff.

I could afford to live by myself.

I make around $2,000 a month,

sometimes more. It'd only cost me about

$800, $900 for rent if I lived by myself.

That's triple the rent I pay now. So do I

want to pay triple so I can live alone?

Not really. I don't

really want to be alone. I want to be

alone for some of the time, but not all of

the time.

And I wouldn't be able to stay in Japan

for very long unless I get a

student visa, but then that's expensive as

well. If I get the love doll and then just

leave in December, what would I do with

the love doll? Send it back to England?

Then I'll just be replacing my wife with

my mum, another nagging Asian

woman who says things like, oh, it's my

house. Unless I go to Thailand

or Indonesia and just rotate between

Thailand, Korea, and Japan, never go back

to England, or just go back to England for

a few weeks at a time for Christmas and

stuff, live out the rest of my

days in Cheap Asian countries. I can get a

pretty nice place in Thailand or

something, maybe. I don't want to go to

Thailand. Why does every

option I have just seem to suck?

Why aren't there any good options? Where

are the good options?

I don't want to go to Thailand or Vietnam

or Bangkok.

I wish I was a Japanese person and I could

just live in Japan as a neat— nito.

Then I won't need a bloody visa.

Love though will only make you happy for a

short time, then the rest of the time

you'll be lonely. That's true.

I kind of forgot what loneliness felt like

since, since I got back with my wife.

But it hits you in the face like a brick

wall when you suddenly realize, I'm all

alone. This sucks.

I felt so depressed in the first Airbnb

when I got back to Japan 2 months ago.

I felt like, what am I doing here? Why am

I here? What is my purpose? I'm just

in this Airbnb not doing anything,

playing Rainbow Six. It just felt so

meaningless.

It's either meaningless pleasure or

meaningful stress.