Hiding my insecurities -)

This is what I drew.

I like it. I like the way it kind of looks

realistic, but it looks cartoony at the

same way. And then I used this app,

uh, Prisma, and I

did this to it, and now it's

pink and purpley. I think it looks nice.

I really like this app, Prisma. You can do

all these nice filters on it like this.

There's a lot to choose from.

It's a lot of fun. I'll probably use one

of these filters when I actually start my

webcomic. I'm just trying to design

characters at the moment.

There's one— there's a filter called

Heisenberg. It's just like line

art with cross-hatching. I just don't

understand why Apple don't add like

a brightness slider to the iMovie app.

And look how smudgy my screen is. All you

can do is you can click on— you can touch

on the clip and And then you have these

options at the bottom. Okay, so you just

have actions. You can split, detach,

duplicate. You can change the speed, you

can change the volume, you can add titles,

and there's filters. So you can change

like the color scheme of it like this,

like this, but you can't change the

brightness or the saturation or the

contrast, which is kind of irritating.

Because that's what I always do on my

Android video editor. I always boost the

I don't think they're going to add it

because they're going to say— they're

going to say if you want more advanced

features, you're going to have to buy a

MacBook or an iMac and use the desktop

version of the program.

It's just a shame. It's a shame to have

such a powerful device and you kind of

have watered-down apps that don't really

have many advanced features just because,

just because they want you to get the

MacBook or the iMac if you want to do

serious video editing or photo editing,

even though this tablet could handle those

programs without any problem. I feel so

drowsy. I don't know why. Maybe it's

because I was up until 4 AM last night

playing with my iPad. Do you want

to see my wallpaper? This is my wallpaper.

I can't remember where I got this picture

from, but it's a couple of dudes,

space dudes, doing some science stuff.

Keep blacking out. Stop turning yourself

off. Sorry about the noise

out there. Someone is sawing something.

Might be my dad. It's the weekend.

Everyone's doing DIY. Cutting the grass.

Mowing the lawn. I guess those are the

same things. What was I gonna say? Yeah.

I really don't like the late shift at

work. The 2 PM until 10 PM shift is just

so long. Who's dinging me?

What was I saying? Yeah, it just feels so

long, the late shift, because I'm just

behind the till the whole day. I'm not

doing anything else. At least on the night

shift, they get me to do different things.

Like, I do the cooking and then the

cleaning and the restocking and the

reducing. And time goes past so quickly on

the night shift. But yesterday on the late

shift, it was just dragging on for ages.

It was so boring because I just

had to stand behind the till the whole day

serving customers,

and apart from that, I didn't really do

anything else. And it gets tiring just

having to stand on one spot the whole day.

I did get to sit down for a bit, but just

now and then.

But we have one more week left of late

shift just because my manager wants me to

get more till experience, and then after

that we are off training. We are full-time

night shift, and it's gonna be— it's gonna

be marvelous. 5 days a week, night shift.

And I hope I get to do the cooking because

I like doing the cooking the most. I don't

like serving customers that much. It's

okay when it's okay, but sometimes you get

really difficult customers. They make

things really complicated. For example,

yesterday this woman came in to pay for

her fuel on pump number 2, but she also

wanted to pay for pump number 1. But she

only wanted to pay for £20 on her card,

and then she wanted her friend to come in

from pump number 1 to pay the rest of it

on his card. It was just so confusing.

Why make something that's easy so

complicated? But in the end, we couldn't

do it because you can't use 2 different

cards on the same transaction. She looked

a bit like, oh, why can't you do it? It's

simple. Why can't you just do it? But she

doesn't understand how our systems work,

how things work behind the cash register.

I don't know why you can't do 2 cards on

the same transaction. I don't know, it's

just how things are.

Ugh, what happened to my eye? It's gone

all red. That can't be good.

I think having the iPad is a bit like

being in a relationship. At first,

everything's perfect. You can't stop

staring at each other. You can't stop

touching. Everything's great. But then

after sometime, you start to realize,

oh, it's just an iPad, it's not

that special. And then you start seeing

all the flaws, all the things you don't

like about it, and you stop—

you stop realizing that— you stop caring

so much about it. And then eventually you

just chuck it to one side And you never

use it again, and then you go and sell it

on eBay and buy a newer, more

attractive-looking model. I won't do that.

I'll never do that to my iPad. It's

special to me. Oh look,

the sun's setting. The sun's setting.

I've always thought milk was really weird,

but why do people drink cow's milk.

Cow's milk is for cows, right? It's not,

not for humans. Sometimes I wonder who was

the guy who went up to a cow, looked

underneath it, and decided to put on those

pink penis-shaped things, and then thought

it was a good idea to drink the white

stuff that came out. They should give that

guy a medal. Maybe, maybe that's why it's

called milk. Maybe his name was Milk. And

they named it after him. The brave guy who

drank the white fluids that came out of a

cow. Kind of put me off milk now.

I don't drink cow's milk anymore. I only

drink soy milk. Actually, I don't even

drink soy milk anymore. When I make a

coffee, I make it black. I make my tea, I

make my tea black as well. But do you want

to see the sunset? Getting a bit cold.

Can feel the— can feel the autumn chill.

Summer's going. I missed the summer. I was

in Taiwan and Japan for the

whole of summer. Came back at the end of

August. Back to—

back to the UK,

my lovely home in the middle of nowhere.

It's not so bad. I missed the UK summer.

I don't like summer. I don't like it when

it's hot. I can't wear the clothes that I

want to. I have to wear a t-shirt. I don't

like wearing t-shirts. I don't know why.

It's because I'm really skinny and I feel

insecure about it. And when it's cold, I

can wear layers and I can hide my

insecurities. Do you want to see the

sunset? Wow, look at that.

It looks really cool, doesn't it?

See, aren't you glad? Aren't you glad you

came out here with me to see the sunset?

I forgot to put chapstick on. Lips all

cracking again. Lips cracking.

Skin's going dry. So how did we survive

before moisturizer was invented? Did

people's skin just not go dry? Did they

just not care? Or maybe they had

moisturizer. Maybe they just melted the

fat from animals into some kind of

moisturizing liquid and smeared it onto

themselves. I don't know. I don't know

what's wrong with me today. I don't know

why, but I just feel a bit down even

though I got some really nice things

yesterday and today, like the iPad. I

should be happy, shouldn't I? I should be

happy that I got something that I've

wanted for a long time. I was happy. I was

really happy for about, for about 5 hours

last night. And then the next day comes

and you get— I don't know what to call it.

It's kind of like technology blues.

Did I— do I really need this? Is this

really worth the money? Should I have

spent so much money on this device that

really I don't really need, but I really

want it. I do like having it in my life.

It brings, it brings a joy to my life that

I didn't have before.

I noticed that, that we've gained quite a

few new subscribers this week, so I'd just

like to welcome you to the channel.

Welcome. I hope you enjoy your stay here.

I hope you don't unsubscribe the next

That would be great. That would be great.

Basically what I do on this channel is— I

don't know what I do. I talk about stuff.

Sometimes it's depressing stuff,

sometimes it's just weird stuff that

happened to me, and sometimes I talk about

iPads and cameras. Depends on my mood.

If you're new, Um, I guess you could go

back to my older videos when I was having

like a mental breakdown in Taiwan. That

was funny. Yeah, yeah, go back and watch

those. They're pretty entertaining. I made

some entertaining stuff. I feel like I'm

at my most creative when I'm feeling down.

It's kind of strange, isn't it?

And what else happened this year? We went

to Japan. That was boring. It's my 5th

time in Japan, probably my last time.

Also, we went to Korea. That was also

pretty boring. My 4th time in Korea,

probably my last time. Just sick

of traveling. Traveled to all these

countries and I just feel like I was

running away from all my problems. Even

though you go to a different country,

your problems are still going to follow

you. It's not like your problems are just

gonna stay here in the UK. They're gonna

follow you around because they're in your

head. Look at the pond.

Pond is all green. I don't know why it's

all green. Maybe it's because everything

around it is green and it's reflecting the

Your shepherd's pie not

hot enough?

It is.

So if somebody who doesn't like Corbyn

doesn't agree with his policies and

resigns as an MP, there's an election and

that person gets voted back in, that means

that they've then got a right.

Finished the meeting back then.

I addressed that point.