BORING - dunno whT to do

Didn't

mean to do that.

Sorry about the close-up, that was an

accident. Fucking close

up.

Zoom, zoom, zoom, zoom, zoom,

zoom.

Zoom, zoom, zoom, zoom, zoom.

Why can't they put the wide-angle lens on

this side? Stupid Samsung.

But wouldn't it be cool if I could just

film it like this but then also see the

screen at the same time?

Look, this lens is so good and wide.

I don't like the other— I don't like the

selfie lens. It's too zoomed in.

Why does no, no smartphone company

in the world put the wide-angle lens on

the other side of the phone? Stupid idiots

can't even make a fucking phone.

Maybe I could sellotape my iPhone on

the back of this phone and then I can use

the The iPhone is like a viewing screen.

Pixel 3, I'm pretty sure that doesn't have

a wide-angle selfie lens. Oh wait,

actually I remember it did, and I was

watching reviews. Some Asian guy was

reviewing it, but it had terrible audio.

The, the mic is just rubbish.

Just trying to think, how, how could you

do that?

You'd have to get like a second phone,

attach it to the back of this phone so I

could see the live view.

I just, I like this style. It looks like

Bold and Bankrupt style, wide angle.

Like Harold Boulder style.

Hello,

welcome.

I was feeling really crappy and I didn't

really feel like streaming or anything,

and then I just randomly searched Hiding

My Room into YouTube, watched this video.

This Asian guy was talking about me. I

don't know why, it just kind of made me

want to stream again.

Yeah, he made some pretty good points,

observations about the beginning of my

channel, how I became unlikable, why

people started hating on me. The things I

did for views. Yeah, it's quite

interesting watching people make videos

about me when they're coming at

me at like from an observational, uh,

objective point of view and they're not

attacking me. But it's— it gives you a

different viewpoint. You get a different

viewpoint not just from your own

perspective but from someone else's. And

it kind of opens your eyes a little bit.

Don't know, I'm just feeling very

foggy-minded in regards to my channel

recently and what I want to do.

Stream 3 days ago, I'm pretty sure it was

4 days ago. It was like Friday last

stream, and I was whining because it was

the weekend and No trading.

I feel quite happy about my newest video.

Didn't get 10K views, but surprisingly it

made decent money even though it had the

title— had the word racist in the title.

I thought having the word racist in a

title would just destroy the CPM. But I

got amazing CPM. I got like $12, $13 CPM,

which is amazing. It's like you get $7 per

1,000 views.

Plus it's getting good views from the

search results. I expect it to get more

views from search results, uh,

I put life in Japan, Japan in the tags,

and I'm getting views from people

searching life in Japan and stuff like

that. Even though the video is like 100%

fake. I never, never actually applied

for a teaching job and got rejected

because I look Asian. That was always a

load of BS, but it fits the video's

narrative. Plus people found it relatable

and they were like, yeah, I had this same

thing happen to me. And no one doubted

that it was fake or not. A couple people

said, I've been watching you since the

beginning, you never said anything about

this. Yeah, because I bamboozled you good,

boy. What you gonna do about it?

People love racism. Yeah, I didn't realize

I can make good money off racist topics.

I should do more, like my racist

experience living in England. If the word

racist is okay I was only avoiding racist

video topics because I thought, oh,

there's no way YouTube would let me

monetize this. But I can. I got the best

CPM I've had in ages, better than bloody

introverted life and girlfriend stuff.

Turns out you can monetize racism,

uh, pretty well.

Other words I want to avoid are things

like abuse. Remember I made a video about

being physically abused by my wife. That

video got demonetized. I don't know if

things have relaxed a bit on YouTube now.

I think they have relaxed things a bit. I

remember back in 2017-18, it was so,

so sensitive and strict. You couldn't even

say the word sex without it going yellow.

You couldn't even say the word sausage or

anything sexually suggestive. I think they

have relaxed, eased up a bit on it.

Plus, people like the dramatic kind of

storytelling vibe of it. It was like a

that creepypasta thing people keep telling

me to do. I don't even know what that is.

I quite liked making the video. It was fun

making it all dramatic, even though it was

fake. It was fun doing it in like a

storyteller mode. I want to do more like

that, but I don't want to push it too far

so it just seems ridiculous. It still has

to seem kind of credible. I can't

make up my mind. Like, one minute I want

to do really fake stuff, and then next

minute I want to not do fake stuff, and

the next minute I want to do like fake

storytelling stuff.

Very tricky.

Do you ever stay up at night and you can

hear things pinging off the window and

you just know it was probably like a huge

disgusting insect that just flew into the

Wait, I got a donation.

So to fix donation, I got to reload

everything and

then play it.

It's not working. Hold on.

So I changed some settings.

I guess that broke it.

Oh yeah, I changed that setting.

I guess I'll change it back then.

Yeah, I'm in a pretty good mood. I'll

explain why in a minute.

Did you see BNGO mooning this week? Yeah,

that's why. Oh my God, BNGO went

up! Fucking hell. You seem happy.

Maybe you should stream less because you

seem happier when you don't. Haha. Has

your home life been better lately? Yeah,

stock market has just been booming and

I'm only down about £7,500

now, so I need to make back about £7,000

and then I'm breaking even. Didn't lose

any money. BNGO just blew up.

It went like 25% and then today it went

another 10% or something.

And I carried on buying BNGO when it was

around $5 or $6. I just started— I added

more.

So that's doing pretty well for me. I'm up

like 60% now on BNGO.

Now all I need is Bitcoin to stop bloody

crashing and get back up to $40K+ and then

yeah, I think things are going to be good.

Finally, this stupid correction thing

seems to be coming to an end, and the

hyper stock— hyper growth stocks are

starting to blow up again. I'm so gutted

though. NIO was mooning too. NIO's back to

$44. Panic sold that around $41,

and I never got back into it.

You know what the funny thing is? If I

just didn't panic sell anything and waited

up until today, uh, I would actually be

still up. I wouldn't be down at all. The

only reason I'm down is because I panic

sold and then I didn't jump back in.

Oh, thank you, Seisha,

3-month sub. Very kind.

Yeah, that's the lesson I've learned with

the stock market so far. If you just don't

touch it and just be patient, they go back

up every single time.

There's not been one example where I've

sold a stock and it didn't go back up.

It's very rare for a stock to just die

and then never come back up. Yeah, it does

happen, but not all

the time.

Now, all of my stocks that crashed

rebounded by now. The problem is I got too

scared to stay in and add more. I only

added— I kept adding Bitcoin stuff when I

should have added more BNGO. I guess I

should have stayed in NIO. I don't know,

it's very easy to say I should have done

this, should have done that.

Yeah, so basically I've got 4 portfolios,

um,

And apart from one, they're all back to

breaking even, and I'm actually in a bit

of profit on one of them.

Just— I just need Bitcoin to start coming

back up, and then the main portfolio

would— will start recovering.

You sound depressed. What do you mean?

I'm in a good mood today.

But that was a rocky few months. If you

invested heavily the last few months, you

could have like 50%, 100% gains right now.

Microvision was at $10 about a month ago.

Now it's at $22. That's crazy. And then

the AMC stuff. AMC. I can't believe AMC is

above $50 and staying above $50. It was at

$70 and I made a couple hundred on

AMC. I put $1,000 in when it was around

$44 and I sold it around $65.

So I made like $400 maybe.

The last few months have just been so

depressing. Not, not seeing my,

my investments go up and just seeing them

go down and down and down. And now it

seems like crypto is just In that phase

where it's just down and down and down.

Every time I get into something, it just

crashes, goes into a bear market. Should

have went all in on AMC. Yeah, people are

convinced it's going to go to 100, so I

might actually just start building a

position bit by bit.

Maybe I'll just sell all my Bitcoin stuff,

put into AMC. No, I want to build a tiny

bit. A tiny position in AMC.

I've also been buying heavy on Etsy

because I feel like Etsy has a lot of way

to go up. It's still down around $170,

$165. I reckon it could easily get back up

to $180. So I put a couple thousand into

Etsy, got a thousand in Tesla. That keeps

dropping. I bought it when it was at $580.

So I feel like I've, I've refined my

investing strategy to try not to buy

when things are blowing up and going to

the moon. Try and buy when things are down

and they're down for like some dumb

reason. That's my new tactic.

So my challenge for June is I want to see

how much money I can make in June from

swing trading. So I'm going to have 3, 3

portfolios which are going to be like

long-term, medium-term investments where I

just leave it in there, don't really care

what happens. I feel comfortable that they

are good stocks to be in. And then I'm

gonna have one portfolio where I'm gonna

do day trading— not really day trading,

but more like week trading— where I'll buy

in the beginning of a week hoping to sell

at the end of the week or the next week

when it— when the market's going up again.

So I'm gonna see how much I can make in

June.

Because I have been fiddling around with

the idea of getting an apartment, but the

apartment's pretty expensive because it's

a nice one in Westminster. If I move to

London, I don't live in this shithole like

I lived in Rotterdam because then I'll

just be miserable the whole time. So I

definitely want to live in a nice area in

London if I do move to London. And I found

some nice apartments and they're like

£1,500 a month. And I

currently make— that's how much I make a

month. So it's,

it's a bit, bit expensive.

I need to make a bit more, to be honest,

to feel comfortable. And then I don't know

if my channel is going to die more or if

it'll go up a bit or if it'll stabilize at

this point. So I'm wondering if I

can make a couple hundred pounds Or maybe

$500 or $600 in a month from trading,

and then that would really help out. And

then maybe I'd feel more comfortable with

the idea of having $2,000 rent.

I'm not sure, I'm just thinking. It seems

like it could be an exciting thing to do,

something new. But then I don't know if I

want to live in London for a whole year.

I don't have to live there, yeah? I could,

I could just leave and break the contract

and then let them have the deposit. I

don't know how much deposit would be. I

guess it would be one month.

The rent is £1,500.

It's a really nice place. It's like a big

open space. It's got a kitchen,

bed, balcony. It's in a nice area. It's

high up, so not the ground floor. Ground

floor is horrible. Never live on the

ground floor. It sucks. You hear all these

people walking past all the time.

I think I could afford it if I could make

a couple hundred extra a month. I,

I think I could if I'm careful with my day

trading. And I don't stay in stocks too

long. I think the main reason why I lost

so much money was because I stayed in the

stocks too long. I didn't realize that the

stocks were way up. I should be taking

profits now. I shouldn't be staying in.

I need to realize when stocks are way

overvalued and when I should take some off

the table. The problem is I thought it was

going to keep going up, so I didn't want

to take anything out.

You won't be able to save anything. Yeah,

that's one annoying thing about the idea.

I would end up having to use 90, 80% of

my income on rent. I don't know

if it's really worth it.

Uh, I'm really battling with the idea, or

I could just find a cheaper place that's

just £1,000 a month instead of £1,500.

I'm just trying to think, would I like it?

Maybe I'd like the independence. Maybe it

would attract girls to me because then I

don't seem like a loser living with my

mum. I feel like the main reason I failed

to attract girls is because I haven't

really proved that I can stand on my own 2

feet. I've always lived with my ex-wife,

or I don't know if living in Rotterdam

proved that I could stand on my own 2

feet. I did live there for 4 months

and no one said, oh, he's leeching off

Mina, did they?

I just— I feel like it would increase my

sexual attractiveness if I had my own

place and I could prove I could support

myself. I don't know if it would really

make a difference because I've just made

my personality seem so shit.

Before, when people liked me, it didn't

matter that I lived with my parents or had

a crap job or I barely had any money. My

personality wasn't shit yet, so people,

even girls, still liked me just because my

personality. And then my personality went

down the bloody toilet.

You haven't got a clue about day trading.

Yeah, I don't have a clue about technical

analysis. I still don't feel like it

actually makes any sense. They say, oh,

look, it's forming a triangle. Oh, look,

it's forming a wedge. It's going to go up.

It's going to go down. And it

doesn't really seem like it's actually

meaningful. I feel

like I want to trade more off

fundamentals, so I want to buy when stocks

are at a good price, not when they're

overvalued.

I realize there's 2 types of traders.

There's traders who trade solely off of

the charts and the numbers and the

technicals, and then there's fundamental

traders who trade off of the business

model and whether the stock is overpriced

or undervalued or not. I feel like

fundamental trading could be easier.

No, I have to get one in London because,

because London is the only city people

know outside of England. If I move to

Ashford or Canterbury, no one gives a shit

about those places.

London has, has the fame of being

world known. World,

world known. Known around the world.

Oh, it just happened again. I think

because my bedroom light is on, there's

like these massive moths attracted to the

light and they're flying into the window.

Can you imagine how big they must be if I

can hear it?

When's bloody Bitcoin gonna stop crashing?

When crypto gets back up, I feel like

it'll be easy sailing.

Need to be careful choosing which area of

London. I'd choose central London. I'm

looking at Westminster.

And Kensington. So the

main— I feel like the main benefits of

moving to London would be number one,

it'd be something new to do because I'm so

bored. I've been stuck here since I got

back home. It's been 6 months. I've done

nothing. I've met no one.

I'm so bored. I feel like if

this is what my rest of my life is going

to look like, Jesus, that's depressing.

What's wrong with your house? I'm bored.

I want some— something new.

I feel like to trigger change, I have to

make a move because nothing's happening.

I'm just sitting around waiting for

something to happen and And clearly

nothing is happening, and it's been 6

months now, and I feel like if I move to

London, maybe that could trigger

And then I could do moving to London

video, cost of living in London.

I could make like 3 videos about it, and

then I'm stuck again.

London's most expensive city. Yeah, well,

I'm stuck in England because everywhere's

shut down. They're supposed to

have green light European countries, and

then they switch them back to amber.

Like, Portugal was supposed to be green

and they switched it back to amber.

Life without a passion is boring. Yeah, I

know. I don't know what to do with my life

still.

Oh, thank you. Daniel's mansion is not up

to his standards. Yeah, the house is fine.

It's just the problem is,

I don't know, I just feel bored. I want to

go somewhere.

I guess I could just rent. I could

just book a hotel for a couple of weeks,

see if I like it. Maybe that makes more

sense than just jumping in with 2 feet

first and making a year contract

for some apartment. What if I sign up a

contract for a year in some apartment and

it's costing me $2,000 a month?

And that's

the main fear, that then I'm just

flushing. Still no one's interested

in meeting. Yeah, that would be a massive

It's lagging. Let me check.

Testing. Yeah, it's just a bit pixelated.

You can hear me.

Testing.

Not much has been happening really since

last week.

Just like the entire year, nothing has

been happening. Well, I got one girl back.

I thought all my girls ghosted me, but She

said she was just busy moving to a new

place, but I don't know if she's still

interested in me. But at least she replied

to me, so that's a step in the right

direction, I guess. Maybe people just get

busy. They get so busy they can't reply

for weeks. I just find that really weird.

Maybe because I've never been so busy

where I can't reply for weeks. That just

seems insane to me. How busy must you be?

I guess normal people are just really

busy. They don't just sit around all day

long being bored.

Have I watched Chihiro's new video?

Yeah, I saw a bit of it.

They didn't make time for you. Yeah, I

know. One of them used to message me every

day and we would talk for hours, and then

now It takes like 4 weeks for her to

reply. What the hell is that about?

Pretty sure she lost interest. I feel like

just ghosting her next time if she ever

messages me again. It's just so insulting.

They can't even be bothered to reply.

I just know she's going to message me,

like maybe in a few months' time. She

always does.

I think I'm just gonna have to cut her

off. It's just getting annoying

now. First she acted

interested at the beginning of the year.

She was like, yeah, oh, can't wait to meet

up and wait for lockdown to end.

Oh, we have to wait till May.

And then she was messaging me when I was

in Netherlands as well,

saying stuff like, I hope we can meet when

you come back home. And then I come back

home and I'm single, and now lockdown's

over, and then she's just disappeared.

Poof, gone. So irritating.

I sent her a message 4 weeks ago and she

didn't even read it. I know she's online

because it says she's online.

I'm just fed up. It's just really

annoying.

If she's ignored you for 4 weeks, maybe

best to move on. Yeah, but then she

messages me again after months. So I

remember she messaged me last year, and

then she didn't message me again until The

end of the year.

She's playing games with you. Yeah, I

don't know what she's doing. Maybe she's

like anxious, worried that I don't

actually like her or something. Got some

new BB pellets for my gun. Do you want to

see? Look, they're yellow.

2000.

Pretty nice.

Yeah, I don't know what to do right now.

Um, the London apartment idea is the most

interesting to me.

He's gonna get a strike because of the

gun. Should be fine, it's just a toy.

Why would a toy gun get you a strike?

It doesn't even look real.

So it's like a yellow plastic gun.

Have you found an apartment within your

budget? Well, I found 3. 2 of them £1,200,

which I could afford pretty easily, I

think. But the one I really want,

because it looks really good, is £1,500.

But I just— I don't know if I could afford

that. That's like $2,000.

That's how much I make. So I would have

nothing left over after rent.

I could just eat Huel. 2 flasks

of Huel comes to £1.30,

so— no, £2.60. So every day

would be like £70.

So I'd have to try and get better at this

trading thing to try and make a couple

hundred extra a month.

So my plan is I'm gonna have my short-term

trading portfolio. I'm gonna have £6,000

in that one. £6,000 is what I'm gonna use

to trade, and then the goal

is to end the month over £6,000,

so like £6,400, and then I'll take the

£400 out to use and stuff.

$1,000 in 6 different stocks

to be well valued, not overvalued. I'm not

gonna lie, crashed hard. It rebounded.

It crashed.

So many opportunities in the market.

Why tonight?

I want to pay good money for apartment all

day long every day. Then having a good

apartment is— so

I think it's important.

Oh, fucking hell.