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嗯。

Oh, it's too cold.

RuneScape boring? I've tried it once, it was really boring.

Look at that ice, like it's got rubbish graphics.

You just stand around chopping down trees.

Never understood RuneScape. Why would you play RuneScape when you play World of Warcraft?

I had a friend who was into it, so he showed me it and I thought, this looks rubbish, I'm going back to World of Warcraft.

My dad paid for my WoW subscription.

Everywhere smells like shit now. Someone's spreading fertilizer.

And parts of it are soft and creamy,

almost like an ice cream.

Imagine paying money for your kid to play the most addictive game in the entire world, and then the son gets addicted to it, drops out of school.

Not very good parenting, is it? And then he's— I remember he used to say Oh, we had no idea these games were so addictive.

If you had no idea, maybe you shouldn't be buying it for your kid.

Like, you wouldn't buy some random toxic chemical for your kid if you had no idea what it was.

If you don't understand it, then maybe you shouldn't buy it for your kid.

You know, buying booze and alcohol and cigarettes for a kid.

Parents just— I don't know, they have no idea about the things they're getting for their kids sometimes.

They just get it to shut the kid up.

Now my fingers are sticky again.

My family used to have family meetings downstairs talking about me.

I could hear them saying stuff like, what are we gonna do about Daniel? He sits glued to the computer from morning to night.

I just wanted to be left alone so I could rot and play WoW.

Didn't care about anything else.

I felt so depressed after leaving school. No dreams, no ambitions,

scared of the world. I got bullied at school for 5, 6 years. Didn't want to go back into any kind of environment like that ever again. I thought the entire world was like that. That was like my only experience of the outside world growing up. So I thought the whole world was like that.

I thought, I'm never coming out of my house ever again.

I'm going to live inside. Wow,

I was traumatized.

I loved WoW. It was colorful and safe. You had your friends on it. Not real friends, guild friends.

You had that false sense of achievement leveling up and getting stronger.

No one knew what you looked like, so they couldn't bully you.

It was a good time.

Yeah, some of the guilds I was in had a forum and they would post selfies, but I didn't like it. Broke the immersion. And they did a meetup and it was weird because most of them were like old men, like 50 plus, and then one of them was a young guy, like early 20s. It just looked kind

of weird, a bunch of old guys. The guild leader, his name was Rhodey. It was like this 50-year-old beer-belly bloke from Britain. They all met up in a pub and they posted it on the forum.

I felt sad because we all moved from Star Wars Galaxies. On Star Wars Galaxies, we had the best guild on the whole server called Exile. We were on the Empire side and we had this village or town

and we were like the top PvP guild. So when they changed Star Wars Galaxies and made it rubbish, we all moved to World of Warcraft and we remade the guild Exile with the dreams of becoming the most dominant guild again. But as soon as people started hitting level 60, they all fucked off and left to join raiding

guilds.

And they were like, oh, we need to leave because we need epics and this guild isn't going to do raiding anytime soon. So all the core members started leaving to get raiding gear, and then they never came back

in the end.

Communicating about the color. Oh no, that's not me. Someone's been impersonating online. Well, okay, there's a photograph of you. Yeah, they sent my photos and they made this post online and they said so they can't stop the tech. No, sorry. So you've been wasting my time? It wasn't me, it was someone online. Why, why didn't you say

that? Because you've also got a, um, an Instagram.

The wind blew the, uh, door shut.

I wish these fucking trolls stopped this. I feel bad for these people getting messed about.

It's just such a disgusting thing to do.

Troll me and make fun of me, that's fine, whatever, but you're bringing innocent people into this. Are just wasting— you're wasting their time and you're being a pest. It's fucking annoying. When are you going to grow the fuck up? Troll me and whatever, fine, I don't care, but stop bringing other people into it. Fucking degens.

Well, he was interested in the car.

Nice guy though. He was asking me about Japan. He said he was going to go visit Japan soon.

Well, he kept asking why did I message him and why did I, and I kept saying it wasn't me.

He just seemed a bit confused in the beginning.

Like he thought it was actually me messaging him.

Feel bad for these people.

I mean, these trolls are actual psychos if they think this is funny.

You're messing with innocent people here.

Well, I asked him if he was on WhatsApp and he said

No, it was on Gumtree.

Gumtree is like Craigslist, isn't it?

It's weird no one tried this stuff when I was at my mom's house. I was at my mom's house for what, since 2019 with the YouTube channel? No one ever did this stuff before, like putting my mom's car on for sale or getting people to show up.

Yeah, he seemed disappointed I wasn't selling it. He seemed like he liked the look of it,

but there's no— what's it up for? £4,000. You must be joking. No way you get a car like that for £4,000, even if it is banged up. Say like £6,000, £7,000.

I mean, if I had been up to 6K, I might have sold it.

Or maybe I'll swap it with his car. His car looked quite nice. It looked like a Nissan SUV.

Get Gumtree to delete the listing.

Yeah,

but won't they just post it again?

So I gotta make a Gumtree account now

to report it, or do I?

Red. Where is it?

Why isn't my Blink camera recording anything? It didn't record any of that fucking useless thing.

Even the Tapo camera didn't record it.

Oh, it did. God fucking damn it.

That blink cam is shit.

I can't. Why is it changing? It's a 2008, not 208. Why 208?

Oh, there it is. £5,000.

Look,

fucking

retard trolls.

No, he didn't offer 4K.

He probably thought it was going to be 5K.

Uh, okay, how do I get rid of this?

This is illegal, fraudulent.

I feel like they're not going to do anything.

I press report and put the reason. She says your feedback is valuable.

Yeah, I found it.

I'll switch my camera off and I don't know why the motion detection's not really

How'd you get into contact? Maybe I like contact them directly.

Enter the ad

country ad ID.

I found it.

Uh, where's the contact us?

Contact form.

Okay, let's see if they get back to me.

What was I talking about?

Completely forgot. I was saying something, wasn't I, before on the beanbag?

Oh yeah.

The WoW thing, I kind of don't care anymore.

Uh, yeah, they all ditched and joined raiding guilds, and then I was the only one left with a couple other members, and it was just 3 of us, remember? Remembering the good old days.

There's some guy called Matt C and his sister and me left in the guild. Even the guild leader

From Star Wars Galaxies, left for a raiding guild. Yeah, boring story.

嗯。

Damn, that was quick. Sorry.

Do do do do.

So many towels.

No, I didn't make cupcakes. Still got 2 left.

嗯嗯。

That curry stain better be gone. It took how many washes to get the Volvo shirt clean? Probably like 5 washes.

What to do tomorrow? We've got 6 hours left.

Might get to 6,000 tomorrow.

No, I don't want to spend money. I'm so close to 6,000. If I keep spending money, I'll never get there.

130 away.

嗯。

Hang on, see if the shirt's clean.

Prediction, clean or not clean?

It's still there, but it's a bit faint.

I can't believe it's still there. Wash again.

God fucking hell.

Why is it so hard to get a stain out?

I don't think you'd really notice unless you like really stared at it hard.

I can't wear this. It needs to be washed again.

I can't keep washing over and over and over just one shirt. Such a waste.

Yeah, I cleaned the filter just now.

Hmm, don't know really. Got to wait for more washing to build up, do it next time.

I think a few more washes, it will be out. So Stupid, isn't it?

Can send a man to the moon but can't get out a stain in one go.

Uh, whatever,

we'll leave it in there for next time.

No more washing. I wonder how much money it costs every time I wash.

Toilet.

I just got to stop wearing my favorite shirts when I eat or cook. I just wear like a black one I don't care about

or get a bib. Disposable bibs, it's such a hassle.

Die

Schönheit.

I'm just relaxing after cleaning all day.

Nothing wrong with that.

Zero interaction with the chat.

To be honest, I've blocked half the chat cuz you're fucking annoying.

Guess you'll never know who's blocked.

No, you're not blocked, Destructive.

Or mommy. I blocked like 10 people.

Blocked, not banned.

I didn't ban anyone.

Got to make that money from your stupid chats, remember?

Some people are exhausting to love. They assume you're going to leave, so they push you away first. They test you constantly to see if you'll stay. They ruin good things because they're convinced good things don't last. When you don't text back immediately, they think you're done with them. When you compliment them, they think you're lying. They need

constant reassurance but don't believe it when you give it. They know they're being difficult. They hate the that they're like this, but they can't stop because somewhere along the way someone taught them that love is temporary and people always leave. So they live in this terrible space where they desperately want connection but destroy it before it can

hurt them. They're too much and not enough at the same time. They're not trying to be hard to love. They're just terrified of being left again, and most people don't have the patience to prove them wrong.

That one hit kind of hard, not gonna lie.

That's who I am. Some people are exhausting to love. They assume you're going to leave, so they push you away first. They test you constantly to see if you'll stay. They ruin good things because they're convinced good things don't last. When you don't text back immediately, they think you're you're done with them. When you compliment them, they

think you're lying. They need constant reassurance but don't believe it when you give it. They know they're being difficult. They hate that they're like this, but they can't stop because somewhere along the way someone taught them that love is temporary and people always leave. So they live in this terrible space where they desperately want connection but destroy

it before it can hurt them. They're too much and not enough at the same time. They're not trying to be hard to love. They're just terrified of being left again. Hi, it's really nice to meet you. Nice to meet you too. How tall are you? How tall am I? Yeah, how much do you weigh? Well, how much

money do you have? What's your body count? Well, what's your credit score? What's your student loan debt? Well, do you pay all the bills? Do you cook and clean? How big is it? How wide is it? Well, how many Instagram models do you follow on Instagram? What's your Snapchat score? How's your relationship with your mom? How's your

relationship with your dad? You know what, I don't have to put up with this. This is supposed to be a first date. I don't need to be interrogated. You interrogated me acting How tall am I? I didn't start this, you started this. You literally said, how tall am I? And you're obviously lying on your profile about how

tall you are. That's why I asked the question to begin with. I'm 6 foot. You're obviously 5'8. Do you want to get a tape measure? I will. Well, uh, bye.

Bye. God. Hi. It's like you should do this. So what are you now? I love the boldness. So this is a reason never to get a fully electric car. Um, basically, as soon as you run out of charge, your car doesn't go into neutral. And what do you need for when you put a car on a recovery

truck? You need your front wheels to move and be in neutral, like the good old-school cars— petrol, diesel transmission cars. You can do— you can override no matter what, and it into neutral. This I can't. I've requested off BMW to send me out 2 technicians to override it with a computer to put it into neutral. They've sent

me out 2 recovery trucks. I'm getting the hump. So this is a reason never to get a fully electric car. Um, basically as soon as you run out of time— how about just fucking charge it then before it runs out of battery, dumbass? Your car doesn't— yeah, this thing is sick. Check it out, this handheld game console

has over 15,000 retro games on it. It's got a bunch of different— people have told me, what, come to Spark Hill? So I've traveled here today. Is it always like tourists' cars got stuck in the sea after they parked on the sand? He parked on the beach. Visitors came back to see the rising tide splashing around their

vehicles. Several cars can be seen stuck in the sand.

Back to find their motor sinking. Luckily, the public came to the driver's aid to help push the vehicle to safety. Imagine parking your car on the beach. What's up? Can I tell you about my day today? Yeah, sure. Oh my God, I have to sit down with this. All right, so I'm driving to work, right? Just driving

to work, minding my business, and I get a text message, and I'm like, I'm driving, so I'll check later, whatever. So I stop, get some coffee, Damn it, damn it. That was a cold setup because I can't say I don't want to hear about your day. One, because that's gonna start a whole nother argument.

Two, um, what time does the game start tonight? I think it's at 8:30. Let me just check on my phone. Nope, nope, nope, nope. Can't pick up the phone because then I'm not listening and I don't care. So what do we do here? I need to call the guys to see if they trying to hoop tomorrow. I

gotta get some new socks. I need to go buy some new shoes too. But oh snap, she's still talking. Uh, shake your head. Uh, say yes. Say right. Something. Acknowledge. There we go. All right, coming to an end. I can hear it. You know what to do.

Isn't that crazy? Yeah, I didn't even have anything to do with this. Yeah, that's crazy, babe. I have some friends coming over tomorrow, but the seating area at the back— Why does nobody talk about the awful decision back in the '60s to make lamb shank the default cut for slow cooking when it's clearly the inferior option for

the job due to the lack of intramuscular fat? If you do want a fall-apart piece of meat, then you're far better off getting a Chard off lamb shoulder into your spicy. I've worked for 46 years. I was diagnosed with Parkinson's. It's affected my mobility. You know what, mate? Sometimes I think there's more to life than chasing chippies.

Like, what's the meaning of all this? What's it all about? Why am I here? Oi, Steve, our chippies coming, mate. You know, does testosterone make you horny. Here's your— what? You can't heal in the place you get hurt. One of the most difficult experiences in life is that unless you break the cycle, unless you remove yourself from

a situation or environment where you have been hurt, you will most likely continue to be hurt. And turning the page is extremely difficult because it implies understanding and accepting that letting go of someone means that while they may have been a part of your history, they do not have to be a part of your destiny. Murakami once

said, pain is unavoidable, but suffering is optional. And the longer you stay in a situation where you are getting hurt, the more difficult it is to heal, and the more you suffer. When we first met, I had no idea you'd end up meaning as much as you do now. I didn't see you coming, but now it's hard

to imagine a version of me without you. You'd be surprised at how much private health insurance actually

Its real name is Fowey, charming old-world Cornish seaport on the west shore of the Fowey Estuary and sheltered by a screen of hills. Narrow winding streets and ancient eave dwellings are a feature of the town.

Place is a noble example of 15th-century architecture with battlemented roofs.

Brimmed with palms and subtropical vegetation, the harbour might quite well belong to one of the South Sea Islands, except that the natives speak a different language with a musical intonation that only a true Cornishman can master.

A trip up the Fowey River is full of interest and charm. On the other side, and connected with Fowey by ferry, is the village of Polruan, which was garrisoned during the Civil Wars of the 17th century. From Polruan, the view of the harbour, the town of Fowey snuggling against the farther coast, is one you'll long remember. The

children are as fond of the water as the fish are. And then one day, someone walks into your life, a total stranger, and they become so important to you. And while you've known them for such a short time, you feel you have loved them for a lifetime. In English we say, I still think about you. In poetry

we say— Trusted house— Did you know that women speak 20,000 words a day and men only speak like 10,000 words a day? Isn't that crazy? What's crazy? That women speak 20,000 words a day and men only speak 10,000 words a day. Like, we're speaking double the amount of words that men are speaking a day. About what? About—

no, it's not about anything. It's about the fact that women speak 20,000 words a day and men only speak 10,000 words a day. Wait, I'm not— hold on, I wasn't paying attention. Is this important? Yes, this is important because I'm telling you, I'm just telling you a fact that women speak 20,000 words a day, men only speak

10,000 words a day. Women are speaking double the amount of words that men are speaking per day. I don't know why, but But that's what's happening. What? Women are speaking 30,000 words a day, okay? And then men are speaking only 10,000 words. What did I say? You tell me. I always thought therapy felt huge. You gonna come?

You want me to come? Yeah. Well, where do you want me to come? In the front seat. You want me to come in the front seat? Yeah. Of this Jeep? Yes. Why would you want me to come in the front seat? Where else are you gonna come? Well, I don't know. I wasn't really in the mood to

come. So then you don't want to come? Well, now that you mention it, I mean, now that it's on my mind, I mean, I'm not opposed to it, but I don't think I really initially wanted to come. But now I'm not so sure that I don't want to come because maybe I do want to come. I don't

know about coming in the front seat. Where else would you come? Well, I don't know. I think a lot of other places, probably. So are you coming or not? I'm not coming right this second, no. I'm just— I'm just— you have your purse? No, I didn't bring my purse. I didn't know. You didn't want to come with

your purse? I normally don't ever come with my purse, no. Okay, I'm leaving. Are you coming with me? Coming with you?

Hmm, such a magical word.

Hungry.

You gonna come? Yeah, sorry, mate. Ah, it's all good, Sam. It's been great getting to know you, mate. Thanks for letting me stay in your apartment. Yeah, no worries, buddy. It was good having you. Oh, I can't do it. It's okay, mate. I understand you've got to eat. I'll make it quick. Can you do me one last

favor, Sam? Yeah, mate. Tell my family I love them. No worries. Will do.

Oh, I'm so sorry. The more you grow up, the more you realize that none of us are easy to be with. We all suffer from something. We're all carrying something— anxiety, past traumas, insecurities, fears. The journey of being— if you have anxiety, throw it out the window. Self-hatred. Out the window. That thing that reminds you of your

ex and heartbreak, out the window. We're in the full swing of summer now and I'm in a different— The kindest thing you can do for yourself is let people leave when they want to go. No chasing, no begging, no convincing them of your worth. Let it hurt. Feel the rejection. Then let it heal. When you stop forcing

people to choose you, you make space for people who actually want to be there. People who don't need to be convinced. People who see your value without you having to prove it. Stop exhausting yourself trying to make someone stay who's already mentally checked out. Stop giving your energy to people who are looking for the exit. If someone

wants to walk away, Let them. If they're meant to be in your life, they won't need you to talk them into it. What flows naturally will continue to flow. What requires constant effort to maintain was never meant to last. Save your energy for the people who choose you without hesitation. They're out there. Ah.

Make me

depressed.

Oh, do real men drink cocktails? Well, I do, and I'm so alpha that there are posters of me on Joe Rogan's bedroom wall. Although to be honest, I don't.

Hey babe, can you get extra water for the trip? Yeah, I got you. Where's my music?

All right, we got water, we're gassed up. Let's do this.

You can just take me home. I'm not going on this trip.

4 years of my life wasted. You were just a waste of time. You're literally worthless. I told you I've been lied to and you acted like you understood. You got caught. That's why you're quiet, because you got caught. Who is Morgan? You got a girl's name in your Bluetooth, so obviously Morgan What's in this car? Go ahead,

talk. I'm really curious how you're gonna explain this one. This is a rental car.

Oh my God, it's almost 5 o'clock. We should probably— Let's talk about those of us who— Let's talk about those of us who feel everything too deeply. The overthinkers, the ones whose hearts are wired to notice every shift in tone, every delayed response. The ones who read entire stories in a single-word text, who replay conversations looking

for hidden meanings, who love so carefully because they're terrified of getting it wrong. Their happiness often hangs by the thread of someone else's mood, their peace dependent on another's response. These souls don't choose to be this way. Their hearts just came with extra sensitivity, their minds with extra awareness. What looks like— hey, we are in the village

of Vank, and we'll go from Vank to kissing, then on to petting, then this place, and then wedding. So, Vank, kissing, petting, wedding. Yes. Okay. We are— a savior complex often starts at an early age. A young child who grew up in chaos, experiencing endless shouting matches, silent tension, or a

parent's quiet pain, they learn to be the fixer, the one who soothes tears or brings calm. If they can make everyone— there's a version of you that could couldn't stop giving because being needed felt like being loved. Nothing more. Soulmates always find their way back to each other, no matter what happens between them. Relationships that appear to

be over completely are sometimes just taking a necessary break. When 2 people are truly meant to be together, nothing can keep them apart forever. Even if they lose touch completely, or their love seems to have disappeared, the connection between them stays. Their special bond stays strong, even when they can't feel it in the moment. Every separation they

experience is actually preparing them for a stronger relationship when they reunite. No matter the distance or time apart, these connections are too important to be left to chance alone, and certain circumstances naturally bring these souls back into orbit with one another. Their connection works in ways we can't always comprehend or explain, but this kind of reunion is

never by chance. It completes the deep connection their hearts formed the first time they met. Soulmate. You're a sigma male, aren't you? Are you capping, little bro? I saw your jawline. Only sigma males have that. Hello? Yeah, hi. Can I just get an order for pickup, please? Yeah, I'm gonna do the general, um, sauce chicken dinner and

a chicken finger dinner, please.

Egg roll.

Hold on, you sound like your voice. I'm sorry to say this. Your voice sounds cute.

Yeah, you know cute. Who the hell? Come on. Yeah. What do you mean? Konnichiwa. Are you the one that's gonna be handing me the food? I'll see you when I get there. Okay.

Ah, here's a nice one. I like to use a little of the small ones with the white lines. I think it's called a quartz line. I think there are lots of secret little things happening inside.

They feel nice as well. They have to be very smooth. They take the paintwork.

Sometimes I can find just a very plain, beautiful, smooth pebble. Nothing special about it, but I can make it into some screaming female or put lots of swirly hair on it and make it into something exciting.

Wish I could see one to make. Into my favorite cave. Pictures. Everybody's been talking. I think— got any breadcrumbs on you, brother? Oh, there you are. I've been looking for you. Looking for me, have you? I don't even know you. Yeah, you do. Have a good look. I'm the guy you sweep yesterday. Oh yeah, the guy who

started crying. I wasn't crying, I was in shock. No, you were definitely crying, mate. It was Bizarre. I didn't cry. Why'd you do it? I don't know, just— yeah, didn't like your face, I guess. Take it back. It is what it is. You've been swooped. I can't unswoop you. Yeah, but you know what I mean? Apologize. You

want to take a shit out? I'm on smoke, mate. You've come up to me. You swooped me, mate. I'll have another cry, mate. I wasn't crying. It may not seem like it, but teasing done with affection and skill is a profound human accomplishment. There is a nasty teasing, of course, But here we're talking of the affectionate version,

something generous and loving which feels good to be on the receiving end of. When we enjoy being warmly teased, it's because the teasing remark emerges from a genuine insight into who we are. It's pleasing because normally others don't see much past the front we put on for the world. Typically, the world just thinks of us as gloomy

or stern or intellectual or obsessed by fashion. The teaser us the favour of recognising that the dominant front isn't telling the whole story. They're kind enough and perceptive enough to see past the surface. Perhaps the most instructive question we can ask, the one that teaches us most about the value of affectionate teasing, is simply, what do I

need to be teased about? It may not seem like it, Holy shit, I hate my job. My boss is a fucking knob. He keeps saying that we are a family. Red flag. I do not contain enough family shit. I want to win. So where are you from, mate? Uh, mostly socks, but there is a little bit of

dog hair in me. Oh yeah, nice one. I bet you know. Blanket. This is the Wing Draw. Welcome to one of—

Already done my bicep curls,

done all my jobs.

No, if I get demonetized, it's over. I'm nuking everything.

This is the wing drawer. Well, I'm done doing this, this fucking shit.

Deleting everything,

getting a job,

trying to work at the Amazon factory.

Nothing to talk about, is there?

Either I get in trouble or I ruin it when I talk about stuff.

Boring.

Lots I want to talk about but can't.

Every time I talk about something It blows up in my face, doesn't it?

I'm done talking.

This has got me in trouble.

So this is all it's gonna be.

This is all that's left. This is the wing drawer. Empty, hollow husk. Yeah, if you don't mind. They won. Be careful. They shot me down.

If we're meant to be together, then we'll end up together. Where do I sort Harry in the crowd. I looked up and we start dating. We're both going to deposit $150 a month. Would you just stay with me? Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we're already fighting. Well, that's what we do, we fight. You tell

me when I'm being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you're being a pain in the ass, which you are 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. They have like a 2-second rebound rate and you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. So what? So it's not gonna be easy. It's

gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you forever. You and me every day. Will you do something for me?

Please, just picture your life for me.

30 years from now, 40 years from now. Avoid using these boring phrases. It's all right. It's okay. Interesting. That's absolutely amazing. I thought I had a really strong vocabulary until I downloaded it. Wow, amazing.

Why would doing a shorter stream make more money? That makes no sense at all.

I gotta do longer streams,

not shorter streams.

I barely get any YouTube donors.

Hardly anyone donates.

I do accept donos on Kick and no one fucking donates. Just click on the link and fucking donate then.

It's literally in the chat.

How do I earn money on YouTube? It's mostly ads.

If I made $1K a month, it would be about $250 ads from videos. About 500 ads from streams, and then a couple hundred Super Chats and memberships, and then maybe about 150 from PayPal.

Donos made up about 20%, 25%.

But ad money is really rubbish compared to Kick money.

Even with quarter of a million views a month, you only get about $800 a month.

If I dual stream, I'll get half of my Kick money slashed in half.

Why would I sacrifice half the Kick money so I can maybe get some Super Chats worth $10? And then if I'm streaming on YouTube, you guys would watch it on YouTube because you go— you guys don't like Kick. So then I'd barely have any viewers. I'd have like 80 on YouTube and 15 on Kick.

Would make no sense.

It's not like I'd have 100 viewers on YouTube and my 100 or 80 viewers on Kick at the same time would be you guys, the same people just split over 2 platforms. It's not like just because I multi-stream I'm gonna have double the viewership.

Why would I do shorter streams? What's the point of that?

I don't really care if it's a snooze fest. I make $150 a day

doing nothing.

If it's boring, then go away then. I don't know, it's your problem. I don't give a fuck.

I hate doing this. Give me a reason to do something new, I'd love it. But for 150th day, I'm kind of forced to do it. Like Elvis Presley caught in a trap.

Oh, that's good.

You know, guys,

what they did not teach us in I wish you would message me. Ask me how I am, what I'm doing, how I've been. It hurts to think that I probably don't go through your mind at all. You never leave mine.

I wish you would message me. Have you heard of the train station theory? Life is like a train station. People come and go. Some stay for a few stops. Some ride with you for miles. Some leave before you're ready to say goodbye. But every person teaches you something, even if they're not meant to stay forever. The key

is knowing when to hold on and when to let them catch their next train. Because not everyone is on the same journey, and that's okay.

Out in the middle of Falmouth Bay, between Pendennis and St Anthony Head, there's a jagged black shoal barely rising above the tide. I don't think you're ready for how much this— what an amazing picnic.

What's up, babe? What's up? Ready to roll? Yes, are you? Yeah. Where are we going? We're gonna go eat.

Oh, we are? Where are we going? Where are you taking us? You're not gonna believe where I'm taking you. You want me to guess where we're going? Yes, guess where I'm taking you. You're not gonna believe it. You're gonna be so excited. Are you craving the same thing I'm craving, or what? I, I feel like I am.

I feel like I am. You feel like those crispy potatoes cooked in duck fat and like chunks of bacon with the runny egg? That sounds Doesn't that sound so good? Oh my God, delicious! Oh, I want to go. I'm ready to go. Yeah, so guess where that's at? It's the new place down the street. The one that

just opened? Yeah, the one that just opened for brunch around the corner. Around the corner? Are you thinking of the same one I'm thinking? Of course, the one that just opened, right? I'm craving the potatoes. Right around the corner. Come closer. What is the sound of one hand clapping? I, I don't know. What is the sound of

one hand clapping?

I don't know. What is the sound? It's hard to find a date as an introvert. Who's different? It's made for introverts. I already have 10 matches on— You know, there's one question that is surprisingly easy to forget to ever ask ourselves in a relationship, and it's simply this: is the person that I claim to love actually being

nice to me?

Do they have my interests at heart? Do they make me happy? I've seen things you people wouldn't believe.

Attack ships on fire off shore of Orion.

I watched seed beans glitter in the dark near the 10 House Gate.

All those moments will be lost in time

like tears.

Right. If someone wants you in their life, they would do anything to keep you in. If they wanted to reply to you, they would. If they wanted to talk to you, they would. If they wanted to see or be with you, they would. People make time for who they want to make time for. When 2 people truly

care for each other, they always find a way to make it work, no matter how hard it is. Love, effort, and commitment are never one-sided. If you constantly have to chase, convince, or beg for someone's presence, then maybe they were never meant to stay. The right people are those who choose you when you choose them. Walking away

from someone you care about feels like ripping your own heart out. It's the kind of pain no one sees because you suffer through it alone. People don't understand how much strength it takes to step back from someone you love, not because you stopped caring, but because you cared too much. You remember Remember those first conversations that felt—

yeah, maybe my problem is that it's not that I don't care, it's just that I care too much. So natural how a simple text could make your entire day, how safe it felt to finally be understood by someone. Then everything falls apart without warning. You're left wondering how something that felt so right could hurt this deeply, how

two people could mean everything to each other yet never get the chance to actually begin. Letting go isn't about wanting to, it's about knowing you have to. That's what makes it so brutal. You don't walk away because you don't love them. You walk away because loving them is destroying you.

So what should you do if you have been the victim of a scam? Oh, it looks like your phone is buzzing. I'm doing the dishes right now, do you mind? Uh, is that you? Of course it's me, can't you tell? No, not if we all look the same. I don't. Well, we are Krill. We were meant to

look the same. Not me, Bill. There's only one of me in all the world. A dream PC just dropped. It's time to make it yours. A narcissist doesn't care that they hurt you. It doesn't concern them, that they hurt you, that they caused you pain. But you know what a narcissist does care about? And I've learned this

over the course of 27 years on this planet. A narcissist only cares when you tell other people what they did, because now all of a sudden it ruins their image, it ruins their reputation, it ruins how people perceive them. And that, to a narcissist, Yeah, they don't like that. Bite finger. I remember the first time. Bite fingers.

Why are they balls? I remember the first time we started talking. You were the reason I got my laugh back. The reason I fell asleep with a smile on my face. The reason I had motivation to do things again. The reason why my problems didn't seem so bad. You truly have made my life better by just being

in it.

I remember the first— Men with a wounded inner child often stay single as a coping mechanism. Do you take things personally? Isolate yourself? Goodbye, my favorite stranger. I guess we're strangers again, but this time with memories. Thank you for everything you did for me. I know I will truly miss you. Your laugh, your smell, your smile, and

everything about you. If we never meet again, I hope you'll be happy for the rest of your life.

Thank you. For the last time, goodbye, my favorite stranger. I guess we're straight.

Dostoevsky said, I never needed your love in return. All I ever wished was for your heart to be at peace, because real love, it doesn't ask, it simply gives. Loving you was never about— it was about living alive in your presence, about the way you lit up the darkest corners of me without even trying. You were a

warmth I never knew I was missing, a moment that felt like forever, even if it passed too soon. You gave me something timeless, the kind of joy that no goodbye can take away. So even if we part, know this: I have loved, I have felt, and Because of you, I will never— If one day you never hear

from me again, please remember this. I loved you with everything I had. I made you my priority in ways I never thought I could for someone. I had so—

Creepy moment.

So many— what did you like about her? She was probably the, like, The purest girl I've ever met.

Everything about her just felt so genuine and so real.

I don't want my entire life to be a collection of letting go. For once, I want someone to fight for me, to choose me purposefully, and to show me that I am worthy of being held on to. I've spent years being easy to walk away from, the maybe in everyone's story. This time I want to be someone's

no matter what. Not someone they miss when it's too late, but someone they make time for now. Someone who doesn't need to lose me to realize they want me to stay.

The downfall of Halfords needs to be studied. It was once the best car shop on the planet, especially a woman calling you baby or sweetheart means nothing. A woman buying you gifts means nothing. It's not your fault.

Saturday is supposed to be 92 degrees out. When someone truly loves you, their biggest fear is hurting you. But when someone is in love with how you make them feel, their biggest fear is losing you. So if they keep hurting you over and over again but would do anything not to lose you, they might just be in

love with the feeling you give them, not you. When someone truly loves you, when you both become so close so quickly, it feels like you've known each other your whole life. The conversations flow effortlessly. The silences are comfortable, and every moment spent together feels like a missing piece falling into place. It's as if your souls recognized each

other before your minds even had the chance to catch up. There's something magical about that kind of connection, where trust isn't built over time, but rather felt instantly, like a deep knowing that this person was meant to be in your life. You don't have to explain yourself because they just get you. Your laughter sings, your pain is

shared without words, and their presence feels like home. Not everyone gets to experience a bond like this, and when you do, you cherish it. You hold on tight, nurture it, and protect it because connections like these It's not rare. It's not a bad English we say. Isn't it wild how someone can be in your life for such

a short time and still feel unforgettable? Maybe we'll never talk again, but at least I got to be liked by you once, and that was the best feeling ever. For a moment in time, I was seen by you, really seen, and nothing else mattered. You made the world feel a little softer. I still carry that feeling tucked

away like a favorite song on an old playlist. The kind you don't play much but never delete. Losing you hurts, sure. But loving you, even for a little while, is something I'll always be thankful for. I walked across an empty land. I knew the pathway like the back of my hand. I felt the earth beneath my

feet, sat by the river, and it made me complete. Oh, simple thing, where have you gone? Let's talk about narcissism and narcissistic people. Now, this isn't to judge them I want to make that clear because if you get in a deep relationship, whether it's family, friend, or romantic, with a true narcissist, you are going to learn your

most important, expansive, deep lessons for yourself and your growth in the most uncomfortable ways. So they're incredible, highly uncomfortable teachers. But let's talk about them. They tend to surround themselves with people with abandonment wounds because if you have an abandonment wound, you're highly highly susceptible to the manipulation of a narcissist. They refuse to take accountability for anything,

constantly projecting onto the people closest to them and some kind of external forces so they don't have to take accountability. You always marry somebody that's going to trigger for you every unhappiness that you ever had in your childhood. So when we find somebody to be in a relationship with, it happens 2 levels. One level is I find

them attractive, they're humorous, they're fun to be with, um, there's a commonality, you know. So that there's the attractiveness, that's enough, that's important. But underneath it, there's something else. Underneath it, there's a looking for the love that we never got in the first place. When you marry somebody you're gonna find both your dreams and your worst nightmare.

That, that's profound, that we're all seeking— subconsciously, we're seeking our parents' dysfunction. Yeah, because that's where we wanted the love. You always meant— it's impossible to just stop loving something that once felt like home. You can't flip a switch and make the feeling disappear. Moving on is messy and confusing. You give your heart to people who don't

protect it, who don't love you back the way you hoped. Eventually, you realize you have to let go, but that space between loving and moving on is brutal. You're angry at them for how they treated you. You're angry at yourself because you still care despite everything. It feels like betraying yourself to miss something that hurt you, like

you're weak for still having feelings for someone who proved they didn't deserve them. This is the hardest part of healing— that piece of you that still wants what wasn't right for you, your heart holding on to what your mind knows you should release. If you feel stupid for still caring, you're not. You're just human. And human, according

to psychology, your ability to Cut people off and self-isolate is not a skill you should be proud of. It's a trauma response rooted in never having anyone to depend on.

According to psych— don't just see a place, taste. I'm so glad I met you. You have the sweetest soul I've— maybe one day we'll meet again and explain to each other what really happened. Maybe one day we'll finally understand. Until then, I hope you live your best life, and I hope you really do all the things you

always wanted to do. I hope you find the happiness and peace you were searching for, even if it's in a different place than we imagined. I hope life is kind to you, filling your days with warmth, love, and everything you deserve. I hope you chase your dreams without hesitation, laugh until your stomach hurts, and love without fear.

I'm paradoxical. I like to be happy, but I think about sad things all the time. I don't really like myself, but I love the person I've become. I say I don't care, but I just care too much deep my bones. I crave attention, yet I reject everything that comes my way. I healed people, but I broke my

own heart trying to fix them. I love to listen, but I never tell them what's inside me. A living contradiction, that's what I am. Happiness is different for each human. If someone is meant for you, you will never have to question where you stand with them. A lot of us stay too long in confusing relationships, hoping the

confusion will eventually end. We stay with partners who give mixed signals. I got a question. According to psychology, your habit of overthinking isn't a skill or sign of intelligence. It's a trauma response, rooted deeply in living through chaos and uncertainty. Your mind constantly anticipates worst-case scenarios. The best moments in reading are when you come across something. This

is why some people never tell others what they are feeling. Every single time they tried explaining to you what they felt or what they were overthinking about, you just thought they were trying to start an argument when all they— I think people fall for the idea of me before they really know me. They like how I listen,

how calm I seem, how I make them feel safe.

But I actually don't really want turkey on that. I'd rather have chicken.

A part of me hates to admit it, but I'm not crazily in love with you. My heart doesn't skip a beat whenever you look at me. It doesn't feel like fireworks exploding or storms colliding. This love is calm and silent. It makes my heartbeat slower and it allows me to heal. It's not what I expected love to

be like, but it's the kind of love I needed. A part of me hates to admit soulmates always find their way back to each other. Isn't it weird how people who who show the most love are the ones that never— what if I told you, you know that confusing moment when someone you love pulls away, goes cold,

goes quiet, and says, I just need space? A woman who is wounded by her father growing up, not having his emotional presence, not having his protection or safety, will grow up and attract men who will be incapable of being there for her. She will feel the need to control and demand to be seen and constantly needing to

be on edge in trying to fix her man, to mold him into the father that she failed to have as a child. And as she does this, she'll be holding resentment towards him for reminding her of this core childhood pain. This will be met with resistance from the man, who will perceive the woman as the mother that

wounded him as a child. Both partners treating each other as a surrogate parent and subconsciously expect their partner to change to ultimately be the ideal version of their parents, both expecting each other to soothe their original childhood wounds. And just like a positive and negative charge, this toxic attraction will not stop even if they break up and

date new people. The way out of this is by healing your childhood trauma, meeting and reshaping that pain that the little girl inside you is still holding on to. A woman who is wounded by her father growing up not having his emotional presence, not having his protection or safety, will grow up and attract men who will be

incapable of being there for her. She will feel the need to control and demand to be seen, constantly needing to be on edge and trying to fix her man, to mold him into the father that she failed to have as a child. And as she does this, she'll be holding resentment towards him. I love you. You belong

to me. No, people don't belong to people. Of course they do. I'm not gonna let anyone put me in a cage. I don't want to put you in a cage. Mr. Meow Meow, hello, Airman.

He knows he's not allowed.

He gives up quicker now.

Let's see.

Look, looks like his feet hurt when he walks on the stones.

Oh,

if only you knew how much I cried when I decided to distance myself from you, how I still wanted to be with you. But I knew I couldn't. I don't think you'll ever understand how much it took out of me. You don't know how hurt and broken I was because of the decision I made. The decision to

let you go, even though I didn't want to. But I had to. I still remember how our first conversation started. I still recall how wide my smile was whenever we talked. The way you made me feel safe. That was when I realized I had fallen for you. I loved you more than you ever knew, and I feared

it. Losing you when I loved you the most was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It was hard to understand how something that felt so right could go so wrong. Maybe for you we were nothing, but for me We were something, something that meant so much, which is why it's so hard to move forward. It's

hard to accept because we never even got the chance to truly begin. Some guys don't even notice it happening. They walk into a relationship feeling strong, confident, like they know who they are. They make decisions, set boundaries, speak up, and at first that confidence is what makes the relationship work. She feels safe. He feels alive. But then

slowly he starts losing little pieces of himself. Not because she demands it, but because he wants to be good, loving, easy to be with. And that's the trap. Way number 1 is simple. He starts saying yes too much. It sounds harmless, even sweet. Sure, I'll skip the gym today. Yeah, I'll cancel the guys' trip. No big deal,

I'll change that plan. But it is a big deal because behind each yes is a tiny no to himself. And if it keeps going, he stops living his life and starts managing hers. She didn't ask for that, but he gave it anyway. Now he's not leading, he's pleasing. Way number 2 is he stops expressing what he really

thinks. He's scared to make her upset, scared to be misunderstood. So instead of saying, that bothered me, he says, it's fine. Instead of saying, I never feel like I'm wasting time with you. We could sit in silence for hours and it would still feel so full of love. Thank you for all the days that you made me

feel loved and appreciated. You have no idea how much our small talks, jokes, and moments made together mean to me. They say the essence of life is to love, and I think you are my essence. After you. Here's how you know it's true love. Introducing a man who really loves you. Number 1, he'll always want to text,

call, or see you just to feel close. Number 2, you'll be the first one he thinks of when he wakes up. Number 3, if he falls asleep before you, he'll message or call you the moment he wakes up. Number 4, He'll ask where you're going, what you're doing, and who you're with. Number 5, not because he wants

to control you, but because he genuinely cares. Number 6, no matter how busy life gets, he'll make time for you. Number 7, he'll remember the little things you say, even when you think he's not paying attention. Number 8, he'll support your dreams and encourage you to grow into the best version of yourself. If I were with someone

who kept chasing after me even after we broke up, I wouldn't shut the door on them completely. Can I ask you one question now? One you can, yes. Only one, always the same. What are you running away from?

Turn your back to the front seat.

Good night. I don't want to live in a hole anymore. It makes me feel poor. We are poor, but we're happy. Okay, come see, come up anyway. The views are better above ground, honey. I'm 7 non-fox years old now. My father died at 7 and a half. I don't want to live in a hole anymore, and I'm

going to do something about it. Probably wouldn't ever want to— I don't know. Find everything you need today? Yeah. Great. Okay. Oh God, no. Everything okay? If you're— enjoy. Attention video, please. It's strange how someone can be in your life for such a short time and still change you forever. They don't tell you this. They don't tell

you this about relationships, but the person that you fall in love with the most will match your level of unhealed trauma. Now, the law of polarity says that opposites attract. That means that the way that you cope with all those pains and insecurities inside will be the opposite of who you are attracted to. For example, your partner

might be terrified of conflict and avoids it by lying, hiding, and pushing off important conversations. You, on the other hand, might be terrified of not fixing the conflict immediately and will get very demanding, criticizing, and emotional. One person might feel comfortable— I wish none of this— an ancient legend— one— I wish none of this had happened.

I wish none of this had happened. So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us.

There are other forces at work in this world, Frodo, besides the will of evil. Bilbo was meant to find the ring, in which case you also were meant to have it, and that is an encouraging thought.

An ancient legend once said, imagine being bitten by a snake, and instead of focusing on healing from the poison, you chase the snake to understand why it bit you. They say a person only falls in love 3 times in their life. The first love usually comes at a young age. It's reckless, filled with passion, but inexperienced. You

grow apart and call it quits over foolish pride or petty things. Years later, you'll claim that wasn't real love, but for that version of you, it was everything love could be. The second love hits hard. This one teaches you lessons and makes you stronger. You fall even harder than last time, and you get hurt and used because

of it. It hardens you, teaches you to spot wolves in sheep's clothing. You emerge closed but wiser, knowing exactly what you'll never tolerate again. And then the third. This one doesn't knock. It slips in while you're not looking. Every wall you put up gets demolished. You will find yourself caring about them without even trying. Their flaws become

sacred to you. You crave mornings with their chaos, nights with their quiet. You want commitment and a family with them. This love feels less like falling. The closer you get to someone, the more clearly you see their flaws. That's reality. It's why marriages fail, why friendships fall apart and why people walk away. You might think you love

someone until you see how they act when they're broke, stressed, or desperate. But love is something else entirely. Love isn't just a feeling, it's a choice. It's standing by someone even when their worst traits surface. It's patience, kindness, and sacrifice. Love isn't easy. It hurts. It tests you. Are you the toxic one in the relationship? When you

meet a man who's been through hell and back his whole life and still has a big heart— In case you've forgotten, you are not responsible for how others choose to treat you. Can't remember who your car finance was with?

嗯，嗯，嗯。

好。

I'm hungry.

嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯。 Hmm, time for

dinner.

Damn,

my kitchen's So tidy now.

Isn't it odd? We can only see our upsides.

Smells good.

嗯。

Can't mods change roles? I can't be bothered.

Wow.

What bowl are you talking about? What are you talking about? Plastic bowl? I don't even have any plastic bowls.

The rice bowl? What rice bowl?

That happened ages ago. Happened so long ago, I don't even know what you're talking about.

There's no plastic in the basket.

No, I chucked the whole bowl away with the rice in it.

How are you getting scammed? I just gave

you the— what do you think I was typing on the keyboard?

Guy, it was morning.

How would you know if I washed it or not? You didn't even know that the melting bowl thing happened weeks ago. If you didn't know that, how would you know if I washed the air fryer before then, since then? Just use your common sense.

I wonder what being a teacher is like. Teacher for a special needs class.

Oh, looking good.

I wish I made chips instead, actually. Maybe I will. Maybe I'll save the rice for tomorrow.

Maybe I'll have rice tomorrow and I'll eat chips.

嗯。

嗯。

嗯。

No, I'm not going home for Christmas. I'm staying here. I'm not making a vlog at my house.

Because me and my mom aren't talking. Why do you think?

I'm not driving 6 hours all the way home and then get ignored.

What's the fucking point? No one even talks to me. I'll just sit in the corner being ignored. Do that here, can't I? What's the fucking point?

I already talked with my mom like I've mentioned 500 billion fucking times since April.

She doesn't listen. She never listens. It's always me, me, me, me. About her. She doesn't care about other people's problems, just about her own problems.

Waste of time even trying.

How things make you feel doesn't matter. It's all about how it makes her feel.

Obviously I haven't spoken to her face to face since I left the house.

How would I have spoken to her face to face if I left the house and never went back?

Eat in

the middle for what? God, everything you say is just so fucking stupid. You're gonna have to block soon.

You really don't know who my mum is, do you?

My sister doesn't drive, or can't drive, but she has the ability to travel in an automobile through proxy of her husband. Yet you don't see them showing up, do you?

They have been traveling. They went to the Cotswolds.

Couldn't be bothered to come over to Devon though, could they?

Thanks, thanks a lot.

Madonna,

crazy.

Sorry,

it's

me.

Mm,

oh wow, it's juicy.

No.

Oh,

Indian food's

good.

嗯，嗨。

Wow.

啊，啊。

No.

Oh, Indian food's definitely easier to eat because I actually taste good.

And then maybe I'll make fried rice tomorrow.

Lady

parking.

Oh,

it's not— I need more plugs.

Do do do do. A boom boom boom boom. Do do do do do do do do.

Quite nice dinner.

No, I'm not getting more beer.

Got enough beers for 3 more nights. And then it's over,

back to water.

Mm, uh, uh,

uh, not sweet.

That's why I've been going to toilet less recently. I don't drink as much.

The big day's over, idiot. It's 7 PM. What do you expect?

You missed the big day. It's your fault.

You're called Vain TV Live. You're not even live and you're not even a TV station. Why don't you change your name?

Idiot.

Good.

Eating done.

Oh yeah.

Another day done.

Hmm,

that's weird.

Oh, I accidentally set all my videos to private.

Oops, actually didn't mean to do that.

Oh well, whatever.

That's a shit video anyway. No one even cared.

嗯嗯。

We're in like a new era. Went from IRL streamer to now cleaning my house streamer.

Funny how I was really into IRL streaming, now I hate it.

I don't think I can stomach another endlessly walking around Kit Hill stream.

After all that stressing out and buying stuff.

Here was me thinking going outside would make my viewers go up.

No one even gave a shit.

Ah, better off just finding random stuff to do in the house.

No,

guess it was fun for a bit,

and now the only time I go outside is Tesco.

Tesco stream.

No.

Endless cleaning and laundry stream.

At least I'll get paid tomorrow, £700. Put it into my stocks and shares ISA.

Must be the 10th time I got paid by Kick. I remember how nervous I was on the first time, thinking, are they actually gonna send me £1,400? There's no way.

If I could sell the car for 12K, yeah, definitely.

I probably won't take anything less than 8K because I don't really want to sell it,

because you're not going to get a car as good as that for 8K, are you? So why sell it for 8K when you can't get a better car for 8K?

And I don't know if I would get any other car, really. I'm not really into Teslas anymore.

I think they're too long and too wide.

I like my little Peugeot.

If you're talking about sushi, obviously it's gonna have fish in it. What else is it gonna have in it? Cucumber?

What kind of sushi doesn't have anything but fish?

What, avocado sushi where it's only got avocado in it?

That sounds gross.

Crabs or carrots?

Yeah, it sounds like what someone would say if they never been to Japan, I guess. They think having crabs and carrots in a sushi is normal.

Imagine what the Japanese must think knowing that we put cucumber and carrots in a sushi.

Why would you put cucumber in it?

嗯。

What, so fish is seafood but shrimp and crabs are not fish? How does that make sense?

I hate that Japanese sushi where they put the tuna paste. Oh, that's disgusting. It's like just pink paste. Like brains or something.

Don't they call it negitoro? It's got like green onions with the pink paste.

That stuff's like pre-chewed tuna and then spat back out. Japanese love that Sticky, gooey, slimy texture, don't they?

I

feel like combos with the weed girl have become less weird.

They used to be much weirder, like talking about bums and threesomes with prostitutes and spitting in my mouth. And now we just talk about food a lot,

like running out of topics.

I can't keep bringing up like, what's your fetish or kink? We've already done that.

I don't know what else to ask her, to be honest.

I don't know, that was a stupid question to ask.

Oh God, talking about food is so boring. I've got to steer it away somewhere.

It's going to be really tough to keep the conversation going for weeks.

What question would I like her to ask me that would make me feel good? And then I could just ask that.

Hmm.

Yeah, I feel like we talked about so much already. Games, movies, shows, food, work.

What else is there to say?

I don't really care about talking about sexual stuff. Because we've already established,

uh, that we want that.

I feel like once you've established it's gonna be sexual, then you don't need to keep talking about sexual things, do you?

Share something funny with her, maybe.

I don't know. Once you've like established things and you know you got like a base understanding of what she does and what she likes,

It's like first you build the foundation and the walls, and then you can like decorate the inside of the house.

Animal talk's boring. I like cats. I like penguins.

It's really weird because I feel lonely and I want connection, but then I don't know what to talk about when I have someone to talk to.

It's like I want someone to care about me, but then I don't know what to say to them.

It's really strange.

What do I want? I don't know.

Sometimes I feel like every day is the same and my life's meaningless and no one cares.

And

I don't know,

I want someone to be interested or care.

But I don't know what I want them to say to me to make me feel good. Because if I knew that, then I could just say that to them.

Just like, how was your day? I could ask that,

but then they're just going to start talking about work, aren't they?

I don't know, I don't really feel anything when someone asks me how was my day.

Uh,

I

can't keep asking, how was your day, every day, can I?

Is that weird?

How's your day? How's your day? How's your day? How's your day?

I feel weird asking that every day, like it's excessive.

Yeah, I said good morning, then you say how did you sleep, and then later how was your day? And then how did you sleep?

I already asked what her favorite position is, and she asked me too.

We really talked about this stuff.

What she had for dinner. Oh God, this is so boring. What did you do for dinner? What are you doing now? What did you do yesterday? How was work? What did you have for lunch?

Wow, market's ripping.

Maybe I'm texting her too much, maybe, but I don't want her to feel like, oh, he's not texting anymore. He lost interest.

But then am I supposed to be texting every day like we're already together or something?

Oh, I tell her a funny story about my day. Problem is I don't do anything, so nothing funny happens.

I wonder if I was doing every now and then, would I rant to her about annoying people?

I could just take one of my old stories and then recycle it.

Oh, VIP role. Okay, hold on.

Can I do it from here? Oh, I can. Nice. Lazy mode.

The command is /vip and then the name.

Moodus never came back.

Who won points saying that he wouldn't come back?

See, this is a problem. I'm stagnating, which means I've got nothing to talk about, which is going to be unattractive to a girl.

Looks like it's rubbish not going out today. No one's putting out their rubbish.

Sometimes— I mean, mostly it's on Wednesday night you put your rubbish out, but sometimes it goes out on Thursday night. I don't know why.

Oh, I really gotta do something. I really gotta do something so I have something to talk about.

This is like the only reason people do anything, isn't it? So they can tell their friends and family and lovers about what they did, so they don't seem like a really boring person.

People do things to make a living. Yeah, but my thing is I do nothing to make a living. My whole thing is I do nothing.

I'm like that Japanese guy. He looked like a kid on that YouTube video where he gets paid to do nothing. That's literally me.

Yeah, I literally do nothing and sit on my sofa.

Doing nothing is bad because nothing to talk about. Yeah, exactly. When I was popular on YouTube, people would message me all the time because they're intrigued, like, oh, what's going on? What happened to your hero?

The channel did well because I did stuff.

Doing stuff is good. Yeah, but it costs money, and I'm so close to £6,000 savings.

Yeah, having more money actually means you end up doing less. When you're broke, you're doing this and that trying to desperately get money.

If I had infinite money, I would do nothing. I mean, I'm already doing nothing. But I would do even more nothing. I wouldn't even stream. I'd just play Mario Kart all day.

And then other people, when they get more money, they do more things with it. But that's like the top 1%. Elon Musk, Jeff Bezos.

Giving me more, more money will just result in more, more nothing.

嗯。

Hmm, okay.

I think that kind of led to an interesting topic.

I asked her, what's the weirdest thing you've ever ate or eaten? I really hope I don't accidentally ask the same thing I've already asked before. That'll be kind of

embarrassing.

I wonder if she's gonna make it sexual or actually just answer the question.

If I get paint and paint the fence, then we could actually watch the paint dry. That'd be funny.

2 truths, 1 lie.

I rode a 12-inch dildo,

and what would my— what would the lie be?

A gay guy sucked me off in a park. Oh wait, they're both true.

Or what about, what were you doing 10 years ago? Oh wait, wouldn't she be at school? School student.

Damn, that's weird to think. When I was doing my YouTube stuff back in 2018, she would have been like 16 years old.

Sometimes you forget how young people in their 20s are compared to me, who's in my mid-30s.

I mean, they're still living their 20s. They're still living that feeling of, I've only just recently become a proper adult. I haven't really had, like, my main life-defining moments yet, or I've only had a few of them.

I feel like I, I'm done having my life-defining moments. 20s are over.

Same with early 30s,

but they're in their 20s still.

When I was in my 20s, I was having the most life-changing experiences.

I mean, it didn't really change anything in the end. Back here

again. I'm living the life in the UK that I wanted to avoid so badly. When I was a teenager, I thought I'd never get a house and live in the UK and have a car. Sounds so boring. I'd be in Japan living that weeb life.

Speaking fluent Japanese, hot Japanese girlfriend.

I thought I'd become Japanese.

Taiwanese girl says she's going to divorce her husband.

That's pretty wild.

I said, aren't you afraid to become a single mother? And she said, yeah. She asked me if I would help her. I said sure, smiley face.

Help her do what though?

Like babysit?

Poor kid.

I was lucky because I had a good childhood.

I had a solid family. Married parents. Sure, they fought sometimes, but

from my point of view as a kid, they seemed like a normal married couple in love.

It wasn't until much, much, much later I learned there was problems.

The reason? She said they don't love each other.

I don't really know how I can help.

I don't really wanna become a stepdad.

I'd be scared I inflict my weirdness or my traumas onto a kid.

Like I would impose bad traits or bad habits onto

them that would cause them trouble in adult life.

Maybe when you start a new relationship, you just like lay out all your issues so then they can't— I mean, you can just say, oh, I told you at the beginning, these are my problems.

Problem is I don't know how to express affection, and I get kind of lazy with texting.

But doesn't mean I won't still get upset about it. Like, you acknowledge the problems, but you don't work on them.

What's the point then?

What was the weirdest thing I ever ate? Promoting shit.

The weirdest thing I ever ate. Some of my shit on Bobby's dildo.

Probably my own shit.

Oh God,

my booger.

Uh, maybe Fugu.

It wasn't really weird though, it's

just unusual. Oh, whale. Whale's pretty— probably whale meat.

It tasted like ham.

Yeah, whale is a pretty good one, isn't it?

Oh God, don't say dog meat. If she's a dog lover, I don't think she would even find that funny, even if it's like Chinese culture. Or Korean culture. Didn't Ice Poseidon go to a restaurant in Korea and they had dog meat?

I saw CDawgVA on his stream say— yeah, he was saying he tried horse and his viewers were saying, oh, that's horrible. And then he goes, what? Who am I to

something something another country's culture?

What did he say? Like, who am I to criticize another country's culture? What, so if you were in Afghanistan, the culture was stoning women, then you wouldn't criticize it?

Yeah, I think a lot of British people be upset at the idea of eating horse because people love horses here, especially dogs as well.

I remember there was a big scandal because they detected traces of horse meat in the shepherd's pie from Tesco's. There's big news about it ages ago. It had like, I don't know, 10% horse meat.

Weirdest thing I ate, prostitute's ass.

Tasted like Marmite. I licked it nice and clean for her though.

Sometimes I think like a dom girlfriend who just makes me lick her asshole clean sounds pretty hot.

I don't know, I get kind of bored with these submissive women. I just want them to like pull down their pants and stick their asshole in my face and say lick it.

That's hotter than thinking, oh, is it okay if I lick it?

Yeah, sometimes it is kind of hot when the girl likes something and she just doesn't wait for you to do it, but she makes you do it. Maybe I want to be the sub.

I've never been with a dumb girl. They always just— I don't know, they're always submissive, aren't they?

They never seem to have this one thing they really like and then just make you do it.

I don't like the way I have to grab the girl's hand and make her like rub me off.

I wish she would just start doing it anyway without me having to make her do it.

Asking her to do it is lame, like, oh, can you touch my willy? They just grab the wrist and they pull the arm downwards.

I'm just not very dumb. I don't like making the girl do stuff. I like it when she does it on her own.

嗯嗯。

System of a Down to kick off 2025 tour. I thought they quit doing music. I thought the Serge guy was fed up of singing.

His name's so cool. Serge Tankian. Sounds so much. What does System of a Down even mean? What is a down? Like Down syndrome? System of a Down. What is a down? Down of what? I don't understand the band name.

System of the Down.

System of the Down Syndrome.

What does that mean?

Like down pillows?

That song Aerials really reminds me of World of Warcraft,

of a very specific moment where I was a level 48 Warlock undead male leveling up in— was it called Felwood? That corrupted area had all the demonic satyrs. Satyrs. What are they called? Satyrs. Satyrs, like the half-goat, half-demon monsters. Just remember casting Shadow Bolt and Death Coil.

I was listening to System of a Down a lot playing World of Warcraft. It was good grinding music. I hated vanilla WoW because you would run out of quests to do when you get to about level 55. Like, if you didn't pace yourself well and do all the quests— if you did the quest too fast and you

ran out of quests to do, you would end up getting to like level 55, 56, and run out of quests, and there's nothing else to do apart from just grind all the way to level 60, which took forever. Grinding was a really rubbish way of leveling up compared to completing quests. You get to, I don't know, level

48, and you had to like spare the quests and grind a couple levels in Felwood up to level 50, and then you go to Winterwood or something. Winterfell, the snow place with all the furry bear things.

Usually had to grind the last few levels, just endlessly killing stuff.

No one ever had the 900 gold you needed for the epic mount.

Was it 900 or 9,000? I think it was 900 gold.

I would end up wasting so much gold constantly respeccing my character because I could never decide what talent tree I wanted.

Warlock was cool. I like Destruction Warlock.

Do insane damage. Shadow Bolt, Shadow Bolt, Death Coil, do a Shadowburn, Immolate, and then you seduce with the Succubus, fire up a Soulfire. And then you got to go farm for soul shards.

I hated the soul shard system.

Affliction was okay, but you had to survive the beginning of a fight whilst you load up on dots. Rogues were a pain in the backside. They'd sneak up on you and you hear that cheap shot sound. It's like like a clicking cluck sound,

and then they just stand there stabbing you in the back. You can't do anything. You Trinket out of it, do a Death Coil, they Trinket out of the Death Coil, sprint back to you, do a gouge, and they've got 4 or 5 combo points built up. They do a kidney shot, you're stunned again, you can't get out

of it.

If you get Voidwalker out, you got the shield But then your pet does no damage almost. Or you get the succubus and you seduce him whilst you wait out the stun. Ah, there was this annoying night elf rogue kept ganking me. He had the full Bloodfang epic gear. He'd trinket out of everything, sprint to me, blow all

his cooldowns, do a blind, vanish, cheap shot again. Oh, I fucking hate him.

All you could do was a Death Coil. You couldn't really do fear because the dots would break the fear,

or the Fel Hunter would sometimes let you detect his stealth early on.

Rogues were a nightmare as a Warlock.

Warlocks used to be so OP though.

Hunters were great for fighting Rogues. Your pet could do so much damage as a Beast Hunter or a Hunter,

and then you do the Scattershot, lay a trap, you do the Frost Trap, they'd be stuck in the Frost Block. And then you run off, and then you load up an aimed shot and do like 1,000 damage crit, and then concussion shot. They couldn't do anything. You do a poison shot, they can't restealth.

Hunter's Mark.

I hated rogues so much.

They would just gank you all the time.

Would you agree whales taste like pork or beef? I would say it tasted like ham since they evolved from like a pig creature.

Remember the spit emote? People had the emotes saved as macros and they'd spam it at you.

Spits at you, spits at you, 10 times.

Or paladins doing the bubble and then half zoning out whilst they laugh at you. That was funny. And then they reduced the length of the bubble to 8 seconds so you couldn't half Before the bubble

disappeared.

People hated those shamans as well with the 2-handed hammers. They do Wind Fury and one-shot you. You get a triple Wind Fury crit, do like 3k damage all at once.

Crazy times.

I

love chocolate. All girls love chocolate. Wait, how do you know all girls love chocolate? It's just a thing. Have you bought another girl chocolate? No. That's not what I was insinuating. I said it like— but have you bought another girl? No, that's not what I was trying to say. Okay, I don't want anything that you bought for

another woman, Gus. I've gone on dates where I bought lots of food and shit. Okay, don't buy me anything. Okay, cool. No tacos, no pasta, no wings, no pizza, no Mexican food, no fucking nothing, right? No nothing then. No boba, no nothing. Exactly. Pretty sure I bought someone fucking coffee before. It was a little dramatic. That was

a little dramatic. You buy me tea, nobody buy you. I don't buy you. You just buy for others. Stop. A key reason why relationships are valuable is that they help us to know ourselves better. But despite the potential of love to function as a route to self-knowledge, in practice we often walk away from relationships with most of

our delusions intact. Intact. Some of our problem comes down to pride. We come to love hoping to be admired. They spot that we aren't always very funny, that our novel is patchy, that we're prone to self-pity, that we lose our tempers too fast. Far from using these bits of difficult news as goads for self-improvement, we tend to

find it much easier to get insulted, to say that a partner is being mean or inconsiderate, and to block our ears. We fall back When someone knows they deserve better but still stays with the one who breaks them, that's called cognitive dissonance. The kindest thing you can do for yourself is let people leave. Why is it always

the same? No chasing, the same dialogue, no convincing them of your worth, but with different footage or like a different voice. Doing nothing instead of doing something, I guess. The geology of the islands is grand. Not only can you take a load— In August, you'll thank yourself for starting calisthenics. In a week, you'll start to feel it.

In 2 weeks, you'll start to see it. And in 3— When the devil truly can't reach you, he'll send you a girl whose name has 2 A's in it and it ends in the uh sound. You're cooked, bro. When the devil truly can't reach you, he'll send you a girl whose name has 2 A's in it. I

like you. I like you too. Oh, what you need to understand is I'm the man. I'm the man. If your partner constantly tests you, they— there's an increase. If your partner constantly tests you, they probably have an intense fear of abandonment. People with abandonment wounds will pull away, they'll pick fights, they'll go cold, or they'll push your

limits, not because they want gone, but because they're terrified you will leave, and they would rather be right about it. There's an increase in the number of people cutting off the parents, but there's one thing I've noticed about this trend. Has anybody else noticed that when an adult child chooses not to have a relationship with a parent,

it's always, but it's your mom and dad, you only get one mom and dad, why are you doing that? And it's never, wow, what could a parent have done to cause their child to make this decision but feel like it was a right one. It's never, what happened that made a grown adult feel like the need to

walk away from the people who raised them? And it's definitely never, but they're your children, how can you treat them that way? Why is the weight placed on the child? Why is the burden of maintaining peace, preserving connection, and forgiving endlessly dumped onto the very person who's probably carrying the scars? No one ever stops to think maybe

that parent wasn't a safe person. Maybe the parent was Emotionally manipulative, abusive, dismissive, narcissistic, or just constantly absent when it mattered most. Maybe parent was just a title and not something they lived up to. And yet the child is the one questioned. The child is the one who's guilted, shamed, or gaslit. Yeah, exactly. Automatic defense. Parent comes

with some lifetime immunity from accountability. But here's the truth: people don't cut off their parents typically for no reason. It's not impulsive. It's not heartless. It's usually the last result after years of trying, years of hoping things would change, years of therapy, tears, inner conflict. It's often deep, painful act of self-preservation. And yet society keeps asking the

wrong question. Instead of why did you walk away, maybe it's time to start asking what happened that made staying impossible. There's— people run from good relationships because they don't know what to do with real love.

So we hear a lot about how people rush out of relationships nowadays. There's no patience, so many options, people just, you know, first sign of trouble, people get out. But that's to underestimate that there's actually an opposed, diametrically opposed other problem, which is the number of people who stay in far, far too long and realize, you know,

when time's kind of run out for them, that their real problem, that the setting problem, was forbearance, was too great a tolerance. So here's a very simple principle that we've come up with about how to decide whether a relationship is viable or not. It sounds completely simple. I mean, it's huge to take on board, but there's a

kind of elemental simplicity. And the question is this: when you talk to them, when you address an important issue with your partner, do they listen? Do they listen, or do they stonewall, or do they say you're being too critical, you're being too demanding, or I'm too busy?

Of course, then we have to speak with dignity and we have to speak with clarity. We can't be impatient and feel tempered. This is the number one difference between

This is the number one difference.

Weird how chat just suddenly dies. Suddenly you'll be very active and then suddenly you'll be completely dead.

Like you guys, you guys all fell asleep all at the same time.

Maybe you're having a massive orgy.

1 hour to go.

Thank fucking fuck.

Damn, my kitchen's looking nice. Looks kind of empty though, like I just moved in.

It can look too tidy sometimes. Name is Baron.

The spider's back.

Another amazing day.

Wouldn't you say it was an amazing day?

What's happening on Kick these days?

Nothing.

Oh, that's been Gold's line.

嗯。

I wonder if there's any Teslas for sale.

I'm gonna buy it. Oh, Tavistock, £16,000, dual motor.

I can't believe for the amount of money I've paid for my car, I could have gotten a Tesla.

Damn, imagine having a Tesla parked outside.

Would be pretty cool.

16K though.

Long range.

What's the range on the Long Range? Red Tesla is pretty

Pretty nice looking.

How long is long?

嗯，嗯。

He did another day in my life video.

Must be running out

of ideas.

He's not afraid of doxxing his house.

See, look, he is filming in his house. I thought he wouldn't film in his house. Is that his house?

Looks more like an apartment.

Perfect breakfast, doesn't it? I don't get to have this often, to be fair. Most days of the week I grab a banana, down some coffee, and then throw myself out the front door, but Maybe once, maybe twice if I'm lucky, I will have this mega breakfast. I mean, you can't go wrong with Rice Krispies, the taste of

childhood nostalgia. As I've gotten older, I want to feel younger, so I eat Rice Krispies. The thing that I get most excited about here though is this Norwegian brown brunost cheese. A few years ago, I went to Norway for the weekend, not from Japan admittedly, from the UK when I was over there, and I was in a

cafe and I saw this cheese and I was like, I've got to try it. Even though I thought, oh, it looks a bit weird, brown cheese, not so sure. I tried it, amazing. It's a beautiful, rich, creamy tanginess like regular cheese but with a smooth caramelly finish. He really likes cheese. I think I'm gonna have to convert

some people to eating it. Like, I remember it looks like caramel a year or two ago, and I talked about it there, and Joey was like, oh mate, fucking brown cheese, what is it? And then he went there to Norway, had it, and he messaged me and was like, pretty fucking good, mate. Breakfast is, I think, for

a lot of people an afterthought, myself included. And it's nice to sit, relax, eat a few different dishes, think about the day ahead.

So Charlotte's been away on the road recently. Tonight she gets back, and I thought I'd cook her a romantic meal, a nice juicy cut of steak from, uh, Cape Grim. It's Australia's finest. The only thing grim tonight It's gonna be my cooking. No, no, it's gonna be good because look, I've got a cookbook. I got gifted this

for my birthday, uh, one of the greats. You've heard of Gordon Ramsay, Marco Pierre White, Joel Robuchon, uh, well, I've got Snoop Dogg and he, he's smart, he knows what he's doing, and there's a recipe in here for Snoop Dogg's favorite filet mignon and I'm gonna follow it to the letter. As I always say, it's good enough

for Snoop Dogg, it's good enough for Charlotte. So Shawna's in for a treat. It's going to be anything but Kate Grimm tonight. It's going to be Kate fucking Delicious.

I don't like that cat. Dangerous creatures. It's got like a weird snarl. One wrong move and it can go full-blown Colonel Gaddafi. For example, it doesn't look cute. It's just like it's angry all the time. So I stroked his head, patted his stomach at the same time, and now he expects that every single day without fail. Once

after breakfast and once before I go to bed at night. Looks a bit like Pushkin but ugly. It's very scary very fast. He will meow, he will bang things, he will meow some more, and he will not stop until he gets the massage that he feels he sorely deserves. So be careful in creating a routine for your

cat. Cancel it once and they'll feel like you've just cancelled Christmas, and it doesn't end well for anyone. Sorry, sir, I have to go to work. I have to go now. No, please. See you later.

You're in charge now.

Here she is. Look at his car. Why is he a millionaire but he drives that fucking ugly? So I'm very lucky this summer, I've got the K-car, the pride of— Look at his car. His car's shit.

My car's better than his car.

Imagine being a millionaire and you drive that.

Looks like Granny car around a racetrack, which is coming soon. Maybe it's to be relatable.

I also used it to move a very special piece of equipment from my apartment to the studio, which I'll show you. A little bit later on. This June was, I think, the hottest summer on record. If you go outside, it is a joke temperature. Uh, so I have the 3 Horsemen of any good Japanese summer. Number one,

Pocari Sweat. You need that awkward-sounding drink to keep you hydrated, keep you going. It does taste good though, thank God. Secondly, we've got oral rehydration solution. Don't be deterred by the clinical-sounding name. Uh, it's basically just a bottle of— those hydrating drinks make me need to pee really badly. Something that tastes good, I get Baccari Sweat. If

I want something that tastes not so great but rehydrates— looks like a granny car on the inside. Look at the brown fabric. What even is this video about? It's like he's just making fun of brand names the whole time. Wet wipes. Wow. It does feel like juggling chainsaws on a trampoline at times. It is quite stressful. It

takes a long time to get anywhere. It is the world's biggest city. That's not Why are you driving? And so you kind of feel like, what's the point? Those little lanes are horrible. Second thing is, despite there being 38 million people, Tokyo only seems to have 3 car parks. 2 of those are full. On the upside, drivers

in Tokyo are generally pretty good. Having driven in cities like London, Rome, Paris, Beijing, I will say Tokyo drivers are the best. Looks nothing compared to Bangkok. They are pretty considerate drivers. It's not like the UK where people want

to run you off the road for sport, or Beijing where it's like driving inside a fucking pinball machine. I will say, if you want to experience being the most hated person— oh, he's only going about the go-karts— drive around Shibuya. Nobody likes them. Everybody Very loud, very annoying. And I think the idea of having a jet-lagged foreign

tourist weaving in and out of traffic— yeah, he always moans about these noisy, annoying go-karts, but he never says anything about the stupid Japanese biker gangs. Leery-eyed and half asleep. I think that worries a lot of people because we know it's not going to end well. So much so that one man recently tried to set them on

fire, which of course— don't do that either. And I think above all, it's sort of become emblematic Massive of overtourism. Culturally, historically, there's so many great things to do in Tokyo, and riding around on a go-kart— Chris goes on about this go-kart thing. Who cares? I've been driving here for years now, and I certainly don't want to

drive a go-kart through the chaos of Shibuya Crossing. Glorified fucking Tetris level. My God, I wouldn't wish this on anyone, man. I can't believe it's already been about 1 year since we opened Lost Bar, and today I'm going to taste test some mocktails before the celebrations get underway in a few weeks' time.

Weird door. Good morning, how are you guys doing? All going well here? Chris the businessman with his bar. I came here for 2 reasons today. Number one, Try the new mocktails. Do you think they would kick me out if I went there? Imagine he's like got my pictures, banned list person. Number 2, to see if the GU

shoe is still there. Is it there? Like if I went there streaming, this is ridiculous, check this out. Do you think I'd get in trouble? No way! So about 3 weeks ago, the shoe appeared in the GU shed. Perfectly at the base of the G. It's almost too good to be true. Somebody must have just thrown it

up there on a whim, and it is stuck there. It stayed there. Come to Lost Bar near Fiji. I wonder if Chris ever found out I walked past. Come here for shoes, for cocktails, in my case mocktails today. So this is Zach. He's our resident cool barman. You're very cool, aren't you, Zach? Very cool. Yes. Nice to

meet you. I love the fact that How do they go down in Japan? People always ask me, like, tattoo adorned face. Like, I'm worried to go to Japan. Like, has it been a problem or not? Too much of a problem. I would say in the countryside, obviously. Um, I used to live in the countryside and had no

issues. Technically in Shibukawa, it's kind of like a very rustic— Could have been me. Yeah, me and Chihiro are opening our own bar. These are 3 mocktails. What's this first one? So right here we have the Go Go Sour Ranger. It's a very sour-based mocktail. Blow it all because I couldn't keep it in my pants. Fruit from

Okinawa, so 100% shikuwasa juice. We're also using the apple cider vinegar. It's very nice in summer. This is very much a summertime drink, isn't it? What have we got here? A sparkling lychee lemonade. Look at that, it's got a nice sunset with the grenadine. The grenadine is just for the effect, kind of like a tequila sunrise, but

it's non-alcoholic, so it's— we're using lychee. Super refreshing. It's very nice, refreshing. And what's this one here, man? I'm guessing it's like Sex on the Beach, but yes, so no alcohol in here. It's kind of like the piña colada, so it's, you know, coconut, so creamy. It's like being transported back to the Bahamas. Yes, sir. I think

this is probably my favorite. I like— if you want to— yeah, just looks sophisticated drinking in a way that's hard to do with this one. It's just sort of a guilty pleasure. That's fine. So you're gonna let us try the apple Cider vinegar pure. Absolutely, it's going to be experienced as God intended. I got, I got roped

into this. I don't know why I did this. That's a great way to wake up, isn't it? Oh yeah, it's really healthy. Your gut's going to be very happy. Funny how he only employs fish and chip shop white guys.

It's not vinegar.

Okay, that could be a great way to wake up. This is like toddler Daycare shots. Yeah, I'll have a shot of apple cider vinegar. Oh no, it's pretty hardcore. I feel like every member of the Loft team should drink that every morning. It's a good way to wake up and it makes you feel healthy. Drink this every

morning. Dr. Chris has spoken.

He's got nice green eyes, I have to admit. In the corner. It is cozy. Yeah. How many romantic incidents have unfolded here? That sounds wrong. How many couples have come and sat here and got romantic? Plenty. Yeah. If you're the first people in the door and you're a couple, we sit you right here. All right. The best

view in the house, to be honest. All the people watching from over here. I like it here. I like just chilling in the corner drinking my cocktails. What I don't have is a cheese board, like a cheese plate. We've got to do something about that. So I'm going to time you. I want to know what the response

time of the cheese board is. That last part. Are you ready? I'm ready. I'm going to go right now. All right, here we go. 3, 2, 1. Yes! And I will sit here. There he goes. Jesus. Poor old man. With great power comes great responsibility. You've got to be careful. Careful when you're a business owner. You can,

you can take things too far. Imagine Chris is your boss. All right, stop. 51 seconds. No kidding, that's pretty good. From order to plate to table to mouth, 52 seconds. 51 cheeseboard. It's just a bit of cheese with some biscuits on a plate.

Fucking ads. Ah, we're a genius. Well done. But remember, Lost Bar opens 3— I think this was 2 weeks ago. Drink some nice cocktails, have some cheese, meet Matt, Zach, and the team. That was a pleasure. I look forward to coming back in the next few days and seeing if we can beat your 51.2-second time. Yeah, we'll

have you for your next practice. Yes, I want it in 30 seconds, no more, no less.

All right, into the studio.

Thank you. One criticism I've gotten over the years is that I don't feature the studio in enough videos. I always get a lot of comments like, oh, Bill, it's an amazing studio, but you never use it. Which is it? Like, it's been in, I think, 50 videos. I've counted the other day, 50 videos. It's just we don't

shout about it, right? Often the scenes aren't obviously shot in the studio necessarily. I don't feel the need in every video to be like, oh look, I'm in the studio. Can you see? I'm here. I'm here in the studio. I feel like the studio works best when it sort of blends into the background. You know, it helps

tell a story or convey something. What I will say though is the team that built this did such an amazing job concealing things away that I still genuinely discover things that I didn't know existed. For example, check this out. So the coolest part of this set is arguably the ramen shop, and about a year ago I was

giving a friend a grand tour, and we looked at these fans, right? These prop plastic fans, they're here on the wall, very plastic. They've been sprayed to look sort of characterful and weathered like a real ramen shop, and these sockets are all plastic. But for some reason last year I felt compelled to actually test it out. I

plugged it in here and then the fucking fan came on. For 3 years the fan had been there, all 4 of them operational, without without me knowing. Now it does get very dusty and I wouldn't recommend putting it on. But 3 years on, still discovering stuff about the studio. It was so well built, you never know what

you're gonna find next. Oh Jesus, there are some things WD-40 can't fix, like this bench which is falling apart again. 4 years. Weird, we went to the same school, had different lives. Yeah, because he had a nice, well-grounded, loving family probably and didn't get bullied for looking Asian. So completely different childhoods. I mean, my family was loving

in their own way, I guess. The song is literally called Winning the Battle. And for the scene with the cats, I wanted something a bit sneaky, so I got this song called Sneaky Pete, inspired by American As somebody who's edited 200 videos, the best piece of advice I can give you: find the music first. Play the music.

It'll help you kind of picture and build the video in your mind. Yeah, that's what I do on the timeline. Unsurprisingly, people always ask, channel still died though. Where do I get the sound effects? This is shilling, shilling your stupid music website. My beloved Amazon Basic exercise bike. I remember getting an exercise bike to impress Mila, and

then I never used it. Cost me £200. So I could work out while I was at home, and then it just sort of sat there in the corner doing nothing for 2 years. So I brought it to the studio for 3 reasons. Number one, I could work out underneath the comfort of the air conditioning unit in the

summer months. Number 2, I don't know why I bought a stupid exercise bike. The length of time I went to get Mila back, so dumb. And number 3, most importantly, I started exercising, working out when the Mila thing happened. I stuck with it. While I'm exercising on the bike, in this case, I can sit here, work out,

and devour these Caribbean spicy chicken pringles. That's the way. And of course, the end game is to have a nice big cheese board here that I can pick from while I work out. The way God intended.

Why do I get 5% cashback on everything? Funny, the ad is also like an exercise thing. Like everyday credit card, new card members get—

Japan's so boring now. I don't know how I was obsessed with it so much. It's like post-nut clarity. This is nature. This is nice. That's rubbish. You see where I live? Oh wow, one tree. Seek out the little parks and the cracks in between the endless urban sprawl. And this is one of my favorites. This is Nabashima

Short Tall Coin, and it recently featured in one of my favorite films called Perfect Day. Come as he bikes and loses calories, and then he just puts them all back on by having a cheese board. That's basically the plot. And he cleans these amazing toilets. Like this one here, which looks like a postmodern art sculpture, but it

is actually just a toilet. Look at it, you wouldn't know that that is— I love food too, but I can't eat much. Public toilets actually more interesting. Chris's skin's really good. He's the one where you shut the door and it goes from transparent. He's shooting with a really nice camera, 4K. Skin looks great. Imagine me in 4K,

I'd look terrible. Probably not if you're a tourist, but you live here in Tokyo, it's fun to kind of try and find these little hidden gems. And also a pigeon. Hello! Ah, even the pigeons don't want to be my friend. So I've been living in Tokyo 2 years now. I don't know where the time went. What are

my thoughts on this city? Do I actually like living here? And the answer is I really do like living here, but it's not for me. And that's not Tokyo's fault. I didn't take— you're gonna move out of Tokyo? The greatest city on earth. It's clean, it's safe, there's so much to do. However, having lived in Tohoku in

the countryside for 10 years, the quality of living out there is so much higher. People seem to have a better work-life balance that I just find is sort of sorely absent here. And not having nature around you really does get to you. Like, yes, I'm here at a nice park at the moment, and yes, there's Ryoyaki and

Shinjuku Park as well, but you know, instead of mountains and rice fields, I've got skyscrapers and go-karts here. It's not quite the same, is it? But I think being in a huge urban environment where there's no real escape to the countryside, it does sort of weigh you down a bit. It certainly wore me down. I find myself

getting a lot more exhausted here in day-to-day life than I ever felt that in Tohoku. So yeah, I don't know how much longer I'll be here in Tokyo, but I feel glad and lucky that I got to live here and experience it firsthand. Anyway, maybe I'm exhausted because I'm worried. I'm worried I've got to cook dinner for

Charlotte. So let's get back to the apartment and cook the meal of a lifetime. Cooking with Chris.

How's Cooking with Chris? Copying me.

Where's the jazzy music? Vintage 2025. Fantastic. Who's ready for the meal of the century? Trying the rosé wine. The occasion is welcome home. Thanks. No expense. Why aren't you drinking? Well, I've got to cook. I know. This is the best goddamn wine I could find a bag in there. This is good stuff. Drink up, drink up. Now

you might be looking at all this and thinking, is he sponsored by Rice Krispies or Snoop Dogg? The answer— what does she post on OnlyFans? Questionable. And I needed some guidance. And so today, if you don't like my cooking, if you don't like this steak, it's not only an insult to me, it's an insult to Snoop Dogg

himself. So remember that. Here's the recipe for steak seared filet mignon. That sounds really fancy. Fancy, fancy. All right, it says, I'm gonna share with you one of my favorites, Dogg, a simple classic. The big time. All meat, no sweet. This is actually the words of the book. Yo homie, get the grill ready. I feel like this

book isn't really aimed at me. Anyway, let's begin. All right, step 1. All right, step 2, coarsely grind the peppercorns in a grinder. Satisfying. Oh, it smells so good. You can just eat this. We don't even need the spice. We also bought some white peppercorns. How about all the peppers? If Snoop Dogg says it's good, it must

be good. Is that a lot? It's quite a bit. It's gonna be a special steak.

It looks like the back of Snoop Dogg's car.

It looks really good. This was expensive. It looks expensive. More expensive than the wine, dare I say. All right, what do we do now? So small. Steak with salt.

Cool. He's got an electric salt shaker. Roll the steak in the pepper until it's coated. You've got to basically cake it in pepper though. Pepper makes it better. It's just physics. I mean, it looks all right, doesn't it? I mean, I've never eaten that much pepper in my life. You haven't lived. Such good editing. Well, it's just

different transitions. And random zoomings into his face.

What's so good about that? It's not hard either. Just cut up the clip and then do different angles. So Snoop Dogg says you've got to do it medium rare, 4 minutes per side, but I know you like it well done. Almost well done. Almost well done. All right, we'll do it 6 minutes per side. Oh,

look at

that. Bloody good. I don't even know if I want to give it to you. Well, let's take a bite first. Oh, I see. I don't like your fucking stank, asshole. You can have it. All right, I'll put it— leave it to rest. What does Snoop Dogg say? Yo homie, remove from the skillet, put on a plate. We're

going off-piste now because, uh, Snoop Dogg's recipe doesn't have any vegetables in it. Huntress Managed SIM includes both the technology and the experts to deliver a plat— My cooking's better. Where's the chopping stuff up with a cleaver and scissors and making a mess? You didn't even show the chopping. Everything to be a good fucking trip as well.

That would just be obnoxious. Then I'd buy next obnoxious one. And the final piece of the puzzle, some rosemary, to make it the perfect meal. Does exist. It's almost criminal to give this to you. I think I, I should eat this. But anyway, why not make 2 for both of them? Is he not gonna eat? Wow, it's

really good. It's a little salty, but honestly, the pepper is really good. I like it. Nicely done. Even Chino wants some. That's always a good sign. See, he can smell perfection. He knows.

It's a little bit salty. It's a little bit salty. To be fair, he's so on Tunguska's fault. It's Snoop Dogg's fault, not my fault. Can I have some more? Oh yeah, sure. I think the only way this could be improved is with some Norwegian brown sheep. What do you reckon? I do wonder how much of the book

he actually wrote. I'm going to say none. It's a bit ghosty-wrighty, not going to lie. I don't think Snoop Dogg actually sat down for 3 months and wrote a book. You never know. You never know, maybe he did write it. Thank you. Big dog for this amazing meal. What about the chicken and calamari? It was good.

Living travel. I will say Shibuya has changed a heck of a lot in the last 10, 12 years. As you can see right now, they're redoing the entire station from top to bottom. Where once there was open sky, now we have towering skyscrapers like the Shibuya Stream building. I came here a few weeks ago and did a

shoot with a friend of mine who was filming a music video for a South Korean musician, and he finished the entire shoot around Shibuya, and then I brought them here. They loved the angle so much they became— his hair looks so drenched in sweat the whole time. The ultimate view of Shibuya to this spot. But let's go

around Shibuya, do some nighttime photography, and I'll show you a few of my favorite spots. You ever have sex and you just got sweat dripping off your face and you have to like wipe your face and forehead on the pillow?

I can't remember when that happened. I just remember it happened. It's famous for having lots of love hotels. Uh, there's one up here that has a rather ironic— your whole forehead and temples get soaked. You need to rub it on something, otherwise sweat gets in your eyes. Stands here behind me. Could be a bad omen. Where once

there was pure air in space, we're waiting to be— and it's very good as well. It's like

Unfortunately, I feel nothing for Japan anymore.

It's over.

Sad in a way.

I just feel nothing for it.

When the fetish and the obsession goes, you just don't really care about it anymore.

What a boring market this week.

Looks bullish though.

All in long.

I haven't watched Trash— I used to watch every video of Trash Taste. I haven't watched it in ages. I haven't watched any of these.

I watched a bit of the one, the dinosaur guy.

What have they done recently?

Curse hentai games. Chinese anime. Joey's getting married.

Like, I was obsessed with Caleb Financial Channel. I binged all of it and I got bored. His voice got really annoying, yelling all the time.

Ludwig.

Who's spotted?

Oh, not again.

Wasn't me.

Famous again.

How serious

is the financial crisis? Are we in a 1931? This mic sounds so bad.

Look, he's using like a $2 mic. Look at his mic.

That's like some $2 Temu mic, like the one I got sent to me. This sounds awful. Listen. Where emergency action will have to be taken, where extreme measures will be necessary to get things back on an even keel. I don't know if anyone in

I was very

struck by some of the figures that came out in the first quarter public expenditure, um, and income figures. These give deep cause for concern. First of all, interest payments are going up markedly. From April to June, taxpayer had to fund interest payments

of— either we take the last boat and follow Frodo, or we follow the Orcs on foot. Pippin and Merry may be dead by now. We don't know.

We cannot forsake them. The fate of the Ringbearer is in my hands no longer. The Company of the Ring has played its part. We follow the Orcs.

Either we

Pixel 10.

Google finally did it. They built a profile of what an iPhone user wants: performance, battery life, a great camera, and MagSafe. And they've delivered all of that with the Pixel 10 Pro and Pixel 10 Pro XL. They even nailed the pricing. The small one's— this is for Voice goes so high. David, that's surprising. Best part of the

profile? Let's start with an unboxing. I hear you, I hear you, Linus. That's 2 boxings. You can't call it an unboxing, but I kind of can because very rarely do we have 2 devices that are as similar as the Pixel 10 Pro and the Pixel 10 Pro XL. Everything from the Tensor G5 processor, which is all new

She looks way better with a beard. Weird without a beard. Obviously the screens are not quite the same. We're talking 6.8 versus 6.3 inches with a slightly larger battery in the XL in order to accommodate that extra screen real estate, but that is about it. Included in both of them you'll find a USB 2 cable that supports

up to 45-watt charging. Google claims it can reach up to about a 7 charge in just about 30 minutes, which is pretty freaking cool. But that's all you get for accessories. You'll have to buy your own charging brick that's capable of that. Speaking of things you'll have to buy, if you're into wireless charging, you're gonna want to

buy a Qi 2 charging stand. Check this out. This is the Pixel Snap charger. That's right, Qi 2 support, baby, which means up to 15 watts of charging on both of these devices and on the regular 10. And took a couple attempts on the larger phone, it's a little easier to align on the smaller one. Magnetic alignment,

which on the phones themselves, when I was checking this out on the Pixel 10, seems to use about the same strength of magnet as MagSafe, even though the Pixel Snap case isn't necessarily quite as strong as some other Either way, if this was the thing that was keeping you on the iPhone, no more excuses. Come try this

side. The water's warm. And there's lots to like about the Pixel 10 family in general. Google now offers seven years of software updates. My Tesco wireless charger has ten watts. That's only five less than that one. Pixel 10 family with their new massively AI boosted Tensor processor with six. 16 gigs of RAM. Wow, 1 terabyte. So who

cares? 17% increase in single-core performance. Ah, boring. Thanks guys. Extremely premium, along with— what are they calling this? Like a silky smooth glass finish on the back. It manages to feel silky but not too smooth. It's actually not that slippery. I really Quite like it. The front uses Gorilla Glass Victus 2, so this should be an extremely

durable phone, just like the regular 10, but, uh, shinier. On the bottom, I do like how it's shiny around the edges, along with our microphone and speaker grilles. On this side, we got a whole heck of a lot of nothing. On the top, SIM tray, at least if you're in a territory that has them, as well as

a noise-canceling microphone. The fucker, you know what, dang good Not the 10 though. Those Pixel 10 plebs, they're missing out big. Actually, that's one of the 300 nits peak. Quite frankly, I don't think anybody— it looks fucking awesome. I've already been to— it does look incredible actually. This is the best one yet for sure. There she is,

baby. What's that? Is it a Porsche? Wow, resale white, except what's that? Oh my God, look at it go! You get that, you get that glimmer. Is that cool or what? I freaking love it. I know I'm supposed to be like, oh, Deep Ram, you guys ruined my car again. Dude, look at this. It is legitimately Very

similar to my stock color, but my stock color doesn't do this. Oh, Ferrari. Damn. Oh no, it is a Porsche. Why has he got the Ferrari horse? And, uh, I'm confused. Why Glow Circuit instead of this? Because I get— you got a glow-in-the-dark car, but I don't get any extra commission if you buy white Damascus like what's

on my car. So it's the best of both worlds. I get the white Damascus. Look at him flexing his Ferrari because you buy Glow Circuit. I'm gonna set aside the regular 10 Pro and I'm gonna focus on the XL because from a dimensional standpoint, the 10 and the 10 Pro are identical to the point where they just

even fit in the same cases. Let's go ahead and fire up the camera and see just how good it is. Oh, look at that, camera shortcuts. Yeah, right, for 3D motion. We'll take an image and how good is it? It is doing a lot of processing. Doing a good job of it. You are surprisingly not that annoying.

Photoshopped in behind you in the pixel. Oh, look like you're— so if I turned off beta tomorrow, I would need to double— you're photoshopped in there. Damn, look at his filming camera. Look at that thing. That's massive. Insane damage. So weird. This This is outstanding though. This is one of the best zooms in just even their high—

that definitely helps. Worst that I've ever heard. It's okay. As for the HDR viewing experience, much like pretty much mileage may vary with that, an app available on their website and through major online retailers. AI camera is boring.

But haven't you and your ilk sold America? Look at his hair.

Damn, his hair looks like fire.

You saw the culture wars for the original. Second someone actually tells you what you're doing, which is red, you calm down a little bit. Like, just a little bit. Pounding the table, you're all over the place. Uh, no, you want me to go piece by piece, or would you like me to talk slower? Number one, Joe Biden

gave him— can you not interrupt me? I allowed you to talk uninterrupted. He is convening a peace deal between Russia, Ukraine. I believe we will see an end to that war. Number two, he's actually talking to Iran and discouraging Israel to strike the interior. Look at this guy. He looks like a puppet. And it's a lot better

than when your Prime Minister Boris Johnson went alongside our Secretary of State Tony Blinken to Istanbul and unnecessarily blew up a potential Russian peace deal, which has resulted in hundreds of thousands of dead Ukrainians. One of the great unnecessary wars of the modern era. In the same way that people were telling me that you and your ilk

Who—

this guy brings people on to talk about their financial struggles. You guys ready to hear it? Here we go.

How did $10,000 come in last month? I got my IRS tax refund. Just because of the child tax credit? Yeah, because you have children. Yeah. How many kids do you have? I have 3. So you got such a big refund, right? And we pay pretty well. I mean, I know someone's here working on a birthday. Is this

someone's birthday today?

Boy.

It's so strange. When I was younger, I was obsessed with big cities like Tokyo, thinking they were so cool. And now I just love the countryside.

Freedom to drive, easy roads, wide open spaces, nature. Oh, so much better than living in the concrete jungle.

I don't know how it just completely changed like that. I don't know what caused it really. Just at some point, probably 2023 or '24, just had enough of it.

嗯。

Yeah, maybe city's best if you want social life and meeting lots of women.

Yeah, I do. I don't really— I mean, I crave intimacy and the relationship

as well as sex. I feel lonely and sad.

I'm ready for love.

I have grown and changed. I am a new man.

In the heart of one of the country's biggest cities, A picture of a growing— the UK is falling apart. You don't need a think tank to tell you that, but that's exactly what think tank has discovered. Whether you're supporting Palestine or the— so Russell Brand survived his canceling. I remember last time I noticed him, he was having

these sexual allegations against him. Right to fly a flag. Britain is on the brink of explosion.

They beep enough to provide a rise zone is the phrase. Are they deep enough to keep together and bind all of these competing interests? Let's have a look at the flag flying protest. People in Britain are fighting back, drawing St. George's crosses on roundabouts, flying them from lampposts. That's causing consternation. Protests have been banned, so people are

wearing pro-plasticine t-shirts. The British sense of humor at least is returning. So let's Let's have a look at Britain, a country on the edge of explosion, and see if we can predict where it will go by the end of the summer. Is it going to be a revolution? Are there going to be mass protests? Is there going

to be civil unrest? He's a pseudo-intellectual, you say? Finally entering into decline. In the heart of one of the country's biggest cities, a picture of a growing national divide. A right-wing anti-immigration protest in Liverpool. Met with left-wing opposition. The result: anger, fury, and multiple scuffles.

Merseyside Police caught in the middle, pouring resource and effort into arrests.

The protests spill across the country. What you have is a situation that is becoming increasingly hard to believe. This is Isn't like the demonstrations at asylum hotels. What you have are the police struggling to separate. Imagine I go livestream there. More and more into this effort as the day goes on. What the mainstream media news won't be

able to provide you is an analysis that incorporates the challenges that rose out of the COVID pandemic period. We began to realize that certain protests and social and cultural groups would be maligned, certain conversations were being shut down. And in short, what we're witnessing are the economic consequences of COVID and the political and social consequences of emergent

technology. All of the attempts to censor online information amount to this: they can no longer control information, they can no longer conceal unrest, whether it's on the left or the right. People are unhappy in Britain. This means almost by definition that there's a requirement for systemic change. You're not going to get the kind of economic boom that

means that people are going to retreat back into consumerism. That's over. The AI revolution means that there's not going to be an economic boom that will lead to jobs. There's going to be further decline, and this decline is going to mean either radical systemic change that empowers people to run their own communities and alter the way they—

I don't know what he's talking about. Large and unsustainable. Show the people fighting.

I don't understand a word they said. What? I was wondering, are they speaking English or what? And the world's on fire. No, no, listen, mate, I'm not arguing with you here. I'm not arguing with you, mate. I'm happy to have the debate. What I'm saying is I don't believe it's right for illegal immigrants to be in this

Paining. But as much as people say they want to talk to the other side, it only takes a second for those conversations to turn. Here and beyond, this issue is driving a wedge between people with more protests and counter-protests.

What happened?

Why did it just stop? The UK is a powder keg of social tensions, researchers found. You don't need research, you just need Windows. A report from the think tank British Future and the social cohesion group Belong Network during this period, you will get a clearer understanding of why we're in this position right now. Fluffiest liberals. Rumble. Chris

Simpson was prescribed an antidepressant The police are now making enough because some of them— you make good money if you stream on Rumble.

May represent England, but it represents something a lot more powerful as well. And that's what I suggest we turn our eyes to if we're going to resurrect, reboot, and radically change. And I think that won't happen to ordinary British people. British people.

Damn,

imagine if Farage actually becomes Prime Minister.

That'd be wild.

Dave Gibson would be so happy.

Faraj. It reminds me when AJ said chicken karage. Farage.

Imagine Japanese people thinking faraj is pronounced farage.

If I did Omegle, nah, I can go on to HelloTalk and join some random live room.

Can't be bothered, too scary.

Nigel Karaj.

嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯嗯。

Market's crashing.

AJ raging because you dumped her. That idea— yeah, she didn't seem too pleased, did she?

But why is she mad? She could still go alone.

Yeah, I'm leaning more towards I just stay put.

She was always on the bootleg.

I have like, uh, I don't know. I just don't know if going to Thailand would make me more money than it costs, and I don't really want to go that much.

I think I would just be bored and miserable there too.

Yeah, I was flirting with the idea of moving there and becoming a digital nomad again with the kick money,

but recently I kind of,

don't know, like a flip switched in my brain.

I feel like, no, I want to stay here. I don't want to run away.

I quite like my house and the car. I quite like this area. If I have to, I'll just get another house here.

It's also a lot of— it's just hard getting to the airport.

I just can't be bothered.

嗯。

Well, that's all the girls gone, isn't it? Cake, Crypt, K-Bug, AJ, Moon, all out of here.

No sex, no hot boy summer.

Guess I'm not nutting my brains out this summer.

It's just the bros left in the chat now.

Hunker down,

accumulate wealth. Invest in the stock market.

Stop wasting money flying across the world just to get sex.

American girls are always flakes. They never come over. Since when has an American girl ever actually met me?

Not a single one. It's always been German girls or Dutch girls or I don't know. Some European girl.

Yeah, the distance is also a

Most American people live in America, unfortunately, and stay in America.

I'm not going to America. Never. No way. Expensive, boring, and dangerous. No thanks.

Yeah, I don't know why the word whale is banned.

Why not private all the streams?

New chapter, fresh start. Delete the channel, it'll be a skeleton channel.

I don't want to grow or get views. Just stick with what I've got.

You're gonna take all of it down?

Doesn't even make money anyway. It makes like $100 a month.

Maybe I set everything to membership only.

If Kick falls through, gonna go get a job,

delete everything. I'll just do OnlyFans livestreams. Naked, naked livestreams.

If I put members only, I put like $50 a month, then that's a pretty high barrier to entry.

Why do you watch the old videos?

Who spends any time watching my old videos from 5 years ago?

No one.

They got maybe 10 views last month.

Maybe I'll leave a couple up, like the actually funny ones that weren't weird or too creepy.

It's not really about erasing reputation. It's about reducing the risk of being discovered. I've explained this before.

It's about reducing the chances that I get discovered.

I don't have the ability to make good videos anymore. It's don't have it in me.

It's like Mo Farah probably can't run a marathon anymore.

No one discovers me through the subreddit. What are you talking about?

Who's gonna find some random tiny little subreddit?

I'd had to get a job anyway. Even if I go back to YouTube, if Kick fails, YouTube doesn't make enough money.

That's why I was having this crazy idea of moving to Thailand before the Kick thing happened, because I wasn't saving any money. Even with OnlyFans, I was only just making enough. To cover expenses. That's why I was eating flour pancakes.

Yeah, I'm sticking with Kick.

It's the last resort.

Going back to YouTube isn't really an option.

I would probably make $800 a months if I went back

grinding again.

Maybe I meet a nice girl, have a nice life.

Maybe I got to get a job at some castle, be a car park attendant,

just stand there giving directions,

or work in like a ticket box. I sell the tickets.

They must be looking for staff at some of these attractions— castle, zoo,

park.

What? They're not teen jobs. Everyone working there, like, middle-aged. Have you not seen the streams where I go to Lydford Gorge or some castle? It's like some 50-year-old woman or man. None of these people are teens. Talking rubbish.

Wow, 1111 viewers.

Twin flames.

Get a job at Eden Project, maybe.

Asia supermarket. People already thought I worked there. I went to the Oriental supermarket in Plymouth. Within 5 minutes, this random couple came up to me, asked if I worked here. What, because I'm Asian you thought I worked here? Racists.

They pointed at this goya, asked me what it was. You know, that very bitter, knobbly green thing They slice thinly, put it on salads in Japan.

I said it's called a goya. No, I said I forgot what it's called, but it's very bitter.

Well, this is the end, isn't it? I can't talk about anything. I can't talk about girls. I can't talk about job if I get a job because I'll lose the job.

I'm everything. I'm shut down.

I can't talk about anything.

If I've got a job, can't talk about it. I'd risk losing it.

I really can't talk about anything.

I would never want to go to Russia. No way I'd want to go to Russia.

Moon owns property, but it's like a little room in this like communist block or something.

It's like a one-room dorm thing. That she bought or pays mortgage on or something like that.

I don't think she even has a kitchen.

Why would you buy it instead of just renting it?

I would never want to go to Russia.

Yeah, Fasta owns a house, doing better than me.

I just don't want to go overseas. The only places I would consider would have been Thailand.

Because I quite like Bangkok, but I'll probably get sick of it after a while. Imagine you blow 15K on a visa and then you get sick of it after a few months. Imagine the regret. But you've blown the money, you're stuck there now. You're either stuck there for 5 years or you just cut your losses, come back

to the UK. You lost your car and 15K. Great idea.

Rather just stay in my own country because I can always get a job if I need to. Overseas, I'm completely reliant on streaming.

Here, at least I can always get a job as a last resort, or even benefits. I go back to the job center.

I just have no interest in going overseas.

I don't really want to spend

Almost half the day, Monday to Friday, going to a stupid school every day for months, learning something I don't care about. That was torture. I hated it so much. First month was interesting because I was kind of curious to learn about Thai. After the second month, I just got so fed up. I was like falling asleep in

the class, doodling.

Found it hard to concentrate because I just didn't care anymore.

They started teaching us all these random words like put something in a closet, place pen on the table.

Just didn't care.

I kept thinking, why are we just learning random vocab

that's easy to look up? Why not do more grammar stuff, sentence construction? I can look up random grammar in the dictionary.

I disagreed with the way they taught the language. I'm a grammar first and then build vocab later. They were like focusing on drilling vocab, which I thought was so stupid.

嗯，好啊。

Whoops, did I not turn this roof on?

嗯。

This is the

What shooting news?

Didn't hear nothing.

If it's America, then it's kind of boring.

If your first instinct in an argument is to protect your character, a man with a physically or emotionally absent father— there's this old Turkish saying, if you truly love someone, you love them twice. The first time is quick. It's the butterflies. You're drawn to their smile, their laugh, the way they—

Homeowners in Cornwall, you need to take advantage of this new 2020. I would rather share one lifetime with you and face all the ages of this world alone.

I come to say goodbye. Where are you going? My little trip. Oh, Charlie, I'll miss you.

Yeah, I'm grown enough to admit that due to the bullshit I was put through, I'm a hard person to be with. I expect the worst. I don't know who's botting me, but it's not me.

I don't even know how to do it.

Wasn't me.

Maybe this view of my sofa is just so interesting.

Yeah, I can't believe Sam Pepper made fun of my accent. I have such a normal sounding British accent.

Can't believe that's the, the first thing he decides to

say about me.

Bro, why'd you talk like that?

What, like a normal person from Kent?

It's because I'm Asian, innit? If I was white, he would never say, why do I talk like that? He just saw an Asian face and was expecting an Asian accent to come out. He's racist. If

I was white, no one would ever think it's weird the way I talk. They would just think, oh, he's English.

He didn't see you? No, I'm pretty sure he was watching Ice's stream whilst on the phone.

Maybe he wasn't being racist on purpose, but it was like unintentional.

How sad. I thought as a fellow Kentish lad we might have had like a bond because he's from Ashford. I'm from Harrods. Well, I don't know where I'm from. Maidstone. I was born in Maidstone, which is about 20 minutes drive from Ashford. Maidstone's like the next town from Ashford. I did my work experience in Ashford, an architectural

company, when I was 14.

What do you think about the way my sister speaks?

She thinks she sounds posh.

I don't even think I sound that posh.

I used to get a lot of comments, people saying, I wasn't expecting him to speak like that.

That Bayless guy, now he sounds really posh, like Jacob Rees-Mogg. Mog Sun or something.

Beta speaks with that like BBC television presenter's voice, like the Blue Peter voice. Beta sounds like a Blue Peter host from the 1970s talking about cameras.

Now that's posh.

Jason Jacob Rees-Mogg, conservative politician, speaks really posh.

British people hate being accused of being posh. They downplay it. They, they make fun of each other for being posh, like Chris and Connor always make fun of each other.

People take it as an insult if they're called posh.

I heard a conversation at the— what was it? The Peugeot dealership when I was doing my MOT, I overheard the salesmen talking about something and one of them said, oh, you sound so posh, and the other one was like, oh, shut up, no I don't.

Oh my goodness, so rude.

POV getting banged by

Daniel. Watch this.

My new trick.

What?

Oh, did you see that? 3 seconds. Hand palm.

Duh, but you can't do that.

Soon I'll be walking on my hands.

That's so exhausting. And use your stomach muscles too and your leg muscles to hold your body up.

Maybe I'll get into calisthenics.

The end of the Beerus represents an end of an era. Yeah.

Venus would have finished those in 2 days.

Venus, such a stupid dumb-dumb, isn't she?

Thinks she's so tough.

Looks

like the butts are disappearing.

Thank goodness.

Okay, what to do tomorrow? Let me think. Hmm, yeah, hmm, don't know. Great.

Great idea.

Might get £6,000. Savings tomorrow.

Big day. Amazing news.

Buy a cat? I'm not allowed a cat. Says in the contract, no pets.

Maybe if I ask, he'll be okay with it.

I don't know, maybe. I mean, I could ask. I don't know, it's just— I don't know.

What if I get a doggy woggy?

Yeah, but what if I get a cat and it goes outside and then someone steals it? Maybe I wouldn't let the cat out. Someone might start feeding it and then it stops coming home. Then I'll have a taste of my own medicine, won't I? Yeah, well, I'll keep it here with catnip and treats.

I'd keep it indoors for like 6 months before I let it out so it knows this is its home.

Chip your cat.

Yeah,

but you can't really force it to not go somewhere, can you? If it wants to go there.

Really, all you can do is what the neighbor did and just ask nicely if they'll stop.

I feel like a dog could be fun, more fun, because it wants constant attention,

but maybe it'll get annoying. I'm not sure.

Also, it's going to cost money as well.

Oh look, back to 100 viewers. Well, might go to bed now then. Party's over. Take dog to the moors. Yeah, put the dog in the car. It can sit next to me.

Imagine streaming with the dog in the car.

Yeah, but if I go Tesco, I can't leave it in the car. But then you can't bring a dog into Tesco, and stupid haters report me, probably animal cruelty. I'll leave the window open.

How about just don't go to Tesco if you take the dog out? One time I was driving in Devon, must have been back in February, and there was a dog just running down the road, like sprinting down the road on its own with a queue of traffic behind it, a bus and everything. I didn't know what to

do. My first— at first I just stopped the car at the side of the road thinking, what the fuck, am I supposed to stop it or what? And then a police car came whizzing by the other way as if it was chasing the dog down.

Wild. It seemed like someone just abandoned the dog and the dog was running after the car.

Yeah, dog needs a lot of cleaning.

They're very messy

and noisy. Got to train

I also don't like causing trouble outside, and dogs,

it would make me anxious barking at other dogs and stuff.

I'd rather get a cat.

Well, viewership dropped off, so I'm gonna go to bed now. See ya.