why i regret getting divorced

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Hello, hello, testing.

So today we're gonna do some nostalgia

hunting again. I got a new place we can go

to that I just realized. Why don't we go

back to the apartment that I moved into

just before my dad got sick? Because I

know where it is. I had to, um, look on

Google Maps a little bit because I wasn't

exactly sure, but I figured out where it

was. Yeah, we go there and then we'll go

to the shopping mall that me and Shiori

used to go to a lot, and then I'm not

sure. About after that. I've seen a lot of

these rental bicycles around. I might have

a look at getting it, see how much it

costs. I've never seen these rental

bicycles here last time I was here. They

got quite a lot of them. And I've got this

new Wi-Fi. I've got a new 5G unlimited

pocket Wi-Fi, and I still got the old

pocket Wi-Fi. It's got about 12 gigabytes

left on it, but I did a speed test And

the download speed was faster, but the

upload speed was around the same. It

doesn't really matter. I mean, the speeds

were fine. It's just I needed unlimited

data. So test out the new pocket Wi-Fi.

Are you enjoying Japan? Yeah, it's been

good so far. Had some fun moments meeting

people. And I'm

still here for another— I

got here on the 12th, didn't I?

31 minus 12. I've been here 19

days, so 90 minus 19.

Uh, I only got 71 days.

I've only got like 2 months and 10 days

left. I bet Chihiro is like counting down

the days until I leave and then she can

finally breathe again. I bet she's mad

that I moved in right down her street. I

think that's the reason why she's blocked

me on everything. I reckon if I tried to

talk to her before coming here, she might

have replied, but I think she's mad.

She must be like, oh my God, why did he— I

told him I didn't want to see him ever

again. Now he's on my street. I reckon she

would have replied if I didn't move in

next to her.

I should have tested it. I mean, I should

have known that she would be mad. She's

either mad or she's scared. Which one do

you think it is? I don't know if she's

actually scared of me. Come on, I'm not

gonna do anything weird.

I'm not that I'm not that weird, okay?

It's kind of stalkerish. No, it's not.

It's not my fault the only guest house

that said I could move in and stay only 2

months was this one. My first choice was

Tsukamoto near the river, but they said

Will you walk 12 miles again? Probably

gonna walk for like 10 hours. It looks

quite warm today, but the wind might cool

it down. It says 21 degrees.

Hmm, I feel a bit hot in the room already.

She's mad. She doesn't have a reason to be

scared. Yeah, I don't think she thinks

that I'm like gonna bust down her door or

something. I mean, I can sometimes— I can

be a bit violent, but only in extreme

situations. I'm not unhinged and crazy.

I hope she understands that. I think

she knows me well enough that I'm

mainly just doing this for content and for

nostalgia, not because I'm like crazy

or something. It's not like you're going

outside her apartment. Well, I only did

that once and I did it off stream. I

wouldn't do it on stream because that

would be really messed up if I— because

it's Sunday, she might be at home now. If

I just stood outside her house streaming

her window, yeah, that would be weird. I

wouldn't do that. Even I know

what not to do.

Do you think your haters are messaging

her? Probably. They're messaging my mum.

My mum messaged me, she sent this picture

of people commenting on her face on her

YouTube, and it all obviously looks like

the same person. Look at this.

Hold on.

I'm so pissed at you for raising a human

being like Daniel. What have you done?

Now this nasty person is talking the most

horrible things online and nobody do

anything, not even you. Please tell your

mentally ill son to stop doing what he is

doing to that woman. It's absurd. As a

mother myself— yeah, sure, you're a

mother, not some weirdo guy living in his

parents' basement. As a mother myself, I

can't even start thinking how painful it

is having a son like Daniel. How painfully

it is. Why is the English so bad? At the

same time, I know you still have great

influence on him, so I ask you to kindly

try to talk to him. What he is doing with

that lady Chihiro is not okay. Thank you,

Kami. Are you the mother from Daniel Lord?

Can you please tell your son to stop

harassing Chihiro? I'm— I've

come to your channel, Miss Lord, to beg

you to please talk to Daniel. Look, look

at the names as well. Mark Willow, John

Jr., Ole Dawson, Rain— I know

Rainbow Mash, Akari Hayami

Roleplay. And they've all got 4 digits

after the name as well. It's all obviously

the same person, isn't it? They all speak

the same way. But every single one has

some kind of grammatical mistake in the

English. They're all writing in like the

exact tone, like outraged, pretending to

be outraged. My mum's so stupid, she

thinks it's real. My mum said,

can you please stop disturbing your

ex-wife? I'm not disturbing anyone.

I said to my mum, you're being trolled.

It's all the same person. Can't you tell?

My mum can't tell because she's not a

native English speaker. I don't think that

person is a native English speaker either

because it's full of mistakes. So stop

harassing my mum, you freaking weirdos.

My mum has no power to tell me what to do,

so you're wasting your time. When have I

ever listened to my— I have never listened

to my mum in my whole life. I'm not scared

of my mum. Why do you think my mum has any

kind of power over me? So just stop

disturbing my mum and causing her stress.

Weirdos pissing me off now.

My mum has no understanding of things like

trolls. She just thinks, oh, look at all

these people, these normal people who are

just concerned about my son.

She can't tell if they're trolls or

weirdos or LARPing. She doesn't understand

any of this. I tried explaining it to her

since 2018 and she just doesn't get it.

She thinks everyone on the internet are

like normal people or something.

I keep needing to go to the toilet to piss

and stuff. I met the American

guy yesterday. It was— I mean, he was

nice, but it was kind of awkward because

he was nice. Now I feel kind of bad for

complaining about him. I got food

yesterday walking around, went to

supermarket, and I came back and I heard

the door opening and I was in the

elevator. I thought it'd be kind of

dickish if I just shut the elevator, so I

held the door open and this like 5'11,

not too fat, like kind of biggish guy

steps in and I thought, oh my God, it's

him. And then he goes towards the door and

I follow in behind and he was like, oh,

you're the new guy. And I said, yeah, are

you the English teacher? And he said,

yeah, sorry if I'm loud. I said, no, it's

okay. The walls are really thin. So we had

a little chat. He was really nice. He had

like James vibes, very kind of like jolly

American kind of vibes. He didn't seem

weird or unhinged. He seemed very

friendly. So I bought food

at the supermarket, but they didn't have a

microwave, so I had to go down into the

kitchen of the guest house to heat it up.

And the living room kitchen was empty

apart from 2 people. There was like one

Indian guy cooking Indian food. There's so

many Indians here. And I chatted to the

American guy. He said the guy next to the

room next to me He's from Sri Lanka. So

there's like Indians and Sri Lankans in

this guesthouse. So I went into the

guesthouse living room and there's just

some Indian guy and another Asian guy.

I don't know if he was Japanese. He kind

of seemed Japanese. He was like skinny,

nerdy looking, very quiet looking. So I

just kind of stood at the microwave

heating my food up, but it was so Dead!

Come on, Saturday evening, 8 PM,

dead! What is wrong with guest houses

these days? Back when I used to come in

2010, 2011, 2012, every evening

the living room was bustling, like 30

people plus, all chatting, having a good

time, socializing. And now it's just

completely dead. I can't believe it.

I knew it was gonna be rubbish, but I

didn't think it'd be this bad. At least

2017, there was some kind of activity.

Even back in 2017, I was comparing it back

to 2010 and thinking, wow, what a dead

guest house. And it was the same guest

house I stayed in 2010, but now it's even

more dead. Everyone just stays in the

rooms, they just go into the kitchen to

heat up food. There was like no community

that I've seen so far, and it was Saturday

evening, should have been bustling.

So I felt really miserable last night.

The weather was horrible, it was really

windy, it was constantly like wind

noise rattling my window, and I just felt

like, oh my God, 5 years ago I

had a nice place to live, nice life,

visa, and I'm sitting in this rubbish

dingy building eating microwave chicken.

In some poverty guest house full of

Indians, and I'm like, oh my God, how did

life get so bad?

I really made the wrong decisions in life

to get to this point. This building sucks.

It's like this building was built in the

1970s or something. Everywhere looks

rusted and old, and it smells old. It

smells like the slum hotels in Nishinari.

Everything's old. The shower room, the

floor is like a metal panel

painted creamy white with rusted bits

where the paint has peeled off. Oh my God,

you can really tell the age of this

building. As old as my ex-wife.

Everything is just like beaten down.

I felt so miserable yesterday.

You get what you pay for. It's not even

cheap. It's like ¥60,000 a month.

The old guest houses I stayed in before

were like ¥40,000-50,000 a month and were

much more— well, they were renovated,

that's why. The guest house in

Kireuriwari, which is where I stayed in

2017 had been renovated, so it's more

modern. This place has not been renovated.

It feels like you're staying in a place

from the 1970s or '80s.

And can you afford a nicer place? I've

messaged like 15 different guest houses

before coming, and nearly all of them said

we were full, or you can only stay for

like 3 months minimum, or not 1 or 2

months. This was the

best appealing place that I could find.

You know, if the place is full of Indians,

you know it's a crap place because it's

like cheap. If it's too— I mean, it's

probably cheaper than a lot of the similar

guest houses in the area, and you know

when it's cheap Um, it's not good. I

haven't seen any women here either. I've

seen an Australian guy, a bunch of Indian

guys, and next to me there's the American

guy. I haven't seen any women. I don't

blame them either. Why would a woman want

to stay here? Hold on, I need to pee

Oh my God, the comments on my new video,

the Sora the Troll meeting, were so

annoying. This is why I don't speak

Japanese on my videos, because I knew this

would happen. You get idiots who, who

don't even speak Japanese, or they speak a

little bit and they think they know better

than me, and then they start correcting or

nitpicking my Japanese even though they

have worse Japanese than I do. Some idiot

in the comment was saying, why did Daniel

say tomo na tomo dachi ga inai do

when it should be tomo dachi ga inain da

or inayo? I said tomo dachi ga inayo.

How the hell do you think I said inai do?

Why would I say inai do? There's no such

thing as do in Japanese. You pissed me off

so much, stupid idiot. You think I married

a Japanese woman for 2 years and dated

countless Japanese women where we only

spoke Japanese, and I passed JLPT Level 2,

and you think I would say Japanese— I

mean, you think I'd say tomodachi ga inai

do? You think my Japanese is so bad? Why

would I say do? I obviously clearly said

yo. I rewinded it over and over again. I

don't know how he thought I said do.

Basic grammar. Iru, inai, nai, aru.

It's like the first thing you learn when

you learn Japanese. Why would I not know

how to say I don't have any friends? It's

like the most basic sentence, and you

think I said inaido. Why would I? He also

said, oh, it should have been inainda.

No, it shouldn't. Inainda would have been

a response to me saying tomada chigai

nayo. Like,

oh,友達がいないよ。え、友達がいないんだ would be like the

response to that, showing the surprise.

You wouldn't say いないんだ. Yeah, you could

say いないんだよ to like emphasize you don't

have any friends, but I didn't say いないんだよ.

I said いないよ, you stupid idiot. Fucking

nitpicking my Japanese. I would destroy

you with Japanese. I was just nervous.

Stupid. This is why I hate speaking

Japanese in videos and streams.

You think I can't say tonashi ga inayo?

God, give me a fucking break. Yeah,

I know my Japanese is not fluent or

perfect, but that's like the super basics

of Japanese. I know the super basics of

it. Stupid prick.

I had to delete the comment thread because

I got so pissed at it.

People saying I struggled with Japanese.

No, I didn't. I only struggled a

little bit when Sora was asking me about

friends. He was like, Do you have more

Japanese friends or foreigner friends? I

got a bit confused in the way he worded

Ah, I get so pissed off when noobs at

Japanese are like trying to correct me or

nitpick me when they probably have worse

Japanese than I do. If your Japanese is

good and better than mine, then okay, you

can correct me if I was wrong, but I

wasn't wrong and I really doubt yours is

better than mine, so shut the fuck up,

idiot.

I was nervous. You look at my English,

I even made weird mistakes in English.

Like Sora the Troll said, I'm a big fan of

your channel, and I said, me too. It

doesn't mean my English sucks, it just

means I was nervous, so I said the wrong

thing. Obviously I'm a native English

speaker. Stupid idiots don't understand

how being nervous works. Yeah, when you're

nervous, your communication skills aren't

very good. If I'm with a girl on a date

and we're only speaking Japanese, I don't

have any problems communicating with them

because we're not on stream. They don't

have all these viewers.

Also, if the person I'm talking to is

really good at English and we start off

speaking in English, I don't feel very

confident about speaking in Japanese.

My Japanese is good on like conversational

level with a girl. It's not great when

dealing with shops,

shop staff, that kind of stuff.

Now I can chat to a Japanese woman easily,

but I go to convenience store, I get a bit

confuddled.

Oh, thanks, Hamlet. Thai girlfriend

status? Yeah, we're still together. We

just came off the phone. She's gone to bed

now, so I can say anything I want.

Thai GF status? Still together.

I get so mad. This is why, number one, I

hate hanging out with gaijin because

they always trying to like one-up you on

their Japanese so they feel superior. Or

they're like, oh, you said this wrong,

when I didn't fucking say anything wrong.

They think they're better than me when

their pronunciation sucks.

It pisses me off. This is why I don't hang

out with foreigners in Japan because

there's like this stupid thing about

Japanese ability where they're trying to

feel smug about their own Japanese

ability, and then they're like trying to

test you to see who's better. I don't care

who's better. I didn't learn Japanese so I

can have like dick measuring contests with

some random American gaijin who thinks

he's hot stuff. I learned Japanese so I

could talk to Japanese women. That was the

Don't give a crap who's better or who's

worse. But if you're worse than me, don't

come at me trying to be all superior when

you're not.

Idiots.

If you are better than me, I will

acknowledge it and I will take criticism

to heart. But if you suck, then shut the

Stupid idiots.

Stream better not be demonetized.

All the streams are green so far. They go

yellow after I end. I don't know why. In

Thailand, they were yellow all the time

during the stream, and then I ended it,

it got green, then yellow, then green.

But now they're always green during the

stream, which is great. Means I get all

the ad rev whilst I'm streaming.

I can't believe that idiot thought I said

"友達がいないど". Why would I say that?

Number one, it's really hard to say.

Number two, I would never be so nervous

and then say "do" instead of "your".

Yeah, I'm gonna go outside now. I'm just

ranting whilst because the American guy is

not here, I don't have to whisper. Oh,

thanks, Hamlet. Daniel is giving supreme

gentleman vibes. Yeah, I get

really triggered about Japanese stuff.

I hate it when I say something and people

said I said something else when I clearly

didn't. I said "友達がいないよ."

Stupid twat. Read the subreddit recently.

Why? What they say now?

Where's Dragon's Dogma 2 review? Are you

blind? I made 2 reviews. How have you not

seen them? They both flopped. They got

like 2K views. Oh my God,

I'm so annoyed.

Is today an out and about? Yeah, we're

gonna go out now. I'm just ranting because

I got pissed off.

I'm gonna go to the second apartment that

me and Shiro moved into. Just before

my dad got sick, and we stayed there for

like 2 weeks. And then I cheated with Pia

and I went to Germany with a Turkish girl,

and then we broke up, like unofficially

broke up. And then she moved out, moved

into a place she lives in now, which is

just down the street of where we lived the

first time. And then, yeah, we only lived

there for like 2 weeks. She didn't like it

there. We only moved there because I liked

it. She liked some other place, but I

didn't like it because it was like in the

middle of a bunch of houses on a street

full of kids playing.

You shouldn't be upset about the tomodachi

thing. Yeah, I just get annoyed people

don't know what they're talking about and

then they try and correct me when I

clearly said yo. I didn't say do.

I replayed the stream. 100 times and I

clearly said your. I don't know what

you're talking about.

Yeah, I remember

getting to the new apartment was weird

because instead of going north out of the

station, we had to go south, south exit,

which we never went south exit because

there's nothing down the south exit. When

you get to train stations in Japan There's

always all the shops and stuff on one side

of the train station, either the east gate

or the west gate or the north gate or the

south gate, and then on the other gate

there's nothing. And they put all the

shops and the shopping stuff only on one

side, which is kind of funny. I mean,

it makes sense, I guess, to not split it

up. What did you do yesterday? Yesterday I

was really down. I woke up at like 11,

sat around for hours. I went out around 6

PM just to walk. I walked into the park

that way, sat at the park, and I just sat

on the bench thinking. And then I went to

the supermarket, got some food, walked

around a bit, nearly got hit by a stupid

car. The pedestrian crossing was green.

This stupid car just turns around and just

nearly hits me because I thought it's my

turn to cross, and he just keeps driving,

not even trying to stop. Stupid Idiot.

I'm really pissed off right now because

when the pedestrian sign is green, they—

the cars keep trying to cross even though

they should stop. I'm trying to cross

here, it's my right of way. You're

supposed to stop, you stupid idiot. But

that car didn't even try and stop, it just

kept driving through it. So I was like,

whoa.

I don't know what is wrong with Japanese

drivers. They're bad. I think Japanese

drivers, they're not as bad as Thai

drivers, but they

are very selfish drivers, I think,

especially in regards to giving way to

pedestrians. I don't understand

it. Pedestrian crossing, red light, But

they keep going even though I'm trying to

cross. I should report them to the police.

Got it on camera. Actually, I don't have

it on camera because I didn't stream

yesterday. Yeah, you gotta be careful.

Even if it's green, don't think you can

just go because some people will just—

they'll try and make a dash for it because

they think they can drive faster before

you cross, and they'll just— because

they're so impatient, they'll just try and

drive through it.

They try and edge out onto the crossing as

well. You see the taxis doing it. You're

crossing and they get right up onto the

zebra crossing and they're like edging

forwards, waiting for you to cross, and as

soon as you get past, they'll go vroom!

You can't do that in the UK. In the UK,

even if there's no one on the crossing and

it goes red, you're supposed to stop, and

if you don't stop, you'll get busted. My

driving instructor was like, stop, stop,

stop, Daniel. But I was like, there's no

one on the crossing, can I just go anyway?

He said, no, if it's red, you gotta stop.

What does geriatric mean? I forgot what

Relating to illness and medical care of

old people. What? Are you saying

they're old so they're stupid or

I don't remember being so pissed off at

Japanese drivers last time. Maybe because

I didn't go outside so much. Anyway, I'm

gonna get ready. Let's go out, otherwise

you'll never leave this room.

Why the fuck would

I say that?

I got experience of talking Japanese for

like 15 years. Why would I say友達がいないと?

Stupid. Clearly said友達がいないよ.

Please get your ears checked.

Criticizing my Japanese. Stupid.

Other guys like, oh, so do you understand

Japanese or not? They just had a Japanese

conversation right in front of you. What

Pretty good. This is exactly why I don't

speak Japanese on my channel.

This is exactly Tomoda

chigai naido. Sounds so stupid. Why why

why would I say that? Why would you think

I said that? There's no such grammar as

do. Doesn't say anything like

do.

It's like English. I don't

have any threat any friends. I don't have

any friends though.

友達がいないだろ。He's so triggered. Yeah, I do get

triggered because I bet you anything that

guy sucks worse at me than

me. See, I make mistakes in English too.

Doesn't mean my English is bad. It's just

a slip of the tongue.

Okay, I've got that out of my system.

Test out the new pocket Wi-Fi. Look at

this thing, this thing's a beast. 5G

unlimited. iVideo. I'm pretty impressed

with iVideo. I recommend it. Done all my

streams using the 4G 100GB,

uh, pocket Wi-Fi and it worked great. I

don't recommend going to Yodobashi Camera

and getting a SIM card anymore. I thought

that was the way. I wonder

what ice uses. I've seen Ice effing way

more than I've been effing, and he's got a

live view or something. Got 5G unlimited

data, baby. $72 a month. I've made nearly

$2,000 a month thanks to you guys watching

my streamos. I cracked

$2,000 March earnings.

I made like 1,087 on

the main channel, 850 of that was

streaming, and then I made like 600 on the

second channel, and then I made like 360

PayPal donos. So I cracked 2K.

Next month when I get my YouTube pay,

it's gonna be so good, but I can't splurge

because I gotta pay off my credit card and

I'm gonna pay my mum. Boring. I've gotta

pay my debts.

How much from ads? Uh, I don't know, I

have to check analytics. It's probably

mostly from donos though. Some ads. I'm

getting more ads now because my stream's

actually green.

So I get my YouTube pay at the end of next

April. The tax year starts at the

beginning of April, so all this big money

I'm making now doesn't count for this

year's tax year. It'll count for next

year's tax year. So suck it, HMRC.

You lose, I win.

Daniel wins again.

Oh God, I was so depressed yesterday, but

now I feel great, full of energy.

Missed you guys.

I got burnt out from meeting Sora and that

other guy. It was kind of exhausting.

Make friends with the poojits.

Uh, no thanks.

I can only really make friends with

Westerners and maybe Japanese. I really

struggle to ever make friends with other

Asians, especially around the Indian

area. I don't know why, I just don't click

with them. I click really well with

Americans and Canadians,

not really that well with Europeans.

Europeans are tough cookies to crack,

especially Germanic people. Germans are

hard. I don't know why, they just got like

very cold, robotic front that I find hard

to make friends with. Americans are great,

they're always like very lively and

bubbly. I chatted to the American guy in

the other room, he's really nice,

but I'm a bit worried he's gonna find out

because I complained a bit about him being

noisy. Okay, do I have

everything? Australians, uh,

Australians are like 50/50. Sometimes

they're okay. I don't like the way they

swear all the time, and they use the word

cunt a lot, which I don't like. I find it

very abrasive. Oh, my iPhone.

Oh my god, I'm pumped right now. I need to

get walking. I'm full of energy. What else

do I have? I bought this new coffee, but

it's still not great. I don't really like

the Norwegian coffee. It's got like a

weird bitter taste to it. So I've got this

Korean coffee, but it's still got a weird

aftertaste. I miss my Thailand coffee,

the Trio instant coffee.

Was he fat? He had a bit of a belly, but

he wasn't huge like Tiki or Sam or

anything. He just— he looked quite tall,

like 5'11, 5'10.

But he sounded bubbly, which I like.

I got the green bags. I've got to put the

rubbish out. I think plastics

and stuff go out on Tuesday. I think it

was Mondays for bottles, so I guess I take

it out tomorrow. Chihiro always used to do

this. I didn't used to have to get rid of

the rubbish myself, so this is all new to

me. Because we used to get these green

bags when we were married. Now I've got to

get them myself. Got to find out the

special day. You're not supposed to put

the rubbish out until it's the day before

it gets collected, so I think I put it out

at night or before 9 AM. I never had to do

this before. Okay, I've got my wallet.

I don't know how far we're gonna go. I

don't know if we're going to Osaka today.

A bit bored of Osaka.

There's my train card. Also, I don't

have much yen left and I don't want to

convert pounds into yen on the weekend

because I get a 1% conversion fee,

so I'm trying not to spend too much. I've

only got ¥1,000. I've got

no yen on my Revolut, so I've got a bunch

of coins.

I got 500. I think I got like— oh, I got

¥1,500 in coins. I can't

convert any yen today because it's Sunday.

I don't want to pay the 1%.

Okay, let's go. I think everyone's out.

Oh, I got this spray. I might test it out

later. I got this cup noodle called Hot

Noodle, ripping off Pot Noodle. See if

that tastes any good. And I got this— I

got this spray because my jacket smells

weird. It smells musty.

So I got this, um, It's for shoes. It gets

rid of smells and bacteria,

so I'm going to spray my jacket with it or

maybe wash it. It's just I don't want to

wash it yet because I don't have many

other things to wash.

I have to get it cleaned.

Maybe we do it today then. But then I've

got to sit around without my jacket for 40

There's a laundry machine here. If there's

no one downstairs, I might have a quick

peek and see how much it costs.

Leave the window open to vent it—

ventilate it. I think I've got everything.

Okay, let's just go.

Guess it's ¥300. The one I went to before

cost ¥700. ¥500 on sale for this thing.

Oh my God, it's empty. It's completely

empty. This place is dead.

Oh, oh, there's loads of laundry. I didn't

realize it's so much, but someone's doing

it. How much is it? Oh, ¥100 to dry,

¥200 to clean. Oh, I should just do it

here then. Yeah, I'll do it later, I

guess. There's no

one here. Have a quick look around then.

Interesting. Yeah, I microwaved my food

there last night. It's quite clean, I

guess. Who punched this? Did someone punch

that? What? And then

you got a kitchen. Kitchen's quite clean.

All right, let's go. Nice, no one here.

Oh wow, it's warm. Holy crap,

where's my tripod?

Oh, switch lens.

Why is my screen brightness not very

bright?

Looks like a good place. Yeah, it's okay,

it's just the building's a bit old.

I think I'll just do my laundry there next

time. It's weird how they put the lawn—

oh, my foot hurts still. I don't know why.

Right here, it hurts.

Ah, it's like the tendon above the toe.

The big toe is kind of bruised.

I thought it was my shoe poking it.

It hurts from when I met Sora.

I went to Osaka Castle; it started

Did did you do it next to your breakfast?

Did what?

Did you never take out trash? Show you

other guest houses. At the other guest

house, they had a load of bins in the

entrance and you just shoved it into the

right bin. But here you're supposed to put

it in the green bags and put it in the

garbage area.

So I've got to manage my garbage like

a proper Japanese person, but I can't be

bothered.

Chihiro used to do it for me.

Chihiro used to do everything for me, so I

never had to do anything really. Look, if

you walk up there, which I did yesterday,

there's this big park that I went to with

her. I remember it very clearly.

Because I bought a new camera with a zoom

on it and I was taking photos of flowers.

I remember the video, you guys might

remember it as well. I was wearing

sunglasses and she was walking behind me,

kind of popping her head, her face from

behind my shoulders. That was back when I

wasn't really showing her face, so she was

just like hiding behind my shoulder and

she popped up for like 2 seconds. It did

take a while until started just filming

her face. Had to ease her into it.

So we go straight for about 15 minutes and

turn right and go straight, then we cross

over the train station and head south.

New pocket Wi-Fi is doing well.

I find it interesting how some of the

Japanese mums, they've got like a special

baby seat on the back of the bicycle. You

would never see a mother carrying her baby

on a bike in the UK. Why don't you just

get a car? How can you not afford a car

when you've got a baby? If you can't

afford a car, how can you afford to raise

a baby and a family?

It just seems weird. Like, why would you

risk your baby's life on the back of a

bicycle? I've seen,

um, Japanese moms with a baby strapped on

their stomach and a baby on the back. 2

babies on a bicycle. Just get a car.

You're telling me your husband doesn't

make enough money to buy you a car? Let's

get like a cheap $1,000 boxcar like that.

How can you have enough money to raise

kids but you don't have enough money to

buy a car? I don't get it. If you can't

afford a car, you shouldn't be raising

kids. I bet the Indian guys work here

from the guest house. Maybe they do work

Your logic is shit. Yeah, well, I wouldn't

want to have kids if I couldn't get a car,

because you need a car. Imagine taking

your screaming kids on a train or

something. So embarrassing. Damn, the

weather's nice today. 21 degrees, getting

back to Thailand levels. I need to start

taking layers off my clothing.

Ah, nice day today. I wonder what Shiro's

up to. She's probably watching some TV in

her room. She should come join me for a

nostalgia trip to our second home.

Just before my— it's going to be weird

because I haven't been on that street

since my dad died. Last time I was there,

my dad was alive. I remember my mum, my

sister were messaging me saying my dad was

sick. It was like 5 AM in the morning. Me

and Chihiro had jet lag from just getting

back from Christmas. The jet lag was so

bad after we got back Christmas. We were

just lying there, eyes wide open, 2:00

a.m. in the morning. It was so tough.

And then I got the message and we had— I

had to book the fastest next-day ticket I

could find. It probably cost like £1,500,

I don't know. I, I booked the fastest one.

We packed our stuff, walked towards the

train station at like 5:00 a.m. in the

morning. Got on the bus. We got on the bus

to the airport, and I just remember I was

so scared about

what this means. Like, life without my

dad— how are we even going to survive? My

dad, my dad managed, and he took care of

everything for us. We felt like this sense

of security because my dad was just a very

reliable person. And I thought, how are we

going to survive without him? What's going

to happen to the house, all this stuff.

It's a very scary moment in life.

Am I allowed to cross or what?

So yeah, it was very scary, and then

stupid Nobita gave me a copyright strike

as well. So it was even more stress. I

already had one strike because of the

cockroach, and then I had a second strike

because of Nobita. I remember landing in

Heathrow or some connecting airport and

then seeing the email saying— from YouTube

saying I got another strike. I was one

strike away from being banned.

Nobita is such a dick, gives me a

copyright strike Right, just when my dad's

Thankfully he removed it.

I'm not doing anything wrong. My mum said,

please leave Chihiro, please leave that

poor woman alone. I'm not doing doing

anything. I'm just walking, walking and

talking, doing some

nostalgia hunting down memory lane.

There's nothing wrong about that. I'm not

being a creep or being weird, not being

degenerate. I'm just like reminiscing.

If you actually watch the stream, you'll

see what I do. And I'll just— why would

you just believe what trolls are saying?

Without checking first.

That guy's a U-turn. Are you supposed to?

I don't think you're supposed to do

U-turns like that. That guy looks like

someone who's trying to run you over when

you're crossing the pedestrian walkway.

Where's some old man? Going— lots

of driving.

I thought he was gonna ride right into me.

God, it's kind of hot today. I should have

worn one t-shirt, not two.

I brought my GoPro strap in case I get a

bicycle, put the strap on.

Nothing's blooming yet. When these trees

start blooming, it will look real nice.

There's all these trees down this road.

She's just— she's pushing her little wheel

trolley thing. She just pushes it and lets

it roll for a few steps, and then she

grabs it and pushes it again. Funny.

Surely that uses more energy than just

holding the handle.

People don't understand about energy

consumption. They waste energy trying to

cheat and take shortcuts, and they end up

just using more energy than if they just

did things properly. Life is all about

energy in and energy out. You don't want

to waste your energy as someone with

limited funds. It's not wise.

Okay, where's the train station?

Actually, I think we gotta turn right

here.

Oh yeah, I see the 2 big buildings. It's

kind of, um, scary though going through

this train station bit. I mean, it's 2 PM.

I don't think Chihiro is going to be

around there.

She's probably checking the stream now to

check where I am.

You have pent-up serial energy. I jacked

off like 5 times yesterday because I was

so bored.

I'm sorry about that, very rude.

She's at work on Sunday? I don't think so.

She's probably out with friends or, I

don't know, doing Hanami.

My live announcement in case she's

watching. I'm just gonna pass through the

station so I get to the other side. Don't

worry, I'm not gonna go to your window and

stream it.

Come on, the green, for God's sake!

So we go straight here until we get to the

station, go through the station, over the

tracks. No,

no,

this town is big enough for 2 of us.

Don't need to get mad.

I would like to cross the street though,

because this side of the street is the

side where her apartment is. I don't want

to be too close because that would be

weird, wouldn't it? Average age of

your viewers? They're like 25 to 34.

I think 60%, 70% are like 25 to 34,

and then about 20% are 20 to

30, and then I've got a lot of older

viewers like 60+, 45 to 55 like 15%.

Goddamn,

it's warm today and it's cloudy. I checked

the weather, it said cloudy all day,

which is good. No sun and no rain.

I don't have young viewers. I think young

people find my content really boring.

Imagine being 16 watching some middle-aged

guy ramble on about his regrets in life,

not doing anything fun. So there's no way

I'd ever get a young audience. To get a

young audience, you need to be like Sora

the Troll, talk about peepees and poo-poos

and do funny anime voice. That's just not

what I'm doing. I don't want to do that.

I don't want like 15-year-old audience.

Be weird. I like how my audience

is my age mostly.

Oh, who put the rubbish here? Can't do

that, can you?

What if I just go up to the rubbish men

and just hand them my rubbish?

Here for the train. Train wreck. I don't

know if young viewers like train wrecks.

I really want to cross the road. This is

getting way too close.

I should cross the road here.

Oh my God, this is way too close.

This is— over the street There's where we

used to go to the supermarket,

and then there's a park with a load of

stray cats. I want to see if the cats are

still there. I'm gonna cross here.

Oh, look, these are bicycles you can rent.

What does it say? How do I get one?

Bicycle sharing station price and how to

use. You got to sign up the application,

book a bike, unlock it.

I bet I need Zaidu card or something. I

want to get one of these. Oh, they're

electric bikes as well. Can someone try

downloading it, see if you need a passport

You need

Japanese ID? Oh my God, why does

everything need ID? Just get a bicycle,

maybe blood buckets. Can make an account.

Hello Cycling. Because I've seen these

everywhere, be pretty useful. How much is

it? Says a sign-up

fee is free for new members.

Oh, that kid looks like he weighs more

than me.

I bet he could beat me up as well. What's

the plan? We're gonna go to the second

home. Do you remember the famous video

about the sofa? The sofa delivery came and

then I didn't answer the door and then

they drove off and I was freaking out.

We're gonna go to that apartment. I made

some videos there, like Worst day of my

life. The moving stuff. Remember people

were like, Daniel doesn't help his wife.

Like cross? What?

Do you remember the moving stuff when I

was sitting there playing Rainbow Six

while she was packing and she was like,

lazy husband. That was funny.

What'd he say? Yeah, the sofa thing was an

epic moment. I was all excited streaming

on Twitch, had like 250 viewers,

and then the sofa came, but they knocked

on the wrong door because Chihiro gave

them the wrong door number. So it was

Chihiro's fault, not mine.

She gave them the wrong door number. I

didn't know what to do because if I said,

oh, that's my sofa, I don't have any

proof. And when Chihiro goes to work, she

has to lock her phone in a locker. She's

not allowed to look at her phone, so I

couldn't reach her until she finished

work. So if I went out and I said, that's

my sofa, they'd be like, where's your

receipt? Where's your proof? And then the

sofa would have been under Chihiro's name,

not mine. I don't know how to explain it

in Japanese. How would I say, like,

すみません、僕のソファですけど?

That would sound so stupid.

僕のソファです。 I don't

know how to explain it properly.

So I just kind of panicked and let them

drive off with it.

We used the sofa for 2 weeks. She said the

sofa was too big to bring to her new place

and she couldn't get a refund, so she had

to pay a company to get rid of it. They

cut it in half or something. So we ended

up having to pay to use a sofa for 2

weeks. Well, she had to pay for me. The

sofa was like $200 or something. I really

wanted a sofa because we couldn't fit one

in the first apartment.

I ruined my marriage and lost my visa.

Just so I could get with some fangirls

like Mila and Turkish Girl. So not

worth it. God, I can't believe

I ditched all this just for a few months

with Mila and some other girls.

Why did I think that was a good idea?

The hardest thing about YouTube is trying

to find someone who's okay with being on

my channel. Sunny and Blood

Bucket, they're fine with being on the

channel, which is nice, but it would be

nice to have like a partner who's okay

with being on the channel. And Chihiro was

okay with it, and I didn't realize at the

time how useful that was.

So many girls, they don't want to be on

the channel. They don't want their faces

filmed and stuff like that. So it kind

of makes my job harder if I don't have

someone like that. I checked my old

messages with Chihiro. She said 2 things.

One of them came true. Number one, in 2021

she said, why don't you go to Thailand?

Because I was complaining to her when I

was in Manchester that I can't find a

girlfriend, and I was sad because Japan's

closed. So she said, why don't you try

Thailand? And I said, why would I go to

Thailand? Isn't it a rubbish country and

dirty? And she said, no, you should try,

you might be popular. But I blew off the

idea and then ended up getting a Thai

girlfriend. And then the second thing she

said was, why don't you just find a girl

who's okay with being on camera but you

don't have sex with her, just like a

friend? Like, maybe that can be Sunny. So

she predicted 2 things that came true,

which is kind of funny.

Yeah, I guess if we can't have sex,

then I'd be okay with it. If they would

help me make content, that would also be

great. We don't have to have sex.

I think I'd be— if I had to choose between

sex but they're not on the channel, or

they're on the channel but no sex, then

maybe I'll choose on the channel but no

sex. I think I value having a YouTube

partner more than a sex partner right now.

I'm not really bothered that much about

sex, I just jerk off.

But the, the mistake I made was

I prioritized sex over the channel.

In the previous years. But now I feel

great because now I can finally put the

channel first. Oh crap, the police!

Oh crap, we're at the station! We gotta go

quick because I don't know,

the chances of her getting on the train at

this time I think would be low.

If she's gonna go out and meet friends,

it would be in the afternoon, wouldn't it?

Why would you go out at 2 PM?

We just need to cross over the tracks.

Mida was super attractive. Yeah, she was,

and she was fine with being on the channel

at first, but then she changed her mind.

I think when she changed her mind, I

should have ditched her, but I was like in

love or something. I think in hindsight,

when she dumped me the first time, I

should have just said, okay, if you don't

want to be on the channel, then bye, I

I need to find someone who wants to be on

the channel, who I

feel comfortable hanging out with.

Who doesn't care about trolls?

Go ahead, girl, pass over.

I forgot which way we go.

So, this is the south exit.

We have to go down,

I think, down.

I'm just a bit nervous around this area

because this is where her mum works.

Her mum's company is in that big building.

So then we go down, we gotta bypass this

block.

Now they used to have a Staya over there

which we used to go to rent Game of

Thrones, but they turned it into a gym.

How many times do you think you walk a

day? Every day.

I do like 20,000, 30,000 steps every time

I stream outside.

My, my arms are really getting thin now.

No dumbbells and no food.

Yeah, we go— I think we go this way.

I forgot which way we used to go.