[2025-03-03] confusing and weird day [nFFD4uUGXtc]

Testing,

testing.

Okay,

no, me and Sunny are not back together.

She still blocked me. We haven't talked.

I keep hearing noises outside.

But according to the timeline of the

previous fight, it went like this: fight

when I'm streaming, obviously, um,

fallout on stream,

um, getting blocked on that day,

and then next day go to work And then at

the end of the workday,

resolution. So if

we're following the previous timeline, it

would be tonight, wouldn't it?

Was it only 2 days last time? I can't

remember now. I think it was only 2 days.

It can't have been only 2 days. Where's

that Discord sound coming from?

Oh,

she blocked you a week ago. Yeah, this one

feels more stretched out, like the fight

happened a week ago and then the blocking

happened probably yesterday,

maybe. I'm not sure. And then I went to

work today. God, today's workday

was so weird. I have no idea what's going

on.

I feel so confused. And then when you ask

people, it's like they don't understand

what I'm trying to ask. I find it really—

I've had a few moments living here where

it's like we're not even speaking the same

language. It's like I'm asking something

And then they're replying with an answer

that has nothing to do with what I asked.

It's really bizarre. Am I not speaking

clear English or something?

It's really weird. It's like, why don't

people understand what I'm trying to ask?

They always seem really confused about

what I'm trying to ask.

For example, weeks ago I did a delivery.

The drive was very tight. The road was

very tight. I was a bit nervous about how

to get out. So I asked the guy who

answered the door, how— what's—

how would you reverse out into the

road? How would you get out back onto the

road? And then he kept trying to give me

directions to the town. He was like,

well, if you're going to go that way,

then it'll take you back to this place.

But you could go that way and then go all

the way around. That's not what I'm

asking. So I asked him again. I was like,

okay, but how would you reverse out of

here? And then he just said the same thing

again, gave me directions. I'm not asking

for directions. Just wondering, how do you

Because he was, he was like, he drove into

his driveway. So how would he get out?

Would he also just reverse out into the

I was hoping he would just say, oh, just

reverse out onto the road, it's fine,

you'll be good. You know, some

reassurance. I didn't want to bash my

car again.

Yeah, maybe I'm not asking clearly enough.

And then I asked the boss. I remember the

first day I met the boss. I asked him, I

said something like,

I said something like, so when I start

next Monday, I won't be

delivering out of this depot. So it would

be different delivery addresses, wouldn't

it? And he was like, what do you mean?

What do you mean, what do I mean? I meant

what I just said. I thought that was

pretty clear.

I think there's a cat. There's a cat on my

roof.

What? There's cats everywhere. The cat

came into my house the other day. I had

the conservatory door open. This black

cat, he just started sniffing around and

he came into my house and then walks back

out. And then this other cat likes to jump

onto the conservatory roof.

Yeah, so I said that was really confusing

because last Friday he said Everyone

gets Saturday off. No one's coming in on

Saturday. So I said, okay. And then he

said, it would be best if you show up 8 AM

on Monday because the system or something

is changing. 48-hour system. I don't even

know what that meant. I didn't really

care, to be honest. Just wanted to know

how is it going to affect me. I don't need

to know how, you know, the logistics of

the company works. So he says, come in on

Come in at 8 AM on Monday. So I go in,

arrive at 8:10, no one's there.

There's like one guy who just finished

packing and he left, and then I was just

there. I was the only one there, which is

really weird because all the other times

I've gone to work, it's always been like

10 people loading their cars. I go there

and I start loading my parcels. It says

I've got 60 parcels, so I start scanning

and loading and And then I finished

scanning and there's still 20 left.

There's just 20 parcels missing. So I text

the boss. I didn't get any reply. And then

I still don't have a reply.

Nothing. So then I'm just standing there

at the depot all alone with 20 parcels

missing. And then this other woman finally

arrives. And then I ask her,

Uh, why is no one here?

And then I don't even remember what she

She says something like—

people say stuff to me and I just don't

remember what they say. That's the

problem. She's— because they talk so much

and they don't get to the point. They're

like blah blah blah blah blah. She said

something like, they came in on Saturday

early. What does that even mean? She was

like, they came in on Saturday early to

pick everything up because we're on a

48-hour system. What does that mean? Who

is they?

And then I asked if the lorry was going to

come and drop off more parcels, but she

just kind of walked off. Maybe she didn't

hear me. So I didn't want to seem stupid

and keep asking her, what do you mean?

What do you mean? So I just pretended I

understood and I walked off. They?

What, the other delivery drivers? But the

boss said to me no one's coming in on

Saturday. So then she comes over

to me again and then she says, have you

checked the other sheds for the parcels?

Maybe they've been misplaced. So I check

and there's nothing. And then she says,

The lorry came late on Saturday and

dropped off the parcels. Okay, but then

how come I'm missing 20?

So I said, okay, should I just deliver

what I have and then skip the rest that

are missing? She said, yeah, that's

probably best. Really confused. I don't

understand. So I

only delivered about 38 parcels, probably

made like £40. The boss hasn't

replied to me. I don't know what's going

on. I don't know what this 48-hour system

is. What does that even mean?

He said like the system's changing.

So then I finished my shift and I checked

the app and now it says I've got 86

parcels to deliver. So I don't know if

that means the lorry came later and then

dropped off 86 parcels that I've got

delivered tomorrow now. Yeah, I feel like

someone's— people aren't telling me the

full picture. Like I'm getting

conflicting information.

And then she said all the parcels here

right now were dropped off on Saturday.

So we're doing Saturday's shift on Monday

and we'll be doing Monday's shift on

Tuesday. So now it says Monday's parcels,

86, but I already came home. I'm not gonna

go back out and do another 86. So

hopefully those 86 are gonna be there

waiting for me tomorrow without a bunch

missing.

People talk too much. I just need like the

bullet point bits of information without

all the fluff around it. I kind of just

zone out when people start talking too

much. I zone out. And then I don't

remember anything they said because

they like mix in all the banter in amongst

the bullet points. And then you've got to

like extract the information out of the

banter and put it into your own bullet

points. I don't—

I don't need the banter.

I just need to know what I'm supposed to

do. At what time do I have to come in? Do

I have to do anything differently? Okay,

whatever.

Okay, it's not a big

problem. I mean, I delivered 38,

whatever. Going tomorrow, hopefully my 80

parcels are there. God,

I got a headache. I don't know why I got a

headache and I feel tired all the time.

And the weather's really confusing because

in the morning it's freezing and it's icy,

and then around 11-ish, it just gets

really hot.

I went to the— I needed the toilet really

badly, so I went to the Tesco and I peed

in the disabled toilet. For some reason,

they've only got disabled toilets and a

baby toilet and no normal toilets.

Maybe I didn't have enough water. I don't

I had, had jasmine tea when I came home,

and then I just had a Huel mixed with

water and a bit of milk.

The latest on Sunny? Nothing really.

Still blocked. WhatsApp message still has

one tick.

My sister messaged me. She said, what

happened? Uh, my sister agrees Sunny's

being immature.

And sounds like she's a bit spoiled and

then throws a tantrum when she can't get

what she wants and then blocks you.

Pretty much people

were saying, oh, you— the boyfriend—

supposed to be able to rely on the

boyfriend. Yeah, you can rely on me.

If you ask nicely and don't be a B about

it. If you start being rude to me about

it, then no, I'm not going to do favors

for you. She just asked nicely.

Not all this weird, passive-aggressive,

round-the-bush way of talking where it's

like she paints the scenario where she

seems so, oh, it's poor you. And then I'm

supposed to just take the initiative and

go and rescue her. I didn't know that.

Just ask. Just say, uh, I really don't

want to be at home right now, can I come

spend the night with you? Just say it like

that and then I would have been like,

okay, sure. But then she was being all

moody with me, so I didn't really want to.

If you want people to do stuff for you,

then you gotta ask nicely. Don't be mean

about it.

I hate it when people become all like

passive-aggressive, like, oh,

is it so hard to have a boyfriend who can

come rescue me? I hate that.

It's really annoying.

As soon— I mean, I was being all

supportive, and then as soon as I felt

like she's now turning her anger towards

me— so first she was angry with her mum,

and then I felt like, oh no, the anger is

being directed at me now. And then I just

I flipped my phone over, I put it down,

and I carried on streaming because I

didn't want to deal with that. And then

what that resulted in is she now blocks me

to break up.

What does your sister think about your mum

lending me £20K tonight?

Do you think she's jealous? I'm sure my

mum would help my sister out if she needed

the money,

but my sister's rich. She makes like £40K

a year. I don't even know

what she spends her money on. Surely

living in London can't be that expensive

where they're living paycheck to paycheck.

I'm guessing she probably had to chip in

for the house repairs. I don't know what

she spends her money on. She probably— I

think they go out a lot, like go out to

eat with friends and they, they travel

quite often.

It's not poverty. Yeah, maybe in America

it is. This is the UK.

UK incomes aren't the same as American

incomes. It's like me saying, oh, my sis—

my sister in Thailand makes 20K

a year, she's rich. And then you're like,

oh, 20K, that's poverty. Yeah, in America.

In Thailand, you'd be rich if you made

20K a year. Why don't you guys understand

that the whole world isn't America? 40K in

the UK is rich.

It's way above the medium average income.

Most people in this country don't make

$40K. Most people in this country make way

below $40K. If you're making $40K, you are

richer than the majority of the country.

80k in the UK is amazing. Yeah, 80k is

pretty rich too, but you'd need a damn

good job to make that.

There's like, um, junior software

engineers, they make, I don't know,

£2,500 a month. That's what I'm making.

35k is average national wage.

Really? That's not the answer I got.

Depends what search engine you use.

What is average salary in UK?

Eh, £37,000. That's according to

statista.com.

£35,000.

This one says 37,000,

42,000.

Yeah, this one says 31,000. So how do you

know? They all say different things. I

don't know, whatever.

But I think my sister makes like $4K a

month, $3K to $4K a month. And then if

rent— well, she doesn't pay rent, she pays

mortgage. I don't know how much she pays

for mortgage, maybe like $800, and food

maybe $500. She should have like $2,000

left over. Unless they splurge a

I just, you know, you go outside and you

see everyone working. What do you see?

Delivery drivers, the postman, bus

drivers, people working in restaurants and

shops, sales assistants. They aren't

making £40K a year. They're probably

making like 20K a year, 25K a year.

The majority of people you see outside

working making way less than 35K.

Did I thank my mom for the free loan?

Yes,

it's not free because I'm gonna pay it

back, but first

I'm gonna put my money into 20-year US

Treasury bonds until I have $10,000,

and then, then when I've got $10K,

I'll just take it all out and pay it back

all at once. I think bonds are going to do

very well. I have high conviction on

bonds. I'm going to build a position,

probably $5K. I want to be $5K in bonds,

$4K in gold.

When am I going to be debt-free?

I don't know, maybe the end of this year.

No, I don't want to get a Toyota Yaris.

I think you underestimate how nice it is

having a car that doesn't make any sound.

It just goes.

It's so nice. I can like stealth sneak up

to houses, drop off the parcel, and run

back into the car before they even know

I'm there. I'm like, and then rush off.

If they can hear like my diesel engine van

rolling up, they would know I'm there. I

can sneak up on houses. Silently.

It's like a stealth bomber.

I would hate to like roll down this really

quiet neighborhood and my engine's going.

Yeah, I think I would not drive

if it wasn't an EV. It has to be an

I love how quiet they are.

These places around here are so quiet,

like little villages. It's dead silent.

I noticed, um, yeah, everyone in my

neighborhood has really nice cars like

Audis and BMWs.

Am I in a rich neighborhood?

Does it bother me my sister's more

successful than me? Not really.

She chose her life. I chose mine.

I wonder who's been in more relationships

though. I think she's probably had less

than me.

Him, him, him,

him, and now. I think she's had like 5

or maybe 4 serious relationships. I've

had— I don't even know if you call them—

most of mine weren't serious

relationships. I'd say I only had 3

serious relationships. Would you say Mida

was serious? I guess Sunny was kind of

serious. I mean, it was about to— I mean,

it would have been serious if it didn't

end so quickly. So yeah, I would count

that as a serious relationship. It just

didn't last very long. So I'd say I've had

like 4 serious relationships, and then the

others Like French girlfriend, comedy

girl, single mother. That— those aren't

serious. It's just like pissing about.

I'm a bit annoyed I don't have a message

from the car company saying that they got

the money. Why is it taking so long?

And then I messaged them saying I sent the

money. I didn't get a reply.

I definitely sent it to the right bank

number. Just would be nice to have a

message. And then how do I know that the

car's mine officially? Maybe they have to

prepare documents.

Imagine I sent it to the wrong person and

I'm like, Mom, can I borrow another 10K?

I lost the other one. That'll be a

nightmare.

Yeah, it'd just be nice if I got some

confirmation that the money was received.

It might be processing.

Really, really annoying day today.

Usually when you finish your delivery, it

will show up in the app how much you made,

but I didn't. It still says zero.

And the boss hasn't replied. Like, what—

let's— what's going on today? It's like

everyone's ghosting me and ignoring me.

It's so irritating.

Where's my confirmation for the car money?

Where's the reply from the boss? Where's

the thing saying the money I made today?

Why did I show up at work and there was no

one there for like an hour?

Oh, it was so frustrating.

But then after about an hour and a half,

people did start showing up. A few of the

van guys arrived. Just don't— I don't

understand because usually everyone's

there already around 8 o'clock.

The first time I went there and there was

no one there, it was so strange.

Do I miss the Thai condo?

I wonder if my fingerprint still works for

the entry— entrance. I wonder if she went

into the security room and then told them

to remove it. Let myself in.

Any news from Sunny? Nope,

no news. She blocked my other number.

I forgot her hair straighteners. Do you

think I should post it back to her? Put a

little letter saying, give me

back my laundry.

Bet she put my laundry in the bin.

I want my trousers back. Those are my

favorite trousers. I never had trousers I

liked so much.

Knew I shouldn't have given her my

laundry.

Never trust your belongings with a woman

because you won't get them back if you

fight while she has them.

Why is the market crashing?

Oh, SPY down to 587.

Told you market's crashing.

I think I'm about to get accepted onto

Deliveroo. They confirmed my background

check. I wonder if the delivery's dead

But yeah, apart from the weirdness in the

morning, the rest of the shift was fine,

I guess. Apart from one house was really

weird to get to. It was like in the middle

of nowhere with this really weird trail

that leads to it. All private property.

I hate those places, you know, like a

really big house in the middle of the

woods and it's really far from the road,

and then you've got to go down some trail

and you need to be near the house for the

app to work, otherwise the app will say

you are too far from the house. But

there's a gate, so you need to get past

the gate, otherwise you can't get near the

house physically.

Tomorrow I gotta go food shopping. I've

only got enough food for one more

carbonara.

She's probably watching right now. Then

give me back my laundry.

Better be clean or

else I'm gonna eat all your Nutella.

Gonna smear it over my body for OnlyFans.

Oh crap, I gotta pay rent in 4 days. Good

thing I increased my overdraft limit to

$1,500.

Better get some fat money from my new job.

On the 15th.

Wild, you have 20k debt to the campster.

Yeah.

Yeah, kind of went a bit— so in the end,

I guess my mum did buy me a car. I was all

proud saying, oh, I don't need my mum, I

can get my own car.

If she just lent me the money in the first

place and I bought it in cash, I could

have bought it for $13K. The car

would have cost me nearly $19K if I stuck

with the PCP contract.

Luckily I got it down to 15K by getting an

early settlement.

Yeah, so I'm gonna have to go into

overdraft to pay rent because I used my

YouTube money to pay my credit card

instead. Should we just

start knocking out the smallest amounts?

Like, I can just get the IKEA loan

destroyed, probably.

Having to pay rent's really annoying,

slows down everything else.

You definitely need your mother. No, I

don't. Can stand on my own two feet,

actually.

Didn't I just get 10K? Yeah, but I used it

to buy my car.

Borrow more money off Cami, clear all the

debt. Yeah, Mom, I'm gonna borrow another

5K.

Hmm, yeah, but then I'll just end up owing

my mum all the money instead of owing

different credit cards.

Really weird how the boss hasn't replied

to me. Do you think he took

the day off, or did my message get buried?

Usually he'd reply straight away.

Maybe my message got buried, but I think

even if it was his day off, he would

reply. Apart from that other time

it was his day off. And he didn't reply

until the afternoon.

Just— I don't really know what I'm

supposed to be doing sometimes.

He has hundreds of thousands in

inheritance to use. I wish.

I really recommend my car. I really think

if you're gonna get a car, why would you

not get an electric car? And if you're

gonna get an electric car that's not too

expensive, I think it's a pretty good car

and it's only about £12K. You can get it

as cheap as £10K if it's got some mileage

on it. Yeah, you could get a £5K

petrol, but then after a couple years of

buying petrol, you end up paying more in

petrol than what you would have paid for

the electric car. I really like my car.

I wouldn't get another car. I mean, I

wouldn't get any other car if I had to

choose again.

Yeah, but you do need to have a place to

park your car near your house so you can

plug it in. But even then,

I don't know, having to public charge is

really annoying because you gotta sit

there for like 40 minutes and

then you gotta plan your charging around

everything you do.

I accidentally left my heating on all day

when I was out. That cost me £1.20.

But if you don't do a lot of driving,

then I guess petrol is better,

because then you get, get a cheap car and

you're not driving much anyway. It's just

that I drive a lot because that's what I

do for work.

It's kind of difficult really. It really

depends on your personal situation,

but I think if you're doing delivery work,

it makes sense to get an electric vehicle.

God, there's no updates. It's like my

phone is not connected to the internet or

something and nothing's happening.

Isn't it weird though, when Sunny blocked

my mum on my mum's WhatsApp, there was no

picture next to Sunny's name, but Sunny

blocked me as well, but I still see her

picture next to her name. Why do you think

I wonder if I can click on her profile.

Yeah, I can still click on it. Oh,

now it's gone.

Okay, yeah, it's gone now. It went when I

clicked on her name. Now it just

says Sunny.

Fucking annoying when people block you.

Block her back. Well, last time before,

I blocked her, didn't I? And then she went

to— she went and sent a message to

my phone number, and now this time she's

blocking me.

I feel pissed when people block me.

Well, I did block Mila, didn't I? When me

and Mila broke up, Mila was like writing a

bunch of stuff and then I just blocked her

and I went live.

So I can still see all the photos me and

Sunny sent each other.

But you can't see the videos. The videos

just don't play.

Blocked.

Yep, blocked.

Typical British woman.

You're both so childish with the blocking.

Yeah, last time we had the fight, she sent

me a screenshot when we made up, and it

was like a screenshot of you block Daniel,

you unblock Daniel, you block Daniel, you

unblock Stan. Like she was unblocking me

and blocking me and unblocking me over and

over again. Like she couldn't make up her

mind. I don't know if she did that this

Why does my mom keep texting me?

My mum said go to her house and get your

laundry. No,

that'll be weird. What if her mum's there

and she's like, she don't want to see you,

Daniel, fuck off.

I bet her mum's like big and butch and

loud.

Well, I've got a bunch of her stuff. What

if she says I stole her stuff? Maybe she

could say, oh, he could come around

anytime to come pick it up.

She's just mad because she couldn't get

what she wanted from me and then blocked

Get a new ginger girlfriend. Uh, nah,

I'd rather not date any more gingers.

I have not had a good experience with the

3 that I did date.

Why not a normal girl? Well, that would be

nice, wouldn't it?

Which gingers did I date? I had 2 British

girlfriends back in 2022 that

I was dating at the same time.

They were both also very into video

games and like superhero movies, Marvel.

And one was like really into this monster

card game. They seemed more nerdy than

other girls.

Yeah, banned on all the dating apps.

Maybe I can sneak back on if I get a new

phone. I've got a bunch of new numbers

anyway. Um, I don't know

if they have facial recognition. Maybe

I've aged and the facial recognition

doesn't recognize my old pictures anymore

from with my current face.

I don't really care. I'll just stay

single. It's just a bit boring,

you know? Focusing on work is fine and

everything, but you're not gonna be

working all day. You're gonna have times

where you're at home and you've got

nothing else to do, like weekends,

evening. It'll be nice to have someone Now

I'm actually completely alone,

which kind of sucks.

I thought maybe I could do like a Sunday

class pottery,

try and do some socializing. But then it

costs money, doesn't it? I don't want to

spend money.

You can do what you like if you're alone.

Not really, because the things I want to

do can't be done alone. Like cuddling

on the sofa and watch a movie and have a

meal together.

I can't really do that alone.

I cuddle myself.

Yeah, like this.

And I was getting into the show, The

Handmaid's Tale. I was getting into it.

You only want the good parts of a

relationship? Oh yeah, why would I want

the bad parts?

My entertainment budget.

Yeah, I don't really spend any money on

entertainment.

For entertainment, I just— I've watched—

been watching Ice Poseidon on Kick

recently. It's just like brain rot,

mindless stupid content.

He poured a can of beer on the head of

this Japanese girl and she started

screaming. It's just Kind

of silly.

You need to be there for your partner.

Yeah, I would have been if she wasn't

mean. If she wasn't rude to me,

then I would have been more than happy to

go and pick her up. If she asked nicely

and said, can I stay the night with you,

Daniel? I don't want to be with my mum

tonight. And being sweet and nice.

But no, she like gets mad and then the

fangs come out and then I'm like, I don't

want to do it then if you're going to be

Why? She never— she's like, she can't just

be nice. She always gets

all moody and angry and then she starts

saying— she starts being mean to me.

Like last time she called me the shittest

boyfriend ever.

Yeah, I didn't really want to because I

was tired and it was late and raining a

lot and had work the next day.

Um, but if she asked nicely and she was

sweet about it, then I would have been

like, okay. But then

she started getting all angry with me,

and then I was like, okay, fuck off then.

This is the problem I have with my mum.

Like, my mum also doesn't

ask nicely, and then I get mad, and then I

don't want to do it.

She said Oh, I was expecting

you to say, don't worry, Sunny, I'll come

and pick you up. We'll sort this out

together. When I literally said

a few scrolls up in the comments, I

literally said, you can stay at my place

if you want. But she didn't say anything

to that.

She ignored it when I said, you can stay

at my place.

So why would I think she wanted to come

over tonight when she didn't say anything

to my invitation?

I didn't know when she wanted to come

over. I just said, you can stay at my

place if you want. She didn't say anything

to that. She just carried on typing her

thing, and then she started going, oh, I

expect— silly of me to expect you to Say

you'll be okay, Shani.

When I literally did say I would let you

stay at my place. It's just I wasn't keen

on the whole got to take you to work bit.

Keep repeating the same story. Yeah,

because it's really annoying. You keep

saying, oh, you should have gone and

picked her up. I offered to.

Will you do a custom video with the dildo

I sent you for $50? It's 12.5

inches long. Do you think you can handle

it? I don't mind if you shit yourself

while using it. No, I'll probably put it

in the bin. I don't really want a dildo.

I feel so annoyed about it, that's all.

Because she's— she dumped me and broke up

with me and blocked me and blamed me for

not doing this thing that I literally

offered to do before she started getting

pissy at me.

It's like when she got mad at me saying

that I should have asked the Airbnb guy in

the morning for the refund in person,

when I, I literally just said I

did ask him. It's like I say stuff and

then she doesn't pay attention.

I just said I asked the Airbnb man in the

morning. I just talked to him. He says

you've got to do it through the resolution

center. And then a few minutes later she's

saying, oh, if you didn't piss off the

Airbnb guy,

why couldn't you have asked him in the

morning and put— I fucking did! Maybe if

you listen to what I'm saying.

Remember she got all pissy at me over the

Airbnb thing, saying I,

I upset him. I didn't upset him.

I'm not a prisoner. I don't have to stay

at the Airbnb. I can leave if I want to.

It's like she doesn't listen because

she's in a mood and like she's, she's got

this weird perception of reality that

isn't real. In her mind, for some reason,

she thought I didn't ask him in person

when I just told her I did ask her in

person.

I hate getting blamed and attacked for

things, accusing me of not doing something

that I did do, and I just told you I did

it. That's what my mum does.

I kind of wish I could make like an Asian

noodle soup with beef and bean sprouts

and a little bit of lettuce. I feel like

I'm craving that for some reason.

I think I'm gonna go buy ingredients

tomorrow for it. Bean sprouts, ramen,

Maybe it's just ramen.

God, I keep thinking of this ramen soup

dish Fasta brought home one time. It was

so good. It was like really soft, juicy

beef that just melted in your mouth on top

of noodles in

a broth, like a light broth. With bean

sprouts, green onions. Stop being silly

saying you throw it in the bin. You might

as well keep it for when the mood strikes

you and you want the pleasure of a giant

member hitting your prostate. Best feeling

ever. Yeah, but I just use my finger and

then I don't have to spend all this time

easing it in.

Yeah, kind of like pho, but without the

faux noodles. I don't like the faux

noodles. I like round, but I don't like

udon. That's too thick. Something thin and

squiggly with a bit of springiness.

I don't like those flat floppy noodles.

What's the plan to get Sunny back? Well,

the thing that always works before was

just— I endlessly complained about her on

stream, and then that would prove that I

care. That's always

gotten her back before.

Who's Alice Pouser?

That Chelsea Faulkner girl, she definitely

doesn't watch anymore.

Haven't seen her comment since the

Manchester days, and she didn't even offer

to meet up when I was in Manchester, and I

think she's from around Manchester. All

these girls.

When you sharpen that area, they, they

don't want to know.

Ungrateful to throw away a present someone

got you. Yeah, but I don't want a dildo.

Couldn't you just got me some pot noodle?

You went on my Reddit and what

did you see?

What happened to the chubby Asian girl who

lived in LA? She wasn't chubby, she was

completely slim. I blocked her because she

was annoying. She kept saying, oh Daniel,

I booked a ticket to Manchester, and the

next day she'll say Oh, Daniel, I canceled

it. Sorry. She kept doing that.

The, uh, what's her name? Tamago Yuna

something. She has a Pornhub. She has like

a million followers on Pornhub now. She

went super viral on Pornhub. She got

millions of views. She must be making

loads on OnlyFans. Oh, Erica Thomas

Shino. Yeah, that was a different one.

She, she did The Hub as well,

didn't she? She made that video saying, I

would have cereal with Daniel. She looked

crazy. She had like the dead eyes,

the dead face.

Don't know what happened to her. She

There was a girl in Cornwall that kept

messaging me, but she seemed weird, and I

couldn't tell if it was actually a girl or

someone trolling. She would send me

messages like, choke me, daddy.

And then she would ask me to send dick

pics, and I couldn't tell if that was

actually her or if it was like a fake

person. But it was just weird. I'm not

really into like the, I'm gonna choke you

out, little girl. I'm not really into

that. Not really into violence.

I kept ignoring her, but she kept

messaging me.

It's just weird.

Why do they want me to choke them?

Yeah, I'm not into rough cereal.

I like passionate with kissing

and bum touching.

And quickies in the afternoon whilst my

family's out of the house. Me and Sonny

did that often. We'd go up

to game and then my mum was out, and then

before we started gaming, I'd be like,

okay, pants down, and then gaming.

Getting hungry now.

My hule didn't come today with the

I can't believe Sunny blocked me though,

and now it doesn't even have a picture.

Although she did say when we were in

Japan, she She's not the type to do the

whole, you know, sit down, have a talk,

and break up properly. She said she would

I wouldn't usually block unless They

keep going on and on, and I'm fed up of

hearing them say— Remember when Lachlan

was choking Chihiro and he forced his

Australian willy up her tight bum? She

enjoyed it so much she went back for more.

Yes, weird women enjoy that. They kind of

like it when the guy makes them do stuff.

And when the guy doesn't ask for

permission, they see it as confidence.

But I thought you're supposed to ask for

verbal consent.

Damn, if only I knew that trick, I could

have found out if she blocked me before

Saturday. If only I clicked on her name.

I thought she didn't block me because I

could still see her face next to her

picture, but I could still

see her face up until I just clicked on

her name and then it disappeared.

So who knows when she actually blocked me.

She blocked you when she blocked your mum?

Really? Do you think so? Because that was

like Wednesday or Thursday, but she

didn't remove me from Steam until

Saturday. Do you think she blocked me

first and then remembered Steam and then

unremoved me from the family?

I thought she blocked me on Saturday

because that's when I got the Steam

notification. I thought we weren't

breaking up because she didn't remove me

from the Steam thing. But I

guess when she said the trust is gone,

what's the point then? That was like,

we're breaking up.

How is the trust gone just because I

didn't go pick her up?

So silly.

How about the trust being gone when you

say you went on a date after we had our

last fight?

I just let that slide.

Didn't she say it was a half-truth? What

did she mean? Yeah, I don't know. I didn't

think it was worth digging into it because

I was just glad that we fixed things. I

was glad she was there. I didn't really

want to make a big fuss out of it.

Yeah, maybe it did happen,

and then she regretted saying that it

happened, so she tried to backstep.

Maybe she actually did go on a date and

then she told me that and admitted it to

hurt me. But then when we got back

together, she was like, oh crap, I

shouldn't have admitted that. Pretend it

was a half-truth.

Because if it was completely a lie, then

she would have just said, oh, that was

just a lie. But then why wouldn't she just

lie and say it's a lie? Why say it's a

half-truth? Just say it was completely not

the truth, I just said it to hurt you.

It's weird.

Why do I want her back? Because I

think the reason for breaking up is really

and it's not fair that— it's

not fair that I can't defend myself.

It was like a one-sided breakup.

And then she won't even let me explain.

Didn't you have a week before she blocked

you? Well, I messaged her on Monday saying

sorry about what happened, and then she

just said, oh, it's too late, but thanks

for the apology. I'll drop off your

laundry later this week, and then she

never dropped it off. So what else was I

supposed to say? She didn't accept my

apology. I didn't know she

was gonna block me.

I wonder if she ever had any intentions of

coming. Maybe I should have said, I mean,

someone did say to me, aren't you going to

follow up the next morning and say, so are

you, when are you going to come? I bet the

guy she went on a date with is seeing her

now and that's why she blocked you and

your mum. SH is probably having quickies

after he picks her up from work. Would you

still take her back if the guy's cream was

still inside her leaking in her panties?

I really don't think she's that kind of

Danny has to send more WhatsApp messages

to Sunny because messages sent while

you're blocked will never arrive. You only

know if she unblocked you if you send more

messages. Really?

So if she unblocks me, the message I sent

when I was blocked will never get sent.

What if I just send her like a random

letter? M.

Still 1 tick.

Next letter, Y.

Next letter, L. Ayy,

you, my laundry.

Where's my underwear? I've been wearing

the same stinking underwear and socks for

2 weeks now.

People can probably smell it.

Bet she's sniffing it at night.

No, if someone blocks you, it means they

don't want to talk to you. You can't show

up at their house and force them to.

They'll just call the police. That's

She phoned me on that night when I was

streaming, remember? I went into the

kitchen and then she didn't even let me

say 2 words and then she hung up on me.

She said, why are you ignoring me? I said,

because you've angered me. And she said,

I'm not angry, I'm just upset. Same thing.

Email her.

Yeah, well, then she'll just block my

email. Message her on Steam.

Last time I blocked her and

then she sent me that long message and

then I blocked her number, but then I

phoned her and then she picked up the

phone. So last time it was like I was the

one blocking her. But she picked up the

phone last time. This time she blocked my

number so I can't phone her.

And the phone, it rang a few times before

she blocked my second number too.

Have you ever been broken up with like

this before?

Not really.

With Chihiro, I didn't block her.

We didn't block each other. It all played

out over YouTube, didn't it? Basically,

she just said, I want to get divorced,

and I said, okay, and then I packed my

stuff when she was at work and I booked a

ticket to Korea. And we didn't

She didn't— she didn't, like, beg to talk.

There was not really anything to talk

about. And then all the ugliness came out.

Remember the Hong Kong guy streams?

And then I said the thing about her

brother. And then with Meila, I blocked

her. And after we— after I stormed out of

her house, we never talked again.

I never, I never tried to like message

Mila and phone her and beg her. I just

blocked her and I moved on. She was just

too much trouble and I was just fed up of

Netherlands.

I don't know why this time is kind of

frustrating. Maybe it's because all the

other times I was happy with breaking up.

Like, I wouldn't— I wasn't bothered about

breaking up with Chihiro. I wanted to get

divorced. I was fed up with

Mina. And then with Fasta,

I chose to break up, didn't I?

But this time I didn't choose to break up.

I don't want to break up.

I don't feel like it's fair that she

dumped me for those reasons.

So yeah, I feel unsatisfied.

It's like when you're about to sneeze,

but you don't sneeze, and then it doesn't

It's totally fair. It's not.

How is it fair?

I offered that she can come stay with me.

I don't see what the problem is. Okay, I

ignored her, but that was only because she

was getting mad at me and I didn't want to

talk to her when she was mad at me. I

thought maybe just let her calm down.

You didn't pick her up? I offered to pick

her up. I said you can stay at my place.

And she didn't say anything. And then 5

minutes later she says, oh, I expect— oh,

silly me to expect you to say I'll come

pick you up. I literally just offered you

that you could come stay at my place.

She didn't say pick me up. She said,

She said, I'm upset with myself for

expecting a, don't worry, Sunny, we'll

work something out. I'll pick you up in a

few hours and we'll work it out.

Yeah, I didn't say those exact words, but

I said, if you— you can stay at my place

if you want.

Why would I just say, oh, I'm coming now,

so I need to come pick you up, pack your

bags. Why would I say that unless you

asked me to do it? She wants me

to take the initiative. I don't take the

initiative. If you didn't say,

come pick me up in a few hours, I'm not

going to say I'm coming to pick you up in

a few hours. She wanted me to say,

I'm going to come pick you up.

It'll be okay.

Why would I offer to pick you up when I

feel like I didn't have to and

I didn't know you wanted me to?

That's the problem. Like, I want, I want

directions and I want instructions. She

wants me to say stuff without directions.

So we're just always going to have this

She wants a leader, and I'm not very good

She said she didn't like it when we would

be discussing what to have for dinner and

I would always say, up to you, or I don't

My mum hates that as well. When I say I

don't know, it really triggers my mum when

I say I don't know.

Yeah, but when I, when I take the

initiative and I make a decision, and it's

not the right decision, then they get

pissed. Like, I took the decision to not

go and pick her up and ignore her, but it

was the wrong decision.

I didn't know I was expected to offer to

go and pick her up. I thought she would

tell me she wanted picking up. If that's

what she wanted, not sit there waiting for

me to say, I'm going to come pick you up

now, because I said you can come stay at

my place. Then the logical next step would

be, okay, can you pick me up now or in an

hour? That's, that's how it goes. Like, I

give you the invitation and then you, you

agree or you disagree with it. And then if

you agree, then you give me specifics like

what time, When we

just always miscommunicate. That's the

This is what I want to say. And I said

that to her. I said, I did say you can

stay at my place, but she just ignored it.

She just ignored it and said, oh, those

were the apology, I guess.

And she ignored my reasoning and then

blocked me.

No, I did mean it. I would have liked

it if she came over and stayed for a bit,

but I didn't want to take her to work.